I Have Something I Need To Tell You | Premature Ovarian Failure 

Your story is the closest I can find to mine online. I’m 29 with past health issues with my fsh 97.2. Obviously yours is way higher and you’re younger but everything else I see online are people being upset about their fsh being around twenty...give ten or take ten. People keep telling me that there are so many options these days but they don’t get it. To loose the option of seeing your own child is the worst thing that can happen in my opinion. Thank you so much for sharing.

I am 15 and learned I may have POF and I'm just looking for answers and things. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you luck on your endeavours

Thank you for sharing❤️ I was diagnosed when I was 16, I’m 20 now. I think It’s finally hitting me now, I didn’t really care to much when I was 16. Stay strong!

Growing up I realised something was wrong when I got to 18 and I had never had a period. So I got the tests done and I found out a few weeks later that I had premature ovarian failure. The doctors don’t know why it happened but it did, they thought I’d had it since I was 11. It’s been 3 years now since my diagnosis and I still don’t think i have fully accepted it. It affects me in so many ways I didn’t even realise it would but I just want you to know that you’re not alone in this. There are so many people here to support you and can relate to you, thank you for sharing your story x

Thank you for sharing this. I'm 36 and had uterine cancer and had to have a total hysterectomy and chemo and radiation. I never had the chance to have children and I know that it's so very painful to watch everyone else be blessed with children and know that you'll never have the chance to experience that. It's especially hard to see children being abused and even killed by their parents when you know you would have gave a child nothing but love but never had the chance. I'll never understand why these things happen in life but all we can do is have faith that there is a reason for it. There are so many children that need us... but like you said its very expensive. I feel your frustration and pain. Best of wishes to you

I was 14 years old when I was diagnosed with POF... i was a child worried about not being able to have babies of my own and that broke my heart. I was going through such a horrible time, crying my eyes out everyday. I’ve been on medication to help get my period and haven’t had a “normal” period without my medication for a few years. It’s hard and frustrating and sometimes people just don’t get it. I Spent a lot of time pretending I was fine when I was 14 going through serious mood swings, hot flashes along with just being a teenager. I’m 18 now it’s still hard just a little less than it used to be. Praying for you and hoping for the best xo 💗

Thank you! I’m 17 now and was diagnosed with premature ovarian failure last year. I found your video and I am happy to hear other people stories

I just came across this vlog and I know it’s not super recent but I wanted to say I’m sending hugs. I’m also in premature failure in my 20’s and it is so isolating and awful. No one gets it. Even when they think they do. It’s so unfair and total crap. Sending hugs and hope your way!

I completely understand your experienced. I was diagnosed with premature ovarian failure at 27 and it was certainly a huge shocker and has changed my course. But you will move pass this - Keep your head up dear!

Thank you so much for making this. I completely grieved with you. I tried to get a referral for an obgyn for years and when my primary finally agreed to refer me I was diagnosed with this and I’m beyond devastated. I’m 36 and thought I would be able to have my own baby. I am here with you and we can share this together. You are NOT alone ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Thanks for sharing, I was aged 13 when I was diagnosed. I have just started sharing my story through videos too, I think it helps to talk about it and hear from others in a similar situation. I am 30 now and its still no easier. Bless you stay strong xx

Thank you for sharing. I’m 27 and have POF as well. It’s rough, girl. Just know you aren’t alone.

I'm so sorry to hear your story honey your so strong and keep your head up. I am going through premature ovarian failure myself and I just turned 20 years old a couple of months ago... I know exactly what your going through, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story with us ❤️💕

I am so late, but just want to say how brave you are for sharing this. I am currently going through this and I’m doing the best I can to put on a brave face.

I just came across your video and I’m sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I, too, have POF. Lost my period 12 years ago. I believe stress and autoimmunity caused it. I KNOW how you feel...I’ve had the EXACT same thoughts you have. I don’t want to have another women’s child!...what’s my purpose?...why me?... I believe things like this happen to make us look at life as we know it in a different way. We may never have biological children but that doesn’t mean we can’t be a mother to another child. Or maybe our purpose is to do something else...something we have never imagined that will make us as happy as having a child would! Idk...just wanted to say keep your head up. You are strong! 💪🏾 You’re not alone. I’m fighting with you!

I'm so sorry you are going through all of this. This experience has probably made you stronger and more authentic than most 22 year olds. You could potentially look into foster tro adopt option down the road. If you are communicating up front with the social worker this could work out in the long run although it can be an emotional journey on the beginning. I have fostered and can tell you that there is usually an immediate bond no different than a biological child. You are strong and I admire your positivity and vulnerability on your videos!

