Colleen Finally Admits She's Wrong - RELAX #39 

“As the brits say takin a piss” -Erik Stocklin has me screaming laughing. Takin a piss is peeing!!Takin THE piss is the phrase he was looking for 😅😂

This podcast should just be Erik talking about normal childhood things that happen outside of California and Colleen reacting to it

Question for Erik: I’d like to know more about his acting experience/stories and if he’s worried about type casting. I see a lot of the time he plays either the “lovable goof” or the “sexy psycho.”

“We always talk about your symptoms, let’s talk about MY symptoms!” “-I have something to say-” “sHOcKinG” I love you guys LOL

TIMESTAMPS: 0:00-Intro 1:16- Who Needs To Relax 13:45-Bump Check 15:06-Everlywell Sponspor 17:45-Christmas Debate 33:08-Daily Harvest Sponsor 35:30-Random Shower And Hair Talk 37:40-Colleen And Erik’s Relationship In. A Nutshell 40:16- Flynn’s Green Guinea Pig 41:56-Pet History 50:46-Canva Sponsor 58:14-Pet Talk 1:04:58- Pregnancy Talk 1:12:16-Uncommon Goods Sponsor

Erik’s explanation of his anxiety and his first anxiety attack is so spot on. That’s exactly how mine feel, and I just completely shut down

I believe solidarity is the word Erik was searching for.

‘’Your bump looks good, it looks like Jennifer Aniston in an episode of friends” - Erik Stocklin

i completely relate to erik about how he feels about his anxiety, my anxiety is based around being worried about getting anxious. i stop myself from going places because i am scared i will get anxious there which ends up giving me anxiety. it’s such a mind game and it sucks because it can stop you from going where u want to go. just like he said with disney land, he doesn’t like it there because of that experience. and i feel the same way about restaurants and other places.

This was one of the funniest podcast I’m literally in tears. You guys chemistry is so there lol like how you play off of each other you can tell youre so much more than just being married you are the best of friends 😂😂😂

Colleen was worried about cutting Erik off and talking over him in this episode but I love the dynamic they have together. I know why she is so hard on herself sometimes but I wish she was a little kinder on herself sometimes. She is a brave wonderful woman who is having a hard pregnancy and also has adhd to contend with on a daily basis. I wish she could see herself for the wonderful woman she is!

As a fellow lady with ADHD, and knowing Colleen felt self conscious about her unmedicated pregnant ADHD self in this video, I gotta say the whole thing made me cry tears of laughter because I've never related so hard to someone else's energy. It is a GIFT to me whenever I meet a fellow unmedicated ADHDer because it makes my soul come alive, even if it is a bit too chaotic for the normies. I know it's frustrating to live with, but I think it's also kind of excellent..

i was screaming the word: "solidarity" at Erik when he tried to find the word😭😭😂❤️

eriK calling it a stressed bellybutton is killing me!! Lol 😂 he’s so stressed about it

Erik’s expressions while lovingly gazing at Colleen’s Ad Reads are everything. 🥰 These two are peanut butter and jelly and I’m here for it.

I’ve heard the “anxiety about being anxious” called anticipatory anxiety. The actual event isn’t that big of a deal, but you’re so nervous about the possibility of the event causing a panic attack that you work yourself up

Decorate all of November like an advent calendar. Every day a new decoration starting small and with the 30th being your big tree that way it's like a countdown to the Christmas season. I think that might be a fun way to compromise and extend the joy of decorating

The whole segment about your panic/anxiety attacks is SO relatable for me. 6 years ago I was diagnosed with chronic anxiety and a panic disorder. I also get a numb/tingling face, hands and neck during a panic attack. And TOTALLY related to Erik when he said it isn't the anxiety.. it's the anxiousness about having another attack. That caused me to have so many more panic/anxiety attacks, just thinking about when it could happen again. Thank you for talking about this! More people need to hear it. ❤

When he’s older he can probably go in there. My daughter was the same when she was his age. This year she is four and I told her it’s a really cool Halloween store with pretend Halloween stuff. And as soon as I went in I told her “oh look this thing is gonna pop out at me when I step here! “ and everything was “omg so spookyyyy” and “omg so silly” and I would show her the robot parts and stuff. She ended up loving it

Erik is gonna have nightmares about colleen’s belly button turning into a christmas tree😂☠️

Not a shed but a dedicated room for all things Christmas including a year round tree or two. You have a big house. There must be a room that is not used that can be permanently decorated. Colleen stays up all night being creative this could work.

