"One day after my suicide" The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more, when I saw her crying on the floor of my room, embracing my clothes with my pictures scattered around her, I saw so much love beyond the tears in her eyes. The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard, in the midst of this great sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyes about how proud he was of me and how much he loved me. The day after my suicide. I saw that Tumble (my furry best friend) was more incredible than I could have ever imagined. Every time someone came home, he would run to the door excited to see me, seeing that I wasn't me, he would lie in front of the door and keep waiting for me. The day after my suicide. I felt my sister's love when I saw her sitting in her room with tears in her eyes. I remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. processing moments. The day after my suicide. I felt how important my best friend was. They were looking at all of our pictures together... remembering the laughs we shared. The day after my suicide. I felt sad for my teachers. They blamed themselves for noticing it. At night I went to the morgue to find myself. I was sad. I looked at myself and said: “So many dreams we had,” “So many loved ones,” “So many people we’re going to meet,” “You had so many people who loved you, but you threw them all away?” You must have a lot of courage to end your life. Why didn't you use that courage to win? "" Thank God it was just a vision. to remember. You are still here and you can change your life forever. You are better than you think you are. The most beautiful, the smartest and the strongest. Make this yours. Save it in notes and read it later. - A person on RU-vid
@@cinnamon9639 Something that changes the sound? If you put a reverb next to a normal one, it would sound deeper and more muffled. Most "slowed down songs" on youtube are reverbed
i think this is my favorite song because it makes me the most sad. in a weird way that's what makes me love it so much. i prefer to be depressed and quiet than be happy and confident because I've gotten so used to my depression being the only thing i have left :) coming back if things ever get better
i relate very much, i just indulge myself in the pain now because i think i somehow deserve it more than happiness.. can't be genuinely happy cause i know everything has consequences anyway, but i still hope it gets better
This song makes me feel so many things. Part of me feels happy for surviving so many attempts to end my life. And part of me feels so lonely when listening to this. Memories keep flooding my brain at random moments and I keep breaking down. People aren’t really helping and are making it worse. My dogs and Guinea pig are the only ones listening and being there for me. I hope everyone stays safe because life is worth living no matter how tough it is.
This song can have two faces, a happy and a sad one, but my chance was always to match this song to its sad face, I always wonder, why things like that happens to me, does it happen to anyone, what if not? how wouldn’t i feel lonely, how can i feel happy with myself, how can I accept my destiny, my life, family, clothes, money, look, face, everything. I wish i was what I wanted
"When my bestfriend decided that he likes me ... I thought I finaly found a guy best friend ... but .. guess all guys are the same .. He cried after telling me how he felt .. We decided to stay besties after , but ... guess it won't work :_(" I really love him ... as my bestfriend
Same happened to me, when a boy sees a crack door open of our heart he WILL enter I didn't believe that but since it happened to me it changed the way I think. The of rejection hurts but there is also a pair of rejecting.
i love this it makes me call but sad it makes me think and just idk i love this a lot and it's so good to me that i can hear it all day and never get tired of it
I wish we never met when this song was playing.. Cause its my favorite song and everytime i hear it anywhere all i think is You and i burst into tears. I miss you. Fuck i hate this feeling..
por se trata da coisa que mais mata quando se trata de sentimento, o amor, e a billie fala de uma forma sincera que todo mundo entende, e sente a mesma dor pq todo mundo passa por isso uma vez ou outra.
Ik it is not easy but I'm here and I am thinking about you...I love you no matter who you are ... I hope you have a better day.. eventually you'll find a person who loves you unconditionally...hang in there 💕
my first crush turned out to be a bad person and now im dealing with him being a jerk to me and spreading rumors about me...and now i truly have no one..
I remember her telling me staight to my " If we were to break up i would start DMing guys right away" i stayed silent after that wondering how your own girlfriend of 4 years can say that to your face while still saying to you that they love you? It was really hard to keep a conversation with her after that cause all i saw in front of me was someone who i didn't fall in love with but someone who i wish i never met. I was devastated after she broke up with me cause i felt so used for my good and kind heart. Said so many hurtful things to me and i took it everytime and told myself she does not mean it one bit but in the end she never apologized or even acknowledged that it was wrong that she said those hurtful words. After the breakup i finally understood why people wanted to end it all cause my heart was never put thru all that pain before. My heart felt like it turn into liquid and left my body. Everyday for months after that i cried from depression, pain, and anger. After processing bit by bit i realized how much she did to me to break me in the end of the relationship. Only then did i start to heal reallzing that i will not stop being a good guy and not stop being nice and kind cause its just who i am. i dident want to become the toxic man in my next relationship. Took me 7 months to recover at least 80% of who i was before i got with my ex i lived and learned from that relationship so much now knowing what i want in my next relationship and what i dont want to be dealing with anymore.
