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Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Anthony, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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@casja Год назад

Anthony is so articulate and incredibly self aware... I'm a social psychology graduate student and can imagine sitting next to him in one of my seminars and feeling as if I'm sitting next to an emotional and intellectual genius... Anthony, don't give up. You have so much going for you between your well-spoken-ness, your intellect, your self awareness, and your appearance. You could do a lot of good in this life!

@nicoeeek.7181 Год назад

I totally agree.

@michellebarbour5777 Год назад

Cass , Maybe the issue is not with Anthony (whom I agree is a bright, empathic man) but perhaps we need to put our minds to the issue of WHO makes Fentanyl? Who gives the drug a liscense? Anthony would have smoked lots of weed, maybe a bit of crack and possibly even dabbled with heroin a few years ago. He would have had a really good chance of recovery from all these substances (according to research). With Fentanyl, it will be much tougher and his outcome looks more bleak. As a Social psychology graduate, I hope that you might investigate the horrors of addiction and why/how it's got harder to recover in your post grad?. 'Care about an individual is a start, think about their bigger issue is real care, do some research and possibly make a difference'. Good luck to you. from a hopeful retired psychology academic U.K.

@Mandyx92 Год назад

Nobody asked

@immenselyitzchel5442 Год назад

I’d love to see an update on this gentleman, I hope he comes across these comments and knows though he may feel lonely he has thousands who are rooting for him and admire his ability to be so magnetic with his energy and sharing his story and mindset. Sending lots of love. We are rooting for you, Anthony!

@minimalglitch6675 Год назад

Exactly this. This interview hurt. I saw a bit of me in there, especially the addict and dual diagnosis etc. He is clearly someone that can help others, drifting is true...you need to have something and people to work for.

@handsupgivemeallyourmarshm4949 Год назад

🥰

@alexandrae5328 Год назад

Pl lol p Orphan ooo pp😢 pop 😅

@melsh9 Год назад

So perfectly said. We're rooting for you!

@heathledger6396 Год назад

omg ur obsessed

@caitybug. Год назад

I’m 19 going down the same path as Anthony and can relate a lot to his upbringing, his type of thinking, and the way he explains how he feels. Being angry towards people who want to show any sort of “love” or caring, the “get the hell away from me, where were you then? Not around.” Is definitely relatable. The “I don’t need you, please don’t leave” conflict. It’s hard having always felt alone.

@djangotrane Год назад

Hope you can find the support you need. It’s sometimes impossible to believe, but loneliness does not need to be your future!

@ismanovska 8 месяцев назад

When we are young things seems so grim at times. I swear it's not that dark..you can get through it....

@isacece1334 Год назад

This gentleman is amazing. The big sigh and the long pause with the eyes closed at the end was profound…he has an incredible soul not to mention a fantastic speaker

@imani_malik_L7777 Год назад

Dude is like a Ferrari with no driver collecting dust on the side of the street. Makes me grateful for the millions of tiny specs of inspiration that keep me going from one day/week/month/year to the next. You can be the smartest most talented insightful person in the universe but if you have no goals, than you have no drive, and you become weak, and than what is there to look forward to besides suffering? Drug addiction is the most demanding profession in the world man, it takes everything from you and gives you nothing.

@jenniferpieters7984 Год назад

Anthony is so very charming! He’s handsome, kind, smart. You have sooo much potential don’t let the streets be your last home! You are worthy

@aaaxthelm Год назад

Wow. A great interview. I hope his parents see it. What an articulate young man.

@phillipcooke500 Год назад

His parents definitely need to see it.

@shimmer8289 Год назад

His parents should be proud Anthony has more soul than most men I've met doing the 9 to 5

@Iamnoturmomma Год назад

It’s so sad that there are so many souls walking around today lacking love, the feeling of belonging, fulfillment & belief that their life’s can get better. No wonder so many turn to drugs, when they have nothing to loose, why not? This world is really lacking love and understanding on such a deep level. This man seems to have amazing insight, but he can’t see what a truly unique & wonderful human being he truly is and what he has to offer this world…

@michellemarie08 Год назад

Probably one of my favorite interviews!! I wish we could hear more about him!!

@isacece1334 Год назад

Yes… we’d love to see a revisit on Anthony

@hannahcleveland4858 Год назад

This has been one of my favorite interviews. Anthony, you seem like such a great person with so much to offer. I hope that you find a meaningful path for yourself, and maybe one day, you will have family to keep close.

