Bolbbalgan4 (볼빨간사춘기) - To My Youth (나의 사춘기에) [Color Coded Lyrics Eng/Rom/Han/가사] 

"We don't even ask for happiness, just a little less pain."

When I was 13, I thought that I wouldn't live past 15. I'm now 18. I cried to myself every birthday for seeing another year, but now I can finally say that I'm doing well. I resonate with this song so much. I used to harm myself and shut people out. Thinking about my younger self, I think about how much it must have hurt for a 13 years old. But it really did get better. It was a slow process, but it did. I'm proud of myself.

"but sometimes, when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again" hits hard.

this song hit hard when you're at the point in life where everything sucks and the next thing you know, tears already streaming out of your face, relating with the lyrics of songs in your playlist

It’s difficult to love someone when you can’t love yourself...

During this pandemic, crying every night has become my routine. I can relate to this song and everytime i cry i listen to this song as if i can understand it without reading the english lyrics. I'm inlove with this song

"I wish i would disappear from this world" "Will i feel better if i just disappeared?" "I was so afraid of everyone’s eyes on me" "I hated myself for not being able to receive love" I feel all this lyrics. It just hit really hard

THIS IS ONE IF THE BEST SONG TO LISTEN WHEN U WANT TO CRY💜

Its been several years and I still shed tears when I listen to this song. If I want to describe who is me and how is my life , my heart , this song is the painful answer. It still pains me that I still relate to every word in it, I wish I could move on and live my life in another way, seems I still have a very long way to go, but I lost my energy.

as a kid we want to grow up quickly but after grown up we realize that we can't go back to those happy days that we have passed being as a kid

"I was so afraid of everyone's eyes on me" I feel that✨

I remember myself crying along with the lyrics an year ago. I was devastated and tired of my life and Now I am here, picking myself up and I'm proud that I moved on.. To everyone who is struggling out there, don't worry, don't even think of ending your life, this too shall pass. After a few years, you will be thanking yourself for not giving up in your hardest times . be there to see yourself rising from the fall..

the meaning of the song is really deep istg and I personally also experience this and soothes me somehow when I listen to this song,,, thank you so much for making this, it's really helpful!

To all people listening to this song,crying. Here's my message from me to you ^^ It's okay to feel down. It's okay to cry. It's okay to feel emotional. You feelings are valid. You are precious. And always remember that this phase will pass. Just like the Moon, it goes to different phases and you will too! And maybe tomorrow you will shine just like how to Sun and Moon does. Just cry and remember that you will get through this. Every problem has a solution. Everything happends for a reason. And you have a purpose, reason why your here today. Thank you for holding on,we will get through this phase. Sending virtual hugs to all!! FIGHTING!❤

WHOEVER YOU ARE READING THIS you are special,you are loved,you are useful,don't give up you will definitely get through this

the only song that i can relate with every single line of the lyircs :') i love this song so much. their vocals are so calming

나 라는 존재와 생명으로 태어나서, 공부와, 친구문제로 여린 마음에 큰 상처를 주고, 이 세상을 떠나고 싶다는 생각을 어린나이에 시작한다. 시간이 지나고 나아지는 것을 느낄 수 있다. 그러면서 누군가에게 나라는 존재가 완벽하다고 느꼈으면 좋겠지만 쉽지않다. 또 한번 이런 사회가 만들어진것에, 그리고 그 시기에 태어났던거에도 절망한다. 세상은 각박하다는 것을 느끼게 해주는 사춘기를 위한 노래다.

"At some point,I used to wish I would disappear from this world" OMG so true bestiee

This song describes my life when growing up :(

오늘 내 생일인데 가족들 다 분위기 안 좋고 방에서 혼자서 펑펑 울었는데 댓글들 너무 공감되네요

I am literally crying with the song :( I experienced it all and felt that I was useless and worthless. It is painful.

진짜..다들 힘들어 보이시던데... 힘내요..이 말 밖에 못 해줘서 미안해요..

the people who struggle very well will get to know the true meaning of this song.. now i understand what is the meaning of the phrase called ' when u are happy u will enjoy the song but when u are sad and sick u will understand the song '. those who are stuggling out there, stay strong.. i love you.. 1:36 till 1:58 is my story of my life..

제가 지금 사춘기일지 모르지만 저희 마음이 너무 딱맞는 느낌이 들고..노래가 너무 마음에 와닿아서 너무 좋아요.. 눈물이흘리는 마음입니다..