Fun fact! The umbilical cord (more specifically the umbilical vein) actually serves a purpose after birth in the baby! It becomes the round ligament of the liver, called ligamentum teres which can essentially help someone in the future if they have liver disease such as cirrhosis or portal hypertension to drain blood from the liver! Nerdy ultrasound tech knowledge, sorry haha but I thought maybe you’d find it interesting about what’s going on behind this new belly button of your newborns 😂 love you guys!

Instead of Colleen having a Christmas room I think Eric needs a non-Christmas room . Just a room where he can go and relax and not be around Christmas stuff.

“A shed is for tools and rats” - Colleen Ballinger, 2021

COLLEEN I love that you are so aware about how small animals take a lot more work than most people think they do!! Amazing! Most parents just randomly get these animals and they don’t get the best life.

One podcast episode a week isn’t enough 😫 LOVE YOU GUYS AND APPRECIATE EVERYTHING YOU DO 💕

The anxiety about anxiety is a common symptom of anxiety. And you’re more prone to another panic/anxiety attack because you’re anxious about it happening again. Stupid vicious cycle. Highly recommend Mayim Bialik’s Breakdown podcast (also on RU-vid).

TOTALLY understand how Eric feels about being afraid of feeling anxious which in turn makes you feel anxious and it is just a domino effect. When I had these feelings in the beginning I thought I was the only person that had this problem but if you start telling other people how you feel you start to relise there are a lot of us out here that have the same feelings as Eric described

Flynn for president! Logical, kind, and accepting

I don't enjoy decorating for Christmas early because the season is less exciting if it takes up 1/4 of the year. If you have access to the joy of Christmas all the time (or a large percentage of it) it will get old, you don't get the experience of a magical time that you have to wait for every year. It's the same reason Starbucks has pumpkin spice only in the fall, because if they had it available all the time, it wouldn't be something to look forward to or savour for the time you do have it, and over time would be less exciting and enjoyable. It is also harder to identify the specific ~vibe~ of the season and relate it to different things around you like the daylight, scents, weather, etc if that makes any sense at all. I also agree that it's overstimulating, and for myself I can't relax at all when I don't have control over my physical surroundings in my own home. So I do understand it in that aspect as well.

I’m totally with Eric. My belly button is strangely sensitive. Literally makes me a little nauseous if touched.

i think colleens love of christmas is so fun, because so many people grow out of the overwhelming joy of it as kids, it’s wonderful how she’s still so excited about it

Not a shed… it could be “Colleen’s Christmas Cottage” … it’s all about perspective! Dreamy… a year-round happy place

I do like how Flynn has his priorities straight. Man with chainsaw hands screaming how he beat a woman? Fine, okay, not an issue. Jumping spider? Hell no! Me too Flynn, me too. 😂👏🏻

Erik, I completely understand your struggles with anxiety. I had my first panic attack a year and a half ago. And that was beginning of my fear of panic attacks. I went on to have panic attacks every couple weeks until my therapist pointed out that I was having them because I was expecting to have them. So I had to change my way of thinking from "Oh God I'm going to have a panic attack today" to "I'm okay. I'm not going to have a panic attack". It's been over a year since my last full blown panic attack and yet I fear it everyday. And I fear feeling anxious because I am scared that feeling will turn into a panic attack. Lexapro has helped me a lot thank goodness.

