Hitorinbo Envy (English Cover)【JubyPhonic】独りんぼエンヴィー 

Wait HOW CAN THAT SMALL GIRL SEW SO GOOD

Really relate to this song. Children have to grow up with this. Hearing voices that used to soothe you to sleep shouting at each other is terrible. Especially when you are depressed on top of that. It makes you feel that you are just an extra piece and thinking that you aren’t needed ever since such a young age can permanently damage you and you childhood. Thinking your better off dead makes it hard to live. Things that other children do like have lullabyes sang to them or stories never happens. Instead there’s fighting. And sometimes it’s even blamed on you. People like this should really think thrice before having kids. Condoms were made for a reason. Kids growing up with this grow up with multiple varieties of metal problems such as anger management, Depression, loneliness etc. it makes them want to die with their lives feeling like a burden. With this family as well they are taught not to tell anyone or it worries their parents and people to end up in more fighting so they keep it in. They almost don’t know how to put it into words because it’s so deeply sealed and your mind just neglects opening up. You tell no one which makes you have no actual and genuine relationships cuz nobody knows anything about you and it sucks acting like a fucking con artist. Loneliness is probably the worst thing to feel and kids like this feel it since such a young age. We need to end this! Use protection guys!

I like how 95% of the comments are theories or stories 😂

its honestly sad that a suicide attempt can fix a lot of stuff. People will be nicer to you, because they are afraid of losing you after they experienced something terrifying

Here goes! The story starts with a couple. The woman cheats on the man as seen at 0:23 and the man "never bats an eye". That is until the woman gives birth to a girl with blonde hair. This is peculiar because neither the man or woman have blonde hair. However, the man at 0:23 does. This leads the man and woman to grow very distant and fight often. Their separation and neglect of their child is shown in the opening moments of the video at 0:06. The girl then begins to feel like she was a mistake and unneeded as shown at 0:41 and 0:44. The girl brings her doll to the park. The doll symbolizes her fantasy of what a good family should be like. The girl takes good care of the doll and plays with her often unlike the girl's own parents. At 0:58 the girl sees other happy families and wonders why her family can't be more like that. She then leaves the park and comes back at night time when she can be alone with her doll. While alone she has time to think about everything and comes to the conclusion that it is all her fault hence, "I've been a very bad girl". This leads her to make more dolls, this time the dolls resemble her parents and instead of the girl acting as a parental figure for the doll like she did before, she now envisions a world where her doll parents truly care for her. At 1:15 we see the parents lovingly playing with the girl, however, a second later it is revealed that this is only the girl's imaginary world where her mind now often drifts. At 1:27 we can see the mother putting on makeup, presumably to meet up with the true father of the girl once again. At 1:37 the girl returns to the park and sees a girl that closely resembles her doll hand in hand with her father. This is meant to symbolize the fact that the father too has a fantasy of a perfect family that he never got to have. Note also that the doll has brown hair that matches the father's, unlike the girl's blonde hair. At this point the girl is devastated because she realizes the father would be far happier with a different child and at 1:45 the girl drops the parent dolls, thus accepting the harsh reality of her life. Crushed, the girl boards a train to the beach, the last place where she remembers having fun as a family as shown by the photo at 2:03 and 0:06.She walks into the water, unaware of how to swim and with the intention of drowning at 2:06. This prompts a dream-like sequence that takes place in the park where the girl would watch other happy families. At 2:18 and 2:19 the doll parents morph into real looking parents and play hide and seek with the girl. At 2:35 she sees a vision of her parents with open arms, welcoming her into the depths of the ocean and she turns to follow them when at 2:44 she is yanked back to reality by her real mother and father who have come to save her. At 2:49 the girl wakes up in a hospital bed and for the first time in years her parents both seem to truly care for her. And at 2:56 she can see her doll has become a real girl, symbolizing how the family has been brought together and the girl's fantasy has started to become a reality.

notice how she only hugs her father back, not the mother.

