Challenging 5 Anorexia Food Rules | Eating Disorder Recovery 

"It just tastes like calories" is just the most relatable sentence i've heard in a while

“u know when u go to bed and can’t sleep bc u think about food since u were restricting all day” I HAVE NEVER RELATED HARDERRR

the fact that she was so good at faking being happy while eating that burger scares me

I’m challenging myself with eating breakfast lunch and dinner without wanting to throw it up.

I've never been so proud of someone for eating cheese

I was not diagnosed with anorexia but I still overthink every single decision when it comes to food. And may I say this really helped me think of enjoying food instead of overthinking it. Thank youu

“Fear of drinking” I used to enjoy a cup of tea with milk and sugar and also a biscuit with my dad on the sofa almost everyday. I want my happy times back ;(

Me: I want to eat pizza!🤤 ED: No it has calories. Me: Okay.

Today I'm challenging myself to a full bagel with cream cheese! Wish me luck

i think it’s so insane that this video only truly makes sense to someone whose gone through an unhealthy relationship with food and/or an ed. someone whose never struggled with something like that would see this as so miniscual and crazy how someone can’t just put milk in their coffee without it being a whole thing.

I’m not anorexic but I’m realizing how many food rules I have and not due to food allergies just for the fact of not having extra calories ... sad

"I ate the cheese. WOOoOooOooOOO." SO relatable. It is hard to truly celebrate breaking a food rule because on one hand, you did it! But on the other hand, you did IT.

“Why do I need to live under a fear of drinking” this hit me hard, especially when one of my biggest fears is hot chocolate. You actually make me want to try to have one. Thank you 💛

this is the purest and best challenge i’ve seen out there

"Who doesn't put cheese on their burger" Me: *Cries in lactose intolerance*

OML it took me so long to get over liquid calories. I used to cry when forced to drink calorie drinks, and oh my god ensure made me want to die. It was probably the last food rule i striped myself of.

I overeat and am overweight. It is so interesting for me to see the struggle on the other end of the spectrum. Thank you for being so brave and honest. You look like you are doing really well. I am so happy for you.

"Putting milk into my coffee really changes the reason why I would drink coffee . . . It feels like calories. And it's scary, because I feel like it's unnecessary" I cried at the end of this sentence. Because that's EXACTLY how I feel about drinks with calories. I've had a wide range of extremely disordered eating habits over the past few years, and I'm definitely recovering, but realizing that this thought was still so deeply ingrained made me realize that, like you, I'm still bound and controlled by these kinds of thoughts and rules. Thank you so much for this video, for giving me an idea of a way to challenge this and grow more in my recovery. Best of luck to you on your journey! It appears that you are doing well and have a fantastic attitude about it!

I’ve been recovered from anorexia for about 7 years. But, this made me realize I still do have some food rules. Especially... milkshakes. I eat ice cream all the time but, I still never allow myself to get a milkshake because I feel like it’s so many extra calories. Idk. Disordered thoughts never make sense. I am going to enjoy a milkshake tonight. Xoxo. Thanks babe for this video. Praying for you ❤️

Me: im hungry Me: *goes and gets a piece of bread and takes a bite* ED: spit it out. Me: what why? ED: SPIT. IT. OUT. Me*spits it out and goes do 100 crunches*

You're so soft spoken and well versed. I could listen to you talk for hours. Your channel is going to reach so many people soon!! thank you for sharing your stories.

After I got out of the hospital the first time I ate mac and cheese again I cried cause IT WAS SO GOOD AND I WAS SO SCARED FOR SO LONG I FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVED IT

Thank you Rebecca I am going to do this 1. Drink a soda with a meal 2. Eat banana instead of low cal fruits 3. Latte😬 4. Carbs or eggs for breakfast (right now I only eat half a grapefruit and I am getting enough calories throughout the day but I don’t want to live with this restriction) 5. Dessert after a meal

“Funny that you eat more and then you suddenly want to socialize” .... why come for me like this

And this, Ladys and Gentlemen is how you successfully recover from a mental illness. Step by step, always pushing yourself a little further, staying focused and challenging yourself every single day, but most importantly TALKING about it! Thank you Rebecca! Wishing you all the best!

