Crack Addicted Trick interview-Patrick 

Yes. It definitely hit different. ♥️

I love you 😘

exactly! He's definitely different. and he is right CRACK IS AWFUL.

Yes, that hit me hard too. I used to struggle with self-love growing up and after I lost my fiance last year. Self-love is something we have to learn on our own. Every day I tell myself that "I am lovable" and "deserve love". I still believe in love. Everyone is lovable and I hope Patrick knows that he is lovable.

Same here. Very sad.

Me too!!!

Proud of him

I did too his story just shows recovery is possible if you really want to quit Patrick looks so healthy and happy in his update interview proud of you Patrick look at you now Rocking Recovery hugs

"I wonder how much this videos going to affect my life". As of the most recent video and his story, positively and I hope he keeps with it.

I know! I just saw it today and had to come back. The glow up is amazing. He is a beautiful human and he will do amazing things with that wonderful brain, heart and sincere personality.

This was me but on coc and liquor 2 years ago. I'm still not sober but I'm alot better now

Yo!!!!! There were 111 likes and I scrolled through and saw this... Great week ahead!!!!

So as If hes In a trance in a constant tug of war.

Dude like literally man...literally...not physically or metaphorically...but literally dude...

You can see the normal person in him on the follow-up video.

Addiction is fiction. Do you think and act like that is untrue?

@@Humble-iq5ue lmao I’m guessing you’ve never dealt with substance abuse

@@bunk95 it’s all a mindset so you are right but the process of getting your mind to change is what people struggle with. That’s addiction.

@@bryanflynn8812 yeah I've use various drugs throughout the years but never got addicted to anything. So yeah I don't know. It's all mind power to be able to walk away rather than succumb to the fleshly desires.

@@Humble-iq5uewith certain drugs, by the time you make the decision to “walk away”; you start having withdrawals and are technically “addicted. That’s what dude meant when he said he/you don’t have experience with substance abuse. That’s not me throwing a jab

No one cares

I think all meth users have that sexual fixation. That's simply what meth does. I've never experienced that with crack, just wanting more crack.

Good luck 🙏🏾

​@@trump24trump then why ya here? You cared enough to comment

Yes. Amphetamines causes you to have a Non-Stop p*** and masturbation fixation. It's so disgusting and unnatural. Every once in awhile I will have about a two-week binge on caring about nothing but watching p*** and masturbating when otherwise I'm a semi normal person. So sick of it.

Tell him that he can make it out of this. To pinch himself and say "God help me please" it works

That’s where I know him from. Good dude.

Addiction is the worst disease ..

@@PRMermaid God is unessecary. Power of will is your God. I'm tired of the God talk in addiction circles, we've moved past that as a society

@@Nevs- I Pray to God everyday because he is the Only one that can give me what I'm in need of.

Same. That's what he needs.

Not to take anything away from Patrick, but all addicts feel the same way.

I can’t get a family either

@@sirdopaminesjournal3292 there’s a lot of addicts that are in relationships and have children so not really

tough love doesnt work. addicts wont get clean until THEY are ready to get clean

first time in a while ive even brought to tears. so inspirational

@@joshweaver7998 I know. Gives you hope for so many who appear to be completely hopeless.

AND, how is this video going to affect other people’s lives?

@@crabbygramma5553 kind of the whole point of the series I feel..... but I was praising the gentleman who candidly and emotionally told his story, hoping he can find health and happiness.

expecially if ur tell ur friend he passed away from a heart attack

These 5 videos are waaaaay more effective than any DARE program where a cop talks to you about all the bad things that will happen to you if you smoke one joint or drink one beer

This comment aged like FINE WINE. March 20th 2024 a video is posted with Patrick and he is 2 years clean and sober. Praise God!

@J NOEL Congrats brotha! Keep going

@J NOEL Thats awesome, congratulations!

You are a lovely guy, I hope you can beat this. Thanks for sharing 🙏

Fake addict.....

@J NOEL I started smoking it yesterday. It's great! Makes you feel great!