-lyrics:( It's not true Tell me I've been lied to Cryin' isn't like you Ooh What the hell did I do? Never been the type to Let someone see right through Ooh Maybe won't you take it back? Say you were tryna make me laugh And nothin' has to change today You didn't mean to say, "I love you" I love you and I don't want to Ooh Up all night on another red eye I wish we never learned to fly I Maybe we should just try To tell ourselves a good lie I didn't mean to make you cry I Maybe won't you take it back? Say you were tryna make me laugh And nothin' has to change today You didn't mean to say, "I love you" I love you and I don't want to Ooh The smile that you gave me Even when you felt like dyin' We fall apart as it gets dark I'm in your arms in Central Park There's nothin' you could do or say I can't escape the way I love you I don't want to, but I love you Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
When you realise that none of it was real and they just lied to you and told you they loved you just to play with your feelings when you actually felt something....
That true im not even lieing on that, I was in love once with a girl bestie I was friends with. We fell in love❤it ,.....it lasted 3 months before she broke up with me and leave me with more pain and not only that the day she left me was when I had to go to my grandmother burial... now I can't love again cuz im scared to get hurt again so I come here to listen and to be at peace but.. I don't think I at peace at all ,sorry.. I got carried away ,I just overthinking about my ex and everything else💔
No one is about to see this but i have to talk to someone. I miss my friends so much. What did i do wrong? They left me out of the crew. My best friend dates my years friend and crush. They both knew how much i cared about him ans they used me again. I know he loved me too but he just wanna take a revenge? By taking all of my friends? My boy bestie forgot about me. Right know they are all 3 together. But im here alone crying and crying. But why? I was the one supposing to be mad. And they dont even respect the chance i gave to them.. Fuck feelings i hate myself but still love the people who made me hate me
hey.. i might have no clue about why they left you.. and i also cant promise u that everything’s going to be okay, and u probably hate me for saying this cliche worlds that maybe u have heard a thousand times.. but good things are coming. maybe not now, maybe you will have to wait long enough.. but it is coming. keep believing it, and it will. i hope you will get better soon
Unfortunately there is a time where your friends may move on from you. It seems like this may have happened. If I'm wrong, i'm sorry! But new friends will come soon and you will enjoy your times with them :) I hope everything is alright
giving it another try everytime we break up because we can't let each other go, telling them I love them causes me to break down now, and they're in love with someone else even though we're dating.
I think people just don't understand how much people matter to them until they leave. we're all so caught up in our own selfish world, that we forget about the other person. I ended up hurting my best friend so badly, and I was so sucked into my side of it, I didn't even know how badly I hurt him until he was gone. the truth is, I cared about him so much. I only did what I did because I cared. It was the wrong move, and for that, I'll be forever guilty. All I wanted was to be seen by him, as I felt like I was being ignored. In less than 10 seconds, I ruined our entire relationship. He was the only person who I ever thought cared about me as much as I cared about him, and now that he's gone, I know he cared. He couldn't even talk to me, I hurt him so badly. I feel so fucking terrible. He was my small slit of sanity, my light when everything else was dark, he treated me like treasure when everyone else treated me like trash. He cared. I cared. I still care. I'd kill to just have one minute with him again. To just hear his voice. I just want to tell him how sorry I am for never truly understanding. I want to tell him how sorry I am for hurting him, for everything. I'm just so sorry. I want to start over, I want to go back in time and stop myself. For anyone who's in a fight with their best friend right now, think of their point of view. Try your very best to understand that they feel too. They don't mean to hurt you, and you don't mean to hurt them. Quickly, before it's too late.
Some people dont understand the depression in right way. They thing that is when every single second you wanna cry, but thats not true. Depression is hole inside your sole and you cant get out of it. Some people can becouse others help them. The depression is dangerous if you dont have someone to help you. Be positive even the life is hard. I beleve in you, and remember: stand if front the mirror an say; "I am beautiful. I can. I will". LuV for u guys and girls.
"We yell at you because we love you" How is that an affection of love😂 All you do is yell at me and compare me to others especially to your past self And when I tell you that one of my body parts hurt all you say is that I'm fine? Wow.
I was thrown away and replaced by another, like I was nothing. It breaks me every day... I knew I was going to lose you, I just didn't know it would be like this... YOU DESTROY ME Why did you do that? Everyday I fall apart and I feel inside hell, after all you made my heart rot inside my chest, you said those damn words, and your actions proved to me that you lied to me for 1 year and 5 months, proved that you never really loved me. I don't love you anymore, I'm falling in love with someone else now, but this pain has taken root inside my rotten heart
Only I noticed that in songs like: Listen Before I Go, I Love you, (and others)… there is a police sound in the background. Almost as if she had done something to herself…
This is how I feel about my ex boyfriend he treat me so good then he just cut it off to get with another girl but I still love him and asked me out again and I said yes only for him to turn around and say I'm sorry for asking you out i just felt bad for hurting you and I love you. WHY DO I STILL LOVE HIM WHEN I DONT EVEN THINK HE LOVES ME WHY WHY WHY 🥺💔🙃
I don’t deserve to be around anyone, or anywhere. I mean one of them told me I was the problem here. And that when I’m around I hurt everyone. So I guess I’m better off gone