I just stumbled upon your channel and just today I was thinking about scheduling an appointment to the doctor because I haven’t been feeling well for a couple of months now but I’m scared.. I do have a lot of symptoms and It honestly scares me a little when I watch cancer videos because a lot of people’s symptoms I have and I’m only 18. I don’t know. Anyways, I cried right along with you, you’ve touched my heart. You’re a strong beautiful women please never change the way you are, you’re amazing and I can’t imagine what you’ve been through but please never change! 💗

Aww, I know I’m late to this blog, I’m sorry about this.. I have premature ovarian failure but obviously my situation is much different from yours. It was hard when I got that news, I was 25. There are always options and it may not seem like it, but your heart is definitely big enough to fall in love with a child that’s not your blood. One day it will happen Alison ❤️ It’s okay to post “bad news” vlogs, I told you that before, people are always looking for answers or people who have had similar situations, it means they aren’t alone, and I promise you aren’t either 😘

It's very understandable to be so emotional. Your break will come sweetie. Take a week to pamper yourself you deserve to. You do it because your spirit is so high. I truly do believe all things happen for a reason. Don't feel bad for being down. You are super tough.

I'm sorry to hear this. I can't imagine being so young and dealing with this loss. I'm 35, but I can relate somewhat. I finally decided to "settle down" and start a family, just to be diagnosed with ovarian cancer two months ago. No babies for me either. It's very hard to take. I will be praying for you.

Hello. I just found your channel and I am so sorry to hear this news. I too started a RU-vid channel last year when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It was hard for me to watch this video because I could tell you were in a lot of pain. Just know that God always has the final say so. Not the doctors. Praying you will be able to see your kids in the future! And I also believe healthy eating heals the body. So please start a healthy eating journey if you haven't already. I believe Tia Mowry just wrote a new book about healthy eating healing her body and allowing her to get pregnant. Much love and keep pushing!😊💗💕

Ali you are so dang strong. I am so sorry to hear of the bad news. I am just so glad that you have made it through cancer. You are an inspiration for so many for all you have went through at such a young age and to be strong enough to share your journey with others that are scared and lost during their own personal experiences. Love you Ali your an amazing young lady.

Thank you so much for sharing your story, and doing so in such a vulnerable way. I'm 23, with DLBCL and almost done with chemotherapy. What you talk about here is one of my biggest fears besides the cancer coming back. I didn't have the opportunity to freeze my eggs or take the shots to protect my eggs, so the idea that this could happen freaks me out. But seeing you get through this and explaining the other options is inspiring for me. Thank you for posting this video

I’m so sorry for the hand you have been dealt and the fact that its not fair why some of us have such an uphill battle while others seem to just coast without so much as a bump in the road. There is honestly no explanation and no rhyme or reason for it but we just have to learn how to fight every battle and always prevail! Just always remember that you are Not putting on a brave face for everyone else, you are doing it for YOU! You are the only one who can protect yourself and know what it takes for you to always move forward. I have learned that its not always easy not to say why me or think of how it could’ve been or what you may be missing but you have to just try your hardest to shake it off and make every minute count because you need to realize you are a beautiful, healthy girl and you have been given not a 2nd but a 3rd shot at life!!! You are a SURVIVOR!!! You are AMAZING! 🙏🏻👏🏻😘💜💚

I'm deeply sorry, Ali.... Unfortunately, I know how you are feeling right now, and it's hard and painfull... now you are feeling lost and hurt, but you are going to feel better in time. We never know what the future will bring us, we only know we are not in control (and it sucks!). Allow yourself to grieve, take some time to breathe and you are going to find your way thru this. Sending lots of love and good vibes your way. ❤

I’m with you love. I hope a miracle happens for you my love.

Dear Ali, I'm going through the same at the age of 24, and I understand. We are robbed of the chance to even get to where we would wish to have children. Unfair as it is, what we can do is find beauty and compensate in life in some way that is fulfilling. And when the time comes for children, give all that's in our strength to find a solution that's within our reach and power. Just like you have mustered the courage to fight one thing after another, i believe both of us will find a way to happiness. Whatever form it is. A big hug for you!

Praying for you!!!! Keep the faith!

