Fentanyl Addict interview-Tony 

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@@TheTabooRoomWithAaron off brand SWU

meetings, sponsorship, steps, and don't use no matter what. pretty simple. he can get back into recovery, all he has to do is make that decision.

@@TheTabooRoomWithAaron let your show grow organically and humbled. It doesn't authentic when you go to a comment section and just blatantly talk about your self while the original post was something totally different. It's actually rude and un called for. I called you an idiot earlier on another post. Just stop it already and focus on your own materials in your own space

@@TheTabooRoomWithAaron This spamming all the comments thing isn't a good look......

Congratulations! Don’t look back. Make something of your young life.

Congratulations! Please stay on suboxone if you need to and are able to. Hope you find a good support group, recovery program! Sending you my best.

Good luck john💪stay strong

Subutex saved my life. I know it’s trading one for another but from where I was to where I am now most likely wouldn’t of happened.

Congratulations!!!

Hallelujah 🙏🏽

💚💚💚💚 stay strong!

So strong of you to back out!!! Keep that same attitude, stay strong and have a relaxing birthday weekend..use the money you would’ve used on the drugs to take yourself out to eat or go buy you something new💕

I'm proud of you! That "one time" could be your last because it could kill you and if that one didn't, the one that would eventually would come! It isn't any better out there now man! If anything, it's WORSE! Good on you for deciding against relapsing! You made it 5 years! Don't throw that all away and risk your life!

One birthday at a time…I get it! Good job, you’re worth it. Happy sober birthday! ❤️

Thats very nice written. Im hurt by my best friend bc he wount agree that addiction is illnes. Bc then is a choise and like you said it who on Earth would do this to him or herselfe. If ppl would understand just that, would help with stigma a lot. Abt a friend, he still helps a lot of ppl in trouble bc of his personal expirience with drugs, what I realy admire. There are still good ppl out there. So thank you, your words will touch a lot of those who need them ☀️🍀🧡

Lol " you see the light " 🤣 probably the glare from the phone.

@@ebz- If you think me.. I turn MY light on... 😉

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Thank you for sharing your story.. makes me feel better knowing I’m not alone in this. Love and respect.

If u could... like u don't know where to find OTHER USERS ... Go to AA n give that time.

Yup agreed. Stay on good Path thnx for share

Boomer. Would like to hear your story of recovery. Any way to reach you ?

People that haven't had that monkey on their back don't understand how it literally changes your brain and thought process, it really is like being taken over by a different entity.

the irony is that addiction makes you lose your humanity

@@scienz everyone is addicted to something, be it sex, drugs, food, talking shit on the internet, etc EVERYONE

@@wyattroberts3559 nope. That's a cop out for people that never really experienced addiction. People that suffer from the disease known as addiction forgo their values and dignity, they lose themselves, lose the ability to say no to that addiction. He doesn't wanna steal or boost. He has no choice cuz the addiction is pulling the strings. His brain has been rewired.

Like I said everyone is addicted to something! I've been on fentanyl 3 years, other opiates 15 years.....I still go to work every fucking day and pay my bills on time.. moderation is key!!

My dad never liked me either. He was much loved as a community leader in our small community. Couldn't stand me. I ended up feeling alienated from whole community. Addict for decades. 30 or 40 years of binge drinking and or heroin. 52 now. On my last cycle of suboxone. One mg a day. Have a son of my own. I hope I am doing better as a dad.

With fentanyl, the physical withdrawal is often the biggest hurdle. There are tons of people out there that want out desperately but don't know how. Things can truly feel hopeless when you're trapped on that level.

Agree 💯

@@TrillMurray absolutely, but that's why we have great medications like suboxone and methadone to help and they have excellent success rates. Ppl like to talk a lot but the facts are if you use these medications properly as prescribed and do the actual true work of recovery like therapy, developing new healthy coping skills, changing people places and things ppl will have just as a successful true recovery as being in recovery opiate free. Addicts are afraid of recovery because it's a lot of changes and a lot of work, they'll convince themselves of excuses and reasons to avoid the work of recovery. The addict brain LOVES playing up fear to the max. But if more addicts were taught properly and didn't have shame about medication assisted treatment, it solves the fear of withdrawal problem instantly. Theres nothing to fear cuz it wont happen! Especially with methadone cuz u dont have to worry about having to wait at all to start it. They truly save so many lives.

