How 2022 really ended & what I’ve been hiding. 

Thank you. You weren't hiding your eating disorder from anyone who has suffered thru an ED. I am 57 and have been watching you for years and saw this happening to you. I suffered with an ED for years and have had long and short periods of wellness. I am getting treatment now for BED. I am so happy you are getting treatment. I am so happy you are so self aware that you know the struggles you are having and you aren't in denial. Things you said today show you are at a good point righ5 now to get better. Thank you for being honest, humble, and informative about what you were doing. Some may not realize the restrictions and mind games they play with themselves are indeed an ED. Sending healing hope to you and will be cheering you on from afar!

Maybe weird but I am incredibly proud of you and I hope you feel proud of yourself. 💕 way to be a leader 💕

Oh Alex, I had an inkling something like this has been amiss for a while - only because I've been right there myself! You are so strong and it takes a lot of strength to take the reigns back. I'm wishing you all the best going forward, you beautiful soul ❤

Oh Alex I just want to give you a massive hug. How incredibly brave and strong you are to post something so vulnerable. I’m so glad to hear you’re coming out of a very dark place and are wanting to make your life better. Just wanting to make a change is a huge step that not everyone makes. You should be so proud and I know you’ll thrive and find your spark again 💗💗 you got this!

Hiiiii!! Oh I’m so so incredibly proud of you Alex🥹 This is SUCH A HUGE STEPPING STONE! I have no doubt you’ll overcome this and you’re going to change SO MANY LIVES throughout your journey because you’re brave enough to be vulnerable and upload things like this. You are so brave and I know there will be heaps of girls clinging to this video as hope that they are not alone and that it is NICE & most importantly OKAY to start their healing journey for themselves. I know this wouldn’t have been easy AND battling anxiety as well, the thoughts you would have had JUST to fight through getting this video up, would have been so consuming and for that, GIRLLL well done! (I get it! So I know how brave and strong you are for being able to do that) The thoughts are never really what other people may think of you, they’re just your own evil overthinking thoughts. What other people think of you (those who matter) are only positive, uplifting and “those of real love” thoughts so remind yourself of this if you get too into your head at times! Forever proud of you my girl! This is just the beginning of a HUGE testimony that will change lives… and you’re documenting it all so HOW SPECIAL for those whose life you’ll change. Continue to be brave and you always come first from here on out. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Sorry I had to comment, because you are just such a beautiful souled human being that deserves beautiful memories and experiences. Big love to you Alex💗🫶🏼

I am so so so so so proud of you ! I cried the whole video as I have been where you are ❤ you got this girl xxx beauty strong and healthy!

Oh, dearest Alex.. I’ve watched you for years and could tell something was up 😢 I’m glad you are on your way to healing, it’s like watching a friend finding their way out of a dark place. You are surrounded by people that love and support you. You got this, keep thriving and don’t be so hard on yourself- you have no idea how beautiful you are, on the inside and outside

thank you for sharing this. this has been so beautiful and raw and i’m so incredibly proud of you for laying out the stepping stones for the rest of your path in life. you got this girl! ❤

Hi Alex, As someone who has also struggled with ED and continues to try to overcome the constant thought and fear of food, I’m super proud of you for putting this out there. I’m so sorry you’ve been going through this. It’s awful and all consuming. Acknowledging that there is something wrong and wanting change is a HUGE step forward to recovery! I think you are absolutely stunning and more importantly strong! You’ve got this girl! Xx

My Grandfather always said to “ eat when your hungry”. Happy May 1 & Birthday!

So glad you're doing better ❤ Hospitalization sounds like a nightmare, you were so strong for managing to get through it. I think it would break me honestly. Wishing you the best hun, hang in there ❤

Hey Alex thank you for sharing your struggles with an ED. It is so crazy that i actually used to do the exact same thing, bank my calories throughout the week, to have one massive cheat day on a saturday, it got to the point where i was 10kg down and continued to lose so much weight even after having a massive calorific cheat day, it didnt. matter because the 6 days a week i was eating next to nothing all day. Finally i got out of the cycle and i feel i have food freedom again. You can so it too❤️

