dodie - When (Official Lyric Video) 

One thing that I noticed with this version of When compared to the original she release a few years prior is that it is a lot slower. She delays the words more, as if she’s still clinging onto the past, unable to live in the present.

when i first heard this song i was 16 and i thought 'yeah right i'll never be 16 again, i'm excited for the future' and now, at age 20, i sob thinking of how happy i really was. it's been so long since i was genuinely happy and even then, i probably thought the future would be better. this song punches me every single time. thank you, dodie.

I FINALLY GET THE CAR THING!!! I THINK!!! dodie is always in the passenger/back seat of the car meaning that she's never felt in control of her life and she's sort of just watching everything going by and not being able to do anything to stop the car or slow down

literally sobbing this is my favorite dodie song EVER

this song hurt before and it still does

So beautiful my love. I always think of past things with much brighter ink too xxx

i was not prepared. i am a grown ass woman welling up with tears while eating lunch in my work cafe. i hope everyone thinks i just really love this rice pilaf

i just turned 18 and it feels like i wasted the youngest years of my life being sad and regretting everything I've ever done. I wish I could say that 16 year old me would be proud of me but I just think she'd be sad to know I'm just as miserable

oh THIS is why dodie was going through so much old footage for a bit there

so that’s why she was collecting old footage 🥺 “hang on hang on”

hahah the "i'll never be sixteen again" line really hits different when u spent the whole sixteenth year of your life in a lockdown hahah

The rebirth of this song is soul-rippingly beautiful

“I’m sick of faking diary entries, gotta get it in my head, I’ll never be sixteen again”

WHEN THAT FIRST TEAR FALLS.... NOTHIGN BUT PAIN

the transition from “sorry” to “when” was so crisp

As someone who suffers from DPDR, Her singing about experiencing depersonalization and derealization without realizing it (she didn't know about it when writing the song) is the most therapeutic thing ever

I remember crying at 17 for this song, now I'm 22 and I'm still crying. But not only because it does hit a sore spot, also because I'm better than I was, and I'm so proud of how far dodie's come, how much she has grown and worked. It's amazing It really brought me back to four years ago and made me realize how much things changed in the past years, and so many things were so terrifying, but younger me never considered that there could be happiness in the future and I still struggle to consider that I can be ok in the future, so this was such a good reminder that there could be happiness and safety in the future

the pandemic began right after i turned 16. yes, this song was painful for me even before all this... mess occurred, but it hits differently now. "gotta get it in my head, I'll never be sixteen again, and i'm waiting to live, still waiting to love" feels absolutely painful now. its a different kind of pain and longing for the past now.

dodies crying I'm crying We are all just sobbing

alright! i haven't sobbed profusely to this song in a while, nice to get back into it

this was my favourite song released this year

i was 15. now i’m 19 just finished my first year of college. this hurt too much. i sat on my floor and bawled.

I listened to the album last night, in order, and absolutely burst into tears when I heard ‘when’ again! this song meant a lot to me when I was 16 - my god so much has happened since then. and I was flooded again with the dread that I really never will be 16 again 🥺

This is not only a song, it is an experience

This breaks me. The first version of this song seems like a heartbroken confession from a young teenage girl. But the more dramatic and mature tone of this arrangement is so crushing because it implies that after all these years, she’s still asking when. It’s a deep, deep weight on her shoulders.

dodie really said here's your favorite song but even more complex and beautiful

When I was 13 I was in a very bad place and this song felt like the only thing that reflected and understood how I felt. Now I’m 17 and this feels surreal, like a full circle moment. I am so proud of how far I have come.

i think it’s like a reflex action thing but when dodie cries i also start crying?

damn I remember listening to When in 2016 and I was 13 back then, now 18 the "I'll never be sixteen again" finally hits and hits HARD

I first heard this song at 14, when I couldn't imagine ever wanting to be 16 forever, and now, nearing 18, I know. I miss her, 16 year old me.

I realized this song by Bangchan and it is so beautiful my gosh I'm crying like I never have. Girl, you put the words that I can never say.

