I Had A Miscarriage // Our Story, Recovery & Coping

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This was one of the hardest videos I have even made. It took me a bit of time to wrap my head around the fact that we had a miscarriage this month.
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To make a long story short at just about 9 weeks gestation… we lost our baby having a miscarriage. I knew what was happening, and the worst part was knowing it was 100% out of my control. I was losing the tiny heart that was beating inside me...that we saw beating just last week. We were losing a future with this little life...all of the dreams we had for this little soul inside me. We called the doctor & the soonest appointment was the next day. The Ultrasound confirmed & the grief had completely taken over. It comes in waves. I feel...numb ...empty ...sad ...guilty ...confused.
And then I look at Cole & through this experience, I have Thanked God more than you know for how blessed we were to have a healthy pregnancy & a thriving little boy to hold tightly in our arms. But that aside… you just don't know how it feels, unless you are a part of this absolutely dreadful, worst club in the world.
The biggest thing that is helping me through this is reading other women's stories. I can’t even find the words to correctly say how I feel, but reading how others feel, agreeing & trying to tell myself that I’m not crazy & sharing this here right now…This is me trying to cope. And Thank you to everyone for being my support system.
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@baleyurias3406 3 года назад

I’m currently going through a miscarriage today and you just help me so much. Thank you so much for sharing your story you’re a blessing ❤️.

@morganaveryco 27 дней назад

The part where you tell women to GRIEVE and what a huge loss this is, to let people in to support you, to prioritize your grief and give it space, call out of work sick, whatever you have to do. YES

@ashelydiaz2083 4 года назад

Idk if this will help anyone but if it's one thing I learned from miscarriage is that it wasnt meant to be when you miscarry. That could be fate or the child would haven't lived normally due to chromosomal abnormalities. It hurt me when I got pregnant for the first time and I miscarried, I thought there was no hope for pregnancy after that. Cause i tried for a year and there was nothing. This year March I got pregnant and thought i would miscarry and had no hope in the pregnancy but look at me now. I'm 30 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby girl. All you could ever do is trust you body and trust God and let your life take its course. I hope this helps someone. I hope you know that there IS hope and that's even regardless of what the doctors say. Have a blessed day.

@meganfetzer3357 4 года назад

I am so sorry for your loss, it is the worst feeling in the world. There is a life after the loss though, my rainbow baby will be a year old in October. Heal in your own time, hold your little guy tight, and love on him and the rest of your family. I was a wreck for such a long time and hearing other people's stories helped so much and helped me realize my feelings were valid. Sending love your way!

@estephanycuevas4737 4 года назад

Currently crying my eyes out, I recently miscarried at 10 weeks. I’m scared to try to conceive again. I feel responsible and don’t know what to do. I feel alone because I have no one to talk to about this.

@timothymason5251 4 года назад

My wife and I had 4 miscarriages during a 3 year span. Now my wife and I are having a first in feb 2020. 21 weeks along. Keep your head up and be strong as hard as it is. Feel for you.

@esmeraldak8984 4 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss, Heather. Thank you for sharing your story. I’ll be praying for your rainbow baby 🌈

@ebbflowvideography9585 4 года назад

I’m so sorry you went through this, I lost my first baby this past January at 7 weeks right before my birthday, I also decided to be open about it. I’m so thankful you decided to share this with us, loss can be so lonely even when you not alone. I had so many people reach out to me during my time to share their story and your story will also help so many others. I’m currently 5 weeks, now and I joined a support group in my area to help cope with pregnancy after loss because its so hard to not live in fear. I hope your heart heals and you are such an amazing momma.

@lindseymilliron8151 4 года назад

This video along with your previous pregnancy updates has certainly helped me. I experienced a missed miscarriage last December, had a D&c and then march of this year found out we were pregnant with our rainbow baby who will be here Christmas this year. I can tell you it takes effort every single day to fight through those fears and emotions and be excited. So each week I progress I watch the update for that week, you help me find the excitement through those videos and look forward to the coming weeks of pregnancy rather than what can go wrong and fear. Your angel baby will never be forgotten and I cant wait to hear and follow your rainbow baby when the time comes! lots of love and baby dust! xoxo

@stephaniemueller9860 4 года назад

I am so sorry to hear this! You are absolutely right, until I started talking about my miscarriage I felt so alone. Researching online, and talking with other women (who in turn shared their miscarriage stories) helped me so much. Its not talked about, and I love that you are doing this to help other women! Hang in there, I'll be praying for you and your family. Also, know that if you choose to continue growing your family that its possible to have a healthy pregnancy again. My husband and I are 29 weeks pregnant with our rainbow baby, and while it's been tough to believe this pregnancy will turn out healthy, you just have to take one day at a time. God bless you and your family!

