@@ReubenWalton It means women are turned on by displays of power ... a little fear is part of that biological attraction between the sexes. I've always found when I submitted to a partner they lost respect for me and attraction. Now I don't play that game at all ... I want them to fear me a little. 😂
hearing her cries, chokes, death rattles, the gasping for air, imagining her literally being eaten by isaiah. being put into ethels shoes while she dies, while shes trying to escape and scream for help but nobody being able to hear her, its fucking crazy and its fucking scary man. makes my heart race everytime
The faint screams of what sounds like “no” and “please” in the background during the “I am the face of loves rage” are so haunting omfg. And what sounds like choking sounds in the background in the final part give the song even more depth than it had
just to preempt this: i have not murdered anyone. that is not a death rattle. a death rattle is actually a kind of wheezing, snoring sound during perideath (a gradual process that does not occur with sudden deaths-it's the sort of symptom you'd see in palliative care). if you die from being murdered, you do not make a "ghost from the grudge" sound at the moment you die. in fact, this myth might literally trace back to the horror movie, the grudge (2002)?
@@mimisculeplus just in the context of the album’s narrative it couldn’t be a death rattle bc she doesn’t die in this song, she dies in august underground
@@c.nk.01The death rattle can go on for a long time from my understanding so she may have intended it to be one. I don't think Ethel actually ever physically "ran," but the voice of death was more saying that she can't escape her fate as she refuses to accept that she's dying
-I’M A SURVIVOR- of almost being unalived at the hands of my husband with one child in my belly and one at my side. This song is the closest thing I have found that could ever describe my trauma. I thank God every day I survived, but this is the hell I live with. Our justice system is broken.
ok so, i never noticed isaiah chanting “i love you” at the end of the first verse, or ethel continuing to scream and beg “no no/please” after the initial “stop” scream its also so fucking haunting to hear that last bit without all the intense explosion of music over it. and the intro to the prayer freaked me the fuck out. and the sounds of ethel dying at the end??? what the fuck??? i love this
This is so sickening to listen to oh my god. You can literally hear Ethel waking up from the drugs she was on in Gibson Girl when the song starts. She's mumbling in the background as if just waking up, confused and trying to figure out where she is. The whole song is her trying to recover from the drugged fog, and by the time she's finally lucid, Isaiah is already consuming her. Vile. Oh my god
I feel like this is more haunting than the finalised version since you can actually hear everything, all the screams and voices. It adds this rawness deeper than the finalised version does. I feel the final version is a very haunting song, this feels like you’re there as she tries to escape him, it puts you there with her and it’s fucking scary
This has none of the music to act as a background track to comfort us from Ethel’s pain. It’s lucid, it’s raw. It very well could have been what her last moments sounded like to her in a drug induced haze. We don’t get the luxury of a musical barrier to her trauma. We hear all of the horror with her.
the noises under the final spoken word portion of the song makes it even more terrifying to listen to. it feels like a sermon being delivered by isaiah, standing over ethel as she dies, not even aware of his words anymore, already on the journey we hear through august underground and televangelism, but just saying it for his own satisfaction.
it startled me so bad at first but stuck with me. Coming back months later I’m positive this had a huge positive impact in my healing. Unveiled parts of me that I cemented years ago.
This most likely is therapeutic. You're opening the emotional wound and examining it, analyzing the how, where, when and why. To face your trauma is a daunting thing, but it's also the only way to truly heal. Hopefully this makes it easier for you and others to come to terms with the black things that have happened. I believe this is why she writes and records. She desires to be an advocate for women who have faced trauma at the hands of men. Which is, let's face it, virtually all of them. I don't want to sound like a white knight here, I'm just giving you my assessment of her work, and I am old enough now to be able to look back and realize that many of my failed relationships were with women who were unable to move past what men in their lives had done to them, and it ultimately impacted every relationship they had subsequently, until they really dealt with it. And, the brain is a funny thing, it will lie to itself and deny there's anything wrong. Some people even really do feel like they weren't really affected at all by it. But that is the brain lying to itself. It'll surface somehow, manifest in some way.....so, I will end my rambling and say, I do think it's a good thing and healthy for you. And same goes for you if you are male. Male female trans.....this is human shit. It's universal.
This version is so… like the last part of the song the whole ‘blessed’ speech/ paragraph til the end, is like death itself was speaking (which makes it more brilliant)
The “what fear a man like you” part of the song lowkey sounds like Ethel is speaking it underneath the singing vocals as well. Which is honestly incredible.
3:20 you can hear after Isaiah says "show me your face" her singing voice stops, like he's trying to shut her up and she doesn't want to look him in the eyes
this is so amazing being able to hear the vocals underneathe the instrumentation. like at the last part where the prayer of "blesseds" you can hear ethel as if she's gasping for her last breaths while isaiah finishes the job
@@denkimush Since this is the song before august underground the end of this song is conntected to it, so the "kill shot" (if you will) is in this song and its as shes dying and agust underground is after shes dead??? if that makes sense!! those are just my thoughts shes a huge special interest of mine so i have alot haha
Listening to this masterpiece in complete darkness, alone at 3 am is just terrifying and so beautiful + I totally forgot bout the outro and it scared me shitless
I didn't know this version existed....and it's so much more disturbing and upsetting than the album version. She is truly unlike any artist I've ever heard, my mind is blown that this was her first album! Visceral and brilliant.
this genuinely made my stomach hurt like a sharp pain and put chills all over my body. her talent is unmatched and the details you can’t hear in the original behind the instrumentals are one of a kind. for my own sanity i don’t think i can listen to this version ever again 😭😭
I followed you in and I was with you there I invited you in twice, I did You love blood too much But not like I do Not like I do Heard you, saw you, felt you, gave you Need you, love you, love you, love you Heard you, saw you, felt you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you... You don't have to say yes to me Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee Promising a big fire, any fire Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire Suffering is nigh, drawing to me Calling me the one, I'm the white light Beautiful, finite Even the iron still fears the rot Hiding from something I cannot stop Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh Buckled on the floor when night comes along Daddy's left and momma won't come home, oh, uh You poor thing Sweet, mourning lamb There's nothing you can do It's already been done What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show me your face) Please, don't look at me I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me Tell me, what have you done? Stop, stop, stop, make it stop Stop, make it stop, make it stop I've had enough Stop, stop, stop, stop Stop, stop, stop, stop I am the face Of love's rage I am the face Of love's rage Blessed be the Daughters of Cain Bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception Blessed be their whore mothers Tired and angry, waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again Blessed be the children Each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence Blessed be you, girl Promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you I am no good nor evil, simply I am And I have come to take what is mine I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood I am here now, as you run from me still Run then, child You can't hide from me forever
I actually met death for the second time to this song. It was fucking terrifying. I've seen demonic stuff but never death for the second time then. She was so huge she was bending inside my bedroom... It still makes my skin crawl when I remember.
I am utterly gutted and haunted by this audio. Just like the original audio, this beings me to gushing tears. The begging, the pleading, the sobbing. Oh my fucking GOD dude. Hayden is a mastermind.
3:36 does anyone know what the deeper background lyric is after the line “what have you done”? It’s in the same pitch as the show your face and I’m here lines
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