Lol

Damn they say that about me, wish we had cops paycheck 🤣

Is it the shirt? It’s the shirt isn’t it? Is it too much? 😂

A cop on crack

Buck.. Undercover cops look nothing like this!

Hope your still clean and sober !

Are you from the U.K? I've only ever heard "gurn" here in U.K

yeah me too i was just like that. its just body language saying "i need another hit"

@@edmunds1875we say gurn in Australia as well

Addiction is fiction.

crack

Right because he is actually a normal person I’ve been there done that

Addiction is a mofo.

You described this interview so well!😀

Its called self awareness. Alot of people should try it out. I hear all the kids are doing it. 😉

That’s all addicts. Well the ones fighting long enough are very aware

Do it long enough and there’s no denying it.

He’s a sociopath

Anthony Lara i swear yall watch 1 youtube video n think you a psychiatrist now 😂😂

@@joncast1 most addicts to have sociopathic tendacies. Saying this as a former heroin addict.

2 years sober!! Praise God

You are amazing Patrick!

This is my first viewing of Patrick's part 1. I'm glad to see he's kicked it. I always wonder how people are doing now, since I'm watching 3 - 4 yrs behind. So many are heartbreaking. Success is good, awesome job Patrick! 😁

And married sooo proud

You hit it

well said....and sadly true...

Nailed it. It's so fucking boring, but being a junkie is just gross. What to dooooooo

Being high is almost as miserable as being sober

Give it time brother u will start building back your pleasures in your brain, go to the gym and keep being sober and u will start enjoying life. But the first couple months of sobriety sucks and life sucks but b patient it’s worth the fight.

M

Fuck your brother.... Why do he hates you?

@@YENKOGT that’s brutal bro… honestly!

Wtf is wrong with your bro man?

Did he really go to Harvard?

So sorry for your loss.

@@dmitriy6147 Thank you so much.

Very sorry to hear that 1sherba

Addicts are fictional. Do you think and act like that is untrue?

My prayers go out to you. You are not alone

I am a recovering addict, I know so many addicts that are so smart & if they got clean they could do so good in life. It’s heartbreaking, when your using nothing else matters.

Pretty much correct,most addicts are very intelligent, including myself! functional tho. Maybe we think too much and are trying to escape it,that's me at least,I have to shut it off sometimes .These interviews are always so emotional.

The number of functioning, even high functioning crack users would blow most people's minds. There are folks who smoke rock that most people would never in a million years think do. I'm sure meth is the same way.

@@travisfleenor2418my friend Alex smokes Crack and he is a Lawyer.

My dad was also a dealer and somehow i managed to be around the trashiest type of drug users lol im not denying that alot of them are normal but ive seen people who actually lost their minds on drugs. Kind of warps my perception of hard drug users but no doubt there are those who just need to get out of a bad habit and can be saved.

You look like you got trouble written all over you.

I hope you stay sober. I know it's hard

11years Well done !!!

wooohooo

Congrats 👏 love hearing its even possible. Currently on maintenance myself

crack is like a truth serum!

@Alan not sure addiction ever suddenly disappears

@@user-jy2sj4ed4i it definitely doesn't

@Alan addiction never just suddenly goes away

Nobody is proud of it. Its a ball a chain that you are always ashamed of. But, he knows the why, and he is honest but he hasnt said the why yet. In his mind he knows the hang up, he wont reveal it, we never do, we learn to live with it without ever speaking it out load.

Crazy how he went straight to crack that definitely doesn't help. Most people have a somewhat gradual progression from just trying things here and there and then getting more and more into it over time. This man went straight for the most addictive thing possible. I'm kind of surprised he didn't know what crack was with all those anti-crack ads in the 90s.

This is literally like 90% of addicts. It’s not like we don’t know and aren’t aware of what we are doing. A lot of functioning Normal people that just have a terrible addiction whether it’s uppers or downers.

@@pricklycatsProbably didn’t really understand what it was but knew of it

Hey man, I dont know you but I hope you're doing okay. If you haven't gotten a chance, check out Patrick's newest interview with SWU.

wishing you healing and blessings

Praying for you Rory!! I'm in AA and there is hope!!