But sometimes when I'm too happy I'm afraid I'll be in pain again

Part of the reason I celebrate my birthday every year is that it is the one time of the year that makes me appreciate the life I was given and have built. I was abused as a kid and in my teenage years until I managed to flee when I was 18. 10 years later, I am listening to this song teary-eyed and my 29th birthday is almost 5 days away. I no longer have to endure abuse, I am healthy and I am surrounded by people who care for me.

이 노레 들으면서 공감되는 부분도 많이 있고 공감이 되며 또 위로가 된 것 같아서 울면서 들었어요.. 이 노래를 만들어주시고 커버해주신 볼빨간 사춘기님 정말 감사해요..

This song reminds me of Sulli.She didn’t hurt anyone.May her rest in peace .

I feel sorry for those people who but loves to listen to sad songs to have a good cry. Kpop has really the best sad song lyrics you can listen to.

your translation is v accurate, your channel is very underrated 💗

Loving someone else is more easy than loving your own self

진짜.....ㅠ 이 노래는 속상하고, 자존감 들고, 죽고 싶고,힘들고,스트레스 받을때 들었는데,.,,,,너무 공감되고 위로 되서 소리 없이 울었다...

This song hit so hard esp for me, I've been hurt since i was so young and no one even knows, I cried all night because of so much pressure and stress. Even tho I'm not fully healed yet i want everyone who's hurting rn to cheer up, hang on there you can find happiness and be strong, fighting!

이 노래가 상처받은 나의 모든것을 없애주고 눈물을 안흘릴수 없는 노래다… 왠지 모르게 눈물이 흘러여…..

진짜 나를 울린 유일한 노래다... 지금 중2인데 가사 공감 너무되고 위로받으면서 한편으론 바뀌지 않는 현실에 슬프다....ㅜ

There are no exact words to say to someone who's deeply hurting. Back then, there were a lot of people who keep on rooting for me but some of them left me now but I still consider myself blessed because even if I lost them, I found myself.

중~고등학생때 나를 돌아보는 노래네요 지금은 성인이지만 이 노래 들으면 울컥하네요

Broke my heart when I came to know this is SUNOO'S favorite song

This song is the most relatable song i've ever listened in my whole life. Even if you are not teenagers, but adults, you definitely can relate to this relate. To anyone out there who's struggling with self-hating, low self-esteem. I really wanna give a big hugs to all of you guys. Because that is something that i actually wanted someone else to do.

I just want someone to listen, someone who can understand me, someone who will never leave me, someone who will never make me feel left out

One of my fav songs. I may not understand the language, but my heart understands this song so well. Whenever I feel down, I always listen to this song to cry all the pain I have inside. This song helps me a lot to go forward in life.

공감되는 가사가 많아요....특히 근데 가끔은 너무 행복하면 또 아파올까봐....

가슴이 뭉클해지는 이 노래. 내가 이 노래를 얼마나 좋아했는지 말로 설명할 수 없다.

Even though someone don't know the lyrics will cry by just hearing.....❤️Your life is not just to waste by crying and worrying all the time, be happy with what you have and thete are many people who doesn't even have those happiness even like you.....Be thankful to everyone what they do in your life..... Don't cry Dont cry Dont cry...You have everybody.....Remeber the people who loves you while crying.... I know its difficult to find a person to hear your worries in this century.... Don't ever cry by thinking nobody needs you😘If someone don't need you..... I need you❤️

좀 그랬는데 이노래를 들으니깐 공감과 우울증이 좀 풀려나구 나만 이런게 아니네 라고 생각해요ㅜㅜ감사함니다 노래 잘들었어요!ㅎㅎ

"I used to wish I would disappear from this world." " When I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again." Someone said this lines to me in real life, a best friend who go trough alot of things. I can't do anything about that times we not know eachother, but I hope the times she span with me and new friends she made this past years could help to ease her pain.

진짜 중학생때 많이듣고 많은 가사들에 공감하고 울기도 했던거 같아요 사춘기 감성에 좋은 노래들 많이 들려주셔서 감사해요 진짜 그때 이 노래가 많이 위로가 되고 많이 도움됐고 좋았어요

우울할때 꼭 필요한 노래인듯.. 가사가 넘 좋아요

진짜 요즘 외롭고 혼자있고싶고 눈물도 더 많아졌는데 이 노래를 들으면서 이때까지 참았던 눈물이 다 흐르네요

"But sometimes,when I'm too happy,I am afraid I will be in pain again" Shoot it hits me harder!

진짜..이 노래 들을때마다 울어요..노래가사가 공감가서...

The very first lyrics already feels deep "At some point, I used to wish I would disappear from this world"

Thank you for saving Kim Sunoo from Enhypen in his darkest days 😭❤️ Your music is healing!!