@olivia-in-progress17 3 года назад

Wow, thanks for sharing your whole story. I just went through a miscarriage and uploaded my symptoms and feelings on this. I know nothing can wipe away the pain but just talking about it on camera and sharing it is like a weight off my shoulder and I feel a bit better with all the encouragement and support. I hope you are healing well physically and emotionally

@2old4u 4 года назад

Straight to the heart. What a hard video to share. Sorry it happened to you. Sorry for your husband who also had no control over the situation. You are a beautiful family. Take strength in each other.

@cheyanneward5539 4 года назад

Sorry for your loss. I had a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks 2 years ago and had to get surgery, it was horrible. You'll get through this horrible time. Sending love and healing vibes. Take time and care for yourself and your mental health. You can also log a loss on most pregnancy apps and it helped me a lot to cope. 💕🌸

@stephaniegigante4720 4 года назад

Hugs, positive vibes and love to you. I had 3 miscarriages over the last 2 years and felt completely hopeless. I never thought I was going to be a mom. I’m now half way through my healthy pregnancy. I’ve been watching your videos every time I turned a new week. I even fast forwarded ahead to your c section video a couple of weeks ago and cried my eyes out because it was so beautiful. You are strong, bright, funny and beautiful! You have a great loving supportive husband. You will have another precious little baby ❤️ I will say lots of prayers for you guys and sending tons of baby dust 💨👶🏻✨🌈

@kailynzutski6607 4 года назад

This is breaking my heart. Your weekly pregnancy journal helped me through my pregnancy. This will help someone. Praying for you and your family.

@emilystewart2938 4 года назад

❤️ I had two miscarriages before we had our 1st baby (I didn’t know I had a folic deficiency until I saw a specialist ). I relate so much to your feelings and I felt all the things you are. My miscarriage experience was very similar too. I got a rush and remembered those feelings listening to your story. I know these days are so lonely even with all the support in the world. Praying for you and I know bright days are coming. You and your husband try again when you are ready! We just had our 3rd baby in July and are so grateful. Love and prayers coming to you from Alabama

@leighgilmer8705 4 года назад

I am with you. The loss is so very deep. Thinking of you. Praying for your healing!

@LpanelliMus307 4 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s ok to cry, recovery is not a linear road. I had mine in May and am still trying for our first baby. Holding on to hope.

@ladybugamks 4 года назад

I'm so sorry for your loss. I found out this week I had one too. I was supposed to be 10 weeks but measured at 6 weeks and no heart beat. This would have been our first. Your old vlog videos were what I watched the first couple weeks, when I was so excited but couldn't share the news with anyone! I loved hearing about your experiences. I'm so sorry you're going through this now. I've actually spent all day today have cramps and pain.. I'd just like this to be over so we can heal and move on. Sending love your way ❤️

@curiouspipistrelle 4 года назад

I’m so sorry this happened to you Heather. I’m 38 weeks pregnant and have been watching your pregnancy vlogs with Cole through my pregnancy, they have given me so much reassurance. Thinking of you and your family Xxx

@ashleighthomas9698 4 года назад

It took me a good month to get through this video. 5 missed miscarriages, resulting in 5 D&CS, all between 8-10weeks and saw a heart beat with each little baby. It's so hard to talk about, but I love you for doing so. Thank you. We WILL get our rainbows ❤

@Lexsully 4 года назад

We are currently experiencing our first miscarriage at 9w2d. As soon as I found out we were pregnant, I began following your journey with your second pregnancy. I love all of your videos, and they made me so happy and hopeful while I was pregnant! However, I have had this video saved to my “watch later”, just in case we did experience loss. I am thankful to have your story to comfort me in this difficult time. I will continue to follow along with your journey and pray for your family ❤️

@aliciathibodeaux3821 4 года назад

Heather I’m so sorry for your loss; I followed your journey as I was pregnant with my now 6 month old boy. You telling this story WILL help people. Your birth vlog helped me so much after my emergency c section because of your honest raw emotions after. I kept seeing birth vlogs where the moms were so calm and competent afterwards and to see you emotional and crying afterwards was just how I was in the hospital and it made me feel better. Thinking of you and your hubby.

