Bipolar, Borderline and Beautiful-Savannah (part 1) 

Thank you mark for giving me this opportunity to be authentic ♥️

Savannah opening up about being in hospital 23 times and addiction to then have mark saying you seem like every man’s dream girl twice is unsettling imo

“A lot of guys dream girl”?? He wouldn’t be saying that if she wasn’t attractive. He’s proving her point of being able to get away with not needing anything but her looks .

The fact that she doesn’t play the blame game & takes accountability for what she’s done speaks volumes. She seems very highly intelligent despite the poor choices. I hope she stays on track.

She isnt lying. If youve been through so much trauma you tend to NOT have the tineline of events in order when trying to remember.

It’s so freaking creepy how Mark keeps calling her a “dream girl.” He says a lot of inappropriate and creepy things to vulnerable women in many of his interviews

This just shows how important it is to take care of a child.

psilocybin mushrooms therapy is beneficial in relieving resistant borderline personal disorder, depression, obsessive compulsive disorder and other mental health disorders.

Her comments around attractiveness and addiction are really true and you don't hear about it often. My long time boyfriend is a really attractive guy and even deep in addiction he was still dressed nice and looked attractive. So he would get away with so much and even get special treatment when he went to treatment centers. It actually is a disadvantage to these people because it takes them much longer to see real consequences.

We never got to hear why her “wonderful” father abandoned her to leave her in such an abusive household for so long.

It's amazing how much the human body can handle. She has abused her body so much and still at only 11 days sober, she's impressively articulate and manages to maintain her looks. People can be so resilient. As long as there's air in your lungs, you have a fighting chance at turning your life around. I hope she keeps going.

Ive had an alchol drinking disorder. Did meetings etc. Good job sharing your experiences, strength and hope. 🙏🏿 To those still struggling.

I really appreciate your videos. The perspective it gives me in life is so much better than only seeing through my own eyes. Your videos are part of what has let my empathy grow. I really appreciate your work. I hope you guys keep at it. 👍💜

Mark, be mindful of your words and the messages/impressions your words can leave on someone. This poor woman is pouring her soul out to you/us and you continue to reinforce that she’s a guys dream girl. Twice now at times where she’s getting stuck on how crazy she can be. Saying shit like that, particularly to an addict who is aiming for recovering, is harmful and can feed the fuel of conversations an addict cycles through in their head a million times a day when deciding whether to use or not. No disrespect but dude, think about what is coming out of your mouth….

" No pretty = homeless '" " No pretty = no free drugs. " " No pretty = no money ." Her words and clearly even at her worst , she knew where her priorities lay . I wish I were that gobsmackingly beautiful but it does have a time limit and a dark side .

As someone who has also been through many similar experinces shes had, I believe her 100%. People also call me a liar. To me it doesnt matter if people believe me or not, because I know the truth. Experiencing traumatic things makes you realize what truly trustworthy people look like, and thats a very small number of people in this world.

Good one, I like her honesty and her awareness of the self destruction. I hope she stays sober. I am glad she takes accountability.

“You’re a lot of guys’ dream girl.” Ugh, Mark. That statement made Savannah so uncomfortable and you probably don’t even know it. It caused her to recollect on “waking up in random dudes’ cars”.

There is no more important job in your life than loving and caring for your children. She was so badly let down by her mother you are nurturing a future citizen of the world when you have a child. I wish her the very best for the future. I am really glad she is close to her father. Lots of love to her from Scotland. xx

This is a great interview ! I hope she makes it and keeps sober.

Thank you Savanah for sharing this. As someone also with Bipolar and Borderline personality disorder watching your interview helped me a lot.

Hearing her talk about alcohol makes me so glad I have been quitting drinking for almost two months now and I'm done. I was an alcoholic drinking hard liquor every night for the last 12 years. It's such a demon and I finally got away from it.

Not to take away from this interview, savannah went through the ringer but came out the other side with scars but still alive and strong. I am researching myself into BPD. I understand that it need to be diagnosed by a professional but everything that Savannah had gone through and effects are things that I go through now. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in 2022. I’m currently on meds but it always felt like there was something more than just those two and now I’m understanding from others such as savannah. So I want to say thank you for this interview to Savannah and all the others for helping me understand and not feeling alone with this disease.

I strongly resonate with her story of fighting her mom. I had a similar situation with my mother, fighting back was a pivotal moment of my life.