때로는 힘든 길이 아름다운 도착지로 안내한다. 그렇기에 아직 포기하지 마라. 아름다운 도착지는 아직 오지 않았다. - Zig Ziglar -

나는 한때 내가 이 세상에 사라지길 바랬어 온 세상이 너무나 캄캄해 매일 밤을 울던 날 차라리 내가 사라지면 마음이 편할까 모두가 날 바라보는 시선이 너무나 두려워 아름답게 아름답던 그 시절을 난 아파서 사랑받을 수 없었던 내가 너무나 싫어서 엄마는 아빠는 다 나만 바라보는데 내 마음은 그런 게 아닌데 자꾸만 멀어만 가 어떡해 어떡해 어떡해 어떡해 시간이 약이라는 말이 내게 정말 맞더라고 하루가 지나면 지날수록 더 나아지더라고 근데 가끔은 너무 행복하면 또 아파올까 봐 내가 가진 이 행복들을 누군가가 가져갈까 봐 아름다운 아름답던 그 기억이 난 아파서 아픈 만큼 아파해도 사라지지를 않아서 친구들은 사람들은 다 나만 바라보는데 내 모습은 그런 게 아닌데 자꾸만 멀어만 가 그래도 난 어쩌면 내가 이 세상에 밝은 빛이라도 될까 봐 어쩌면 그 모든 아픔을 내딛고서라도 짧게 빛을 내볼까 봐 포기할 수가 없어 하루도 맘 편히 잠들 수가 없던 내가 이렇게라도 일어서 보려고 하면 내가 날 찾아줄까 봐 아아아아아아아 아아아아아아아 아아아아아아아 아아아아아아아 얼마나 얼마나 아팠을까 얼마나 얼마나 아팠을까 얼마나 얼마나 얼마나 바랬을까

Theres a day i feel like i can going through all of this but then the next day i cry . i feel really down i feel tired with all of this. I feel guilty . I hate myself for having feeling like this. Im confused . I dont know what to do. I felt something wrong with me. But i cant explain.

언제는 기쁘다가..또 하루지나면 싸우고..전 가족에게 필요없는 사람인건가요? ㅎ생각할수록 제가 있어서 저희 가족이 행복하지 못했던거 같아요..여기서도 밝은척 저기서도 밝은척..딴 애들은 절 밝은아이로봐요..근데..나 누구보다도 어두운데..그걸 들키기 싫어서 밝은척 하는것도 너무 싫고..울고싶어도 우는게 밝은아이에게 어울리지 않은것..그거때문에 맘껏 울지도 못하고..저 왜태어나서..밝은척하고 맘껏 울지도 못하고..그래도 이런 노래와 제가 좋아하는 아이돌들로..하루가 마다하며 살자..하고 있는데..이것도 얼마 안되겠죠?

Moonbin, It's all done now your suffering is done iloveyou rest in paradise now my love you'll always be remembered iloveyou

Why do I fell like this is the perfect kdrama OST

I was crying until this song found me Now I found a comfort and my heart feels better,,,thank you❤️

I love how even though this song is sad, there is still a lot of hope in it

I've had this on my playlist for 3 years now since I love Bol4's music, but only now did I finally read the translation and realize it aligns perfectly with my current constant thoughts in life. Hits way harder now than when it was just me listening for the emotional, cry-inducing music. This is coming from someone in their 20s internalizing what they had to keep inside during their youth and only now being able to process the repercussions of what I've been through emotionally and mentally that I was never able to address in my adolescence.

I just came back home from the psych ward last week. It feels weird that I'm alive rn I know I'll be back being in that phase of my life again but I hope I can handle and think of my friends and siblings first before doing the thing that I did last month

First when I was in junior high school I often got bad treatment from the children at my school. I don't understand what I did wrong or even my teacher hates me without me knowing the reason. I was afraid to tell everything to my parents because I really didn't trust anyone at that time. I keep asking how much longer should I last? What else do I have to be in pain to make this all end? I was seriously depressed and started taking sleeping pills and tranquilizers without my parents knowing. but as this song says, I now feel better with my solitude. but I'm afraid this happiness will go away and get the pain again.

i really love bol4 and this song made me happy when i was depressed this was my comfort song

I keep coming back to this masterpiece, so realistic and sincere

This song amd "In silence" are my teo favorite songs which both have a sad atmosphere..love it

I am literally crying nd lyrics are getting blury nd no one is here to hear my silent tears. The days are getting harder to live. nights are getting more dark and i am becoming someone else that isn't me. don't know when it is going to stop . didn't felt happy from the last few months. laught in the day nd cried myself to sleep in night .... cannot tell this to any one so writting it here...