@alexandratirado1857 4 года назад

Aww Gingy I feel your pain , a heartbeat will always be remembered, remember this pain isn’t forever, you said you wanted to have your kids close in age but you can always keep trying and the majority of a miscarriages follow up with a successful pregnancy , we love you we’ll be sending prayers ❤️

@itsmeeabbyyy 4 года назад

Heather, I am so sorry you’ve had to experience this loss. I’ve never had to go through what you have but I appreciate your openness in this experience. It’s gave me a new insight to what people who have gone through a loss may have gone through 💕

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙💕

@brehannahhh4026 4 года назад

I am so sorry love. I had a chemical pregnancy back in May and it was devastating. Everyday that does go by you are planning for that new life. Take your time to heal, and be kind to yourself! I got pregnant very soon after and just got past the 12 week mark. It's been the longest 12 weeks, but feel so much better! Love that message you showed. Do not let the past situation rob you from your next baby. But our angel babies will not be forgotten!

@clicksandcrochets2929 4 года назад

I am so sorry sweetie! This just completely breaks my heart!! Praying for you and your family, I truly hope you get your rainbow 🌈Love and hugs ❤️❤️❤️

@taylorletriard7804 4 года назад

Been here since the beginning of your RU-vid. You’re such an inspiration. Sending all my love and thoughts. I can’t imagine how hard this video was. Hugs. 😔❤️ just know that this video has really helped me. So thank you.

@gingypants 4 года назад

Awwww thank you so much 💕💕💕💕😘😘

@luluwooski7556 3 года назад

Thank you for posting this because I’m going thru this right now. It’s great that u can show ur emotions.

@tkchallenger 4 года назад

I am so unbelievably sorry!!! Going threw a miscarriage is the absolute hardest thing ever. It makes you feel a thousand different ways. I wanted so badly to seclude myself and hide because I just felt so alone even though I had so much support. Big huge hugs your way!!! And tons of prayers ♥️

@tatianakhoubaeva6950 4 года назад

Thank you for sharing your video, Heather. You are a strong woman, my heart is with you.

@JB-fy1dx 4 года назад

Im so sorry for your loss. Thank you for making this. I cant imagine how hard it was. Ive had two miscarriages and im 10 weeks in to my 3rd pregnancy. Words cant explain how hard a miscarriage is but these videos are so helpful during. ❤❤❤

@sarahduckworth7360 3 года назад

I watched the videos of your first pregnancy and then found this one. I had a miscarriage earlier this year during Covid and had to experience most of it alone because my husband wasn’t allowed to be there with me, it was the hardest thing we’ve ever gone through and I can relate 1000%. I shared my story on my Instagram because like you I didn’t want anyone to feel how I felt. Today I am pregnant for the second time and I’m terrified and keeping myself optimistic. It’s difficult to be excited after have the first taken from you. Praying for you and proud of you for sharing💗

@caelamoore1781 4 года назад

I’m so sorry your going through this. Your not alone. So many of us have experienced a miscarriage and it is the most heartbreaking thing I’ve ever been through. It was our first pregnancy and I’m so grateful I had my husband who was there for me even though he was also suffering a lose. Happy to say I am on my second pregnancy at 30 weeks! I always watch your bump updates on whatever week I’m on. Everything gets easier but you definitely never forget your lost baby. I still cry occasionally and some days are just better than others.

@Toyinaroundwithlife 4 года назад

The car conversation is so real and thank you for sharing. I had that same conversation when we miscarried in February and had the same conversation with myself when I had a early miscarriage in July. And I didn’t tell my mom about the second either. It’s so hard to see our mom’s sad. Again, I’m so sorry for your loss.

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙 it was very real... recorded in hopes that it would be fine and just end up being a small part of another pregnancy progression vlog ...

@tashia1510 4 года назад

I am so so sorry for your loss. ❤️ take care of yourself and allow yourself to grieve as long as you need to. I had a missed miscarriage earlier this year. It’s a tremendous heartbreak that hits you out of nowhere. I am currently 16 weeks pregnant with my third pregnancy, and a pregnancy after miscarriage is just hard. You hold your breath at every appointment until you hear that heartbeat and you just pray as much as you can that this pregnancy goes on. But ultimately, the reward will be worth it. ❤️💗 i pray for you and i feel for you!

@sandradee11482 4 года назад

Oh, my gosh. Oh, sweetheart. I only discovered you months ago (on your engagement video with the camper), but I have so enjoyed your videos since then. I'm not a mom and won't be, but I am so close with so many friends who are moms, and this video just killed me. You are SUCH a mom. You feel it all, and you feel it for everybody. Give yourself some grace, girl. This was a hard path to walk. I love that you had to do this for other people who may be suffering, but it's hard to watch you suffer while you do it. Sending you tons of love and support for being so brave and giving while you are so clearly still hurting. xoxo

@gingypants 4 года назад

Aww thank you so much 💙💙your message brought tears to my eyes... such truth in your words I really appreciate it

