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Detransitioning after 25 years. From self centredness to surrender 

Call Me Sam
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No-one survives the sincere inquiry into the nature of their own identity. Who am I, why am I, why am I in pain... am I real ?
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@Softtearsofwisdom...
@Softtearsofwisdom... 2 месяца назад
💔We all eat lies when our hearts are hungry...
@ImogenC-rt3fm
@ImogenC-rt3fm 2 месяца назад
Okay WOW! YES! "We all eat lies..."
@joycejeyaratnam433
@joycejeyaratnam433 2 месяца назад
love this quote
@louiseedgar5637
@louiseedgar5637 2 месяца назад
So true
@Sonder0077
@Sonder0077 Месяц назад
This comment is so profound.
@PhilAlumb
@PhilAlumb Месяц назад
Not truly. That's just another trick of the "romantic" mind.
@sarahakin
@sarahakin 2 месяца назад
This is so profound and it's the conversation that needs to happen: the real one. There's a danger in forcing the souls of deeply traumatized people. We must never forget that. Keep doing what you're doing.
@morganm4768
@morganm4768 Месяц назад
Are you trying to police people's lives?
@sarahakin
@sarahakin Месяц назад
@@morganm4768 No, it saddens me to see that. It's utterly pointless.
@permaculturemom9848
@permaculturemom9848 2 месяца назад
I have mourned many years of trauma and even more years of inviting more trauma into my life due to unresolved issues of the initial trauma. Accepting that others won't acknowledge what happened and that I need to move on from what I don't want in my life and that will be framed by others as selfishness is something that I'm finally coming to terms with. Many blessings to you dear Sam. Your eloquent descriptions of your process of healing is in turn very healing to others.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Yes, it is so difficult to let go of that need for resolution found in the simple acknowledgement of our experience by others. Growing past that need is work in progress for me and as you say, we mourn. Blessings to you too. May you find peace. X
@CoalMiningAlchemist
@CoalMiningAlchemist 2 месяца назад
Very well written. If we don't grieve, we end up just swimming in circles down the drain getting worse and losing ourselves.
@anitarose7915
@anitarose7915 2 месяца назад
Me too! I am a Christian and I am so alone I can't handle this anymore.
@anitarose7915
@anitarose7915 2 месяца назад
With all these stories, I can relate even though my story is very different. I am a Christian but so alone I can't handle this life anymore.
@paulacoyle5685
@paulacoyle5685 2 месяца назад
@@anitarose7915please hold on. You are valuable and lovely, although yes, life is full of pain. 😢. I share your faith, as well. God will repay the years the locusts have eaten.
@terrilandry8753
@terrilandry8753 2 месяца назад
The Way, The Truth,and the Life is leading us home.
@cobainzlady
@cobainzlady Месяц назад
Jesus heals and transforms us !
@Niceremark
@Niceremark 2 месяца назад
"You come into contract with the shear immensity of your own brokenness." It couldn't be put any better than that. Its a hell of a journey.
@Liselotteyes
@Liselotteyes Месяц назад
In the brokenness, in our wretchedness is where we find His infinite love for us. It surpasses our reason, a complete mystery. Praise be to God ❤he loves us as we are
@Niceremark
@Niceremark Месяц назад
@@Liselotteyes Liselotte was my grandmother's name.
@rolew7882
@rolew7882 2 месяца назад
Such a deep wisdom to wake up to this morning. So grateful for your fearless peeling back to self. Sitting there in your garden made it easy to focus on your words.
@angelar5321
@angelar5321 2 месяца назад
I too woke to this message. First time here though Sam's channel often appears in my feed. I don't know that I can add further words to the perfection of this moment's experience with Sam.
@themeaningofgender
@themeaningofgender 2 месяца назад
"The catastrophe of the selfish life." Bravo!
@morganm4768
@morganm4768 Месяц назад
Everyone is selfish.
@themeaningofgender
@themeaningofgender Месяц назад
@@morganm4768 that's a cynical comment.
@MrSpudguncat
@MrSpudguncat 2 месяца назад
I'm in an emtyness now I'm beyond who I thought I was, everything and nothing has changed. I just realised I don't exist in the past anymore, there is still yearning to be who I was before, but that I can only do that moving forwards. I've dismantled everything that isn't me and the more I do it the more I am. I hadn't noticed how far away from me I was until I'd spent enough time alone. Who am I can only be lived and not explained is where I'm arriving. Thank you Sam and to anyone asking themselves these questions, I love you ❤ be nice to yourself, that's the difficult bit.
@vivienlee610
@vivienlee610 Месяц назад
You be nice to yourself too...sounds like you've come a long way to finding you. Whatever your beliefs I do pray that God will bless you on your journey. A sudden thought...I feel I'm meeting the real me, bit by bit...it's a strange thing, and I take solace in knowing that we are known by God already and that we are safe in him...sorry if it sounds like a preach, but I know he loves us and is a God of restoration, love and healing. May that continue to be your experience. 🙌
@MrSpudguncat
@MrSpudguncat Месяц назад
@@vivienlee610 I've accepted God n he sends me angels to remind me. Thank you, you've a good message please don't apologise for sharing it ❤️ ever.
@kathyh4804
@kathyh4804 Месяц назад
We all need to spend more time alone… not listening to the distractions of the world! In that quietness we can actually hear our God.
@rickyblythe4951
@rickyblythe4951 Месяц назад
Emptiness is me. I no longer feel anything. I can't forget the past and move on. I feel dead inside. Pretending to be happy in front of others is getting harder.
