Just like how you logically came to the conclusion that your mother will need your car after you hypothetically drive it off, your mom NEEDS you, as well as your community that you fostered. Cars can be easily replaced, even if they are expensive, but there is only one Kaiser, and no amount of money can replace that.
Yo mint skull you watch this channel??? Hell yeah. Your are hella nice bro, I love when this guy gets support,but I never knew you played dbd and watched him. Cool!
Me and my group recently broke off a nightmare DM (this was our first experience in dnd ever). We started a new campaign last week with me as the new fresh DM. I have watched a lot of your videos and took a lot of your advices. Our group had a great time for our first session thanks to your channel. Your content is valuable and I definetly enjoyed it. I hope you will get better.
As someone who's been through depression, there will be a time when everything will get better. It's hard to believe when your mind is telling you differently, but you have to believe it. It really is a war with your mind, and getting your mind into a new habit is not easy. It will take a lot of effort. You still have people who care a lot about you. Always remember that and tell yourself that. Also, if you're in the city, try some open mic or other activity that will make you happy. Keep active and give your mind positive reinforcement. Go on a short walk in the park and give you mind some endorphins.
I pray that this gets to you in time, but as a father who recently lost his child to depression please don't, you have no idea how important you are to people even if you don't see it. Please don't take the easy road, it's not worth it and know that you are loved, everyone goes through it. I'm a wreck and often feel like I don't want to live, but you can't give up. Please if you need to talk reach out to me or anyone else
I wrote out over 4 paragraphs but decided to delete it. I realised there is nothing I can say in this moment that can truly help. When I was depressed words didn't truly mean anything because none of it mattered. Depression is not something we can fix for someone else. It is a true one person battle. The best outsiders can do is show support give a kind word and hope that enough of them begin to form a layer of protection. You mean alot to me kaiser you are a reminder of how I can do better you make me a better person and I'm sure I'm not alone with that. You are so special and unique and I hope that we don't have to loose you and I hope you can find the strength to fight the bitch called depression. Please stay safe kaiser I know depression won't let you believe it but you really do mean more to us than you can possibly imagine
Bro You Better Suck It Up And Live Your Life To The Fullest! Never take the easy way out! Yeah It's Rough Yeah Stuff isn't fair sometimes You have to live for you! Think of all the people you will hurt when you leave! When you gone ain't no spawning back in like DBD! Better Break Out Of This Thinking Fast! So What Nobody Likes You! Who cares that shouldn't depict Your Life My Boy! Life is beautiful Bro And It Is what We Make It!
Depression is a bitch, im not in a state where i consider self harm ect, but i relate so heavy to your words about "if this gets fixed ill feel better" but it never seems to really be that way
Be yourself, whatever it takes to be happy man. I think you should talk these problems aloud more often. If you have someone to talk to definitely try too. If not please seek help, I watch your content when im free too, and i genuinely enjoy it. Drama sucks, and im sorry you're feeling so terrible
i have depression and the days are different. Sometimes they’re good sometimes they’re bad, but knowing that there are others feeling the way i do, makes me feel less lonely. And I hope that you see this and it makes u feel a little less lonely. No matter what you’re going through, you’re a strong individual dude. I don’t know you or know you as a person but to talk about something so vulnerable, that’s a very strong and courageous thing to do. We’re here for you man.
Kaiser i love watching your content, it really does make my day, im really sorry you're feeling this way and i truly hope you get better. im sorry this message is so shit i can never write well enough to fully show what im trying to say and i hate it
You are the only content creator i can actually relate to, i don't feel so lonely in my misery listening to you talk, i wish you the best Kaiser, I truly mean that
I think RU-vid auto-deleted my comment, so I'll write it from memory. Kaiser, no matter what you may think, no matter what anyone tells you. You are loved, and you will be missed dearly. I hope you wake up tomorrow. I hope things get better for you soon. We all hope things get better for you. We love you Kaiser, and nothing can change that. Keep persevering, things will get better.
"I don't understand how people enjoy my content, cause all I do is turn on a camera and yap". This is pretty much word for word what I've said to people when I've been upset, except talking about myself in general. I don't necessarily practice what I preach but I think this is a good indicator that it's a completely deranged thought and just your brain malfunctioning. It's very easy to not understand how someone can like what you do, or you in general, when you're going through things like this, but you need to remember you aren't other people and not understanding means nothing. This is a drop in the bucket and depression doesn't really give a shit how self-aware you are, but being self-aware is LEAGUES better. If you're schizophrenic and self-aware you're not going to stop hallucinating, but knowing those hallucinations aren't real obviously helps you stay sane.