Please, please ...get the help you need. That was my life-long best friend in whole wide world's diet too (except she preferred vodka) at year 4 she suddenly became very ill, was put in a medically induced coma - on life-support. We lost her. She was 45 years old, left 3 beautiful children without their mother. She never dreamed it would actually affect her, especially so quickly - PLEASE get help. You physically can not stop on your own. Please 🥺

I see comments like yours every once in a great while. I always check the name to see if it's my son. I want it to be him. It never is. I just want to know he's still alive. I cry.

💯💯💯

Yep. Most people that are addicted to any drug don't make it. When I was in rehab ( I even asked for 2 more months) they told me straight out out of 10 addicts only 2 will make it through this vicious cycle. That really woke me up. 9 years clean off meth, 4 years clean off alcohol. But I still smoke weed to calm me down cause of my major depression and social anxiety since I can remember. Good luck to all the great people that have addiction problems. Take it one day at a time. Exercising lowers my anxiety depression tremendously.

Yep

@@666blindrider, Congrats! My sister in law, has been an addicted for the last 10+ years. She’s been in and out of many rehabs, but unfortunately she’s still using. Congrats! God Bless 🙏🙏!!!

You need alot more than self awareness to overcome crack. Knowing you have a problem is just the first step.

It takes a certain amount of intelligence to convince yourself that next hit is what you need. Even when you know it’s not.

I hope you see this but I thank you for this comment. I believe that this saying is what led me to come clean of myself. Wow. I’m prolly gonna write that down in my important notebook and read it every morning first thing. Thank you sincerely, -adrian

Yes !

Yep, I could tell by his smile....🥴

Smiling faces........sometimes they lie😉

@@notimetowaste1254 And I could tell for his desire of dominance over other victims (female addicts). Great guy, he's a okay! 😉

@@byronwright801 I I agree 💯, because it could be a coping mechanism. I laugh when I am nervous/anxious and people may take it as I am flirting or whatever they may think, and really it is because I have anxiety and it is one of my coping mechanism.

So true

Wow this is fucking scary thanks for showing me that perspective

Yes.

A ghost.

Very true. Addiction is so dangerous

It’s also one of the shortest lol

Yes !! Even a Harvard Grad !

Im an RN that got addicted to opiates at age 38. I hit my bottom and went to treatment (knowing I’d soon be uninsured) the night before I went to treatment I was on the hoestroll trying to make some money. Here I am, multiple degrees, an experienced nurse with an impeccable record, specializing in neonatal intensive care, training other RNs and ending up a junkie. Spoiler alert- I’ve been clean since November 2018 thanks to treatment and SMART recovery for follow up care. Bottom line is, this can happen to anyone

Agreed. Many Americans just put them in this neat little box, a category, a stereotype, to feel superior and separate from them. I think Mark was right about why he needed to create this channel. Because many people just don't "get it" until they watch these interviews. Legalization and regulation of drugs and greater efforts at rehabilitation over incarceration would help reduce the issue which, even politically there is bipartisan agreement on this, is out of control.

Nurse Therese I wish there was a ❤️ button . I don’t know you but I’m proud of you ! You are the type of person we can only hope to have in the medical field or at the very least , in a position to related too , understand and guide other who suffer from addiction . Genuinely happy to hear your story .

@@nursetherese7894 what made you put that substance in your body. Why did you make that choice knowing medically what it would do to You?

I thought exactly the same thing. The dude is smart, funny, decent looking, and holy shit what?? Been up for 5 days WOW.

@@SoilentGr33n the 3 videos he did within a month or so were insane. In a month he went from a relapsed addict who’s a Harvard grad with a city position making 6 figures who has a car and apartment in la. To a addict with a sex addiction, who’s spent most of his time on skid row looking for crack and hookers, missed work probably lost his job, spent all his money, sold his car for crack, was beat up and robbed, his dad won’t pay for his condo or give him money...just within a month! It’s very hard for me to understand since I’ve never been addicted to anything. I think In general it’s hard to understand how one can go so far down from where they once were. He’s went to 10-15 rehabs and still can’t hold his own money and can’t stay sober longer than 6 months. He has all the support in the works from family to friends but still his addiction is winning. I’m sorry but there’s a point where it seems like he just doesn’t want to stay sober. At what point does his family and friends walk away? This has been going on for 20 years. It’s gotta be exhausting for the ppl who love him.