The title borderline bipolar and beautiful is weird to me bc so many other people on this podcast have the same diagnosis and do the same things but are labeled addict, bc they are missing the beauty. It’s a little weird that mark you point out randomly “you’re a lot of guys dream girl”. Twice… It’s just alarming that her beauty truly changes so much. She’s a smart girl and cd have a lot more depth in her life. She understands that most men are easily distracted with looks. Even you mark clearly. Anyway… I wish you so much luck and a good life ❤

I was diagnosed Borderline at age 30 after struggling undiagnosed for over a decade. I did the drinking, the drugs, the sex work- all being beautiful. Im now closer to 50 and manage an organization that serves older adults whose lives strayed as well. Sex workers who no longer have teeth, money, or men’s couches. I am clean and sober and serving. Thank You Savannah for being braver at 28 than I could be at even 40. - don’t focus your energy on what happened rather on building what will.

This lady keeps referring to “those people “and “these people “ it’ll be an interesting day for her when she realizes that SHE IS “one of those people” blessings to her🌷

"Being a control freak makes you want to lose control". Transparent wisdom that many don't glean in time.

I'm genuinely interested to know how she got diagnosed w/BPD & Bipolar 2? Her dad, a great supporter but allowed her to get abused? The 100k? A lot of her stories she looked scary crazy OD'ing, ended up in different states, wild in public but no one would know she was an addict? OD'd 23 times in a year but also, not? She didn't foam at the mouth but also, she foamed one time. DT's but 11 days sober, she looks great. Also, Bipolar 2 is largely depression/less impulsivity. But everything she did was extreme impulsive, no mention of depression. BPD, doesn't want to know what it is but also she elaborates symptoms of it. Reminds me of Trisha Paytas & she has BPD. If you know Trisha's M.O you'd know she has made up many wild stories of her life, LOVES to talk, & very fast nonstop. She also takes someone else's horrific stories & makes them her own. Sound familiar. Just wish we got more details on the trauma situations & less of the wild somewhat sensationalized tales. I'm sorry that I am judging but just wish we got a slowed down version of deeper issues.

“I wasn’t that afraid of dying… I was more afraid of waking up.” Wow, I get that 100%. I relate so much to Savannah.

Dear Savannah, during this interview I heard you asking for help to discover who you really are so that you can ground yourself & do better than what you saw at home. If I'm off, I'm really sorry & please forget this message. If I'm right, here's a tip: Anxiety is the fear of being seen by someone else before you manage to see yourself which makes you a controlfreak that keeps people at arms length. The lack of self-awareness is what causes the anxiety (lack of trust) in he first place. To trust yourself you must be grounded & for that you have to know yourself (as you so wisely said in the video). To trust yourself you must first trust your body so that you feel emotions instead of think them. That's how you break the chaotic patterns of life. Second step is to be able to face silence bc drugs, nonstop talking, avoiding eye contact, etc are all ways to avoid silence, therefore, what you've been carrying in the shadows. Remember feelings are just passing if you allow them to do so, & pain can be healed through grieving. Grieve what didn't happen to you even though you wish you could, & that's how your true self starts coming out. Throughout this process I highly reccomend you start exploring what you love (music, colors, places, food) & fill your life with as much of that as you possibly can ❤ With so much love, Carla

The "best" so far for me! Her story is CRAZYYY!!!

Her foot is Broken and twisted sideways, she's being carried into the house by her boyfriend. Yet she's able to stand on her bed holding a knife on her stepdad!! If you've ever had a broken foot, that's just unbelievable!!! Makes me wonder if the story is 100%.

You know that Dan Cummins bit where he talks about going along with a pathological liar just to see where the adventure goes? I get that feeling with this episode.

I relate to you in my past and now in so many ways it's unreal you truly aren't alone .

Thank you for having her tell her story. Understanding is better than Intolerance.

“I can’t make this shit up.” As she’s making it up.

The “you’re a lot of guys dream girl” comment is bizarre. I take it Mark hasn’t dated any alcoholics or drug abusers. Is she hot AF? Absolutely. Magazine worthy if you ask me. But dating someone in active addiction is only fun for about a week. The highs and lows, the unpredictability, the chaos, it’s not sustainable and it gets old real quick. Ask my ex husband, lol. If I didn’t get clean one year into that marriage the relationship wouldn’t have lasted more than a very turbulent 16 mos. We ended it at 7 years and what a blessing it was to be sober. Savannah, who cares if you do it for the sake of vanity as you said or any other reason, get sober. You deserve it. The first year is the hardest, after that it gets exponentially easier. Thank you for sharing your story!

She summed it up...she's not grounded....a "jumbled mess" as she says. Love her honesty.

I lost track of how many times she flicked, touched, scratched her nose. "Constantly touching the nose can be a sign that the person is exaggerating or lying"

I work in mental health .... you should NEVER judge a book by it's cover. Thanks for sharing Savannah, I wish you all the best.

