Depression sucks. I just want you to know I miss you. And I'm sorry. 

Been there sweetheart, right down in the depths. It's so hard. No one can understand unless they have been through it. Know that it isn't your fault and it WILL pass. And NO shame at all although I know your brain at the moment won't hear that. YOUR BRAIN IS LYING TO YOU AT THIS TIME. It's making you feel all the negative shit. You are loved. And you don't need fixing. Your brain won't hear any of this either but your eyes can read it. Remember it isn't you, it's your brain having a big ole foggy moment. Keep telling yourself this every day. Keep fighting because it will pass. The dark fog will lift again. It's a passing moment in your life, it isnt permanent. Im so proud of you for making this video when youre in the depths of a depressive episode. It's important and will help lots of people. You just did an amazing thing at the toughest of times! Amazing woman. x Sending lots of love and strength. You got this. Keep going, even if its just to wake up the next day and lay in bed :) THATS a big achievement right now. And it's enough. YOU ARE ENOUGH. xx

"The life I'm cultivating " this makes me cry ,this kind words you just said made me tell Myself I can start again, thank you very much

I’m going through a rough patch right now too. I’ve struggled with severe mental illness for over half my life now. Depression, agoraphobia, social phobia, adhd etc. It’s incredibly hard for me to function and I probably wouldn’t be able to on my own yet. As we both know, healing isn’t linear. We get better and we get worse with outside stressors. Or even for reasons we can’t understand. When I feel like this I just try my best to remember that this too shall pass. I’ll be better again. And I’ll have learned something new. Maybe a new way to cope going forward. Maybe a new perspective on how my mind works and how fickle it can be. Right now you’re not failing, you’re surviving. We don’t tell someone struggling with a serious prolonged physical illness that their best isn’t good enough. We can’t let ourselves do that to us. Even if it’s mental it can feel so out of your control that it’s like you’re not yourself. Like something else hijacked your brain and took over. You are having so much energy depleted just trying to hang on for the ride. It’s totally okay that you’re not able to put content out right now. It might be nigh impossible to love yourself right now, but try to give yourself grace. You’re doing the best you can with the cards you’ve been dealt. That’s not laziness or failure. It’s incredibly difficult. Especially when you’re in the thick of it like right now. Reach out to the people you love and trust. Tell them if you’re not doing well that day. Sometimes even that’s enough to take the edge off for me. To not feel so alone with it all. I hope putting this video out will feel relieving for you in that way. I’m glad you have a good therapist in your corner! That can be very helpful. You’re not alone and you’re loved! I’m wishing the best for you.💜

So happy to see u. Please hang in there. We miss u too.

Self-love is an ongoing odyssey, full of ups & downs, not a destination. We journey together, hand-in-hand.

I just found your channel! please take your time. All I can say is I’ve been there and I’m still in that dark patch in my life. The only thing that’s keeping me here is BTS concert I really want to see them so that’s been my motivation for right now💜 thank you for being courageous and recording this video, thank you!

I'm going through the same thing,sending you love💜💜💜

Don’t be sorry, I have been there, if it wasn’t for BTS I would not be here! and medication and therapy! I love you! I do miss you, take care of you first, I’m here always!💜💜💜💜💜

I haven't even started watching the video, but I feel for you deeply. Let me tell you, hang in there, Ashley, good things come to those who wait. Just take the time to really breathe, and eventually, all will fall into place. Depression feels like a heavy blanket under which you sweat and struggle and suffocate, but it's just that, a blanket. Because it's so hard to think and breathe under it, our minds tend to panic and fail to see that we need only be able to slither an arm out and lift it up a bit to get some fresh air. I send you all my love, purple sister!

do not be sorry Take your time to heal I just want you to know that I love you so much and you are such a beautiful and kind person I hope you love yourself, forgive yourself, accept yourself, and accept all your imperfections, because this is who you are This is what makes you unique and different from others You are with 7 people and ARMYs from all over the world😘💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 I am from Egypt

Sending you a big warm hug 🤗

Hey I suffer also, and no one has the right answers. Hope you get through this!

