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Paul I'm so happy to hear from you! I have been very concerned. I am a Nurse in Canada and MAID is something I truly believe in. It's ok to be tearful, and we are here for you! I cannot understand why comments have been cruel and negative. Hurt people hurt people is what people say, but I don't know how anyone could subject you to that!? You are loved and supported! ❤ You are remarkable, in the way that even at the point you are at in life, you are still concerned about leaving a legacy of learning through your experiences! The world needs more you!!

Hi Paul, just wanted you to know that as an NHS doctor who has followed your journey for a year or so, you’ve taught me so much about how I can be a better supporter and advocate for my patients experiencing similar journeys. Thank you for your humility and openness in such hard times, you have a much bigger impact than you know

Gidday, Paul: I'm an expat Kiwi, now living in California. For a big part of my career in health-care, I worked in Oncology and Palliative Medicine. All of my patients were the sweetest people on the planet!. I lost my dad to cancer, when I was 16. I'm sending you all the support that I can from across the miles. I wish you clarity and peace during this uncertain season of your life. Whether you know it, or not, you are likely touching the journeys and hearts of more people than you realize. This world is all the more richer and wiser, for you being here.

Paul, man I'm so grateful for your Mazda videos. I know this about a cancer update and I am truly sorry that this fate has befallen you. I've referenced your Mazda dash removal so many times and have appreciated every time I see you had a hard time just like I did. Also the rear brakes, you saved me from so much more cursing. I hope the videos let a part of you live on for friends, family, and Mazda fans like myself.

They told my Mom she wouldn’t last a year from her bladder cancer. She refused treatment and lived many years more before she died at 92….she did not die of cancer! Your body is always fighting the cancer…sometimes you beat the cancer. Stay positive!!!

NDE person here if you ever need to talk. I have stage 3 colon cancer. My near death experience from a botched surgery was the best gift because I understand where I’ll end up now. It’s very peaceful and the love you’ll encounter is unlike anything on earth. Rest easy Paul. This is all out of our hands. There is a GOD and you’ll be blessed, no matter what. Trust.

Hi buddy. I am a 50 something year old man from Canada. Know that you’ve made a difference and there is someone here thinking about you and will for as long as I’m around. I don’t have the words as I’m sure you can understand and many kilometres separate us. Were it possible I’d like to see you and give you a hug. You will have an enduring legacy. Thank you for putting yourself out there. Much love from Dartmouth, Nova Scotia, in 🇨🇦.

My dad passed away in august 2023. He chose to go to bed in his own home and stay there. His blood tests showed he had prostate cancer with extensive bone mets which he had probably had for years and had lived through this stage. He was nursed by myself and my sisters until he passed away 4 weeks after going to bed . Paul, my dad visited heaven a few days before he passed away on different occasions, and trust me when I say that my dad was not spiritual in the slightest. He said that it was beautiful and very peaceful and that he wanted to stay but couldn’t because my mum wasn’t there for him. This experience with my dad has completely changed my view . My dad was adamant where he was going and he described the feeling to his doctor when he visited him. Do not be scared . My thoughts are with you x

Don't let the jerks win! So many supportive people here. Ignore the jerks-they don't matter. Prayers for you Paul

Dear Paul, none of us have an expiration date stamped on us. We simply don’t know. When I lost my best friend who was my husband I thought of the miracle of time we were granted. It was all too short of course but each day was a gift. I didn’t lose hope until after his last breath. He never had any pain so that was a blessing too. Probably when the cancer went to the brain it cut sensory off. I wish you complete comfort. I hope for a miracle for you. I hope you do your favorite things as many times as you can. God bless you Paul.

Paul, that’s devastating news! I am hoping that there is something the doctors can do, even if it means ensuring you quality of life that you so much deserve. Your tears are raw and real, and it makes you truly human. Grieve well and live well. All the best energy in the universe sent your way for peace and love. You are much loved ❤

Hang in there, brother... we love you!

I am a patient at Chris O'Brien Lifehouse in Sydney I am disgusted that anyone would post negative comments You have my prayers and unconditional support

What kind of horrible people would leave negative comments?! Get rid of them. Everyone else is holding you in their love and light.