You brave one ,may Allah bless you amin,,,I'm facing the same since my teen age and now 35,,its hard to cope with it everyday,,stay strong n lots of prayers 4 u😊

im so sorry this is something you were diagnosed with. I am 22 too and have Primary Ovarian Failure/ Insuffiency. I was told I cant have a child and would have to do those exact options. I work in a group home with youth and adults with developmental delays, I would still not be able to afford adopting. I feel the same way, I dont want to know that if I was to have someone elses child, it wouldn't be the same as having my own. Im glad I am not alone, and that this kind of diagnosis is not easy to deal with especially when people ask when you're having kids.. Thank you for sharing your story !

Very courageous of you to share your story. I'm very sorry for what you are going through. While I don't know the future ,I do believe that there will be a solution to your issue coming shortly. Since you are 22 yrs old, time is on your side. There is a lot of research being done at the moment to find a cure. Just focus on your health, enjoying your life and building a career so that when the time comes you will be ready. Best wishes and a hug to you!

Hello Ali, thank you for sharing your story here.. Im glad that Im able to find others that have the same issue.. I was diagnose with POF at the age of 21 but after several more test, just today the doctor confirmed with me that there is nothing that they can do to bring back my eggs.. Its a very devastating news

I'm sending so much love your way girlie. I feel so bad that I've been so MIA from your life these past few years. I wish we didn't live so far apart from each other! I love you so much.

You are a beautiful person and I am so sorry this happened to you. Thank you for sharing your stories. I am 41 and have not been successful getting pregnant, but I totally get that you feel that you never get to even have a fair chance. I pray for something awesome to happen to you. We are here for you.

Same here. Life was always hard for me as well. I think most of us look strong because in this world people get bored when you feel sick, so you don't wanna face another issue including what you are facing already. No matters how easy its look there is not even I passed without thinking about my baby. Now I am young working, living passing time with my family but I get very upset when I think I will not be able to touch my baby, pamper them take care of them and I will not have any grandkids too share my story at my old age... while all this happening in my life , I still look into my belly and talk To my unborn kids...its sound crazy but i used to talk to my egg as I am pregnant already. But life has planned something else for me.

I pray that your circumstances turn around. Just have faith and hope in what you believe in. The human body changes all the time and is capable of healing itself in ways that we don't always understand. Miracles are real my dear. Blessings show up when we least expect them to but I'm gods perfect timing. My heart goes out to you. Please don't let this news tear you down ❤️

I appreciate that u shared ur story, I hope ur doing well by now,and I hope that u find the light and peace through ur life Stay strong as U R

I was diagnosed 5 years ago when i was 26 but i had started symptoms at age 22 straight after coming off Birth control pills to try to have a 2nd baby as I wasn’t ready at all when i had my only daughter at 19. I feel i took everything for granted. I felt prepared to try for just one more. My periods were erratic for years. Would differ from lasting a single day to 6 whole months non stop bleeding with clots the size of my fist. My memory became bad. My eyes watered 24/7. I couldn’t concentrate on anything. I was extremely fatigued. I was told “it’s because you’re a mom. That’s why you’re so tired and your periods aren’t normal because you’re stressed” by the doctor. I believed her word so carried on until my ex left me. It was then I decided enough was enough and put my foot down to demand answers. I was referred for an MRI for a potential tumour on my petuitary gland. That was clear so then had to wait for a start date to take my blood every week for a month. Several months went by and i took my then bestie with me. I felt so warm in the waiting area and i jokingly said to her “i feel sorry for women going through menopause sitting in this place” then when the doctor told me i had 0% chance of ever conceiving another biological child, i wished i was diagnosed with the tumour in all honesty. I couldn’t hear anything else he said to me. My ears were just emphasising the sound of my heartbeat as i felt my world had literally just shattered. My daughters hopes of becoming a big sister like her clasates vanished and i felt like a total failure as a woman. Like you said, women are created to give life. I so regret not taking in my daughter more when she was a newborn/toddler/small child. She’s 13 now and is a proper grumpy teen. The days i used to tuck her into bed and kiss her goodnight and tuck in her teddys (we called them nuggles- short for snuggles) then one night, I noticed nuggles weren’t there. They were stuffed inside the wardrobe. She said she was too old for them now. Then not long after, she requested that i didn’t give her anymore bedtime kisses or hugs…. Oh god I’m crying now typing this. I’m so greatful to of had that beautiful girl but when you weren’t ready to stop and now all your firsts are also your lasts. It’s utterly utterly heartbreaking and earth shattering. Her dad went on to get a new partner and the year i was diagnosed, they announced she was pregnant with a girl. That was a kick to the stomach. Now they have 3 girls together as they had twins too. I cope by not having anything to do with people having babies. My jealousy is too great. I might sound petty and yes i am I admit. I unfollow so many girls my age posting pic after pic of their perfect lives with no efforts in becoming pregnant a 2nd 3rd or 4th time. My current partner has 4 kids himself. We had an argument one day and he said to me “Atleast i have 4 kids!” I’ll never forgive or forget that comment.

