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hey guys im the dissociated girly on a 12h bus ride. high to death was my most listened to song in 2022. now in 2023 its sober to death. healing even though the world around me keeps falling apart. i hope even at your lowest you remember that life is a cycle of getting worse and better and worse and better. better things are ahead. im proud of u for holding on.
So glad to see you are doing better. There is no good without bad, no beginnings without ends, and for everyone who feels stuck, you are more capable than even you know. Sobriety is hard, but so worth it.
Will really captures the pureness of the desperate search for company, that 1am drunken search for familiarity and kindred spirits. The refrain of begging someone, someone who's even doing something you dislike (Keep smoking), to stay with you, that ode of I love you, is so fucking poignant. Life is harder that it has to be, but it's also more beautiful that it has any right to be.
I'm almost a year clean, but I don't feel better. Sometimes I wish it would've killed me. No one even knows I had to go through my addiction and get clean alone. I feel nothing but guilt, shame, and despair. I want my love here with me.
I love you and even though I don't know you im so proud you got clean there is nothing more beautiful and inspiring then hearing stuff like that, u are an incredible strong person
I fell over I fell onto the ground I wish I was sober I can't get up off the ground When I closed my eyes And I thought I was blind It's the middle of the night And I'll never be alright again And this wallpaper Keeps going 'round the room It keeps going 'round the room It keeps going 'round the room And I follow it around the room And I follow it around the room Keep smoking, I love you Keep smoking, I love you Keep smoking, I still love you But I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die And I sat there on the steps Considering death There were only seconds left of the night And I said hell is the sun Burning forever at the center of things A ball on fire at the center of things A ball on fire at the center of things A brain on fire at the center of things A brain on fire at the center of things I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me Used to be so human, now it's just a machine I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me When'd you say you were leaving? When'd you really leave? I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me Used to be so human, now it's just a machine I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me When'd you say you were leaving? When'd you really leave? Welcome to the Nevada Museum of Art audio guide We hope your experience will be "Hello, my name is Hojin Stella Jung, i'm a senior at McQueen High School My portfolio is a collection of paintings, that was created during last summer And the first half of my senior year, and it's called "The Lady" And I didn't feel very well when I painted the first And I didn't feel very well when I painted the last It was intense, it was an intense process And it was how I was trying to, very hard, personify that intensity But it's hard to talk about her now, because I think she wasn't me At least that's how I feel and I'm trying to figure out what to do now But she represents fervor in women, she is powerful, yet fragile She dares but also averts her gaze, and I love her, at least, I did And, but now I feel lost, and I'm unsure of what to think and feel most of the time But I did believe in her, "The Lady", and maybe There is a different form now that the intensity takes" Enter another item number, followed by the pound sign Or you can hang up and call back later
is anyone else too lonely to relate to this music? and it just breaks your heart knowing you might never be able to truly connect to anybody. when i listened to this album it was so full of sadness and suffering but it was all due to the pain that love and friendship can bring. and i'd put up with all the pain in the world if i could just find somebody i really click with. sometimes i get told to just be patient and that i'll find people who love me for me, but then i see things online like loneliness is only increasing and suicide rate is on the rise, and i realise that my suffering isn't special, and that there's a high chance i'll never get out of this.
Got fired from my job. Drinking a beer and listening to this. I hate myself in these dark times but thank you CSH for being there for me in these dark times.
my friends call me a loser because of my stupid little fixation with this band, but it's made me feel things that I haven't really felt listening to music. I haven't even struggled with substance abuse but man it really hits me hard.
This was my favorite band in HS. First time I really listened to the lyrics I thought I was being sent a secret code-something meant just for me. It’s weird to see so many people feel such an emotional connection to a song a teenager made on their crappy laptop, but also surprisingly comforting.