이노래 진짜 몇번이나 들었는지 모르겠다 이걸듣는데 나 라는 존재 소중하다고 알았다 맨날 나는 못하는게 많은데 내몸이 싫었는데 이거 듣는순간 내몸이 소중하구나 라고 생각했다 내몸을 아끼려고 노력하는중이다 나 라는 존재 소중한거다 내몸을이제 소중하게 할것이다

Hey! I'm from the future. So you're here again? You love this song and you connect with it. And lately life has been difficult right? So you're here because you feel this song understands you. I want to say that I went to the future with the help of a time machine and I peeked a lil in your life and you know what I saw? A happy and grateful you! The person was glowing with happiness and was so grateful to those dark times (this moment) which will make u who u will be very soon. Just hold on ok? Just a lil more! You can definitely take it and it gonna make u stronger. You are enough and I'm so proud of you! I love the way you search for meaning of life in art and music. You are precious and the bright days are coming very soon. You have to experience the darkness in order to know how light feels like. Hold on♡

힘들어 지친다 우울해 공부도 안하는데 왜그러지

Each and every line of this songs looks like they are telling about my life .

THOSE LYRICS,,,, I FELT THAT MAN....

이 노래는 진짜 나를 오열하게 만든다.

대한민국이란 국가는요, 성공은 성적순이고, 행복은 성공순이다 라는 심리의 나라에요. 그럼 곧 행복은 성적순이겠죠. 왜 그럴까요, 공부가 전부가 아닌데. 맞아요, 공부는 중요하죠. 하지만 제가 공부는 중요하다라고 하는 것 자체가 우리나라 교육에 잘못이 있는 것 같네요. *공부는* 세상의 전부가 *아닙니다.*

It hurts so bad when you don't feel yourself anymore. You keep getting from your family from yourself...your feelings stop working also. They say in 30's you find you track again. I hope I find that too in my 30's. I ak 26 and I am just proud of myself for surviving Everyday

During these past few months i have been so lost. I wanted to give up in life already, but this song really made me realize a lot of things.... "Will anything change if I disappear in this world?" "Will I be happy?" "Can I still be the happy child I used to be?" :))

I can’t even share this song before coz it is too painful but now i feel like it has to happen for me to be happy. Best song ever!❤️

This song is now officially my favorite song ever It describes what I went through when I was younger

나도..진짜힘들었는데..이 노래듣고 위로 되더라..

와,....오늘 우리 무리가 셋이라서 계속 오해만 쌓여서 제가 빠져주겠다고 절교했는데...너무 위로 되네요..

힘들고..우울하고.. 외롭고 진짜로 힘들었는데 이노래가 힘이 되주네요...

I grew up on a toxic environment here in our house where i don't feel loved by my family, my dad used to be abusive to us, i am not close with my siblings, i dont even love my family, the only family member that i trust is my mom. When i was a child, my mom defended me from my dad who threatened that he will beat me that time, my mom stopped him, she defended me, i was crying so hard and so thankful to her, coz i thought that there's no ppl in our house who loves me and cared for me. My trauma from my childhood is still here, the pain is still here, and while im grewing up, i thought that i already burried my horrible past but i was wrong. My brother is also as a abusive as my dad, i ask myself, "am i really happy?" i answered, "no", i was never been happy, those happiness that i experienced fades away easily, my happiness isn't temporary, it's just like a trial card, i was never happy, i never experienced it. I love my mom, she defended me from my father, but today, I don't know anymore, today is my school's recognition day and I didn't receive any high honors coz i didn't do great on this school year. My mom already knows that we have a recognition day today she asked me why i didn't attend, i said to her that i dont have a award, she looks disappointed, i think she disgrace me, she sounds so mad. When she said those painful words to me, esp when she started to compare me to other students, i was hurt, i feel liked i was stabbed for so many times, i was so disappointed to myself, i cried so hard. The only family member that i trust, the only family member that i really loved, i disappointed her, my mom was so disappointed to me. She said that bcoz of my hobbies, i already forgot my studies, but no, i never forgot my studies, i was mentally unstable last year, i experienced anxiety and depression which leads me to be distracted for my studies that's why i decided to discover new hobbies to recover and be happy again. But, even if i explain to my mom that i was in my dark phase last year and this year, she will never understand, when she started to compare me to other student, she disappointed me, dont i deserve any happiness? should i only focus on my studies eventhough i am already dying inside? Should i sacrifice my fvcking dying mental health to focus more on studies so that she can use my achievement to impress other ppl? Now i knew that i was alone battling with my demons, those happiness that i felt when i discovered new hobbies, it already fades away, the pain came back. And that's it, i decided to be never be happy again, i promise to myself that i will never be happy again, i decided to just put a mask to hide my true feelings. The person that i will used to introduced myself to ppl is not the real me, the real me was never happy, the real my is dying inside, the real me is at the edge of it's life inside, and the real me is lonely and sad. Thank u for this song, idk but whenever im battling alone, i like to listen to this kind of songs.