I really applaud you! I’m a therapist who works with people with eating disorders. We need more role models like you. I know you are making it seem easier than it must have been for you. Keep moving forward with your recovery!! You are doing great.

Every time I watch this kind of content I always realize I’m anorexic ... I was never diagnosed, but the more I see people ... I’m just like “shit I think I have a eating disorder “ and I’m scared of it. I don’t want to ,but at the same time I’m scared of calories ,eating after 6pm and gaining to much weight ... But you motivate me to overcome my fears and to challenge myself to fight against my (not diagnosed) eating disorder ... To everyone who struggles as well ... I wish you all you’re able to fight and to overcome it ...

I needed this so badly. Every food is basically a fear for me right now. I have not reached recovery, but I am striving/struggling daily. Thank you for being so brave and open. much love to you

I've never seen a video of you nor do I know you, but I just wanna say that I'm really proud of your recovery. You are a beautiful young woman and you are doing awesome! keep on going!

My goodness, I am in awe. You're such a stunning young lady inside and out and clearly very intelligent. You're aware of your disorder and you're beating it. You will come out victorious in the end, I feel it so deep in my soul. You give off such positive vibes and I cannot wait to see where you go in life

I ate rice ahhh it tastes so good yet made me feel so bad but its a progress right

I want to try to go a day without forcing myself to throw up today 😁

Wow, this is by far the best ED recovery-related video I have ever seen. *This* is what self-care is, what taking charge of your mental and physical health is, what being a badass is. I think you could be a really important voice on RU-vid. Keep it up! ❤️

I ate my first serving of cheese

For everyone who’s recovering, or dealing with it. I know it sounds stupid, but it’ll be fine. You’ll be fine. I know it sounds stupid to say that you’re beautiful. But believe me. You’re precious

Damn never resonated with that coffee thing more...before an ED, when i first began university, my friends and I would order frapaccinos from starbucks like every other day. When i began developing an ED, i began only drinking black coffee and unsweetened tea. I always felt like "uni got more intense so my caffeine habits became more intense" but really, i probably trained myself into liking black coffee because it was always the lowest calorie thing to drink when grabbing coffee. I even, several times, debated between iced coffee or iced americano because some cafes listed a 3-5 calorie difference between them...

This is so true. In the past I would eat 700-800 calories a day and drink a lot of water so I wouldn't gain weight. At the moment I'm doing 1200 calories and feeling pretty proud of myself. But the thoughts are still there. I can't eat anything that has oil or that has been fried, because I know how just one spoon of oil has 100+ calories. And the same for any other food, I can calculate how many calories food has. Just a cookie makes me feel bad, it's like 10 seconds of eating and 5 minutes of push ups. Update: I ate fried chicken with bread today!! It was really good! Also deleted MyFitnessPal and throwed away the notebook where I wrote down all the calories for my mum's recipes. I'm happier 😊

This video would seem so simple to anyone who has never faced this kind of challenge, but seeing you push yourself and be kind to yourself is so inspiring. Thank you for feeling the strength to be honest and to put your recovery first, and share your journey with others

This was so inspiring to see someone who went through the struggles i'm going through and seeing her becoming more free. Thank you

it’s so crazy how i’m trying to do the exact opposite of you

The strength radiating from this video > 🙌🏼

the coffee thing really got me too because Ive done the same thing with my coffee and tea. I like milk in my tea but I've conditioned myself to just drink it black because those extra 6 calories of milk are calories wasted in the day and that just sounds so ridiculous to hear out loud. I don't know it just struck a chord with me. I'm so proud of you in your recovery and this video, I know how scary it must have been. Keep pushing forward, you've gained one new subscriber and affected one more life xx

i wanna try this but i’m way to scared of getting fat i’m in recovery doe

Okay but why am I so proud of someone i've never seen in my life. I just can't stop smiling. Seeing someone challenging himself and just growing mentally makes me so happy

Thank you so so much for not saying numbers!!

