I can’t believe how so many people feel the way I do. we’re to scared to actually tell anyone face to face how we feel, truly, because we’re afraid it will push people away.
Sometimes I don't feel like I'm myself. That I'm always changing myself depending on where I am. I feel less loved, I miss feeling love. And I feel really fucking alone. But I'm fine and I'm going to continue living but idk where the hell I get that energy from.
your not alone feeling this. i feel like a new person everyday. like i’m changing into new people with different personalities. i miss feeling wanted and loved aswell. but i don’t want to show it or say it. i don’t want to be feeling this way or saying i feel this way
You might be the infj personality type. We're recognised as social chameleons because our introverted intuition is always picking up on the needs and wants of other people and social groups. And it is spiritually EXHAUSTING since we lose our true sense of self even if its something we're yet to discover for ourselves
As a 5 myself, I think the beginning describes us in so many ways. We're deep, and we take music to heart. Music moves us. The beauty and simplicity of things move us. We are like waves, ups and downs, mixed melodies and feelings.
Type 5, hurt, sad, hides his feelings, doesn’t talk, curious, creative, wants to know everything, dramatic but kind and realist edit : woah I didn’t think I would get likes for this, thanks
For me I really do feel like the comment section really gets me. When I hangout with my friends most of them don’t talk to me because I don’t have much to say, but in reality I have a lot to talk about but I just don’t know the right words to say. That’s why I feel almost at home with everyone in the comment section.
I relate to this so hard - I don't know how to talk to or be around people my age cause it's hard to know what to say, and what you really wanna talk about is much bigger than coffee chatter
I'm not sure if my friends don't talk to me bc I don't seem to have a lot to say but I know what you mean, I'm really quiet at school so I don't make as much friends as I'd want, but when my friends are talking and there's something I want to say but I don't know how to put it in words I get sort of frustrated with myself. Same happens with my family when they talk idk how to put it into words. (Especially with emotion, since according to my parents I'm a monotoned person).
do any other fives feel like they’re connected to the universe somehow? or like there is something connecting them to all of humanity? please like if you feel that way too, i wanna know if anyone else feels the way i do...
If you think about it, nothing is separate from another. The water we drink, the food we eat, the air we breathe all was used by another person, creature, and ecosystem. The very molecules we are made up of have been here since this planet was formed. //We// have always been here and always will be, so in a very real sense, everything is one. In the words of Muir, "When we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe." You might want to check out the song One by Birdtalker!
forest goblin Lately I’ve felt like I let go of my own emotions in order to become connected to something larger, and I feel connected to the universe in the sense that I see the beauty in everything and everyone, but I also see the darkness and it’s slowly making me a more cynical person.
I'm actually a 5 and a 6, not 100% certain which, if either, is stronger. But that translates roughly into "I want to watch the universe expand, but I'm worried that it will blow up in my face. I want to break it into pieces, but how will I ever get it put back together? It feels like an out-of-body experience and its terrifying.
Lately, I've been so scared I've been becoming cold, as I've isolated myself so much from others. This is truly crazy, I took the test and found out I am a 5, it's all seeming to make sense... I need a while I think... but SAL is really amazing. I cannot believe how this perfectly matches my hugest, most recent inner conflict. I'm actually at a loss for words how insanely true this is. People have been calling me heartless, people think I don't care, I just can't express myself using my words. Feelings make me uncomfortable, I don't feel things like most people do. I feel so much, it overwhelms me, and I can't do anything. I just feel blank, wondering where my emotions went. I have a hard time expressing love, I can barely mumble the words I love you, even if I love so much. The onle thing I feel anymore is fear. Maybe I'm not cold, maybe I'm just trying to figure out who I am. Or I don't know, maybe I'll be like this forever. I can write my feelings just fine, but inside I feel so different from what I project. It kills me, I care so much about everything, but I could never tell you. Okay this has been my existential crisis rant thank you have a good day. Edit: I came back to re-listen to this and holy crap! 2.3k likes and about 66 heartfelt responses. It's so good to know I'm not alone, and I hope you all are doing well. I wanted to say I now test as a six (6W5) I still struggle with this, but it's getting better. So take this as a beacon of light, things will improve, you are not broken, you are not faulty, and I know it's hard but we will all get through this together. If you are back here, and recognize my comment and this edit, take this as a sign that you aren't alone.
MartySmile it’s a personality survey called the “Enneagram” (Enneagram of Personality) that lists 9 different types and how your type may fluctuate depending on the circumstance. The types are less about how you act and more about your motivation for why you do what you do. It’s been used in various forms for hundreds of years but has been written down within maybe the past 150 years. It can help you be aware of why you do what you do and maybe understand and appreciate others more.