Hey kaiser. Thank you for inspiring me. I look at your content and then i look at videos where you post personally about yourself and everything youre going through. And i think "ok if kaiser is strong enough to create content while going through that... i think i can create something myself and maybe be a positive influence on the community like Kaiser is." Kaiser watching you was an important part of getting my dumb videos out of my head and on a computer. Please even if its hard to believe it, even if your mind wont let you see it, knownyou are wanted and you are loved. Honest question, have you been seeking a therapist? The right therapist for you i mean?
Friend Kaiser, if it makes any difference, I love your content, and I really appreciate your feelings and experiences with RPGs. I hope you will stick around for a long time. Blessings, my friend, and healing energy.
Firstly I want to give you a reason people like you, it's cos you're authentic and have passion. Not gonna lie it's a double edge sword but you're always you. This was me up until about 14 months ago. In those times a lot of stuff has happened, my perspective has shifted. I'm proud of the person I am now for the first time in over 30 years. I hope the same for you 💜
I wish I could find the words, but I know even if I could, I am just a stranger on the internet. What I will say is you have a very beautiful heart and a very beautiful mind. The people who know you and care for you can definitely see that and the community you grew just from your online presence knows it as well. It's been said, but please reach out to those you do trust - sending much love.
Hi Kaiser, I'm sorry in advance for my bad writing, I'm not so good with words. I'm someone that deals with depression too and I've been in a similar place before. I cannot tell you how sorry I am that you're suffering with this. You don't deserve it. I know it's hard just existing right now, but I promise you that there is hope. Things do get better. There is joy and happiness and love to be experienced in life and you deserve to experience it. Please reach out for help when you need it (it really does help), please try to take care of yourself right now when you're hurting, and please, please don't act on any thoughts. It's hard to see it now, but that will only lead to more pain. I truly enjoy your content (as a dnd and dbd fan) so I also want to say thank you for everything you've shared with us, and whether you continue to post or choose a different job, I wish you nothing but the best. Even if you don't see it yourself, I want you to know that there's people that genuinely enjoy you and the entertainment you make, be it through story telling or game analysis or anything else. Please stay safe & wishing you happiness, peace, and better times ahead -Pixie
Kaiser you’re one of my favourite dbd RU-vidrs a big reason is I enjoy your humour and the way you voice your opinions on dbd and it’s balance and other things your content is genuinely entertaining and enjoyable. I also understand how it feels to be in your position life gets so low at points and I hope it gets better for you idk if my comment will reach you but genuinely you’re enjoyable to watch and I hope all the best for you
Im new to your channel but you gave me great DM advice. Please reach out to someone, if you need to talk im here. I know you dont know me but i feel like i found you recently for this reason. Please don't take yourself, you dont know how much people actually care
It's hard man I get it, I've been depressed for the past couple years and I've been really close to putting one through my brain, but I haven't because I look to the past and I see I've overcome hardship before, and i know it HAS to get better, and it always will. I also know I have people counting on me, and I know if I do give up, I lose the opportunity to help others. Think about this, you have your family, friends, and your entire community to be there for, you can't just give up and leave them. I'll pray for you brother, and I think you should pray as well, I credit everything I've gotten through to the Lord Jesus Christ, but if that's not your thing, I get it, but regardless, it will get better. Don't give up, never give up!
Oh gamer. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. It takes alot of strength to admit that you aren’t okay, and I want you to know that I’m sending love your way. I hope you can stick with us. I find myself struggling frequently with mental health and I want you to know that your content provides me with plenty of distractions, whether it be at work or when I’m sitting around rotting in bed. I’m not very old and I don’t have a lot of answers to anything in life, but I think that if you can find the strength to power through it, it’ll get better. Much love gamer. Keeping you in my thoughts.
Your the best man I’ve been making content for a long time your videos inspire me to keep going and push forward an I love you man your videos always give me something to watch everyday an that’s very important to me
I'm terribly sorry that so many have been unkind to you. I can only offer words to aid, though I wish I could do more for you. You are worthwhile, and I hope you'll see that to keep on striving. Those who have harmed you deserve nothing good for their actions, it's so frustrating to be honest, how some act as if the life of another is just a play thing. Please, remember there are people in this world that still care for you, never doubt that.