I think this is by far one of the most impactful videos I've watched. You are truly remarkable, thank you

This past month I’ve been skipping meals, weighing myself and food and counting calories. I hate myself when I have 1090 calories, I’m overweight for my age group. But I don’t know if what I have can be classed as an eating disorder. My mind keeps saying it is, and then other times I keep telling myself to shut up because my case just can’t be an eating disorder. I just want to do this until I’m satisfied with myself. Could I be slipping into one? idk sorry :(

This is the most relatable thing I’ve seen in a while. I really needed to see this. Thank you 😊 💕

I appreciate seeing people take hold of their future and recovery instead of being a victim. No you stood up to your eating disorder and slapped it silly with its nonsense! Good for you!!!

I’m studying to be a mental health nurse and never full understood eating disorders. Thank you for opening your world to us, you’re so honest and beautiful and I can’t wait to continue this journey with you. Keep up the amazing work, 💕Mara (Sydney, Australia)

After my looong recovery of an ED I can finally eat what I want without worrying. Even though an ED never truly leaves you, it gets better and better with work, love and happiness. I just wish everyone who struggled or struggles with an ED to feel the same way I do now . Keep fighting :)

I think it can be really good for people that you posted this video. It shows a new perspective because we see your actual life, still having issues with eating and trying to overcome it. I feel like people usually post about eating disorders when they have overcome it. This gave me and probably other people a more realistic look into eating disorders regarding everyday life.❤️

milkshake is my ultimate "when im recovered food"......one day man

"I'm doing 5 challenges in one day." Wow that sounds impossible and exhausting coming from someone who has an eating disorder. Good job!

This must have been so monumental for you. I remember when my GP gave me a certain amount of time to start re- gaining weight after a relapse, and if I didn't hit that target, I was going to have to go back to the ED Unit for what would have been the 6th time, and that scared me more than anything. Spending another year in hospital and missing out on college again, I couldn't face it....and at was first just little things: Semi-skimmed milk on my cereal instead of milk or water.....White flour ( which was one of the hardest things but I remember the elation after eating a scone with jam) quitting weighing everything I ate .... challenging those things felt like such a big "win"....and somewhere along the way, happiness& normality started to creep back in. I don't know you, but I was so proud of you for this video, and for taking back your life xx

No one will read this but I just wanna say I'm proud of you, you deserve better and you're a beautiful human. LOVE ya❤️

I ate my first hamburger yesterday.

you’re right... eating pasta is so scary to me it feels so different from eating just other regular carbs I think it is just calorie dense.. i don’t know but I relate !

You know what's crazy? I've had an ED for 3 yrs and it was only 3 months ago that someone at my school found out because she had an ED when she was younger too. So now I'm recovering and it feels kind of strange that my parents and friends will probably never even know I had such a crazy battle.

Hi Rebecca, You popped up in my recommend on here and I just want to say that you're just incredible. I think that you documenting your recovery is helping and will continue to help so many young people who are battling eating disorders. You're inspirational, I hope you know that ! ❤❤

I'm so proud of you. For someone who trains for me to have that cake randomly would be a huge thing infact I can't remeber the last time id let myself eat s cake or put milk in a drink, again I wouldn't have had that pasta dish unless it was a cheat day. For you to do this as someone who is in recovery you're amazing

I understand what you saw about restrictions. I don't have anorexia, I have OCD and even though I am in a much better place that when I started, I still have problems with certain stuff. I have to make a mental list in my head that today I will touch x amount of door nobs, clean my hand less than x amount of times or touch a thing that I find disgustingly dirty (which must probably is not -.- aka. water outside of my OWN the sink, somebody's cellphone) and wait to wash my hands in anyway shape of form for x amount of minutes. Even thought we have different disorders I understand and applaud you for doing what you are doing. It is hard and sometimes it makes you want to cry, but like you said, "tomorrow it will be a thing of the past" and then it will be less scary.

This was the first video I ever saw from you. I’ve now been subscribed for months and absolutely adore you. Thank you so much for being so strong and showing all sides of the recovery process. I feel as though a lot of talk about eating disorders is depressive and they NEVER talk about positives. You, however, show the positives and show how freeing it can be to just... exist without worrying constantly. I know you’ll still have hard times, but you are an incredible symbol of what it means to get better and be happy about it. May all of your followers follow in your footsteps and become happy again as well ❤️ Stay strong, keep going, we’ve got this.

