HPPD (my story) 

I got this like 5 years ago when a couple of my friends and i decided to get some tabs from a sketchy connection (we didnt know at the time (young and dumb)).. But these tabs were definitely NOT LSD. To this day im not sure what those little candies were dosed with. A night that forever changed the three of our brains. I remember putting the delicious Necco Wafer on my tongue. It was so tasty that i was moving it all around my mouth to absorb as much LSD as i could. We thought to ourself, what a great trip this is going to be. Seemingly perfect set and setting. Three best friends just enjoying some psychedelics and exploring the depths of their minds together. Ingested on a candy that was oh so yummy.. I actually wanted to eat more because they were so good. Thank god my friends stopped me from doing that though.. So we sat waiting for the effects to kick in, i think we were playing some videos games or watching some cartoons, but i dont really remember to well. After about two hours it was apparent it wasnt LSD which we were dreading that possibility. But so far it didnt seem to have much of an effect at all so we thought maybe it wasnt a bad RC(research chemical).. Unfortunately that wasnt the case and after about 4 hours we were feeling really energetic but in an unpleasant way. No euphoric feelings. Just a blank minded zombie energy feeling. And thats when visually things started to change a bit. Things started to look like they had a static layer over them. no usual LSD visuals but instead just kinda blurred the eyesight a bit. And concentrating was becoming harder to do. Focusing on little things like reading. at the end of the night we layed down to sleep which we were able to sleep after like 5 hours. And if you know what LSD is like youd know that you cant sleep on it. But this was sorta relaxing to sleep on. but the frightening part is everytime we closed our eyes our closed eye visuals were completely realistic and always happening. When your eyes are open youd experience no visual effect aside from the blurriness. But when you close them you were seeing things moving and happening one after another. it was racing thoughts. One image would pop up and dissolve in front of your eyes and then another one would instantly happen. And they seemed to be negative and creepy. I saw doll faces appear and have lines shootingg through their face and then the doll would melt and then something else scary would appear. Any ways. The next day and for weeks after we noticed the lasting effects on our vision and brain. Lots of loathing and depression lasted with us three for a year being the roughest part of the journey. We all would hang out every day and sorta bonded and kept each other sane during this period of time. We were just starting our junior year in highschool and we couldnt even focus or read properly. Everytime we looked at words on a page and tried to read a line, we would end up just reading that same line again instead of the next. We couldnt remember anything we read really. So school was interesting that year. Still had some amazing memories that year but boy was that feeling the most horrible feeling i have been through. Just the realization that things will never look the same or feel the same was enough to make us all go a bit insane. We were changed by this chemical. Yes its something that you can learn to cope with and gets easier and better as time goes on and as the brain heals. But there will always be a change and i will always notice what i have done to myself through messing with the wrong stuff.. Im 21 now its 5 years later and i still have big differences in my eye sight. But its sorta just normal now. I still wish i could go back to before doing any psyches and look through those eyes again. But thats not reality and ive accepted that. I always thought that i wouldnt get screwed over by the things i tried because i thought i was careful. But i think if you are searching these kinds of feelings and seeking them more than just a few times.. It finds its way to bite you in the butt from your ignorance. and sometimes people try things their first time and have HPPD effects. You never know. Others can take acid over 100 times and say they are fine. In my opinion yes those people can be more than fine. but obviously they were still changed a ton by what they did. All im saying is if you like your mind and mindset and how your eyes see the world and having more clear of a mind i would suggest not seeking out these things. mushrooms and weed okay but like tbh what ive learned most from substances is that being sober is more enjoyable than being on something all the time. I currently am addicted to weed that all i do anymore after all these years lol. But i want to quit weed now and try to connect back to a fully sober mindset. Just eating healthy and being in good shape and sober. Then dabble back into weed and maybe mushies every once in awhile. Moderation really has always been the key. And BTW i think mushrooms are just more rewarding than lsd. Lsd can be a fun time and spiritual too i guess. But the way lsd comes down just feels unnatural to me and lingers too much. Sometimes when coming down you ask yourself.. Am i still tripping? and that can last for a couple days or more sometimes lol. especially when smoking weed. But mushrooms just come down nice and easy after about 5 hours and you start to feel grounded back in this reality after. Feels much more like a completed trip rather than something that feels like its still going on maybe..? ANYWHO THANKS FOR WHOEVER TOOK THE TIME TO READ MY STORY LOL

Anyone else notice that weed gets mentioned so frequently in HPPD reports?

I've been suffering HPPD for 5 years. It's a real life changer. Time and therapy are big helpers. I've been "normal" for about a year until my most recent panic attack, it hasn't been THIS bad since 3 years ago. It feels like I'm going back to square one, but after a few more hours you start to feel more grounded. Mindfulness helps. Rationalizing your thoughts and symptoms helped me immensely. Talking to yourself out loud when you're trying to calm yourself down helps as well.

Time and complete abstinence will heal your mind.

