becoming the person you want to be 🤍 (my origin story)

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In this solo video podcast, I'm sharing my story of overcoming self doubt, finding my authentic voice, and becoming the person that I wanted to be. I'm celebrating 10 years since I released my first album Honestly-and reflecting on who I was in that point in time, and how it led to who I am today. Towards the end I also share advice for creatives. I hope you enjoyed this more personal + musical story. Thank you for listening!
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I’m Aileen, a lifestyle creator sharing knowledge and inspiration on creating your dream life.
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@lavendaire 6 месяцев назад

✨ Plan your most intentional & successful year with the 2024 Artist of Life Workbook, a powerful guided journal for achieving your dream life → lavendaire.com/workbook

@Sweetieee 5 месяцев назад

No the aren’t these songs on Spotify? 🥲 I need them in my life

@eshaaaa 7 месяцев назад

hi aileen. idk if you're going to read this but you have changed my life forever. I found you 4 years ago and I have been consistently a different person. I saw you and knew that i wanted to be like you. I started my own startup here in India and even though im still figuring things out, i am very grateful for you as you have supported and inspired me on every step of my journey. Thank you❤

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

proud of you ✨ grateful that you're here!

@fatemeh14fatima21 7 месяцев назад

I am 33 and feel all of those thoughts and feelings that you experienced 10 years ago. I feel i am at the lowest points of my life and this video is healing. Your voice, lyrics in fact your songs are shouting what I have in my mind right now. Thank you. 🌿

@celifur 7 месяцев назад

I’m 21 years old now, and I’m feeling so confused and lost right now. I write songs and always want to be a writer, but in the uni i am no longer sure now. I just want you to know how much you inspired me and taught me to find peace with myself and my state right now. I now understand that it is normal to feel lost in my early 20s and it’s ok not to have all the answers. Thank you Aileen for the lovely video, since I find we have so much in common and you are living a inspiring and beautiful life❤.

@karolinasobisz5968 6 месяцев назад

I’m feeling the same type of way. I’m going to be 25 next week, and I feel like I’m falling over the stones on my path. I get up but keep falling. This has been a few days for me. Quite harder than usual. But, if someone else found a purpose, so will we 😊🫶

@Whereisnuky 7 месяцев назад

You've created such a strong platform that has been inspirational, loving and safe. I feel the world needs that now more than ever and I can see your music growing. The second song in particular gave me the chills-in a way that was so uplifting. That was the first time listening to it and if you hadn't mentioned it was from 10 yrs ago, I would not have even known. The message is so clear and it resonates even for me now. Growing up I didn't have a lot of mentors or people I looked up to that looked like me (I'm Asian American and grew up in the 80s) It's beautiful to see someone like you exist in this time in life and how wonderful it is for the younger gen as well. To be able to uplight and speak high vibrational volumes to your audience on your channel then to have your singing voice and songs to echo your soul. What a delight for the world : )

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

what a beautiful compliment!! 🥹💖 thank you for your kind words

@Whereisnuky 7 месяцев назад

Thank you for being you! Your videos have helped me through some tough times ❤️

@ivanas442 7 месяцев назад

Both songs are lovely! I'm 31 and I realized with having soo many interest I never gave myself the proper time to explore each path properly. I've always felt lost. I want to dedicated my time allowing me to explore weekly (digital art, embroidery, traditional art, coding ect). Thank you for sharing your journey I feel that your songs resonate with where I'm currently at in my life. Figuring out who i am & what I want.

@mounikavarma1176 7 месяцев назад

You, Your voice , your smile everything spreads positivity. Love from INDIA 🇮🇳

@flyleelee5351 7 месяцев назад

This was actually very inspirational for me as I've pushed back my artistic creative side to do something more "adult". I'm in my 30s and these past 5 years I've been pretty depressed, in my search for a career I like. I went back to school and still struggling to find a job. Now I'm wondering what I should do. I rehashed my old SoundCloud account and felt so happy to hear my old music, it literally cured my depression just listening to it in that moment. So now I know I have to be my authentic creative self, but I'm nervous to. I feel like I need to be practical and find a serious job. I'm at my parents house and feel like it's impractical.