Dear, dear Paul, my heart truly goes out to you. We are in parallel cancer journeys. Mine starting in ovaries, spreading throughout abdomen and peritoneal, ascites, plural effusion, pulmonary embolism, surgery and countless small cancerous nodules that are through out my abdomen, chest cavity and imbedded in my messentary tissue. I’ve had different treatments which quit working or put me in hospital or damaged my heart. I have been told my cancer is incurable and I also am terminal. Right now, I am giving my body a break from treatments, bc it’s not handling them well. So I am feeling better, but just like the last time I took a break, after a few months the cancer continues to grow and gets to a point that I can’t handle it. I don’t know what I want to do this time. I am with City of Hope and even though I feel they are as good as it gets I have lost so many friends I made there while having treatments together. People who did everything by the book. Some of them I feel died sooner and sicker from the treatments. I’ve come to the conclusion that for certain cancers advanced stages, there isn’t a cure, yet. Just a prolonging. I have no fear of dying and have accepted the fact I may be dead soon. BUT, the heartbreak is I have five beautiful children and five beautiful grandchildren that I’m not ready to say goodbye to and they for sure aren’t ready to let me go. I do know that when my time is near, I hope to die with dignity will medical assisted death. All we can do is live one day at a time and make informed decisions regarding our health. I try to make the best of what each new day gives me. Some days are better, some days very bad. You are in my thoughts, my heart is very heavy for all of us. With love.

Good work ignoring the idiots mate, it's not worth anyone's time. You can't fix stupid.

It's a beautiful Tuesday afternoon here in southern England, and Paul, I am thinking of you. Several months ago I had no idea who you were, but your influence - however small - has changed my life for the better, and made me a wiser person in the way I interact with our world. You've done that. Can you know a stranger on the other side of the planet from a series of RU-vid videos? Well, so what if you can't, I feel like we all do - and we are lucky to know you. We aren't going anywhere, not a single one of us. We'll all be with you, marching on, and on, and on, and on.

it might be bad news, but the world has undoubtedly been made a better place because of kind and compassionate people like paul.

We are with you Paul. You are a gift to the world. You are so very loved. 🌷

You've touched the lives of a lot of strangers, Paul, and we care about you! I deeply hope things turn around because someone as obviously decent as you deserves many more years, but to paraphrase something you said in one of early post-diagnosis videos: if the afterlife consists of the impact we have on others through the memories they have of us and the lessons we pass on, your legacy will ripple far and wide into the future. Thanks to this RU-vid channel and its ability to convey the beautiful person that you are, you've ensured a level of immortality for yourself. You've affected me deeply and I will remember you for the rest of my life!

Paul regarding negative comments you OWE NOONE your time or attention. Hell, I cannot imagine what would prompt someone to write negative comments on a video where a person is updating people with his cancer. If someone ever did that I see no good intention behind it. Please stay strong and much love! Nikola from Montenegro

Paul, let's wait and see what the pet scans show. It could be something that the doctors can cure with little discomfort but with amazing results for your future. Please don't think the end is near. Sending you love and only positive thoughts.

I'm not easily shocked at my advanced age, but the idea that anyone would deliberately hurt you -- you, of all people -- enrages me. Love, good thoughts, and prayers from L.A.

I’m so glad you have Caroline in your life. We can all channel out love for you through her. The world wouldn’t be so bad if we all had a Caroline in our lives. Thinking of you Paul ❤

Paul, I’m in Houston and have been following your journey. I love you so much! ❤ I wish we could have met and had some beer or wine from time to time. You are an amazing person in so many ways. I have prayed for you and will keep praying for you. I am Christian and recently became Catholic and what I know is this: the love of God is an infinite ocean. He loves you. So many of us love you. For every one comment posted, I bet there are 10 lurkers who love you too. That’s it. I just wanted to raise my hand as one of those hundreds of silent lurkers.

I’m so sorry, Paul ❤️🇨🇦

This world becomes more disappointing to me as time goes on. How anyone could write any negative comments to such a nice person like you is beyond me. I'm so glad you have Caroline.

We got your six Paul. Nobody walks alone. You take a step, we take a step with you.

I am really praying for you Paul. There is hope in Jesus.

Dearest Paul, I’d like to share these words with you that I think you’ll find beautiful. Someone had recently shared them with a man that has terminal cancer and they are too beautiful and meaningful not to share with you. “Cancer is so limited…..it cannot cripple LOVE, it cannot shatter HOPE, it cannot corrode FAITH, it cannot eat away at PEACE, it cannot destroy CONFIDENCE, it cannot kill FRIENDSHIP, it cannot shut out MEMORIES, it cannot silence COURAGE, it cannot invade the SOUL, it cannot reduce EXTERNAL LIFE, it cannot quench the SPIRIT, it cannot lessen the power of the RESURRECTION.” These are such powerful words! You are so brave to share your journey with everyone. I know your story will help those facing the same fate.