Sounds like you did Nmobe. I took it twice thinking it was acid and it fried my brain like no other. Had depersonalization for 6 months, depression, increased social anxiety and still have trouble organizing my thoughts. That was 2 years ago and it’s getting better but I’ll never take LSD without testing it. I hope you’re getting better and take care of yourself 💙

I had an horrendous bad trip 48 years ago. A massively strong tab. Flashbacks for years, panic attacks, totally affected my life for the worse. Deja vu trip, time loop, realisation that I have done all this for infinity. Not good

I have very bad symptoms of HPPD, I did LSD 5 times in the space of two months, I get tracers, trees and plants look very alien and different than they used to, walls breathe and things move in the corner of my eye, I also get patterns that form over pretty much all surfaces if I look at them for longer than a few seconds and I was extremely anxious and depressed for months even suicidal. But I have recently overcome the anxiety and they no longer bother me at all. At the end of the day HPPD is just simply seeing things slightly different to other people YOU ARE NOT MENTAL. And it was coming to terms with this that enabled me to overcome my anxiety. For example how do I know that green in my eyes isn’t blue in yours? If you are struggling with HPPD out there just remember that you are not mental you just see things slightly differently to others and that does not mean that you can’t enjoy life just as much as other people. Keep yourself busy and overtime you will overcome this problem just like any other problem people have in their life. There are people out there that are colour blind or even blind and they would die just to see anything at all. From what I researched my symptoms of HPPD and they seem to be far worse then 99% of people, so if I can overcome it so can you! Hope this can help

I have hppd and schizophrenia all because I ate a handful of laced sugar cubes while drunk on new years eve 2012. It was only after eating them i found out it was LSD. Didn't even know much about LSD at that point being 17. My whole outlook and personality changed in a very negative depressed way. Its been a night mare. I'm against all meds and drugs , I was given a bezo for anxiety and after a week on them took a knife and stabbed chunks of flesh out of my thigh and stomach, so spend most of the day training. Chasing those moments of bliss and euphoria you get after intense exercise. I would do anything to rewind time and change that one night. Life's precious , its funny how in such a short about of time a life can be altered so dramatically. Reflecting on this reminded me of two close friends I had. One O.D on an opioid. I was told it was heroin but could have been fent . he was only 20 and had a baby son. The other was 18 was drunk and got chased by a group of thugs. He climbed up a tree and slipped . hit the ground hard and became a quadriplegic. You don't hear about these kind of things but just imagine how many extreme situations like these happen every day. Life is mysterious.

hey man, almost have had the same exact experience as you. same timeline, same symptoms, same anxiety. thanks for the video because it helps knowing I'm not alone.

i think it’s really brave of u to post ur story online. to hear ur story really helped me overcome some anxiety i’ve been facing when trying to deal with hppd myself. it’s good to know i’m not alone

I'm really grateful for these videos because I never did acid when I was younger, no drugs for a decade but I sometimes wonder. Videos like this show me psychedelics are not for me 👍

I took 4 tabs all at once and my vision hasnt been the same ever since, its not like its blurry but like little “static” colors around words and numbers on my phone it freaked me out at first but I managed to live with it.

I have HPPD as well. After my first LSD trip I had become very paranoid, occasionally see objects wave, the walls breath, and weed also made me feel like I was in an acid trip mentality. It was uncomfortable, a little frightening, and caused my anxiety to be hella uncontrollable but over time it became less intense. Recently I had another LSD trip that was a higher dose and didnt have intense HPPD after. Maybe its just because I got use to it but one difference between the trips is that the first trip I was focusing a lot on my issues but I completely ignored it during the trip and that caused some anxiety. The second trip was complete happiness and good vibes. So I feel like if you have negitive or "bad" trips you are more susceptible to HPPD. Also feel like not spacing out trips and doing multiple trips in a month can also cause HPPD. It's not fun when you have no idea what HPPD is but over time you heal from bad trips and it's all just a matter of having the right set and setting and testing your drugs.

I thought I had the same thing but over time it got a lot better. It helps to get a lot of sleep if possible. Sleep deprivation can cause intense hallucinations and panic attacks just as how you're describing

For the weed thing, that's not a symptom of HPPD but rather a symptom of taking LSD. It's not uncommon for people who have taken acid, especially in high doses, to experience weed differently and to have a different high. This is most likely due the way your brain uptakes THC and the way that THC is interpreted has chemically and physically changed as a result of taking LSD.

This happened to my best friend. Her first time taking "acid" I think it was an nbome. But it wasn't tested, I wasn't there either. They gave her 4 hits and she basically lost it for about 3 months. Would see flowers popping up behind dogs ears. Her walls would move. I remember one night we were at a party and she started crying and laughing.... almost like she had some profound break through she starts saying "magic is real". I had to take her home. A lot of our friends turned their backs on her bc they were scared and ignorant. I was there for her though and honestly I was worried too and pissed my friend didn't look out for her in the beginning. She's fine now but I really think she was given an nbome or some RC. Please everyone test your stuff and be safe. Xoxo

Hope you are ok in 2019. Your story is hard-hitting and so emotive.