A big hug for you!! Do not be to hard for yourself!!❤️❤️💜💜🥰🥰

Hi, Ashley!! I've missed you so so so much. I always still do watched your video now and then. I don't know but to be really honest, I do not love myself enough too, everyday but i'm still here and here with you, all of you, nothing is certain for me, for everyone, everyday. But At the end of the day whatever you do, you rule your life. Please be ok, for yourself. I LOVE YOU AND I'LL WAIT HERE FOR YOU! THANK YOU ASHLEY FOR BEING BRAVE 💜 Fighting! SENDING MY LOVE AND HUGS! 💜

hope you're doing as good as possible, wishing all the besh for you lovely ❤❤❤ hope it all gets better

Miss you so much ❤ Thinking of you and rooting for you always

Hi Ashley-Sue so glad to see you here. We have missed you and been worried about you. Please know that you are loved by this community. Sending you lots of love and hugs. ♥♥

Hi Ashley, please don’t feel like you have failed us or the purpose of your channel, because the community you built based on your honesty, genuine soul and talent for video absolutely remains, whether you are cheerful or struggling with depression. Your humanity touches my soul to the deepest. I send you the warmyest of hugs 💜

I hope you are doing well and doing better. I just wanted to tell you that you've got this and you can do it! Please take care of yourself and remember that BTS loves you!

I don't know if you'll see this but from time to time I come back to your channel to see how you're doing, I hope you're hanging in there, we're here for you 💜 Apobangpo

Echoing what others wrote: you are truly loved.

Been thinking about you and praying for you. You have not failed, you are still here, fighting! That is a huge win. I hope you can remember that there are people who love and care about you and you do deserve that love. I pray that you can find your way back to loving yourself again. Take care of yourself Ashley, always here whenever you’re ready. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Van jezelf houden is niet gemakkelijk, ik hoop dat je een weg vindt om van jezelf te houden, wees niet te hard voor jezelf!!! Hoe veel keer je op de grond valt niet wel de keren dat je terug opstaat!!! Sterkte toegewenst uit België wij,ARMY houden van je: op van de grond!!!!💜💜❤️❤️🥰🥰

I’ve been so worried about you, don’t be sorry. You do you. We are here when you need us. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through a bad moment. I had been wondering if I'd lost track of your channel. Working with a therapist is the best thing you can do to get out of this difficult period. I hope it passes soon. You're in my thoughts

You do not have anything to be ashamed of. You have a lot on your plate - even on a good day - to deal with. I hope you find your way back to loving yourself again. You are most definitely deserving of that. Until then, know that there are a lot of us out here that are rooting for you! Feel free to reach out anytime. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

It’s really good to see you! Please take care of yourself and your needs as you see fit. We get it, and we will be here!

Borahea, Army purple you, we love you. Bangtanies love you. Fight the negative feelings dear. Stay fighting 💪🏻. Like RM says give thanks or enjoy the little things in life. Live in the present. Look at the sun, sky, rain and smile...and be thankful. One step at a time dear. Sending hugs and warmth from Malaysia. 💜

sending you so much love!

It’s ok to turn things off and take a break from it all. Take as much time as you need, it’s your life, it’s your timeline. You have to take care of yourself and your mental health before you can take care of others.

Please stop being so hard on yourself! You are a beautiful human being and no-one is blaming you! Take your time! We are here ❤

Cheer up!!

I’m new here but I have gotten to know your Canadian friend. I’ve been where you are over the past 30+ years. Remember that you’re struggling not because you have failed in any way or disappointed anyone, not even yourself. You are not lying to anyone, not even yourself. It’s your brain chemistry that is making you feel this way, that brain chemistry that fuels the depression and makes you feel unlovable or unworthy. Don’t be ashamed for something you have no control over. Your brain isn’t processing the Serotonin chemicals that you need to feel better. You have taken a step forward just by being honest about how you’re feeling and making this video. Talk to this good therapist that has helping you about medication that is available to help you cope with this temporary setback. Please know that it is temporary. This too shall pass but I know it’s very painful and difficult to see the light at the end of a long dark tunnel. Just remember that you are never alone in life or this community. Talking and making your videos will never be trouble. Even this took great courage, effort and honesty to be this vulnerable. Please ask your doctor about medication. There’s no shame in getting help and it doesn’t mean that it’s a lifelong commitment but maybe a temporary solution that you can’t do on your own. Please take good care of yourself. That’s the only thing that matters right now. Borahae. Be kind to yourself. You are truly loved. 🫰🏻💜🇨🇦