@melissamoonchild9216 7 месяцев назад

if you are at your parents house, now is the very best time to invest your time into your passions. get a part time job and make music the rest of the time. take your shot. ❤

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

I totally feel you ❤️ hope you can find ways to explore your creativity & express yourself. You deserve it

@Permissi0nSlip 6 месяцев назад

If you can like the other person mentioned maybe do part time job but also make sure that your in a healthy environment. Otherwise it’ll be hard to create. Unless you can go to a quiet place outside.

@Permissi0nSlip 6 месяцев назад

Also I resonate deeply

@artluvs 7 месяцев назад

cried while watching this.. you are so inspiring to all of us Asian girlies . love you lots

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

🥹🫶 thank u love

@fatema40880 7 месяцев назад

Honestly, you are exceptional! I have just turned 23, I have been following you since I was 15 or 16. When I had my own money in 2020, I bout the artist of life workbook and have been a fan of it since then, buying it every year. Lots of love from Saudi Arabia ❤

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

Aww grateful that you’re here! 🫶

@chenzom.n 7 месяцев назад

HONESTLY ! Aileen is the bestest guide & mentor ever. HONESTLY! Aileen's voice and the song are perfect! HONESTLY! YOU'RE THE BEST AILEEN XU! Sis ❤ ( ps : your song made me emotional but your voice made me happier)

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

Aw you’re the best! Thank you 🥹❤️

@Soulful_luv 7 месяцев назад

These songs are amazing! They need to be our anthem when we forget who we are. your so amazing and you are example that even though we may have our dark nights we can also rise from the ashes.

@MelisaRodriguezS 7 месяцев назад

you are awesome Aileen, you project so much peace and hope for the future! Thank you for what you do!

@louiseadair9839 7 месяцев назад

Thank you so much for this!! I needed this so much. I turned 36 last month and I feel like I am finally starting to live my dreams. This has inspired me to be more creative and become the woman I know I can be. ❤ much love to you ❤ you are so inspirational ❤

@dohlia9356 7 месяцев назад

Thank you so much, I am at that beginning point in my life where I want to try fighting for my dreams. I have had lots of struggles, but it's messages like this that help me to keep going.

@ozgeonay764 7 месяцев назад

Your voice and the song are just so pure ❤

@k.6160 6 месяцев назад

Wow, you have a beautiful voice!!!😢 I got choked up watching you.

@itsdhanvi. 7 месяцев назад

Lots of love from India 💗🇮🇳🪷

@_ART_WoRKS_ 7 месяцев назад

Hey, i am also from India, from which state are you from

@swatikamble 7 месяцев назад

❤

@imalyzathymia 7 месяцев назад

It's truly admirable, Aileen, how u turned your setbacks around. That instead of dwelling about negativities, you turned it into an art that you're now been creating for years. You are such an inspiration!! I remember when I first stumbled upon ur yt channel, I was at my lowest that time around 2018-2020. I was so grateful to have learned so much from u Now, I'm again at my lowest point of my life, it's not easy the second time around but I feel like I can handle it better this time. It's all bc i can always go back to u and ur videos and it gives me strength. You are our home, Aileen! 🙏

@Soulful_luv 7 месяцев назад

This was so beautiful in so many ways! I needed to hear this.

@nfornicole 7 месяцев назад

I was emotional watching you get emotional 🥹 I know that feeling of looking back on a difficult time and seeing how far we've come. I love how you always get vulnerable with your thoughts and emotions. I think you've said you're an introvert and I also know the feeling of not wanting to do things but trying to be brave 💖 thank you for sharing!!