Okay, here's my theory: - Haru is cheating on Hiro, and has been for several years. (Let's call the girl Ai, or Love, because that's all she wants) Haru has a child, Ai, which Hiro believes is his. (Blond is probably a recessive trait, and Haru has green eyes. It's not that unusual, right?) After a few years, the three are living together as a happy family. Hiro gets swamped with work and stays later nights at his job, and because of this, Haru grows more careless. At some point, she is discovered and the parents fight, leaving Ai feeling alone and unwanted. She believes it's her fault, because she overhears them at some point and hears her name. Ai makes dolls of "herself" (She already thinks she doesn't look like her parents, and that if she did, they'd love her more.) and her family, and pretends that they're having fun together, just like she wants. Ai eventually gets tired of being alone and goes to the park, hoping that she'll feel better there, but it's the opposite- she sees families enjoying themselves and being happy together, and she gets even more depressed. Ai remembers something her parents said while they were arguing, about her mother's cheating, and she realises she isn't her father's child, and feels even more out of place. She spends the night there accidentally and wants to go back home, but thinks she won't be loved or appreciated there. Eventually, Ai reaches her lowest point and goes to the ocean to drown herself so she won't feel this anymore, and so that her parents won't fight. After jumping into the water, Ai closes her eyes and imagines herself playing with her family, being happy with her family, and them truly loving her. She wants to reach out for them, to fall into their welcoming arms and disappear- but she is found and saved before she can. Ai wakes up in a hospital, with her parents standing over her and crying, and she realises they do love her. She knows that she isn't really "their" child, and she knows her parents aren't going to be the same now, but she wants to believe that they'll be okay. She forgets the dolls and her "perfect" family, and tells herself that this is her perfect family, even if they're truly falling apart. (I also like to think that her parents, while they do most likely divorce, try to stay friendly with each other for Ai's sake.)

Person: "Why are you crying over fictional characters?" Me: "Because this actually happens in the world" Edit: I was 13 when I wrote this and it was pure satire, why did it get so many likes-

I wanna think there's a happy ending, but "tomorrow, no one has to know" really just makes me think she's just going to try again.

So nobody is gonna talk about how the girl’s eyes are red at the very beginning but are blue throughout the rest of the video?

I think the other girl at the end is a representation of what the main girl would have looked like if she was her father's actual daughter. She only has traits from the man her mom had an affair with.

My theory: Nah i don't have the creativity to do this, sorry

My Theory: . . . Characters: • Mom/Wife/Haru-chan = The brown-haired, green-eyed lady (see 0:18) • Husband/Father figure/Hiro-kun = The blue-haired, brown-eyed man (see 0:18) • The biological father/Gary = The blonde man (see 0:23 and 0:40) I'm gonna name him Gary because it sounds a lot like the Japanese word for diarrhea (下痢). F*ck you Gary. • The girl/Yūko (憂子) = The main character. I'm going to call her Yūko because it means depressed child in Japanese and it also seems to fit her. . . . Hiro is a workaholic (see 0:37). He never spends time with Haru, so she cheats on him with Gary. Hiro is too focused on work to care until Haru gets pregnant with Gary and has Yūko. You know this because of two things. One, Yūko has blonde hair. She should have brown, blue, or a mix of the two, but she has blonde hair. Two, her eyes. Haru's eyes are green and Hiro's eyes are brown. We never see Gary's eyes, but we can assume that they are a light color because Yūko has blue eyes, a recessive trait. Because of the unexpected pregnancy, tensions rise. Hiro and Haru start to bicker and mostly ignore Yūko. To cope, she makes three dolls: Haru, Hiro, and herself as she wishes she could be. The brown-haired, brown-eyed doll is what she imagines she would look like if she were a product of her Haru and Hiro instead of her Haru and Gary. She also holds on to memories of when they were a happier family. Them playing at the park, and them at the beach. (Hence the photo and the drawing, and the scene near the end that I'll talk about later). Because her parents largely ignore her and fight constantly, she begins to believe that she is worthless. She views herself as the cause of her parents' unhappiness and wishes that she was never born OR that she was born to Hiro. To distract her from this, she plays with her dolls at the park quite often. But, when she is alone without any distractions, we see her depression seep through, like in the jungle gym (1:07), or when she is drawing (1:23). She begins to get jealous of the 'perfect' families she sees at the park and tries to ignore it (0:59 - 1:01), but sometimes she pictures herself in their shoes (like at 1:42) and wishes she had a 'perfect' life. Eventually, the depression gets the better of her, and she decides to kill herself to 'make her parents happy'. She rides the bus to the beach, carrying her picture of when she was happy, and her dolls; her most important possessions. While she is underwater, she dreams/hallucinates that she is playing with her happy family. They play hide and seek and then hug her. This is important because it shows that they are happy. That they love her and aren't fighting anymore. *That it isn't real.* Then, we see her parents standing in a field, beckoning to her. This symbolizes death. Her perfect family wants her to join them. She wants to, and almost gives up, as we see her eyes turn brown for a brief second at 2:43. Then she is pulled back to the land of the living by the arm of Hiro, and her eyes turn blue again (2:44). It's unclear whether Hiro finds her or someone else does, but nevertheless, she gets saved. Yūko wakes up in a hospital surrounded by family and hallucinates her perfect self-holding doll-Haru and doll-Hiro. I view this as her letting go of her dream of a perfect family and realizing that she can be happy with this family as she is, hence the line "tomorrow no one has to know." As that realization kicks in, the gravity of the situation settles, and all of the emotions she has been holding in hit her, she starts to cry. Our final shot is of the doll family sitting happily, symbolizing the fact that she won't need them to cope anymore. Edit for spelling and formatting

