I'm Sorry 

As someone who has been through debilitating depression for years I want you to know it can get better. Just stay off the drugs and boos. You're living in paradise. Life in Vietnam is much better and easier than most places. Enjoy it. Always remember no matter how bad things get, other people have had it much worse and they made it through. Look at what you have instead of what you don't have. You have 2 arms, 2 legs, your eyesight, your hearing, your speech, and your health. Others don't have that but are happy living their life. You are blessed in many ways. Recognize that, love yourself, and love life. You have it good.

Hang in there brother… There’s light at the end of the tunnel…. we love you!!!

I am blown away by your honesty. You're very brave to let it all out on RU-vid. Everyone has some dark side, but most people are not brave enough to confront it the way you do. All relationships have conflict. I am sorry you had to split up with your gf, but on the bright side, you're lucky you don't have kids to worry about. Get up, clean up, and move forweard Tyler. You're still very young, there's still a lot of opportunites to be found in your life. Don't give up my friend. Take care.

Take the sorry and turn it into positive energy. Loved your honesty and transparency, Bentley.

As a person that deals with depression, I won’t go into any long story, but dealing with depression you do tend to sabotage yourself. All I can say is one day at a time. Don’t look past one day at a time for now you don’t have to be sorry about anything. Take care

Don't be sorry, it takes courage to say what you say. Carry on .... everyone have suffering, no one is immuned.

From what i see here, you are making all the right moves. You have recognised that you have a problem, you have acknowledged the problem by speaking about it, and you are taking steps to deal with your problem. There's no need to be sorry to your viewers, you don't owe us anything

As I get older, I realize a simple stress-free life is what I hope to achieve. I enjoy my own company.

Bentley, please take care of your mental health. Depression is a real thing. You can move to country side where there is no access of drug and alcohol . Helping poor kids, do volunteer at orphan center. things like that will bring you real joy. your life is matter. please do not let that suicide though get into ur mind.

Appreciate your openness Tyler, I’m sorry to hear about your relationship and depression you’re struggling with. I know you’re a smart guy and you know what you need to do but as someone who lost a close friend to suicide/depression I have to tell you stop drinking and get help. You need to get to a better state of mental health. That’s the most important thing. Take care of yourself. If you need a friend or someone to talk to I’m in HCMC.

Appreciate you brother, thank you for sharing with us what you're going through.. I'll always support you my friend, please take care of yourself.

Phenomenal video....let.me start by saying, I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry Tyler that you've struggled secretly and self-shamingly for so long, and I'm sorry you had to go there (I know that.place.all to well, especially since my heart, my other half, my better half died in my arms) to forgive yourself and admit to yourself that you deserve better....it's the self-loathing that perpetuates the despair and limits the hope, I know brother, trust me.Second, and most importantly, I want to say I love you for this brutal honesty and glimpse between the pages.of your life's story/struggles/victories...and to let you know that your honest vulnerability, has hopefully been as cathartic and emotionally freeing for you as it is for way too many.of us out here in the ether of the cyber-community, many still suffering silently and under the misbelief of an end to the chaotic darkness....it's through bravery such as yours that.hopefully that spark of hope, a glimmer at the end of their tunnel appears....I applaud you Tyler....and thank you as well....for I've been rekindled to continue and someday fulfill my.mental/emotional repair, as I pray the countless others alone in their own darkness are inspired to as well, and let it be known to you that your never truly alone...the outpouring of love and admiration I've read in the other responses makes this blatantly obvious....we.live ya man, and are always gonna be here for you when ya need us...as you are always there for us when we.need you aswell...I think some well deserved travel through the provinces...exposure to the vast ethnic diversity of Vietnam might do both you and your mission of creativity justice, it just a thought brother....until I see ya again, ease be well and continue to persevere as the quirky-kindhearted curious kid finding his way....I love seeing the journey, good or bad, your channels vision has been a godsend to me and I'm sure countless others, peace.

This was beautiful Tyler, thank you for sharing. Please stay strong.

You only have one shot at life young brother, and it doesn't come with an instruction manual. You learn as you go. Be proud, don't look back and fret. Move forward and know your strength, and be the best you are one day at a time. Love you young Man..

Regarding suicide, think about the pain you would inflict to those who love you.