Yeah as a type 5 too i think sitting and watching the world or universe burns feels more amazing than any other thing , it satisfies me when im imagining about it
agreed I wanna just make my last wishes and let everyone and everything go and enjoy every last look and sec and min and hr and tell myself hey I were meant for this and now your ready to be set free
i’ve always been that detached sister in a family and that cold-hearted friend in a group. people always think that i don’t care about anything, and that i never think outside the box. and there’s nothing i can do since i always set my feelings aside in every situation and everything just confuses me. this song helps me cope with my lack of self-revelation. and it reassures me that i’m not alone with this type of personality.
it’s so weird how fives process emotions. i am a five myself, but for some reason i wanted to listen to all the other songs after i listened to mine. while listening to the other songs, i noticed this song isn’t as sad as the others. it’s more upbeat, i realized this because i don’t show my sadness, my anger, or my anxiety. i keep it in because i feel as if people will judge me for it. it’s like i cant let anything out or people will think less of me or judge me.
Same! I realized that too! It made me emotional because I don't know if this is related to us being type 5 but I also like to indulge in the psychology of things and all the other songs felt like their hearts were on their sleeves. But this song feels like something you have to listen to on repeat and really be listening to understand. Which is funny because I feel as a 5 we aren't really listened to enough so we are often misunderstood. Leaving us to seem like "upbeat" individuals when if someone were actually listening there is a really deep story behind our initial impression, much like this song. And now both your comment and my response have stirred up the dust in my room and my eyes have begun sweating...
*LYRICS THAT HIT HARD* “My armor falls apart As if I could let myself be seen” “I want to generously loose this energy I’ve been hanging onto so desperately”
I cannot let people see the real me it makes me feel weak so school sucks im so sad and lonely i feel constantly judged i dont eat at school i hate it more than anything
hey 5s, it's gonna be okay . our minds are beautiful , embrace every single aspect of it . it's okay to feel overwhelmed sometimes or all the time . take a deep breath , slow down a bit . stop doubting yourself, anything is possible . we are all miracles , all of the types . love you , take a rest . have fun with your beautiful imaginations , let your minds take you on amazing adventures and let them take breaks as well . bless yall big brains .
I like how all 5’s have their own interpretation of this song. Some are optimistic about it and some are pessimistic. Some see both ways. I can tell you’re all intellectuals, especially in the way your comments are worded.
not only fives do that i mean yea ofc we do that too but so do all the other personality types because at the end of the day we aren’t those numbers we are people and much more complex than any test could describe us to be. no matter what ,,number“ you are you will always have a different interpretation than anyone else on this earth. We aren’t unique as ,,fives“ we are unique as people. i understand that people took this test and felt deeply understood but labeling yourself as a five or as a personality type might force u into that narrative u now have created in ur head, now u have to think and act like your number or personality all of the time and if u dont u feel betrayed and confused by yourself. anyways im sorry for making a paragraph i dont even know what i was trying to say here but i’ll comment it anyways so yea idk what the purpose for this was have a good day
i went backpacking over the summer. i woke up in the middle of the night and just stared at the stars. there were so many of them. i looked out at the lake and the rough silhouette of the mountains and the distance, and i had never felt more alone. it wasnt a sad alone though, it was peaceful. there wasnt another human in sight for miles and miles. it was just me and the earth. it makes me wonder if there is more out there than we think? for the first time in my life i felt like i belonged. i felt connected i would give anything to feel like that again
im shaking and on the brink of crying this is so true how the heck i prefer not to show my feelings, and i can’t explain my feelings. i always second guess myself, and can’t talk to anyone. i can’t feel much emotion except fear/anxiety anymore, and i feel like i’m going completely blank. and there’s nothing i can do about it. “it feels like an out of body experience” it really really does. i can’t become the person i’ll ever aspire to be and it tears me apart to know that i’ll never make it to that perfect me. yay tears
Throughout my life I have always looked through a one way mirror as said in this song. I judge others because I am afraid they will see through my mask
As a type 5, I didn't know what to expect but they captured so many aspects of a five that are often overlooked - they also touched on things that can be deemed as negative and made it into something beautiful. The fact that it's 5 minutes and 55 seconds is something 5's would notice... and appreciate for some odd reason.
@@NessaOghomwen They are personality types. General descriptions of the main personalities people have. Variance makes it so that you won't fit in entirely with any one, but some will more closely align than others.
As a five, i’m afraid to let new people in my life and afraid to let others go. i’m afraid that if i say something wrong or look wrong or show my true feelings everybody will leave me behind in a second. i feel as if i’m not allowed to show people how i really feel and how nobody cares. i’m too shy to speak up because i’m afraid ill say the wrong answer in class or something. it’s comforting when you go to the comments and see how many other people deal with the same thing.