ERIK I couldn’t agree with you more- I completely understand this type of anxiety and it’s so hard to explain. I have suffered for anxiety for years and used to have a panic disorder- the WORST part wasn’t anything specific it was being terrified of being triggered into panic. When people say they have anxiety because they’re worried about something like a test- NOT the same. Having anxiety for a moment vs having an anxiety disorder is truly worlds different. I avoided going out of my dorm room for 3 months in college, and the fear of fear is something I’ve had to deal with since.

Colleen reads comments with a negative voice. If she read it in a positive voice, I think the way she took them would be different. She seems to think the comments about Christmas were hate comments but they weren’t at all.

Erik is my favorite. The things he puts up with. His reactions are literally me. Only men get belly button lint btw because they have hair on their stomach that it sticks to. I had 2 csections, emergency with my son and planned with my daughter. I was very scared the first time but the second time I only got a little bit nervous the morning of. I had such great experiences but I won’t lie the recovery is HARD. My second recovery was much harder than the first.

I’ve just recently gotten on medication for my anxiety and hearing Eric talk about his experience is so helpful and comforting to know someone else feels like I do!

In the vlogs Colleen mentioned she hated this episode because she was so everywhere, I loved it! I didn't notice at all. You are your own worst critic Colleen, we love you!! Be you💕

Growing up in New England (Massachusetts), I loved decorating for Christmas before Thanksgiving. I totally agree with Colleen, it makes me beyond happy and I love celebrating Thanksgiving with Christmas decorations.

"Colleen and DEREK have a podcast" (if you know, you know😂😂)

Listening to you guys while working a 12 hour shift is honestly my peace during chaos, and hearing how you two bicker is so precious lol

Omg at 57:54 when Erik says "Oh, ok" sounded just like how Flynn says it. 😂

In Australia it’s summer for Christmas and it doesn’t feel like the “magical white Christmas” so having decorations and trees make it’s feel like that Eric has experienced that magic white Christmas when he was younger but colleen hasn’t

the way erik describes his anxiety made me feel so heard! this has been my biggest struggle for years and it’s so strange to me so hear someone else talking about it … and as something that STILL makes them nervous, not something they’ve moved past completely. wow. i love you both so much.

I have a disability that prevents me from standing in place and they do make a whole array of shower chairs. I have been told it makes showers very relaxing for those without disability.

Thank you Eric for opening up about your anxiety episode…….My son had his first episode at 25, he had just got a new job and it came with a big raise and he had a big anxiety episode. He now has medication and that makes him feel better knowing he has meds that can help. He is an old soul, and is very sensitive (seems very similar to Eric). And similarly, when I was pregnant with him, I had a huge anxiety episode that sounded very similar to Colleens……the amount of pressure you feel when you have a rough pregnancy and can’t be the same energetic, capable person, then having all the pain and sick yuck too…….I am surprised that everyone who is pregnant doesn’t have multiple episodes! Thank you both for being honest, and open…it will help so many, 28 years ago when I had my episode nobody that I knew could relate and it made me feel like I was the absolute worse at being pregnant. You guys are the best!

I love you guys so much! You are the cutest! Side note- Colleen, you are so strong and inspirational! I watch your vlogs everyday! You are my “therapy” watching your vlogs everyday makes me the happiest person! Hope you are doing well! Have a great day!! 🥰

I'm a single mom with PTSD and newly developed social anxiety (after being isolated for the last... however long it been 😅) It was my kids' school homecoming last week and they wanted to go to the high-school football game since their friends were going (they are in 2nd & 3rd grade) Their friend's sister is on the cheerl squad and they would be able to cheer with the team if they went. As we were getting ready to leave, a panic attack hits. I was crying and hysterical and acting like a complete child "I don't wanna go!" I had to talk myself down and reassure myself that this was for my kids and that I was giving them the experiences that I never received growing up. It was terrible. I'm in a new city, in a new career and have always been insecure throughout my life (PTSD has definitely intensified all of that... and I, too, have ADHD- diagnosed at 29). I pulled myself together and we finally made it to the game around half-time. Although I didn't know anybody there, the kids had SO MUCH FUN and watching them interact with their friends and actually being able to cheer with "the squad" made it all worth it 💝 I am so proud of myself for overcoming my panic attack and giving my kids a great experience 🥰💪👩‍👧‍👧 Today I was cleaning out my wallet and found a "fortune" that I felt the need to save from a fortune cookie- it read: "Fear is interested paid on a debt that you may not owe"