She has described exactly what happened to me more than a year ago... The blood vomiting, liver scarring etc. I was diagnosed stage 2 liver cirrhosis. Was in intensive care in hospital 4 times. Then i did rehab 6 months. I had a 35 year addiction problem. My go to was always alcohol. Clean for 13 months today and don't have any urges or triggers after hitting rock bottom and almost dying. I just realised that i was looking for the best drug for 3 decades and i only found the best drug now. It's a drug called sobriety.

Amaziing strength, to overcome as much as she has, from such a young age. Just so resilient and intelligent. Remarkable. Continued health and strength young lady. Never give up. I think she could be anything she wanted , if not for all the challenges she has met. Remarkable tenacity, moxie, character, under all that surface. Just really smart gal. Hope she does well.

You are AMAZING BEAUTIFUL INTELLIGENT!!!! Thank you for surviving and sharing, you have giving strength to many many by your story, thank you sweet girl!!!!💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

That quote “Give up one thing for everything, or give up everything for one thing.” Wow! That one is sticking with me forever. ❤

Based on my experience with BPD individuals, you cannot trust a word they say. They aren’t necessarily lying, they just adapt to a truth that keeps them from feeling abandoned.

i relate to her so so much, im 17 n was diagnosed with borderline last year. she reminds me sm of me

I couldn’t finish and after reading the comments I’m glad. Why use ‘beautiful’ in the title? Aesthetics don’t matter. The human being does.

She reminds me so much of my best friend growing up. The mental illness, the addictions and being so pretty that people around her just can’t believe that there could possibly be anything wrong. I wish her strength and that her outcome is better than my friend.

I feel like Marc should do his research on mental health more to ask better questions in his interview. And watch the words he uses with people who have trauma, because we are really good at hiding it.

She is a really interesting articulate fascinating woman. I really enjoyed listening to her story. Thanks for posting.

Being from Dayton OH. After reading the title and hearing her say she grew up in Dayton it already adds up

My gut instinct is this woman is making up a lot of things. I had a friend who had BPD and she would make up elaborate stories about her life. It was hard to know what was true and what was not. I got a similar feeling when listening to this woman.

She’s 100% on point when saying you can’t accomplish your goals and party 24/7 at the same time. Im her age and also a recovering alcoholic - her story reminds me so much of mine. Alcoholism is a POWERFUL disease and i would not wish it on anyone. Edit: Savannah, if you read this im with you and im very proud of you 🙌🏼 it’s definitely not easy for women our age to achieve sobriety in this world!

Thank you for sharing your story.

I also have BPD, bipolar and am an addict. The drugs are only a symptom of the disease, I am the problem and I take myself everywhere. It is possible to get clean, but it takes work to recover. If the drugs don't kill you, the lifestyle will. There is no doubt in my mind that YOU can change. I hope you find your way.

I cant believe you are saying she is every guys dream girl Mark...why do you feel you can glorify this behaviour? She is ill and you say that she is a dream girlfriend?? That made me question what type of person you are. I wish you well Savannah and stay away from CREEPS. CREEPS are everywhere.

Mark, I love love your interviews. Just one thing - there's no need to point out when you have a physically attractive guest. It's not relevant to their story - unless they wish to make it so. As a "beautiful": trauma/ ADHD/ CPTSD/GAD and possibly ( big Dr. argument there ) Bipolar person, my looks have added nothing to my life. If anything, they've caused attention by people like narcissists who harm us more. ( My Mom had NPD ) We grow to think it's the only "worthwhile" thing about us, for a while it may even stunt our growth and healing as the relationships/ societal approval may be a distraction. I'm older now and when society deems your beauty has "faded" a bit, the jolt out of that bubble is dramatic. If you haven't been working on yourself all along the way... things get even worse for you. She's told it and told it and told it and at some point that will make it harder on her. I wish Savannah all the best. Thanks for listening.

BPD is marked by Impulsivity - Impulsivity is the tendency to act without thinking. I hope you can continue to stay safe.

Probably the best LA Life video ever. And addiction. When you're desirable, someone will always pay. I know it well. From both sides. Healing. Thank you

I had a friend who had BPD (she died from cirrhosis of the liver in her 40s). She was the greatest story teller of all time and this reminds me so much of her. Three A list actors…my friend never once admitted she had BPD. She had no identity. She moved to NYC, pretended to be in law school, lived episodes of sex and the city and was high off of the “life” she claimed she lived. Every story my friend told I realized after she passed that 99% was made up. Her whole life was this epic, vibrant, rollercoaster of made up stories. A dark ride. All the characters she told me about I still think about them. I met her when I was 15 years old. I told her I like the shoes she had on. She said “thank you. My mom bought me six pairs of them.” I looked at her and immediately said “no she didn’t”. She didn’t argue. She dismissed my comment and walked away. That was our first encounter.