@blurrysoul9461 7 месяцев назад

Hello Aileen. Your album Honestly makes me cry. It's such an inspiring beautiful and emotional song, i could feel how much you got it rough there. And there's something so freeing after you sing the song. It's a really big decision to finally choose to brave, and you did a very well that day. Until now, honestly. It touch my soul, i really find you as a source of inspiration in my life. Been lots of years i watch your videos, and i truly glad that i get to find your channel. ❤ thanks for showing up and being who you are always! Thanks for spreading the light!! ❤ take care always🩶

@vaishnavib2863 7 месяцев назад

your voice is just perfect!!! and the lyrics it made me cry..because i'm going through this self doubt phase for a long time and being not okay with myself. But this video makes me hopeful.

@reinalynjoycumpio 7 месяцев назад

Thank you for always sharing light, life and love. 💜

@hetvirana 7 месяцев назад

YOU'RE CREATING SUCH A GREAT AND POSITIVE IMPACT ON MANY PEOPLE'S LIVES! SO PROUD OF U

@isabellaguimaraes8723 7 месяцев назад

You're sooo talented. Everything you do is made with perfection.

@blainethemono19 7 месяцев назад

I recently started following you. You're a great person to listen to and I appreciate you.

@grasmuelliece 7 месяцев назад

as someone who works in art and music i do really feel you, i’ve been through periods of artist/writer resistance as you said and yeah its just awful bcs it stops you from even trying 🥲😥🫠 and that desire to be so so perfect do more harm than good. been through it, sometimes i still find myself in it :(, so yeah i really feel you and i hope you’ll overcome this ❤ thanks for sharing your story 🥺💕 and your channel’s so pretty btw

@kryscynthiaf 7 месяцев назад

You know what Aileen, I've been watching this while I was eating, and the first song, Honestly, choked my throat and tears are starting to pooling up in my eyes. It resonates so much with me since I've been doubting myself for my whole life and not believing in myself :""""( thank you for sharing this, means a lot to me.

@oamahana 7 месяцев назад

I literally cried with you when while listening to your song "Honestly".. I'm 16 years old, and I found myself so much in your lyrics. So thank you so much ❤

@4WheelRC 6 месяцев назад

There is a very strong message in this video that will reach many. Adopting this type of mindset has changed my life. Thank you for sharing your experience and your beautiful. well written music.

@houseofflava7614 7 месяцев назад

Beautiful Ms. L. Hope those are tears of happiness. I get through my days with your 15 minutes morning meditation, so kudos to you for what you give to the Universe! Ase!

@dreamylife8348 7 месяцев назад

What a voice❤❤just so pure and heart touching!! Proud of you allen of how far have you reached and inspired so many of us to become a better version of ourself ❤️🌻💐

@darina_lilia 6 месяцев назад

Wow, your comment is so inspiring!! I'm so happy for you! Keep enjoying your life and discovering yourself ♡

@helenstratigos4862 7 месяцев назад

You're genuinely talented! Your music is gorgeous and inspirational. Please keep putting it out there. Love from Canada.💗

@varsharanimusic 7 месяцев назад

I had imagined a lot of things in my life and still imagining that desires that I want in my life. Thank you so much for this video. It really helped me a lot to reach that destination. Bless me for my future ❤

@lifewithcath 7 месяцев назад

Your songs are really inspiring. Listening to it reminds of my early 20s wanting to become someone and now still struggling to become THAT someone. Thanks for sharing this :) You've just made me realize I should get back up and get going again :)

@azizamergerson4668 7 месяцев назад

Well I basically cried through the whole video. I guess it made me take a look at my life and realize something has to give. I just recently lost a friendship that was really meaningful in my life. I never thought it would end up like that and I'm still suffering through the hurt and betrayal of it. This year I felt like I wasn't connected to my goals or myself so I'm trying to figure out what it is that I want. I just recently got my third artist of life workbook for 2024. I have been thinking about what I want for myself for this new year and how to really connect with my wants and needs for my life. Thanks for posting this it's been a helpful guide for me ❤

@Sunlinn3009 7 месяцев назад

I’ve been following you on youtube since I was an undergraduate at university and now when I turned 30 I am still here listening to and watching you with a great gratitude and appreciation for so much values and beautiful things you bring everyone including me. I love your voice and everything you exude, my gorgeous and talented Asian American sister! ❤️ lots of love from Hanoi, Vietnam!