Love how much this guy just misses weed

Hi I just noticed these symptoms after taking shrooms 3 times within the past 13 days. The first time I didn't take much so I just saw things move and felt comfortable, the 2nd and 3rd time I felt like I almost died as my body and mind was adjusting so it felt a bit traumatic. My friends helped me calm down so I enjoyed the com down, but now I'm always stressed when I see things move and the anxiety is making things worse

I've had hppd for over three years now. i got it from 25-I, I had a really bad trip and woke up the next day not feeling much better, the static was there, the floaters and after images were there, even when I closed my eyes it was different, I didn't feel like myself anymore. the first 6 months were a nightmare, I quit all drugs except for alcohol, and i drank myself to the point of black out almost every night to cope with it, than it started to improve, I felt a little more normal again and the visual symptoms weren't as strong. it went on like that for the next year and a half and by the 2 year mark I barely even noticed my hppd, only when I was in the dark really, but than a few months later I just woke up one day and it all came back, worse than it had ever been. the panic attacks were back, the visuals were stronger than ever, and now I had a loud ringing in my ears as well, it was horrible, I could barely make it through the work day without breaking down, I even had to quit MMA, which I was very passionate about. it's been a year sense than and it hasn't gotten any better, the anxiety has subsided for the most part but not completely and the visuals are still so strong I can barely function. the logical choice at this point is suicide, I kinda always figured that's how my life would end anyway, I survived two suicide attempts before I even had hppd, but now I'm sure about ending it. the thing is though, I'm not sure I have the courage, I aways thought I was brave but I guess I'm a coward when it comes down to it. one of these days I'll be brave enough to load up my 12 gauge and blow my brains out, but until than I'll be a living example. if you don't already have hppd, than don't fuck with psychedelics, your life is fine without them and it's not worth the risk, if you already have hppd and you've somehow found a way to live with it than good, I'm glad for you, but learn from your mistakes and don't ever fuck with psychedelics again, it's not worth the risk.

Don't worry man. I have exactly the same symptoms you have.It's been 6 months for me as well. And my symptoms are getting more intense like how you are experiencing it. It does affect many aspects of daily like and it makes simple things difficult. But I take it as a gift. I repeatedly took those hits of acid and it cannot be undone. It is a gift, my friend. Stay strong.

I have had it for 25 years pal, from LSD when i was 13. My first trip. I'm 39 now and i just deal with it. don't let it get ya down, its just a minor affliction although when you've had it for 25 years its easier to say because you become accustomed to it. I didn't touch psychedelics again until my uncle spiked me with mushroom brownies in my 20's. On a more positive note, i have had some of the most profoubd experiences of my life on iboga, dmt, psilocybin, kambo, bufo alvarius and Rapey.

I had extremely intense trips when i first started smoking weed. I was 14. I smoked a bowl with my friend before we went to the bus stop to go to school. We smoked it and then started walking to the bus stop. About 30 seconds after i start walking, i lose my fuckin mind. I completely forgot why i was walking and where i was, i felt like i weighed a million pounds and i was melting into the ground. I felt a very intense, awesome euphoria. My vision was very distorted. Everything was melting down, including me. I started twitching and rubbing my arms together. I arrive at the bus stop and i cannot stop laughing and rubbing my arms and hands together. My friends are laughing at me. I dont really remember the rest of the school day but i do know i never got caught. Anyone ever have weird experiences like this with weed?

Not sure what HPPD is, but between 79 to 94, I tripped about 400 times. I now have 23 years clean and sober but my memory is not as good as it use to be, have anxiety and my neck and back are deterating . Some one told me that lsd can impact your back. Back in July 88, I took 12 hits in two weeks and ended up in the first of three drug rehabilitation centers. At times, the lsd led me to being more suicidal

I got a bad case of HPPD in 2013 from perhaps 8 tabs dosed at about 150 iu each.. visual/audio hallucinations for 9 months more, it was very tough mentally.. i had a quarter of a tab a month later and it hit me like 5 would.. it was bad, for anyone reading this who is suffering from it please abstain from all substances, I beat it from abstinence and not going to deep in ideas and activities. It gets better, and it can completely go

I didn’t know this happened to anyone else. I feel so much better knowing I’m not the only one. I’ve gotten so many panic attacks just from smoking one blunt after dropping. It’s so hard to explain

This is real guys i go through what he does i suffer everyday. I smoked weed 8 times in my life. The first 7 times was great. The 8th time idk what it was i smoked out of a gravity bong and i tell u what. Weed is the only drug i did keep that in mind. 30 seconds after taking a hit it hit me. My whole body vibrating so intense i was hearing very high and low pitches and whispering as well as seeing very bright and dark skulls and all kinds of things. It was like i was paralyzed couldnt move anything on my body i thought i was gonna die. Ever since that happened 16 hours when it came down i was still high. Till this day i feel the high and visuallly see things but not majorly. I know your pain man it sucks. No matter who you tell no one is gonna believe you. It makes me wanna die sometimes because its hard man. Prayers for healings and forgiveness bless you man.

Notice how his pupils are dilated even when the lights are on

im so sorry that shit happened to you. freshman year of college something happened to me as a result of an LsD trip. I started meditating and that was a huge help. like much better trajectory life-wise and such. I dont notice anything now except maybe an aura around objects and people every now and again, but that never really bothered me anyhow. I will pray for you dude, keep growing.

