happier than ever but sadder and angrier (slowed and reverbed + rain) 

hi friends i was thinking about switching up some of my content so its not exclusively just slowed and reverbed music, do yall have any ideas of what type of content i could do?

everyone thinks of a relationship while i think of my mom 💀

i was an overthinker he was so relaxed = toxic relationship

im the therapist of everyone and be their comforter , but i never get to get comforted or even get to open up.

the way i support everyone , alot in the things they do but i do not receive any. i wish i had someone like me for myself. how does it feel to be supported.

Dear reader I see u. I see ur pain. You’re doing so well I’m proud of u. ❤️

me:*finally being happy* family problems:oh hey

THIS IS SO UNDERRATED

Whenever I think I’m finally okay my mental health plummets again… I can never be happy

I love how everyone comfort each other in this comment section :( y'all so kind. wish everyone's days will getting better

Not tryna spoil the mood but his EYES had me dying.

imagine this audio playing in the backround while you cry in the rain

Lyrics: When I'm away from you I'm happier than ever Wish I could explain it better I wish it wasn't true, mm-hmm Give me a day or two To think of something clever To write myself a letter To tell me what to do, mm-hmm Do you read my interviews? Or do you skip my avenue? When you said you were passing through, was I even on your way? I knew when I asked you to be cool about what I was telling you You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do And I'd end up more afraid Don't say it isn't fair You clearly weren't aware that you made me miserable, ooh So if you really wanna know When I'm away from you (when I'm away from you) I'm happier than ever (I'm happier than ever) Wish I could explain it better (wish I could explain it better) I wish it wasn't true, mm-hmm You called me again, drunk in your Benz Driving home under the influence You scared me to death, but I'm wasting my breath 'Cause you only listen to your fucking friends I don't relate to you I don't relate to you, no 'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty You make me hate this city And I don't talk shit about you on the internet Never told anyone anything bad 'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything And all that you did was make me fucking sad So don't waste the time I don't have Don't try to make me feel bad I could talk about every time that you showed up on time But I'd have an empty line, 'cause you never did Never paid any mind to my mother or friends, so I Shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid You ruined everything good Always said you were misunderstood Made all my moments your own Just fucking leave me alone

i want to dedicate this to my parents

It feels like it’s never gonna get better (update: I didn’t think this comment would blow up but ty sm for your kind messages you guys really helped me stay strong I’m in a better place now mentally and I’m focusing on my dreams ty everyone ❤️❤️)

the tittle are my emotions in 1 minute

This song makes me think of my dad so much. Every line feels freakishly similar.

2:53 the angriest part

When this song relates to your parents more than your lover:

To think how much has changed in my life since this song came out is astounding. I remember listening to Happier Than Ever for the first time, late at night, smoking a cigarette on the front steps of my parents home with a glass of hard liquor in hand, just having been cheated on by my ex boyfriend. Now, I’m living with my new partner in our little house we rent, drinking wine on the grass, staring up at the night sky, without a cigarette in hand. I’m Happier Than Ever, and I hope you will be too.

2:52 the start of the good part of the song

My anxiety has been making me throw up daily to the point where I want to give up everything , but songs like this helps to hold on a little longer

"When I'm away from you I'm happier than ever" this. When I'm away from my dad I feel so light I don't have to keep my guard up all the time it's like a breath of fresh air. I love him but he's just so idk

It's hard for me to communicate my emotions with words without making it sound robotic, so I avoid it entirely and try to explain with music and TikToks and literally whatever else I can do or make to express them, but no one really understands, they're all just confused.

this song reminds me so much of the relationship my dad and I have

i feel wierd these days i don't know how exactly i feel but numb isn't the exact word for it, i'm also not feeling good or bad there's nothing that bothers me i kinda feel lost but not in the way everyone else means it i miss crying but i don't want to i feel wierd lol

Man- i really like this version, i'ts amazing how little parts of this or even the entire song is relatable to someone even in the slightest. This song's been making me feel better about myself in some kind of way, screaming the lyrics really helps relieve all the anger I carry most of the times hehe ^^ This is video is criminally underrated