Colleen’s got all the animals from the 12 days of Christmas song lol

I'm so impressed with how well Flynn communicates his emotions. 🥺❤️

“I’m being a FENIMIST!” 😂😂😂

It is absolutely okay and good to talk about your experiences with anxiety and panic attacks. Thanks to Erik for giving this personal insight, it also got me thinking about how I could not be in crowded places for some time because it made me so stressed. And the reason was also not because of the people but because I feared I would get anxious among all those people around me. It really got better with slow exposure therapy, I absolutely enjoy concerts and similar events now, however, after Corona these experiences will be new once again. Hope it stays good and calm :) And hope that Erik can enjoy Disneyland someday :D

I agree with both of their arguments about the Christmas decorating. Personally my family does decorations around the middle of November. I understand why Erik doesn't like the decorations being up as early as Colleen. But it makes her happy, and i understand why she keeps them up for as long as she does. Christmas decorations are a lot and only leaving them up for a little bit seems pointless to me.

It’s so crazy to me how mad people get about the Christmas decorations topic. As someone who doesn’t love Christmas and the decorations I genuinely don’t care when people decorate. Sure I’ll roll my eyes sometimes when that time comes and there’s music in the stores and on the radio and Christmas decorations in stores but it literally doesn’t effect me in any way when people decide to decorate their houses lol I’m on colleens side on this one. Decorate early your deserve it. But also make sure Erik has his space that is Christmas free. 😅

My sister took me to a haunted house a few years ago. I always knew she had a strong fight reaction, but I learned just how strong when she used me as a weapon to throw at the jump scare monsters. 😐

Great that you are showing how anxiety affects you and demystifies it for people. Knowing that so many people suffer from anxiety in different degrees helps a lot. It is something that can be managed and I am glad that y’all are openly talking about it.

Colleen, people weren’t coming for you because of when you wanted to decorate. People were siding with Eric because you came off as very selfish, not listening to him or caring about his feelings. It was like it’s my way or the highway and not willing to compromise. Nothing to do with your happiness or the decorations.

I want to say about your face going numb during the panic attack. It doesn't necessarily mean anything related to oxygen. Anxiety can manifest as somatic (feeling) symptoms without any real cause that's identifiable. My face goes numb along with other parts of my body when I become anxious, even if I'm breathing relatively normally. I have been diagnosed with somatic symptom disorder, and I have numbness and pain all over my body from anxiety. It totally sucks, but it's so good to know there's a reason behind it.

Don’t worry about the ramblings Colleen. I am like this when I forget to take my meds and people are surprised.

timestamps! 0:00 intro 1:09 who needs to relax 15:01 everlywell sponsor 17:43 last weeks debate (Christmas decor) 33:02 daily harvest sponsor 35:28 Jelly and Jon the green guinea pigs +other pets 52:40 canva sponsor 55:31 I seriously do not know how to name this part 1:12:15 uncommon goods sponsor 1:15:18 outro I got to gooooooooo bye

This podcast was ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS 😂😂👏🏻 That video of Colleen and Erik, (their relationship in a nutshell) I can’t🤣

On Halloween when I was a sophomore in college, I was walking back to my dorm at midnight. I had just gotten back from a choir trip that was long and stressful, my boyfriend and I at the time had gotten into a huge fight on the bus ride home and he left me to sit with his ex-girlfriend on the bus the whole 5 hour ride back, I was recovering from the flu (that I tried to rush getting over so I could go on this trip), and on the ride home the person in front of me had the window open and all the cold air was blowing on me and after singing all weekend + breathing in frigid air + flu remnants I lost my voice (devastating for a voice major). Long run in sentence to say I had a very bad day. On the walk to the dorm, a guy popped out of a bush with a Freddy mask on and a fake chainsaw and scared me. All I could do was croak out a pitiful scream with my lost voice and rasped at him “DONT DO THAT!!! IM HAVING A BAD DAY…” His reaction still makes me laugh to this day: “Oh…. Sorry…. H-h-happy Halloween?” 😂