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Thank you Alex for this moving video. I can't imagine how hard it must have been for you to tell your story. You have written down your goals, and I hope that you achieve them. You are in my thoughts and prayers. 🙏❤

Thank you for being so brave and opening up about your story. I have also been through this and it makes me happy to hear your taking the steps and committing to healing. It gets better I promise ❤

I love how honest and open you are. Always here if you need a friend x x

You are so strong 🫶🏼 Sending so much love x

Thank you for sharing this really personal part of your life Alex. It must of taken great courage to post this. Your mum must be an amazing woman. I hope this is a start of a new journey for the rest of your life.

sending you positive thoughts you got this! you’re on your way

Super sorry to hear about your condition hope everything gets better!!💯💪

You are amazing, and strong and you’ve got this!!! ❤️

Thank you for posting this. You're looking so well! Maybe when you're ready you could try making some cooking vlogs : trying to make healthy alternatives to your favorite foods like healthy high protein pasta. That could be fun

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So incredibly proud of you for posting this ❤ I’ve followed you for years and know how hard this would’ve been to share…you’re so strong and brave and you can achieve anything you put your mind to. My mums advice to me has always been “you’re stronger than you think” so I’m sharing that with you ❤ you’ve got this xx

You are so incredibly strong Alex! You should be so proud of how far you have come already. I look forward to seeing you get your spark back! ❤

Love you honey ❤ sending lots of love x

You are so brave and we all are so proud of you! I know you will beat this and have the best life because you deserve it! Sending you lots of love ❤🥰💋

Thank you so much for sharing this with us Alex. Crazy to think how well people can hide it and although i noticed you had lost weight- i just assumed it was healthy- but wow you never know whats going on behind closed doors. So proud of you- wishing you good luck for this year, i believe in you xx

You should be so incredibly proud of yourself. I wish I could just give you the biggest hug. You are an inspiration Alex and truly a beautiful human. Keep your head high and take every day as it comes, you’ve got this! Sending you all my love.

You got this Alex! Everyone is rooting for ya!! I am going through the same thoughts as you, though it isn't ED but it's something else. You inspired me. Hope we will get to see video of your food journey/follow up soon. Ive watched you for years, and then I stopped for a while as I'm getting busier with work. Then when I watched again, I noticed you lost some weight especially your arms and waist. But I thought maybe it's becos you were upset after your breakup. Before your breakup, you look way better and healthier with more weight gain. I hope you'll stay strong, and you're not alone. You can do this Alex! Cook, eat and enjoy having fun with recipes as well! ^^ Really missed your snacks videos! Also with the period, mine was late for a couple of months(I wasn't eating well as well that time) , my friend told me reflexology foot massage helps her. I went for it, and it works! Within next day or couple of days, my period is back. I've tried it a couple of times whenever my period was late, and it truly works for me. Maybe you should try it too Chinese herbs help as well. Take care Alex, will keep you in my prayers.

All I can do for you is this. 🙏🏾 I hope you find balance.

YOU GO GIRL! YOUVE DONE THE HARDEST PART ALREADY. SO I HAVE GOT THAT N THE BAG. AND BTW UR BEAUTIFUL IN THE INSIDE AND THATS WHAT MATTERS. U HAVE SO MUCH SUPPORT. CANT WAIT TO WATCH U 5YRS DOWN THE ROAD LOOK BACK AT THIS VIDEO. AND THIS WILL ALWAYS BE A BATTLE JUST LIKE AN ADDICTION. BUT KNOWING WHAT U ARE AND BEATING IT EVERYDAY IS THE REAL POWER. SENDING U LOVE AND SUPPORT ALEX ❤️👍👍😘😘💞💖💕

wishing you a very happy birthday.. and i hope you get your favorite cake and icecream for your self on your special day..❤

Dam glad to hear you are feeling better. Your Mum is a kind person.