@monicawhitaker5526 Год назад

I loved listening to his story. You can see in his eyes he has so much more to tell. Prayers to you!

@onepartyroule Год назад

I think Anthony has an old soul quality about him. There’s something very engaging about the way he communicates.

@sunstruck Год назад

As a mid 30's catholic raised guy - who's struggled with addiction before - i feel you on the childhood thing man... its a definite type of childhood... subtly abusive i think - hard to hold it against your folks though since its definitely a generational chain of abuse. Good luck with things man - you're a smart dude. I wish you the best.

@sunstruck Год назад

goddamn - hearing about your friend groups and such drives it home for me too... we are definitely the misfits of catholicism

@sunstruck Год назад

@@gcseve I hear ya - best of luck in ridding the catholic germ from the threads of your subconscious my man. peace

@kelb6073 Год назад

35 year old woman here went to Catholic school. I can always recognize people like us lol

@SassyZamm Год назад

My heart goes out to Anthony. All I wanted to do was hug him especially at the end. He’s a special being who seems to have been extremely deprived of love and uses drugs to fill the void and numb to pain. I hope Mark has seen him since the interview was posted and told him how much people care about him.

@ItsFreshItsAnne Год назад

This man is proof that addiction doesnt judge. What an eloquent man! Id love to talk with him at length ♥️

@isacece1334 Год назад

So would I!

@marcosluna7792 Год назад

Man, this interview was tough. I wish Anthony the best, he seems like a good guy - blessings from VA!

@stephanipeloquin4631 Год назад

All "addicts" are human beings, multifaceted and deserving of love.

@sosa2tymes Год назад

I was glued since it started ! I hope this gentleman finds his way ! It’s never to late to be great ! 💙🙏🏽 god bless him

@phillipcooke500 Год назад

Interesting dude. Good interview, this one. "How do I get out?" It's like he has looked at the system and realised that those at the top are just as poisonous as the ones at the bottom. His treatment to himself is almost to teach himself not to engage. He sees avarice and rejects it, and looked hard for authenticity and didn't find anything that measured up. As is usually the case with this channel, the parents have got some explaining to do. Thank you Mark

@katierobinson2480 Год назад

Wow. I have such a deep love and respect for this man. His pain has stirred so much up for me. He speaks so much truth.

@katierobinson2480 Год назад

He talks about not having a passion or focus. I wonder if he's ever considered writing? I would be interested in reading anything he writes... Especially that which relates to psychology/sociology/society/authentic humanness

@RebelBuddha1971 Год назад

@@katierobinson2480 You expressed my feelings perfectly. Those last couple minutes absolutely gutted me. I’m a lot like Anthony and wish I could let him know that it’s possible to overcome his situation. Such a beautiful soul…it simply bounces off of him in waves.

@jerseattle0722 Год назад

Our society sucks. I feel horrible for him. Poor sweet guy 😢 he deserves love

@scotto6314 Год назад

Wow. Extremely intelligent. I hope he steps into the light for brighter days. He will...

@ILTOMBA Год назад

Smart and nice guy! It seems that he wants to be picked out of the mud (by his dad), hugged and told 'boy we're going to fix this together, I love you!'

@kelb6073 Год назад

I relate to this guy. Luckily I haven't chosen to do drugs though. What he has is depression and a deep rooted anger. It isn't pleasant to live this way at all. Hopefully he finds a way out of it.

@jerseattle0722 Год назад

Trusting people is so hard to want when you’re raised not loved.

@grinchlette Год назад

Dang….that ending part, Mark. That’s the center of the destruction.

@cinders1413 Год назад

Anthony you have so many things going for you if you can just get off the drugs. A great guy like you would make a wonderful husband as there is someone out there for you who will love you. As long as drugs are in your life you won't see the woods from the trees . A cello player !! Please get on track and live the life you deserve, help is out there just reach out

@Name-ot3xw Год назад

I wish our friend here nothing but the best. It is a depressingly relatable story.

@sabribrian 8 месяцев назад

Many comments on how relatable a person Anthony is but all the while he feels so alone. Society may seem ruthless and unsympathetic, but there are others like you out there that really just want to be loved. They are not going to drop out of the sky and save you. It is on us to open up our hearts to others. How can we expect unconditional love if we do offer it?

