I hate my T shot 

I just injected my shot right before you posted this video. I feel you !!! I'm good with needles I have tattoos and I'm going into the medical field but even with that, it take me a while to get it in. Before I was so excited and now its becoming a whole day of mental preparation to just inject myself.

yeah dude i'm with you. i'm only 4 months on T and have also been hoping it will just get better with time. so far i'm always super exhausted after a shot from the amount of emotional energy and anxiety that happens before/during my shots. obviously i love the result lmao but it's rough in the moment. i'm sorry you've been struggling with it for so long but know you will do whatever works best for you in the end. hang in there! at the very least it is a comfort to hear that others feel this way too so thanks for sharing

I struggle with it too, man. It sucks. Hope it gets better for the both of us

Damn I literally am the exact same way and I'm almost 3 years on T this March. I absolutely hate doing it every Monday, I procrastinate till the last minute, have to mentally prepare myself as I am afraid of needles, and I MUST have music to calm me down or the shot won't happen. Although it's gotten easier because I'm now a master at doing it, I feel like each week it gets way harder mentally. I've even thought about switching to Androgel but don't know how well that works/haven't done enough research. Knowing I have to do this for the rest of my life terrifies me...but it's become a part of my routine and it helps me be the awesome man I am today. So even with all the anxiety, knowing that it's worth it is probably what helps me get through the fear. You are not alone brother!

This is literally me. I need music, I sit there and try to pep talk myself into doing it--just hoping that I don't pass out or hit a vein. I've been doing it myself for about 2 months now. While I'm super proud and love not going to the doctor, the other half always has that daunting fear that I'll have to do it all over again in two weeks. Some weeks it's better than others, and I don't know if I'll ever get used to it. But I'm glad you posted this because it helps others to know we're not alone.

I just watched one of your old videos which was posted almost 2 yrs ago I think, I compared to now, this video, you've "growed" or changed so much, it's so great!!! Congratulations, 😍

I feel you bro, im right there with you every week, good luck!

My boyfriend will be doing his first self injection today after going to the doctor 4 times previously, and he’s very anxious and I’m going to show him this video for encouragement. Even after a long of time getting T shots you can still be nervous and anxious and that’s okay because you just have to persevere. Thank you so much for this video, sending positive energy your way 💕

I know you hate it, I’m sorry it’s gonna follow you forever it’s not fair, but I know it’s what makes you happy and it makes you who you are. It’s your secret potion! Keep your head up.. everyone has a routine for their day.. bad or good, I have ONE and that’s work🙄🙄🙄 lol I hate it! We just gotta live life to the fullest. Where did you get a job ? I’m so happy for you

Bro yes I feel you! Sometimes I would feel like fainting right after it would take me a couple of times just poking myself with needle cuz sometimes it would just hurt. But I recently switched to subQ and it’s the best decision I’ve ever made. Good luck to you!

Hey Ryan. I do a lot of work wth animals and doing necessary IM, subcut and IV/ Intravenous shots are par for the course. About yo start T and dreading the IM shots, but not keen on gel options!!! You are not alone. Love your honesty. Thanks man!

Looking back at your old videos, I’m still amazed ❤️

I love it when you post Ryan, you're so sincere but doing your shots helps you maintain your you, just the same as if you were diabetic. It is what it is and you just have to do it. You'll be ok. 💗

Thank you so much for posting a video on this topic. I pride myself in the ability to be able to give myself the shot because it's hard. Lately I've been finding it harder to do. I know that they have a gel there's also a nasal type of testosterone out there as well you should really check into it brother thanks for inspiring us all as always

My mom had to do this with a vitamin I had to inject into her thigh. I always had to do it for her. If you ever get the opportunity to find someone to do it for you. It's not just a T shot. It's all injections. My mom would freeze she just couldn't do it. Your not alone. YOUR NOT ALONE!!!!

I’m 2 years on t as well. I’m currently watching this and 4 days late because it gives me so much anxiety doing it. This video has motivated me to do it knowing that the struggle is mutual makes me feel a bit better. Thank you

You’re not alone dude! I’m the same way too. I do mines every week and it’s kind of stressful but once I finally do it I feel better. Mind over matter and you’ll feel accomplished. Hopefully one day, someone will come up with a easier way of taking the testosterone.