Thanks so much for this episode! I honestly never thought anyone had experienced anxiety / panic like I do. I am the best at panic about panic. Or anxiety about anxiety. You hear you’re not alone, but I think actually discussing the nitty gritty (while it sucks for the person going through it) it helps us all as a people. 💜🌷

just had the worst night, i feel so safe here. thank you all so much 💌

I see where Eriks coming from with his anxiety for sure I feel that way

erik i relate to your type of anxiety !! anxious about being anxious. i like how u described “once the door is open u worry about it happening again”. very accurate!

Eric is looking for the word solidarity!

12:48 is it just me or did Erik fart lol he even looks back 😂 I just found it funny

Best podcast ever. Love you so much. You guys are the most talented sweet kind loving caring supportive amazing encouraging humans.

That anxious about feeling anxious feeling is something that I feel all the time. Like Erik, I'm a pretty private person, so just thinking about going through an anxiety attack or panic attack in front of people stresses me out even more, and drives my anxiety even harder. It's also the reason I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder, apparently if the fear of having another panic/anxiety becomes intense enough it can even lead to agoraphobia.

Absolutely loved this podcast! You two are hilarious. Colleen I know how on your vlog channel you were talking about cringing when you watched it back because of your ADHD, but you are genuinely such a beautiful person and you can see that through all of your content. You're entertaining, funny and caring and I know we all love watching along on your little podcast date nights. You're a star and we love you!

I totally relate to Erik with the anxiety and anxiousness. I have always been really afraid to get sick anywhere in public. After having my first anxiety attack about it and feeling like I was sick to my stomach while the world was closing up on me and taking 1-3 hours to get over it I always have gotten anxious about being anxious and having anxiety attacks. So I get anxious and then feel anxious about it so I just get more and more anxious until I have an anxiety attack. I have gotten way better but it sometimes sneaks up on me. It feels so good to have someone relate to me and it feels like i’m not alone

This podcast has gotta be the most interesting and funny podcast i have ever heard 😂😂🤣😅. Keep up the good work Colleen and Erik!

I TOTALLY understand Colleen about decorating early. Christmas to me is soo special. It’s about the same reason as her, family. It’s the one time in the year that we celebrate with beautiful lights and a dinner and all of my cousins being happy opening their presents and that to me is a gift itself. My family is in a different country so going to go see my grandparents and then every one else is just so great and exciting for me. My grandpa passed last year and I did not decorate as much maybe a small little black Halloween tree that I put little ornaments on because I just didn’t want to pull out the big tree in my room. That’s how Ik Christmas is so special to me and it helps my mental health honestly. Whenever I see people upset about decorating early it makes me a little bit upset but not too much because like 1. I’m not going to your house and decorating it and 2. It makes me genuinely happy and makes me feel better. It’s to the point where a Christmas song can make me cry. I understand some of y’all have bad Christmas season experiences but I’m sorry to say but that doesn’t mean others can’t make themselves happy and celebrate it a little earlier. If you feel the need to bully someone about it then honestly therapy would be a really good idea so you’re able to enjoy stuff like this without having to be so hateful♥️

I think Erik was looking for “moral support” when he was saying the stuff about the watermelon lol

I can’t even explain how much I relate to you Erik! I also had an anxiety attack before I ever knew I had anxiety, and it was also in a place where I just kinda had to stick it out. After the initial wave, I basically just had one long anxiety attack for the rest of the week. Ever since, the vast majority of my anxiety is simply me being worried about being anxious. The fear of fear itself is a pretty vicious cycle. I’m so glad you talked about this, I have never heard of anybody else who has this similar type of anxiety. It’s great to know I’m not alone!

I get you Erik with the sensitive belly button! 😂 If I try to dig something out of there or when I wash it I always get queesy and nauseus. Not because of anything psychological, I just think it has some nerve point or something with my stomach!