@haliec496
@haliec496 Месяц назад
I remember my brother coming to me when he was about 15 yrs old. He told me he thought he identified as female. I told him i would be there for him through any journey. I knew he was struggling with being a gay man because in my family that just wouldn't have been acceptable. I believe he thought if he was to be a woman instead of a gay man, then he would be accepted. For many years I supported him coming out, I protected him against my monster of a father. Eventually he was able to accept his true identity as a gay man. Regardless of if he had transitioned, he was my sibling. We have been there for each other all of our lives through familial trauma. I feel sad that not everyone has a person who accepts them for who they are 100%. I wish you love and strength on your journey. You are a beautiful person and you matter. Seeking who you are meant to be is accepting who you are, because you are enough. ❤
@cobainzlady
@cobainzlady Месяц назад
that' s not who he is at all. Why condemn him to that in your own mind? it's the condition he is in after going thru things you hint at. but you being there for him is a good thing. he still needs more help from God. pray for it. God loves him and wants him 100% healed, transformed and enlightened. God wants better for him! same for all others in these dilemmas.
@mynameisntemma167
@mynameisntemma167 14 дней назад
@@cobainzlady This person knows their own brother more than you do. No one needs their gay to be prayed away. The whole point of Sam’s channel is accepting who he is unapologetically, and he’s decided to let us see his journey. This persons brother, it sounds like, went through his own journey of accepting who he is as a gay man. I adore all religious people who can see through the outdated beliefs perpetuated in their teachings and instead love everyone, no matter if they disagree with their lifestyle. It’s not a dilemma to be a homo, it’s a personal bias you have that has no place in society.
@LynnMMorrisKrystalSTAR
@LynnMMorrisKrystalSTAR 2 месяца назад
Keep Going Sam, I have a history of terrible trauma as a child, and we do what we need to do to survive, your a suvivor and you are coming back to core soul self, sending you all my love, we can do this xx
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you Lynn. Wishing you well in your own process. X
@gurubhaikhalsa9337
@gurubhaikhalsa9337 2 месяца назад
You've opened my heart like a little flower blooming this morning. I've never heard anything so wonderfully expressed. Maybe it's just my time to "get it", but thank you for putting so much into perspective. We are already enough. I needed to hear this.
@eleanorbertuch135
@eleanorbertuch135 2 месяца назад
You are quietly send hope to so many❤️
@livingbeings
@livingbeings 2 месяца назад
I have never transitioned or self-harmed in any serious way, but I have self-sabotaged and acted from a place of desperate delusion and been unable to face the reality of shame and selfishness. And I have spent years running away from things that only existed within. I love life and I am grateful every day for the privilege of experience, and the clarity of perspective. All that is to say thank you for sharing your story. There is a sense in which it is universally relatable, or at least for me, despite my very different form and life story. Thank you Sam. Glad to be sharing the world with you.
@cathymadsen2930
@cathymadsen2930 2 месяца назад
I realised after watching this video that my trauma made me transition into drugs. If I were a child today, they would possibly push me into gender transitioning... I was blessed with good therapy from several psychologists over a decade that allowed me to find a true self who did not have to take drugs. I thank God that I had no lasting effects from that time. 🙏
@otsb166
@otsb166 2 месяца назад
@JEHOVAH485
@JEHOVAH485 2 месяца назад
OH MY! "With our attention, we worship". Yes! So profound!
@lindamcauley4728
@lindamcauley4728 2 месяца назад
Belief in God really does help make sense of so many things. God bless you 🙏❤
@AstarteDevi
@AstarteDevi 2 месяца назад
What a treasure you are ❤🙏💜
@JEHOVAH485
@JEHOVAH485 2 месяца назад
Excellent testimony to the Dark Night of the Soul. God Bless you.
@weallmakechoices7456
@weallmakechoices7456 2 месяца назад
Thank you for your wise words. You impart your thoughts in the most mediative and prayerful way. Silence spreads outwards from you and is your great gift.
@lauren4434
@lauren4434 2 месяца назад
His voice feels like a cradle .... listening to him soothes the part of me who cries out endlessly that she's not okay..... Thank you Sam. I hear this voice inside myself too . . . .
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
I hear you Lauren. Though I do feel a dawning peace, there are times I still feel so broken, so much pain and loss, it comes and goes. I think our resistance to actually feeling our own heartbreak causes more suffering. Our capacity to be present with that suffering is far greater than we realise . Healing is feeling, don't stop learning how to feel and all will be well. I wish you peace . Love Sam
@lauren4434
@lauren4434 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam Thank you Sam, I also have been transitioning out of my old self into life. Oddly, lately, I am hearing that I must "protect" that resistance, and all the pain it brings, protect it with all my heart..... I tried for most of my life hating the resistanace, trying to spiritualize it, get rid of it, even "love" it, but I hadn't yet see its truth: it was innocent energy, only misguided. It, too, wanted to be given a job, . It didn't really want to destroy, it didn't really want to be hurtful ..... Sometimes The sensations are immense, over my heart and throat, and they used to scare and confuse me. Now I protect those sensations and bring them back into my body instead of trying to throw them out of my body. They belong to me, and they have such a crucial role in my healing safety. "Crucial" = "crux" = cross = LIFE. God bless Sam.... i'm with you.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
This is helpful to me , thank you.
@lauren4434
@lauren4434 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam I'm glad.... A huge reversal happened to me, where now thee thing that I used to hate and fear, that terrifying inner condemnation and self-hatred, I am now gently protecting within me, and giving it a new respect and importance.... to lift me higher. I read somewhere, and I agree with this statement: "The whole truth can't haunt you if it serves you." It is a most amazing reversal, to find power in your old enemy.