Thanks a lot you reminded me that I had to take the shot today 😅. I have to watch videos to do it and it takes different amount of times to get it done dependent on my mood..so I feel you. What helps me is thinking of the benefits it gives me and really focussing on the video I'm watching while doing it. It's gotten harder since the start. But we have to and so we will!!

I hate my T shot too Ryan. I used to have it twice a week and my doctor started me on once a week shots. Truly a difficult thing to face but look how far we've come! Stay strong

I’m the same way, I just always remember the statement: Some people are born into their bodies, others have to fight for theirs. So just keep preserving man! 👍🏽

I'm so glad you made this. I'm so grateful for being on T but I'm starting to get more familiar with the feeling of the needle in me and I hate iiiiiiit lmao

One month in, 4 injections I’ve given myself since I do it weekly. And i am so glad I found this video cause I thought it was just me but bro this helped how I felt so much.

you're definitely not alone, i'm only one month on T and i've been having a health counselor at my college do them for me because i don't think i can physically do it to myself, at least not for a long time. she's asked multiple times about teaching me how to do it but i just don't think i can, as i've always had a really big fear of needles (flu shots, vaccines, and drawing blood are all things i used to cry about when i was a kid).

Much love and respect, brah. Stay cool

It makes me very nervous as well, having to do it every week has kinda helped me get used to the feeling, but it's still scary

That makes perfect sense. We take the shot to alleviate our dysphoria but in a way it actually can enhance it also. I never let my mind wonder that far but it is a hard to thing to think about it. If we stop our shots we will regress back to the way we were...and I HATED myself pre T. It helps become who want but know we have to depend on it to maintain. I always kind of wonder if I am truly happy or is the testosterone giving me a false sense of self worth....i completely understand where you are coming from dude

Yesss bro I hate that shit... my shot is every week and I can feel it when I haven’t had the shot. Thanks for the video boe. Hang in there

I feel similarly I’ve been on T about 7 months. I don’t really struggle with putting the needle in and etc but my main thing is it gets so tiresome knowing I’m obligated to take it to maintain appearance as well. It makes me mad because although I’m thankful for the journey and it’s exciting at times it feels like it would much easier just being cis having to do this essentially for the rest of my life makes me really tired and exasperated at times. You aren’t alone at all

Do what you need to do Ryan just be happy and keep it up with the videos ❤😍

Sending you so much love and gratitude for sharing your experiences with the world. You’re narrative is so important. It IS helping! Keep being the hotty you are 😍🔥

I'm not on T or trans but I had to take a shot of blood thinners everyday for a long time. And it never got easier! You do it everyday but the pain is still the same. I feel you. ALSO thank you for your video's my significant other is at the very beginning of there transition and they help me and them feel more comfortable with it all ❤️

Ever since switching to subcutaneous, my anxiety has lessened significantly. I still put it off as much as possible, but the needle of a 25g 5/8 inch is so much smaller than the IM I used to do. It's literally night and day for me when I compare the two. I suggest subq Ryan. My dosage is the same, my routine is the same, but it takes me around 10 minutes (or less) as opposed to the half hour and plus before. I'm really glad my doctor switched me.

I was getting it done in my hip for over a year. Now that I do it in my thigh myself, it gives me anxiety right before. I always get through it but dude trust me it has taken me over an hour to get mine done before. Hang in there we will all get through it.

Hey Ryan, I feel you man. I absolutly hate needles if I can I wait till late at night where I have no choice but to do my shot. Same with having music on or the tv. If not it'll drive me nuts on how quiet it gets. I do mine weekly, 4x a month, every Wednesday I'm excited but dreading it all at the same time. 😔

I do mine weekly and sometimes I'm a few days late because I get anxiety around it. Twice I've skipped a week. You're not alone.