Not gonna lie, I listened to this like twice, and said: “Ok, imma just toss this in my playlist. So I can listen to it again.” That was a month ago. *laughs in depression*

I have to say.... This may be the only song that I prefer the English cover instead of the original vocaloid song...

It always messes me up when I see her "parents" turn to bubbles and she's confused, then turns around to actually see them reaching out for her happily with many flowers around them. Cause I feel like Death basically gave her what she truly wanted if she fully accepted it with opened arms and then she could finally feel like they were all a happy family again.. it really gets me..

2:48 I love how extreme the song is while the doctor is just awkwardly standing there

Can we take a moment to appreciate the Dad for loving her despite her not being his daughter, it is hard to love the personified symbol of your wife’s infidelity and betrayal

3:01 "why is she crying?" Because she thought that girl would take her dolls, like I worked hard on those b-

1:54 nobody gonna question why there's a 4 year old on the subway by herself?

My theory is: The people just post theories here!!! Let's go guys appreciate the juby job she have a amazing voice! /\ /\ ● ● congratulations juby \\\ ^ \\\

When you're to sing this while watching this, but you start crying.

Lyrics: Easily playing, never bat an eye Weeping and posing, another perfect alibi Every day lonely, I’d rather play a game Like a slow running stream of honey I crave Looking at you now, yes, and even you Was I unneeded? Was I just in the way, too? Call me a phantom, never meant to be Couldn’t be more fun to party and scream Now My, oh my, oh walk your way to me Clap your hands, we’re traveling to the beat Why, oh why, oh hurry up and leave And again I come to see, I’ve been a very bad girl Dreaming in color, burned it in my mind But then I wake up with black as raven hands alive Well, I was chosen to burn inside Couldn’t be more fun to whistle and sing Now Crawling, crawling out tonight and see Everyone up scrambling to the beat Easy easy, envy all you need Dancing on without a clue, she’s been a very blind girl Counting 1, 2, 3, and 4 you better go and hide Hiro-kun, Haru-chan, two that I find Three and just don’t be it, barely breathing out a sigh You caught me before I could try Now My, oh my, oh walk your way to me Clap your hands, we’re traveling to the beat I’m shivering slowly, raise a foot to leave All alone sing bye bye Hey Find me, find me LOVE, I’m on my knees Reach a hand but pricks me until I bleed Fine? Oh fine? Sewn eyes I broke to see We’ll again come play the game...tomorrow, no one has to know

If anyone's curious about the song's story, this is what I believe: The girl's father is a workaholic, which causes her mother to have an affair. Due to this, the girl's parents fight instead of caring for their child like they used to. The girl makes a doll so she wouldn't be lonely and goes outside to play (since Japan has low crime rates, it's common for children to be outside alone). However, she constantly becomes envious of other children playing with their parents. The girl begins to fantasize a perfect life with her family, so she makes a doll of her mother and father. As she plays in the park, she imagines that her father doll and girl doll are real (as seen when she only drops the mother doll before running off; the only character not in the scene), which prompts her to feel replaced. She grabs the photo of her family at the beach, when they used to be happy, and rides a subway to drown herself at that beach. As she loses consciousness, she has a fever dream of playing hide and seek with her parents. Her dream parents beckon her to the other side of the river (which could possibly mean death), however, before she crosses it, her real parents pull her out of the coma. Her real parents shower her with love, and as she glances to the corner of the room, she sees the girl she saw with her father earlier, only to realize it was her imagination when the girl turns back into a doll perched on the wall with the rest of her doll family.