Im so glad you shared your story. Ive have been wanting to just die lately. I havent had cancer, but im 27, was married to an abusive guy from age 19 till 26...did IVF...had it fail, wasted 8,000$ on it...now dating the perfect man, my best friend of 9 years, and just miscarried twins last fall with him....now I face POF. I dont even know why im here. I totally understand you. thank you.

I'm so sorry to hear this and it is heartbreaking news, but have you ever thought of getting a second opinion possibly? Science is so amazing and I feel like there are so many options still. Praying for you girlie! And don't think that something like this makes you any less of a woman. As a fellow fighter, WE ARE STRONG! 💜💚

Hey brave girl, everything will gonna alright one day. You will become a happy mom.

You are super strong for your age! Continue the fight💪🏽

21 just diagnosed and I still have no words.

Thanks for sharing this, I cried all the way through. I'm still going through treatment for Acute Leukaemia so I'm just waiting to see what happens post-chemo. In my heart I think I know. I too like to believe this happens to us for a reason. Good luck xxx

I just wanna hug you right now. I never wanted kids all my 20s. I had the most minimal invasive treatment for cervical cancer at the age of 26 as doctors wanted to preserve my fertility. I'm now 33, single still not really wanting a baby. But this week I find out I'm having premature ovarian failure. Suddenly I want a baby so bad. Not a feeling I've ever experienced and it's overwhelming. I'm sure you've received a lot of advice and this is just my 2 cents worth. Have a baby. Now. While something is still possible. That baby will be yours. You will use your body to turn it from a bunch of cells into a real human being.Your body will create this Baby still. Baby may not be your image but will grow to be so much like you, you won't even remember the egg he or she started out as.....they all told me id regret not having kids....i didn't believe them....they were right. I wish you lots of good things girl xox

Thank you soooo much for sharing this! I'm a cancer survivor since Feb 2017. I am trying to have children now and we haven't been successful. It's scary, frustrating, and confusing. Life sure is confusion at times.

Oh god this hit me hard I am also diagnosed with POF and it just SUCKS it’s a whole accepting process and I don’t know how to accept it some days I am only 18 and don’t want kids right now either but it is just so damn hard thinking about all of the things it was healing for me hearing the emotions I go through in this video ❤️ I hope you are in a good place right now

I am so so sorry Sweetie. Sending all the love to you and Raul. My Spina Bifida has made it not possible for me, I had my right ovary removed at 12. Thankyou for sharing these because believe it or not its very therapeutic. 💜

I'm so happy there's a RU-vid like you your strong I ended up with pof at 16 and I'm 26 now and it's bugs me I can't have children I've been with my.partner 4 years been trying but I have no periods and it's sucks because now I'm depressed about it and someday I just feel like here for no reason because of it

Omg when you said that you have become so good at showing people that you are not hurt ,, I had to cry 🙁 my mom tells me that it isn't so bad she doesn't care and I don't get the support that I need,,, so i put away my feelings every morning and I try to be strong but It is so hard I have become so tired and I have no1 to talk 2, I had the same problem just after I hit puperty, but I didn't know that I had a problem until 17 years old , now that I am 21 it is effecting me a lot more,,, (sorry for the spellibg I'm not american)

😞😞😞 it's not fair.......I'm sorry I wish I could find something to say to make you feel better. I can send you positive thoughts and vibes. Keep your head up

Awww sweetie. I always said that I don't want kid but deep down I don't want to not be able to carry children. I would be heart broken if I couldn't. I can't imagine how you are feeling and been feeling. Stay strong and may many blessings come your way.