@ktl5616 Год назад

I feel like that the avoidant-dismissive attachment with his parents really lead to serious self-worth and confident issues, that is potentially one of the primary reasons which lead him to believe that he is not worthy of good things in life. He started using drugs by the age of 15, and I feel like there is more to the story about his history with drug addiction than attachment style and childhood issues. Religion indeed contributed to his current situation and issues. It really touched me when he said “ I felt love by my grandmother, and she made me feel like that I could have a different life”. He also have issues with attachment and intimacy, which contributed to his loneliness and lack of support system; that is due to dismissive attachment styles with parents, making him internally neglected when people try to offer him help or show support, which he react with anger deep-rooted in childhood trauma and experiences. But he does view himself positively (He mentioned that he do not consider himself self-destructive), which is a great sign that definitely open up the possibility for recovery and a wholesome life. Lastly, I really feel like mental health services could benefit greatly to people just like Anthony. I am not sure if medical or Medicare covers mental health counseling, but if such services is available to the under-privilege and vulnerable communities free of charge, the city and the government should definitely help them to connect with such services.

@kelb6073 Год назад

I agree. He's a good looking guy, but he's only 29 and looks pretty weary for a 29 year old. The lifestyle is starting to do him in and making his mental health worse. If things like depression aren't dealt with, it will only get worse. But I get what he means about therapy not really working. I have similar issues as him. Therapy doesn't work that good for me either and I need a really good therapist which can be hard to find. IMO therapy is hard for people who are maybe not religious and maybe have above average intelligence and can kind of already see their problems.

@magical8013 Год назад

He honestly sounds like someone that came from a decent family but turned it into something worse than it was because he started using. I'm an addict, that was a heroin addict for 15 years. Opiate addict for even longer. I truly came from a fucked-up family. When you move out at fifteen and both your older brothers have been out for years on the street and your mom's using meth that's a different story

@ceciliefrich4280 Год назад

Heartbreaking interview 😢 It made me cry. Such an honest, intelligent and articulate man. I hope he sees his worth one day! ❤ I'd like to give him a huge hug.

@dianeboudrias7954 Год назад

I feel so sad for you Anthony. I wish you the best in life. I pray that you will get clean one day and that you find love. ❣️

@daisygirl1217 Год назад

Anthony if you get to see this comment I want you to know that your story hit me pretty hard. I completely understand the pain of disappointment, the darkness of being alone, the not being able to trust a human being because all that has ever come into your life has only wanted something from you and were not genuine, the feeling of abandonment, the feeling of having nothing to live for, the feeling that no one else in this world understands who you are. I guess what I am trying to say is that I do understand, and it's fucking hard. People like you and I are different than other people, we think, see and feel on a completely different level. It's that deep level of compassion that gets us hurt every time. While I was listening to your story in the background, I was in the middle of creating which tends to keep me mainly focused on what I am doing however, after a little bit I stopped everything so that I could watch and listen to you with my full attention. I think that says something about just how amazing and special you are that you had the ability to stop someone from doing what they were doing to then giving you their full attention. I want you to know that I do feel that you are special, that you are kind, that you are caring, that you are intelligent and that you are magnificent. I will pray for you today Anthony with the hopes that something will come along soon in your life to lift some of the heavy weight off of your shoulders. Cause God knows, you deserve it.

@jax993 Год назад

🇦🇺 love from Aus 2 all the lost the lonely the 1's that need 2 be needed, that need 2 be loved

@joannebillesdon8379 Год назад

Hi Anthony, the words of Robert Bly came to me after watchung your interview "it's OK to grow you wings on the way down" great interview Mark all the best Anthony.

@judithobatusa Год назад

I pray that Anthony gets connected to love and support.

@fatimamelo3858 Год назад

Anthony recover ,and you would make a great doctor of the mind to genuinely help others....you deserve love❤❤❤

@AcidOnTheStreet Год назад

He kinda sounds like my boyfriend. My boyfriend has lost himself, to alcohol. I have also I guess but with bulimia and selfharm, in periods lots of alcohol aswell. I'd give this man a hug. I think we all need it. Sorry to say i'm from Sweden and my love is in the states. Cause sometimes we just wanna feel loved, words are good but for someone to feel it, I think that can beat most things. I hope he finds his way out of this loneliness.

@xx-di7iy Год назад

this guys getting the fentanyl back posture that johnny was talking about!!!

@prettyfeet22 Год назад

You are so accomplished and intelligent. When you are ready to get off drugs you will be able to help many people.

@heapner 3 месяца назад

I always watch these thinking this could have been me. I’ve had my struggles but nothing like these kinds. I feel so lucky. This world is random and unfair.