Interestingly, she never said that lying was one of her problems.

Savannah, I understand completely and have shared many similar experiences. Good luck on your sobriety, I recently, finally started AA. GOD BLESS 🙏🤞🙌👏

Why does the fact she’s beautiful take away from her story ?? I mean people are commenting she’s a liar, she’s trouble, she’s this and that negative. But, if she was homely and disheveled , then it’s oh poor girl, I wish her happiness, etc, etc…….Blessings. 🙏🏼❤️

Wow! This is an insane story. Very good interview. I’m happy she explained how horrid alcohol is. People don’t give it enough credit as far as addiction goes sometimes. ❤

she reminds me a lot of myself. i’m also 28. except i’m 4 years sober and did the bulk of my SW after recovery with a solid plan/financial goals. you can do it savannah!

So charismatic, intelligent and articulate, especially considering her upbringing and experiences. I truly hope she stays sober, she could achieve the life she wants 💖

My next to oldest brother was diagnosed with Bipolar Depression and he was one of the best "storytellers" EVER. He would go on and on for hours non-stop just like Savannah here. But everyone that knew him were able to tell his stories were made up in his mind as he went along.

I also have BPD, & I relate so much to Savannah. My mom was an alcoholic & unfortunately passed away 3 years ago. I am currently in DBT & with lots of therapy, there is hope. I am big into health & fitness, so that's been my escape on how I handle my mental illness. It's definitely a battle, but with help & support there is hope. 💗🦋

Physical beauty is fleeting. Inner beauty, depth, and other qualities can also contribute to someone being perceived as beautiful.

I like her so much,I would love to be friends with her or a chick like her just because she is so candid and honest about her experiences but she never tried to make herself look like a victim. She also just seems like a nice person and its rare to find females that are real and not fake or manipulative or petty.

Doing these interviews can be healing for some people. to finally have a chance to speak about your pain the way you felt it and not be interrupted, not be judged, not be pushed away or told something negative about it. He is just present and listening. It helps them release a hurt of silencing that they didn’t know they had. I truly love listening to these people just talk about who they are and what brought them here or self-reflect on how they should be better but these are the things that brought them here. Thanks Mark ❤

I think this is the first SWU interview I won't finish watching. I was 19 minutes in and had to pause the video; there's just something about her that repels me.

Savannah is also a really good example of how childhood trauma can subsequently lead to disorders such as borderline and bipolar. I've studied mental health a lot over the years and am un-diagnosed (what I believe to be) borderline and possibly ADHD. Thankfully now that I've gotten older and done some healing, my symptoms and behaviour have calmed down a lot, but as an older teen and in my twenties I was an absolute spitfire and was completely lost. Even now, in my thirties, I have no sense of self and no direction in life. There's a massive correlation between childhood neglect/ abuse and borderline personality disorder and I hate that people have preconceived notions of what sufferers of that particular disorder are 'like' and also that BPD or any mental disorder is just an 'excuse' for bad behaviour. It shouldn't ever just be the what - always consider the why and that not everything is what it seems. Biggest example for borderline is that we are manipulative. It might look that way, perhaps even be true at times, but this is something that we aren't always aware of and also came about as a survival mechanism to try avoid bad things earlier in life. We can also be incredibly introspective and aware of a lot of our faults or bad behaviour, especially as we get older, but that doesn't mean any of it is easily 'fixed', as we have terrible impulse control and tend to be very self destructive. Personally, I'm also very observant and learnt early in life how to read the room and read other people's moods - again another survival strategy. Once you really get into studying everything 'mental disorder' and really everything 'human', people start to make a lot more sense in general. Although a lot of it is very tragic.

What an interesting story. You have a great sense of humor, you're beautiful and smart!

Her thinking her childhood doesn’t have anything to do with how her life ended up is absolutely crazy to me.

She drank “a whole bottle” her first time and didn’t get sick? 🧐 There’s certain qualities to BPD that involve…embellishing stories. I’m not gonna say I don’t believe her but… as a past long time bartender … I find that particular story hard af to believe. Especially at her weight. Also her dad (and best friend) tells his daughter who is stranded and broke in LA to just stay and figure it out? 🧐 🤔 I know a couple ppl with BPD so the traits stand out to me, and embellishing (we’ll call it) and her (admitted) need for attention, make these stories hard to believe I wish her the best. I didn’t make it past the escort stories but I hope she ends up get psych help. Meds and therapy can be life changers for this disorder. Take care of yourself sister ❤

She comes across like an actress preparing for a role. She seems pleased with herself somehow--I don't know how much of her story is real. I'm quitting the interview early.