Not exactly charming... he's forthright and has moments of lucidity but he's pretty neurotic IMO

@@TiffanyMaryJean My brother has the same problem . He tries to stay off it. We have to take accountability although he is still a victim and that's why its so illegal .

@@bobshenix agreed. far from "charming"

Jesse! I love you bro

@@jumpupanddown4God miss you man. Hope you’re doing well. Brad will update me from time to time. We still hangout and go on vacations together.

I agree, I think, he might also find it quite suffocating to be in this society with his intelligence both emotional and other... I used to feel the same! I am sober only a month :(. From what I hear, he is more into power, he is more into the rush and feeling of power.... that is quite addictive...

Congratulations on your sobriety! Here’s to 20 more years of sobriety for you! ❤️

Congrats!!! That is awesome!! ♥️

Congrats!!! I’m proud of you!

🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Congratulations 🎊

What a kind remark

He didn't say he was disgusting. He said it was disgusting to have an impulse for prostitutes that also smoke crack. That is disgusting. Don't be an enabler. I like this guy but don't take away stigmas that should be there. Even he thinks it's disgusting. That's why he's saying it.

@@dangerous8333 I recall him saying that he thinks that he is disgusting. Please get a life.

Just like being alive 18 years means you should vote.

@@dangerous8333 it's hard to hear when he says it but he might have said "I'm so disgusting man" or "It's so disgusting man" but it sounds more like the former than the latter.

I wish I could take care of him 😖😖

Heart sinking...

Lots of people feel like that. I do. When you get older life sucks man. The system will crush you.

Deep asf

Death doesn’t always seem so sad when you are so emotionally exhausted

@@2.0mhllala thank you. Everybody goes through some hardship, what matters is how you deal with it.

@2dawgz i honestly don't think that crack cocaine can kill you alone.

@@fuckRU-vidBringBackDislikes it’s called a cocaine overdose......

@@fuckRU-vidBringBackDislikes your in denial then,any drug can kill

So sorry you lost your mum and had to go through this,thats heartbreaking,i hope you've got through it all and have made a good life for yourself,bless you 💝

Mr watch5... how is everything at home?

Aw🙁...yeah... Noticing things with my dad. People r who they r. Good, bad, neutral. 🤷🏾‍♀️I'm blessed but I get n2 a funk wen it's comes 2 him. THE BAD THING: I have 2 smoke a cigarette b4 I deal with him. Even on phone. But I'm trying 2 stop the tobacco tho. My blood pressure goes up. I don't have chilling mechanisms. Weed IS friend indeed 🤔🤷🏾‍♀️. It helps

@@candicecandy8137 fuck your writing is hard to understand

But his job won't. He just lost EVERYTHING. The state of California is not gonna keep a crackhead engineer on staff. He even said the date of the interview.

The word you’re looking for is than.

So did you go to rehab? How are you doing? Hope you're no longer crying every night!

Ive been there buddy How are you doing now

I hope you’re doing well! Wishing you peace, love, light and clarity!

Don’t give up. You got this. We are rooting for you.

Hey Hans hope you are doing well today, even if it's a bad day know that people are thinking about you and you can always try again tomorrow. As long as you are alive you have a chance to do better and change your life to whatever you want it to be. God loves you no matter what and hes always with you when you feel alone. That space in your head that's emptiness when you think to yourself, that's god just ask him and he will answer.

I was thinking that too, and then the next few days your mouth and throat and sinuses are all jacked up and it hurts to eat

Move on he’s with a new hoe

@@masonsobel366 God dayumn that escalated quickly. 🤣 🤣

@@nicolejuarez5670 fr idk what came over me tbh

Patrick's description of his crack experiences, especially the sexual parts are extremely accurate to my cocaine experiences. I abused coke heavily for a few years and that's exactly how I felt every time. I also lost a job on a three day coke bender after I had been off coke for almost 10 years, then one night at the bar someone gave me a bump and a free couple of grams... that was that.