@@js3617 unless you have been through fentanyl dopesickness yourself, you can not understand how terrifying it can be. I have PTSD flashbacks occasionally from it. Suboxone can only be administered after you've been through days of the worst of it and can be even harder to quit. I get that it works for some, but I wouldn't touch it

And that's a beautiful thing, I'm so happy for you...it also helps me to listen as well, these videos are one of the best AA/NA meetings you can attend! Stay strong out there, and know that you have support right here in the comment threads rooting you on! 💯💙💎🔥

I love to hear you're staying sober. It's a tough gig, but worth the hard work. Much love!

Dude lemme tell u it ain't got better. It's so much worse than u can even imagine. Proud of u. Keep on keeping on.

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Demons

Former "friends?" If you left them to wallow in their addiction you were the bad friend there.

@@1Elicitg demons? I hope you dont mean that literally. If so please run away from whatever cult youre in right now!!!!

@@jesusthugmusic don't pretend to tell me a single thing about my choices of who I associate with you moron. 'Friends' in apostrophes is meant to denote they weren't friends at all you complete idiot.

@@jesusthugmusic go away

👏🏻👏🏻 YES SAY IT LOUDER PLEASE. "Its not about God. Just putting your faith in a higher power" w

@@katiexcakes Remind me. How many of those steps mention GOD?

his siblings didn't end up like him and they had the same father. it's all his choices that led him to this point, not his father choices... only thing responsible for his situation he got from his father are the genes leading to this behaviour. but his father inherited them too. so ... stop pointing fingers

Hearing the hurt in his voice is so heart breaking.

@@gst9325--- The greatest advantage you'll ever get in life is being born to stable, loving parents who raise you to adulthood. So show compassion to those who weren't. Because it wasn't a result of your foresight or their lack of it.

@@gordon3186 I agree, and yet, there is millions of cases like this coming from loving stable families. again, it all goes down to your personal choices.

@@gst9325 --- *People get caught up in addiction and soon find they've crossed the line only AFTER they find themselves on the other side of it. Some never find their way back.* *Do alcoholics make a "personal choice" to become an alcoholic after drinking their first beer? Their 10th? Their 100th? No one EVER chooses to be an addict.* *On the flip side, that people occasionally defy the odds doesn't mean those odds don't exist. Being born drug addicted, to a drug addicted prostitute, who carried her pregnancy to term because she had no access to a safe and legal abortion, stacks the odds against you so greatly that you're certainly doomed to failure. Maybe not in this particular instance but in many others.*

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I've done it before and it truly does hurt us in the end. It hurts EVERYBODY in your life, including yourself. What hurt me more when I was in active addiction/alcoholism was hurting my family with my addiction/alcoholism.

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Sending great vibes & love to you Jessie. I hope this reaches you and those you love in great health and happiness❤️🙏😎

Stay strong, Jessie! You got this. Protect your sobriety like you would a newborn baby! It's that precious! Much love to you & yours!

Try to get ur hands on Ibogane. Its illegal in the US. It gets u through withdrawals n kills cravings after a 8 hour trip. (Look it up)

🙏🙏🙏🙏. Hope u get peace soon ✌️

Me too jessie! It's awful but we can both make it! Don't give up before your miracle happens!

no, he's not

ya=eah dont wanna be negative but i dont think hes gonna make it

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Was yo ig

I'll tell him you said that and it will absolutely bring some light to his day.

Fortifying borders is not a solution to the opioid epidemic.

Drugs will get into any place there is demand just like alcohol literally anywhere a human being is that has money and wants drugs there will ALWAYS be a dealer selling it to them

If they legalized abortions across America then we wouldn't have so many kids without parents! Wow how crazy of an idea!!!

@@toxicavenger7073 If people were responsible there wouldn't be any sizable need for abortion.. it absurdly reckless and careless to be so much of a degenerate that you resort to abortion. Obviously pregnancy resulting from abuse is rare and likewise the occurrence of birth control failing is considerably low.. the mass majority of abortions result from low quality people choosing to make atrociously poor decisions

@@toxicavenger7073 free birth control

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Exactly 💯. 👏 👏 👏

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Is it true that it's works better than methadone and leaves less cravings?

