I recently found myself screaming the line "I want to chew through electric wires and electrocute myself" at the top of my lungs, alone and drunk at 3 am. And it was the first time I ever heard this song. Powerful one, isn't it?
oof found this one at a good time, i literally got dressed on the floor today and had to pull myself up with the headboard and the dresser and i haven't bathed in i don't even know how many days bc i do not have the strength and i dreamed of my dead ex-boyfriend all night last night, the kind of dreams where you can touch them and they move in just the ways they did when they weren't dead but they don't talk and you know they're dead and that this isn't real and you want him to be real so, so much but he isn't and it never will be, and i'm not at home, i'm locked up in a literal insane asylum and my family won't say it but they don't want me back yet and i hate it here they didn't help when i lost my provider for one of my most important meds and i'm crazy again so that's prob why i wouldn't mind chewing thru wires and electrocuting myself either ha ha ha
I always used to listen to this song admiring its simple yet beautiful chord progression and raw quality. Obviously i'd listen to the lyrics, but just now I decide to REALLY listen, and I'm bawling my eyes out. ive narrowly never experienced this sort of despair in my life, but I think he perfectly captured the hopelessness of complete and utter sadness. truly one of the hardest listens in his whole discography, and I love it