Tyler I stumbled upon your channel few weeks ago and as a Vietnamese American I have valued all your videos including this one. You’re well spoken and are absolutely brave to post this video. Saying you’re sorry comes from the goodness of your heart. My take away from this video is don’t loose hope. I’m staying with your channel and look forwards to your next videos my friend !

Tyler, You don't owe anyone of us an apology. Your health is the most important thing in your life and we are fortunate to have you shared these wonderful videos of your life, whether it is daily, weekly or monthly. Take care of yourself!

Hang in there mate. My sister took her own life thinking that she was doing us a favour by us not worrying about her. Furtherest from the truth. Family are still traumatised by it. Showing love for you. Get back to those videos and fucken hurry up

Hey man, just wanted to drop in here and say it takes a lot of moxie, courage, and character to express these things and post this video. I don’t know you personally, but I’ve watched and enjoyed your videos for a while now as someone who is moving to Saigon to teach in May. Having some similar experiences in my background, I sincerely commend your honesty about all of this. The darkness is powerful and always waiting to catch you in a bad and vulnerable spot. Take care of yourself man, and hang in there. It sounds like there are plenty of people who love you, and the world is a better place with you in it. Stay creative and let that lift you up. Bell well good sir.✌️

Let's take a trip back to US for months to recover and continue exploring other countries, guy.

Proud of you for doing this!! Hope this helps you take a step forward into healing and doing what you love, always. ❤

The Buddha said, “All I teach is suffering and the end of suffering.” Suffering in his teaching does not necessarily mean grave physical pain, but rather the mental suffering we undergo when our tendency to hold onto pleasure encounters the fleeting nature of life, and our experiences become unsatisfying and ungovernable. You should find a good book on the teachings of Buddha on suffering… You’re in the right part of the world to explore Buddhism.

hang in there man, give yourself plenty of time to work it out for yourself. we are all behind you.

Keep your head up sir. Not the first person to have personal issues, relationship and otherwise, so no reason to apologize. Do what you need to and talk to who you need to and don't worry about us.

My son is very much like you. SO MANY people resort to self medicating these days...it's so scary. Appreciate you being honest and show how prevalent the drug problem is in this country. Most kids now are popping pills like it's nothing.

I must admit that I am not a regular viewer of your vlogs and I was curious about the title. It takes a lot of courage to share your deepest inner hurts and struggles to the universe. You may feel you’ve let a lot of people down, but know that your Heavenly Father always love you no matter what. In the U.S. you can get help with these hurts and struggles in a ministry like Celebrate Recovery but they probably don’t have this in VN. God is omnipotent and omnipresent regardless of where you are on this planet. I pray that the Lord would connect to other Christian expats in VN who could give you support and so that you don’t combat these issues in isolation. I will be praying for you, brother.

Tyler. You are a brave, strong man, even if you don't feel it right now. Thank you for sharing and know you are not alone in your battles❤

Please take good care of yourself Bentley. You’re very important in life. I’ve always enjoyed your videos. You’re a good man. I live close by. If you want someone to talk too. Please take care of yourself Bentley.

Appreciate you being real and sharing your journey. Self realization is a huge step to moving forward on the road to recovery. All the best to you and wishing you well.

Gutsy stuff mate..your honesty just shows you are really a good person inside who cares for others and more importantly yourself..get well mate and keep the creative juices flowing !! ❤

Tyler, it's good to talk about your problems. Please know that lots of people on this channel love and care for you, despite the 'distance'. Some of us cannot or don't talk about our problems as it would be too painful for ourselves or for the people we would like to speak to. You said your dad and stepmom were good to you, so at least you know some people care for you, more than some in this world who have nobody. At least you admit you have problems with drugs and alcohol. Those who don't can never heal. Admit that drugs and alcohol make things worse, you take them to forget for a short while, but after a while, you feel more down than ever. Why don't you try and do new things, for instance, go to new places and vlog about them. Please always remember that you have the support of your subscribers and you are not alone. Don't be ashamed, there is nothing to be ashamed about, it is good to let it all out! Lots of love!

Life is a journey of ups and downs ….take care of yourself during the low times because soon it will be the good times again

Share. We all appreciate it. I would assume most of use, including myself, have gone and still going through similar life challenges. Keep calm and carry on. Don't be alone! :)

Hang in there, Tyler. Everyone will face their own demon(s) at some point in their lives. It all comes down to dealing with it head on and know that there is actually light at the end of every dark tunnel.