Strawbsi To all the people who relate: I used to feel, or rather not feel, as strongly as you guys right now. Now that I’m out of high school can feel that I’m opening up more and I’m starting to feel again, like how I did when I was a kid. It’s okay if you’re emotions (and lack of) seem out of wack right now, just keep going through life and when you are ready you will open up more and feel again. I’ve been waiting for this to happened to me for a long long time, everything was just so shoved inside and I can feel that pressure slowly being released, mentally and physically somehow. Just flow with whatever you so feel and follow that.
Being a 5 feels like... You feel like the universe envelopes your mind and when you sleep, you become apart of it. You feel so small and yet so huge. We are incredibly smart and in control, but only people who truly understand the complexity of our mind can understand the complexity of our emotions and mental maturity. The world of creativity we have in our head is so beautiful, that it’s almost sad we can never fully share it with others. We think bigger than today or tomorrow. We break such small things apart, and then build it back up so big, that it can’t fit in our heads. Sleep is non-existent and the thought of an empty mind is something we can’t ponder. ... we also tend to have really long comments lol. I like the song. :)
"Five" I want to watch the universe expand. I want to break it into pieces small enough to understand, And put it all back together again In the quiet of my private collection. It feels like an out of body experience- But something gets lost from a safe distance And now I can't put my mind to rest, And I can't help but second guess Living behind this one-way mirror. I'm hypnotized by this anomaly. Such strange uncharted territory- A white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart. My armor falls apart, As if I could let myself be seen, even deeply known. Like I was already brave enough to let go. And now I want to generously lose This energy that I've been hanging onto so desperately. I finally feel the universe expand- It's hidden in heartbeats, exhales And in the hope of open hands.
this hit hard. me as a 5, ive always been the jester of the group, only making friends by being funny. but as we grew closer, i wanted to talk to them deeply about how i actually felt. i was afraid they would never take me seriously and think that ive changed, because all theyre used to is me making everyone laugh. i want to tell them, but when i try, i dont feel comfortable. i finally understand myself, thanks to this test and this song. add-on: i want to understand everything, because everyone expected so much of me. and when i dont understand things, i feel useless. those same people with high expectations also threw me down when i didnt do something their way. i have a blurry vision of who i want to be, but i cant seem to put my finger on what exactly it is. thats also another reason im afraid to show my real feelings, because i would feel weak and small. im afraid to dissapoint. thats what it is. im afraid of letting the people i look up to down. because they wouldnt expect much of me anymore, and if they dont expect much of me, i would feel like a useless screw up. i have always wanted to impress people, and they have gotten used to me doing that, so when i dont, i feel like i lost purpose. thank you for helping me find myself. truly, thank you. final conclusion (add on): i feel like i was born and raised to entertain and be used. a toy, only to be discarded when it breaks. breaking being the metaphor of me actually wanting to talk about aomething and show feeling rather than being a circus clown. really, i finally understand myself, its extremely important to me, thank you so much
That’s how I feel. They never take me seriously, even if I tell them I failed something they laugh at me and expect me to laugh with them. And I just can’t seem to talk about myself. And I’ve gotten very cold towards people and I’m very distant. Even my 5 year old sister told my mom she has given up on me. Like she has tried to make me laugh or tried to get my attention but I’m just too detached. I don’t know why I’m crying. Thanks for sharing
Hi this is my first time replying to someone on RU-vid, but i felt like your story resonated very well within mine and I teared up a little. Don’t lose heart, the right people will appreciate the real you. Treat yourself with patience and I hope you never lose your beautiful spirit. You dont need to be a clown and you dont need to make people happy (growing up in a toxic env i always felt like i had to) . You’ll feel so much better when you are your genuine self, and i think you do. I’m so proud of you for taking that step to help yourself. Hope you’ll find peace ❤️
It really warms up to you over time. Once you get passed how different and mechanical/technical it seems, you can see the beauty within it. The fact that what I just said can be applied to this song as well as the Five personality is a testament to how well Ryan has portrayed this type...
The mechanical/ technical aspect is what gives it beauty, along with the truth in Ryan's words. The analytical part of my brain (Can't speak for all 5's) is working out the mech-tech aspect of it, while I FEEL the words, and CONNECT with their truth.
I came into this world not knowing what to expect. A tiny creature, untainted by light or darkness, a whole world to discover. A world to understand. A world to change. To explore, to love! For everyone to see, for everyone to touch, feel, adore. For everyone to lose. For everyone to mourn. For everyone to love. To lose, and to love again. To love forever, and longer. That is me. That is us. Thank you for coming on this inspiring journey with me :)
"I can't put my mind to rest I can't help but to second guess." That literally explains what goes on in my mind all the time, and it's so hard when all I want is peaceful bliss sometimes.