Paul, there is nothing wrong about crying. I‘m crying right now. I did not expect these bad news, as your scan results were quite promising. Life is so mean and unfair sometimes. I‘ve been thinking about you constantly these last few weeks, hoping that you were doing o.k. 😢 Just the other day I damaged the driver‘s door of my Toyota Aygo and rewatched your video about paint codes. Until I found your channel I had never followed a RU-vidr, but you made it into my heart… You give us so much. I wish I could help, but there is nothing I can do but sending as much love and care as I can As always ❤ Bettina/Germany

Prayers for you. I also have Peritoneal carcinoma and I also have nodules in my lungs AND a 2nd DVT in my legs. I was not a candidate for CRS/HIPEC. I’m really scared as I know you are. God be with you Paul❣️ Much Love from the state of Arkansas, USA❤

I’m sorry to hear this terrible news Paul. But let’s wait and see what the PET scan shows. I actually was half expecting you to be well on the way to recovery but it seems I was wrong about that. I’d recommend taking the available treatment. I remember a guy once say “it’s not over till it’s over.” And this can be true. There’s always a chance of a miracle, even if it’s not a very big chance. Sending you lots of love

Paul. I'm so very sorrowful to hear this! Please know that, if it's okay with you, I'll keep you in my mind, in a bubble surrounded by light, by peace and serenity and love! Right now, it's a period of shock, I imagine, for you. Yet that will change, to were you'll feel super peaceful. At this time though, you must cry. Cry all you need to cry! Shout all you need to shout! And if it's okay with you, your supporters and special loving friends, will catch you and be with you, all the way and as long as you want/need! 🫂✨🙏🏼✨🫂🤗 With you in thought and in spirit, sweet Paul! From here, in Central Texas, love, Anne-Marie🌵🪻🌵🙋🏻‍♀️

If I were you, you know what i'd do? I'd go to that cockatoo park, go on a rafting trip, go exploring somewhere! Unless your feet hurt too awfully much... but still, I would go out as much as i physically could and enjoy this wonderful world (or just australia) today! Living in the day and moment would be good, rather than dwelling on health issues... which is fine if you want to of course, but going out and having fun will brighten you up, I'm sure of it! Love you! Love and Light sent your way!!

I’m sorry to hear that Paul.. 😕Wishing you loads of strength! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

Hello from Canada. I'll say a prayer for you at Mass tomorrow, Paul.

Hello, fellow warrior! So glad you’ve decided to come back. No one should have to die-or live-without their community around them. I selfishly hope that you will keep fighting. I know that my world is definitely better with a little Paul in Perth in it. Sending love to all us Paul in Perthers ❤

Dear Paul, I wish you Nothing but the best. You are such a beautiful soul..... I still hope for a miracle. ❤ Best wishes from Austria!

Will continue to pray for total healing. No one says it's over except the Lord. ❤

Love to you Paul. So brave yet tender. I feel like crying is a release. We on here ALL love you.

Thanks Paul for coming in and updating us. I hope that when my time comes I can go peacefully and not fighting. I hope you can find peace too. Sending you peace and love.

With God all things are possible! God bless you friend. ❤

Paul I'm so sorry to hear of this news. I think you're fortunate to live in a place that offers voluntary euthanasia. I'm in Kentucky and we don't have that here. I really hope that the PET scan gives you better news than expected. Wishing you the best!

Paul, you’re one of the strongest people Ive seen in RU-vid. Showing your experience to the world to help others. Sharing the bad news without blaming anyone, and sharing your feelings. I admire you. You deserve the best.

I dont know why people bother commenting negative things. You don't need it, no one does. Sending love from nsw

Just started listening but right off the bat….good for you for deleting negative commenters. There is no room in any ones life for negativity let alone dealing with cancer. You are a hero in my eyes 😘

It’s hard to wait, I know - I have 3 kinds of cancer - We fellow cancer patients are pulling for you! I’ll be praying for you! You are not alone - Love from the States, Julie from California 💕

Much love to you, Paul. I’m not terminal but I’m living with an extremely debilitating condition. I know how hard life can be. However much time you have left, I hope you find as much joy as possible. You should be proud of the legacy you’ll be leaving here.

Paul, you are an incredible person. It has been such an honor to get to know you through your channel. As a terminal 35 year old, your outlook and strength has helped me tremendously. All the love from the USA. ❤

Good for you, Paul! There are some terrible bullies out there. Those bullies aren't trying to share their points of view. They are just being bullies. So, yes. I think it's a great idea to block them.