Keep your head up bro, Hope you get thru this

Bro, I listened the entire video.. please maintain good mental health and just stay away from things that will further plunge you into depression 🙏. Honestly speaking, the suicidal talks I don't like so please get professional help early before things get away. Peace Bro

i've (unfortunately) seen a million youtube vids, never one like this. the guts to upload this, unimaginable. 8 billion of us out there, running around, trying to figure out the one unsolveable enigma, how to (unconditionally) like the person in the mirror. we're all 'on a scale'. and we're all hopeless addicts. screens being just one of the many substances. thank you for making thousands of us not feel alone in the good fight. and you have less than nothing to be sorry about, including and especially to yourself. can't apologize for pain. you didn't choose your genes or background. nor did your parents, or theirs, or theirs. we've all been dealt some cards and do our best with them. can't apologize for numbing the pain. nobody leaves their hand on the stove.

Hey hey my brother. I'm glad to see you again. Sorry that you've gone thru that depression again. You know that we love you, right? I'm so tempted to give you advice. But like I said before, I'm not an expert on counseling so I'm not going to. I just want you to be healthy and happy. I wish I could do something to help you overcome this. That's all I can say. My dank rank for your honesty: 10/10.

Please don’t feel ashamed. Please know that you’re a good person. We all have obstacles and challenges. Take care of yourself, and know you’re not alone.

May God bless you with courage and health to get through this. Tyler, at least you acknowledge your issues, be honest with yourself and seeking helps to move forward. You are a good person with a kind heart, be brave and you will get through this Tyler. You have a wonderful dad, reach out to him. I can see the love in your dad’s eyes when he came to visit you. Take great care of yourself. I applause your honesty, the first step facing your fears and deal with it. Seek helps brother, you will get thru this. Sending you 🙏

Don't be ashamed about what your going through. It's a tough thing to talk about. I know I've been there. Just one day at a time, one step at a time. It will be a long journey, but one that will be worth it. You got this.

Keep your head up! You have a lot of positive things in your life & you're a very intelligent person.

Bentley, most of us as least one time in life have same happened to you. You will be better!!! It is still fresh. You will be okay! Will be smarter for your next relationship. I have been broken up with my girl friend I love her so much back then. But I think that’s the good thing 26:06 to left her for some reason. Will be ok friend! I think you feel better when you l talk out. Be strong ! Be a man brother . No one love you but you love yourself ! You will be stronger after you get through this. God bless you brother!!!

Bentley, depression is real, glad you’re taking the right steps and admitting you do have an issue. Work on yourself first then relationship will come. Where there’s and ending there’s a new beginning. Don’t be sad Bro. Maybe detox for a bit and clear up your mind. Health is wealth

You don’t have to be sorry for being human. Falling is a part of life. Don’t beat yourself up too much.

Hey Tyler. Take one day at a time and keep your head up. Life is full of peaks and valleys. Praying for ya buddy.

Take care of you, your in our thoughts 😊

Been there, done that! In my life, I had 4 episodes of mental breakdown/depression. One time it was so bad i had to be admitted to a mental health facility. I had to get up each time as i had two young children to care for. My ex-wife was a big reason for my situation. We finally divorced (children grown up) in early 2017. I also discovered God in 2017. In late 2018, God showed me this wonderful Vietnamese lady (online) and we married in 2019. I moved from Perth to Hanoi and have been living here ever since. Life is good here and i have been depression free in the last five years. At times when i feel i was "going down", i distract my thoughts by reciting the Lord's Prayer over and over again. You need to learn (you probably know already) to distract your thoughts. You have done well to be here. Bless each day you get up and thank the Lord, i am told a million people didn't. There is no need to apologize. Your friends, relatives and especially your dad loves you. Nothing makes them more happy than seeing you. Life is up and down. I also learned this "It is what it is", accept it and move forward. God bless.

You know what. Kudos to you for sharing your story with us. There are so many people out there who is or was going through similar situations. Don’t beat yourself up. Its ok to not be ok sometimes. And talking about it is therapy and we are here for it

Hang in there. It will get better. Wishing you all the best.

Moving on is okay. Keep pushing forward.

Ppl with the biggest heart & compassion are more prone to depression. You are a beautiful soul bro. Just know that you are not alone, and there are actual ppl in this world who can understand & see through you, and your beautiful gentle soul. Sometimes these ppl are not close or around your circle, but they are out there in this chaotic world. Just fyi. I ❤️ you, my brother. Dont beat yourself.