Sophie Filo oh no wonder his name is Ryan that explains the greatness...same name same soul same goal same way...i wont let go..not till ever not only will i show but you will feel we are the real deal...there is no devil to be scared of there is no fallen angel here to take your grace..we are here and we are in this together..thanks for reading what i have to say...have a great day....im getting closer closer to peeps that motive me..so to that may you be blessed with all there is...namaste...
The way 5's recognize value in the vulnerability in relationships wayyyyy after the logical and mechanical parts are explored is so well portrayed here. Also, we pretty much always feel like we have the answer and can be brave behind that persona. It's definitely something we hide behind because it feels natural to see things from the outside and that also happens to be a convenient way to avoid behind hurt or wrong.
I have a 5 wing and this stole my breath away nearly as bad as Six did. (It didn't make me cry, quite, at least.) Talking about taking the universe apart trying to understand it really spoke to me-- that endless, wandering trail of thought that I sink into, sometimes; so vast, so unfathomable, that when I jolt back into being aware that I exist _at this moment, as this person,_ it's almost startling. Like maybe if I burrow deep enough into my own mind nothing else will matter. Not how I feel, not how anyone else feels. But then, of course, by then what I feel is _lost,_ then anxious, and the Six part kicks in. Gah, I'm bad with emotions, but it's a little better when I have a screen to hide behind. Might as well leave this short essay here.
¡Este es el comentario en español que tanto buscabas! Cuando escuché la canción por primera vez, si bien la intro se me hizo larga, sentí que estaba a punto de presenciar el big bang, el inicio del Universo, y cuando oí la primera frase, quedé sorprendida. Toda la letra fue una descripción de lo que pasa en mi cabeza. Esa "manía" por querer comprender todo, la facilidad con la que me llega la información, incluso aquella que no busco ni me interesa saber. Todo lo que llega (información, cosas) se atesora y almacena porque nos será útil. Hubo un tiempo en que lloraba al estar entre la multitud. La soledad es cómoda, socializar desgasta. Lo bueno es que la soledad estimula la creatividad e imaginación. Se crean cosas, y logras entender como las creaste, pero cosa distinta es tener que explicarle al otro. No explicas, no porque te creas más inteligente y sientas que otros no entenderán, sino porque no sabes explicar. En resumen: quieres ver el Universo expandirse, desarmarlo en pedacitos y volverlos a juntar para guardarlo en tu colección (a la que obviamente, pocos o nadie tendrá acceso).
Totalmente de acuerdo en todo lo que has dicho. Me gusta mucho el cine o la lectura, son unos de mis temas de conversacion favoritos. Me resulta muy frustrante hablarles a mis amigos acerca de la ultima pelicula que he visto, mi interpretacion, lo que me haya transmitido... larga y tendidamente y que me de la sensacion de que les estoy aburriendo. A veces hasta me hace sentir culpable, como si molestase. Sin embargo, es super gratificantr cuando encuentras a alguien que siente la misma ambicion que tu por un tema determinado. Los 5 nos vemos forzados a socializar. No es que no nos guste, sin embargo, siento que necesito al menos un dia a la semana sin ver a nadie para poner mis pensamientos en orden. Sin embargo, apreciamos realmente a las personas que nos rodean Tambien siento que, en ocasiones familiares, amigos, sociedad... Interpreta la soledad como algo triste. Bien es cierto que hay que establecer un limite y conocer lo que es sano, pero los cincos realmente sentimos paz en ella. Lo peor:somos desconfiados, de apariencia fria, y tendemos a esperar demasiado de las relaciones personales o la vida en general. Lo mejor:Creo que, a pesar de nuestra apariencia fria, somos mas empaticos que la mayoria, leales y sabemos escuchar, aunque nuestra intrusion nos impide consolar a la gente de la manera adecuada. En cuanto a moralidad, somos bastante relativistas, y siempre intentamos enfocar todos los puntos de vista ante una situacion '' x'' (no vemos el mundo blanco o negro, sino gris). Un saludo, estaba harta de leer comentarios en inglés
I love fives. They are incredible people once you get them to open up. There thought process is just fantastic and I love catching a ride on their train of thought.
I want to watch the universe to expand. I want to break it into pieces small enough to understand and put it all back together again in the quiet of my private collection it feels like an out-of-body experience- But something gets lost from a safe distance and now I can't put my mind to rest and I can't help but second guess living behind this one-way mirror I'm hypnotized by this anomaly such strange uncharted territory a white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart my armour falls apart as if I could let myself be seen Even deeply known Like i was already brave enough to let go And now I want to generously lose This energy that I've been hanging onto so desperately I finally feel the universe expand It's hidden in heartbeats, exhales, and in the hope of open hands I LITERALLY am like this. Type fives are always in a dilemma between being pragmatic or just following the heart. They look at the world from above rather than by being part of it. They just observe, which means they just want to be on the safe side. They are lost.
