Cancer Update #2: Facing Death 

People leaving hateful comments are just nasty human beings.

I'm a mess. I'm watching this after learning he died. But...I'm so glad he made this video, along with all his other stuff. Rest in peace my friend.

Ouch . My heart hurts. Rest in peace . Nothing is fair. The time we have on earth is precious. Everyone remember Be happy and appreciate Every moment.

Every thing about this man indicates he is a very sweet soul.

Rest In Peace 🤍

KEEP FIGHTING BRO!!!!!!!!!! They gave my cousin 1 year best case and shes been here for almost 10 years. DON’T GIVE UP!!!!!!!

Reading some of the comments, I am amazed at how much medical advice people provide over the internet and how offended they become when you don't take it. While their intentions are good, their advice is usually really bad. The same with all the jesus comments. While I agree that faith can offer some comfort when things get tough and help one feel that there is invisible superpower working for them from above, it is not an essential element of living and dying. Tbh I think the idea of nothingness is scary. We were nothing before we were born and we will go back to nothing (except memories) after we are gone. It's harsh to accept that whether you're a mosquito or a human your fate is ultimately the same. That said, I am so hoping this new treatment works. It's worked quite well for other types of cancer and I really hope it works for yours too. If you feel like it, make more videos. I would love to watch them. I feel like you don't give yourself enough credit and always think you need to be building something for your videos to be interesting. You are so wrong about this. Your videos are great mostly because YOU are in them; saying something or nothing at all, making something or messing it up, it doesn’t matter. They are real, unpolished and inviting.

I've been watching for about 5 years for your Halloween content, and just want to say that you are an awesome human. Be well brother

I’ve been a viewer for a few years. Love your creepy creations, very talented. 🖤🧡 I think a lot of us that live on the more macabre side are already so aquatinted with death that we handle these situations differently. For us, death is not this terrifying unknown because it’s already been a part of us, and a part of us we love, for so long. We’ve kinda made friends with it, if that makes sense. I totally get you when you were explaining your mindset. So much love your way, and thanks for sharing all this with us. I feel very honored to know you in any capacity. Edit: Ovarian cancer survivor here, forgot to mention that.

So young and beautiful. This really hurts to watch. 😢

I’m sorry friend. Your strength is incredible. I could not handle or process the helplessness involved with terminal cancer. It would be such a battle everyday to keep my sanity.

RIP dearly brother I hope your soul is in happy place

I’d choose quality too. Fatigue is what Ive been battling too. I’ll be starting the radiation treatment for 6 weeks straight in another week & I’m told that the fatigue will be even worse - It’s my new normal. Love hearing your updates. Keep them coming please.

I've been watching you for a long time now on RU-vid through your Halloween uploads. It's utterly heartbreaking to hear that the last treatment hasn't been as successful for you (and all of us) would have hoped for. One thing you've got though, which is something I'm not sure I'd have if I was in your position, is your fantastic positive attitude to where you are and how things are going. And your overall positive outlook on EVERYTHING. I'm going to cross my fingers that this new course of treatment is more successful for you, and those close to you. And hopefully you have that Halloween wedding that you're both still planning. All the very best Anthony, you're in my thoughts my good man 🤞🤞😊

I remember back on your old vlogs it seemed you were very active in a church. I listened to the podcast, I know alot of people are religious and will tell you to do this or that. But the most important thing the Bible teaches is just to have faith in Jesus Christ and what he has done for us. It's been a real blessing in my life and just wanted to share. John 3:16 KJV For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Thank you for this video, the love of my life of 21 years died of cancer on Halloween 2020, Rosario J. Ferrara, he started to cough up blood on our final day of 6 days of decorating for Halloween on the family gardens, watching this story is comforting since I can't sleep anymore

Thanks for sharing so honestly. You remind me of our only child ; he was always more concerned of family than of himself. The "dark" seems to be serving you well. The."light" (Jesus) kept our son on steady ground. It is such a comfort to have the reassurance that he is now with his friend, Jesus, whom he loved passionately all of his life. Praying that years from now, you will still be inspiring by telling your story! Stefan's mom (Our son who succumbed to cancer about a month before his 21st birthday).