Anyone else translated the title? The title fits perfectly. "Lonely Envy" is what it translate to .

lesson is, if you getting a kid you getting a flipping responsibility

I used to cry each time I watched this. Nothing changed

The last word really got me you know the: "We'll again come play the game" About that word i think she means that her parents will fight again and the same thing will happen "Tomorrow no one has to know" I think it means either what happened today will be a secret or maybe it means like tomorrow the same thing will happen but nobody has to know

Oh, wow, the lyric "Call me a phatom, never meant to be" hit me just now. I never noticed it before, but paired with the visuals of her mom shouting, this girl doesn't just feel like she is unwanted becouse of a missunderstanding. She feels that way becouse her mother literally yelled at her father that she wasn't suposed to exist. (Pair that with the theory that she is actually the daughter of the mothers lover, that statement makes a lot of sense. But just somehow turns twice as hurtfull)

anyone notice that the doll looks like the girl if she looked like her parents? her mothers brown hair and her fathers brown eyes

I love the visuals at 2:41 when the girl goes to walk into the light (death obv) but the hand pulls her back and she wakes up. It makes me tear up everytime for some reason

The fact I saw this 3 years ago and I really related to this song. And even in 2023 I still relate to this by alot. Wishing all of you who relate to this the love you deserve.

coming back to this after years you don't realize the small details like the first time, her clothes are torn and very rugged, as she faced the world alone. her heart must of shattered when she saw her father smiling with another girl

I have only recently found your channel but I have listened to a fair few of your covers and this one is one of my favourites. You have such a beautiful voice and I hope you keep doing these as long as it makes you happy.

fun story: I'm 13 now, and i recently discovered this song and i feel like it really relates to me. Which sounds like hashtag deep, i know. But hear me out. When I lived with my mother, she neglected me a lot and emotionally abused me and very rarely would a little bit physically abuse me, too. And I was bullied at school (random people would make me give them my money, they'd tell me to stop eating, and even outside of school random kids would tell me to go kill myself. And online was my only escape) , to keep this comment short, i basically became depressed, got anxiety and PTSD (Yes, I was diagnosed by a therapist. My current one. This is not me making this up.) and, basically, at 11 years of age i was put into a psychiatry for an attempted suicide and hallucinations (Like, everywhere i looked to, I saw myself dying and killing myself.) and then in the psychiatry my therapist would make up lies about me and wouldn't care that I tried to kill myself 7 times (the reason the last one didn't work, was because i had almost reached my wrist's vein by scratching up my wrist with an empty pen until it got to painful to bare and I started laughing and crying like an idiot about how terrible i thought I was.) while in the hospital. My mom (and she still thinks this) thought that I had gone insane for a year. And while all of that was happening, my mom had a stalker that stalked and threatened the two of us, but she was in love with him and he lived with us and yeah. I hated it there and then I moved to my dad at 12 years old. When I did, i constantly had anger outbursts and I was very... emotional to say the least. So yeah, also my mom has in the past threatened to kill herself If I don't come back to her, among other guilt tripping tactics. So yeah. The reason this song really relates to me, in my eyes, is because my dad lived on the other side of the world (he is involved in my life, and loves me, he's not a bad person.) and has a wife and my little half-brother. My mother had her insane boyfriend. I felt like I was not needed and everyone told me that anyway, which is why my depression got worse.

A child’s parents and family members are where they learn the most basic of things! Whether it be learning how to hold something on their own and learning to talk, to things like learning how to handle their emotions and how the world works. What they are taught within the first few years of their lives is basically a child’s main ‘reference point’ for the rest of their lives!

My theory: I don't have a theory I just cried a lot

This has been in my recommendations for months. Just now I finally decided to check it out. Absolutely zero regrets.

