dean & castiel || clutching at straws [+15x17] 

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"For I'm so scared of losing you
And I don't know what I can do about it" ♥
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does anyone else need a distraction from the shitfest they call the US election right now? cause I do. so I threw myself headfirst into destiel angst, just like I have over the past week.
we all know by now that cas will be gone after episode 18. I know he'll die, trust me I KNOW that, but it still feels absolutely unreal that he probably won't even be in the finale. I've had a hard time coming to terms with that and it still doesn't sit right with me. I am so, so devastated about it, more than I am about his death because honestly, I always figured he'd die at the end.
all that aside, can you believe they confirmed our cas is the ONLY cas that didn't follow god's plan? by chosing dean he literally defied the rules of their universe, and by continiously chosing dean and the family they build they keep defying it. this is it, this is the hill I'm chosing to die on. I don't give a fuck what anyone else says, this is THE trope on top of all the other tropes they've thrown at this relationship for more than a decade and there's no more pretending that this is platonic in any shape or form. cas is IT, he's the wild card, he's the one chuck could never control, he's the one who turned his back on everything he knew, everyone he considered his family, because he put his faith and his love into this one human being that he pulled out of hell. the sheer power of their story is uncomparable.
their relationship runs so deep, it feels like the more you get into it, the more layers you uncover and the more you realise how deeply they changed each other to their cores. I am absolutely not ready to say goodbye to them and what they've meant to me, I'm not ready to see THEM saying goodbye to each other and I'm not ready to see dean grieve cas again, even if it's my ultimate weakness.
I just.... I'm not ready.
so I tried to put every bit of sadness, gratitude, frustration and of course the love I have for them in this video. I hope it shows, especially because I've been holding off vidding this song for a looong time.
"I don't wanna know who I am without you" yes, this song was written for them. bye.
Couple: Dean & Castiel
Show: Supernatural
Song: • agape - bear's den lyrics
Editing: Malagenabolakaful
Colouring: no air by the happiness project ♥
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