@@alanw4935 yes technically but you can’t compare the 2… Cocaine is more social, crack is more of a “shut the blinds and lock the doors” kinda high

Absolutely he's very sincere and cute. Hoping the best for him 🙏

Only thing I find out is that ones they hit the pipe...it's seem they can't get of this runaway train.

She said he’s cute yeeeaahh he’s a good guy for sure seems like it

@The Real Confession - You know, it’s rather sad and honestly a problem that you and some of the other commenters are completely ignorant to the impact of what you are saying and how it may impact/effect viewers/readers of this content. Saying things like you did, verbatim - “So unfortunate” because he’s a “nice looking man with intelligence to match” and how he “seems very sincere and kind hearted” - although maybe true or nice, can really hurt someone else who may be dealing with similar issues but possibly doesn’t have those character traits! I mean is what you said to imply that if you’re not a “nice looking” person or “intelligent” that, those individuals aren’t just as deserving of help and the care/love people like you seem to have for someone who falls into a certain category. I really don’t feel as though I need to go into details but EVERYONE needs help and needs OUR support and LOVE. NOT JUST THE CUTE ONES OR THE INTELLIGENT ONES. And make no mistakes, just because someone looks a certain way…MEANS NOTHING! Ever heard of a wolf in sheeps clothing, I mean come on. Show LOVE to EVERYONE! EVERYONE NEEDS IT! ,..and LIFE IS SHORT! Sorry if I came across rude at all in this post but after watching this and reading these posts I was just appalled because it is just all to often where people get treated a certain way because of the way they look or sound or what credentials they hold. ALL WE HAVE IS TODAY, GIVE YOUR LOVE TO EVERYONE. If you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading and also maybe you’ll start living your life through a bit of a different lens. …and not just you @The Real Confession and @Carolynn Alvarez - LOVE to ALL OF YOU. - Happy Tiger Year!

@@AIvey 'o

I had an obsession for stimulants in general, but I've found crack way too quick of a high and went to snorting meth. Fortunately I've left that life behind but as we all (should) know, once an addict always an addict.

SSRIs work wonders

LMAO 🤣😆😂🤣

I pray you soon find your way out. Don't give up on yourself.❤

Agreed.

Yep

Sure that’s not denial? Be careful w that one.

Yes! I went thru that awful cycle where I would binge then try and walk back into life like everything was fine. Its the worst!!! Awful. I have years sober but the calling still hits. And I found something sober I love so when the calling hits, I shut everything down pass off my life responsibilities and do that thing. Which is binge TV and sleep

@Patrick Bateman I understand brolami. Ima tell you the answer, and it's the truth. Idk if you believe in God, but he's real and he knows everything about you. Ask Jesus to help you and he will. I've been stuck in the same cycle and I keep making the same mistake OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER. 15 times now with the adderall this last year. And I'm finally about to get out of it.

@Patrick Bateman Jesus will sit their with you and go through the pain with you, he's been doing it with me. Literally just be like "Jesus/God, show me you're real, and tell him you need help, and he will I promise you.

@Patrick Bateman It might take a while and be a long process, but little by little you'll be able to grow out of it. Look for narcotics anonymous or alcohol anonymous.

@Patrick Bateman This is coming from a long time agnostic/atheist also btw, until only a couple years ago.

ME TOO!!

@Maximus Meridius you’re the most ignorant person in the world if you believe that.

@Maximus Meridius I guess you’ve never been dopesick before throwing up and shitting your pants.

@maximus meridius way to speak the truth, to many people are fooled into thinking this is a disease.

@@anthonyberardi8904 This comment proves you do not understand what you're talking about, being dope sick from having used has nothing to do with addiction being seen as a disease or illness. Im telling you young one read the book addiction is a choice then come back and talk.

@@drewjason1992 well it doesn’t matter to me what you think about the subject. I know who I am. Been doing subs everyday for the last 8 or 9 years and I’m only gonna live once so I want to feel good and be happy as much as possible. Life’s too short to be miserable lol

Update: He is smoking crack in a sketchy skid row motel room getting set up to be robbed by a street walking hooker.