So sorry you are facing this prognosis - wishing and hoping that the new therapy works wonders for you.

He was giving 6 months in the worst case scenario in April 2020 and he passed away in September 2020 wow RIP

I’d have to agree with you I work in a hospice and we believe in living with quality not the amount of time the quality of time. Bless you! When you are ready look into hospice. They can come to your house and help you with pain meds and care, mentally and physically. I’m so sorry to hear this news.

I am so sorry that you were recieving horrible comments. It is great to see you ! Anthony, I would have made the same decisions as you have. You are looking great, you have a great voice of reason. I hope you are here for Halloweeen. it is a heavy weight on your mind. But you are brilliant, shine bright my friend. I will be watching you on Instagram. Hugs !

Thank you for this video. I think you have several Halloween’s still left in you sir. My thoughts are with you!

I live in Jacksonville, FL. I have been fighting cancer for over 8 years now. I really didn't like the Mayo Clinic and have been with the MD Anderson Cancer Center here with Baptist for a couple of years now. I find them a lot more....human, if that makes sense? I wish you to be well. How are you actually feeling? I find that there is always something. I start to feel semi-okay but then something else happens related to my cancer treatments. Body parts are starting to not work. I go through periods of exhaustion for no reason and just want to sleep for days. Every once in a while, I have a moment of normalcy, whatever my new normal is. I also find I get angry more than usual and have zero tolerance for bullsh*t. I get mad at how people take life for granted or little things for granted. Or are so self-centered. Cancer changes EVERYTHING. No matter how small or big it is, it changes everything. Being faced with death just slaps you in the face. I'm sending you and your family so much love and sending you appreciation for your posts on RU-vid and your honesty.

I was hoping for better news. I’m sorry Anthony you have to experience this disease. You’ve been courageous. I will pray for your comfort. I do hope you’ll feel up to putting up more vids so we know how you’re doing. I care.

You are such a strong, courageous person with a beautiful soul. I wish you continued strength and courage, and you will be in my prayers.

I hate to hear the last treatment did not work and I do not blame you one bit for choosing what you feel will be the best treatment for you currently! Quality over quantity. I am praying for a miracle! Please stay positive and never give up. 🙏🏼🙏🏼

Only you know what is best. I hope you feel the support from us.

Dont worry about what anyone else says hun You just do what you have to do and what you think is best. Never listen to anyone elses advice because no one knows what you went through except yourself. I wish you only the very best.

I’m praying for you. God bless 🙏🏻

I hope you feel less fatigued so you can make the most of your time with your family. I can't imagine being in your position and at such a young age. I hope you & Emily get to enjoy each other as much as possible. My thoughts are with you both.

Very glad i stumbled across your channel and i look foward to seeing what you do with your channel.Halloween is my favorite holiday as well we do a yard haunt.it seems like youve stumbled across one of the secrets ive found to beat depression, etc and thats by caring about your family and friends and wishing you do or say something to help them. Its admirable and respectable. I will be praying for you and look foward to updates etc.You have alot goin on w chemo, affairs in ordser, your you tube channel and the series plus a wedding! Stay busy and have faith. I am praying for you!

Excellent video. I am so hoping the new therapy works. Will be praying for you. ❤️🙏

I'm sorry people have been horrible you don't deserve that ❤

Blessings to you and yours. Enjoy your life.

I'm praying for you, man.

I'm sorry you have this crappy disease, you seem like a good guy.

you are such a strong man. keep strong anthony..your head is in the right place, and there is always hope. you got this and prayers to you and your fam :D

I am so sorry you are going through this. I wish there was a cure. It's just not fair. I love your videos and I am sending you all the positive vibes your way! Go out with a bang. At least that's what I would do.

