I'm a self-taught, insecure artist. And I tried painting my biggest painting yet (spoiler: I failed) 

Great upload my friend 🙏🌺 Keep it up with your amazing work 💐🌺🙏👍 🌺💐🌺

very impressive video. wintry 😊 absolutely great my friend👍❤️🖼️

This painting is really impressive. I love the heavenly clouds surrounding the symbolic pine tree. And the sun rays are so warm and inviting. The cliff and lone person look a bit lonely but hopeful 👍🏼🖼️💜 thank you for sharing this wonderful artwork

I'm kind of lost for words, because a few minutes ago, I was lying alone on my couch, overwhelmed by the sadness of losing my grandma once again...and then I decided to watch your video and see you grieving for the same reason ❤️ and I cried with you. I try to process that grief through video creation at the very moment, but it is so so hard...Sending you much love and a big hug ❤️ your drone shots are gorgeous, so is the painting! Your dogs are the cutest and I admire how candidly you are able to talk to the camera 🥰

No way, that is absolutely beautiful! What a beautiful painting. Not only is it a masterpiece, but the effort, thinking, and EVERYTHING that went into it is absolutely LOVE. I'm so glad you did not give up! Everything paid off. I'm so happy for you. And the process of this whole journey has taught you valuable lessons, one of which is yes, to believe in yourself! I love that. I enjoyed this video wholeheartedly. Not only did you make a beautiful painting, but the video was breathtaking as well. All the transitions, music, the imagery, wow! No words. I'm just gonna end it with - thank you for sharing Frederike hehe

I don't know how I found myself here. But even though I was (am) so tired and needing to go to bed, I found myself so emotionally invested and wanting to see how it all worked out for you. And it did! It's beautiful! I love trees, especially twisty ones. This is magical. My heart went out to you as well for the loss of your grandmother. I just marked 1 year since my mother died. It's so hard. Thank you for sharing the journey. I am glad you pushed through. I used to draw/paint/do calligraphy in high school, many years ago. I don't remember how to do ANY of it. But I remember these types of struggles. One thing you have to learn to do is separate yourself from your art. It is done by you. It's part of you. But it is not you. You do the best you can and you give it to God. If you make it the measure of who you are, it will continue to make you sick and miserable. Anyway, all the best to you!

simply stunning. what a beautiful video ❤!!

Your beautiful laugh at the end was such a light! 💛 Ooh Wow!!! I think your final painting turned out absolutely majestic!! 😍💫 To be honest, even the mushroom "fail" one is quite beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing both your creative process as well as your processing of anxiety and allowing/moving through emotions. It is so reassuring to know we all have these very human struggles. Ah you are most certainly creating a lovely community here on your beautiful channel!! I'm so so happy to be here in all of the vast internet. 🤗 (PS. I will finally have my next video up next week! Thank you so much for asking and checking on my channel too 💖) Lots of love to you Frederike!

😇💟Super video and Natur

Hello Frederike! Happy 9th anniversary. Loved the epic music you had midway. Even though you said you failed I thought it was turning out ok, but the second version looks amazing. Love how the light emanates from the tree. But I hear you, a bit of a plan/sketch really helps guide things along. Learning experiences for sure. Hope you are having a great day!

Why there isn't at least a couple of zero's on your subscriber count has me mystified Frederike!! Not only was this a very moving portrayal of your whole artistic process, emotionally and physically, but also the amount of time to edit this in such a professional way is mind blowing my friend!! Keep doing what you're doing and wherever it is you're going, you're going to get there, big time!! It's all about the journey!!:)Robbie

WOW, the last painting is... WONDERFUL

every footage in your video is just so impressive ❤

Omg making me cry. I miss my nana too. ❤

I feel like I've just come off an emotional roller coaster, just from WATCHING what you went through with this project!! There's a lot to be said for the lessons I'm hoping we've all learned from your first painting, which took you months to complete and put you (and us) through the wringer. Like you said, it's good to have a plan, it's good to test out ideas on a smaller scale, and it's good to set (and stick to) a firm limit on how many new ideas we entertain as a painting progresses. I also think it's good not to put too much pressure on yourself or on one project, to encapsulate and disseminate everything you have on your mind. I'm sure your partner would have loved a small-scale still-life of a dejected Raggedy Ann doll if you had made that your project. btw, my condolences on your loss of your grandmother, which may have contributed to the pressure you felt during this project. The whole time you were lamenting how little white you had left, I was thinking about how you were surrounded by white outside. You speak a ton of really nuanced English, and you express yourself really well in what I take it is not your first language. While the first painting seemed to trip over its own overlapping symbolism, I think the final painting turned out well, and works well to represent the triumph of the human spirit.

I love it!!! And I love you dear friend! As Beene brown says, vulnerability takes courage and that should be applauded 💞🌻 hope you and the puppies are well my dear friend, such a wonderful and exciting journey you are on…. Big hugs from me, Sadie & Pip Xxoo 💐🫶🏼🌻💞🙏

Perseverance is such a 'great gift' but you managed it and look how awesome your painting became ! Yes painting is often a battle to beat and of course it can be 'stressy', tiring and scary because each brushstroke is a decision to take , a risk ,but imagine If it happened automatically, the challenge would be gone and it would become boring or it would become "assembly line work" and thàt's not what we creative minds are looking for (pinky eye .. my emoticons refuse to work ) , be patient and gentle with yourself and everything will come as you want . A little preparation is helpful but the magic will happen on the canvas. What helps me when I am stuck or not sure , I take a picture from the painting , print a few numbers (or you can do it digital) and work on it so it feels a little less pressure ....and keep in mind that not every painting or artwork needs to be (or can be) a Masterpiece . Enjoy the process , you have plenty of time ... Btw what a beautiful landscape even I can imagine the snow maybe will not always be glitter and glamour ohhh and you have two lovely assitants ! Relax and have pleasure with your next project ! Looking forward to see what you are up to .

Wow you really came through in the end. The new painting is beautiful!

Fantastic Frederike I know your partner will / does love it (it’s from the heart after all 😊) It’s almost a representation of the process of its creation (with bridges of inspiration crossing the chasms of doubt on the way to enlightenment 🙏🏼 truly superb 👌🏻 Congratulations by the way 9 years 🎉 Thanks for sharing this journey Very best wishes to you and your 🤠🙏🏼 Simon

Nice work, Frederike! I think you managed to pull it off quite well in the end. It's very challengeing to paint something from imagination, but you did awsome 😍 I'm no stranger to the emotional rollercoaster of art projects, it's extremely frustrating but also extremly rewarding in the end. And happy 9th anniversary! I wish your days to be filled with love, happiness and laughter! Me and my partner are having our 8th anniversiry this April and I know what you mean that it feels surreal. I can't believe it as well 😃

Great finish!

Wow bful painting. Well done

This was such a beautiful and inspirational video again. And the painting turned out wonderful after all the struggle. It's quite funny how our ego tries to make us so small and constantly makes us doubt ourselves in order to keep us safe in that comfort of the known. And until we learn that those thoughts are not really who we are, we are often stuck in the loop of darkness and low self worth. Fortunately, you kept going and had faith in yourself and your skills and you succeeded. Great work. Have an amazing day :)

beautyful panting.