you are in my thoughts from time to time. b12 is really important, most people are low, it really affects mood. it even should be taken in the morning bc it gives an energy boost, if taken late it might affect ability to fall asleep. the best one if you can afford it is by Vimergy, liquid alcohol-free is best, and you want one that is a combination of methylcobalamin and adenosylcobalamin, very important. this is all per The Medical Medium. Try it i'm sure you'll see it makes a difference, and of course as you must already know, the importance of physical exercise, especially one that makes you go fast. walking is the best exercise but if you're trying to lift mood, speedwalking is best, etc. once i even worked out twice a day and shortly my world changed 180 degrees, a new world depression free

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Hey Ashley, where you are is I’m at every day… you get through the other end of where you are now. You shouldn’t feel shame, depression is hard and overwhelming. It starts out of nowhere and before you’re deep inside of it. I had days of depression that took me to a dark place and I posted my depression state on Facebook and my friends told me that they were there for me. Your depression is hard just like another person who has depression. You need always to cope, and breathe and we are here for you. You are loved. It takes one of feeling better moment and you can dig yourself out of your current situation. ✌👍😉

I miss ur reactions to bts especially jimin ❤❤❤ plz cheer up everyone has hardships. 😂😂😂

Just Love You!

Don't be apologetic, depression is disease and you cannot help feeling the way you feel. I wish I was able to help, but if there is any, please don't hesitate to ask for it.

I love You

We love you so much I love you so much

힘내세요

Big hug🫂🫂🫂. It will pass surely💜. Just hang in there🫂🫂🫂. Take your time. I will be here no matter what🫂🫂🫂

hi i wanted to check to see if you're taking B12, if people are low the difference can be night and day 💜

It's March 21, 2024 and where is Ashley?

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한국어를 배우는 것은 어떨까요? 집중하면 힘든 시간도 덜 느끼고 빨리 지나가지 않을까요? BTS가 완전체로 돌아왔을 때 그들의 모든 것을 바로 알아들을 수 있으면 조금이라도 더 행복하고 자신이 이룬 성취감을 느끼지 않을까요? 힘내세요~💜 그리고 추가로 당신은 '육아우울증'인 것 같습니다. 병원이나 주위에 도움을 청하세요~~💜

i really hope nothing i said made you feel bad in any way? i know from experience that inner voice can be so critical and make oneself feel bad for everything. i learned about gratitude awareness from a very special spiritual mentor. she counseled thousands around the world for free over the telephone, and she said it helped thousands, the affirmation is : "I AM WELL, HAPPY AND AT PEACE WITHIN" just repeat it and you will feel better. also, words are powerful, and even during your therapy sessions, it's important to choose words carefully. for example, it's better to put things in the past tense, instead of present tense. anything after the phrase "I am _________________" is underscored and given energy by the words we affirm. so for example, if you HAVE to talk about something, you can refer to "when I WAS feeling this way" and also never CLAIM something (if you name something you claim it) for example, never say "MY depression" take care of yourself, you keep that oxygen mask on yourself, why are you feeling so responsible for being "anything" for the guys? or any of your subscribers? last, after you have reached out and expressed yourself, and those who care about you likely have received your message and update, i don't know,.... i personally might think it better to delete this video in that, eg, if i were a celebrity i would NEVER tell the public if there was a health issue going on bc of what's known as "the observer effect." there have apparently been experiments with plants that show that things shift based on what was believed about them by observers. two groups were told something different about the plants, and the plants shifted based on what was believed about them by the observors. if this is true, then my seeing you as depressed is actually unfortunately having an effect on you :(((( maybe even by revisiting your page, i actually gave energy to this so i am catching myself, i will try to forget the idea of thinking of you needing help with your mood, and needing your mood elevated, i will hold space and the idea of you JOYFUL and CELEBRATING YOUR LIFE/EXIStENCE and enjoying every moment as you so deserve💜💜