@lesliez1000 4 года назад

I watched your whole pregnancy journey and every video helped me with my son who was born Jan 15, 2019. As much as your videos helped me, this video will help so many women to cope and heal. Thank you for sharing your story, I can only imagine the hurt and pain but you’re so strong and anyone who follows you is sending good healing thoughts for you and your family 💕

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙💙 and so glad the pregnancy videos were helpful 😍😍💕

@alyssatonking9985 4 года назад

So sorry for your loss. I watched your pregnancy updates every week of my first pregnancy and loved them and you so much. Sadly, my first son was stillborn at 40 weeks on his due date in July. I completely understand the devastation you’re feeling and the sentiment of wanting to be pregnant again and still emotionally expecting that baby to be there. I love how you’re using your platform to share your story and talk about it. Our culture does not allow for women to talk about these things and no one really understands why it’s so hard and devastating unless you’ve lost a baby. My midwife advised us to wait 3 months to start trying for another so we have just started this month. Maybe you and I will be pregnant together! Looking forward to watching your next journey. Keep being you

@JK-ct2xl 4 года назад

I had I missed miscarriage in April, at 10 weeks. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. I still struggle with it. Hearing your story helps so much, more than you know. It’s reassuring knowing I’m not alone, because you’re right... people do sweep these things under the rug. I’m currently 14 weeks with my rainbow baby. Praying everything continues to go well. Funny enough, at the start of this pregnancy, I saw probably six rainbows throughout a few weeks. I feel like it’s a sign. Best wishes to you and your family. 🖤

@katherinegilley6953 4 года назад

You, your family & your story are amazing! I miscarried at only 3 weeks pregnant almost 10 years ago. It was the most traumatic thing I’ve ever been through. I allowed it affect my life in a veryyy negative way. Thankfully God renewed my hope & restored my strength and I’m completely recovered mentally & emotionally after years of self sabotage, negative self talk, unhealthy coping techniques & turning to substance use to make me feel better. Now I’m a substance abuse counselor & am blessed to be able to share my story & help others struggling with similar situations. I’m currently 38 weeks & 3 days pregnant and I’m being induced next Thursday, October 3rd (say a prayer for me because the anxiety has kicked in full force lol). I’ve watched your weekly pregnancy videos since I got pregnant & love them. I’m so proud of you for being so strong & so thankful that God has blessed you with such an amazing support system & beautiful baby to keep you grounded. Knowledge is key, so doing research & talking to others that have been through the same thing helps. It helped me anyway. I’m praying for you & your husband!♥️

@kileannonhoward840 3 года назад

Currently miscarrying my baby at 10 weeks. It was my first pregnancy and this video inspired me to let my next pregnancy be a positive experience and not full of fear. 🌈

@gsaramburu 4 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss 😔 But Thank you! Thank you for this video 💞 Miscarriage is not something women talk about openly but I do think it helps us to cope with it, so thank you for being so brave and sharing your story 💞

@sydney2141 4 года назад

I’m so sorry that you went through this. And I’m so glad you shared your story. I felt really alone in a way I could never describe when I had my miscarriage last year. It was the most broken I’d ever felt. I too was on a trip with family when mine began and we went to see a doctor out there and since the miscarriage wasn’t actually confirmed and they thought it could have been an ectopic pregnancy, they didn’t let us fly home. The long drive from Colorado to California actually helped my husband and I process things and get closer. By some magical luck, I ovulated two weeks later and became pregnant again! Our son was born by a c section like you but at 35 weeks because I had vasa previa, velamentous cord insertion, an anterior placenta and for a short while he was transverse! All that bad luck, a month in the hospital and a week in the NICU later.... a perfect baby boy who has stolen our hearts. There is a light at the end of the tunnel! Don’t lose hope! Again, thanks so much for sharing your story and thank you for giving me comfort during my pregnancy by following along with yours! ❤️

@saraiish 4 года назад

I followed your first pregnancy when I was pregnant.... I ended up losing my pregnant and could no longer follow your channel because it hurt too badly. Now a year later I came back and said you had a loss, and I'm so heart broken.

@gingypants 4 года назад

Aww I am so sorry for your loss💕🌈we did have a loss and I always thing about that baby still... and we are very blessed to have conceived again!