This is honestly so relatable. I've been recovering from anorexia for a couple of months how and have been setting challenges along the way like having a milkshake, eating a pizza, eating in a restaurant, having an extra snack. All my hard work has played off and I'm now a healthy weight for height. I'm so proud! Everyone can fight because even though it's the hardest thing you'll have to face it's definitely worth it in the end! I believe in you xxxxx😊

I had stuffed pasta with parmesan this week at a restaurant and I am going to have pizza next week on my best friend‘s birthday dinner and I‘m so excited!! Let‘s kick anorexia‘s ass!

i'm stunned by the amount of courage and "thoughts-battling" this video must have cost you!! as someone in recovery i know too well how easily we betray ourselves and say "i'm not bound to my illness" and STILL do certain patterns. keep fighting, you're doing such a great job. not only at getting better but also at motivating people. :)

That bit about being able to sleep because you're not thinking about food stood out to me SO MUCH. I often can't sleep because I want to eat but I think it's too late at night/ I ate too much already today/ etc. when in reality I should just eat because I'm hungry instead of laying in bed, awake, thinking about getting to eat in the morning. I've been "recovered" for several years so it's frustrating when those nasty thoughts creep into your mind despite all I've done.

You were on my recommended videos, I used to struggle with bulimia nervosa when I was in high school until I was 21/23 years old, the last time I purged was 3 years ago now ! I’m 28 years old and have a son that’s 8 months old, he’s definitely changed my life for the better! Unfortunately back in my recovery days I switched one addiction for another and started drinking a lot so I hope you find something else you can do that’s more positive and enjoy food ! It’s hard to get out of the mind set at first but I eventually it will happen without you even realizing it! Congratulations on your recovery and I hope you continue to inspire hope and encouragement to all the others struggling with food

I've noticed that calorie counting becomes less of a problem when you cook your own food. For example as for homemade cake or pasta I don't even bother looking at the calories or carbs unless to get a overview of what's going inside my body if you know you have made something that is healthy and from scratch it can truly help you appreciate food and enjoy it. Hopefully someone else finds this tip as helpful as I once did.

I usually don't watch videos about anorexia or bulimia (so I have no idea how this video ended up in my homepage, but really glad it did) as I kind of have the opposite problem and those things usually depress me, but you girl... SO STRONG; KEEP GOING! You really are trying to improve and to beat your weaknesses, and doing it well! Thank you so much for sharing it, you are an example for anyone with any type of eating disorder, so glad I watched your video. Again, THANK YOU AND BE STRONG!

This broke my heart in a way, but I'm proud you challenged yourself even though I don't know you or necessarily watch your videos. I can't imagine having an eating disorder, but I can imagine that it would be one of the worst things to go through. I hope you and everyone else that has an eating disorder continues to progress. And, please know, that this too shall pass and there's always a new day tomorrow. :)

Your videos are literally help change my life. Thank you for being so brave and putting your story out there x

While I don’t have an eating disorder, I do have obsessive compulsive disorder and I can understand rules your brain makes that when your doing better make no sense. I’m so proud of you for breaking the rules you’ve made and moving forward in your recovery.

I didn't even see this video until 8:30 at night, but I broke a "rule" today as well: eating peanut butter with a bagel. I never allowed myself both of them in the same day since they're both higher in calories, but I had it today! and guess what--I'm still alive to tell about it.

I love how real this is. Seeing that you are struggling but still pushing through. Good on you girl.

This was a year ago and I really hope that your recovery has been going amazing!! Each day is a battle and every day you wake up with a choice and I’m glad that yours is to keep fighting for your health💗

Yayyy eat more food..more food means more fuel to do more great things in life and have energy

My stomach was doing summersaults watching this. I felt like crying. You are so so brave.