Welcome to my world pal. Mine started exactly the same. 1 bad trip in 1995. Its now 2020 and my hppd is just as bad if not worse. I have hppd ongoing. I carnt look into people's eyes without freaking out or feeling a anxiety attack build up. Its changed how i interact with people almost to the point my personality has been taken over and erased. Such a debilitating condition that i wish i had heard off when i was 16 experiencing lsd. I carried on with other drugs, mdma been the main one and i always knew i tripped out far more than my friends. Once thst doorway has been opened you are permanently on a different level of consciousness forever

you'll be ok, dont smoke weed anymore, dont do drugs anymore, and get yourself fit running is best and snap out of it.

Man when i was 15-16 i used to do all types of research chemicals (25c-25i, N bombs, Fake molly) i did it all and let me tell you, i felt fried & had HPPD really bad, to the point where my mom even had a few psychiatric evaluations done on me, i kicked the drugs started eating right and going to the gym and i'm 21 now, been off the drugs since then and im feeling great it all clears up man just give it time.

I had hppd ever since I last taken it, it is like I am remembering the things I saw while on lsd.. Basically in the initial trip I saw the whole world made up literally of letters like literally strings of t's and f's and p's made up of smaller t's and f's and p's in that same infinite loop fractaling in on itself making up my reflection that is the world i see.. It is a reflection of my self. The whole universe was (braman) an infinite but singular consciousness that is shared by everyone but is everyone but fundamentally 'you' (me) in this one moment infinitely repeating forever.. It just repeats forever (death isn't a way out using this pattern) it won't ever stop, i had taken multiple tabs at the same time on multiple occasions leading up to this experience so i thought I could handle it but in this perticular time i took all at once two tabs of unknown strength tabs (but the guy said they were strong) and a drop off 125 ug liquid in my eye. And I was tripping so hard i was unable to see anything other than the taste of the music (I was experiencing full blown sinystisia that took the form of letters made up of letters made up of letters made up of infinitely fractaling letters) let alone walk. But after a while, after became coherent the ordeal had only just begun.. I had full blown telepathy with everyone i looked at or spoke to and i came to the conclusion I was them, not just them but the whole universe. And i was trying to teach my self a lesson by setting myself a test to face my deepest darkest fears (this was completely involuntary) I genuinely believed the projected version of myself had set up a situation where I was meant to be kidnapped and tortured (and this wasn't my friends messing around) I was scared so bad I seriously considered suicide by stabbing myself through the neck on a spiked fence when I ran away (I am not currently suicidal or ever was before this) but I stopped when I looked at the loop and realised death isn't a way out it just repeats forever I regained consciousness a short why later out of the lsd trance and made my way back to the rave. But after this I kept seeing the same letters (not as vivid) constantly and i had to go back to work after that experience and I felt so alone like i (you) was (are) the only person in the world. Even when I explained my experience to my friends who take a much higher doses than me have never seen these letters (please contact me if you have) but 4 years later i still see them out the corner of my eye and it's a smiling reflection of myself staring back at me infinitely.. Judging me. BE CAREFUL WITH ACID it is seriously not to be messed with, I was stupid and I could have messed my life up over that. But ended up teaching me the biggest lesson in the most unexpected way and it showed me god is closer than I previously thought ;)

I've tripped 9 times since last august but ever since my 8th I've had a mild degree of HPPD. That trip went horribly wrong after smoking a joint and I feel like the trauma i experienced and how frequent I was tripping is what triggered the HPPD. My symptoms are constant visual snow which is more intense in the dark. I do wonder how much it is effecting my anxiety and personality at the moment but I am hopeful that it will improve in time

I have no permanent effects from taking LSD (only twice, medium doses) but for past maybe 8 years since i haven't been able to smoke weed anymore without feeling like I'm coming up on an acid trip every time. It's to the point where I literally can't get high, i remember trying to just take a tiny, single puff on a joint, something that wouldn't even get me high, and within two minutes i was just in full blown disphoria. Interesting this has happened to others.

I would say to just use this time to work on yourself. Hit the gym, study, start a new job or hobby. Don’t drink or smoke at all.

Try learning an using Meditation and Mindfulness. Hope you stopped in time, before it was too late. I ended up homeless twice and three times in a drug rehabilitation. Have experienced everything you mentioned

i got hppd, and i always see tracers, light patters everywhere in plants, walls, etc. but i haven’t had it for too long, i’ve had it for like a month now, and i love hanging out with my friends, i wanna spend time with people everyday. and seeing more the visuals everytime i smoke weed is cool to me, i think it’s cool. but idk, maybe overtime i’ll start to get anxiety n shit like this dude said

Pray to God. Trust me. Ask him to heal you.

I took over 100 hit dose over a span of 6 months- 1 year and my hppd started up a week and a half ago and I’m tripping harder each day. It gets significantly worse each day around 5 pm, I sleep some of it off and wake up less than when I went to bed but more than the last morning, and it repeats, over and over and over and over again. Idk how I expect anyone to answer this as it’s not a question but I’m starting to loose track of myself. Back in the day I knew what I was doing. I did my research before taking lsd but each tab I took was 250 micrograms. At one time I took 40 of these tabs with 250 on each. Tripped for 2-3 weeks straight, if I had known I would be tripping like this a year later I would have killed myself then and there. But here I am. I’m just chillin n vibin, I have mood swings and sometimes I don’t know who I am but I’ve read enough about flashbacks and hppd to know that This isn’t the end of my life. I just need to work through this. Is there any advice? Anyone.

