Actually I can understand what Azura was describing. Cos I've been there, and beyond. That beyond is when one no longer can function, and just lies in bed, and goes MIA as far as family, friends, colleagues, bosses, outsiders etc are concerned. That's when depression hits. It's dangerous if one lives alone. I've lost count of the relationships I've damaged/broken, jobs lost etc, as a result of not being able to come out of that cave. And when you also have an anxiety disorder, well, it's a miracle to be able to come out of that cave because now on top of fighting the thought that the world is dark and better without you in it, you have to get over the irrational, unexplainable fear of everything outside of the cave. That was my world since pre-Covid. Professional help is the only way out. Medication is just the start of the recovery journey. And sometimes, one needs to see several professionals before it works, because the dynamics and chemistry between you and the professional works differently with different people. You may not gel with your doctor and your therapist. My recovery didn't start until my 2nd psychiatrist and 3rd counsellor. But I can understand when people give up on professional help because they felt it didn't work. I had felt like giving up too. But that meant going back to before, back to square one. And that wasn't a step towards living.
Thank you for sharing your story with us! It definitely takes courage and awareness to nudge yourself to seek professional help! Kudos to you for sharing and inspiring others to do so too! 🥰
I will explain to you and this happens to my brother full stop. When my mum passed away, during work my bro told me that he went to reach and tried calling mum. When he told me this I was like wtf... I then told him "bro, mum is already dead!" What I did NOW know was that my bro was close to mum and now to my brother life feels like hell. Thanks for the hardwork!
I always let my low days sit with me. I dont bother trying to force thr feeling out because its impossible. When im low, i have 0 appetite and cant smile, but it slowly goes away as long as i acknowldge it