R.i.p 😔

There really are no words to say. Nothing that can be said will offer any comfort. I say this though, you are taking this one like a motherfucking gangster. I send peace,love,prayers and hope and hope to see you soon with your reboot.

😢so sad when I seen this. Rest In Peace!

Sending love and positive energy 🖤

Rest in peace!

I'm so sorry I really hope god turns this around for u you sharing this is so heart touching and beautiful and educating

Your amazing! Such a warm spirited kind soul. I admire you so.

*He lost a lot of weight in 3 months.😪😪😪😪😪😪😪😪*

Hope you’re okay ❤️

thanks Anthony for the update. All I can say is kick that monster in the crouch and show him whose the boss. I really think you can beat this. stay strong

I agree, quality over quantity of life. I love the darker stuff too, it really helps keep me going 😈💀.

I love darkness too - colors, music, literature, clothes, my house in which every inch is decoupaged with darkness, but keep positive and thinking you will live long, don't dwell on death, happiness is the key - stay deliriously happy!!!! Love to you.......

I am very sorry about this diagnosis. Go with your instincts. Prayers for you.

knowing your fate isnt something people think of...we all have a expiration date...but continue to grasp each day...ok

I will pray your treatment helps you.

Rip fella god bless you

Hi Anthony, stay strong, will yourself to be positive & don't dwell on the worst, why don't try another hospital, what have you got to lose,

I cant believe this young man received hateful comments.

You are amazing!

thanks for sharing with us

Damn...this is so sad to hear😔have you done a bucket list and are you well enough to go through with it? If my hope was out i sure would and i think youre making the right choice not to suffer with chemo anymore and try to make this last year filled with experience and as much happiness as you can. 👊 much love from Sweden 💕

Much love to you

..................😔Im sorry

Have you looked into RSO?

wait this guy died. I just saw a comment below. Oh no I was really hoping he would have survived.

Thank you for sharing you are beautiful

So beautiful and brave ❤️❤️

Keep fighting

What is your Instagram name?

Pray

I would get more information on CDS, or Colloidal silver, or Ozone insufflations. They all work to contain the cancer but mainly Aloevera gel, naturally made from the leaf.

Look up Chris beats Cancer. He cured his own cancer. You are young and have options. God bless you and I will pray for your healing.

I think you should give the chemo one more shot,but ultimately it's your choice.eqse update more! Via RU-vid!

I've been watching your journey from the beginning and my heart really goes out to you. Have ever considered working with a shamanic practitioner to help you with this moment in your life? They can help with many ailments of the body and spirit. Maybe attack the cancer from a spiritual perspective. Not sure if you are spiritual...look it up and do some research on shamanic extraction.

You seem like such a nice guy. I’m sorry for your situation and the position it has put you in with worries about family and friends mindset when the time comes to say goodbye. You said there is nothing you can do about it. There is. If you pray a simple prayer and ask Jesus Christ to forgive you of your sins and repent from them, you will spend eternity in a place that is so awesome and without sickness and pain. Your family will know you are saved by the blood of Christ and strive to meet you again in the presence of the Lord of all. Please consider this. Life is just a blink of an eye when compared with eternity. With Christ as your savior, your soul will never die. You will be forever in bliss. I will pray for you and pray your new treatment works. God speed.

Question: have you thought about doing shrooms? Not saying that you do need it, but I wonder if you at least considered it with your condition.

I wish he would of made it to today. (Its Halloween right now)

Jibby jabby...more will learn!!!

It was probably the treatment itself that made it spread.I ain’t doing any treatment coming from government own facility.

The cure is the disease

I could never understand why people think the best way to die is in your sleep, I find that really terrible. I want to experience the dying process for as long as possible. Dying is the last thing we will ever do in life and I do not want to miss out on it.

the worms are waiting :(