You're amazing. I know you said you're not looking for advice but if you read what Bowlofcole said below, there's a key in the last sentence. "Every Thursday I dread thinking about sticking that needle in." I've had to do some pretty unpleasant things to myself in my life, and something I've learned not to do along the way, is not to over-think things. It's a choice between sitting and thinking about how much I don't want to do something and making myself more anxious, or just doing it with very little thought behind the action. For me, just doing it has been easier. Good luck to you Ryan. Oh yeah, you look great.

Make it epic! Make it be a Mr. T shot! Get me in your thigh, foo!

I agree, man. Glad I'm not alone!

Yeah, I absolutely despise doing mine too. I'm the exact opposite when it comes to dealing with it, though. Instead of procrastinating, I try to do it as early in the day as I can so I can ge it the hell out of the way lol.

Bro you’re an inspo. Have you talked to your endo about subcutaneous shots? Good luck brotha. There’s always that trade off.. pro of T vs Con of shot 😎

Thanks for this vid bro, i have missed my shot, it even went on for 3 months. i use to take it at home but i once hurt myself while doing it. so ever since i now go to my DR to get the shot. but i miss taking it at home i just dont have guts to do it myself anymore.

I use Androgel (aka Testogel) and I've never had a problem w it. The only downside is that I have to use it everyday in the morning, because I live w my girl and we are together at night time. They recommend not having physical contact w women or kids up to 3 hours after applying the gel to you skin.

I agree so much with you! I have to take a shot once and month and I can not do it to myself. So I don't know how toy do it twice a month. But tour doing great and love your videos

Yep 30 minutes for me. I sing a song and everything. I'm two years on testosterone as well and this is just the reality of our lives. Thanks for sharing! People need to know :)

I struggle making myself do my T shot too. I'm not scared of the needle or anything because it's super small and thin since I do an SQ shot once a week. I think it has more to do with the fact that I've gotten the masculine appearance I want and now I'm reliant on this med to stay that way because my body will revert back to being feminine without it and the weekly shot sort of reminds me that my body isn't just naturally masculine and I have to suppress the feminine aspects of my body with this med for the rest of my life. I cannot do an intramuscular (IM) shot on my own though. That needle is a lot scarier and my moods fluctuated way too much with the larger IM biweekly dose that I had started with a little over a year ago. Props to you Ryan for being able to inject IM at all.

Same bro. My gf has been doing it for the past few months, it's so much better if you have a friend or someone you trust do it for you. The first few months it would take so long, and I'd have a breakdown almost every time.

Same here, I’m on my third week and today it took almost 2 hours to do. I’ve had to do all of them by myself but the first time was with my doctor via video chat and that was easier. But the last two shots were HARD to do.

Ah, don't worry I hate doing mine loads now, it's like a very tiring thing I have to do, and I worry a lot when it comes to injecting it into my skin especially avoiding any bad situations so I try so hard to be very careful and I just need to give myself that motivation to say "ok you got this, you can do this! This is for making you truly who you are, you deserve this after so long." And I don't really hate needles I just dislike having to have it be injected into my skin, worrying about that the shot didn't go right, and I've only been a year on it but none the less, it's the only way to be who I truly am even it means doing T for the rest of my life.

I'll come out of the woodwork and say even after 14 years it's still a process but like you said, it is what it is, and you find a way. No advice here, I can just relate.

I hate my shot too man. It’s bad sometimes; sometimes I’ll put it off completely and not do my shot until a day or two after I’m supposed too.

When I first started T, it was a lot more easier to do my shot because of the excitement that I was finally on T. But soon after a couple months when the changes get slower, it’s harder to maintain the same excitement and it’s just a lot more difficult to forcefully give yourself pain when you don’t feel the positive effects of it directly even though it’s still helping. Sometimes my anxiety over my shot is so bad I miss a week and then I regret it the whole week and my hormone levels become even more uneven and it’s just a lot of negative feelings all combined. I’m glad someone else is having this issue I thought I was the only one who was too anxious to take my T shot even a year after I first started.

