I Can’t go Home - My Origin Story 

Your able to live your life. We all have bad memories. Don't let them control you.

Boogie I grew up in SW Virginia and I can tell you that construction is coming in the Wise county direction in the next decade or decade and a half. The value for that lot the way it sits will easily go up times 5 or more by the time you retire. Pay the property tax yearly, let it sit, and it will be a great retirement for you. Don't be rushed or eager to sell please.

Theres always a sense of sadness and nostalgia when revisiting places from our childhood. Time marches on, we grow and move on but we always remember where we came from.

I'm so sorry Boogie that your true biological original home looks like if you truly heartbroken but you have a new home in a new life you need to live in that life well

Man i remember watching this on storyfire back in the day, after years of your stories it was interesting putting actual visuals to it

not the house fault it was the people in it that made it that way.

I can appreciate why you feel the way you feel, but it was never the place mate, it was the monsters that lived in it.

I love this kind of content Boogie. I really enjoyed the last time you uploaded content of your home town.

As a former employee of Red Onion State Prison, I would never worry about an inmate escaping. But I understand not wanting to be close to that hell hole in general. Depending on the acreage of your property you could sell it decently easy if you're just wanting a fair price, considering land and housing prices are sky high everywhere right now.

Wow, i remember when you came back here a few years ago. It was toigh to watch. Glad youre doing okay though, Boogie

It's funny to me that he lives in Arkansas but his southern accent only comes out when he goes to Virginia

Glad your doing better!

I am so sorry for all your childhood trauma. 😢

Everything changed when you did the psychedelics. That is the nature of things. I am proud of you boogie. "When we get older we become the people we should have always been."-david bowie

My old childhood homes have good nostalgic memories. Im very blessed. But i never go back, dont go visit them, dont want to. Because you see, i want to remember them in my heart and memories. To go back and see my grandparent's home upgraded and modernized. No thank you. The memories are sweet and that home still exists there. Boogie, your old family home will molder and collapse and be no more. But the trees will still stand tall and proud. Like you. And someone can make new happy times there.

Been a fan for years Boogie. Since 2008. I know that revisiting is hard to do at times. But it's really a blessing in disguise to see how far you have come over the years. Their is people that do love love you and your content. You help me out with your videos when I'm depressed. Thank you for that. Know your worth. You are loved.

Time heals what it cant decay. Love ya Boogs!

that far away gaze as he looks at the house as if he's lost in memory.. not great memories.. truly haunting...

Sometimes the thing you can’t stand is something you’ll miss when it’s gone. For example, I grew up with a house near a set of train tracks. Every night a train would come by and it would keep me up when I was trying to go to sleep. Fast forward until I was about 17 we moved to another state. No train track, no train, no noise. I had trouble falling asleep for months. I missed it. Point being is make sure you really want to get rid of it before you do.

Great video Steven, I hope you can get some closure around this house & the memories that haunt it. Nature seems to be helping in taking over & breaking it down. Keep your head up my man, you've come a long way, you got this.

That’s scary to think of a house being close to a security prison.

Man it's been a long time I remember you and Jesse taking a trip to Virginia and looking at your past it's amazing it hasn't really changed but thank you for sharing your personal life experience and I really appreciate it. 🙏❤️🏆

You being able to move on from it and letting it go, something you weren't able to do before could be a sign that you're in a better place today than you have been before.

Someone is hiding in there, bro

I remember you filming breakfast with your mom in that house.

I am SO happy to see you being raw & real, Online, man!! As always, too! 😁🙏❤️‍🩹 & After seeing you do this for YEARS & YEARS!!! It is a big part of how I, myself! Have been able to share my own Journey, through Life, with things like my own experience, with having Brain Cancer!! Please, keep up the great Work! And as always!! 🫂❤️‍🩹😁 Thanks so much for sharing these with us, Boogie!! ♥️🙏❤️‍🩹 You are an absolute inspiration!! 🫂❤️‍🩹😁 & I love you so much!! ♥️

I'm excited for Halloween 🎃

I wonder how the other house is holding up, the smaller one with the one bedroom.

I am so happy that your updated origin story is finally here. I have many memories of myself in the town of St. Paul and seeing all of the places you were at that I was at myself too this summer during the 4th of July is awesome. I drove around the town in a golf cart, swam in the pool, and saw some Celtic music at the Lyric Theatre.

that no trespass sign is about your property boogie, not the land in front of it, that's how signs work, they're usually placed in front of the place you shouldn't go.

Wow Boogie, no idea you grew up so close to where my family live. I probably saw you around when I was a kid roaming around those mountains lol. Sorry you have not so great memories there though. I do know that that area has a lot of construction coming soonish. So maybe it'll sell for more later down the road? If that's your prerogative. Wish you the best of luck, brother.

I’m just in shock that the house is still there after all this time.

boogie there are youtubers that make their content from doing landscaping makeovers such as @Al Bladez , THATS CONTENT!!!

It's sad how basically everyone in the family of that home was miserable. I wouldn't wanna let go of it too if it was a family home. But somethings are better off let go You're content is amazing, you're a W boogie.