This song hit in ways I didn’t think it would. As a 5 and and INTJ It’s incredibly uncomfortable to have your inner workings displayed for the world to see when you have tried so hard to conceal them. I listened to this with a friend and I wanted to impress to them just how much this song shook me. “it feels like an out of body experience- but something gets lost from a safe distance and now i can’t put my mind to rest, and i can’t help but second guess living behind this one-way mirror.” This is how I feel every day I want to be more involved but there is something in me that holds me back “a white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart. my armor falls apart, as if i could let myself be seen, even deeply known.” I don’t know if there is anyone in the world who truly sees me. I want them to and I want someone to make the effort. I know that it is possible but I just don’t know how to get there.
The thing that I like about this song is, it just makes me feel so glad to be alive. I feel like, even if I don't accomplish much in life, don't get A+ grades, somehow, everything will be fine. The universe is watching over me, and I'm so glad to be a part of it.
I liked this one the best out of all of them. Not necessarily the lyrics, just the music itself. Out of curiousity, I went and took the test. Now, I'd never even heard of the Enneagram tests or knew anything about them. Guess what type I got? Five.
Perfect .. he made such sensible interpretation of each type so far. Far from stereotypes which is amazing. How amazing is this man/artist. Enneagram plus sleeping at last are really the 2 best things ever invented on earth and that it’s put together is almost too awesome to be true. Just for this, this crazy ride on earth was worth
I am a Christian and my test results was 5. The type 5 really speaks of me. I am a very curious person, I tend to question a lot of things. I always imagine a lot of scenarios in my mind. I want to be alone and I can spend the rest of the day just with my thoughts. It's hard for me because I don't have my own room. I just tend to be really quiet but I try to snap out of it so that people around me will not think of me as weird or something. The last parts of the song just really speaks to me as Jesus. I find meaning in Him. In all my pursuits, His hands are open and I can be safe and surrender in His ever open hands. ❣️
When I was younger, I liked the expression “Jack of all Trades,” until I was told the next line was “Master of None.” It hurt to think that something I felt in my soul was seen as a negative by other people. That was until I learned the last part and fell in love with it all again: “Still better than the Master of One.” “Jack of all Trades, Master of None. Still better than the Master of One” sums up 5s well in my opinion. Everything is too complicated to know enough to be a master without only knowing it alone and this world is too exciting to not learn about everything I can
This is a perfect example of how music connects the heart and the mind in an unusual way. Music conveys and expresses the heart that the mind hides. Five here.
As a five I love the way this doesn’t put down our obsessive curiosity about everything, it just invites us to trust and community. And invites us to bring our curiosity with.
There as so many reasons why Ryan’s my fave artist, it’s not just the lyrics and his voice that make his songs so much meaning, but the instruments and the effort he put into the songs. His songs have so many different meaning that depends on how you interpret it. His music makes you feel, make you thinks. Also type 6(my type) is next so yyyyeeeesss
rana hussien there are nine types in the enneagram, if you want to know them this websites has a lot of good information about the nine types: www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-descriptions/. There are test that you can pay for that are the most accurate if you want to find out your type but if you want to use a free one I find this one the most reliable and accurate www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-descriptions/. And Ryan has a podcast that explains how he made the songs, and give detailed information about the different types.
I am endlessly in love with how well orchestrated this song is, how amazingly it captures the depth of being a five. The fact that this song begins with so many different beats and tunes to capture the mind of a five and then how the lyrics are sung in paragraphed style like our thoughts and then ends with an instrumental that makes us feel as though we’ve finally understood this song. BEAUTIFUL. just beautiful.
If you’re numb and the song did nothing to you as a 5, it’s very well because you’re so deep in your isolation that the music won’t ever touch you. It’s not about it not relating to you, and it’s not about the test being wrong. It doesn’t make you tough you didn’t cry. You’re just that deep to protect yourself. And that’s okay.
I'm a 5w4 according to the enneagram test, so was waiting for this song. Glad to be able to say that I'm not disappointed. This and "One" are probably my favorite from this series so far.
I love this so much, it is so accurate surprisingly. I feel like I’m the only one one who thinks like I do, and my mind is completely different from others. I feel like my body is a mask from my actual self, everyday I pretend like I’m someone I’m not, because I’m scared of letting people know the real me. But also I feel like I don’t really know the real me.. if that makes sense, like I’ve gotten lost in my fake identity. I observe everything that everyone does, and I feel like I can read into them more than I can myself. I want to know everything but fear knowing too much at the same time.