@abstergo06 Год назад

i truly wish he's gonna get better, this interview really hit hard, i see a lot of my father's story in what he recounted and there is always a tiny bit of hope i swear

@TheHarvestchef Год назад

Course of Miracles Anthony. You have the intelligence to understand this book. It will change everything if you apply the lessons. Lots of love brother. Lots and lots of love.

@itsmedeka Год назад

Incredible spirit this man has, this has been my favorite interview thus far.

@reed_reed Год назад

If you read this man I've never watched this series and never felt like I've watched someone like me. The way you talk about life is so true. I get it.

@Nakia7430 Год назад

Anthony, Thanks so much for sharing your story. I saw some parallels with my own, though we have different paths. I wish you healing and peace. 💜

@johannaburns215 Год назад

Anthony, You are someone that I would like to have lunch with and give you a hug. I can identify with a few things you mentioned, as I never felt loved as a child although I felt that my grandma really loved me. I am also alone with no family but I have finally found purpose and will be training to be a respiratory therapist in fall. I had to find my inner strength it took me a while to move on from my abusive mother but I feel as though my grandma is watching over me. Much love and peace Johanna

@TheSweetsherrypie Год назад

He has the Demeanor of James Dean. First thing I thought before he ever spoke

@stevebradshaw6330 Год назад

This one hit deep. Wish the best for him.

@tifKh Год назад

I honestly would give this guy a shot at help. Some people sort of strike something in you sometimes- is there any way to help him directly (if he sees this comment)?

@tifKh Год назад

@soft white underbelly

@gracemorai Год назад

There is no mystery to psychology. It is the lack of love that makes people crazy.

@NicksHEAT1995 Год назад

This guy has accepted defeat. He's done.

@MalaMi2012 Год назад

This was one of the saddest interview I have ever seen. God please help him.

@JanuaryEmbers19 Год назад

It always amazes me how a lot of these people aren’t from CA. They live in harsher weather states, become homeless and drug addicted (for whatever reason) and obviously CA is ideal weather wise for homeless people, plus skid row is basically a homeless/drug free for all. It’s just so sad, and I don’t know if it will ever be cleaned up.

@eversosleight Год назад

Nihilistic worldview without coming out and saying it. Hopes and prayers for this young man.

@sirussid3671 Год назад

He has the light to make it through he has potential to come up clean intelligent confident of his position he can contribute to society in postive way 🤔

@mollycorcoran8536 Год назад

“They have the same greed in their eye as a dope fiend” . Yes, seems like everyone fiends for something. $, power, drugs

@sparrowbreast Год назад

I'd like to see him get well. I'm so glad you showed more than just his sorrow. Sometimes breathing is all we have in this cruel world of rejections. He's stronger than he thinks.

@baghodler508 Год назад

Almost seems like a well educated actor playing a fentanyl addict

@christina8661 Год назад

He speaks like timothee chalamet

@stephanipeloquin4631 Год назад

We're all actors, and life is but a stage.

@ddz1375 Год назад

@@stephanipeloquin4631 full of Sound and Fury.

@billg7205 Год назад

He's not an actor. Organized religion doesn't teach people to be strong, confident, stand up for personal boundaries, and other qualities that you need in life. Several minutes into the interview he's about as close to myself in type as I've seen here. Almost didn't watch it, as you get burned out on seeing yet another sad story. He's also dead on (commenting as I'm listening) that traditional recovery does not work... for a number of reasons. Most educated and/or skilled people don't admit to being addicts, as there's the stigma that you don't have the traditional reasons aka excuses for being one. BTW I'm a known master modeler of scale flying aircraft. The skid row stereotype of addicts being low intellect 1st grade dropouts isn't even true on skid row.

@midmomom2490 Год назад

@@billg7205 I don’t agree organized religion is bad for everyone

@nitinbansal1631 Год назад

When you think deeply, you realise most of the troubled people only need a second chance and someone to love them.

@Sonbiii Год назад

Real love from family and both parents is vital. Why is it so hard to love our children?

@Rugmunchersauce3 Год назад

Yes.🙂

@jmag9480 Год назад

Sorry but there is help out there. Help beyond help out there. My sister lives on the street addicted to drugs. We grew up never wanting for anything. Had money food everything one could ask for. She's been giving chance after chance. This is a choice. Life is about making choices. Nothing can help until they seek it

@SevenHunnid Год назад

I love to do food videos while smoking weed on my RU-vid channel, to cure people’s boredom brotha

@tmstani23 Год назад

If only it were that simple. Drugs are addictive and mess up your reward system to the point where nothing else matters. You can make any justification you want and perhaps even be correct but at a certain point there is nothing but hitting rock bottom that will save you. And it looks like he already has so I doubt he will ever quit until he dies. Hopefully he will find a miracle within himself.