Oh wow, tant de force en cette femme. Merci de nous raconter ton histoire !

I've never done meth or coke in any form. In the 80's I tried lsd and mdma several times and alcohol is by far the strongest thing I've ever done. I won't touch it now. Luckily I don't like the way it feels and the dopamine drop the next day is too much for my anxiety. This woman is a survivor. I hope she finds peace for the rest of her life.

Borderline is created in the first seven years of life. Neglect, abuse, emotional needs unmet, dealing with emotionally immature caregivers who are volatile, capricious and not present emotionally. It’s no wonder she is filled with rage. A child innately knows they deserve love and nurturing. She feels betrayed. Everything feels like a threat to her now. The most fundamental need is to feel safe. She was robbed of that in her formative years.

You have so much potential Savannah. I hope you can heal from your trauma and mental health issues and find peace and contentment. Seek people who "help your being" and stay away from those who hurt.

my BPD partner was so beautiful i was in disbilief when she was acting madly, telling fake stories, betraying me, drinking and using drugs, so everytime i was seeing her again i was thinking " she is so perfect that all that happened was just a nightmare, she cannot be like this". Beeing beautiful and with BPD is much worst than looking normal, because they hate to be loved and being so beautiful everyone want to love them, so is a never endind vicious cycle

I wish you the best hon, remember those of us with the darkest pasts…shine brighter to help others . Your a miracle, please don’t forget that ❤

Her reasoning for getting sober is honestly sobering & seems true for anyone who wants to achieve great things--you can't have both. It's a tough pill to swallow. So much wisdom in that.

She reminds me of Paris Hilton. Her mother formed her personality at a very young age. Our mother used to say she wished we were never born. It gets you to think about your own existence at a very young age. If we ever tried to get physical with our mother, the weapons would come out-wooden spoon, one of dad's belts. If someone plopped $100,000 into my lap at that age, I would have asked my dad what to do with it. He would have asked where and how I got it, and he would have yelled and swore at me at the top of his lungs, kicked me out of the house and told me to never come back, then he would have invested it.

It is incredibly interesting how she answers all the canned questions from the host that is usually asked of the others being interviewed as soon as she responds to the first one.

Her looks and her constitution has keep her alive so far. I hope she learns to stay away from alcohol and drugs, because if she can, she'll enjoy her good looks for many more years to come. If not, then she'll just be another statistic. I wish her the best. ❤

Can we all just agree that Mark gives strange energy and make offhanded comments? He rubs me the wrong way.

I believe about 10% of this story.

Not afraid to die, but afraid to wake up. That's powerful. Then she says: "You do it all to your damn self." "I did this" and "I created this hell" Girl I hear you, but give yourself grace because you're doing what all humans are wired to do: escape discomfort and seek rewards. Drugs and alcohol do this for you. Nobody gave you the tools you needed early in life to be able to cope with discomfort in other ways (and based on how they treated you, they also lacked coping mechanisms). None of this is your fault...you're simply having a normal human response to awful circumstances. It's never too late to gain those coping skills and repair the damage that was inflicted upon you, especially when you have so much insight already and are full of potential.

I literally had a 24 year old hospice patient who died of cirrhosis of the liver because he drank, partied too much, and took too many drugs. It is not a pretty or easy way to die. It’s very uncomfortable, painful, among many other things. Get sober and stay sober! Rooting for you!

When she said she was less concerned about dying and more concerned about waking I felt like I understood drug addiction for a second. For whatever it is worth, I hope you are able to understand who you are and find what it is that will make your soul happy. Life is very short.

38:27 and 47:40 says she's been sober 11 days. 59:00 says she could be on drugs right now and we would never know it. Iches nose 83 times. . . . . . . literally. She never did explain the $100,000. Goes off into a homeless guy story.

My fiance was diagnosed with bipolar and borderline personality and she got some help for it. Through therapy and medication life doesn’t have to be so chaotic

I needed to hear this

Amazing story, you did so good telling your story. Can't wait for part 2

How this woman is alive is beyond me. And the fact she tells this whole story with a smile is insane.

she is smart and self-aware af. wish her the best.

She talks quite proudly of her life. Lets see if this is the same in 20 years. All I'm saying is that too many of my friends have gone down this road, thinking they are so cool, and balancing party life and drugs and now in hindsight, most are dead or hugely depressed and made nothing of themselves. each to their own I guess.