Kaiser I know how you feel on levels I live with a mental illness I deal with depression anxiety and an explosive temper I’ve gone through my entire life not being wanted I always just wanted some friends to be accepted to be loved by others other then my parents every so called friend has stabbed me in the back every relationship I’ve been in I’ve been cheated on my last relationship I was in I gave my everything just to be shit on 8 years later and 2 days later she moves on with another man who she is married to now I’ve always felt like a stepping stone for others I was in an abusive relationship I feel unwanted unloved even at times ugly and not good enough I’ve lived my whole life alone and not by choice I don’t really like people much others that are happy triggers me like why I can’t have that life I’ve been good to others loyal giving and never to receive even a portion of it back I’ve prayed to god to let me die in my sleep many of times but I’m still here fighting the fight I’m more homicidal then suicidal my advice to you is just hold on keep moving it’s hard it’s exhausting but you got people that care and for the ones that don’t fuck them they don’t matter stay strong bud it’s hard I know from experience but you got to stay strong I’ll be praying for ya man
When I say many many people love you and like listening to all of your opinions and stories, I MEAN IT! We love you Kaiser, I personally love watching your videos about you giving your thoughts and opinions on random dbd things or just random things in general! You may not see it, but what you have to do is take all of your subscribers on your channel and envision them all standing in one room with you! That's about 7 THOUSAND people in one room all standing, loving and appreciating you and what you do for us! someone may have been going through what your going through right now in the past, and perhaps one of your videos popped up on their recommended, and your funny and great personality put them in a much better mood they were in before. You may not think it or feel it but we love you Kaiser, I send all my love to you. 😇🤗 you can get through this!😌
I don't know you and I don't even know what to say but I hope you can weather this storm. Its cliche but things do eventually get better and you will be stronger for it. A good way to distract your mind could be going on some big self improvement path, I know working out helps a lot of people for a while slew of reasons, talking to a therapist can also be really helpful. I know these are common platitudes but thats for a reason. Also again I don't know all the details but maybe keep creating content but minimize social media use or interaction besides posting your content, I know that can breed a bad mindset especially looking at negative comments. Also off topic but I see one of your other channels is big on DBD so I'll definitely be checking that out.
One of the saddest things in life is we never will know the impact on the people around us, if we did, life would be much brighter. One of the things I noticed in listening to the video is some of the things that you mention sound like sunlight deprivation. If I could make one small suggestion I think will help, is have a cup of coffee in the morning on your porch. It sounds silly, but just that little bit of sun everyday can really help the mental state. As for the trolls, look if you don’t have haters you are not doing it right. Doxxing is one thing, but people who are trolling you the first question I ask is where is their content? Where is their RU-vid or their Twitch at? Most don’t have shit. And the ones who do, how successful are they? Is their content just tearing down other people? Because that stuff is easy, it’s the candy corn of content creation. Now if Shroud is smashing you for something, ok, that’s one thing. He has the credibility to talk. 42KittyKittyLickLick though can STFU and sit down. Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one and most of them stink. I am not trying to make light or be dismissive of your legitimate feelings, because content creating is hard. It is FAR more mentally taxing on the creator than most people realize. Rather I am wanting to drive the point home that you are not the sum total of what a bunch of faceless trolls in their mother’s basement say about you because they don’t have to worry about getting punched in the mouth. Not even by you, but by the folks who follow and love you who would gladly serve up some hands. Chats can be just brutal to their streamers, that is just part of the dance, but they are also fiercely loyal and protective of them as well. Look my man. You are human. You may have lost your temper from time to time when you could have handled things better. You may have posted stuff that in hindsight wasn’t the best of ideas. You are imperfect, just like the rest of us. Acknowledge the mistakes, learn from them, and try to move on and be better. It is all we can do in the end. But don’t feel that you are a waste of space or that you shouldn’t be here. Don’t let shit people make you feel that way because it will rob other folks who do need you and love you for you. You cannot know the lives of people that you have touched, and will touch in the future. Trust me, it is not a small number.
Kaiser... Nothing i can say is something that is different from the last. But i hope... I know it will get better you just have to hang in there till it does and maybe you can finally find peace of mind and happiness without harm. I know anything i say can just be passible because im some random stranger on the Internet, but please kaiser... It might not seem like it now but there are people in this world who genuinely care for you and would be absolutely crushed if you werent here anymore. Please, hang in there man. It will get better
we enjoy listening to you yap because we just enjoy your presence i guess, which i think if people are willing to just listen to yap about whatever. That probably means something about you thats you're pretty epic. Obviously we dont know all the stuff you do in your day to day but finding stuff that makes yourself proud, like for me it was just learning an instrument, it makes you way happier. Everyone has that thing, that tells them "this is why i want to live, for moments like these" just have to find what it is. Which is just a small step, but for me it really helped me get out of that constant feeling of dread. Maybe you need those moments to relax, but still be occupied with something
hey man I just want you to know that you are love people love you we love because you are funny and you are a great person you can make a bad day into a great day life is a gift and it's a gift we don't know if we can have again so please don't take your life seek some help talk to someone who can help you we love you Kaiser I just want you to know that we love man stay strong