There you go! The most important sorry was to yourself. But sorry only has meaning if it leads to changing the situation. You are you, so give yourself some grace, make sure to be conscious of your inner dialogue, and keep it kind to yourself.

I really hope and pray things get better for you, I remember being overwhelmed in my younger years, but it gets better. Keep hoping for a better day and strive to reach something good every day. My son is now 33, he also went thru difficult times, it always happens to good and thoughtful people. Hope to see you in a better state soon...

Sorry to hear, many of us have gone through those emotions. They said the smart one should move on quick, it's not the end of the world. In any given cases most the ex don't give a D what you've been think. There are hundred of things you can do for yourself or our tomorrow and to keep busy. I only been married for a decade but wish I can be single again like you lol. Got the freedom whenever you wanted. Be strong and keeping your mental healthy. Don't waste your youth life for something you could not control.

Don’t say sorry. I’m sorry to hear that😢we didn’t see you for a while and miss you too . Take care of yourself 💪💪💪💪💪💪🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀❤❤❤❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏we all need to see you smile and strong 💪 don’t be sad please ❤l hope l can see you soon 🥰

The reason that it is important to be honest with others is that it allows you to truly absorb that honesty yourself and look at your present reality from an outside view. Don't apologise to us. Apologise to yourself for not being kinder to yourself and not taking better care of yourself. Online therapy and a year on antidepressants completely changed my life. I am not on the meds anymore, but the therapy has equipped me with the emotional tools to deal with things much more competently. Never give up. We are here for you, but your task is to make sure that YOU are there for YOURSELF. ❤❤❤❤ You can contact me anytime, Tyler. Know that there are people who care about you, even though they have never met you.

Be thankful for what you have. You are a great dude. Keep your heads up and you will be fine.

Your honesty is greatly appreciated. I hope you get the help that you need . And do more videos.

Bro, what you're going through is what we call "Life." Up & down. Key is even in our darkest days, we get up no matter how hard or tired we are, and PUSH ON! Every challenge I face has made me STRONGER. In my life, many people have helped me during my most challenging moments....not just people I know but strangers. Going through challenges has restored my faith in humanity & myself. One thing though, lay off alcohol & drugs. Those things just make the situation worse. Go to rehab if you need support to kick alcohol & drugs. Relationships are tricky and maybe take time before getting serious again. When a relationship fails, just think of it as no one's fault. Not you or hers. Just learn from it, and improve each other moving forward. For now, just make friends that way you don't feel pressure from a relationship. When I'm down, I ALWAYS listen to motivational videos. RU-vid has many of those videos. It has ALWAYS lifted me up to face WHATEVER comes my way! I've made it to regularly listen to it every day & every night before I sleep! That's what has worked for me...we're not here to judge, we're here to support you as we've all experienced "life!" So we understand!! PUSH THROUGH BRO! YOU GOT THIS!

Everything will be oke, just don't give up !!

Sitting here in Toronto, thinking about your courageous video. Know there are lots of people out here in RU-vidLand who care about you. I hope today is a good day. You're a strong guy, opening up to everyone like you did. I hope you can find some support close by, maybe a friend hang with or to go wander the alleys with.

I hope you get where your at in life as I know about mental health struggles etc as I’m helping my eldest son atm his 36 a struggling.

Dude! life is so beautiful!! forget the past get on your new life and be very careful when choose partner for your life most of them are go for the $$$$. You're awesome and your Dad is also an incredible awesome Man. I hope I meet both of you sometime. I live in California. Again be happy.

It takes a lot of courage to share what you're going through. Be proud of your progress and continue to let your support system be there for you.

Don't be sorry Bentley. I hope you some help and feeling better 🙏🏻.

Please stay strong bro! We all had our ups and downs in life. Take some time out and see if you can get back to her. I still feel you guys are meant for each other. God Bless my child 🙏 P.s. I am 40 already, so I am like an elder brother to you from another Mother.

Tyler, you are not alone, everyone has problems in their life but you have a courage to talk it out and you should have a courage to overcome it. Buddha said the worst enemy in one’s life is themselves because you have to fight the hardest battle against addiction and fear of loneliness. I believe you can win this battle because have the courage to let us know, you should also have the courage to fight it. Try to find a purpose in life. You can join a volunteer group to help poor people They need your help and you might find happiness there when you help them. hope you will feel better soon, brother.