I love how you're so open about your eating disorder! You seem like a very honest nice person

It's amazing how clearly you explain your feelings and thoughts. Not only is it easy to follow, but it seems like you don't have any shame bout it (which you shouldn't have) it makes you pure and beautiful

Thanks for really eating it hah. There is nothing more boring when ppl trying to pretend they actually eat the stuff they film their first bite of! They are making a fool of themselves because they think we are that stupid and believe it hah! Love your video, thanks! :)

Your so strong girl thank you for inspiring me for recovery💓💓

So brave - thank you for sharing! Wishing you so much light and love on your path! 🧡

I’m so proud of you. Recovery seems impossible but my mom is there for me and she’s having me watch these videos to motivate me to get better. I hope to be at this point sometime soon.

You seem so smart

I'm drinking my coffee...and it's with milk.For a moment I thought if it's worth it...and guess what?I AM drinking it. Because I AM worth it!❤

"it's just like everybody is watching" oh yeah, I can totally relate to that

y'all making me want to stop restricting myself and I'm just *:"""""""""")* thank you

your recovery is inspiring. thanks for being amazing. keep strong rebbeca❤️

I really love your personality! Your energy is so positive and it’s great to see you pushing yourself to recover :))

ur saving my life, i love u so much. God blessed me by allowing me to find this video and ur channel. Ty for doing this, its seriously helping me and so many other people. All the feelings you described I relate to 100%

Thank you for making this video!! Seeing you challenge yourself has really motivated me to do the same thing and try to get better

I wish i could do this and not feel guilty afterwards. When i start eating unhealthy food i can’t seem to stop. It’s like “dang it, i already had a bite” kind of mentality. Then i stop when i’m too full that my stomach feels like exploding. I feel extremely guilty afterwards so i starve myself the next day. I hope i could learn to just take control and not allow food to take over. This is really inspiring tho :) thank you for sharing.

For me it’d be to NOT eat those things. That’d be a good challenge Edit: Just noticed some comments. I was just saying something that I was thinking at the moment while watching this video. Everyone has their own problems. She can’t eat certain things that others eat excessively. It’s not a huge deal to some and to others it is. I can’t relate to her but it’s great to see the different points of views of others on food. That way one can get to understand them more. Be more empathetic for others on any level. I watched this video since it was in my recommended.

Your bravery is inspiring and your attitude is great- please post more and keep rocking these accomplishments!

Amazing, you’re doing so great! I hope you’re still doing well, very proud of you for pushing yourself.

I randomly found this video and I never knew how badly I needed this. This is an amazing idea! I'm new here, but I can hoenstly say I am so proud of you. It's the small things like this that gives me the courage to try and beat my own eating disorder. Xo

I can't relate to what you're going through, but your openness about your recovery is so enlightening. I love watching every one of your videos, keep up the great work!

It's great to see someone taking control of their health and being positive about their progress. I'm sure your content will also be a help to people at different stages of their own recovery. It's nice to be reminded that some (actually quite a lot) of RU-vid's endless content is this kind of helpful, reaching-out , making a public good out of your own victories. May all the good you have put out into the world come back to you multiplied when you need it.

I’ve struggled/struggle with Ed. And it’s a silent struggle! Although, yes having a small cup of coffee with creamer or having a bite of cake to someone who hasn’t experienced ED seems distorted but the anxiety that can be created due to that ONE bite or sip is overwhelming. It’s a very underrated disorder, and I’m so proud of this young lady! For not only promoting a healthy way of combating an ED, but for also taking that one step closer to having it be a thing of the past. I had to learn that it is ok to enjoy yourself. We were given food and taste buds for a reason, food doesn’t need to be scary..food doesn’t need to be a distant friend. It’s a beautiful gift we were given to enjoy. I truly hope everyone who suffers with an Ed and those who struggle in silence with an ED are able to combate it, it is a bumpy road I will not lie. BUT I PROMISE YOU IT IS THE MOST PRECIOUS GEM YOU COULD GIVE TO YOURSELF!!! You CAN and WILL kick it’s butt!!!! Eds do NOT control you, YOU control IT!!! Xoxo much love from a fellow person who has kicked her EDs butt!!!!❤️❤️❤️ I know I don’t know any of you, but I love y’all! You got this!!