lyrics: I fell over I fell onto the ground (Ooh) I wish I was sober I can't get up off the ground, ground, ground, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah When I closed my eyes And I thought I was blind It's the middle of the night And I'll never be alright again And this wallpaper Keeps going 'round the room It keeps going 'round the room It keeps going 'round the room And I follow it around the room And I follow it around the room Keep smoking, I love you Keep smoking, I love you Keep smoking, I still love you But I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die And I sat there on the steps Considering death There were only seconds left of the night And I said hell is the sun Burning forever at the center of things A ball on fire at the center of things A ball on fire at the center of things A brain on fire at the center of things A brain on fire at the center of things I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me It used to be so human, now it's just a machine I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me When you say you believe them, would you really believe? I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me It used to be so human, now it's just a machine I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me When you say you believe them, would you really believe? Welcome to the Nevada Museum of Arts audio guide We hope your experience will be Hello, my name is Hojin Stella Jung, I am a senior at McQueen high school My portfolio is a collection of paintings that was created during last summer And the first half of my senior year and it's called The Lady And I didn't feel very well when I painted the first And I didn't feel very well when I painted the last And it was intense, it was an intense process, and it was how I was trying tovery hard Personify that intensity, but it's hard to talk about her now because I think she wasn't me, at least that's how I feel And I'm trying to figure out what to do now Like she represents ferver in woman, she is powerful yet fragile She stares but also averts her gaze And I love her, at least I did and But now I feel lost And unsure of what to think and feel most of the time But I did believe in her, The Lady And maybe there is a different form now that the intensity takes Enter another item number followed by the pound sign Or you may hang up and call back later
Car Seat is very personal when it comes to Lyrics and Feelings, Will Toledo has gone through what most people have that wont admit it and that is called *Being Human*.
i know this might be a weird thing to say but this song makes me hopeful for my future. one day, several years from now i will be lying down on my roof high as fuck, listening to high to death on full volume and everything will be okay and i'll be okay.
the whole twin fantasy album has always made me feel the exact same way since 15, it's so nice to see someone put it in words. such a beautiful album and feeling
I thought this was the only one that didn't improve actually, I think that the extremely heavy reverb and noisyness of the original kind of amplified the feelings the lyrics are trying to convey. Like it perfectly sounds like your thoughts when you're super drunk and depressed in the middle of the night. This new one is really good but I miss the super distorted depression of the first one
@Mario Aguirre I don’t skip the filler at the end, it’s one of my favorite parts. I think it perfectly encapsulates the feeling Will is trying to convey. The phone message, IMO, sums up the entire tone of F2F.
I think this and Nervous Young Inhumans are the closest to the original in quality, everything else being vastly improved. The lowest quality fidelity really adds to the emotion, while this version has a lot of textures and better performances that make the music itself more emotional.
i listened to this song a year ago when i relapsed really badly from self harm. i remember replaying the “but i dont wanna die” part over and over again, because i didn’t want to die. i didnt want to, but my thoughts were becoming so muddied that i thought at some point i was gonna fuck up and die. and then the random little kid came on and i cried even harder, because i’ll never be a kid again, and my parents wont love me like when i was a little girl. i met some great people and ive been clean for almost two months now. i want to stay like this, but i know eventually something’s gonna happen and i’ll be here again.
No matter how many times we fall we can always find our way to get back up. It’s human to fail and it’s human to try again. Just don’t give up. Keep going ❤
Haven’t listened to twin fantasy in over a year and i cant believe how far ive come. Im only 16 but i really feel like ive been through hell and back with this album. Im much healthier now but i still feel like im missing out on life or “wasting my teen years”. I have plenty of friends but no matter how hard i try i just dont enjoy going out/doing really much of anything socially. I drown out this feeling with ambition and self improvement which made me a lot tougher, i can handle more that what i could when i started listening to csh. I know it’s typical of a teen to not fit in but ive felt socially stunted since quarantine. Every time ive been to sleepover in my life i left early because i just cant stand being around people, even my own family, for more than a few hours. And the worst part of this is i dont even feel lonely. Its as though im dripping feeding myself enough social interaction to get by without becoming depressed. Twin fantasy gives me a feeling of love/loss i dont think im capable of.
You summed up my experience with this album too. 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 I'm 15 and I feel like that as well. Recently I lost someone important. I improved a bit at least. Hopefully we can keep growing.
This song just holds a special place in my heart, it's such a vibe and it's such a connected feeling to this song. I listened to it at my darker times, I remember when I was at a bad place, in middle on night outside listening to this song while crying or when i was crying hard in the shower after relapsing. Such a great song and it's such a special one
Listened to this after watching my grandma die from medical assisted suicide - she had cancer. A month later I read a thing about how the sun has fire tornadoes the height of 14 earths stacked on top of each other. A ball on a fire at the center of things.
To be honest, I could say that this album, someday will be in many list of the best records ever, and this is a record that could be with Kid A (Radiohead), Remain In Light (Talking Heads), Dark Side of the Moon (Pink Floyd) and Sgt Pepper and the Lonely Hearts Club Band (The Beatles)
I think it’s a very good record. As much as M2M was very raw and emotional (and very lo-fi), this is just a perfect standalone listen and a fantastic record overall. It captures everything in deep thought and it encapsulates depression, lost love, moving on, and an unwillingness to change. People give it too much shit for its sound and because it’s CSH... but the album itself is still stellar, and it might eventually grow to be one of the most personal records of all time (It’s not perfect tho, but it’s emotionally precise).