As a 5, I feel deeply connected to my growth area of an 8, but sometimes I feel as though I am too gentle and insightful to use that powerful, strong voice inside. Cause I overthink everything. Yet, I know it is there and one day I hope to gain the assertiveness to speak. Anyone else relate?
I am a five and this song is insanely accurate to me. I’m constantly exploring things and want to know the answer to everything. Yesterday my mom asked why I was so interested in science, and I told her it was because I wanted to know how everything around me works. I took the test and found this song, reading about Fives on websites. It was crazy how accurate it was. I really strive to be really knowledgeable as I grow older, and I can never ask too many questions. The fear of failure is imprinted in my mind. This song really truly represents how I work. Breaking things down and being able to put them back together with a new solution. I didn’t know being isolated was a five thing, but it makes sense to me completely. I always feel the need to isolate myself in thought to recharge, and reconnect. At first I thought it was a form of introversy, but I see now that it’s what keeps the solutions coming. Listening to the lyrics of the song had me bawling because it seemed like this song knew me better than I knew myself. Everything here is on mark. Fellow fives, I see you, and I feel you. (:
There is a blending between everything. Something we, as humans, cannot see. But as we expand our consciousness, we can start to see and experience. It is a rabbit hole but it has been the truest path i have ever delved into. It does not lie. It is science and spiritual mixed together. It is everything.
This is so complexly written, but in a all consuming way. As a proud 5, I can confidently confirm every lyrics hits a string- upon my heart and mind. It opens my soul to a light, it’s never seen before. Rationalizes a dimension that I’ve never explored. How lovely it is to know oneself truly enough that they can identify their makings- in the mist of their own unique complexities. Ryan, thank you for this gift. The beauty and wonders of this song will hold such a high posterity in my heart.
Having such a long musical intro gave me enough time to think both "Well, I guess there really isn't that much to say about us" and "Good, don't let the others in. We who know know it well enough." which, one presumes, was part of the point. More practically it gives the listener time to nestle into the music and detach a bit to be in a properly accepting/relating mode when the lyrics come in.
Wow... it's astonishing to see how many people feel like I do. We have such strong feelings but are scared to let others see them, or don't know how to show them or explain them in the first place. I thought I was the only one... it's a breath of fresh air to realize that there are people who think like me
Once the lyrics started i broke into tears... its like the song just... it touches you in a way and it describes how you feel in a strange but so realistic way... -From a 5 who cried
Being a type 5w6, infj, and someone who loves to read and write this song really just took me through an entire universe in my mind and actually made me a little emotional because it was like I was talking to myself about myself (if that makes any sense). Type 5, we are some deep, complex, simple beings...Also, I love how the song ends at 5:55.
The style, the harmony, the beat,the way they organize the sound,tone and very melodic. Thank you so much Sleeping At Last for the beautiful masterpiece of music😀
To hear him talk of breaking down the universe and putting them all back together again, it connected more than I anticipated. I find myself always creating stories, creating characters, constantly thinking how to just tie them all together. To fit the pieces. I'd never say I'm a gush for songs, but this time around, i think I'm ok with openly saying this, to my fellow 5s.
type 5: i hide my sadness with happiness, i cry for one thing-i cry for everything, i isolate myself with my realm of emotions and imagination to hide from reality, to feel something i can’t admit, and i push others away knowing they want to help, dramatic to get others sympathy but yet i don’t want their sorrows, and a great friend. A type 5 can’t admit what they feel even though they really want to
Personally, I love how this song is unique in the sense that a lot of the other songs have somewhat regular chorus structures at the very least, but this song flows almost as if it were through-composed, like an expression of one’s train of thought
To me, it's insane that so may other feel just the same as us. I've always been too afraid to tell people how I feel about everything, and I'm just kind blown. This was a really heart touching experience taking this enneagram test. Thank you so much..
I was expecting not to cry from this but ended up shedding a tear when he said "my amour falls apart" it just made me think of I put up a wall of sadness and depression to hide
Recently I was kind of insecure about what my dominant type is .. but after watching old videos from my childhood this evening, it sort of hit me. I always questioned everything, had moments where I seemed off or somewhere else and could play with something for forever and wouldn't get bored. Now I'm sitting here, crying tears of joy because I know who I truly am at heart ❤Thank you so much for putting your effort in this stunning song, Ryan. I don't know anyone else who writes songs with such love and compassion. Thank you. Edit (2023): The older I get the more in depth I get to know my soul. I now have come to terms with that I actually identify as a type 9 on the core ✨️ That's why it was so hard to unpack my layers, because I could empathize with basicall any type xD
This song to me feels as if I am putting a glass heart together, and slowly piece by piece I’m seeing the new opportunities through that same glass. Like all the pieces represent all the different things I could do, after putting the heart back together. The new opening is letting go of what broke the heart in the first place, and though now you can see it was broken, you can also see that you can begin again even if you have to take 1 step at a time, while you are still fragile, and as you become strong again. You have to rise above it all because you know life never going to be just be easy, it comes with waves, but you have to learn to take those waves on, and conquer every thing in the way of you and your true spirit.