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

ahh thank you! sending you lots of love 💛

@eliussangchoju6410 7 месяцев назад

When i feel lost i listen to you . Your voice and ur teachings i would love to hear it forever 🤍

@jaaymark 7 месяцев назад

happy belated birthday aileen! always love listening about how much you've grown. 💛

@user-xy6hs4tw9p 7 месяцев назад

You have such a beautiful, clear and touching voice; your lyrics are powerful as well. You have more talent than many popular music artists 🌟. Thanks for sharing your art with us. You are a true gift & you’re helping so many people🌸🌞

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

🫶🫶🫶

@mennaloaii2381 7 месяцев назад

So much love I truly enjoy your videos daily❤❤❤

@thelostlolli91 7 месяцев назад

I feel so inspired now, thank you for sharing your story 💜

@savannah3355 6 месяцев назад

Wow “ The war “ it’s absolutely amazing !!! The lyrics are very interesting and perfect story telling. You could not have said it better as you did here. You’re so creative L I love it and it’s my number 1 song right now. Thank you 😊

@SaintOrCinema 7 месяцев назад

Wow. This was such a powerful insight into your past and your psyche. I LOVED it and Lavendaire actually changed my life. Completely altered the way I viewed success and balance. Thank you for everything and I can’t wait to see what you do next X

@queenmustang 7 месяцев назад

You’re such a beautiful soul Aileen thank you for sharing your heart 💜

@AnnaQuirky 7 месяцев назад

Girlie, watching you listening to honestly and tearing up was beautiful. Your life's journey since then must've played in your mind and girl, what a journey it must have been. As you enter into a new year, may it be one where you live honestly and authentically you. Life is beautiful huh. ❤

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

same for you 💖

@susanmorris5520 7 месяцев назад

Hi Aileen (aka Lavendaire). It has been so many years that I have watched any videos of yours but this video was wonderful and you sure do have an awesome voice and I’m gonna definitely check out other songs from you. I always did like to hear your encouraging words and you are definitely one very smart young lady and you definitely have touched a lot of lives over the years since you first launched Lavendaire. Keep up the great work and I feel that none of us are ever gonna be free from trial and heartache too but they are a teaching tool for us to learn and know how to grow and become our absolute authentic selves. I love how you stopped becoming a people pleaser and just being yourself cause I have finally done thst and if I may say, it is very empowering and freeing too. God bless you and I’m definitely gonna start watching you again and I have always thought about you since the last time I watched your videos and I’m sure I’m older then you but, I am definite that you can and will teach me a lot and even help me too with life’s troubles and also people’s stupidity too. God bless you and I send you hugs always. Your voice is so beautiful too. Sue M. Clearwater, Florida 🥰❤️😘😊👏🏻👏🏻👍🏻🙏❌⭕️

@Dara-Favour 7 месяцев назад

Honestly, Aileen, you have no idea how much you've helped me, I'm currently in a phase of becoming who my heavenly father has created me to be, this year has been a series of ups and downs betrayal from family, struggling to forgive them and regain my self worth and trust but now you start posting this ❤ God didn't do a mistake when he led me to your channel, love from Nigeria 😭🤍

@qubyyyy 7 месяцев назад

The tip for consistency "even if bad" is such a helpful one. I'll definitely try, even though in times of inner resistance. Thank you.