I lost my Best friend. But Who cares? This is kinda relaxing. Thank you i needed it!

why does this version sound more intense than all the other slowed down songs

This version helped me get past some shit

This song reminds me of the time I moved away from my toxic mother to art school. She’s maltreated me in every way, misunderstood me as an individual, and believes my life is hers so it’s okay to ruin every good moment I have. Collage had a far more supportive and understanding environment because most knew what it was like to be treated like crap. Being around my mom, I feel like I need to walk on eggshells to avoid her. Always, she’d yell uncontrollably and had been domestically abusive since I was a kid. I don’t know how I survived someone like her or she believes I’ve forgotten how I was treated, but I’m happy that I can limit my contact with her

For everyone who reads this : I believe in you. I don't care how many people don't, even if I don't know you I know for sure no one deserves to suffer from negative feelings. Please stop pressuring yourself into something unrealistic, you're already perfectly you. And please take this virtual hug : 🤗 I hope you're feeling a little better :)

i hate being introverted. i know it to myself that i am an extrovert but my family gave me no choice but to hide that side of me. i didn't wanna show the real me in front of 'em, coz a single thing that they didn't like is gonna be perceived wrong and i'm always gonna end up as the bad guy when all i'm trynna do is to show who i really am. I hate to think that i have to show my filtered self to my family just so I could be acceptable for them. this is why it breaks me when billie said " when i'm away from you i'm happier than ever" and just like her i wish i could explain it better

When I’m away from you, I’m happier then ever~ my relationship with the *internet* It’s a blessing to have it but it’s a curse, that’ll last me forever, when I’m far away from it, I’m happy but also sad…

it's scary how relatable this song is to me and my best friend's relationship

[My thoughts while listening to this amazing version] The way they have made me feel, how things have turned out, the idea of running away and not coming back. . . Am I ever going to be able to love someone, but to also be loved by them, and be treated as someone who has a value? There's no such a thing as hiding your actions with the argument of "Its for you, because Id oc are for you" No you don't, of course you don't. I DO HAVE FEELINGS; I DO HAVE VALUE Do I really want to still live in this world, where the only thing we have guaranteed is death? Something so pointless that can breaks us so easily...I don't want to stop seeing my grand grandmother, I don't want to die only being 14, but. . .I also don't want to continue in this world and searching for what doesn't exist, like the point of living

I hate how she gets to talk bad about me. But when i do it back to her, she gathers up her gang to corner me and bark at me.

When you're happier only because you're not that insecure about the things you use to be really insecure about. But now you're always questioning your self worth, always the second choice and just frustrated.

I'm thinking about starting to make slowed reverbed playlists !! so if u have any ideas pls reply to this ! for clarification: by playlists I mean like the general vibe of the playlist. example: late night runs to 7eleven with your best friend

I’m late but, I think of my mum when I listen to this. “Made all my moments your own” yes you did, and I’m nearly 14 so when I strike 18 I’m leaving you in my past.

2:55

To be honest this song is exactly how my relationship with school is like. I shut out all my friends and family to get good grades and be the best so I can go to an elite university. I never realized until now that Im ruining my mental health by doing this and I already signed up for middle college. And because of it need to be within the 30% of all of the kids in my grade(8th grade). I’ve been forcing myself to stay up late to study for 3 whole months and never picked up the fact that I’m starting to become mentally ill. Only until these 2 weeks have I been easy on myself, but now my grades are going a little down. But who cares there still great and if anything my mental health is more important than some A. But this this song also really expands on my other problems in life. Life is hard and time won’t stop so anyone. So I might as well do the things I can do will I still can. Oh yeah and I might just burn down my school because that place is hell and last time I remembered hell is burning hot 🥵

2:55 the part you need

the part where its angry feels like having a scream argument while bawling your eyes out

Whenever I hear this song all I can think about is my mom she’s ruined my life man….

hey, you just wanted to say i love you. you're doing absolutely amazing. im so proud of you. im personally going through one of the hardest times of my life, and if you're feeling the same, just know you're not alone.