I personally have never understood the desire to have a child (and especially the desire to have a biological one over an adopted one), but I do understand pain. I'm sorry you're hurting. :'( Hugs

I can't honestly say that I've been through the same thing you're going through but I can say that I've went through a lot in this past year. Both of my parents died from heart attacks in the same month, on possibly the same day, and I've had to go on antidepressants because of having to deal with all that stress. I'm having to fight for my inheritance that I was supposed to get from my father because he didn't leave a will. I have to deal with the fact that I didn't reconcile with him before he died. He was never part of my life growing up. I have to deal with not having my mother, the one parent I could always count on, around to comfort me in this trying time. And to top it all off I've started having symptoms that might be menopause related. I only turned thirty in December. I'm too young to have to go through all of this. So know that you're not alone.

I'm so sorry ... your going through all this... I'm there for you.. even though we don't know each other.. I feel you.. yes on that thought... I too had a problem as well dealing with ovaries and the whole nine yards of it... people family and friends used to tell me take it out!! Take it out it's giving you problems and yes!! It was giving me problems.. I was anemic for one and had lots of problems and needless to say I'm so stubborn I even deployed to Afghanistan with my problems as well and dealing with it all throughout my army career... until one day I just couldn't.... I had to see my GYNECOLOGIST... I had big fibroids in me ... more then one on top of my uterus...along with polyps .. did a biopsy and it turned out to be cancerous.. I had no choice.. and I wanted a child myself and being a woman it's something that I always want but didn't get a chance .. yes I didn't deal with it.. and now gonna be one year since I had full hysterectomy everything nada is gone... at first it took awhile to adjust now I reflect I'm glad that everyone once told me to get it out... but I feel you ally Gomez ... I had no choice either get cancer or have a life that's what my doctor told me... one minute we talking about me having a baby and next to say that if I don't do anything about my problem it will turn into cancer.. uterine cancer so my friend there it is... I know I know.. still not the same of having your own baby... it will take time... thank you for sharing ally Gomez.. I'm there for you.... Nikki mehta

I'm so sorry, girl :( i can imagine what you're feeling. I probably won't be able to get pregnant either at least not naturally and it terrifies me. Life is just so unfair sometimes. You've been through so much :( too much for a 22 year old. Hang in there.

I have Pancreatic Cancer and I also was Diagnosed with PCOS and early Menopause (still have periods every few months o.O) it stopped when the chemo started. My sister did not think she could carry a baby longer than 4-6 months and she had a son late in life. I was lucky to have had a child at 24. I am much older than you are but I hope that medicine advances enough that you can one day have a family that you want. Life is not fair and it is more painful to me being under the poverty level than having Cancer.

I am 24 having the same problem I pray God help us

I am so sorry to hear your story. I can't help but wonder if you received the Gardasil vaccine. Many young women have experienced cancer and POF as well as other debilitating symptoms after receiving that terrible vaccine.

I was diagnosed with pre-ovarian failure at the age of 17 years old just think how devastated I was that they told me not only could I not carry a baby but I can never have any babies and all I was brought up to do was to get married and have children because that’s what my family believed in. I’m 33 years old now and my husband wants children and that hurts me just as much as it hurts him because we want a baby that looks like us and it will never happen because I can’t have children of my own my own eggs and I can’t carry them either because my uterine lining is too thin

*** Ovarian Rejuvenation *** It's an option to become pregnant with your own egg , your own child. Hope you take the time to look it up online. It was developed with people going through these treatments in mind. Stay Positive & Good Luck !

Dear Ali I’m going through cancer treatment at the moment and things are going well but they told me that I cannot have children as well and I know how hard that could I just wanted to share that information god bless .pray for me ❤️

hugs hugs hugs. I'm struggling with the very same thing and it breaks my heart every day, but I get tougher every day. I was diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure at around the age you were. I'm almost 34 and have yet to try to have kids. Stay strong.

Thank you for sharing! I just found out I have premature ovarian failure and that's how I found your site. How are you?

I've just had Hodgkin's lymphoma and completed six course of treatment. I also had to get those monthly shots. Last one I had in September, but I still don't have my period. Can you tell me, approximately when should I expect one? Cause I'm really worried about that. Especially after hearing your story. Thank you for sharing it with us.

