Fentanyl Addict interview-David 

Dang you been through a lot 🙏

@@Hazy216 thanks

@@RufusP.Jackson thanks sweetheart,❤️❤️

@devaakdemir4942 Im Glad you're stills there!

@@Hazy216 11 months clean 12 months cancer free

Me too. ALOT of people are lost. I don't wanna blame all my problems but the system is fucked. The system is designed to make addicts

As an addict myself, it's extremely difficult. Probably the hardest thing in life. I'm 28 so I know it is bad for me. Spiritually too. But my thing are pills and cigarettes. I rotate between opiates and amphetamines but benzos I have to take daily to not have seizures. Been doing shit since I was 17

@@ezekiel5687 the hardest is to recover from the past trauma, to reconnect, to love yourself , to know you can do and deserve better etc etc . for addicts. I am not one luckily, good luck from the bottom of my heart

​@@ezekiel5687 stay up, it's a daily battle

I can absolutely identify with this!

I watch the videos all the but this one hit home with for reason I use too smoke pop Sherman and it took me waking up in the hospital for me to hit bottom but by GOD'S Grace i haven't smoke that shit since 2010 I'm grateful for your story it made realize how far i have come I wish blessings upon you from your testimony I believe you too can overcome your downfalls I wish you nothing but the best on your journey you got this 🙏🙌

thank you because watching this channel keeps me clean.

None of those things matter when you put a substance in your body that literally changes your brain chemistry. A heroin addiction is nothing compared to a fentanyl addiction. Only the people with the strongest wills can ever hope to escape it without a medical intervention, but we live in a country that makes getting help for these things very difficult. It's why we are the only modern nation that has problems of this magnitude. These people pay with their lives for our "freedom" from socialized medicine.

@@pdizzle10484 I know. That's the tragedy unfortunately. I'm from the UK and some of the shit I see going on in the US is genuinely terrifying. It is ruining the lives of so many great people with so much potential...

Fentanyl completely changes your brain so no matter how hard working or smart you are.

When the nhs will start substitution therapy and any kind of psychological and psychiatric support for free, no insurance or wait list crap, it’s far easier, all you need is the will, which many people on this channel give hints of

I have had friends like him. My best friend who is now a fentanyl addict is just the same. I don't know alot of other people who are that smart. He's super talented. All wasted to the drugs. If he turned the motivation he has to get high into anything else he'd be a huge success.

Agree Jessica!

It’s really hard. Even if you consciously work through and move past whatever trauma, your brain’s systems that produce feelings of motivation, happiness, love, empathy, contentment, etc are completely hijacked. And especially with opioids, it never forgets that feeling and will play mind games with you to get you to justify using even after years of being clean. They mimic your natural endorphins (“endorphin” is a portmanteau of “endogenous” and “morphine”, a morphine like substance produced by the body naturally). Even after acute withdrawal is over, most addicts deal with the effects of PAWS for a year or more or several years sometimes. Even after PAWS, the pull is strong. I actually think the acute withdrawal is the easiest part even though it is one of the most painful things I’ve ever endured. The long path to rebalancing your brain’s neurotransmitter systems and staying away long term is much harder. Even after three years of being clean, I would still wake up some mornings and feel the ache in my bones. I would drive by a corner or hear or song that would make me instantly start thinking “that would be fun to do just one more time” even though I know nothing about it will be fun. Even if you overcome all that, it’s hard to get any job that isn’t terrible with years missing on your resume and a potential criminal record. It’s also very common to have no family or to have alienated them to the point that you have no help getting on your feet and you’re starting from $0. Even if you’re a genius, it’s hard to crawl out of a hole like that especially in our society. I have read that more intelligent people are more likely to fall prey to substance addiction, but that they are also more likely to overcome addiction. I really hope that’s the case for this guy in the video and for all the other addicts suffering out there. It is possible, but it takes hard work and you have to be willing to try and try and try again even if you keep failing until you don’t. A lot of addicts get clean and then fail and then spiral into guilt and shame and back into addiction. If anyone out there is on this path right now, just know that relapses happen. They are a part of recovery. I’m not saying you shouldn’t avoid them at all costs, but don’t let them destroy you. It’s not starting back over from square one just because you had a moment of weakness. The “days since last use/days sober” number doesn’t matter, it’s your mindset to keep going that matters. You are human and you will make mistakes and fail, but if you pick up the pieces and keep pushing, it will get easier and easier the longer you try (truly try) until one day you will know deep down inside that you’ve made it out and that you are past it. Might take years, might take decades. But it will be worth it. You are worth it. You are worthy of love, both from yourself and others. And you are not alone in this world or in this struggle. Don’t ever forget that.

"You can beat it and be SO SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE!" ❤❤❤❤very good advice.