Thank you for choosing to be brave by sharing your journey with people around the globe. It really does make a difference to people in so many different ways. I'm a therapist and glean a lot of wisdom from your courageous journey. You are really a wonderful human being. I wish you peace and serenity on your journey, whatever you decide it will be. Lots of love and blessings sending from Ireland. 💚☘💚

Oh Paul, I hope that your grief lifts slightly so that you can have some happy times. Please don’t consider VAD too early. My mother passed 18 months ago of Pancreatic cancer. 7 weeks after diagnosis it was all over. However in that time , all her 4 adult children moved back home to nurse her, we had happy hour, talked, invited our pets on her bed, we sang to her. The moments of joy she had balanced the passing feelings of grief and dispair. She died in her own home, in her gorgeous bedroom and she had all her children there. Her job was done and we have no regrets on how we handled the last days. Love and strength to you, and I hope you can find joy in the smallest things… as that is what life is really about. Snippets of joy. 💕💕

Paul I will continue to pray for you. You have been a great inspiration for me as my hubby is battling cancer. I know that whatever you do is the right thing for you . Crying for me is healing and releases my hurt! I am so sad to hear this news. You have been through a lot. Also still trying to heal from surgery. I pray for your tears to lesson for you as that is what you want. You are a wonderful soul. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! Much love from the US!

So glad to see you Paul. Truly. I'm sorry the results were not good but please know we've got nothing but love for ya over here! All the best from Toronto Canada xo

Gutted to hear your news Paul. So proud you are still helping others when it would be understandable for you to focus only on yourself. I hope you feel our support and love. ❤

As decades come and go not enough research is done with cancer ! It seems tough hoping the best for you 🙏

Just come across this video Paul. From conception to natural death, all life is precious. Praying for you brother, super super sorry to hear about your situation

Paul, I am so sorry to hear the news tonight. My heart my love and my prayers are with you. As a person battling cancer, I just want to thank you for all the good advice and wisdom you are imparting. It is very helpful and comforting to hear your advice for navigating this awful disease. You are a treasure and a rare gift, and I am WITH you. Thank you for showing the world how to live life genuinely and with such dignity. ❤️❤️❤️ -Jean

Big hug, Paul! Whatever others or you feel, you are very brave in sharing these moments. When you can, extract happiness from small things.❤

Paul you touched my life and helped me value the time I have here. Sometimes blessings can come from very unfortunate experiences. You’ve enriched my life half way around the world. Prayers for you, Paul.

Just sending some love your way Paul, have been thinking about you a lot this week. Xxx

What a powerful video. You are a good man and we appreciate you documenting this for us. None of us know exactly what's in store, but you must enjoy every day, even if that means rest and self care. Thank you Paul. ❤

So sorry you have had to suffer with that horrific operation, only for the cancer to return. Sending love to you.

God Bless, you Paul. Prayers and good vibes sent your way. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

PnP So glad to see you looking well. I am a CCRN in MD-US. I am here for you to support you and send good vibes and many big bear hugs your way. I will respect whatever you decide. I will be awaiting your PET scan results and your talk w your oncologist. It is ok to cry. Don't hold it in. I am glad you have Francine to talk with. Wishing you sunshine & Rainbows🌈 Give my love to your bros, Ricky and Sweet Caroline. Take care my friend.

i’ve watched your videos before and had no idea i wasn’t a subscriber…. Now I am!! sending my thoughts and prayers your way mate, i just hate seeing people have to go through cancer… Stay strong!!!!

Dear Paul, There's no shame in honest tears. You are very brave and special to share your journey..

Sending love and prayers Paul. Thank you for sharing with us. ❤

Always supportive of you, mate! Know that it is not over till the fat lady sings. Having had one stage 2, two stage 3"s, one stage 4, had the last rites/sacraments at age 22, survived last year's 5-12 months prognoses, I am still around. Stranger things have happened. Keep going, just keep going.

Paul, i rarely comment here but i felt led to. Good for you for deleting negative comments. I wish more people would follow your idea instead of complaining about those comments and leaving them up. I worked on an oncology floor and bless you. I hope your medical team can keep you comfortable and I wish you could sleep. I believe in God and I’m going to keep you in my prayers. Sending love and gentle hugs

❤ Paul, I will always be with you along your journey and please.Know that you have given much much more than a list for people to go by. You have given so much of yourself your experiences.Your thoughts, your energies?And I applaud you for that. I'm one of your mates from the U.S and i'm glad that carolyn is with you. Cheers Mary❤

Stay strong my Friend 💪💪 all over Love from the U.K. ❤️❤️praying for you 🙏🙏

Paul praying for you! I was so hopeful that you were on the mend. Please don’t give up hope keep fighting.

