I wish for tomorrow. But sometimes I just want to stay in the moment and listen to some melody with rythm that gives you peace and the feeling that so much is unexplored and meant to be travelled, felt and taking in by you. This makes me want to listen to every raindrop, every thunder, and see every lightning that makes the world seem so clear and bright in that moment I live. But tomorrow comes, and I am welcomed by more rain or by the cold morning fog that might appear. As empty as it might be to stand alone in front of the fog, there is beauty. As loud as it might be when thunder crashes, there is comfort. As dark as the night might be, there is safety. As alone as you might feel in this unexplored world, there is someone missing a person like you that they probably have never in their life met before.
"It's all about the quitting mind, let's say it's day 1 of a job interview, we all know what that shit fucking feels like, you have your clothes layed out, you got your food ready to go in the morning, you've been preparing for weeks and weeks and weeks. You show up and you bring your best self. You get the fucking job merry fucking christmas. After couple of months you start showing up to work a little latter, you don't look as good, your clothes aren't layed out, your breakfast isn't ready, your mind's getting softer. With new years coming up don't have a quitting mind, repperition every day." -David Goggins
this can’t be my life it’s suppose to be beautiful I’m suppose to walk around and be grateful all this was created but I don’t I hate it I hate all the decisions I make “no matter if they’re right or wrong it’s your decision “ why are they all wrong Im trying but I guess this is my karma so hears to life🥂
For most of my life I felt trapped in a cage of human flesh. I feel dysphoric about beeing human. I hope this will be over soon. Tired of acting as if I gave a shit about this existence.
Find your higher purpose. Jesus Christ is the Way, the Truth and the Life. He is the meaning. You already feel as though your existence doesn’t matter, what harm could it do to look to Christ who being in very nature God, came as a human to suffer and sacrifice Himself out of love. Honestly try and look at Christ on the cross and be reassured that God loves you in a way that transcends meaning. It doesn’t matter if you’re sceptical and confused in life, we all are, you’re not alone. But we all have intrinsic value. YOUR existence is valued, if not by yourself or those around you then by God. “Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” - Matthew 6:26
Dude live this life as much as you can, maybe today you are suffering but who knows man? Maybe in future you are happy with yourself, but you gotta work on yourself, every day will fell like walking through hell but then you keep walking. Hope life treats you well, anything i'm here