진짜 노래 듣고 감동받은분….계속 듣게되는 위로되는곡…

Was watching Begin Again Reunion in Korea, and saw this song and came back to read the lyrics, and yeah I teared up a bit,. It's sadly beautiful. BOL4 is love

Sunwoo's favorite song ): get well soon my sunshine!!💗

Such a meaningful song. One of my fave kpop songs.

저 진짜 이노래 듣고 많이 울고 힘내서 생활해요 생명의 은인이라고 해도 될 만큼 팬까진 아니지만 볼빨간사춘기님들 만나면 무조건 감사하다는 말 꼭 해드리고 싶어요

Who came here because this is Sunoo’s favorite song? I’m really crying right now, Sunoo shi, don’t be sad anymore, remember that you are so loved.

*I always listen to this song every night while crying* 😭🌃

Coming here again, this song is just so meaningful and painful

중1 때 친구 잘못 사겨서 엄청 고생만 하다가 마지막에 나만 비참해진 후에 오기 싫어던 유학을 오겠됬는데 여기는 한국처럼 내가 비참해지지도 힘들지도 않더라. 친구들은 다들 나 좋아해주고 이게 진짜 친구구나를 15년만에 느끼게 해줬을만큼 좋았어. 지금은 입시를 준비하기 시작하니까 유학 오고 안 받던 스트레스를 받기 시작하더니 최근에는 엄마랑 진로와 대학 문제로 말싸움도 많이 하고 밤에 울다가 다음날엔 눈이 부어서 안경쓰고 등교할 정도로 너무 힘든데 이 노래를 들으면 그렇게 위로가 되네. 소리내어 우는 법도 잊은채 살아가는 내가 왜 사나 싶고 그냥 힘들 뿐이다. 근데 다른 사람들도 다들 똑같은 고민을 하니 내 고민이 별 거 아닌거 같고 친구한테도 털어놓았을 땐 "너만 고민있어? 모든 사람들도 다 고민이 있어. 니 고민을 최우선으로 생각하지마" 그러는데 심장에 비수가 꽃히더라. 내가 원한 말은 이게 아니였는데 그 날도 엄마랑 대판 싸우고 울다가 걔한테 속마음을 털어놓은건데 걔는 위로는 커녕 현실 직시만 시켜주니 진짜 3년만에 자살하고 싶다고 생각하게 만들어준 애이기도 하다. 진짜 힘든데 주변 사람들은 신경도 안 써주니 유튜브 댓글로 이러고 있네. 저 말고 모든 사람들이 행복했으면 좋겠어요. 모두가 웃는 그 날이 왔으면 좋겠고, 모두가 공부라는 속박과 여러 문제에서 벗어나 자유로워졌으면 좋겠습니다. 울지마요, 죽고싶다는 생각하지 마요. 당신은 지금도 충분히 예쁘고, 빛나는 사람이니까요. 주변 사람들 시선 신경쓰지 말고 자신이 하고 싶은 일을 했으면 좋겠네요. 저도 그랬으면 좋겠고요.

This song talks about how it feels to have avoidant attachment and want to heal despite of how hard it is

I've been listening to this song for almost a month now. but this was just the time I read the lyrics and it struck in me in so many ways. As I've read the comments about this song I realized that a lot of people can relate to it. We may understand this song differently since people have different experiences and points of view in life but one thing is for sure we had been through tough times and we need time and others to heal us and keep going. Love, Respect, and Understanding self and others are very important. btw., thank you for translating the lyrics

1:36 이말 너무 공감된다. 그래서 난혼자 행복하면 안된다고 세뇌하고 불행만 가득하고 진짜 너무 죽고싶다

I relate to the song because I always cry at night asking myself what's wrong with me, I'm always like no one loves me and I want to give up.

This song is perfect if u want to cry “)

this song just hits in the right spot its like i can relate to each and every word of this song . this song is so good

"When the right time comes, I Will make it happen" Isaiah 60:22

I love this song I always listen to this when I can't control my emotions and just cry and the meaning really hits hard