@serendipity1237
@serendipity1237 Месяц назад
@@lauren4434 have you watched “Hi Ren”? People miss the fact that the point of that song is that when you finally stop struggling against the quicksand, you stop sinking, and eventually find firmer ground. (Quicksand metaphor is mine: Ren’s brilliant lyrics much more mirror what you’ve shared here. ❤)
@RobAnderssen
@RobAnderssen 2 месяца назад
Oh, Sam! You are so close! You articulate the reality of the sinful self and the Good News of God’s forgiveness in Jesus Christ better than I do, and I’m a Christian minister. Jesus died in his own flesh, killing sin, so that He could cover yours and restore your true identity as a child of God. This is the answer we Lost people are searching for. God bless you, Sam! He loves you and is drawing you to Himself. It’s beautiful to watch and your vulnerable “testimony” is inspiring. If you haven’t read about Jesus, I commend John’s Gospel to you.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you.
@melindalemmon2149
@melindalemmon2149 2 месяца назад
Sam is a believer, Sir.
@cynthiagawin2991
@cynthiagawin2991 Месяц назад
Amen! Jesus transforms us and fills us with His Spirit! Never to leave us!
@goombabear
@goombabear Месяц назад
Jesus loves Sam.
@emmas3716
@emmas3716 2 месяца назад
Many people are too invested in one decision to the extent that it becomes impossible to then later admit it was the wrong one...so sad. The stories people tell themselves: when I'm slimmer, when I've had cosmetic surgery, when I've transitioned, when I'm rich, when I'm famous whatever....these are like anything in life no guarantee to happiness. And who really even lets themselves believe they have made the wrong decision when everyone around them told them it was the solution. So it must be, but it isn't. You should be applauded for your honesty and more people need to hear this before making such enormous decisions
@Grace-dr8lv
@Grace-dr8lv 2 месяца назад
"We are all already something" ❤ These few words will be on repeat in my mind today. Thank you Sam for being you and rooting for you at this pivotal threshold of discovery. Your honesty and eloquence are a panacea to a lot of the ills and uncertainty of trauma 💓🕊️💕🍀✌🏽🦋🥰
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you .
@equalityforall8418
@equalityforall8418 2 месяца назад
Sam, you are totally fearless. Perhaps you do not think so, but I'm sure many others agree with me. You have the most incredible ability to speak openly, clearly, intelligently, and without fear. Besides being here on RU-vid, I truly believe you could make a huge mark in this world by speaking on stage in front of audiences everywhere as a motivational speaker. I see it. You have that gift.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
That is kind of you but honestly, each video takes a lot of contemplation and introspection and then , I still struggle to let go of what I want to say and surrender , then, something comes out fully formed , spoken from a deeper place of understanding. Hopefully, this will get easier now but still, work in progress. .
@ThrdWrldGrl
@ThrdWrldGrl Месяц назад
Hey let’s not push the man. In due time. In due time. Read Ecclesiasticus 😅
@lisao9486
@lisao9486 2 месяца назад
I am so grateful to have discovered your channel. There is so much conversation today about transition and detransition this is so far outside what I have known and understood in my life. To find someone so openly sharing these experiences is so helpful to me in my struggle to understand. Thank you so much for your courage to share your experiences.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you
@cindywhitehead9393
@cindywhitehead9393 Месяц назад
Thank you. 'We're all just walking each other home.' Ram Dass
@mariaetheridge8343
@mariaetheridge8343 2 месяца назад
Bless you, Sam - you are well on your way! Well done - we support you all the way. Sorry I can't donate; I'm a widow living in Cyprus but my heart is with you in your quest.
@rosannejohansen7167
@rosannejohansen7167 2 месяца назад
Thank you Sam. I have never identified with anyone ever like you. Trauma does this exact thing.There is a solution. You speak it. I thank you from the bottom heart.
@DivaKazza
@DivaKazza 2 месяца назад
Dearest Sam, I’m sending you the biggest hug. Healing trauma is deeply painful. I live with a condition called Moebius syndrome, and the main characteristics are the underdevelopment of the 6th and 7th cranial nerves responsible for eye movement and facial expression. For decades I ignored my condition and felt deep shame, with a deep need to be loved. I was abused by my mother. I’m having a wobble at the moment, but know that I am just peeling another layer away to get ever closer to my true authentic self. You are an inspiration to be sharing your story so publicly, and showing your vulnerability. You are a true inspiration, and I send you so much love on this journey of healing ❤️xxx
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Hello. Gosh ! it is hard being here, being human. I'm sorry your mother was abusive and for how you suffered. When someone writes such a personal comment, I often have a look at their channel. I looked at yours. The human voice is such a beautiful instrument . This morning it is you that has been an inspiration to me, showing yourself so truthfully is humbling for me to witness. Thank you. Much you love to you too. XX
@DivaKazza
@DivaKazza 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam I loved what you said in your video. We are all perfectly imperfect, and that is something I am learning to accept. I have shared a little of my story on my channel, but never really had the courage to open up more about it. You are such an inspiration; more than you realise. Thank you for saying such lovely things about my singing. Much love to you, beautiful soul ❤️
@FollowTheWay247
@FollowTheWay247 2 месяца назад
Jesus Christ said “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life, no one come to the Father (God) but by Me.” John 14:6 When we find Him, we find truth. He is drawing you himself. 🙏
@mariaetheridge8343
@mariaetheridge8343 2 месяца назад
He doesn't need Christianity. He has already seen the Light. No offense - he just needs to heal and we need to give him the space to do it in: our hearts.