I think Car Seat Headrest to me at least, is like Bojack Horseman. It’s beautiful, messy and brilliant but admitting that it’s of immense personally worth to you is hard because deep down we all want to be okay. Will confronts that need
In freshman year id listen to this album on the bus to and from school and it got to a point where i could perfectly time it so My Boy would start when i left home and Twin Fantasy (Those Boys) would end when i came back. I could always get it so Cute Thing would be on when i entered school and this would be on when school ended. Now when i play this song i just have vivid memories of walking down the stairs and to the buses and it makes me want to throw up, not exactly in a bad way tho
Currently laying on the floor because im in so much pain from health issues. I can't move but this song keeps me awake. Its a beautiful day outside but im stuck on my bathroom floor. I want nothing more than to go outside but I can't will myself to crawl. "I fell over, I fell onto the ground." ❤❤
me caí sobre I fell over Caí al suelo I fell onto the ground Desearía estar sobrio I wish I was sober No puedo levantarme del suelo I can't get up off the ground cerré mis ojos I closed my eyes Y pensé que estaba ciego And thought I was blind Es la mitad de la noche It's the middle of the night Y nunca volveré a estar bien And I'll never be alright again Y este fondo de pantalla And this wallpaper Sigue dando vueltas por la habitación Keeps going round the room Sigue dando vueltas por la habitación Keeps going round the room Y lo sigo por la habitación And I follow it around the room Sigue fumando te amo Keep smoking, I love you Sigue fumando te amo Keep smoking, I love you Sigue fumando, te sigo amando Keep smoking, I still love you Pero no quiero morir, no quiero morir But I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die No quiero morir, no quiero morir I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die No quiero morir, no quiero morir I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die No quiero morir, no quiero morir I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die Y me senté en los escalones And I sat there on the steps Considerando la muerte Considering death Solo quedaba el segundo de la noche There were only second left of the night Y dije que el infierno es el sol And I said hell is the sun Ardiendo para siempre en el centro de las cosas Burning forever at the center of things Una bola de fuego en el centro de las cosas. A ball on fire at the center of things Una bola de fuego en el centro de las cosas. A ball on fire at the center of things Un cerebro en llamas en el centro de las cosas A brain on fire at the center of things Un cerebro en llamas en el centro de las cosas A brain on fire at the center of things Y el mar no es verde And the sea isn't green Y amo este sueño And I love this dream Pero, ¿cómo podemos But how exactly can we Escapar de detrás de la pared Escape from behind the wall
me too lol... it took me a few listens to be like Okay Thats Actually The Nevada Museum Of Art and then i abruptly got sad when i realized i never saw The Lady when i was there lol
I fell over I fell onto the ground (Ooh, ooh, ooh) I wish I was sober I can't get up off the ground Ground, ground, ground Ground, ground, ground Ground, ground When I closed my eyes And I thought I was blind It's the middle of the night And I'll never be alright again And this wallpaper Keeps going 'round the room Keeps going 'round the room Keeps going 'round the room And I follow it around the room And I follow it around the room Ooh Keep smoking, I love you Keep smoking, I love you Keep smoking, I still love you But I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die (William, let me out William William, let me out William) And I sat there on the steps Considering death There were only seconds left of the night And I said hell is the sun Burning forever at the center of things A ball on fire at the center of things A ball on fire at the center of things A brain on fire at the center of things A brain on fire at the center of things I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me Used to be so human, now it's just a machine I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me When you say you were leaving, would you really leave? I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me Used to be so human, now it's just a machine I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me When you say you were leaving, would you really leave? (Welcome to the Nevada Museum of Arts audio guide, we hope your experience will be Hello my name is Hojin Sojo I'm a senior at McQueen high school My portfolio is a collection of paintings That was created during last summer and the first half of my senior year And it's called "The Lady" And I didn't feel very well when I painted the first And I didn't feel very well when I painted the last And it was intense, it was an intense process And it was how I was trying to, very hard, personify that intensity But it's hard to talk about her now because I think she's with me at least that's how I feel And I'm trying to figure out what to do now And she represents fervour in women She is powerful yet fragile She's feared but also averts her gaze And I loved her, at least I did And- but now I feel lost And I'm unsure of what to think and feel most of the time But I just believe in her, The Lady And maybe there is a different form now that the intensity takes Enter another item number followed by the pound sign, or you can hang up and call back later)