I noticed on both this video and the one from a few years ago, Boogie’s southern accent comes out a lot more when around that house.

Worked at the Red Onion many times. It’s crazy to think that I’ve watched you since I was a kid. And I’ve passed by where you used to live, while going to do work up there. From TN

It’s so much nicer to see this knowing that someone who actually cares about you is with you this time unlike the last trip with Jessie

I think it makes sense that a security guard wouldn't want it because if an inmate were aware, they'd probably TARGET the guards first.

Sometimes it’s good to see where you started to appreciate where you ended up. you may not always believe it Steven but you are successful. You have a beautiful home, fans who love you and a girlfriend who adores you.

I'm glad you went back again to take a final look, might be a moment of rehabilitation for you Boogie, I wish you well dude.

I live close to this area crazy that Boogie lived near here and is now such a success its really inspiring

He has a great head of hair for being 50 there I said something nice

That’s a lot of memories there. Love this kind of content video. I really enjoy it the last time I watched it. Awesome video Boogie! ❤

Boogie that no trespassing sign was for your property no your neighbors. Behind the sign is what is posted. Just so ya know

Wise decesion to sell it now, you won't ever see prices like this for the remainder of your life. Sell it, bury your memories and let it go

Cool video man! Cant fight the demons if we dont face them 😊. Stay strong, brother!

Im proud of you boogie, this is a big step to maybe one day being healed. You have moved on, your happy, healthier then before and letting go of this place of pain for you. Keep on moving forward!

Greetings From Belarus , love you Francis ^^

Pretty big piece of land. I think you should have it surveyed before sale.

It’s really crazy to me, as someone now trapped in a country with far more limited land access and - honestly - land rights due to the British upper class stealing it, then selling it off to support their lifestyles (not that I’m bitter), to see a family house literally overgrown, and someone talking about owning what to me are unimaginable tracts of land. It… really puts things into perspective. Here in the UK, that land would sell for serious dollars, assuming it still had outstanding residential zoning, and a property the size of the average US home would be worth an easy quarter to half a million pounds - more if it was in the south east. If we translate and assume it’s in a deprived area like the north east or west of England, then it’s still likely hundreds of thousands of dollars in land value alone. Most of us are trapped into renting, my partner and I only just managed to scrape owning our property, and are trapped in a subsistence existence to continue owning it. To imagine a family would let such a huge piece of land rusticate- well, I know it does happen, but it feels almost outrageous and tragic to my mind. Which really goes to show, you can’t go home :- I can’t because all my homes after my first were either rented or were church-owned property (something which really annoys me now my mother is lucky to have a small communal flat, what precisely is the church doing to care for her?) and that first home was, at last glance, with over seven times what we sold it for, at a cool 3/4 of a million pounds.

Remember watching the origin story in 2019, still go back to it and watch it from time to time.

Love you Boogie! Keep on trucking! 👍🏻😁

"Holding a cat like im bout to eat it" Shows a cat and young boog that is heart touching* I can hear the pain. I know that pain. I love you very much ❤ n ill see you in the next video

I quite liked this video Steve

There’s lots of things you can do with land, so much you don’t even know what 😂 You got this bro, lots of people wish they had land but don’t - you are in position to make your dreams come true!

I’m glad you went alone this time. In your origins story video with Jesse a few years ago I feel like Jesse was being so disrespectful not realizing that not everyone was lucky enough to grow up with the same luxuries that he grew up with.

Boogie, I know you said you were going to do videos in front of the camera again, but these videos are so much better. Love the content you've been pumping out lately. Keep it up!

Love It Dessy And Steven Boogie2988 Guys.

Honestly man, I think it would do you some good to have that house torn down yourself and then maybe put something else there and then sell it if you decide you still don't want it after. But I really think that doing something with it yourself, would bring a sense of closure on it.

I volunteer to come renovate an restore 🍻 mainly, I just want the land 😂😂

It's funny the glasses you were wearing in the picture when you were 8, remind me so much of the ones you were wearing when you were at CVC. It just makes my heart glad that things turned out so well for you. College was so much less fun when you moved out of Crockett hall.

I buy that for a dollar! Good to see you are letting go and moving on Boogie!

This is super cool information man!

Thank you for sharing this. I'm not entertained by it... It makes me feel like I know you that much more. You are a very good, very cool person. You might hear that and think about some very not good, or very not cool things you've done... but I've never seen you shy away from your humanity. Both for you, and for others, and how you think about life experiences. You know part of humanity is accepting that no human is perfect. In your last video, you said (or alluded to) that your journey these last few years were loaded with mistakes on how you ran the channel. I think a lot of what you said you did wrong, was actually right. The Francis sketches aren't my thing, Talking about random shit like games and what not are entertaining enough. But when you wanted to talk about an issue, I respected your take. You didn't need to have answers. You would just give me things to think about, or to chew on, as they say. And when you got personal I respected it. I didn't pity you, I didn't get angry at you, I wasn't entertained by you. I just respected you. Your experiences kinda became my experiences. You taught, and I learned, about life from a character worth respecting. Your character. You. (Not Francis... You, a man of great character)

I appreciate you being real with the ending about how you enjoyed the tree and outside cookouts. I understand what you mean about the house though

Now is the time to sell that land. You'll probably get well over $30,000 right now. The market is crazy.