@FollowTheWay247
@FollowTheWay247 2 месяца назад
@@mariaetheridge8343 No offense taken but what we must understand is Jesus didn’t come to make a new religion of Christianity, Rome did that. Jesus came to show us Truth, to give us eternal lLife and ultimately to a bring us back into relationship with our maker, Father God. This has nothing to do with the religion of Christianity.
@BsTheLadynred
@BsTheLadynred 2 месяца назад
@@FollowTheWay247 You don't need Yeshua for eternal life. King James is the one who translated the bible for his ruling of the people. He even misused the word "young" for Miriam as virgin in his new translation. King James version of the Bible is made up and the names of the people have all been changed. Calling him Jesus is just following a man made religion. That wasn't his name nor did he ever even go by the name Jesus.
@claireanctil
@claireanctil 2 месяца назад
I have been experiencing an extremely painful awakening realization and clarity and this video appeared. This is the most poignant and truthful and hopeful testimony, the utter exhaustion you mention being the start of freedom. You have such profound wisdom and I just keep thinking of this verse. Rev 21:4 “And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes: and death shall be no more, nor mourning, nor crying, nor sorrow shall be any more, for the former things are passed away.” Your former shell has passed away and you have not clung to it - you couldn’t anymore. I believe your tears have watered the garden you will walk in. I’m very inspired by you. I admire your tremendous courage. God bless you.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you Claire, God bless you too. I'm definitely work in progress, as are we all of course . Our path can meander and wander but always we go toward God.
@monicaburgher9148
@monicaburgher9148 2 месяца назад
Dearest Sam, I am so glad to hear from you! I am blessed to have met you. Yes, your eloquence is outstanding, you have a message to share. It seems that regardless of the original trauma, we all need to get back to finding our true identity. What I am finding out in my 60’s is that even our deepest hurts can serve their purpose, if we let them. My experience also in regards to healing is that we have what we need, we only have to be able to see it. God bless you! I have not arrived yet but I have definitely left that place of self imposed identity) sending you my love and sending love to all who love true and are determined to find it.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you Monica. It is hard being human. I can't help but think we are in a classroom, learning through suffering, to transcend our personal pain and to give ourselves to others and to God. I wish you well. X
@deborahbergren9849
@deborahbergren9849 2 месяца назад
Praying for you to be filled with the peace that Jesus gives, the strength that comes in weakness, the wholeness that meets us in brokenness. God is a mystery but revealed in the person of Jesus. “Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace.” Proud of your vulnerability and honesty!
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you
@kellyjenkins7942
@kellyjenkins7942 2 месяца назад
Sam, sounds like you have seen the face of evil and darkness. I mourn for you. I pray that you will look to the one True Light that is Jesus. There is nothing foggy or mysterious about Him. Open the book of John and meet Him. He is amazingly real. All the evil forces still want to keep you in the dark through murky metaphysics. Try Buddhism, Hinduism, Taoism, etc. and there will be no battle. But the minute you get a Bible and open to John you will feel that battle! Why? Why only there? Because He is who He says He is…the way, the truth and the light. He can be found, my friend, cry out.
@Sindrijo
@Sindrijo 2 месяца назад
I just stumbled upon this video, it now resides in my bookmarks under 'beautifulness'.
@alphom1
@alphom1 2 месяца назад
“Can you include everything?” I recently had what I call my Biden moment - where I froze with fear and became incoherent. And, I can include that part of me. But, as you say Sam, it is hard to live through becoming conscious of the deepest wound inside us. Being with ALL that we are. I have waited to hear from you again. Thank you, Sam, for the fellow-feeling and shared healing. You talk brilliantly.
@Dismas2503
@Dismas2503 2 месяца назад
Profound. Utterly real. Thank you. Thank you.
@LB-rc3nt
@LB-rc3nt 2 месяца назад
Loving prayers going with you Dear Sam
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you
@CoalMiningAlchemist
@CoalMiningAlchemist 2 месяца назад
Sam- thank you for putting all of this into words. God bless you for this and for helping others that don't understand that truly we are all imperfect and how hard it is to let go of the trauma. We drag it with us like an eight hundred pound safe wherever we go, and it's never out of mind. It IS selfish. I get so much from your videos, thank you. 🤗
@lerasimon
@lerasimon 2 месяца назад
hi sam, its nice to see you again. that place looks so peaceful and you look peaceful, too
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you, yes, I do feel peace.
@vansan3211
@vansan3211 2 месяца назад
I am not trans and never have been, but your videos just randomly popped up on my feed. I love stories about the human experience. You speak so eloquently and are so insightful. I've gone back and watched some of your first videos as well. New subscriber! I look forward to watching more of your videos.
@Patrizia7
@Patrizia7 2 месяца назад
Wow. Your wisdom is inspiring. Thankyou for sharing. Sending so much love to you.
@kathyb1011
@kathyb1011 2 месяца назад
Thank you Sam. Your thoughts are helpful for people generally who are trying to come to terms with whatever is going on in their lives. Not just regarding identity (transitioning/detransition) or childhood trauma. I think everyone at different stages of their lives, are pretending to be something different for all sorts of reasons, but they know it's false.
@dabbinoctopus
@dabbinoctopus Месяц назад
John Butler (his channel is Spiritual Unfoldment) says, "The less of me, the more of God." Your sentiments reminded me of this.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam Месяц назад
Thank you, yes, this is exactly what I am feeling right now.
@debbriggs5811
@debbriggs5811 Месяц назад
Thank you Sam. You are an amazing person. No apologies needed. Stay well.