Oh Alex the positive language you used when speaking about overcoming the ED you’re manifesting your future self which is free of any ED! Keep speaking those positive words to yourself words are truely powerful ❤

Love you so much, thank you for sharing. I can’t wait to see you next so I can give you a big squeeze xx 😘

I hope you achieve everything you wish Alex. We are here to support you no matter what ❤

Sending you so much love ❤️

Thank you Alex for sharing something so scarey and personal towards us all ❤😢 at first i wasnt sure if i would be able to watch this video but you said so much things with so much meaning and i didnt realize how much i could relate to all this. Im currently struggling with food to and i cant wait for the day to not be afraid anymore. Like you said you just want to be free and i hear that so loud and clear, thank you for sharing this video you are amazing and well done on the achievements youve already made ❤❤

We love you and your vlogs Alex!! You are so strong an incredible, keep going!! ❤❤❤❤

You should be so proud of yourself. You got this ❤

Sorry you had to go through this. I hope everything will be much better for you going forwards.

Be strong! You will be healthy again! Hugs!

Alex thank you to share this, we are proud of you! I just know you through YT but you have a beautiful soul, you are beautiful, strong, funny person, I wish you the best and I send you good vibes! I’m your fan, I always waiting for your videos and I hope one day I can meet you! Have a good day 🤗

Love you , your strong for putting your truth out there I hope you feel your best ❤️

You are so brave Alex ❤❤❤

Thankyou for sharing your story. I’m sorry you’re going through this but you’re so strong and got this I suffer generalised anxiety and major depression disorder which affects my eating, I have zero appetite and struggle eating resulting me getting dangerously underweight, I hated being super skinny and it would stress me out not getting enough calories in and trying to force feed myself let alone to get the bare minimal ..they didn’t believe me when I said I wasn’t purposely starving myself and got involuntarily admitted into hospital for Anorexia and found it to be a pretty traumatic experience for me

🫂🫂🫂 day by day hun. You got this 💞

You go girl ❤❤

Thank you ❤ xxx

You're a beautiful person inside and out, even gaining 50lbs, you'd still look good girl❤️ I've gained weight and as much as I want to take it off and be the size I was, im enjoying life and don't want food to control it. I workout and eat healthy but let myself live and experience all the good life has to offer

Oh my darling girl, I’m so proud of you 🤍

I’m so proud of you I also recommend if your ready to get a dexa scan to check you don’t have osteoporosis which u guy from anorexia and rake magnesium to help heal them Uou will get your period back when you eat more starchy carbs they are good for female hormones I got mine back after 5 years of not having it so can you ❤ Ps don’t gmfeel bad or shame it’s more common than you think being human in this world is hard! And your doing amazing

The key is listen to you heart first honestly its the key for happiness and good health

You could do well by looking up Serena Abweh. She is a former AN sufferer, and turned her life around and became a pro powerlifter (thats when I started following her) It's so inspiring when she says things like she wants bigger muscles! Also, THROW YOUR SCALE OUT! For anyone gaining or losing weight it really is the worst way to judge real fat loss. Learn to listen to your body instead. Water weight comes and goes dependent on what types of food consumed.

Brave and inspiring

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Thank you for telling your story, I really hope you feel better and that you keep feeling better I hope life becomes easier and lighter because you are a beautiful person and you deserve to be happy 🤍 sending you a big hug 🤍 (also, remember to ask for professional help if you need it, consider going to therapy to talk about the deeper meaning behind this behavior)

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First fo all you cannot learn too much, but you can follow too much BS that you have learned. So, you have a learned eating disorder based on a certain lifestyle in which natural means they swollow testo pills and don't shoot by a needle. Now you will learn, as it sounds, by a therapy to eat normally again, based on what tastes good. The good news is that you don't eat to get the full feeling kick and than throw up, that is like a heroin addiction. I guess the insecurity is like in all competetive societies based on the fact that the enemy of the good is the better, is a valid strategy in life and everyone is encouraged to not become even better in things they like and are good in, but to improve things they hate and are bad in. So, we stuck to doing what we hate. Math extra classes over more art or sport... If you haven't ridden a bike, you will feel insecure just sitting on one and as long you cannot swimm all water deeper than your knees hight is scary. That is normal. Our Western society ain. #trustmeIamcrazyandlikeit #provos

I hope you heal your relationship with food and get better asap 🥺💛 You’ve inspired me to actually eat breakfast today, thanks for this video. 🫶🫶

Oh my heart hurts for you gorgeous girl. You are strong and so capable to overcome this. 🤍