The world makes you feel small Insignificant and expendable. Just a speckle on the canvas being painted and covered up but no one is ever truly erased the picture is in constant change As the universe move on we fill the layers of see-through paint
Oh, wow. I was JUST about to go to sleep when I saw this beauty recently posted. I'm a little nervous to listen to it, but more so curious as to how Ryan sees my type. Edit: Well, now to wait for Nine, the type I scored nearly as high as Five for. (In fact, none of the others types even come close.) Since Ryan's a Nine, I'm curious to see his perspective on _himself..._
it's great to see people in here whom you feel very alike to, especially since there are times where you feel lost and just needs a bit of affection. i personally think that we are all lost siblings who are finding our way back home, back to our family. and don't worry, soon, we'll get there.
tonight, i sat at a campfire with my family. i used an awesome app on my phone to find all of the constellations, stars, planets, satellites, etc. and shared my findings with whoever wanted to listen. when everyone went inside and it was just me and my father, we sat quietly and just stared at the fire for an eternity. we eventually started speaking up about everything that was on our minds, and i opened up for the first time about how i want nothing more than to see the universe and know all of its secrets. how i need to find a way in this one lifetime to understand it all, or at least as best as i can. how i need to differentiate the universe out there and the universe in here, and how the only way to do that was to know the bare qualities of the universe, which put me in an endless cycle of ignorance i was desperate to overcome before death came and labeled me a failure. after a while of talking, he rightly told me i would never realize such a dream, and i even if i did, what would i gain from it? and in an ethereal moment of understanding beyond myself, i told him, “peace.” because it’s true. i want to watch the universe expand. i want to break it into pieces small enough to understand, and put it all back together again; in the quiet of my private collection. there’s so much more out there, something greater. and my head has always been in the clouds. i don’t know if i’m digging myself into an endless hole, if i’m coping, or if i’m actually onto something. but nothing explains a type 5 sharing a moment with existence itself like this song. when i hear it, tonight is what i think of. it’s very moving, and it takes me back to the never ending journey lying ahead. thank you for providing a soundtrack for and a musical understanding of everything that’s been going on in the lost part of my mind. much love. goodnight.
“[the universe] is hidden in heartbeats, exhales, and in the hope of open hands.” the universe is the very essence of existence and all of its possibilities.
i honestly love these songs. i'm a four myslef, but listening to the others gives me an insight, you know? it helps me understand everyone else more, what makes us the same, what makes us different. it's honestly beautiful. ❤
as a five I think I truly connect with this song the into took me to someplace else like some place looking around me and seeing the world for once seriously. Instead of seeing it through more of a persona some person that I'm not but have to be to disguise it all. but sometimes you feel although the jokes go too far and you just want to actually relax. Before the lyrics started it felt although I was finally alone (alone enough to think) and then the lyrics just explained it all sometimes hearing the hope in the world of your mind but sometimes the pain the true meaning of all how no matter how many times you look at the world and every situation thinking you can't do it but once you take a step back you see the hope from within how much you want to leave you want to escape the persona or the harsh reality but as you realise the hope expands and you keep going knowing no matter how many times you fall there's still hope. And then the ending is like entering reality again with still some persona but less of it because you finally let you dreams enter reality
Wow! He's done it again. My type has already been sung (Four) and what a song that was! The closest I am to my type is a Two, Five and Six. Five is something special indeed. The instrumental is so beautiful and the lyrics are really good. I'm a huge fan of the ennegram songs so far, even if I am not all of them, I can still relate to something and love the songs all the same. Can't wait for Six!