The top 3 moments that almost made me tear up: 1: The parents as kids growing up 2: "My oh My oh, walk your way to me" 3: Her waking up to her parents crying over he waking body

i mean like you neglected your child what do you think was going to happen her saying 'ok' and just live like that NO THA'TS NOT HOW IT WORKS

A story of a family that is almost falling apart and yet being fixed by another time-line of her... *sobs in a song that I'm going to listen everyday*

So from what I've gathered, her family is falling apart (shown by the dad working and ignoring his kid and the mom cheating). The child goes to commit suicide, is saved. And the little girl with the hat we see at the end leaving the doorway is actually the doll that the blue eyes girl was seen playing with. Because now that the family is actually together and realizing how they should actually value each other, the doll the girl was playing with is no longer needed. Thus why shes seen leaving through the door. Because for a time that doll WAS the blue eyed little girls family.

2:33 Can't remember whether or not somebody already said this, but I like to think that the "parents" in this scene are actually angels disguised as the girls parents, come to take her away to heaven. Fortunately the real parents find her in time and take her to the hospital, and before she can leave (in other words before her soul can leave her body) they call out to her and beg her to come back and she wakes up. Then the parents hug her and promise not to fight in front of her anymore and to be better parents. Also the father realizes that he loves his daughter even if she isn't really his blood-related daughter and the three of them live happily ever after.

honestly the framing of how suicide did help is honestly pretty dangerous imo

*destroys my parents tv" I've been a very good girl.

This song still pricks me where it hurts because I feel useless when it comes to being a daughter, my childhood was full of neglect from my mother my father wasn't in the picture I don't really talk to my father, but seeing my own mother treating my niece like her own daughter, broke my heart in so many ways, It was the first time I felt terribly jealous for a child who didn't even do anything to me, they were laughing together and I watched in the background trying not to cry, Because I wanted that as a child I wanted love, I wanted to be called her baby I wanted to feel loved by my own mother, she never was never there to say I did a good job when I got awards,she wasn't ever there, today I cook for her I do anything to be praised her, but I hate affection from her because she never gave me that and I grew to resent her and the affection she gives me, but a part of me still loves her I don't understand why even though I hate her I love her too

My understanding was pretty similar to everyone else but the fact that the girl made the dolls and the doll was a better mix of the parent's traits so she saw the doll as what she should be. So that's why when she imagined the scene of her dad and doll happy she tried to die. She figured they would be happier with the doll child. That's why at the end the doll smiles at her while holding the toy parents. Because the girl has her parents attention and physical love.

At 2:16, the frame shows the mother and father as children and the daughter as an adult. It could be alluding to the past; however, the way the whole song works makes me think it means that the daughter behaves/acts more mature than the parents. The parents act like children and hide from their problems until they are confronted with the problem of the girl/how the wife cheated and had the daughter. I may be looking too far into it, but I just thought of it like that.

I love the fact that every single one of Juby's vocaloid covers just become a safe space for people to rant about their problems, thank you so much Juby for letting people do this!!

I'm probably the only one who actually thinks this wasn't a happy ending for the family. This tells a story about a girl who is in an abusive family; her mom cheats on her dad for the fun of it and neglect from her husband, her dad is too caught up in work to spend time with anyone and honestly most likely pretends these bad things aren't happening beacuse he is sick of dealing with it. The daughter's parents are always fighting due to being easily pissed off, neglect, or the cheating, or both. Emotional abuse towards their daughter is quite common and it could matter less to them if their daughter was around or not beacuse they are living their own lives without any need for such troublesome things. Once the depressed daughter finally tries to end it all, she finds herself saved by her parents; even if her parents are caring for her at that moment, the daughter is forced to re-live the exact same lifestyle as before resulting in a "sad ending" not a "happy ending" without anyone there to change a thing. A easy way to notice this is the last few lines she said: "Reach a hand but pricks me till I bleed. Fine? Oh fine? Sewn eyes i broke to see. We'll again come play the game tomorrow, no one has to know" Looking at those words closer it seems to make more sense.

2:44 I like the detail that the one who takes the girl by the arm is not the parents, it is the doctor

I thought that the title was "Himbo Energy" and I-

I honestly love this song so much. I don't deal with anything implied or stated in this song and video, but I still love the song so much. I love your voice, it's so sweet and attitudinal at the same time. I've been listening to your covers for about a year, and I love your voice.

And this is how I like (obsessed) vocaloids *AGAIN* Such a great times

I had once interpreted that the blonde kid was an adopted child, because the parents lost their real biological daughter. they could've adopted her to fill the void of the loss of their own child. but because they can't fill the void and keep fighting over the past. they're ignoring their adopted child and doing their own thing. and in the end she finally accepted herself and was accepted by them, even if she wasn't their biological child. That's what I was seeing when first seeing it.