They just did an update!

@Mel O. wow, really, after I finish this video imma look up the new one&watch it.

He's crying out for help

Same. Makes him so likeable

@@suezannemarie292 try keeping a secret charged up on coke . It’s near impossible.

Gonzo journalism.

Just had to drop in 8 months later and say how much I love the quote "the wild frontiers of the human experience", what an awesome way to put that.

@@BobbyGeneric145 This is definitely Gonzo journalism.

It starts wearing off in seconds.

Just saying sup to a fellow Drummer.

@@ottovonbismarck6310 yeah but the withdrawl gradually builds, so it’s more like he’s at baseline at the start and begins declining. I dont think he was super high or anything at the beginning

yea its even shorter than cocaine powder. which is already stupid short. im never touching rock.

Shit wears off like 5 mins it’s not even worth it

toxicity

@@matthewazuh2180 Check out birdman drug stories on RU-vid too🦅

Except saying Harvard extension school is “Harvard”. It’s a certificate program not entrance requirements. And spending 15k a month bullshit... he would be homeless and couldn’t afford that on 6 figures. Not buying it at all

He is !!

So true !

Yes. So true of a lot of people who don't love themselves.

He can't see himself even with all his abilities and needs help with self esteem

Something associated with November keeps him prisoner.

you would probably be lying to him. i don't think hes going to be alright

@@TheJimburke Watch his most recent video

Great imagery 👍

I agree. I think he’s more like self loafing, looking for yeast to become bread when he’s already risen.

@@goodegrief I agree. I think he’s also self clothing, desperately looking for his dirty undies when he’s already dressed.

Great example

@Raven The Warrior Goddess 22 lol

Extremely hard

why is he moving that way? is it nervous system damage?

@@johnhelton3826 he's tweaking out dummy

@@johnhelton3826no lmao

Good thing i took a xanax before this

Same dude

You should see my uncle on a Friday night buddy

@@God-hs4hc Haha yeah your uncle went crazy last friday

I could feel that shit down into my teeth.

Yo i Watch this .. often to stay sober no lie ..

Oh for sure !!!! God I swear , one of the MANY reasons I stayed home with my son and never put him in daycare or even the nursery at church....

I'm so mad at those girls. Granted, I wonder what brought them to act in that way as well, but still...a four year old boy. My heart breaks.

They're all hurt people hurting people

Yes the story must be deeper. The poor young girls were corrupted too.

That's not the cause of his addiction lol.

Amen.💖

ABSOLUTELY

thank you

@@jumpupanddown4God ❤

@@jumpupanddown4God you’re welcome, how are you?

Well said!

@@stary._.butterfly3368 💖💖💖

@@marylougeorge9890 And back to u♥️

The self awareness shows me there’s hope. 🙏🏼

@@shellabella8625 there Is..Its hard to get up when u feel So Down..but IT not about how many times life And people fór that matter knock u Down,IT IS how many times u stand up♥️

Best comment

This guy that I used to get high with used to say that “crack is the best feeling in the world immediately followed by the worst feeling in the world.” RIP Patrick.

@@blairjohnson6014 yup, basically instant euphoria for 30 seconds followed by an hours long panic attack.

Most definitely should be educational material 💯💯

I Agree with you

Very well said.

it would make a good doco but this is guy is not your average crack addict, at least not where I live

How do you know? A friend of mine got clean off heroin and started golfing all the time lol

He plays golf. He's dead.

@@redtobertshateshandles Unless he died in the last 24 hours, he's still alive. I saw him yesterday when he celebrated one year of continuous sobriety.

@@FOBW how is he now ?? August 2023

He is now 2 years sober!! There’s a new Soft White Underbelly interview with him. He looks and sounds great! ❤️

Especially a city job!!! Wtf!!!

Mind blowing

It's probably good educational background

I've had a job like that where i would get all fuxked up on pills and evertything above for about a month an some straight then just show back up

@@midnighttokertruthseeker2178 doing what???