@@Big1nz yea thats all pretty accurate, however it will be very difficult and painful to ween/detox off eventually as well. Its a much lesser evil, but when the withdrawals set in you get back that crazy panicked dopesickness just the same as any junkie. Edit: ive been on subs for two years and weened down but am having a very hard time kicking it altogether.

@@brandnewsam94 I wish the withdrawal expect of addiction was more widely known. I learned about it all through these videos and a little additional research. It made me so much more sympathetic to recovering addicts

@@Big1nz ... YES !! I'm so happy to see suboxone as an option but he just said it doesn't help fentanyl ... I can truly attest to it helping my 30+ yr hydro habit

Congrats! Well done👍👏👍

I have female who has stalked me for 20 years that lives in Chico, CA and is from Baltimore. Meth and booze bad. She is delusional from my family lineage. She is typical and not fitting for Cali. It is back east drug use and way more violent.

Agreeddddd

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I thought there weren't rules. Only "suggestions".

Easier said than done when your head is not mush and you're not emotionally stunted. Also telling people what to do is 100% not the way.

@@LoloO42 “Suggestions” are only for those who aren’t serious about sobriety.👍🏽 When you’re SERIOUS about it, you allow yourself to give up control to something bigger than oneself.

@@JamesDel Ask anyone in long term sobriety….not wanting to be told what to do is pure EGO. Long term sobriety requires a person to relinquish egotistical-stubborn power or control. To “get over” oneself is paramount. Being humble (humility) and saying “hey, maybe I DON’T know everything, I might as well try listening to someone who’s made it” takes a LOT of courage and strength.

"Boring is more fun than the lonlies of addition" Absolutely 💯

Very true, sometimes the boredom can fuel that itch to get high. I always just sit in the house and sometimes I'm like, "wow this is lame as hell, i need some excitement" but in reality this IS truly pure excitement. A warm bed, cozy blanket, fridge full of food and my family next to me on the couch is like heaven compared to any of those "best" days in the streets.

@@themodstrobator5676 i recycle the living water to cure turminal illness. I am *NOT* the golden shower anything.

@@4eyes2sea Hey,don't listen to these morons...they don't know you. You do you, and don't worry yourself with these assholes😁

@@wesleyalan9179 lol. I know.. I'm not that sensitive. I get tired of defending when people don't have a clue what they're saying. Thx for your comment. 🤩

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Unfortunately that's the kind of tone you get with a long term use of opiates... That and a distinct vocal fry that some addicts keep for years after getting clean, it's actually really sad when you finally get clean but every time you talk you're reminded of your past

@@thestraydog oh really? Hmmm after a lifetime of drugs and knowing people far worse than myself I've never encountered this. I'd have to say he got high before the interview. Maybe a little ice because he looked tweeked out and had the nervous rasp along with lots and lots of talking . . . Hell Mark didn't even have to ask many questions. So I'll disagree with your answer to the question

@@thestraydog yes...nearly all the addicts in Dublin ( Ireland) have a similar drawl, speech...kinda nasal voice.

Like Bob Dylan, Simon Joyner, Leonard Cohen, Lou reed, and Conor oberst

I think that is the resonating voice of an anxious, nervous individual being interviewed about sensitive topics from his childhood until now. All the while, in the back of his mind, he is subconsciously aware that this will be put on the internet for millions to view if they want. Far more likely than his voice being slightly altered secondary to drug use. But hey, only he knows.

Right, it's always just been uploaded when I wake up

Mark has been posting videos at 6am EST every single day for almost 2 years now probably. His work ethic and consistency is impressive

Another person can't keep an addict sober. You cant rely on someone else to do the hard work for your addiction. It's on him for sure, and has nothing to do with the amount of support of his wife. Its not her responsibility to babysit a grown man.

She lost a good man

And I’m 30 and have the same feeling as thank god I didn’t have kids rn

Stay humble. It can come back when you least expect it. Everyone and everything is susceptible to this awful way of thought.

💯

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