@kw25627 Год назад

What a handsome and intelligent man. I truly hope he finds healing and rest. I would love to hear him play the cello.

@seela349k7 Год назад

Anthony, I grew up with parents who were cold, angry and emotionally neglectful. It has taken me my whole 64 years to learn that love is not something you should have to earn from your parents.

@mpat100 Год назад

Blessings and healing for you.

@marinaephremis7906 Год назад

Amen

@caitybug. Год назад

@mpat100 Год назад

@@caitybug. Blessings for you in your future Caitlyn 19 is a hard age to be

@MarioGomez-nd2mx Год назад

Yep. My parents got married too young and we're mentally abusive especially my so called "dad". He's an abusive alcoholic. My mom sadly died last September of heart disease. The good thing is my mom and me made up and had a great relationship. R.I.P. Mom.❤

@MichelleSmith-xy7hk Год назад

This one hit hard. Anthony is such an intelligent, self-aware and articulate person and it’s so sad that he’s talking about having just given up. I cried when he said he was the loneliest person in the world and cried again when he talked about keeping family close at the end. Despite acting as though he didn’t care about life or really anything, at the end his true sadness and fear came out. I feel incredibly sad for him that his parents didn’t show him the love he needed to be able to feel secure enough to live a full life. I really hope things change and he finds that spark to turn things around.

@onepartyroule Год назад

Agreed. I wish he was my friend.

@eoinmcg88 Год назад

The man is a spoilt baby

@917mary Год назад

Interesting guy! Although he seems mild mannered, I can see childhood trauma that can turn him into Dexter.

@hannatadesse2117 Год назад

you said it best...I wish I could hug him through the screen

@redrognav1 Год назад

@@onepartyroule he'd steal your sh*t. Don't romanticize a drug addict. They lie and steal to survive

@cynthiageracoulis8287 Год назад

My 23 yr old son died in Jan. I’d adopt Anthony and give him the family he deserves in a heartbeat. God Bless him.

@independentfilmfestival Год назад

yes!

@zakarykovach3113 Год назад

He’s gonna steal all your shit and sell it for fent

@jimbolic0809 Год назад

@@zakarykovach3113 I hope you find love in your life.

@toni9129 Год назад

I wish you could adopt him and love him. He's so intelligent, his vocabulary, how he describes concepts. He has great potential if he could receive healing.

@WickedNature2112 Год назад

The bottom line is all these people have to want it....ive been there too. Once I got over dwelling on shit in the rear view mirror, I finally put it "in drive" and "focused on the road ahead"...which was an epiphany in 1991, where coke brought my 6 foot ass down to 110lbs. I'd turn sideways and disappear, I was so thin and sucked out. Damn near killed me too. Best thing I did was MOVE- terrifying, but, if this helps ANYONE OUT THERE, that's what worked for me...and still does to this day. I have Empathy for those stuck, yet some view me as callous because I NEVER played Victim: it's this: GET Over your shit or DIE trying to hide from it.

@mattduncan2012 Год назад

One of my favorite interviews so far. His self awareness is impressive. I pray he finds a purpose for his life. Being drawn to the dirt. as he said may indeed be his purpose. He should find a way to work with people in the gutter. All humans need a purpose! Without we are lost and totally self destructive.

@anikasvellte Год назад

He seems like a really nice smart and well articulated guy. So lonely and wounded. I feel for him. Prayers lifted for him to find healing love and a place where he feels he can be his authentic self be appreciated and strive🙏💓

@tedijune6759 Год назад

AnikaSvellte; I feel the same for him…

@TimjanT Год назад

Couldn't agree with youre reflection more. Good choice of words, you nailed it 🏵️

@SweatyWelder68 Год назад

I feel the same way as well this young man is soooo smart and well educated...and he is in the lowest of missery....we need to send LOve his way folks!!!II call his future bright!!!I call him Blessed !!I call him Loved and full of peace and comfort!! Father God please do not let him die on the streets!Amen!!

