I vibe with this man. Being off marijuana so long the moment I smoked a joint about a month ago. My moldavite was busting open my heart chakrah and I could feel it. It's extremely overwhelming and it was kinda awesome at the same time. Marijuana makes everything you perceive magnified by x10 if you ask me. Cuz driving home after smoking that joint I felt the fear in my heart, oh what if what if what if.. This paranoia.... Oh that one time I did this really bad thing. And the thoughts haunt me. If you're able to tame that side.. Marijuana can be a great tool. However for me I start to abuse that and I cycle into depression. So for me I have to be careful.. I do miss the spontaneous inspiration for creating music or artistic ideas because that feeling is always great. It's not bad that you decided to smoke. There is this saying "if you want to hold onto yourself, let yourself slip" But as long as your intentions stay true to who you're as your higher self, thst momentum from falling will slingshot you back up and higher than you were before you fell. Peace & Love Mark.
Thanks Jake, yes I've certainly been to some pretty rough places in my time. Now it's like on the monopoly board; not in jail, *just passing*. Or am I? 👽
Yeah man find your peace with weed. You know every time I think if doing psychedelics within about 5 hours a weed pops in my hand. Ive actually gave up now but I know what you means peace dude.