I feel profoundly glad supporting something so special like this. I'm listening to this music today for the very first time in my life, as my beloved wife shared this link with me, introducing me to the spetacular Enneagram world, helping me up to exit a so deep, dizzy and tenebrous labyrinth in my life that once I put myself in. I was stuck. Couldn't find the light anymore. The more I tried to find the exit the more I got hurt, the more I hurted her, the more I hurted my kids and everyone around me. Tried to find true joy and happyness but ended almost losing my life. By reading only the first two commentaries below I could see that there are people who may share the same feelings though by different paths, still leading to same sufferings, same strugglings. I'm continously listening to this music over and over again, and crying and crying and crying like a baby as my armour falls apart, feeling all that energy that I carry inside me for so many years for no reason at all, flowing out of me so easily, so painfully, as if I was losing all I had, all of my being, my essence, my power. And as it was flowing out, a stream was beggining to form, a stream made of that energy and my tears, and the more I desperately cried trying to find my heart, to find myself, that stream made of tears and that toxic energy was slowly becoming limpid, purified of that dark energy, remaining only cristal clear tears - painful but riddance tears - and now this streams turns into a river which leads finally to my heart.. I've found it!! All of this appears to be a dream, but it just happened.. the dream came true. Thanks to a person who running over her own feelings made me finally free, gave me the courage and showed me the way to let myself be seen, even if through an extremely painfull process for me - and specially for her. She's leading me in the road to find the real ME. A road which I thought was impossible to trail for it would lead to nothing, only despair, hopelessness, disapointment. She's teaching me everyday the meaning of the word LOVE, with such compassion and affection that now "I finally feel the universe expand - it's hidden in heartbeats, exhales, and in the hope of open hands" and "I can sleep at last." [can't help stop crying while writing these words]. "Stay close to anything that makes you glad you are alive." (Hafez) - so please darling, stay close to me and never let me go!!! I love you Sula. Forever. With the deepest of my brand new found heart!!!
5w6. This one simultaneously resonates with me and yet still feels foreign for me. The long intro, the level tempo, the clinical lyrics, even when discussing the deepest feelings and insecurities--it's all me, it's all me to a T. And yet I know it's not the most compelling song of the series, or the most universally resonating song; I feel many people would skip over this one. And this is how I feel. But I live behind that one-way mirror; despite my more developed Fe (INTP here also),nI can't read people when it comes to matters I'm involved in. Too many possibilities. And then my w6 side takes over, paralyzing me and compelling me to keep going anyway simultaneously. Constantly feeling out of place, wanting to run to the security of a laboratory. Feeling misunderstood and yet seen through all at once. Forgetting you're not just a spectator in a scene of a book, and being terrified by it. Being alone in a chapel, speaking your thoughts and having it echo and resonate off the walls but only resonating with yourself; to others, it's incongruent noise. I don't know. For a cognitive framework that thrives and knowing to an absolute degree, I just don't know.
I adore how the lyrics at the end show the movement from wanting to "watch" the universe expand (while observing from the outside - you're not even observing earth from the outside, but the very universe that holds earth and everything else - you're just that outside of it all) to the end, where you finally find a reason to allow yourself to become vulnerable, to let go, and then, surprise! You find you're a part of the world you've always been observing - living a life within it, feeling emotions, etc - and now you can "feel" the universe expand, because you're a part of the universe, and your shift in consciousness and position from observer, to participant, is, in part, what assisted in the universe's expansion. You've added to the heartbeat count, to the exhales that come with each day, and minute, and second lived, and in the hope felt for and by humanity. You're no longer a mere observer. The intro of this alone, along with the words so perfectly describe things. For me, being a Type 5 paired with INFJ leads to a similarly intoxicating feeling of disembodiment and detachment from the world... as if you're floating about, observing everyone else from above, or behind, or next to. Never of this world, but always left in awe because of it. Belonging somewhere else, like an astronaut floating about in space, staring at the blue marble of earth in wonder, while always attached by lifeline to another plane of existence. Parts of the intro remind of of the ethereal aspect of Fever Ray's, "When I Grow Up" as well, which gives something of a similar feeling, too. This song (and the whole project, actually, since it's hard not to relate to many of the songs due to wings, tri-typing, arrow strength, etc), was so beautifully done.
"A white flag waves in the dark, between my head and my heart" I feel like that 18 inches between my head and heart is more like 18 light years. I've tried explaining how I feel like my heart is a rock, heavy and burdened with emotions I'm afraid to experience and share. Whereas my head is this balloon floating above, filled with thoughts and theories, craving to be filled more and more. Yet, there's very little connection, just a string tied to the balloon, and held in place by the rock. I long to find ways to bring those two things together. Let my mind understand my emotions, and clear the way for my heart to be expressed.
The beginning, I think of hills and mountains, adventure. I think of the sky and the stars.. when the violin part enters.. I feel sort of free? This song really made me think. The first part of the song.. about breaking the universe into pieces to understand it.. yeah, everything is so complicated.. society and people, everything.
Hi SAL--as a Five wing Four, I just wanted to sincerely thank you for your work. I guess it's difficult to put my feelings into words sometimes, but I was deeply moved by this song--really. Thank you so much for your heart and your music; it shakes my soul.