@HiGlowie Год назад

@@theredhotchilipepperssexof4269 no one wants your shitty clickbait

@stephenpmurphy591 Год назад

Sadly I don't believe him. Drug addicts break many hearts & leave deep emotional wounds. Those family members, close friends & news friends never seem to matter. Everyone else is a bad person. I still don't believe him. My cousin was just like him he left many deeply hurt family members. His story we're all horrible people even though my wife & I didn't press charges after stealing my identity. Auggie stole over forty nine thousand from his parents, siblings & me and my wife. He still lives on the streets. Still blames all of us. The family members of drug addicts never matter only them.

@tonantzincarrasco6526 Год назад

I cried myself to sleep watching this. I used to be this person. All I wanted was to be loved and have my mom accept me. You are loved Anthony! By all of us!

@comrade_brotato 9 месяцев назад

yeah easy to say that lol

@Cloveis Год назад

Anthony seems really self aware. He knows he has potential, and I think a lot of the people here see it too. He can definitely be helped

@bloomerdavid Год назад

Sometimes the smarter abuse victims can be the toughest to heal.

@gregbors8364 Год назад

“It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” - J. Krishnamurti

@fingerprint5511 Год назад

@@gregbors8364 this 🙏

@hugogiblets Год назад

Yes. But, CAN be helped is a lot different than WANTS to be helped.

@Cloveis Год назад

@@hugogiblets that is true, I agree. Awareness is the first step though! I wish him and anyone in his situation the best

@MommyWalrus Год назад

"The drugs is what I've chosen" as he stares straightforward into the lens... profound honesty. What an interview!

@kentonian Год назад

Just goes to show that love is more important than money, grades, careers. He needed more love. Tough to repair those deep wounds. There are genuine people in the 9-5 world, yes we do sometimes get a bit obsessed with getting new possessions etc. But for a big proportion of us love comes first. I hope Anthony finds a path to a healthier lifestyle where he can heal and build. He would have a lot to give. That maybe the way you are now but not the only way you can be. Big hug from England and please be kind and not let your addiction hurt others as much as possible.

@stst77 Год назад

I made a similar comment. The child who is loved is better off than the child who has Money, experiences and education.

@kentonian Год назад

@@stst77 yes, without a doubt. Also I'd add that kids need attentive parents. That do activities with them. Enjoy spending time with them. Encourage them to be brave and let them make their own mistakes. I have 2 adopted boys that were taken from the parents for neglect, I wished it didn't have to happen but at least the cycle was broken for these two.

@stst77 Год назад

@@kentonian i am happy your sons have a someone that cares now!

@stephenpmurphy591 Год назад

@@stst77 We've only heard his side. He's a crack addict & fentanyl addict still using daily hourly. I'll say this again family members of drug addicts never matter. All the emotional chaos. All the emotional sucker punches to the gut. I don't believe him. He needs to seek treatment.

@student22044 Год назад

This pulls at the heart strings. This guy looks like a 50s film star. I hope he discovers a miracle out on the sidewalk. ❤

@seltzermint5 Год назад

When he speaks it reminds me of Woody Allen.

@jupitermoon8671 Год назад

I totally thought he had that look too!

@Lovereignsupreme Год назад

Jimmy Stewart/Carey Grant

@stephenpmurphy591 Год назад

@@Lovereignsupreme No, River Phoenix & Keanu Reeves My Own Private Idaho. I'm not sure he comprehends reality or honestly.

@IbHustln Год назад

Good looking dude. He's right the corporate world is completely inauthentic, if you're not a narcissist you probably won't go too far. Anthony seems like he'd be an excellent writer!

@elz_bytes Год назад

If I could give this guy a hug, I would if he'd let me. This man needs love. He needs support. He's so smart and very well educated and so self aware. I hope the universe cradles this man and keep him protected along his journey.

@tayjay1164 Год назад

I was just sitting here thinking the same thing. Bless you.

@elz_bytes Год назад

@pouya why did you write that on my comment?

@lisarincon3527 Год назад

I want to hug this guy for an hour!

@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet Год назад

You don’t know anything about this dude from a 30 minute video yet people instantly make assumptions when you can’t know whom he really is.

@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet Год назад

@@elz_bytes It’s social media. That’s why.

@smartalec8855 Год назад

This is a perfect example of how shit parents can absolutely ruin a human being. Anthony could have been a happy well adjusted young man. Listening to him speak you could imagine him as a Harvard graduate had he had parents who didn’t have their heads up their asses. Such a sweet, thoughtful guy. I hope you read this Anthony. Hang in there.