Im 14 and im 100% sure i have hppd i have constant visual snow, tracers,halos around things,lights staying behind and ive had this for about a month or so now and ive been struggling quite a lot. I think it started with cannabis and i did lsd and after that it was a lot more apparent. I did it for self growth and im a quite "spiritual" person. I used it to gain answers because i have felt lost through most of my life. I have a huge passion for psychedelics and i want to be a psychedelic researcher when im older and i want to continue to use psychedelics but i dont want this to get any worse. Some days it isnt as bad but some days it can be quite intense. I really just want it to die down but im starting to think it wont. Its not too bad atm but its very annoying and i have trouble concentrating in class. I have now quit cannabis and im gonna see if anything gets better. i try to keep a positive outlook on all this but its hard to carry the anxiety and depression a long with it. Ive suffered from depression since quite a young age. I just hope someone can tell me what i should do because i dont want to give up on psychedelics FOREVER but i would understand taking longer breaks between trips. I wish the best upon all of you.

You’re a shaman, our society has lost what it means to see all this shit, I don’t know what it means either, love you man

I took 300 micrograms of lsd and smoked weed the next day and had very intense psychedelic visuals. I was looking at my neighbors house from about 100 ft away and the walls started to have patterns emerge from them

The second tab should not have done anything, LSDs tolerance builds so fast that redosing does nothing

This happened to me after I mistook LSD 25i for real acid. I had the scariest day of my life complete with audio hallucinations and all, but not strong visuals, just distortions. I kept thinking it would never go away and that I would be stuck like that for life. For months after I had all of these symptoms and the last time I could say these symptoms really hit me were about 9 months after the initial experience. I didn’t do anything to make it go away but I thoroughly researched what was happening to me and maybe adjusted to the symptoms? Like you I would smoke weed and the HPPD symptoms would be magnified. As for the last time this happened to me I was smoking weed. To this day I still see trails and have the static vision but not much more and I continue to smoke weed to this day and the high is now back to the original weed high I fell in love with. I think the best thing you can do is let time pass and like me you will learn to live with it to the point I’m at now where it is hardly noticeable.

It’s been 4 years how you doing brother

I’ve had it for 14 years now it’s shamanic esoteric but it does make it hard in the challenges of every day life

I definitely have HPPD after hearing this, however I do think people can handle it at different levels, it’s like relearning human skills & I do believe HPPD is an affect of the brain’s neurological system changing after taking psychedelics. Its like a level up for people who passed the psychosis phase, the brain has a weird way of getting it’s ego back once it experienced something it can’t fully process. LSD is like running high end enterprise software that’s designed for servers on a desktop computer that can barely hold space.

Hppd = it is just a higher state of consciousness on which you have to find your way, integrate it into everyday life. Sometimes, if your mind isnt ready for such a experience, you get this "hppd"

This disorder is mysterious, and it's called,, perception,, for a reason. If you IGNORE IT, it can go away to some extent. It depends on wheather you perceive these visuals as beautiful or just mad scary, or not bothering at all. Those who take acid must be sure that they will like the madness that comes with it. It can be beautiful, but it's not for everyone.

Just enjoy it dude, its like any intense fear. It stays in your mind. For example if someone was once hit by a car on a certain road, whenever they cross that road they can have "flash backs" of that moment, creating panic or whatever. I had a similar thing (although I wouldn't call it HPPD because I just thoroughly enjoyed it) taking 25i, I got stuck in this time loop for ages, or at least what felt like ages and then too get out of the loop I ran outside and went to hop into a car, instead I looked at the car for a second and then became the car looking at myself, because it was just after this time loop, i thought I was dead. I thought the time loop was my soul still in my dead physical body experiencing the moment of my death over and over and me running outside was my spirit finally disconnecting from my physical. And then me seeing my body whilst taking the form of this car made me think I was now just consciousness, unseen by physical but always there like they say when you lose a loved one, "he's always with you now". But then I became my physical, felt my physical. Felt my physical a little too much because i then started to melt into the ground literally like I was liquid, I tried to walk/run like a river to the car, I got it. Thought about what had just happened, thought maybe the car is really an entity of some sort and then the car and mainly steering wheel came alive, I can't explain the monster/entity thing it became but I was in it and it tripped me out so hard. Then finally my friend hopped in the car, which was also weird because he was there for like 10min and I newly noticed he was there at least 30 times, like "woooahh how the fuck did you get there?" But repetitively. And then as I stopped thinking and allowed myself to simply be, all my fear stopped and I became god, like I became the moment, and only the moment, past and future weren't even an idea. I was everything, yet I was nothing. And then like 2 months later I started seeing weird we things, and then I smoked weed, went into a full on acid trip and understood that those weird we things were creation, were my experience, therefore they were me. And I learnt/taught myself that nothing exists other than now. Now is nothing. Now is infinite. Now is love. I am the experience. The physical body is simply a vehicle to experience. Kind of imagine being in a completely sense depriving room for eternity and after a while your brain starts to imagine, a while longer and your imagination is all you know, therefore it is real. What you are conditioned to believe controls the outcome of your experience. To free yourself, have no conditioning, no attachments, realize you are nothing, realize your identity is only imagined, it is an illusion that keeps you from realizing the infinity of the eternal moment. There is truly only now, this very moment. So anyway, enjoy your HPPD if you wanna call it that because it is now, therefore it is beautiful :) Also drugs will not get you there, they are simply a tool to give you a glimpse through the window. You yourself have to go through the door.