@MT-tx7bu
@MT-tx7bu Месяц назад
I met a little girl who used to cut herself. She had some very difficult issues going on in her young life and she would cut herself to have some control over her feelings. I said to her (as the stupid adult that I was at the time), "One day, those wounds will heal up." Her response to me was, "Why would I want that? Scars are my story!" I was really amazed at how young she was but how wise she was. It's important that we carry our wounds with us because that is how others like me learn. You are brave. You are beautiful. You are unique. You are worth everything.
@WeAreBullets
@WeAreBullets 2 месяца назад
❤️❤️❤️ you are so aware of truths and illusions, it seems rare for people to really think deeply enough like this about reality and about the self. it is relieving and painful at the same time to be so aware and see thru things so much but still be stumped by the mystery of it all. you are such a beautiful human, you r in my thoughts and prayers ❤️
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Well said and thank you for your prayers
@eddypaul8959
@eddypaul8959 2 месяца назад
I totally hear you. You are telling my story.❤❤❤
@skorpiokat
@skorpiokat 2 месяца назад
Thank You. I'm reveling in the silence of my apartment today listening to my neighborhood, feeling the mid Atlantic summer heat knowing its ok that I don't do more than this right now. I was bored and scrolling through my subscriptions and this is the second video of yours that I've watched. Very difficult few weeks, you said everything I had no words for, someone else saying them is comforting, maybe like training wheels to accept reality now that the illusion is gone. Its scary out here but I can breathe.
@alexxxO_O
@alexxxO_O 2 месяца назад
one of the best people
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Hello stranger. I hope you are doing well. X
@alexxxO_O
@alexxxO_O 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam I hope to be at least a little more than a stranger to you one day. Working on it
@npn7564
@npn7564 2 месяца назад
I very much relate to your intense feelings of shame and guilt. I still continue to struggle with them and to not hide myself away. I will tell you one book that was extremely pivotal for me, The Idiot by Dostoevsky. I cherish it. I think it would help you as well. Prayers for you, Sam.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you, I shall add it to my growing stack of books to be read ! Thank you for your prayers . I wish you peace
@WeekdayProductions
@WeekdayProductions 2 месяца назад
very profound, thanks for sharing.
@karmar22able
@karmar22able 2 месяца назад
Bless you for your struggle to the truth and the light. Praying for your peace, contentment and healing through this process 🙏🏻
@itsbaxter2
@itsbaxter2 Месяц назад
Really profound and moving, thank you. I lost my best friend 2 years ago as her son is trans and I wouldn't bow to new pronouns, though I respectfully offered not to use the old ones either. I wish she could see this video, I miss her.
@mbernier59
@mbernier59 Месяц назад
💔
@elainerobertson1988
@elainerobertson1988 Месяц назад
Sounds like a genuine offer from you. Shame she wouldn’t accept it.
@kateduggleby6161
@kateduggleby6161 2 месяца назад
Thank you once again Sam for putting so eloquently what is so difficult to describe. I am working on forgiveness of self, and all the hoops I have made that self jump through in order to gain love from a broken family. Go gently beautiful soul….❤️ I am sure your vulnerability is giving so much solace to so many people….❤xxxx
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you Kate . May you find forgiveness and peace . X
@kateduggleby6161
@kateduggleby6161 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam thank you Sam, you too…..❤️ We’ll get there I am sure….xxxx
@RobertaFierro-mc1ub
@RobertaFierro-mc1ub 2 месяца назад
Hey Sam! You look so well! You're smiling!
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
I am ! Thank you.
@tricia3945
@tricia3945 2 месяца назад
The sincerity and depth of your words reflect a beautiful human being who already is wonderfully whole. Such a flow of wisdom comes only with a connection to the divine. Thank you for being who you are and helping all of us. I too am looking at my stories and the way they have led me down a path of suffering and self centeredness. Yet, the experiences that created the stories have given me the awareness that I need to let the stories go and let the false self die so I can live - your amazing words: “We have to die before we die otherwise we are never going to live”. So, if this world is divine, are there any mistakes or anything to forgive? If everything is divinely orchestrated (which I believe is the case), then there can be no mistakes and nothing to forgive if you let the experiences serve you . In your case, it is abundantly clear that they have given you gifts that are beyond beautiful that are serving you and others. You are awesome! 💗
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
You are kind and you beautifully describe our path here but really and truly, I am working it out as I go. I do know that nothing I do , I do alone. Nothing we do, we do alone. Whatever this place is , it isn't the beginning nor the end. X.
@tricia3945
@tricia3945 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam Yes, yes, yes. So true. You are doing an amazing job of figuring this all out real time. In that exploration, you are allowing all of us to dig deeper and do our part in healing. We are all connected.
@rhonamacgill6371
@rhonamacgill6371 Месяц назад
True awakening is from within each being - we are all a mirrors for each other in this great consciousness - the cosmic truth of what Is.death of delusion is the birth of the Truth. You are truly Blessed Sam
@Chand-vn4wn
@Chand-vn4wn Месяц назад
People live and die without realising this… You’ve articulated this so so well. Thank you for speaking on a pain so many of us have suffered. I have no doubt that your words will inspire others.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam Месяц назад
Thank you.
@TrueSelf1111
@TrueSelf1111 2 месяца назад
Thank you Sam. For your honesty. Vulnerbility. Authentic self. You do have unique gift to share. And you have courage , so much courage. If you build it ( patron) people will come. I would love to share a hug with you. From US.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you
@karinelaxa959
@karinelaxa959 2 месяца назад
You look so good! Very real indeed, and loveable as always, Sam.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you Karin. Lovely to see you here again.