When I heard the very first few piano notes I absolutely began to cry. It felt like seeing an old friend and seeing how much they’ve grown. This song meant so much to me in 2017 and I am SO happy to see it in its most powerful form

dodie dodie dodie, the first second. THE FIRST FUCKING SECOND AND I START CRYING. this is incredible and heartbreaking and AHHHHHHHH

I camed here bc of chan. I got emotional😞💔

This song is utterly breath-taking

I was 14 when I first heard this song, I wanted to be 16 so badly. I wanted to be older, more mature, in love. A year later I dated the guy of my dreams and he ended up being abusive as all hell and I had my high school experience ripped out from under me. Now at 18, I want nothing more than to be 14. I want to have those 4 years of high school back so badly and I know I'll never get to be that sweet, fragile, and beautifully naive girl I was four years ago, but this song reminds me of the time when I was that person and it lifts the weight off my shoulders a bit. Thank you dodie

When I first heard this a few years back I thought “god I would not be 16 again” but here I am, at 23, being triggered just driving past my old family home

i’m so glad this was re-recorded, makes me sob every time🥺

The fact that I was 16 when this song first came out and now I turning 20. 4 years make a big difference. This hits totally different now. "Gotta get it in my head, I'll never be sixteen again." Holy shit.

This song hits different when you develop dissociation at 16

This year I turned 24. This means I've lived exactly half of my life with my parents being still together, the other half with separated parents. I never thought much of it, but looking back I feel like a part of me has been stuck at 12 years old all these years. The boy I was in love with at the time was the hardest for me to let go of, the memories from that time are the most vivid I cherish to this day. I couldn't tell you why, maybe it was the perfect storm of happiness and trauma all happening at once. Still, a part of me is so fond of the memories I made at that time, and it sometimes sucks really bad to see that I'M THE ONLY ONE who remembers what happened.

I have chronic derealization because of trauma in high school so this hits incredibly hard. I love it so much though. Thank you for understanding and giving me all the feelings, Dodie!

I love the original but there is something so beautifully sad about this one. The instrumental floats between feeling light and ethereal and dark and heavy. The pain is palpable, especially as the song goes on I just 🥺🥺🥺🥺 this album is so good

And people say her voice hasn’t changed. This is beautiful and sweet and her voice is incredible. You can’t change my mind

Thank you BANGCHANN🥰

i have depersonalization derealization disorder just like dodie, and a lot of this album really speaks to me; i feel like finally ive found someone who sees life the same way i do. love you dodie

21 and finally felling happy and whole and myself again, but for the past 4 years, that's exactly how I felt. This song encapsulates so much how I felt and I can't begin to explain how from 17 to 19/20 everything felt so sad, crumbled and hopeless. But it gets better. Whoever you are, reading this, I love you and you deserve the world. You are a wonderful person 💕

Chan’s room brought me here, but I am genuinely enjoying this song. What a beautiful voice, I got emotional when listening t the lyrics

this hits hard when you first heard this as 16 and are older now its aged beautifully :(((((

this song hits me just as hard at 20 as it did at 16. beautiful song dodie.

i’m crying into my mac and cheese i can’t handle this it’s too good

this song has so much more meaning now 😭😭

Cuz of Channie 😅

i didn't thing this song could get more tragically hauntingly beautiful, and here it is

Dodie released the original version of "When" a few months after I turned 16. And at the time, all I wanted was to get older, because growing meant change and change meant that life would be different, I would be different, and hopefully I would be better. But high school was all at once the happiest and most horrible time in my life, and the thought of leaving it all behind one day was terrifying. I held on to time as it passed and for a lot a different reasons, I couldn't see myself living to 18. I'm 20 now. I really will never been 16 again. And I don't know if knowing that now and feeling it makes me happy, since four years later I'm still sitting here asking "when?"

i came her bc of chan. it’s beautiful

"I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when" That's what I feel like right now...

the video in the background being there but unclear and hazy really went straight to my soul i am pain i love this i love you