I cried with you at 10:23 because I know how you feel. Though I'm a man, I know how you feel. I have oligospermia and a very low sperm quality. Since I was a child I dreamed to be a father of a daughter and when I started to date and try, nothing happened. Years have passed and when a had a long relationship and tried for a year, notinhg happened. At first I thought it was a coincidence, but later I felt that something was very wrong with me and decided to read about fertility problems in men and women. My ex-girlfriend showed some of her exames, that she did and there was nothing wrong with her and said to do a spermogram. I was reluctant to do, because it's a so embarrassing exam and I had fear to know the truth. So I tried somethings I read that can help, like take vitamins C and E, Zinc and Tribulus, and wait the fertile day, but nothing hapenned. So I finally decided to do this exam. I thought "if this is the cross that I have to carry, whatever". When I did, I returned to my work (as a supermarket cashier) and my cell phone rings. It was an employe from laboratory saying that I'd need to repeat this exam, because the sperm sample that I took are impossible to analyse. When she said it to me my heart got cold, I got desperate, many things passed in my head and I couldn't concentrate in my work as a cashier. When the customers arrived to meet them, they saw my eyes with some tears and a trembling voice. I did an extreme effort to don't cry in front of all clients and workrs, but was in vain. Fortunately the manager and others employes saw this and decided to release me earlier and when they took me to a room to ask what was happening I cried so much. Some employes even got scared about how I was crying, because I'm not a person who cries. They surround me and ask me what was happening, but I didn't said the reasson. Even the supermaket owner went to my house to talk with my mother to know what happened, but I didn't said anything about this. I repeat this exam and the laboratory employer called again and asked what was happening with me and saying that I'm so young to have a so low sperm account and I said in a trembling voice that I didn't know. My ex-girlfriend broke-up with me because of this and did not want to make a treatament to have a son, instead she did blackmail. After this, she date other guy and got pregnant. Unfortunataly the biggest part of women aren fucking with the men problems. I talked to a doctor about this and he said that I have conditions to be a father, but it is only with insemination or IVF. Today I study nursing and people in worsest situations. I'll earn money and try IVF. It's so expensive, but which dreams are not expensive? There is a treatment for your problem, and try to get your dream. Even if your (and my) dream will not come true, maybe ... something will happen and the awser of this will come.

Sending you just a big hug ! :*

Thank you for sharing.

I know you are so sad. But please know the body has a great ability to HEAL itself you are young and your body may repair itself and surprise you. also Acupuncture is surprising very helpful with ovarian failure issues - don't lose hope yet.... Drs. do they best they can but they don't know it all. Don't believe the worst! FSH levels change and fluctuate!

I’m so sorry. I’m so worried to I will be doing more chemo and a auto transplant and I’m so worried I won’t be able to have children...

Thanks for sharing🙏🏽

so sorrry baby, you are not alone

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Hugs i have ovarian failure to because of bowel surgerys i here you 😔

I am 14 years old and I have been diagnosed with POF.

A friend of mine adopted a lot of kids by being a foster parent.

Sadly i was diagnosed with this yesterday 😭

I am so sorry to hear. But please be extra vigilant now since not having a baby puts you at higher risk for breast and endometrial cancer.

My dear you can find a partner who already have kids n there mom NT with them any more.May Allah make everything easy for you in shaa Allah

Thank you

i’m only 17 years old and i just found out yesterday i have premature ovarian failure and hashimoto’s

I learn a year ago at 17 that I have Premature Ovarian Failure

God

I came here out of curiosity, and I'm so, so sorry. Have you thought about fostering? There are heartbreaking stories of kids who need love and stability out there. You get paid to take care of them, instead of paying huge amounts, and there is a route to adoption for some. I married a much younger guy, and I'm not healthy enough to have another kid, so we're considering it when we get settled. No pressure though! Just wanted to throw the idea out there. I'm sure it's a devastating journey for you, and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Whatever route you take, if you decide to adopt or foster or use a donor egg, that child will absolutely be yours! All the love, advice, hugs, and care going into that child will be yours, and you'll be an angel to that child. You will be a mom. I hope I'm not being offensive, just tossing ideas out. Sending cyber hugs!

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Personally I think it’s bullshit I think that it has to be some type of side effect to birth control or something because I was given birth control when I was 17 to regulate my period and I wasn’t even having intercourse yet like I said I feel that life sucks people want us to pray and believe that God will give us a child but the hardest thing in the world is to sit here and pray for more than 10 years for the same shit and feel like he’s not listening and he doesn’t care

Me too..

I know you have a big void in your life now, not being able to have children but as you so beautifully have recognized in the past, perhaps God has another plan for you. I know adoption is not the same, but I suspect it can be equally fulfilling raising a child and giving them a good life. Regardless on where you end up on this journey, I pray you comfort and solace for what makes you sad.

After your relapse I wish you could have gone for a CAR-T trial instead of transplant.

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I am 24 having the same problem I pray God help us