@stephaniejoy2496
@stephaniejoy2496 2 месяца назад
Your garden is beautiful ❤Thank you for inviting us in.
@demurets
@demurets 2 месяца назад
Wisdom and compassion are borne from suffering. Thank you for your wisdom and your spirit.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Agreed . Thank you
@wildfood1
@wildfood1 Месяц назад
From selfishness to selflessness. We lose our identity like a drop of water that is going back to the ocean where it began. This is the stage of life after adulthood, and it is beautiful as well as frightening. Luckily, there are others who have made this journey before us and who have left us their experiences.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam Месяц назад
True words . Thank you
@Nikforallthesereasons
@Nikforallthesereasons 2 месяца назад
"Perfectly imperfect. Beautifully flawed". Oh i love that you are encouraging people to embrace that. I wish we would would celebrate it. Perfection is an incorrect and limited concept, that requires us to believe there is one "way" only. Stifling. No one should have perfection as a goal. It's only destructive. You speak so much sense with a sincere vulnerability. Thank you Sam. ❤️
@rachelrohde7549
@rachelrohde7549 Месяц назад
"We are all already something, we are all already enough." I agree Sam...we're already whole, we're already part of everything. This is such a beautiful insight. I am personally a follower of Buddhism and your thoughts speak to buddhist philosophy. We are what we think. We are what we pay attention to, etc. Thank you for sharing, I thoroughly enjoy listening to your journey and discoveries because you're speaking to all of humanity, to our human experiences.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam Месяц назад
Thank you Rachel. It seems I am stumbling into eternal truths. 😊
@Gail-ux2ly
@Gail-ux2ly 2 месяца назад
I am always humbled by the profound insights that you share so eloquently. I watch each of your videos over and over so that I can glean every nuance.
@susancooney7033
@susancooney7033 2 месяца назад
Please write your words are so important ❤ They may ease your journey. God bless.
@adradixnostri
@adradixnostri 2 месяца назад
Thank you so much for your videos, Sam. You have no idea how much you are supporting me on my journey. Putting into words feelings that i couldn't place. Sharing your journey so that others might heal. You're so wise, insightful and real. You're a healer. Love you ❤
@serendipidus8482
@serendipidus8482 2 месяца назад
Nothing outside can solve our being which is inside. We are all human beings whatever our bodies are whatever our roles are whatever our minds are even. God bless you.
@eleyanalake1069
@eleyanalake1069 Месяц назад
In Ignorance, I am something; In understanding, I am nothing; In love, I am everything - Rupert Spira!!! Welcome home Sam!!! 💖🙏
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam Месяц назад
Lovely and true words, thank you
@sebamor6610
@sebamor6610 Месяц назад
This profound wisdom applies to so many different types of people. You are an incredible person, thank you for sharing this important teaching.
@heyfella5217
@heyfella5217 Месяц назад
Hey, I have CPTSD too. I've been focusing on reminding myself that life is absurd. It helps me realize whats important to me, including the values ive found i hold. I think acceptance and moving on is the hardest part. Repeated trauma, especially in childhood, might not ever go away. And to me thats fine. I am control in the moment. I choose what i get to do now. So do you, with yourself. Its just nice be reminded of that every now and again.
@avamyst70
@avamyst70 Месяц назад
You inspire me more than you'll ever know.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam Месяц назад
Thank you, I'm happy this video helped.
@ushnishasitatapatra
@ushnishasitatapatra 2 месяца назад
You are an amazing human being.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you. I am certain that we all are.
@hiddenhand6973
@hiddenhand6973 2 месяца назад
Good to see you. What is the end of man? To know, love and serve God. When this is removed or not taught, people suffer to understand their purpose and the world will lie, lie, lie about our role and purpose. Much destruction follows. God have mercy on us.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
True words
@fluffyspit
@fluffyspit 2 месяца назад
Self awareness is a true gift. X
@louiseedgar5637
@louiseedgar5637 2 месяца назад
Thank you Sam for another inspiring video. Your reflections and wisdom are improving my life. I feel hopeful again. ❤
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Ah ! Louise, thank you for letting me know . I wish you well in your own healing .
@louiseedgar5637
@louiseedgar5637 2 месяца назад
I would definitely be interested in the patreons idea ❤
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thanks for letting me know.
@louiseedgar5637
@louiseedgar5637 2 месяца назад
Do you read Wayne Dyer's books?
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
I haven't. My stack of books waiting to be read seems to be growing !
@deniseurban6704
@deniseurban6704 2 месяца назад
Thank you for sharing your journey and giving hope to everyone who is or has been in a similar life situation. God never turns His back on anyone. He is always waiting for us to acknowledge Him and return to Him.
@bahiyyihnakhjavani3246
@bahiyyihnakhjavani3246 2 месяца назад
You are putting the most profound spiritual truths into words. Thank you.
@SelfTalks-gc6hg
@SelfTalks-gc6hg 2 месяца назад
Wow, we are perfectly imperfect. This is beautiful, this feels beautiful
@infiniteawareness2698
@infiniteawareness2698 2 месяца назад
Our Identity- I-D, - “ENTITY” can NEVER be real. Our real-ness, the truth of who we are is, we are supreme cosmic intelligence having a human experience. That’s it. Accept it, surrender to it, that is the only thing that is real is your divinity. Entities live through our bodies cause we cannot, yet, occupy our own space. You are not your body, you are not your experiences. The death of the ego is upon us.