@Ninaluera58117 4 года назад

You are strong ❤ I suffered a missed miscarriage back in January of this year. The hardest moment of my life and all I could do was pray for strength. I will pray for your strength and im so sorry your going through this. ❤❤

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙& so sorry for your loss

@valeriec3484 4 года назад

I am so so sorry for your loss. I lost my first baby around 9 weeks as well when I was 26. It was heartbreaking, I just want to hug you! Never give up hope though, if a baby is what you want. I have been trying for so long to have a baby, and I am 39 and pregnant with my first. Just hang in there, let yourself grieve, and give yourself time. 😘

@Sam-yo7nh 4 года назад

im so very sorry for your loss! i too know all to well. before i had luke who is now 8mths, i had a miscarriage. i got pregnant on the first try and mc at 6weeks. the following month i had conceived him but we didnt have any intention of trying. it gave me so much anxiety during my pregnancy. so i feel for you mama. big big hugs! xoxo i now say everything does happen for a reason unfortunately. but i would not have my little rainbow boy who is the happiest little boy in the world!

@lovefromhouston-trinhmicha5081 4 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve done IVF 4 times and miscarried twice after so much effort to get pregnant so I totally understand your pain. 5 months after miscarriage, my hcg test was still positive because there were some tissues left in my uterus. I had to do surgery to remove those a few weeks ago. It took me that long to get over the last miscarriage. We did tell the story to my family and some of our friends but nobody can really help to make the pain go away but just ourselves. Whenever you feel sad, look at your beautiful son. I’m sure his smile will warm your heart.

@Anissa087 4 года назад

I'm so sorry you are going through this. Please know that it will get better and it is possible to have a healthy pregnancy after a miscarriage. I experienced this last year with my 1st pregnancy. I am now 6 months pregnant. I recommend talking about it with your husband as much as you both need to and give yourself time to heal. It will get better! I cant wait to watch your journey this time as well. God bless you!

@beautysplashxoxo 4 года назад

I too had a miscarriage and it changed my life forever. Prayers for you and everyone that has gone thru this. Not easy, but we are strong women.. xoxo

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙💙 and so sorry for your loss 💕

@KM4ya 4 года назад

Thank you for sharing this!! I looked to ur videos as a guide through my pregnancy and u were very very helpful. I know it wasn’t easy making this video but you stayed strong and I just wanted to let you know ur such an inspiration. Anyway I hope god blesses you and your family. I prayed for you and I will continue to ♥️♥️ Sending you lots of love.

@genarachannel8134 4 года назад

This is so sad 😭 I’m sorry for your loss I been watching your videos bc I’m pregnant right now watching this makes me cry with you

@marinae1495 4 года назад

Heather, I'm giving you the biggest hug a person can give!!!! ❤❤❤❤

@Mrs.valentinagalindo 4 года назад

Wish I could give you a HUGE hug! You both are so brave for sharing this ❤️

@angelkaate 4 года назад

My heart breaks for you, your baby will watching over you ❤️ praying for your rainbow baby ❤️

@Glamorrous 4 года назад

I love the advice you received on social media. It’s going to be harder than you think but enjoy your next pregnancy! I regret not taking any baby bump pics or surprising my husband with my positive pregnancy test. I had 3 prior losses and it was constant worry. As much as I wanted to enjoy it I couldn’t get over the fear. I am now 26 weeks with my rainbow baby and regret not enjoying every minute!

@Deafaria13 4 года назад

Thank you for this video, truly!! I’m currently miscarrying as I’m watching your video... this little baby that I have been planning for with all my heart and effort. And although we know MANY women have unfortunately gone through it as well, you feel as though you are alone. I have an amazing support from my partner and my mom, but it feels terrible all the same, I still feel like I’m alone. Everyone can carry on with their life normally even though they’re still sad about. But I just can’t.. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t do anything but lay in my bed, cry and wonder why? I’m a doctor, I KNOW why, every single medical reason, but it’s not enough. I still blame myself and I still suffer from it. Watching all this videos with strong women like you I’m beginning to think about it more clearly. That I somehow can get through this, although it feels impossible right now. Sending all my love for you and your family ❤️

4 года назад

Andrea Faria thank you for your comment. I’m in the same situation now too. How long did it take for the baby to pass? The trauma of thinking that all the matter has passed and then reexperiencing bleeding again. It’s my first m/c and pregnancy but it’s so painful. And I’m scared to share the pain. My only hope is in Jesus.

@user-et1vo3kh8s 4 года назад

Thank you for sharing this. What you went through was so difficult, thank you for being honest. I'm going through something somewhat similar. I don't yet know what's going to happen. But I'm praying that God's will happens. So grateful for people like you sharing ❤️

@kinga4k 4 года назад

i'm 15 and definitely not having a baby anytime soon, but i have been watching pregnancy related videos all day. i guess i just want to educate and prepare myself for things like these. my heart breaks everytime i see one of these videos. i have no idea how hard it must be to lose a baby 🥺 thank you for sharing your story. stay strong ♡

@juliaedwards7331 4 года назад

Praying for you and your family❤️ so sorry you had to go through this!