@stockzy1 Год назад

"where were they before when things did matter to me" ... there's a bitterness that lives deep inside him for not having that support when he was younger. He really and truly thought about the biggest lesson he learned and there it was...what he's wanted all along...a family...and a sense of belonging ...xx

@rosegrangerw Год назад

It would be interesting to hear more about his childhood, as well as his parents perspective. It seems like there was quite a jump from his childhood to addiction without explanation

@joshuashields4504 Год назад

This guy is rare. I totally understand what he means when he explains how conventional styles of recovery tend to not work for him. He explained something in two minutes that I’ve been trying to put my thumb on for twenty years!😂😂 This guy is extra special, and I hope he can find a reason and a form of recovery that is suitable for him. Wishing you nothing but the best my friend. And thank you for another banger Mark!

@stuzz3511 Год назад

This guy's a winner, not a loser! You are loved Anthony and you can do this buddy..1 step at a time. You got this!! Someone please give this lovely man a job!! 🙏 ❤✌

@bloomerdavid Год назад

What is your determination based by which you judge others on weather or not they’re winners/losers?

@TheTrillaTron Год назад

@@bloomerdavid lmao starting fights for no reason.

@bloomerdavid Год назад

@@TheTrillaTron something funny?

@stuzz3511 Год назад

@@bloomerdavid Said no one...EVER!

@TheTrillaTron Год назад

@@bloomerdavid lolol

@mrblackitalian3715 Год назад

As I watched this interview it seemed like nothing could change his mind. It is what it is and this was his life. No emotions until the end where he couldn't hide it anymore. He wants that love and just prove he can do right. That Fentanyl......... got a hold of an intelligent mind.🥺

@whoisharo4689 Год назад

In a lot of my research on addiction, i learned that about 85% of addicts were highly intelligent people - some with higher than avg IQs too (intelligent and high IQ arent the same). This guy reminded me of this.

@fineart6867 Год назад

they are too smart for their own good. the intelligence is the ability to fool or manipulate people to get drugs.. anyone who wants drugs will become smart to get them

@Bratcowski Год назад

Such innate intelligence and so incredibly articulate. I hope he finds his way back because I believe he could help so many people! Praying for this young man to find healing and sobriety!

@weirdmood8102 Год назад

Sometimes, our "intelligence" is the very thing holding us back. We know we're intelligent, logical, well- spoken, etc , so we think we can logic our way through the issue. I think we also tend to believe that we have more control over the situation than reality would suggest. It took one of the " lowest" people on earth questioning my reasoning for my eyes to be opened. I was fortunate to be sent to the top treatment centers around the country, access to the best therapists, showered with love and support, but the one and only thing that could get through to me wasn't privilege and it wasn't my intelligence; it was someone viewed by society as literally the lowest of the low- humans. He was the most looked down upon in a prison full of losers, and he was questioning what was wrong with ME. It opened my eyes literally instantly. He was basically just asking why I kept doing this shit, it wasn't a serious talk he gave me or anything of the like, but I heard it loud and clear. If THIS guy is questioning what's wrong with me, I'm obviously a huge fucking problem. I obviously don't want to be a problem. I don't want to be a loser. I don't want to be a piece of shit. And, since I wasn't out robbing people, stealing things, hanging out with terrible people, etc , I thought I was OK. I was well aware I had a serious addiction, but I justified it by thinking the only harm it caused was financial, and that wasn't an issue. I remember it like it was yesterday, but as soon as he said that to me, I immediately recognized I was the problem. I made a decision that very moment to change, and I haven't used a drug since. It's been almost 6 years now, and I've built a completely new life. I had to start from the very bottom ( prison, gov housing, min wage job, etc) , it is taking Time, but I currently have a fantastic life. Relationships repaired , financially comfortable, beautiful relationships/family, etc. I'm not trying to toot my own horn, I just see alot of people here mention these guys intillect as a possible saving grace, but after being in institutions the majority of my life, I've seen that the vast majority of us seem to be quite intelligent, and it seems to be a negative attribute, more so than a positive one in our particular cases. Either way, sorry for the freakin essay I just spewed out. It certainly wasn't my intention, but here we are! 😄 Hope you have an awesome day.

@Bratcowski Год назад

@@weirdmood8102 I appreciate your candor and explanation! And congratulations on your continuing journey 🙏🏼

@dianaharmon4914 Год назад

I’ve met so many people like Anthony in my time in recovery. BRILLIANT, beautiful humans who have this horrible malady of the mind. Anthony, if somehow you see this comment, please don’t give up. Life can be beautiful again and you can feel peace. I’m here among so many others if you need someone trustworthy in recovery. 🖤

@taylorpilewski Год назад

Something about his voice. If he could cleanup he could absolutely find work in voice acting. For ads, for cartoons, audibook reading, whatever. He is fantastically articulate and his voice has a pleasant "airyness" to it. Could listen to him all day.