@JEHOVAH485
@JEHOVAH485 2 месяца назад
It's actually the divesting of the false ego (identity). It's discovering the spirit within which is pure and whole and submitting our spirit, humbling our mind, and surrendering our body to our Creator. The mind is a processor and can only operate with the programming/input it's been given (ancestral, gestational and environmental for the first 7 years). Divesting of the false/inauthentic ego, is our spirit "waking up' to it rightful place of leadership, taking back it's power from the lies of the ill-programmed mind AND THEN submitting, humbling and surrendering the entirety of self unto the Spirit of God. In this process, we discover a relationship with Love, Light, Truth, Life, Peace, Abundance and divine Health-God himself. The Holy Trinity of Father, Son and Holy Ghost heals and reintegrates the fractured trinity within-body, mind and soul. Our spirit ascends to divine authority within unto service of our God.
@melindalemmon2149
@melindalemmon2149 2 месяца назад
​@@JEHOVAH485I am comforted to know that in the resurrection, our bodies and spirits are reintegrated for eternity. He loves us, body and soul.
@pitabread71
@pitabread71 Месяц назад
Bless you Sam, you have more insight than most people talking nowadays. What a gift you are to share with us
@klockworx4479
@klockworx4479 Месяц назад
Thank you so much Sam. You are enough. You need to take time for your own healing.
@mbernier59
@mbernier59 2 месяца назад
❤...p.s. what a gift you are, dear Sam, my brother. I thank God for you every single day. Mark
@Jazzalina_Garcia
@Jazzalina_Garcia 2 месяца назад
Lovely share ... I've just had a couple of days of intensitiy and incredible-ness... Seeing and experiencing my own sense of self absorption, and how it spirals me into a feeling of separation, hurt , unworthiness etc... But then spotting it, dropping through it, and without that "me" ..teally being able to walk un the shoes of other and really be there for others, and in that, find that the love I give to others is reflected back, and that there really is no other ...quite humbling and a work in progress... And I recognise from some of your video's, how you talk about this...about being in relationship...beyond the childush selfishness ...so im grateful for your sharings ...they are helping me navigate through this . Much love to you, and you already know I support your idea to set up patreon ❤
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Nice work Jazz. Thank you for sharing here and for your support .X
@EvilFleesBeforeMe
@EvilFleesBeforeMe 15 дней назад
your journey is such a blessing to me. Even our pain has purpose. Im so sorry all these things happened to you (and me) but it is also the trauma that catapulted me into a place of becoming reconnected to my creator who IS love and life. It was my asking for forgiveness that changed everything in my life, and still is. Meeting you was another blessing from our creator.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 15 дней назад
I think that asking for forgiveness is an acknowledgment of our actions and the beginning of humility . When I look back at the decides of coping and surviving, humility was something I felt I couldn't afford to feel. We are responsible for our actions, even though the root of what has driven us to be a certain way is trauma and the actions of others, still, when we begin to awaken and heal, there are no excuses any longer. Thank you for all of your comments . A blessing indeed.
@nancienordwick4169
@nancienordwick4169 Месяц назад
One more key to detransitioning is readiness to leave the cult that gave these people the social acceptance they craved at the beginning. This person is old enough to see beyond the cult, but most are still too needy of a social group. It's all very sad, and there's a death at the beginning that's already been. To have another death at this later stage takes a very strong being. Pless, everyone, be more tolerant of differences to start with, so children don't feel the need to seek these drastic measures.
@tarotaddicts4695
@tarotaddicts4695 Месяц назад
Love watching de transition stories. I don't think everybody's story is the same, some people have it completely different. I think the magical story about all people is that not one person is the same. I don't think de transition stories collapse others experiences, it's just your story. But I'm proud people are open to express themselves and share their pain. I honor you. Thank you ❤
@kimmagennis634
@kimmagennis634 2 месяца назад
Hi Sam. Thank you for being you. In my heart, I hold a space for you - a place of unconditional acceptance. For whoever you are, and become. Much love.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you .
@phrygianphreak4428
@phrygianphreak4428 Месяц назад
I've always wondered what detransitioning would be like. After hearing, "it's painful, but liberating," I no longer wonder
@WeAreBullets
@WeAreBullets 2 месяца назад
'if you die before you die you won't die when you die' is a phrase i seen associated with orthodox christian ascetics. so real
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
The books you suggested arrived today . I'm looking forward to reading them .
@WeAreBullets
@WeAreBullets 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam 👏🏻❤️🙏🏻 awesome!
@WeAreBullets
@WeAreBullets 2 месяца назад
@@melindalemmon2149 they are amazing
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
I also ordered " the mountain of silence "
@WeAreBullets
@WeAreBullets 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam never heard of that one, looks great tho! and i got some of that poetry you mention on your videos, its beautiful but honestly i just love hearing you read it out loud to us haha. i mentioned that to my coworker and she said thats perhaps because poetry is really meant to be read aloud. im so used to reading info books in my head lol
@korradog81
@korradog81 Месяц назад
Thank you, your story is helping me too. I surrendered to Jesus in 2022. ❤ from 🇺🇲
@cathymadsen2930
@cathymadsen2930 2 месяца назад
My dad died last week. I had not spoken to him for 20 yrs. Trauma ruled my life but my transition was into drugs. With a few good therapists, not focused on my past to relive the pain, but with a focus on what I want to be and thoughts I want to have, I've managed to have a good life and be happy in my choices. These points in the video are what we need to be guided through early on. Do not be afraid of you, be inquisitive and excited about who you are and not what the trauma made you feel. It took me ten years and three or four good therapists. And with my dad dying, that era ends, and the door is shut for good. None of his children have shed a tear over him.... you are not alone and you can heal.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you. I feel the same about my own father, I wonder what I will feel when he dies. I think relief but also heartbroken as I often do now.