@tsmithson 4 года назад

Sending prayers your way. Thank you for sharing your story. 💓 you’re so strong.

@lisalavarier5672 4 года назад

Thank you for sharing your experience. I was pregnant with my first baby but I miscarried early June of this year. I had very similar feeling. This was very comforting for me. I'm so sorry for your loss

@tiffanynthacker16 4 года назад

Thank you for sharing 💗 so sorry for your loss

@naomilevi771 4 года назад

The hardest darkest experience I have ever had. Thank you beautiful for sharing this video😢💕💕💕

@gingypants 3 года назад

Sending you strength

@patriciakennedy8116 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage at 9 weeks about 2 years ago. I wish this video was around when I went through this, I didn't get out of bed for 3 weeks. Long story short my rainbow baby is 9 months old. I'm so sorry for your heartache, you will always think of your angel baby. Thank you for making this video I hope it will help all the other women that suffer from loss. You are amazing, stay strong ❤️

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙💙 awww and so sorry for your loss but so happy to hear about you little rainbow 🌈💕💕💕

@larissabocanegra3711 4 года назад

I'm so sorry for your loss...my first pregnancy was lost at 8 weeks 5 days...it was soo hard to go through but talking about it with other women that have gone through it has helped soo much! I was feeling ashamed and scared because its still a taboo topic but as I have talked to other women it has not only helped me but them to uplift eachother. God is good and he has his plans for each of us I'm sure God will bless you with many more babies to come...pray...just pray sweetheart you are not alone 🙏🏼

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙💙and sorry for your loss also

@pitbulllover151 4 года назад

😭😭 I’m so sorry, hun. I’m crying watching this...

@memily33 4 года назад

Thank you for sharing your story. We too had recently gone through a miscarriage on the drive home from a family vacation last fall (our second miscarriage while TTC baby #1) and saw a giant clear rainbow! The next month, I was pregnant again with NO symptoms. Keeping my faith was such a struggle, especially as I started getting little cramps here and there. I dragged my husband to the bathroom with me everytime, just so I wouldn't be alone if I saw bleeding. Now our baby girl is 2 months old and thriving!! I STILL grieve those babies I lost. It is so hard to explain unless you've felt it. 💔 A concept that helped me a lot when I was pregnant again and didn't want to be hopeful: If you get excited and things don't work out, you will be devastated. If you don't let yourself get excited in order to protect yourself, and things don't work out, you will still be devastated. Much better to celebrate your rainbow baby, even in those early, scary days!! Love to you and your family. It is SUCH a difficult thing to go through. Your rainbow will come soon!!

@ArielChadwick 4 года назад

I have had two miscarriages and then a stillborn baby girl at 24 weeks, all without explanation. But now I'm holding my beautiful baby girl who is 2 weeks old! Keep hoping, and keep your chin up! It's so hard, but I am so so glad you shared your story. 💜

@yojessika11 4 года назад

Thank you for this ❤️ you are so strong Heather!

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙💙

@lindaellison9323 4 года назад

I recently had a missed miscarriage. I went in for my first ultrasound at 8 weeks and baby measured at 6 weeks with no heartbeat. After waiting a week and checking again, there was no change. A week later I had a D&C. This video helped me a lot. I felt like I could relate to everything you were feeling. I just had my first cycle since my surgery, I also just turned 39 and as bad as we want to try again, I am afraid.

@veronicarios9935 4 года назад

I've had 2 miscarriages and I still miss my babies so much and always wonder what they would have been. 💔 I now have a precious rainbow baby boy that brought joy and so much love into my life💙🌈🙏🏻 I'm so sorry for your loss 😢 I send you a big hug 🤗 I know there's nothing else to really say in these situations but to just show the support and acknowledge your beautiful angel baby. 👼🏻💕 ☁️

@kaylamckibbin2014 4 года назад

Thank you for this video, and I'm so sorry for your loss.. I found out Thursday I lost my little baby. Its An incredibly hard thing to process... This video has helped me. It reminds me I'm not alone and that it is okay and normal to feel what I'm feeling... Thank you.

@gingypants 4 года назад

So sorry for your loss💕you are a strong Mama💕💕my thoughts are with you 💕💕

@bridget3210 4 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss, I kept up with your whole first pregnancy videos & this broke my heart to hear. But you are so strong! I know that your rainbow baby is coming. ❤️ 🌈

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙🌈🌈🌈🤞🏼🤞🏼🙏🏼

@J92013 4 года назад

Same here. I have an almost 4 month old son and looked forward to every one of her RU-vid updates throughout my pregnancy. It brought me so much joy. This broke my heart and brought me to tears.