I completely relate. I'm a little over a month and a half on t and every time I have to do my shot I panic. I worry about it the whole day and then I end up doing it sorta late at night. And I do subq. Which is the "easy" way. It's not that painful usually but everyone told me "don't worry you'll get used to it". But that hasn't happened yet. Every time it's gotten worse and worse. I have my 8th shot on Friday and I'm already worrying about it.

wow ryan i can relate to this so much ☹☹☹ i was able to do it the first 3 months and then i started going to the clinic instead 😂 anyways love youuy handsomeeee ! post more !

You’re very brave so happy for you

Same here man I feel your pain

I have a nephew that is diabetic since he was one year old. And he still struggles with the shots. I don’t think it gets better. But you have to do what you have to do.:(

I feel the same way, I hate to think that I will have to inject myself for the rest of my life, it causes me anxiety and Many people think that it's what we chose and in a certain way it is, but they don't really have the slightest idea of ​​what it is to feel like you always feel, you're not alone, I understand you

Omg, same thing is happening to me I’m mtf and I’ve been giving my self a shot for almost a year now. It was going ok until I had one bad experience and blood start to squirt everywhere when I pulled the needle out. I almost passed out 😩😫😬 after that I’ve been so scared and sometimes I can’t get the courage to do it so I go to my doctor. When I do get the courage I’m holding the needle convincing my self I can do it for around 1hr 😂 I guess it never gets easy. 🤷🏽‍♀️ I thought I was the only one who experienced this.

I literally went to watch a bit of your first video. Your voice is so different and I know, I know. “Of course it’s different” and I don’t mean it in a bad way. You sound hot and look hot. GOOD FOR YOUUZ and post more please

Can't even believe that this can be done..science is incredible!!!

Hey Ryan I'm just new to your channel I love it love u keep it up

Subcutaneous injection requires a much smaller needle, so you can switch and maybe that will help?

I wish I can give you a hug! 💘 @RyanJacobsFlores

Im only about 2 months on T and I absolutely hate it! It definitely takes me a half n hour or so and i really have to psych myself up for it. Not particularly advice, but what sortof helps me is like giving my needle a sentient personality lmao like all the needle wants to do is poke my leg and go home (his sharps box) and actually saying this out loud makes me sound crazy but i meAN it helps

The past few weeks I get slight anxiety before I do my shot, I can’t do it if I don’t listen to Hopeless fountain kingdom by halsey, is this weird thing I don’t get it

Hi Ryan excuse me if it's a stupid question, but have you talked to your doctor about using gel? its an everyday routine but I think it could be an option for those who hates needles or are tired of them. I admire you a lot, thank you for being an exceptional human

For me, first time I'm doing my shot is scary n need a lot of courage but after that I'm not scared anymore. I'm doing my shot easy after first time.

Ryan I take mine every Thursday and I usually don’t even get the needle in until about 11 at night I procrastinate as much as I can I’ve been on t for 2 year in May and I hate the shot and tbh the skin gets tough because of injections after injections so it never gets easier actually gets more painful I’ve had a million shots (not really) but still every Thursday I dread thinking about sticking that needle in😂😂😂

I do subcutaneous (subq) shots, which don’t go nearly as deep. It barely hurts and the needle is much smaller (maybe a quarter of an inch)

I feel you! There are times that it takes me an hour before I had the courage to inject the T to my quad. That's why I taught my partner to do the shot for me,to my deltoid. It's been a lot easier and faster since. 😄

I had the same thoughts when I first started doing shots by myself but then while I was excited, I found out I also kind of dreaded it and didn't want to do it. Today is actually my shot day and I am feeling all of that lol.

I don't know how you'll feel about this but I think you are so attractive!! You are smart, funny, and a kind person. You are so strong and I just want you to know that you are who you are. And I love that! I hope someday I can come to terms about myself. I always have body image issues, but you are strong so I will try to be as well. 😁

Really needed this video I've been considering switching but I'm not sure if my parents insurance covers it 😖😖

I feel exactly the same way!

Man I feel you!

I'm a male on TRT (my levels were low) and after 5 years I still dislike my shots, but I have found alternatives that help tremendously (such as using insulin needles in the shoulder or subcutaneously into the stomach). Also, If you care to look into it, every 2 weeks in between your shots is far too long since you are using testosterone cypionate. You should be administering it once per week are the bare minimum. Now, the better alternative for you would be switching to test undecanoate, which you'd need to inject even less often than you do test cypionate (can go upwards of 4 weeks- same shots as before, just different ester which makes the hormone release slower in your body).