I'm leaving for uni in october and I thought I'd listen to this while studying for my final a level exams. "I'll never be 16 again" caught me so off guard that I just burst into tears, which no song has ever made me do before. I'm not ready, but I don't think I ever will be, but maybe that's okay

Thank you Channie ❤️

This is one of my favorite dodie songs and i absolutley love the remake, especially the video. Memories often seem blurry im my mind yet painted in brighter ink, and the present never feels to match what used to be. Perfect video for a perfect song

This is my absolute favorite version of this song. It shows that Dodie has grown in many ways and so has her audience. Although this song is sad it makes me think of who I once was and how much I still have to learn. I love it dearly 💗

this was the first dodie song i ever listened to and it quickly became my favorite song of her’s ever, if not my favorite of all time. i first listened to the live version when i was 12, and now, i’m turning 16 this year. i will listen to this the night of my birthday because it means so much to me and i’ve never related or empathized with a song unlike this one. truly beautiful work, dodie. you continue to make my life worth living.

this hit me so hard when i heard it on the album. brought me straight back to when i was listening to the live version on your first EP on repeat and how i loved it so much then because it felt like it encapsulated so much of what i felt at the time, when i had such a hard time dealing with myself. so much has changed since then, but i love this song just as much. this version is incredibly beautiful. ah, thank you for all the music you make dodie.

i’m gonna cry this song is so beautiful

channie la puso hoy ❤️‍🩹

I was so young when first I heard this song and I’m still only the age of young dodie but MAN do I love this song to bits. now, and then, and always.

I used to hear this song all the time when I was 16 and it just hits different now 4 years later

Oh god this hurts way more now that I'm in my twenties

The swell of strings after "they tell me I loved, teach me how to think" hits so much harder in this version. It was always good. But the delay before it crashes was an amazing choice. The new arrangement as a whole is fucking amazing. But right there, I felt the music wash over me.

the way you play with time in this version elevates it to a whole new level i didn’t think was possible.

God this is my top 10 most favorite songs, lyrically and musically, it captured my mind to a whole another world

listening to this as im ab to turn 17 like sobbing what.

the way this song came out when I was a freshman in high school and now I’m rediscovering it as a freshman in college😭😭😭😭

Lol , look where am I 🥺

i remember being 15 and playing this song on the back of my dads bike. i didn’t hate him yet, i still had friends, and even though i wanted to die, i knew i belonged somewhere. now i’m 19 and trapped. i have no friends and my mind loves to torture me. i have never felt more removed from the world and my fingers itch for a hand to hold.

this song means so much to me, with this video IM LITERALLY BROKEN

this song is very. its always meant a LOT to me. i dont think i could ever put it in words

i always loved this song but i cried when i heard this new version. there’s something so raw and beautiful about this one. dodie, the way your voice carries through this song is so wonderful in a way i cannot describe. i’m loving every second of this new album, 1000% worth the wait 💕

“Sure, I’ll live in the moment” SURE??? I thought it was “so” all this time!!

"Gotta get it in my head, I'll never be sixteen again I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love"

I feel like no other artist has released an entire album that feels like we're let in to the very closest circle of Dodie's friends. I mean.. it's all terribly honest and such wonderful, devastating, beautiful and sad. Thank you for an amazing album.

Four years ago, I wrote myself a letter to open May 20th (I gave myself that date because I had no clue when I'd graduate high school). Four years ago, I heard your song "when" and cried to it. I felt every word, though I wasn't 16 at the time. Dodie, I know I'm one of many fans that have grown with your music. I had been thinking about this song a few days ago, I couldn't quite remember the words, it was such a bittersweet feeling. I couldn't remember the melody. Yet, I didn't look for the song. Just like that, the thought flew away and I didn't think of it again. Things are getting harder. I have no clue where I'm going from here. I've complained so much about school while growing up that I never thought I'd miss its structure in my life. I'm unsure if I'll attend college, or if I'll find a different path. My mind only bites hard at me, for not being productive, for not figuring anything out. We live in a world where taking your time to enjoy things is labelled as "lazy," but what measures that? What measures productivity? It's like we've forgotten about the tortoise and the hare. We just have to take things step by step, just being alive is a beautiful thing. My heart beat so quickly when I saw the notification of this song on my phone. I thought it was unbelievable. How weird was the coincidence, or maybe things aligned for a second. It helped me realized how far I'd come. You have no idea how much I needed this, and though I'm a small voice in a crowd, I'd like to say thank you. I'll never be 18 again. In thirteen days I'll open a letter I wrote at 14. I'm still waiting to live, but I think I've grown a little closer to love. Thank you.