@macymagliaro8154 4 года назад

I miscarried in March of this year. After my d&c, we got pregnant again after my next period. Our baby on the way is doing fine and I’m 23 weeks. But during the time of the miscarriage and after, I went down a rough path. I stayed in bed depressed for a long time and did not want to leave the house. I don’t think I’ll ever be “over” the miscarriage and it bothers me that people just move on as if it never happened. I had so many breakdowns after it happened. I’m so thankful to be blessed with another baby on the way. Good luck and stay strong. Never forget.

@krr4763 4 года назад

i’m so sorry heather❤️we love you

@tayalashae8772 4 года назад

i’m so sorry for your loss 🥺💛

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙💙

@Natnatdancer1 4 года назад

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have recently miscarried my baby at 10+3 weeks, just a few days after seeing our healthy baby on ultrasound, and I’m broken. I have two older children but this baby I have lost was such a miracle and blessing to me. Miscarriage seems to be so taboo. Nobody wants to talks about it.

@KH-wg3if 4 года назад

I am so so sorry for you guy's loss. I started watching your videos back in January when we found out we were pregnant with our first. My next week would start on Mondays so every Sunday I would watch the next week's video. I was so excited to see what I would be having come up next! Lol But I grew a bond with you guys watching you every week for the whole pregnancy. My daughter was actually due on September 16th but decided to come early on August 3rd. She spent the first few weeks of her life in NICU in a hospital an hour and half away. I stopped watching your videos after she was born because I felt upset that she was born so early and we weren't sure if she was going to be ok or not. A couple weeks later I finished your videos and watched your labor and the others. I am writing this to tell you I am truly sorry for what you have had to go through. You don't know me, and I don't know you, but I feel as if did know each other because I watched you for 33 weeks until she was born. Give it some time, your rainbow baby will come and he/she will be beautiful ❤️

@lillywood7296 4 года назад

I'm so sorry you are going through this... I had my m/c in June. It's been a couple of months ago... I'm still grieving. I feel that I'm so lost and empty. We've been trying to get pregnant for 7 yrs. We tried everything I could. We tried IVF. We had 2 cycles. The first one failed and the second one - m/c. I was so happy to get pregnant! I was not expecting to lose it... Feeling so sad. My heart breaks when I hear stories like yours... I know once you get pregnant, there’s a baby there inside of you... It’s your baby... Sorry if it seems like I’m venting. It just hurts me so bad... I'm going to have IVF #3. This time I'll be using donor eggs. Hopefully, all of us will find comfort & be strong.

@ShannanMcCormack 4 года назад

I'm sorry for your loss ♥️😭 we have lost four babies including the twin of my current baby (I'm 35 weeks pregnant) I've had one rainbow baby who's now two and this baby is healthy and happy. I pray you get your rainbow baby soon ♥️🌈

@missb1097 3 года назад

Going through this now ... ty for ur video and ur honesty😘🙏 this is so hard and ur video has given me comfort😘 -

@calesiareed1990 4 года назад

Dear gingy pants, I want to thank you for your transparency to share such a close, intimate, misunderstood, and very heartbreaking event. It takes strength to talk about the deep and hidden things that occur regarding losing the life of a child. It's even more painstaking when you will never know how that baby looks, acts, smells, talks, laughs, smiles, etc. Because you never got to hold the child let alone see the child grow in your womb. The what could be will always be just that. I have experienced two miscarriages, one after the other. I was by myself and there was no one that could really relate, my husband couldn't, my older sisters who had already had bunches of children couldn', my mother couldn't. I was the odd ball because it seemed like I was the only one experiencing this. Fast forward I have finally conceived and began carrying my third child, the most popular question that individuals ask me is if this is my first baby. Often times, I don't know how to answer them because technically no, it's not. Everytime I'm asked that I'm forced to make a decision to outwardly acknowledge that I have conceived three children but two of them did not survive, that I have experienced the tragedy of miscarriage which is much more than experiencing a chromosomal abnormality or a blighted ovum. The fact is that there was life growing inside of me and the evidence was there but now gone. It was tough going through it but Jesus is still healing me. On that note I hope that you allow Him to heal you too. Stay strong.

@KMarieloaded 4 года назад

I miscarried 3x this year and just got the courage to make a video sharing my experience that it will help other women cope with this type of loss. Thanks for sharing.