I care…along with so many ❤Your strength & vulnerability is inspiring. You are loved, Paul.

Sending hugs from the US. We are praying for you, Paul❤️‍🩹

We're with you Paul. Sending prayers, hugs and positive thoughts. 💙🙏💙

I just want to give you a big hug! Nice to see you back and I am thinking about you.

Paul, I've been following your videos for the past year, after getting Jenny Appleford's channel and yours recommended to me. (Still tollowing Kyle too) I've been absolutely astounded by the honesty and thoroughness with which you share your experience perservering through this illness. Cant imagine why you would feel obliged to pursue employment at any time in the last year. You should clearly be exempt from needing to do so, though I know not many communities support ill persons like that. Ultimately what I wanted to express is gratitude for all of yourself and your knowledge that you've shared here, and hope that you are able to do as much of what you want to do with the rest of your time. If you are capable of travelling, I would host you in my home state, show you around, and help you achieve a bucket list item.

Paul from Perth, I have been watching you from Jamaica 🇯🇲 before your surgery and I have been routing for you.

Paul...you are kind and the soft...yet strong and brave .. ❤

Sorry I haven’t been on U tube and have missed you. I am praying really hard for God to bless you and help you through this difficult time.

Here is another positive comment for you … thank you for all you have done to help people understand what it takes to go through this. We all leave this world but some of us leave it a better place and that is you x You will have helped more people than you will ever know ❤❤

Oh, Paul, I am so sorry to hear this news. Praying the doctors come up with a plan that is suitable to you . Sending prayers.

I'm wishing you all the best. I started watching you as your video was a recommendation from watching Jenny Apple. I have Stage 4 cancer too. Good for you deleting the negative comments. Not need for them.

Paul, tears are therapeutic. You are brave and courageous. You will make the right decision for you. Thinking of you.

Paul, I have been following your journey, but never commented. However, I wanted to let you know that you are very brave and you have the right priorities. It's your life...live it on your terms now. So much is chosen for us, but how we choose to live each day belongs to us (until it doesn't 😢). Live on YOUR terms. ❤

So great to hear from you, Paul! You've made an impact on so many people in the world. We are with you all the way!

Sending you prayers, love, and support as you go forward Paul. You are such a wonderful person. We are with you.

Paul so so sorry to hear this news. One day at a time. Keep the faith, we are,praying for you. ❤️ Sharon

As much as it breaks me, I'm glad to see you cry as weird as that sounds... Can't get past the pain without sitting in it. Hate to see those numbers! It has been a joy walking with you on this most difficult journey.

My first time coming across you. I don't know you, but I'm going to pray for a healing from God for you. As long as there is breath in your body never give up.♥️🙏

I'm so grateful for you Paul. I've learned so much from you along your journey and my life has been greatly enhanced by all that you've shared. Thank you. My prayers continue for you my friend. Peace and Love, Elizabeth from NC

Hi Paul. I too, am in Perth. Recently underwent cancer surgery and now recovering. Just wanted to say I think you are such a brave person and you have shown so much strength. There is nothing wrong with you crying and pleased don’t feel bad about it. You’re an amazing person.

Paul all you need to know is how happy people are to see your face again. So glad to have you back. Let’s see how the next 4 weeks go but for now all I know is my life is improved now your videos are back in it. Sending love and care.

I have great respect for you - you are a very brave man. Only my best wishes go out to you.

Have only started watching your videos recently but I’m thinking of you and blown away by how brave you are. Thank you for sharing so authentically what must be an impossible daily battle. I’m sorry I don’t have more eloquent words but I just wanted to you to know a lot of people really care about you despite the haters. Sending hugs.

Paul, I had a bad feeling when you decided to do a break. I was praying things were coming along better and the neuropathy wasn't just killing you with pain. I'm so sorry this news makes me sick. I'm behind you 100% whatever you choose Paul. With all the hell you have been through and are going through it makes me not so horribly scared to face my recent diagnosis. Well, I'll admit I'm scared to death but watching you has changed a lot for me. I do get so angry that all of our daily activities and adventures are supposed to be fun and happy not suffering minute by minute. You take care Paul. Please see your goat friend if possible. Much love and blessings.

I’m gutted to hear this Paul. After all you’ve been through - the big operation and months of recovery, this is devastating news. 😢 You are an amazing human being - so kind, gentle and loving to everyone you come into contact with. I’m sorry you are going through this.

I’m so sorry to hear the bad news Paul I’ve been following your story for a while now and I’m absolutely devastated that the cancer is progressing. Hang in there and know that so many people including myself are thinking of you at this difficult time.❤