I was really interested in listening to Erik talk about his anxiety. Mine manifests the same way. It first happened in high school and moving forward I would just get so nervous about feeling that way again that in turn it would basically cause it. So thanks for opening up Erik :) there are definitely people who can relate.

why is it that every time Colleen's hair looks so beautiful, she thinks it looks horrific? It's so funny to me that she spends time straightening it, but it looks so nice with the curls.

I'm listening to this on a road trip and I just pulled over to let Eric know I 100% I have the same problem where you get anxious about having a panic attack therefore causing panic attacks. Whenever you're feeling like that the best thing for me to think about is remembering it always passes. There's nothing you can do to make it stop usually (but some things can help) but it always passes. Remind yourself you will not feel this way forever ❤️

I loved this episode so much, you guys talked about so many different things about yourselves and a few personal moments too… I laughed so many times

When I was a student I couldn’t study in a “cluttered” space because it was overwhelming and I couldn’t concentrate. It feels like a similar topic here where they’re already managing the clutter of a toddler and then add the micromanaging of the Christmas decor in the main areas. I get it. I also LOVE the idea of an over the top, year round Christmas room.

I honestly don’t think it’s an issue of decorating early as much as it is HOW much you decorate if that makes sense. Maybe for him it’s an overwhelming amount of decorations and he thinks the later allllll these decorations come out, the better. Just my two cents!

For Colleen, we have a tiled shower bench, too. When I want to sit I take a hand towel into the shower with me that I can sit on so I’m not sitting on the cold tile. Maybe that might be a quick helpful tip for you. Another option could be to have a cushion made from weather-proofed cushion material (like for poolside); but, you’d need time to find/buy that.

1:07:23 I’d be willing to bet Erik is thinking of the word solidarity

Erik, thank you for opening up and sharing your experience with anxiety. I can relate so much. I've come to realize I've delt with anxiety all my life, but recently it was the worst it'd ever been. I used to rarely have panic attacks, but I began having them more frequently and it caused my body to constantly dump adrenaline being anxious about when another panic attack might come on. It's the worst. And I was so uneducated about it until it happened to me. I can't honestly say I don't think I've met another person who described it as accurately or in a way I related to so much. It's nice to know I'm not crazy or alone.

The word Erik was looking for was Solidarity

i became so scared of my panic attacks that i barely leave my home.. been in my home for almost 10 years now its really hard to break out of agoraphobia once ya let it take control... I KNOW the feeling of having anxiety over anxiety !!! and to point out anxiety HURTS !!!

The haunted houses that let their actors touch their patrons require signed consent forms for legal reasons

LITERALLY THANK TOU ERIK FOR BRINGING THIS UO i also have and iratinal fear of like breaking of my bellybutton and i’ve never felt more heard.

Guinea pigs come from Peru. They need lots of care, fresh veggies daily and lots of love. They also are heard animals and must have at least 1 other guinea pig with them. It’s actually illegal in some states to sell them without a companion.

YESSS ERIK. Fear of experiencing anxiety or panic again is very real and common for folks with attacks. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing about your own relationship to anxiety in this podcast. Countless listeners can relate; I assure you. I like you even more than I did before. Coolest dude, dad, and Lovey ever!!! ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

I sang the intro song, as I always do because yes, but at the end of it somehow wound up saying "That's the name of our codpast" So that's where I'm at. But very excited to watch this

I just wanted to say that Erik explaining his anxiety is exactly how I experience my own. With anxiety being so different for everyone, it felt really good to hear someone who experiences it the same as myself.

Hearing Eric talking about snakes so nonchalant is insane to me. I’m Australian and it’s in our heads since birth to not touch snakes because here they all kill you hahaha

Colleen's adhd moments are so relatable, it makes me feel so much better that I'm not the only one 😅

I’m earlyyy! Just wanted to say I LOVE the pod and listen every Wednesday morning and then watch with my family on Thursday 😊💛😆

The way Erik chews his bagel is the same way Flynn ears his food, he looks so much like him. Obviously because he's his father