This is exactly what I needed 🛐, it's perfect

wow, i’m shocked at how amazing this is 💞

0:01 just for me because I love the slow and soft start of this song, I think people should pay more attention to it tbh

Billie: LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Me in the car: YEAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! YESSS sirrrrr!!!!!!!! Yesssssss

Idk man will I ever find someone who loves me as much as I love them. Why's it so hard to get mutual affection...

i just wish i had actual friends

This hits different when instead of this applying to a lover or an ex, it's my parents. Specifically my mom.

This song is so relatable for me but it isn't at the same time. What I mean is that I'm not having the same problem as her. What is relatable for me is the anger and pain she put in the song.

My inner child acting up and it’s time to show myself some love cuz I deserve it and I hope every single one of you are working on yourself and prioritising yourself love you .

it sounds different when it comes to your ex best friend...

It makes me feel like i have lost myself in process of giving away too much. Even if someone was to love me deeply, i wouldn't be able to give them back. Seeing them hurt, hurts more and i cant do anything about it.

I really thought it was a playlist xd But I ended in love with this version of the song.

all i think about is my dad my heart lies with all the childhood trauma peeps out there

This comments section makes me want to keep believing in humanity. Y'all r so kind ans sweet to each other. I hope everyone's situations get better ♥️

i feel so bad. its not fair. why can't i be good enough anymore?

Hey, I'm glad we're on this journey together, whoever is reading this. Hope you're okay.

when I'm away from my father, I'm happier than ever

This song make me feel so much pain it’s literally all the things i want to say to people around me but i can’t. BROOO that’s hurt but she still ate it… respect

Üzüntüyü hissedememek, yaşamak çok zor. İnsan acıyı hissetmek de isteyebilirmiş. Yaşadığının farkında olmak, fark edilmek, görünenden ibaret olmadığını kanıtlamak... Bazen boğuluyormuş gibi hissediyorum. İçimden milyarlarca canımı okuyan düşünce geçerken, gülüp geçilecek şeyleri sorun edip günümü zehir ederken(istemeyerek), sevgisizlikten kıvranırken insanların hiçbir sıkıntım yokmuşçasına "bu yaşta ne derdin olabilir?" Diye beni günlerce mutsuzluğa hapseden düşüncelerden bir hiç gibi bahsederken boğulacak gibi hissediyorum. On yıl sonrası için, daha hayatımda olmayan şeylerin bile sıkıntısıyla boğuşuyorum. Güvensiz hissediyorum. Özgüvensiz hissediyorum. Hissetmiyorum. Varlığımı hissetmiyorum. Ama yokluğumu insanlar çok güzel hissettiriyor. Yıllardır tatmin olamıyorum sevgi konusunda içimde hep bir boşluk var. Yakında beni bile içine alacak kadar büyüyecek. Ve sadece boyun eğmekle kalacağım. İyi geceler.

This song finally motivated me after years to cut things off with my dad, j relate to it so hard and I'm proud to say my last words to him were "fuck you"

I cried to this :)

idk if it's sane or not but I think it's a song from my soul/heart to my brain/social anxiety

I don’t have anyone to talk to so imma write it here. I feel like I’m overthinking so much about stupid shit and you never tell me anything. I wonder sometimes if I’m the one who’s fallen hard and it’s just a little crush for you. I think about you constantly but I don’t want to be the clingy one. Also, I have so many different moods and personalities and I only show you the good sides. You constantly keep your guard up and I can’t tell if you have nothing to hide or you just aren’t telling me.I really wish I didn’t have to overthink about this whole thing but I’m so young and it’s stupid for me to even worry about this. You make me so so so happy and I wish you would communicate more. I fucking love you so much but I don’t want you to figure out that I’m a fucking shit show. I have so many issues and I only want to think about happy things when I’m with you. I don’t want to bombard you with all my stupid problems and make hanging out with me a chore. Also I feel like if you found out about them, you wouldn’t even want to be friends with me. Pls talk to me. I’m going crazy

free terapy

hello im ur number 1 fan

When you go through a really conflicting and messy breakup and finally understand this song fully 🏃‍♂️

You can’t even think how much this song and this version of it means to me, than you💖😔

late night crying and hearing this sings m my life

I was at the rooftop alone then when i heard the rain in the audio it also started to rain here in real life

My mother left us to marry someone new. And every time I listen to this song, I think of all the good memories of our family, when my dad was still alive... Sorry my English is not good.

