this decision makes so much sense for you. may Allah SWT provide you with barakah and make this journey one of ease!! so excited to see where it takes you
the thing about the fig tree analogy is that right after she says all this about the fig tree and feeling frozen and unable to move forward, she eats some dinner and feels better. the moral of the story is that when you’re feeling hopeless and existential, go eat a snack haha
I feel so heard and seen . I was feeling this just today , the feeling of being overwhelmed with endless possibilities that it was crippling. I find myself sitting and wondering about the future and crippled in the present . I’m a freshman in college and I’m not sure what I want to study or pursue but I have the image of what I want my life to be like. I feel so stuck and unsure of myself as a person a woman and a Muslim. And Maybe we want so much in the life that we forget there’s a next life (an observation that just came to me). I pray that Allah gives us all clarity on our life’s purpose and ambitions in this life and allow for us to live beautifully expressive , exciting and comforting lives. I love the inclusion of the poem btw, I loved writing but poems were a sore subject for me but a few always had their exceptions.
I'm actually also in this position and I honestly don't know what to say to anyone. It's like I don't want my family to me concerned with me not being successful but also I would like to speak with them about feeling like there's no way out. (astaghfiruallah). I know for sure that Allah will help me make my decision because he's helped me in past situations but I don't know how many steps I have to take in order for me to feel that I can "tie my camel". Inshallah kheir, inshallah kheir. 😊
@@gonfreecs9387 Yup 6 months later and now a sophomore after that comment. I got my answers from Allah and the black cloud is gone Alhumdulliah, with so much dua and patience I can finally see clearly all thanks due to Allah. Pray your mandatory prayers, always read Quran, always ask for forgiveness and pray tahhajud prayer. You will find your answers💖!
This was sooo beautiful, I had goosebumps towards the end 🥲 especially because I could relate to the fig tree symbolism. I’m married now and constantly ask myself, who and where would I be if I haven’t gotten married.. but as you said, our stories have been written by Allah. In accepting that we might accept the present and only stay in the present without contemplating what might have habe or what might be in the future
The moment i matured was when i realized that i could be all those versions of myself and not limit myself to only one identity. Different experiences, people, ect brings out different versions of youself. So why cant i identify with all of those versions? Its still truly me but those identities were uncovered with time and experiences
sharjah is gorgeous if you're not someone who likes driving everywhere and lucklaster modernism. to each their own! may allah bless you on your new journey shahd
As a fellow traveler who falls in love with each and every place and imagines a life there, this resonates in a deeeeeep level. The indecisiveness, the poem, the travel fatigue. Whew-that’s exactly where I am.
Happy for you! How many muslims wish to make the move to Dubai because of lack of funds, no job or visa. Take advantage or it! From another American Muslim wishing to move to Dubai 😢
Ramadan Mubarak my love! Dubai looks so good on you Allahumma Barik! May Allah swt put much baraqa in your endeavors no matter where you are. JazakAllah Khayran for this reminder of truly letting go and let god (while tying your camel) 😉💐🤍
You have described literally my life as I am 29 and always starting over, I realized trough your video that I am over of starting over end should settle a little bit by taking a decision
Ramadan Mubarak. May Allah make it easy for you wherever he has written for you to be at different phases of your life. Watching your video was peaceful like seeing the ocean and sunset you showed towards the end.
been a witness to several rebranding of yours and this is my favorite one thus far. may الله keep you firm on the deen, strengthen you and accept you into jannah 🌷 ps. love the maxi hijab style. i still stuck at it but im trying
I think this new age of too many options isn't healthy for us human beings. Be it too many clothes, too many options what to eat or where to live or what to study.. it takes so much time and energy to decide. It makes us anxious. And the saddest part: it distracts us from what's REALLY important. Our generation has to teach themselves that as long as we are Muslims and preparing for the hereafter, the other things are just not worth our time. We need to learn how to distinguish between OUR OWN wishes and SOCIETAL PRESSURES. It took me about 8 years to realise that all these inner pressures weren't coming from ME but from everyone else. The minute I said to that inner voice "I do not care about your opinion anymore" I felt like I broke out off invisible chains. Deen + Minimalism = sanity,focus,joy,contentment.
This is so scaryyyy because I’m going through exactly the same thing rn. The lack of commitment to decisions has held led me back but I know whatever decision I make will lead to clarity.
5:19 I think what some would class as contradiction is just authenticity, we are changeable at times and I think that’s fine! Sometimes put down roots, sometimes we have to be open to change Thank you for this video, love following your journey!❤
I love you for the sake of Allah truly. You’ve been an inspiration since the first YT video I’ve watched by you. All of your versions has and will always be inspiring ❤❤
that Silvia Plath Poem used to keep me up at night, until I realized that Allah is Lord and I could literally do ALL and EVERYTHING that I wanted to do, and I've been living that for the past 3 years. Time is an illusion whether you identify as something for 3 minutes or 3 years it is all the same to Allah. Just do it and be it and everything will fall into place...the only eternity is the hereafter.... everything else is just various changes. I'm just loving this new content!! its very inspiring!
May Allah grant you more guidance and make you happy always 🙏 ❤️... you are truly beautiful inside out and an amazing person ❤️... happy to watch ur content again. Bless you ya habeebti ❤
This is golden ! I feel so understood! For many people this is too much and they can’t really grasp it but in both of my families home countries is a brutal war going on and I’m born in the diaspora where the natives hate our Muslim guts and try to limit and restrict us and I don’t know where to settle… where should I go where I’m safe and welcomed…? Middle Eastern countries are breaking my heart because they have their issues aswell…
Wow I'm also very indecisive and have struggled with tying myself to this world. I just never thought that the two were related. Thanks for the insight 🙌🏽🙂
I am so happy for you Shahd, your videos are blooming peace and serenity and I pray that this is how you heart is feeling cause this is how you are making us feel when we watch your videos, Thank you for sharing
I hope this doesn't come out as negative or preachy but as someone who was born and lives in an economically challenged part of the world, I would also like you to recognize (which I am sure you already do) what a privilege it is to have the option to choose to live anywhere in the world. ofc too many options are not a good thing, as you have shown, but just the gratitude of the option of having to choose will also Insha'Allah put blessings in your decision because we all know that when one is grateful Allah SWT increases them in blessings. lots of love to you my beautiful sister in islam
Al khor, Qatar is beautiful, quiet and would recommend you visiting. Top recommendation is the beach there - it is unlike any beach I have ever visited
Dubai…and Abu Dhabi are beautiful! I loved it! I dislike the way the western tourists disrespect the country by wearing bikinis, tight dresses, low-cut clothing showing breasts and similar unacceptable clothing…drinking alcohol publicly, profanity, vulgar music, loud women arguing with profanity , couples hugging and kissing publicly etc
Im so intrigued and overwhelmed by your videos, but it's also difficult to look away. You seem consumed by your thoughts and its not surprising that you enjoy being in control. Why no to the states? Im assuming your family is still here? Where all have you visited? You initially moved to la because it suppprted your influencer career. Now that you feel like you can be anywhere to accomplish you goals, why not move back to family? How do you reconcile not having a mahram while traveling or living in Dubai? Genuinely Seeking to understand, not offend