Yes! Taking accountability and no excuses, he’s one step ahead of those not ready to admit their actual situations. I pray for this man. He can do it.

It’s a hard freaking demon to beat down , although impossible . I think what hurts me the most about it is just how I will for ever be looked at differently from my family . The love I used to feel around them is not the same anymore and that is something that will for ever fuck with my mind . Need my soft white underbelly interview

​@@isaiahamaro8232 I'm so sorry. You're worthy of love no matter what you go through or deal with. My brother was an addict and my mother and I did everything we could to still love him no matter what. At times it wasn't easy but it was necessary. He passed away ik 2019 from a car accident. I'm forever grateful for the love we have him. I'll be praying for your strength ✝️🙏

What happened 8 or 9 years ago that started his addiction?

You still might eventually get that back! It can take years for someone to gain their families trust back. I don’t doubt that they love you, but there’s a lot of hurt that happens and family has to emotionally detach. It’s odd and a weird place to be in, bc I’ve been the addict who hurts, and I’ve also been the family member who’s been hurt by it too. Keep doing the right thing though and don’t ever give up, for real. 🙏

Omg. 😂

Just lost my brother. My heart goes out to you. ❤🤗Our childhood is a compilation of these videos. Xoxo

@@heather1845 I’m deeply sorry for the loss of your brother. I have one younger brother that struggles with his on and off use and I couldn’t imagine the loss of a sibling, so my heart goes out to you, and thank you for the condolences. I think that’s part of the reason I watch these videos too. Life can be rough for people, and it’s important for other humans to see that there are typically, many reasons that lead hurt people to use and to get involved in the sorts of stuff many others do not understand.

@@HashslingingSLASHER92 such a sweet soul you are! That is exactly why I watch. Also to understand. We had a terrible childhood and he got it worse. He just wanted so art and go about his way the hurt of the verbal and physical abuse at the hands our bio mom. Was just too heavy. He wasn't his addiction. He was a smart, small, nutty, genius, street artist whom just couldn't handle the pain on his own. This has been different. It hurts. I pray your little brother feels how much you care. I'll get thinking of you from time to time and sure hope things are looking up for him/y'all . Big hugs

Prayers alone will not help. You must go and see this man. Amen 🙏

For real! Someone ready.

THIS

Yes!

If he's committed to change. The dope on the east coast is so fucked you get the same mystery soup of fent and analogous as the west but on the east almost every stamp bag has xylazine or some type of benzo in it to make it stronger. Xylazine withdrawal is so much worst than fent and you also get deep necrotic sores on your shins.

Lol really ? 5? I don’t even know 5 people who’s dumb e nuff to take a retard drug like that

Sorry patriot girl. I have lost friends too. In fact in 2017 my dumbass took half of a fake Percocet not knowing and got real sick. Luckily I was on pain meds too I think having a bit of tolerance helped. I don't use drugs other than some legal weed here and there. Don't even drink anymore. It's scary because it can happen to anyone not just a drug addict.

Sorry for ur lost also Majority of the overdosing happens from people that doesn’t have a tolerance built up.

Very true! The majority of addicts have mental trauma.

@@col.cottonhill6655 I use to be addicted to fake percs only cuz I would get really bad withdrawals without it and needed it to get better. I use to break lil pieces and snort it, my tolerance was so high I did 10+ pills a day. A person with no tolerance would have been dead if they did that much but luckily I’m on Suboxone and it helped me get off it. It helps with the withdrawals.

Yeah he was a good dude

Yeah me too dude. He went Alex’s funeral

@@BABiiB420 Petaluma gang

Crazy seeing you here dude !

@@XrpAndy lol. I live on RU-vid. This is a good channel

Me too! Before I do it I try to REALLY think about how I’m going to feel afterward; disappointed. I am becoming more mindful instead of just reacting to the thought of getting high. Keep it up Ashley.

The small victories end up being the biggest victories!! Keep pushing, beautiful!

You can do it. I just got to 20 days clean, and I was on h for 10 years…. It’s been the hardest shit of my life. And I OD’d 24 days ago because it was fent not h, I’ve never OD’d once in my life. I wish you the best of luck.

Me too dude. Petaluma gang

Congratulations , amazing struggling just to give up smoking

you got this hom,ie, thank you boss@@latouchetherapy

Advocating for a drug addict to use drugs as a reward is wrong

GM brother eyes, 4:30am in Denver CO! Have a great day my friend!!!

@Gram #7 Wat up Grams! Friggin chilly today. 30°. I wasn’t ready for this today. I thought we were done with this cold.

Go to a meeting !!!

Program does work

@@deerheart87 Time will tell as always. I truly wish you well in this world. Peace from within~Victoria