Its been a while since you posted this but I just want to say it feels amazing to know mi not alone dealing with this. I spent months convincing myself I had brain tumors, was going to go blind etc.. recently discovered HPPD and it described my symptoms to a tee. All I can say is it absolutely gets better, and we can all improve!

Yo for anyone taking lsd still, convince urself that u can’t remember anything to avoid this, and Same irl after to not get to that stage

Everybody! TEST YO DRUGS!

I had a friend take 6 once and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever seen. He was cussing everyone out, screaming at the top of his lungs. He came out of it after about 5 hours and felt great but 6 tabs… I can’t imagine

thats too bad man. i feel so lucky to have always had the dose i ordered. if i had been given a 300-400 ug dose my first time i would have never done it again.

thanks for sharing your story! my hppd developed 6 months ago after i graduated as well. got it from 2-cb. i really feel you.. wishing the best :) greetings from germany

I think I have this too? I'm of the opinion that once you take a real acid trip you're kind of 'through the door.' That's how it was always explained to me by my elders. So I was always kind of ready for it, and content w it. I was given to certain patterned visions in my youth so its always been like home for me.

I have hppd and find it quite neat and feel it should be a lesson, if it leaves you uncomfortable. Then you weren't practicing harm reduction, and for sure weren't doing any shadow work. Also may I propose my theory that these give access to the other side. The visuals tripping or not, help me get into my headspace and evaluate myself and outside world. Weed is more psychedelic after classical pyschedelics, this imo is bc you have a better reference point for psychedelics. All honesty ik everyone is different but if you can truly heal your innerself you can find acceptance with it or like most suggest just go cold turkey on any mind altering substance.

When I was 18 and done 5 dried grams of shrooms alone in silent darkness (heroic dose) i had a 5 hour long panic attack and thought I died, it caused me ptsd, panic disorder, severe anxiety, depersonalization, dissociation. I wasn't able to smoke weed anymore because it was giving me panic attacks and I was a full on stoner for 2 years at that point. I then became a full blown alcoholic shortly after the experience for about 5 years which left me with health problems. Now days have to be put on benzo medications because of panic attacks everyday. Don't fuck with high dose psychs. I've done 1 gram of shrooms and it was fun as fuck, i really didn't know what I was getting myself into taking 5 grams.

I tired LSD once about 3 months ago now.. it was the WORST experience of my entire life I used to smoke pot every day I smoked again for the first time in 5 or so months and I can’t smoke anymore I feel so bad when I smoke and go into a full on anxiety attack.. but I’m on medication now and I feel 100% better. YOU will get better.

I got these exact same symptoms from a modest dose of mushrooms and it’s been 20 months since with HPPD. I had done LSD and psilocybin mushrooms many times before.

Oh man, I'm sorry to hear about your story. I know it's too late to say this now, but maybe it'll help someone else who might read my comment: For instances like these it's really important to have a benzo on hand. Something like clonazepam (klonopin), diazepam (Valium) or alprazolam (xanax). Xanax is probably the best one for this since it acts the fastest. Seriously why risk HPPD or perhaps psychosis or PTSD when you could just take a tablet to make it all go away. Plus, benzos are safe as long as they aren't abused/used for a prolonged period of time or mixed with other cns depressants.

He talks about it like its an STD. 😕

I actually enjoyed HPPD and I even wanted to provoke it to myself to have permanent LSD-like hallucinations (I didn't know at the time that there was a term for that) I was able to for some time. I was able to distort things with concentration and change the colours of the things. I loved LSD. I had breakdowns on it too from missuse. I was 16 at the time and there was not a lot of information on the internet as there is now or fellow users or I guess it just wasn't mainstream so I did it by myself all of the weekends and smoked weed and listened to Timothy Leary. Good times. I was never able to hold the HPPD for more than a month and I had to use LSD again or smoke weed to reactive it, I don't think it's a serious or permanent issue and people that is scared of it is just thinking too much

My first trip I remember afterwards weed being a lot more different and trippier. And I’m not sure why but lsd had me feeling brain fried for a bit. I couldn’t smoke weed either for 4 months because the highs would be too strong and I’d see tracers a lot. But after 6 months it was like something clicked back on and I was back to my regular smoking habits. I think I went thru some hppd but never consulted a doctor, but definitely remember it being a lot worse right after my trip and then calming down as months went by. But I’d smoke half a bowl and get nervous of the feeling coming over and then see some lines moving. For me lsd creates that after anxiety but shrooms doesn’t and the flashbacks come more from my acid trips than shrooms. So I think there’s something ab the way acid works that gives people more hallucinations from weed after tripping. I do think that lsd is something that changes you a lot more than most other drugs, but that’s no reason to be scared of it creating permanent damage to your brain. But I will say that after taking lsd youll be able to imagine things more vividly in your head, like a movie projector. And I’ve always thought that was a benefit

I don't have a bad case of HPPD, it usually only gets triggered when I'm really stressed. I will see things move at the corner of my eye, the ground will breathe, one time I thought an electric box was a person running down a hill. I'm glad I don't have a bad case.

