Aaawwww Patricia, I now know how our childhood impacts our life's. I grew up feeling not good enough... I scored 305 marks and I felt I had failed the whole village, I was really struggling and competing and I repeated class 7 and 8, not because I was not enough but because of standards I had set for myself. Such words as so and so amekushinda affected my self esteem big time, I grew up knowing life is about competition and not satisfaction. Fast forward I cleared my form four and failed terribly, wanted to repeat but I wanted to go big school like the Nakuru Girls, Kipsigis but my Grade couldn't allow..Everyone expected me to be the Uni material but I failed,,, That kafeeling goes on..I have suffered trying to fit. I went to college, Uni and afterwards tarmacked till now. I always feel I have failed my parents,siblings and even my babies. Every time I want to try and I ask for opinion MTU akinyamaza I know it's not good enough, then comes trying to impress, trying to be that kagal, thanks I have watched and learnt a lot. I feel my voice is even bad and I fear applying for jobs, I am enough and I am going to try again with confidence. No pleasing people!😊
Oh hun. The world is a bitch. Nothing is ever good enough for people.funny thing is I scored 405 marks and guess what 😂my dad said I failed. Nobody congratulated me coz they all thought I was supposed to be on TV. I went to a really good sch and was always position 1 .they expected me to get like 420 or sth. When you're at the top nobody cares about you too, they just see you as their ticket to a bright future & you have no real friends coz pple think you're too good and it's lonely. I went to uni but dropped out coz I realized I want to live for me. I don't want to live my life making others happy, everyone thinks I'm a failure and I wasted my potential but I don't care. I'm working to get my license to be a mental health coach. I've had my struggles with mental health too. You don't know how much I use to wish I got lower marks. In high school I would even throw away exam papers if I became top. Nothing is ever good enough for people. Ata ukipata the highest awards they'll always find sth to hate you on. The most important thing is that you are enough for you. That you love you. 😊 Everyone else can go f themselves
@@carolrose Such is life, funny enough I used to score well during normal exams, but ikifika final, boom! you know what beauty is, we know how it has affected us and now we can work on ourselves to be better. I root for you and hope one day I will sensitize parents on letting their children be.
I have cried through majority of this. Felt so heard. Like she was telling my story. Thank you Patricia. All the best in your journey. Please give reference to your therapist❤
I sooo feel like that pick-up truck. I don't even know how to work on myself. Despite all the international self-help videos on RU-vid, I still feel like there's work to be done. Remember the classic Kenyan quote "Siku na miaka zinaenda", makes me feel even more guilty. Patricia was almost reading my script of life. Thanks so much to this channel.
We are many here..The fear of being a failure and not being able to achieve my goals eats me up!. I sometimes feel dead inside, but I know God has good purpose for our lives ❤❤
It's okay to not know what to do. It is usually the first step in going the right direction. It is okay to be stagnant in life. It is okay to postpone as it builds up robust readiness for seeking help. When you aren't going, it's because you don't feel ready. You've got to want this for yourself.
What a beautiful talk! You excellently articulated ADHD and other mental disorders,that it really is how everyone is different and the world’s systems especially education sector fails to handle different minds. Well done Pat
Thank you Patricia for sharing, I have struggled all my life with ADHD. I am doing everything different for my two children. I can’t wait to share this with her. Be you, do you!!!!
Great engaging talk Patricia. Extremely eloquent and articulate. Your star is very bright. These are true leaders of tomorrow in a democracy.(unfortunately we now have the Wamuchombas and Aisha Jumwas)
This made me appreciate who I am, I have multiple personalities and likes also can't ever focus on one thing add that to people pleasing and beating myself up for everything that goes wrong never had a normal childhood and adulthood but you have given me hope Am not broken just different.❤
I used to watch your channel and I remember how open you always were about everything and especially your struggle with procrastination. I guess there is now an answer to why this plagues you. I used to watch for the comedic effect, your authenticity, and your personality. This is the reminder to always be kind to yourself. This reminded me of Steven Bartlett's (Diary of A CEO) ADHD diagnosis
I don’t even know how I found myself here but this is a blessing. Thank you for being vulnerable and allowing us to see ourselves through you. This is just amazing.
Thank you for this Patricia. For quite sometime, I have suspected that I have ADHD, and I thought that you were describing me in this story. I hope to seek professional diagnosis and help soon. You are such a precious gift to this world.
I have just been diagnosed with ADHD. I feel relieved and validated because I now understand that ADHD symptoms have caused many of my difficulties in life. Its good to know that I am actually okay and just have a different type of brain . Thank you Patricia for sharing this.
What a beautiful video this is, thank you for the vulnerability, thank you for opening up your heart to say things that many people are struggling with but are not able to express, thank you for being such a power house and beautiful human being!
Pat is soo eloquent yoooh❤....i think i have the same problem😢 ADHD YOOOH😮....My God Patricia today has really been vulnerability 😢.Thank you for having her here for us😊😊 I think i have been going through this exact thing.
Patricia is so bold to share this🤍 Mental health and stigmatization in Kenya is mutually exclusive. We are progressing slowly and that's also something.
This was so well articulate and speaks to 99% of who I am. Definitely seeking professional help. Thank you for sharing Patricia, this has been so helpful and a great listen.
First, Patricia you look Amaaazing! And wow, I could listen to you like forever because girl, you’re so eloquent! I’ve never before related to a person like I’ve now from hearing your story. I’ve since time immemorial focused on “what is wrong with me”. And if only I could master the courage to seek therapy, maybe, maybe… This is so relatable!
Boy have I felt so seen just by you telling your story Patricia. I’m wishing you all the best as you come back to yourself, thank you so much for sharing .I’ll come back here in case my journey of the same , feels extra difficult.
I have never felt more seen in my life.. I often describe myself like a duck on water.. Really calm on the outside, floating by but paddling like her life depends on it underneath.. Wuueeehh Thank you Kihoro.. ❤❤❤❤
Thank you for speaking to me through this video Patricia.You have really described my life from scratch. I really need to take care of myself and with grace.
Soo relatable. Going through that at the moment but listening to you I'm hopeful that it's just a phase it will pass, will emerge with a fresh unopened carton of brittania. ❤❤❤❤❤
Very beautiful. Thank you Patricia. Indeed....There's a time and place for everybody to develop and grow and live and encounter the world in the way that their brain is optimized.
Wah! I remember getting 397/500 in KCPE and desperately wanting to repeat it. I always felt like there was something wrong with me. I'm learning to unlearn.
Hey Patricia You are a great storyteller. We all have our flaws, they don't define us, they make us human and make us relatable. You may also be of Sanguine-Melancholy temperament blend. Check that out.
It's a millenials plague always not enough! If you listen to peers stories it's similar with lots of self-flagulance and going on and on finding ways to improve when you are okay just as you are.