@hannahmitchell87 Год назад

27:18 Anyone else find that a stange response? I'd put money on him having sibling/s & either sadly lost them or is estranged

@milicagrujic1361 Год назад

Thank you for all the work you've given us Mark. I'm becoming a better person because of you. Sending love and gratitude From Beograde, Serbia. ❤️

@dankadesign7462 Год назад

Vrlo.lepo od tebe Milice.Da super .pozdrav

@milicagrujic1361 Год назад

@@dankadesign7462 Hvala🍀🍀

@dankadesign7462 Год назад

@@milicagrujic1361 🙂👍

@katarinahinsey3931 Год назад

Pozdrav iz Indijane, 🇺🇸

@milicagrujic1361 Год назад

@@katarinahinsey3931 🍀🍀😍

@jeffreytruckenmiller2284 Год назад

Dude should get into acting or something. Has a lot of deep sophisticated emotions to convey on an artistic level

@majinbuu7846 Год назад

I really like Anthony, he seems very honest.. he's obviously intelligent, he's generous and overall genuine. I hope you find what you want man.

@sandymclean9630 Год назад

Nice to hear Anthony speak & so intelligently So sorry for the feelings from childhood I understand Respect from New Zealand 🪴🌴

@bellabelle8490 Год назад

My heart goes out to you Anthony, you deserve more.

@johnruvolis874 Год назад

That was really thought provoking. A lot of people think like that even if they don't take it to this extreme.

@deliaby4557 Год назад

Man this guy seems like a really great guy who just needs some real help. I just want to give him a hug and feed him! So sorry life has been so rough my guy. I hope you find your own slice of peace and happiness someday!

@DennisF96 Год назад

Anthony is very self aware. What a sad story ... What could have been if he had a better another start to life or better friends? Wish him all the best.

@Neepslol Год назад

Crazy.. Anthony and me grew up very close to each other in the exact same society. It’s lead me to feel and be in the almost same position as him. Drugs, prison, depression, just an array of emotions. Just like he said, grew up with all the opportunities but it didn’t matter

@KayciazWorld Год назад

I'm so sorry💔 I pray that you both can heal and find purpose in your lives. Whether either of you realize it or not, you matter, you're needed, and you are loved beyond measure. ✝️🙏❤️

@katarinahinsey3931 Год назад

It’s what you make of it, in any situation. It’s never too late to find love in this world.

@colettespencer3357 Год назад

I understand. Without love, it's an empty life. I am learning to love myself. I'm 53. It's taken a long time. You can do it. Don't give up.

@isacece1334 Год назад

@@colettespencer3357 that is the same as me I’m 54 and just recently learning how to love myself

@AM-sk1tv Год назад

What a lovely person. God bless him.

@jpinvestcebu Год назад

Wow, Anthony your life is so similar to mine in so many ways it's wild listening to your story. Being a bit older now I can tell you that you'll always have struggles, but if you find a purpose other than getting high, you can and will pull out your current rut. All the hopes and prayers your way brother, stay strong and find that purpose.

@franmoreno5977 Год назад

This made me cry...he's so intelligent and caring..I hope he realizes he deserves to live and help himself. I pray he will turn things around and know that there are people who actually care.❤

@avantgardenovelist Год назад

Anthony: just own the four-walls-and- good-books lifestyle you've chosen without letting its rarity in today's society discourage you. Own your hermit lifestyle, read your books, write your books, play your music, and let the expectations and judgments of others dissipate like the morning dew. Books are worth quitting drugs for.

@abbiesonntag3855 Год назад

Fantastic comment ✨

@angelakent598 Год назад

I think he's probably had a lot of trauma due to his grandmother's death. Trauma, depression and not having a purpose has probably played a big part and his situation. So many people fall through the cracks and just don't get the right help that they really need. This really snowballs after a while. I'd love to see a follow up on him. Such a sensitive soul. 💗

@baublesanddolls Год назад

It would be great if he found a good counselor.

@kimberlylaflamme4649 Год назад

I 💯 agree!

@SammysMysASMR Год назад

Top 3 most relatable and profound engagements I've ever seen here. Anthony isn't wrong many lead an inauthentic life and are disingenuous. I really really really appreciate you both for making this happen and dare I say I love who you are Anthony!