This song hits me right in the feels everytime. I don't even care if it's the sub or dub version I always hear your lyrics Juby and it brings tears to my eyes. Not only because of the sad story about the little girl but also because I relate to her story in ways that I shouldn't disclose in a public space like this lol. Anyway, Great song, great lyrics and amazing vocals as usual. Thank you for this Juby.

This hit me so much because as a kid, while i had a loving family, I had no friends, am an only child, and was (and still am) very very shy, so going out to make friends was out of the question. I don't even have any memories of me speaking at all at that time. At school everyone would ignore me and be pretty mean to me so I felt really lonely and was jealous of the other kids that had friends or siblings. I wondered what I did wrong to warrant their hatred towards me. My parents love me, but they were busy a lot of the time, so i spent most of my time in my room making up stories with my toys and pretending they were my friends. I changed schools, and I met my best friend at the new school! She's still my only human friend, so I still get lonely sometimes (especially now that my parents seperated), but even with just one friend, it's way more bearable. Different story, same feelings...

This honestly shows that its not just adults and teenagers that go through depression,its children too

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2:50 For some reason I love how the doctor just stands there XD

PLEASE I LISTENED TO THIS SO MUCH WHEN I WAS A KID BECAUSE I RELATED TO IT PLLLEEEAAASSSEEEE

I normally don't cry at much..but apparently i'm emotional today because my eyes are tearing up. edit: :D ty for the replies i thought nobody would find this comment

. 0:51 1:30 . 2:31 I love these parts...

I can relate to this song, a whole bunch. My parents divorced when I was 15(a year ago, I'm 16) and I was blammed by many people. My parents told me it wasn't my fault but I couldn't believe what they said because for years I was blammed for anything and everything that happened, and the crappy part was my dad didn't blame me and my mom didn;t for a while but eventually she started to blame me for a lot of stuff, my nana(on my mom's side) blammed me for a lot of stuff too. I am only 16 and I have anxiety, depression, fear of abandonment, anger issues. I was taught a bad way to handle my emotions and that was to bottle it all up and never let it out, as well as I was told to smile it all away. All it did was make it to where if my emotions came out they would come out in a huge wave and it would all come out in anger and I sometimes get grounded for it. Things have gotten slightly better now that I'm going to therapy but things like this take a lot of time to heal and sometimes the emotional and menatl scars don't always fade. I learned so far that even if thing seem bad, just try to take one step at a time and just remember that there is a way to get through this, you just have to remember that there is some positive in the world.

I remember when I found this song, it was right when my parents split up and it was just my mom taking care of me and my sister. My mom and dad would argue a lot and seemed like their relationship was only getting more toxic and violent as years went on so they split up. I at first was not fazed by this for some reason it took me two years to realize how much I missed my dad but also how toxic both of my parents were to me my mom would always yell at me for the smallest of reasons and my dad would protect me only to later be absent in the most important moments of my life. and when my dad left my arguments with my mom became more violent especially since I knew how to fight back, and my dad would never communicate with me. Now I have come to realized how bad my situation was I would always think that my family was normal and that stuff like this happens but now I have come to the conclusion that I am pretty messed up and so is the rest of my family. But that doesn't stop me from enjoying this song :)

My family: *Hugs me* I'm glad you waked up soon on your first school day Me who didn't slept anything and haven't prepare anything: 2:54

Omg the description follows my dark mind >.>

i dont fully relate to the song and at first i didint know why tf i was crying but once the end started playing and i re-watched it i realized why i cried, its because everywhere in my house theres fighting everywhere I go, my mom forces everyone to work outside in the heat for two hours a day. I had to deal with my friend suicide and I have super low self esteem, I just feel like nobody cares about how I feel. thats why I had cried. the only thing i have so i can vent is my art. my sketches. and my parents seem like they have grown far apart, my dad seems depressed and my mom is just crazy. this song helped me make a vent drawing because I realized everything that was wrong in my life, im trying to fix it all sorry for ranting ❤️❤️

What I interpret from the song: The mother cheats on the dad because he works too much. He doesn't pay attention to the child. The mother gets pregnant with the blonde man and the girl is born. She escapes to the park everyday to get away of the discussions of her parents. The kid spends a night in the park to see if someone noticed or was worried for her. They didn't even realize; she feels hurt. She suddenly realizes she isn't her dad's kid. She's the blonde man's. She goes in train to the beach with a photo. She tries to drown while remembering all the good things. Her "father" somehow finds her, and she goes to the hospital. The doll leaves since there is no one she wants to be now, but one day, she will try to suicide again.