I just turned 16 last month and this song has strike me harder than it has ever had

thank you for this song, dodie I was 16 when I first heard this song and didn't think much about this song. I thought it was a depressing way of looking at life, and it is, but I've realized now as a 20-year-old that there is so much truth to it than I can admit. Truthfully, I'm scared. I'm so scared that one day I'll make a mistake no one can forgive. But, it's comforting to hear that growth means feeling all these uncomfortable feelings. from, someone

The pain in these lyrics, the poignancy in the instruments, and the heartbreak in her facial expressions is something that transcends through people who experience the same thing. Love and light to those who struggle with this, to dodie, and to myself.

She is so beautiful, just wanna walk 🚶‍♂️ up and say everything is gonna be OK 👌❤..........u

dodie! wow, I've watched this video 5 times this evening, and each time I come back I cry twice as hard. u have encapsulated so perfectly how it feels to feel as if ur wishing the present away, while clinging helplessly to the memories of the past, which have always felt like the brightest paintings of ur soul but theyre slowly fading. this song has always made me cry, but this video especially; I can really see in your expressions, a bittersweet gratitude for the complicated comfort the past brings. I find romanticising the past so effortless, every picture and video and scent and song is fabricated by nostalgia (your music being something which has provided countless soundtracks to each chapter of my life). thankyou for wrapping up this feeling so perfectly.

You've touched our hearts, Dodie. This beautiful piece of music is a masterpiece.

This touches so deep. The more I listen to you the more I realize just how much you speak to all our existences and experiences as human beings. You're a gem to humanity dodie, thank you for empowering us with your incredible art ❤

Absolutely gorgeous song. It's stuck in my head! It reminds me of the music from meet joe black. The orchestration is breathtaking

damn this makes my chest hurt :’(

Id say i was lying if i didnt love you...your voice is a heart i want to be inside, warm and filling you a warmth...like a fire in your heart, for starting one in me. Love keeps both warm with the fire, just gotta feed the fire together, or start another one, together, if it goes out..its easy, cause love is really the appreciation of the ones who stay.

I don’t know if it’s acting but dodies tears here seem so genuine... the original was already beautiful enough but then she just had to crush our hearts with more strings 😭

Can you imagine a world without music? How would you feel about it? What would you miss the most? Te imaginas un mundo sin música? Como te sentirias? Que seria lo que mas extrañarias?

I love this song. I don't know why but now it was more intense than before.

Una de las canciones más hermosas que he escuchado. Fue la pregunta precisa en el momento preciso. Cuando uno mismo se para delante del espejo y pregunta: Cuándo? Cuándo voy a amar de verdad? Cuándo voy a ser la mejor versión de mi misma? Cuándo voy a vivir la belleza de la vida?...Es una canción que te hace sentir melancólica por las mentiras que uno mismo se ha dicho por años, por las veces que hemos pretendido que somos felices, que hemos fingido alegría..., pero que al mismo tiempo te exorta a buscar la felicidad y escribir tu historia de la manera que quieres. Una canción que te anima a tomar riendas y control de tu destino... Agradezco mucho por esta canción... 😌💖🎼

This song grew so much from the original version. Dodie never is in the drivers seat until the end of the album which is when she finally has control of her life.

"Never caught up in the moment Busy begging the past two stay" My life in a nutshell... My Lord she sings to my soul.

"im sick of faking diary entries" always gets to me