Everyone thinks of a relationship while I think of my friends

Listening 🎧 this sitting in bright sunlight with light breeze 🍃😌

This is so calming and cathartic. Thanks

THIS IS AMAZING AHHHH

This song gives me shivers thank you for this 🙏❤

This song helps me cope with the shit my dad has put me through. My parents started their divorce in November of 2019 and it was finalized on July of 2020. They would’ve been married for 14 years but he let us go. He didn’t even put up a fight to keep our family together. He just let us go. And I never realized I had a true relationship with him. TW: assault and mentions of injury and bruising He assaulted my mom in March of 2020 and luckily, I wasn’t there, I was at my grandparents house (which was about an hour away). Man, I remember my grandma getting that phone call and she immediately changed out of her pjs (it was around 9pm) and drove to my old house. I didn’t know what was going on, but from my grandparents’ expressions, I just knew. My mom came home covered in bruises. I cried so hard. She had bruises all over her body. Her knees, elbows, ribs, chest, head. Everywhere. When she would lay on the couch for weeks after, I couldn’t even hug her because it would hurt her. And that was the last thing I wanted to do to her. I wanted to be able to comfort my mom through her pain but I couldn’t do anything. That was the most pain I’ve ever felt in my life. And I still cry about it to this day because this piece of the past will never truly heal. A restraining order was placed and it lasted for a few months for the both of us. I will never look at that man the same. He’s an alcoholic and a liar. He says he’s sorry but I don’t believe him. Because if he truly was, he would act completely different. But, my life is better than it was before. I’m learning how to deal with him and protect myself. It’s taking a while, yet I know I’ll be fine in the end. I never thought I would say that.

this is so powerful. thank youuu !

It's really good thanks I've been looking for that 🙂👍

omg this is amazing,i love it

I know this song is about being in a toxic relationship or a friendship or familial bond,but the song gets even more depressing when you imagine singing it to yourself Infront of a mirror

You are way to underrated

Why is it so underrated??!!

I loved the bit of rain at the end

You said you loved me. We laughed together everyday at school and on calls. I was happier than ever. Then the insecurities came flooding in. "I'm not good enough for them" "They deserve better than me" "We'll break up soon, it's inevitable" Slowly we drifted apart. After a month you broke up with me. It's funny, I knew this would happen. I knew you'd get bored of me eventually, I just didn't think it would be this quickly. We still have to interact every day because of classes together and mutual friend groups. How come you act like it never happened? In fact it's worse. If I do the smallest thing wrong, you point it out. I have insecurities too y'know. I know you have BPD but please be nice. I was always nice to you. Why can't you do the same to me? I never once hated you. I know you're going through tough shit too. But you never acknowledged that about me. I never once heard a "sorry" or words of comfort. You always vented to me so why did I feel like I couldn't do the same to you? I know I have trust issues. I was scared to show that part to anyone, even if you were my partner. Maybe it's for the best we aren't together anymore. I wish you the best. I doubt anyone read this long ass vent but if you did, thanks

This song is a pure masterpiece.

PLEASE DO MORE BILLIE EILISH SONGS IN THIS STYLE PLEASE PLEAS PLEASE

3:15 Scream your heart out

This hits hard when you can relate to every word

im thinking about my parents and my bullies and "trusted" adults at school while listening to this :)

My mom ruined me but I can’t ever escape her

this makes me sad and angry even though i have never ever been in a toxic relationship or a simple one🙌💙😭

This song is incredible and this is just as incredible

THIS IS SO GOOD

"you WERE my everything"