Your version is amazing I love your channel 💙

I use to listen to this song all the time and now I’ve found it again and I still love it❤❤❤

This was so touching. Thank you so much for this amazing performance.

I grew up to this song and I still know all the lyrics 🫶

My theory: the other girl is who she imagines as a perfect version of herself that's why she disappears at the end

the fact this girl made an amazing doll all by herself is enough to make younger me jealous

Honestly this song is amazing, not only because it's catchy but because this is the reality, people usually only sing about being heart broken or love, but the true songs with beautiful meanings like this one, always go unrated which is sad 😥

Look man I don't know about you but this is the best English cover I ever heard

Growing up with a father who was abusive to my mom I can’t help but feel comforted by this song idk it just makes me feel less alone

I really like this! So awesome!!! Honestly, it's masterpiece!!! I can't stop listening this song. I can't help but admire. It's the best cover I've ever heard. Haha it's just a comment from Russia, sorry for my language.

Ohmy I'm back here again, I'm in 11th grade now, I first saw this when I was in 8th grade and I would always bawl my eyes out when I listen to this

I never thought a song would make me cry before

I'm not crying! You are!

I feel like the doll is just the blonde haired girl’s imagination of what she could’ve looked like, if she was actually her biological parents’ daughter

Just binge watch every single English cover you ever done and I fell in love with your channel

To be honest i relate to this song way more than i thought. In 6th grade My dad got a brain tumor removed and with that you either get the same person or a completely different person. Ofc, we got the completely different person. My parents started having a lot more fights than they usually do and it ended up with my dad Getting pissed off at my mom and then just not talking to her. My mom looked so miserable. She had to get a job to get her own money. One day they had a fight right in front of me saying how to raise me. I have ADHD and its really bad i can hardly focus with school ( i was in online school so i couldnt focus ) and My moms wanting to be patient with me ( Teaching me how to cope with it ) and my dad is just sitting there saying that They should just give me medication for it when i didnt need it. I didnt know how to deal with this because then my parents started fighting with each other and i didnt know what to do but sit there and cry. ( Just like Miku ( kid ) with her parents ) my parents officially divorced by the end of my 6th grade year and i moved onto 7th grade. I was really shy at the beginning but then made Some friends. ( Lets call them yuujin and koibito ) Yuujin and koibito were really close to me and i told them about what happened in 6th grade and they helped me through rough times. My mom Had gotten a new boyfriend and i was on edge about it because i was still healing at the time from my parents divorce. Around February and March i started getting really miserable because yuujin was ignoring me to go hang out with her boyfriend and koibito wasnt talking to me at all some days and wouldnt hold my hand ( my bf ) My mom even made it worse by constantly having me do stuff so i felt like a maid to her and she just told me to deal with it. I missed 1 day of school by oversleeping on accident and she said she would give me up since i never listen to her. Later on i was thinking about committing suicide and I told my friends about it and then all of a sudden everyone started caring. I ended up not doing it. But later on Koibito broke up with me and that left me heart broken. I eventually get over it and go to 8th grade. Still pretty miserable from last year i join band because Yuujin really wanted me to. Band starts stressing me out with all the pieces and i tell yuujin about quitting band and she gets mad at me and Calls me a selfish person and she didnt wanna be friends with me anymore. I was Heartbroken when i found this out because she was all i had left. I was thinking about Committing suicide for the 5th time but i ended up not again. I ended up having a lot more better friends. Please if your thinking of committing suicide please dont. Think about all the people that would care for you and miss you.

For some reason I love it when the beat picks up on the part it goes: "My oh my oh walk your way to me, Clap your hands, we're traveling to the beat, Why oh why, Hurry up and leave," It just touches my soul

I’m young I’ll say. I shouldn’t have to be able to relate to this song, but I guess the world just likes being cruel to those of young age sadly. I’ve tried suicide multiple times and have been put in therapy once although I skip most of the sessions because they don’t seem to do anything, I find that my online friends that I haven’t even meet comfort me better, although my mom has tried taking them away from me by making my dad turn on age restrictions so that I couldn’t have discord. All because a 21 year old was trying to comfort me.