@putrimardikar 7 месяцев назад

I'M CRYING 😭😭 your song is soooo beautiful. It's so honestttt

@RanziYasasvi 7 месяцев назад

Your songs are so beautiful and full of meanings. Love to see this musical side of you too Aileen. I'm so proud of you dear. Lots of love from Sri Lanka

@brianarae119 7 месяцев назад

Your EP is AMAZING AND I LOVE THE MESSAGE IN EACH SONG!!! I JUST LOVE YOUUUUU ❤❤❤❤

@user-em6mn8tm2h 7 месяцев назад

This was such a touching story. Thank you for sharing it with us ❤❤

@callie3422 7 месяцев назад

Happy birthday I love you thank you for making so much of an impact on all of our lives, so grateful for u and ur words

@savannah3355 6 месяцев назад

So beautiful and this will give so much strength,hope and courage to a lot of people ❤

@tamikam.murray8844 7 месяцев назад

Girl you are such a beautiful and talented soul. Your songs resonate with me so strongly. I will be listening to them again. ❤

@nganha3456 7 месяцев назад

Without you, I can not become who I am today. You are the first person teaching me to love myself, to care about myself, to discover myself and create myself. Send big love to you, love you so much 💖💖💖

@kyrellfly 7 месяцев назад

Thank you for this vulnerable video podcast Aileen! 🎉❤ I'm thankful you created Lavendaire because when I first started following you last 2018, it was part of my journey to find myself during my mid-20s when I thought I was lost and what I'll do for the rest of my life. 😊 My fave song will be the 2nd one, The War. 🫶

@melinskey 7 месяцев назад

Hey, thank you so much for sharing this! It gave me hope and showed me that I can do it too. Thank you for the motivation! Lots of love!!!❤❤

@jimithebosshendrix4837 7 месяцев назад

I love the song and your voice is beautiful. The lyrics resonated so deeply with what I am currently going through. I'm trying to find the courage to leave an unhappy relationship that constantly brings sadness & anxiety to my life... Thank you for sharing your story. It inspires me...

@niahjoe5341 7 месяцев назад

Thank you for the constant inspiration ! ✨

@yashinisuppayah7992 6 месяцев назад

I love you Aileen! You are one of the person in my life i look up to!! I can relate to you so muchh that everything you say and share resonates with me! Thank you so much and continue to inspire 🤍😍

@lavendaire 6 месяцев назад

thank you for sharing love 🩷 i appreciate you!

@alicet7269 6 месяцев назад

Hello Lavendaire. Thank you for this video. Your voice is calm. Your war song made me tear up because the lyrics are what i am going through..."we are humans....it's ok to be weak". I agree, be our authentic self and continue to thrive and reach for our dreams. I recently became single and now feel lost and stuck as i spent the last six years with my partner and helped him raise his daughter. i want to find my way to what makes me happy and what is rewarding.

@draincilien9877 7 месяцев назад

day by day you are growing !

@wutyi7697 6 месяцев назад

I’ve been trying to find myself. Thank you for your videos. It helps me a lot.

@CarolinaCerqueira-qu8iy 7 месяцев назад

So much feeling...I could feel you through the song! Sending love from Brazil!

@lindsayhone5862 7 месяцев назад

Even though our life journeys are quite I can really relate to what you say. It’s great that there is someone out there expressing what of people are feeling. As a musician who likes to write music I feel exactly the same way. Keep shining😊

@FactQuiz824 7 месяцев назад

You are still an artist that you were before thank you for the inspiration you give me .

@italico2792 7 месяцев назад

Wow amazing! Love your songs. They literally describe my life and my past. Thanks for this video

@wilsonubi3922 7 месяцев назад

Thank you so much for this masterpiece.