@Gingerblaze
@Gingerblaze 2 месяца назад
@@Call-Me-Sam hopefully you will connect with him and heal your relationship thru acceptance of whateverthat is now, before he passes, to bring you both into peace.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
@@Gingerblaze For both of us, I reached out a few years ago but he just can't . He can't face me and his own reflection in me . It is heart breaking but I accept.
@janiceliang9593
@janiceliang9593 Месяц назад
My favorite SAM so far. I like the mystery of God also., but yes sometimes looking at self is painful. The journey will finally lead us to that place. I pray I am brave enough to face myself. I feel you are a friend. So take care friend and thanx
@gailmaltese7277
@gailmaltese7277 Месяц назад
No need to comment. Just sharing my thoughts. With trauma, you are forced to conclude that you are not good enough. You become a victim by being gas lit by someone else’s obsessive control. Everyone IS enough. I get angry about the tangled thoughts that are a result of the trauma. I have to constantly tell myself to not be negative towards myself because there is no truth behind it. True love sees that we are not only enough but so much more. God has never turned away. He goes away when we do not need him and suddenly appears when we do. Thank goodness for that. I love your critical thinking thoughts and do wish you well. We all see how uniquely special you are and enjoy hearing your perspective. You help so many find their way. As you seek your way as well. Have a great day and glad to see you again.
@krisrodrigues1
@krisrodrigues1 2 месяца назад
After the trauma it’s not the trauma that gets us. We can overcome that and have. It’s the losses now we grieve. If not for the losses the trauma would have no more power over us. Perhaps the only way to overcome loss after we have processed our feelings and come to terms with accepting the losses, is to make new gains. To literally be able to move forward with new things going on that can take our focus off the old things, including the lost dreams. I think one of life’s greatest tragedies is lost dreams. I look back on people I have loved that have passed and for me the greatest pain in remembrance of them is to know of their lost dreams. To know who desperately they wanted things (primarily relationships) they were never able to attain and suffered so much because of it. It’s the story of so many of us, regardless the individual story. At the end of the day it’s the story of humanity. We are bombarded with many illusions about how life is and is supposed to be-all the fake stuff on the light boxes. Life is tragic. Life is beautiful too. And to say we should just move forward almost sounds like an insult to what we are going through. But we have to find the strength. We must find new dreams and way of living.
@Call-Me-Sam
@Call-Me-Sam 2 месяца назад
Thank you this. Just this morning I made a note for my next video, I intend to talk about loss.
@melindalemmon2149
@melindalemmon2149 2 месяца назад
Well said. It is the loss of the shared fantasies that has me undone now.
@beckyb8339
@beckyb8339 2 месяца назад
You are more than enough, your heart and compassion evidences it xxx
@sanddollar790
@sanddollar790 2 месяца назад
A young man took his own life in my block of flats a few days ago. I think that this was his last resort at a “solution” to whatever he saw as his problem. Instead of allowing himself to not be ok and to allow himself to not have all the answers, he thought the answer was ACTUAL death. If he had held on and just “let go and let God” he would have seen that it’s always the darkest just before the dawn 🌄
@CraigsOverijse
@CraigsOverijse 2 месяца назад
"let God" do what exactly? If God helps you great for you. Sadly pretty much All relgions and many religious people (plus some none religious folk) have a huge responsibilty to bear in damages to other peoples lives, especially around themes of identity and what is deem as 'good' and 'bad' notions of evil and sin and arbitary rules made up by people mostly male in the name of some unseen diviity. So please do not bring God into this matter. If praying for the neighbour helps you great for you but it sadly did not help them.
@maeghangiles7488
@maeghangiles7488 2 месяца назад
@@CraigsOverijse You need to catch up on this conversation and the video's point- our relationship with ourselves, our outlook, and our lives. We live on a planet with 8 million other people; you can't choose how others live or perceive. Claiming someone owes you damages for their way of life is an entitlement. Sand Dollar never mentioned an intent to help their neighbour; they are speaking from their perception and the meaning of this event through their eyes. I am not at all religious. Let go & let god means to accept or surrender to what is, to life itself. If there is something you cannot change, you must accept it, or else you will form a blind spot. Everyone else can see it. Identity, good, bad, evil, sin, rules-all these are for you to decide for yourself. Good luck trying to get the other 8 B to see it your way. youre not the victim to other peoples thoughts and opinions anymore than anyone else is.
@smallhouseinthemeadow6131
@smallhouseinthemeadow6131 2 месяца назад
@@CraigsOverijse You are confusing GOD with religion which is man made and about control.My nephew killed himself at 21. Life just heaps a shit storm on us sometimes, and choosing to not be here is a waste of what could be a beautiful life, if we only choose to do the work required to get there. It is an inside job, but some people find comfort in a higher power. Why put them down for it? You do you and let them do them. We don't know if the neighbor ever prayed.Perhaps if he felt a connection to something, or someone, he wouldn't have chose to leave this World.I hope that you find peace and love in your life.
@halstonhoversten3496
@halstonhoversten3496 2 месяца назад
You are in my prayers ❤
@KaiNovotnyMatejka
@KaiNovotnyMatejka 24 дня назад
Thank you, Sam. Continue at your own pace, no need to speed things up. Thank you
@cynthiagawin2991
@cynthiagawin2991 Месяц назад
You are precious and valuable to Jesus! He made you! He will never leave or forsake you. You are never alone. Ask the Lord to protect you from the devil and his demons He will! Praying for you!🙏😘🙏
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