Looks like it could hopefully be a nice woodsy retreat for someone oneday

One of the ways that you could deal with it is fight tooth and nail to get every penny possible to rip everything out except the tree. While it may "look" desolate decrepit and abandoned it is "still" a present sign of the events that happened there. But this the opinion of random person, ask your relatives and therapists if you really want. Keep it going man, one step at a time, don't try to go for the goal in one leap.

1:38 Fantastic line delivery there lol, I thought you were going to say hug it

The only thing left to do is get behind the controls of a bulldozer. It's like an ending to a slasher flick, when you bury the monster and it's finally over.

1:49 Kid Boogie suffered from nerd glasses syndrome. That explains everything.

Thank you for sharing, Boogie. This is difficult but necessary to go back and see how far you’ve come.

Bless you my friend you made it this far

After watching you all this time this is the most powerful video you have ever made. Cheers to those that made it this far. This is the point when boogies content is getting really good.

The bird in the background is refreshing. I wish the house wasn’t so wasted for you

I can understand how you feel seeing your childhood home in disrepair, with all the trauma that went on there. On the other hand it really upsets me to see homes abandoned and in disrepair when there are so many who need homes. Much love to you Boogie.

You know what would be a great video? Fixing this house up! Possible donating it to a less fortunate person or relative in need of a home, would be one of the best feelings of closure you can get - like moving on from a passed loved one

Love this content. It's very genuine.

Cool video man. Personally I like these vlogging style videos where you at out of the house. Maybe you could post some physical training style videos?

Your country comes out in your voice Boogie when you’re back home

I can’t imagine the feelings you had while there, Boogie. Have you considered being the one to bulldoze the house?

Good that you at least had some happy memories out in the backyard under that tree👍

I would buy it but it is really far from my family. A beautiful cabain would be nice after living my whole life in the city. It is a beautiful place. Of course it definitely changes when you have intense, sad memories attached to the place. But for some other person apart from Boogie, it seems like the perfect place to rest, play with your dogs and your kids while your lovely wife laughs and the ribs are slowly getting smoked.

I remember the story fire post you made back a little while back and I also remember watching your video of you going through your high school and through your old house and I just felt like I wanted to send you all the love in the world and I also want to say I'm srry for what you been through but keep your head up man I believe in you and I believe God has put you on this earth to entertain people and help people who are going or who have been through depressing times in there life and there were times when I wasn't sure if I was going to make it through the night but I would watch you and feel better about myself and I was like if boogie could survive through the pain and still be here so can I so thanks boogie from the bottom of my heart I want to think you for helping me out of the hard times in my life much love man keep doing u and keep your head up love u bro and I hope you have a fantastic day ❤❤❤

Good luck with that property I would say if your really serious about selling that property get with a realtor they will get you maximum dollar for it everything right now is still way up so it’s definitely a good time to part ways with it…👍👍👍

Wow you can't even hardly see the place... last time it wasn't even a big deal to get to the door... not a bad way to have closure.

Hit me in the feels with this one.

nice to know that you've somewhat moved on. you could either fix up the house and sell it, or, demolish everything and sell just the land! either way moar money!

Wow I can’t believe land is so cheap in the US. That place would probably sell for $1,000,000 in Australia.

liked this video better when you and jesse did it together. now that it’s cut up it’s not the same.

Reminds me of my early urban explorations. I remember the other video of you going here.

I wonder if the neighbor ever ended up reaching out after that Storyfire video.

Is this a reupload? I remember seeing when Boogie came back here a few years ago. Or is this new? Good luck to you Boogie!

I'd love to revisit my first home would be such a crazy experience if I could go inside

I don't know why, but i love these videos

Folks rarely if ever escape maximum security. That security guard was an idiot

Love you boogie. Hope you’re happy and doing well! Been watching you for at least a decade.

Do you have some kind of closure now? You have some kind of peace and Harmony

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Maybe walking back into that place and facing all your feelings can be a way of letting go. Always remember, forgiveness isn't for them. It's for you. You can't face that alone, Desi will definitely have to be there with you, but I have been there where I had to do this in order to be free. You have to be as open as possible. Take a deep breath and say, I forgive you. The stress and anxiety and your inability to feel emotionally demands that Boogie. It's definitely opening a horrible wound, but sometimes a good bleed, metaphorically speaking, drains the poison/infection, and the proper healing will begin. And before long, it's just an old scar/story that's now a stepping stone to how you overcame what had you tied down for so long. You deserve to be free. Desi deserves to know you, the you that a free you can be. Maybe I'm just rambling, but I've had it work for me. I'm not just talking out of my head here. Just a suggestion from experience. Much love, my guy.