@gingypants 4 года назад

So sorry for your losses 💙and thank you so much for sharing your experience... you are helping so many women 💕

@stellaDLT 4 года назад

Im so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing. I know it's not easy

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you 💙💙 in a weird way it feels good to share 💕

@Yolani5 4 года назад

I am so sorry for what happen to you my dear. I follow your 1st baby Pregnancy Journey and I love it if it makes you feel better right about 5 months ago I had a stillborn at 6 months The Lord Had Help me a lot just keep Praying dear God Bless you

@amberrgaga 4 года назад

So sorry for your loss. I had 2 miscarriages back to back last year (at 7 and 9 weeks). My rainbow baby girl is 3 weeks old. Don’t give up or lose hope.

@meaganf2069 4 года назад

Lost my boy at 16 weeks. The pain never goes away. So sorry girl.😔

@corrinathompson5039 4 года назад

I have had two miscarriages before this pregnancy now. It is definitely heartbreaking and easy to blame yourself for what your body did. I know your son is 1 years old but I have been watching your old weekly pregnancy videos since the first one and now I'm 33 weeks pregnant! Stay strong!

@PaintingClouds 4 года назад

I lost my daughter's twin with my first pregnancy and with my second pregnancy we lost him at 12 weeks. It is the hardest loss I've ever gone through, despite having lost grandparents before. You are incredibly candid and compassionate. Thank you. I hope you are healing with your current pregnancy.

@gingypants 4 года назад

I’m so sorry to hear of your losses💕and thank you 💕💕

@Expat_FitLife 4 года назад

I am so sorry for your loss, momma. I can't recommend the Life After Miscarriage podcast enough by fellow RU-vidr Shelly Mettling, she interviews loss mommies who share their stories and experiences and it is so therapeutic and healing. I wish you warmth and comfort in your time of loss, too many of us have been there

@ArtemisQuinn_ 4 года назад

I’m so sorry 🥺 but you’re definitely not alone. I had a miscarriage when I was 17 then another when I was 19. The doctors weren’t hopeful that I was fertile at all. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. I was so young but it was still so painful. But now I’m 22 and I’m 7 months pregnant with my rainbow baby and it is a very healthy pregnancy! 💕 you will get your rainbow baby! Sending many hugs xoxo

@ana_aaya 3 года назад

Thank you for this video and thank you for comforting words ❤ Last week I found out I had a missed miscarriage, I was 10 weeks pregnant. The doctor said the baby stopped developing at 8 weeks. It broke my heart as this was my first pregnancy and we were so excited about the fact that we are going to be parents. My body showed no signs of miscarriage. I had to go to a hospital to get a pill. The physical pain I experienced that day is the worst thing that ever happened in my life (and I usually do have painful periods). I can't even explain the mood swings, mixed emotions, confusion...

@J92013 4 года назад

Heather I am deeply sorry for your loss. ❤️

@charitydigioia4429 3 дня назад

this video was comforting. without saying too much I am also going through this and your video makes me feel not alone.

@MeghanCollins 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage July 16th of this year. The baby stopped growing at 6 weeks and the full miscarriage happened at 8 weeks. The people around me weren’t really supportive during it unfortunately. They kept saying “it’s common” 🤦🏼‍♀️ I got pregnant right after I got my period back and it’s beyond stressful. I always feel like it’s gonna happen again even though the baby is doing good. It really does affect how you feel about being pregnant again in the future. I hope you get your rainbow baby 💖🌈

@louisen6834 4 года назад

Meghan Collins this is my biggest pet peeve ever. You wouldn’t go to an elderly family members funeral and say it was expected and normal as they are old as it’s rude. While miscarriage might be common you have still lost all your hope and dreams you had from when you got your positive test. 1st birthdays, 1st day at school, getting married etc. I wish people would be more sensitive and learn to be more supportive. I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope your rainbow baby is doing well 🤞 x

@MeghanCollins 4 года назад

Lauren M Thank you. I agree, it’s very insensitive. My rainbow baby is doing great and growing like crazy it’s painful 😂 We also found out its a boy so that’s gonna be fun

@bethelizaf9521 4 года назад

I am sorry about your loss. It’s hard. People expect you to be strong after a process like that. I had a miscarriage and had to go through therapy. It’s also difficult for me to talk about it with other people that’s prob why it’s not talked about much. Your body wouldn’t put you through something you can’t handle. ♥️🙏🏽 you have so much support and love.

@gingypants 4 года назад

Thank you so much 💙and so sorry for your loss.. I hope you are doing well! Stay positive 💕

@alishathompson6588 4 года назад

Oh mama❤️❤️ so much love sent your way!

@coachdivaable 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage around the same time. I was almost four weeks when it happened and it was a bit over four weeks ago now. And I sit can’t explain how I felt but you put it all into the words. My two year old was the biggest distraction. I loved it. The blame I put was crazy.