@ariesphenix1 7 месяцев назад

Wow! Thank you so much for sharing this. These songs are so beautiful-it’s the kind of music I want to listen to! Uplifting from the heart powerful. ❤

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

thanks for your support 💖

@hashi9323 7 месяцев назад

i was obsessed with ur creative lyrics

@rock3tar 29 дней назад

“I had some moments of inspiration but most of it felt like pushing” This is so validating and encouraging to hear as a fellow creative (or aspiring creative at this point) :’))))

@The1DarlingEra 7 месяцев назад

Beautiful - especially to start the morning with to help start the day positively ❤

@clau_sing_ 7 месяцев назад

The War is full of life and emotion, a brilliant song Aileen ❤❤❤❤

@irenaafrida7185 7 месяцев назад

From 2020 i am watching your videos! They really helped & inspired me in corona time. ❤❤ Since then i am inspired to make videos or creating my dream life. Lots of love aileen ❤

@dexmamusicchannel9855 7 месяцев назад

I cried when I listened to the first song, you are so inspiring to me.thank you for sharing the video lots of love ❤️ thank you, thank you

@p.qtrang_05 7 месяцев назад

Oh, I love your songs and your voice so much. They're very beautiful 🥺💕

@bohoyogalight 7 месяцев назад

Thank u sooo much for your work and what are u sharing here with us🌸 💖 it is pleasure to here u and you story, cause it is resonate with me)

@SyriusOLsh 6 месяцев назад

This is so inspirational! Thank you for sharing 🙏❤️

@ya8774 6 месяцев назад

I love you Aileen💙 I cried and laughed with you💙 thank you, really 💙

@emilybertrand 7 месяцев назад

Thank you for sharing your story. It touched and inspired me. 🙂🫶 You’ve come so far. More is yet to come.

@user-mh5dd2nw1s 7 месяцев назад

Watching your videos is like a relaxation for me ❤

@goodlifewithjin3102 2 месяца назад

Hi Aileen, I'm a fan and been following you for almost 2 yrs. now. I remember your first video that really caught me was about burned out and it's OK to feel it and let it be. This is my first time to make a comment after watching heaps of your videos. I honestly have some goosebumps hearing your song. Such a beautiful song and the lyrics so inspiring. You are so blessed with gifts of wisdom and talents that inspires a lot of people and women in the world. Thanks for the inspiration. ❤️‍🔥

@lavendaire Месяц назад

thank you sweet Jin! I appreciate every single word you wrote love🩷

@drkaymd 7 месяцев назад

Listening to this on my birthday makes it so much more special for me. Thank you for sharing your raw self Alien. I love you girl. You have been really a guide to me and on my birthday I wanna say thank you for being you ❤

@lavendaire 6 месяцев назад

hope you had an amazing birthday love 🥰

@joycelatham6974 7 месяцев назад

Your music is wonderful. The War had me choked up. I really appreciate the messages you have written in your songs. I think the whole world could use more of those inspiring messages and your voice is beautiful. ❤ I will continue to follow your channel and watch you grow even more. Thank you for spreading solutions to life’s struggles. Keep these videos coming. 👏

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

Thank you so much!

@juleenschurr6045 7 месяцев назад

Thank you for sharing your story and your music ❤ As I’m also feeling pretty low in my life this year and I’m also on my way to being a singer I can relate so well especially to „Honestly“ and what you said about „fake it till you make it“ and writers block because of some kind of perfectionism… admiring you a lot for your journey and hope that I’ll also make it there someday! ✨

@lavendaire 7 месяцев назад

of course! i know you can ♡

@ritaww9203 5 месяцев назад

Not me crying while listening to your song 😭❤️ I love your sincerity and light that you share with the world 💖🙏🏻 Forever grateful!

@lavendaire 5 месяцев назад

aw you're so sweet 💜 thank YOU!

@jayatichakraborty9319 7 месяцев назад

Your voice is so soothing and beautiful ❤

@HEYYISHIIII 6 месяцев назад

The amount of love and respect I have for Aileen is endless.... Everytime I open this channel i feel this comfort that I can't explain i love you a lot LAVENDAIRE 💜🌸 Thank you so much for healing me and saving me 😭💘 I really hope I could meet you one day 🥺💜🌸 And thank you for making my life beautiful 🥺💜💎

@lavendaire 6 месяцев назад

thank you so much for your beautiful words ♡ it means so much!