I absolutely couldn't give myself my shot for 7 years. I always had a buddy do it. I finally am able to do it myself because I learned to do subQ shots. Tiny needle into fat instead of a big needle into muscle.

Bro same almost 3years and Hate it !!!! Music helps for sure.

If anyone is curious of what the song is in the intro. It's a remix of 'I see fire' by Ed Sheeran.

I get anxiety every time I do my shot I understand how you feel

I have to get it done once a week and I struggle so much. I have to get my mom to do it. The days she isn't available I take a long time. I end up having to clean the area a lot because I take so long just sitting there panicking.

Oh man I hate my shot too I can’t even look at the needle!! It’s hurts after a day as well I can’t walk 🌧

I can't wait to start on the t shot.

The skin and muscle get tougher from T so it actually gets more difficult over time. I don't super mind though it's not that painful.

I trained my boyfriend to give me the shot, but I did fear if it ended I would have to be brave to do it on my own and sadly I failed my attempt 2 days ago and I was bummed so I completely understand. so for now I'm taking the pleasure of having someone else to do it lol

You need a HUG!!

Love this video.

Oh yeah for sure I want to die every time the day before my t shot. I put on piano music,give myself a pep talk, have a quick mental breakdown and afterwards I'm only slightly more dead on the inside but excited for more changes.

i'm gonna be put on the 3-month-shot at some point when most changes have already happened and i'm looking forward to it a lot lol twice a month is annoying as all hell

I'm with you Ryan. Having to mentally push myself and psych myself out, just to be able to push it in. And I have to do a shot every week. However, you are right, we do got this!!!! Yay us Transguys

i feel the same exact way i do a weekly injection which really sucks

TRY a 25 gauge needle, i literally don’t feel it!!!

I used to feel this way, I started 2 years ago with the needles but experienced a feeling I never want to feel again, so I switched to patches, those without insurance? Are $1,025.50 per box and I had to get 2 of them because my prescription called for 2 a day and ended up costing me $150 every month, so then I just stopped doing those and went back to needles, and at first I was just like you needed music and having to sing really loud in order to distract myself but now I have mentally installed that feeling in my head of what my shot feels like you have to do your twice a month? Imagine 4x a month. So I know exactly how you feel because I’ve been there and sometimes I admit I still get sweaty and nervous because not too long I believe I hit a vein causing a lot of blood to run down my leg it wasn’t painful but it was scary as ever but now I’m more cautious and I can deal with it. I don’t think anyone will ever get over that feeling because like you said we have to do this for the rest our lives and one wrong injection can be pretty ugly. But I commend you for putting this out there but you’re not alone💪🏽🙏🏽

The porter robinson in the background ❤️

I've been on T for 8 months so far and still have my injections done bu a nurse. I know doing it myself would be more practical but I'm afraid I would do it wrong and hurt myself + the fact that I have to put the niddle inside my skin is a nightmare lmao. Just a question, why did you stop having it done by the nurse if it is that hard ? Cause it doesn't take longer than taking 30min to pull yourself together

I’m not trans but when I go to the doctor for a regular checkup and they have to draw blood, I start panicking and crying like crazy. I can’t imagine the pain of that whole needle going in my thigh, omggg I’m panicking just thinking about that lol. I feel so bad for you

omg i just started T today and the doctor just gave me the prescription and its subq and i did it myself and i was nervous but it just didn't hurt

Switch to subcutaneous! Smaller needle and hurts a lot less!

Hey man idk how it works or if you can but maybe you should see if they can switch you to subq... I mean it's more often but honestly it goes so easy for me now I mean I used to get nervous n get the shakes n shit but honestly I love doing it that way.. rarely any real pain too! Well at least for me..but yea I mean maybe it would help ease tension surrounding your shot??

Wish u all the happiness. Sorry.. I wish I lived in ur city.. I would so inject the meds for u. Love ur videos.