A VERY reoccurring theme in my trips are- “Man, these tabs aint hittin for shit.” Then I’d presume to down 1-2 more tabs. I always trip pretty heavily and consistently without repercussions (Aside from an absolutely fucking wrecked sleep schedule and HPPD, which doesn’t bother me, really) And then 30 minutes would go by and I’d boost my way back into the nexus, lol. My last trip was 1000 ugs and my heart still pounds thinking about it, lol. My first ever complete and utter DEATH lmao. I admit im still coming to terms in my head of what happened, and it has impacted my life. But the personal growth I feel brewing in myself is unreal. I had no idea what I was looking for in Lucy, but it found me instead. Take the adequate time between trips, let your mental and body heal, and push good vibes friends. :) You don’t have to even trip heavy to reach those points, so be considerate and careful. Much love all :)

so you're telling me if i get HPPD I get a free trip everytime i smoke? sign me up please

Took 5 tabs of lsd one night. Ended up being a "bad trip" cause my friend began to freak out. Wasn't terrible tho, still somewhat enjoyed myself. Ever since, every time I smoke weed, its exactly as you said. Mentally I feel like im tripping. Way too spaced out while over thinking, sweating, and low-key panicking. Ive noticed that I comprehend things differently now, its hard to explain it. I guess one way to put it is, even when im stone cold sober, it doesn't feel that way. I dont feel fucked up or anything, things just don't feel right.

And thats why i love the after effects of taking lots of acid is that when I smoke weed its much more psychedelia

His pupils seem like they’re stuck in the size of someone who’s tripping

i know EXACTLY what you mean when you talk about the weed high feeling like a trip with the way your mind is. it’s weird i experience the mental side of hppd as far as the mindset goes but i don’t see visuals really ever.

My eyes were stuck dialated like yours after jell tabs wen I was a kid every morning I was literally running to my bathroom to see if my eyes were normal ...I was still chillin smoking weed w friends but I knew I was off. like 7 days later I looked n saw myself I remember it like yesterday just looking in the mirror so happy like there I am. Thank u god. That was the last time I took acid. I’ve took mushrooms since after but that’s it. Stick w natural substances. N if your gonna definitely have your crew n a safe house u can go to or do it wile watching a firework show or a camp fire w music. Or wen it’s snowing ❄️ have .. definitely the best experiences from my past.

Dude I feel you, I went through the same thing as well! I had to finish my remaining junior year and entire senior Year like this I hope you’re doing okay now bruv

reason why I won't take psychedelics. Also I have been interned in hospital for a month for psychosis because of weed

It's been over 12 years since I dropped acid. I can still see light static and spinning fingerprint like formations when I stare deeply into objects. I regret taking LSD, but don't regret taking psilocybin. It's best sticking to natural psychedelics.

I didnt have normal psychadelic hallucinations but when i smoke i full on trip man. Its nice to hear a story from someone else.

Husbands taken 7-9 tabs multiple times over the years and never got HPPD and he’s taken double dipped too.

I accidently took too much my first time and struggled with hppd after just one trip. 35 yo m here who has dropped a handful of times but probably only twice in the last 10 years. anyways yea it was pretty bad and getting in the way of life after that first trip for like 6 months or so. It gets easier and more manageable the less you trip. I can smoke weed again and enjoy it. Whatever is left of hppd I embrace, I am not sure if it will ever completely go away. I don't dislike it now that I have learned to manage it.

Thanks for sharing man! I had hppd for years! I didn't know I had it until I heard about hppd. I thought I was just more creative hahahah it's not that bad. Focus on the positive and take care of your self. No more drugs

ive probably done about 4000 ugs of lsd over the span of a year and this is so fucking relatable especially abhout weed making me trip, except the first few weeks the visuals were a lot more intense than hes describing, i would get the spiraling "boxes" in the center of my vison while dead sober and when i smoked weed i would just loose my mind, complete trip i would trip harder than ive ever tripped in my life, its awful

Also a bad idea to combine weed with acid. I’ve watched several videos and read several blogs about bad trips. What they all have in common is combining *weed and lsd* in the same trip or not too long after.

Wow man I just looked up this topic and it hits differently when it's someone you know.

Damn, I've done LSD about 20 times, since I was 17 years old. I am 19 now. I sometimes get HPPD especially if I stare into space for a few seconds or minutes. Its like everything just goes 'flat'. I kind of just accept it, I don't let it bother me, in fact I do it on purpose sometimes just to remind me what tripping is like. The bit about weed feeling different is true though, except after I've taken a year off acid, weed feels like weed is supposed to feel again. Also, weed or THC is psychoactive, and unfortunately if you smoke weed in a place where it is illegal you're going to be getting really 'potent' bud with 20%+ THC and around 1%CBD which is the compound that counters the psychoactive effect and makes you feel 'chill'. So that is probably why you end up tripping when you smoke, because this happened to me also. I don't smoke that much weed, or take anywhere near the amount of acid, albeit I am tripping again soon.