This hits me deep because my childhood was just like this. Ignored for my Dad’s work and my brother’s and mom’s medical issues, left alone to deal with everything happening in my life while everyone bragged about what they did with their families. Plus more, but it would take seven paragraphs to say it all.

Watching this back then was like just a cheerful song... Watching this now is just very sad..

The theme of this song still gives me shivers and makes me tear up

I always end up coming back to my juby phase (2015 - )

My parents gave me up for adoption at age 3 so, I don't know how to feel, mostly chest aching and hurting because I can't have what everyone else has, I was luckily adopted by my grandma. I feel bad for her so much, this song hit my heart in so many ways, lovely job!

The end hit me hard, knowing to myself that even if I do attempt suicide my family won't still be complete no matter what. The fact that, there's nothing I can do to save my Mom and Dad's relationship and my Mom and Step-dad's marriage.

This is a good piece of proof towards the fact that children DO have a basic understanding of these things!

Welp I just sat and thought about what happened today thanks

I know this was Like in 2016 But i wanna tell You that the song you sang was so beautifully done I...I..I i was beside myself.....But at the same time the way you sang it Made me Remind my self How horridble My childhood was, I was Young at the age of 5 My parents Just Like in the story were always arguing Not paying attention me, My dad would always Ignore me,My mum And Brother when got home from work and still Argues with her.....Sometimes On different days As i can remember They would shout and wont realise it that i am In the room until it was too late i mean They legit said Devorice Right in front of me at the age of 5 They told me they werent And yet in the back of my mind i knew it was going to happen, few years Passed And I was Going into High school And My mum And dad Said they are going to get a Devorice, My mind just went numb that Day I was Like the gril in the song "She been a Very Blind girl" I was broken on the inside Mentally And phsycally But it got even worse I was Getting bullied, Getting left out of activities others would do in classes I didnt get to make friends And I just went on Amd on And on Until I couldnt take it anymore I was fed up So With that I decided that i was leaving the class room With everybody whatching me Yes EVERYONE whatched me insilence Waiting for a Massive Responce but i didnt make a Sound which cause one of them to say out loud to the teacher Before i got out of the Room "Erm sir arent you going to tell her to go back to her seat?" And then I left. I told the headmaster And they pit me in a New class group But I was Beyond Broken at that point. But that was In the passed But i cant help But say that I am Still broken I and i cant be fixed I can Force a smile I can Force a luagh But i cant Do it Naturally anymore Sadly And that its why i can Legit Relate to this song so much BECAUSE You got it So close to being what happens in Real life I....I...Cant finish this sentance. all i can say is thank you!

"Dreaming in colour" is what the girl is "dreaming" about. Probably her old happy memories. And when it zooms out into a picture, ("and then i wake up, with black as ravens hands alive " it shows she 'woke up from reality' and to put it another way, she probably made the whole happiness in her mind and trying to imagine the whole thing. And she was sort of chose to be put through all this.

I think the story behind this is that the girl with the hat is the doll, a friend the MC made up because her mother and father fight so much she doesn’t have anyone in her life. And the happy moments are just stories she makes up to make herself feel happy, as shown when she was colouring that drawing of she and her parents. Also, I feel like the only real time she was with her parents was with the picture she took when she attempted suicide. The line “I’ve been a very bad girl” could symbolize possible verbal abuse, too, or maybe she learned it from the fights. “Tomorrow no one has to know” suggests a possible new suicide attempt, too, but maybe she’ll give no hints or something this time so nobody will know and she’ll be successful. Edit: And the reason the doll/friend is shown with the father is because it’s yet another time the MC imagined, a time where she and her father get along and play happily. The line “she’s been a very blind girl” could be referring to herself and her relationship with her dad. Another reason I think the hat girl is the doll is because the three dolls are shown at the end, but right beforehand the girl is only holding two dolls-the two of the parents.

HOLY SHIT AFTER 4 FUCKING YEARS I FINALLY FOUND IT....after the first time I listened to this song and watched this video..it changed..me..I never forgot about it....

I can't believe you only have 723K subs.. you deserve a crap ton more.