I'm a Dynamite ARMY with a story maybe like your own... I thought everything was over, in the darkest moment of my life when BTS reached their hands out and gave me breath. Somehow I felt even lonelier after I fell in love with BTS, as people in my life could NOT understand. I KNEW that wasn't right, though, as I was coming alive again. So I started videos about loving BTS, desperately looking for someone who understood. One by one, I met you, and began to love myself, seeing love and life with very different eyes. BTS and ARMY gave me friendship, helped me find my soul, and showed me I have reasons to love myself, too. Now as we heal and love together, we are confident to be in this Bangtan sh** for life. We know that we don't need permission. We work to spread our wings, love freely, shine like the stars, and pour our purple hearts everywhere we go. So, let's go!
I was coerced into getting a tubal ligation at 19 years old back in 2008 (I'm 34 now) by my narcissistic father. I could legally refuse but, I was terrified of the thought of my independence being dangled like a carrot from a stick because my father hated the fact that I was disabled and didn't want my "Bad genes" messing up his gene pool. For years, I've been emotionally destroyed by this to the point of developing ptsd. I still remember sitting in that wheelchair and feeling betrayed by someone who was supposed to love me. But it's taken me years to figure out, I was just a source of money for his greed. I'm still processing that even after I cut off contact with him and reconnected with my mother a couple of years ago. I don't know how to approach the whole forgiveness thing because he thinks he did nothing wrong and blames me for everything. I still want to have kids but I still have to find the right guy that would make a great husband for me. PS. I'm ARMY too! 💜
Aw...I'm so sorry I missed your livestream. It started at 6 am my time, but I would have set my alarm if I'd know. Happy belated Birthday. Missed you and love you!
It was lovely to catch some of your live, Ashley Sue. I like you want to go to South Korea. I can understand maybe wanting to go when the guys are out of the military even though we know we would never see them, you would feel that bit closer to them. Wishing you a Happy 2024 and hope we get to see you on here again soon. I think December or March would be nice time to visit. Sending you a bit hug from New Zealand.
Oooh, you're back! I just got the notification, so I haven't watched your video yet. But I wanted to express my joy at seeing you again. I wish you a wonderful 2024 with many happy moments. 💜✨
I have just watched your video. I just want to send you my support from afar for everything you are living through, and I am just very, very thankful that you are here because you are such a beautiful person. You are loved, really. And although I don't know you personally, I have to say I don't know Bangtan personally either, and yet I have come to the conclusion that this feeling I have for them is real. I wish you the best !
What an awesome collab, the visuals and vocals were amazing! How come I didn’t find you earlier! It was great meeting and talking to you at TaeJin cupsleeve!💜💜
I feel , what you feel,, i love jin so much as i love bts,, there nothing wrong expressing our love to bts because they are the one teaches us self love and that is why we also give them love,, proud of you,,
I don't know if you'll see this but from time to time I come back to your channel to see how you're doing, I hope you're hanging in there, we're here for you 💜 Apobangpo
i really hope nothing i said made you feel bad in any way? i know from experience that inner voice can be so critical and make oneself feel bad for everything. i learned about gratitude awareness from a very special spiritual mentor. she counseled thousands around the world for free over the telephone, and she said it helped thousands, the affirmation is : "I AM WELL, HAPPY AND AT PEACE WITHIN" just repeat it and you will feel better. also, words are powerful, and even during your therapy sessions, it's important to choose words carefully. for example, it's better to put things in the past tense, instead of present tense. anything after the phrase "I am _________________" is underscored and given energy by the words we affirm. so for example, if you HAVE to talk about something, you can refer to "when I WAS feeling this way" and also never CLAIM something (if you name something you claim it) for example, never say "MY depression" take care of yourself, you keep that oxygen mask on yourself, why are you feeling so responsible for being "anything" for the guys? or any of your subscribers? last, after you have reached out and expressed yourself, and those who care about you likely have received your message and update, i don't know,.... i personally might think it better to delete this video in that, eg, if i were a celebrity i would NEVER tell the public if there was a health issue going on bc of what's known as "the observer effect." there have apparently been experiments with plants that show that things shift based on what was believed about them by observers. two groups were told something different about the plants, and the plants shifted based on what was believed about them by the observors. if this is true, then my seeing you as depressed is actually unfortunately having an effect on you :(((( maybe even by revisiting your page, i actually gave energy to this so i am catching myself, i will try to forget the idea of thinking of you needing help with your mood, and needing your mood elevated, i will hold space and the idea of you JOYFUL and CELEBRATING YOUR LIFE/EXIStENCE and enjoying every moment as you so deserve💜💜
you are in my thoughts from time to time. b12 is really important, most people are low, it really affects mood. it even should be taken in the morning bc it gives an energy boost, if taken late it might affect ability to fall asleep. the best one if you can afford it is by Vimergy, liquid alcohol-free is best, and you want one that is a combination of methylcobalamin and adenosylcobalamin, very important. this is all per The Medical Medium. Try it i'm sure you'll see it makes a difference, and of course as you must already know, the importance of physical exercise, especially one that makes you go fast. walking is the best exercise but if you're trying to lift mood, speedwalking is best, etc. once i even worked out twice a day and shortly my world changed 180 degrees, a new world depression free
also, exercise will help you get a better deeper quality sleep which will great for mood too. the medical medium, if you sign up for the newsletter when you go to his website, does these "Light Blast" healing sessions for free once in a while, i did one recently it was AH-MAZ-ING, and he said he'll try to do another one in about a month, sign up if you want so you'll know when K
ashley have you thought of volunteering? a spiritual mentor i had when i used to get extra depressed said it can really help get out of one's own sphere under the dark cloud
Army should totally stay out if the boy’s lives. Let them live, make mistakes, and do their art. Politics really should be left out. I agree that you should support them all. I’m a relatively new fan and what upsets me is seeing YT channels doing member vs member videos. If people are really fans, they should support and appreciate all 7 members. It’s okay to have a bias, but I don’t like when people put down one member to lift up their bias.
I hope you are doing well and doing better. I just wanted to tell you that you've got this and you can do it! Please take care of yourself and remember that BTS loves you!
I just found your channel! please take your time. All I can say is I’ve been there and I’m still in that dark patch in my life. The only thing that’s keeping me here is BTS concert I really want to see them so that’s been my motivation for right now💜 thank you for being courageous and recording this video, thank you!
Hi, Ashley!! I've missed you so so so much. I always still do watched your video now and then. I don't know but to be really honest, I do not love myself enough too, everyday but i'm still here and here with you, all of you, nothing is certain for me, for everyone, everyday. But At the end of the day whatever you do, you rule your life. Please be ok, for yourself. I LOVE YOU AND I'LL WAIT HERE FOR YOU! THANK YOU ASHLEY FOR BEING BRAVE 💜 Fighting! SENDING MY LOVE AND HUGS! 💜