I can’t even smoke weed anymore I don’t get the happy chill feeling when I’m high now, just feel super anxious and not safe

I got this 4 months ago and you can control it to some extent but it takes a lot of effort. First month was the worst, I swear I wanted to end it.

I had visual static from dph, but lsd never affected visual hppd for me, my last trip tho (4 mo ago) has given me crippling anxiety.. it's going away but very very slowly.

most of the time when some one lsd it is not pure lsd and is is partially chemicals, sometimes they aren't even lsd and are research chemicals, I took some pure liquid lsd-25 and it was roughly around 1500 micro doses, and it didnt affect me. acid is not for everyone and should not be taken for purely fun, now I know some people who have gotten permanent symptoms through gell tabs, and lsd blotters, I feel really bad for you, and I wish you luck in life. just be safe and cautious, again acid is not for everyone, if you have preexisting medical conditions you should not be doing it, again I hope you have luck in success in life and hope it gets better for you. :/

still suffering here 8months on not as bad but becuase it strikes randomly Im scared to get a new job, or go outside to do anything , or meet my friends that I used to trip with, i feel like when i see their faces it triggers it, or when I'm in a certain place.... Ill start hearing a slight rumbling almost and then I'll just feel generally uneasy, anxious and i start pacing around panicking

I've had kinda similar experience with LSD and weed: used it less than 10 times, had a very bad trip one night e slowly not being able to smoke anymore cause it made me trip balls each time. Also developed a panic attack disease within few weeks. Not a sign of hppd, tough. But it changed my life definitely, wasn't ready for it and had to quit smoking and drinking. Actually right now I bless that experience cause it freed me from being a fucking addict. Before that I was into pot for more than 10 years, smoking an average of 6 to 10 joints daily. Now recently I tried to smoke again, I still fucking lose my mind but I know the substance and can dose it in a manner in which I actually enjoy it. But I'm gonna do that veeeery sporadically.

I've had HPPD for the past 6 months also, but its quite different for me and not as distracting. Its made me very anxious for a couple of months after the trip but I've since then accepted it as a part of my daily life. I took lsd, it was my 5th trip and i took 3/4 of a tab however this tab was hella strong. I've previously taken 1/4 of the same tab to test the dosage cause it was apparently 200mcg but I had a trip a little stronger than a 100mcg tab from that quarter of a tab. So I decided I was gonna have a strong trip and both me and my friend took around the same dose(i took the rest 3/4 but my friend took a little less im not sure how much), the trip was overwhelming and I had noticeable visuals 20 hours in after which I could finally fall asleep. After the trip my vision was overly colorful and had an effect similar to a very strong contrast filter(still to this day when I look at text on a white background it seems as tho the text is extremely clear and floating above the surface completely separated from its background), also my visual snow and auras which I had for as long as I can remember intensified, it's probably for that reason that it wasn't so distracting as I hear people say it is for them because I've already lived with visual snow and auras for many years. A thing that disturbed me the most is that whenever I looked at myself in the mirror I wouldn't have a sense of "that person in the mirror is me", I knew it was me but it felt like I was looking at a stranger seeing myself out of a 3rd person view(I think this is because I had experienced ego death on the trip). Thankfully that has gone better over the months and now I can recognise myself in the mirror, the other effects are still here but I'm managing through them fine. I don't have any advice other than don't up your usual dose by too much, I still don't regret doing it, I regret doing such a high dose tho because I definitely wasn't mentally prepared for it.

Hey i’m sincerely asking not trying to self diagnose before i’m sure but watching this i broke down so much all do the things you were explaining i could relate to from how many tabs you dropped to you’re reaction to smoking the only thing is i haven’t had too many visuals i just started noticing weird things and got scared because i dropped 2 tabs by myself and had a terrible trip and at first i was okay but later i peed my pants and i couldn’t see anything that was real the visuals were the only real thing in my head and i just want to know if you think if these are early signs or i’m just paranoid??

A trip sitter that can still be helpful while they’re tripping is a good trip sitter

I thought about if I could go back in time what would I do. My parents were messed up so its not surprising I was self medicating. Being older and free from them and other toxic people and meditating and doing yoga and good therapy has at least put my life in a much better place. Its all a journey in a pretty tough world.

I am doing my research before dropping acid for the first time and to be honest it seems that it would be worth it to experience a trip even at the risk of hppd.

Sorry to hear about this dude. I hope you get better

Something I notice is that most (or all) people who got hppd got it because they didn't make breaks for their brain to get back to normal states. ALl of the reports semmed to have smoked weed alot and used psychedelics also frequently. I myself got some psycological problems because of mdma, but also only after taking it way to often for few months.

weed amplifies acid. you shouldn't smoke before the peak unless you're looking to get floored. also, its a steady couple hour climb to your peak

Have had HPPD for the last 5 years... I have this fucked up pressure behind my eyes and the sides of my head that never goes away. I don’t know what to do :(