I hope you feel better letting it all out. We're here to support you. Continue your video as that's what makes you happy.

That’s life! We try to avoid sickness, loneliness, discomfort, and loss. We emotionally attach to physical comfort, love, relationship, pleasure, and abundance. We constantly crave for these feeling associated with the release of dopamine and serotonin. Life is impermanent. After the end of pleasure, there will come the displeasure; after healthy youth, there will be sickness and old age; and after gaining wealth, there will be anxiety to keep the wealth. Life is forever in cycle of Dukkha, the noble truth of suffering. The journey of our life is like the course of roller-coaster, up-and-down and changing. You, I, and most everybody living in the world have been through this journey, facing this noble truth of suffering. That is part of our spiritual growth. You are intelligent person who come to that awareness and be able to introspect your inner thought, feeling, and mindfulness. Most of our generations have been living in this modern world which we are so busy with our career, family, and the outside world that we neglect our inner need, the spiritual growth. Bentley, you need a guiding path to manage your spiritual growth. It is not necessary to pick up a religion but to invest your mind into reading lifelong learning principle such as Buddha Dharma.

please do not move on to a new relationship and have your happiness depend on otheres. you need to find happiness within yourself and be happy and love yourself as cliche as it sounds. you are being selfish for trying to find a partner when you know you are suffering from mental issues and depression. it is selfish to bestow that burden on to others. you need to find comfort in being alone, rediscover yourself, your hobbies. no one can help you but yourself, everyone has problems and yours is no different. i suffered from depression for 10 years mate, went down the path of self destruction, drugs, ive done it all from weed, to meth to heroin. i overcame my struggles because i realised no one gives a shit about my problems and that only i can help myself. the comedown from meth doesnt help!! turned my life around now i am married with my own house, decent job and now having a kid soon!! if you can overcome depression theres nothing u cant overcome.

Hang in there brother! Also sorry to hear of your separation from your GF, she seemed like a real gem. Sending much love to you both!🙏💕

Finally here buddy mad love and I'm sorry for your rough day and I wish I could come see you and vibe and catch up you been a good friend

Hang in there, bro. You will overcome it. Speaking out, acknowledging the issues and sharing it are also always better than keeping it inside and suffering it. God bless you

Thanks for being brave and sharing your journey with the world--you really didn't have to. It takes a lot of courage to part ways so the two of you can find your own happiness; don't be too hard on yourself for falling back to the familiar. It showed on camera the two of you were unhappy or something was amiss. Life is about falling down and getting back up at your own pace. You recognize your vice, no reason to be sorry!

David Goggins, Anthony Bourdain, Nick Vujicic Try looking these guys up to help give you a more positive outlook of all the negative aspects of life

Bentley I useally never write any comments but your video hits me right on.I have been through this long time ago so guess i know how it feels.But like you said there is light in the end of the tunel i wish you all the best and keep chasing for your goals.Your Fan Thanh

Hi Bentley, depression is not uncommon, online help would be a good start. You ve got a whole life ahead of you stay strong and stay away from self medication . Time will heal all those pains.

Hey bro I’ve been following you since I came here from the us 3 months ago and still am, I’m kinda surprise you talk about this issue, to me it’s not that tragic bro, I’ve seen some of my close friend went through hell, way a lot worst than I can ever imagine bro but they got through it some how, I’m sure god is watching over you bro, just don’t give up, don’t feel bad about it, just move on you can alway better yourself bro, I know you’re a good guy, I reallly believe you can make things better for you and everyone around you, just have faith, you’ll be ok, pray for you bro.❤

I’m so sorry you’re going through this again Tylor Bentley. I pray that you reach out to God by prayers. I’ve pass your RU-vid to my friends for prayers. We all have some sort of problems from time to time. Hang it there. Recognizing you’ve a problem is a blessing and being able to share will help you in so many ways.🙏🏼

Sorry to hear this. Please take care yourself by doing something fun & relaxing Brentley

I’m subscribing purely because I resonate to this…..

Dont be sad, infact there are many good girls outside, find the girl that really caring you

Your country and your family gave you a good shape body,life..Do not let the bad thing knockout you.They don't deserve your love.!.

I accept your apology - and with no ill feelings or misgivings. But I'm not relevant here, you are, and you've now apologised to yourself. Accept your own apology and move on with baby steps. You enjoy the endorphins from the gym, visits to museums and cultural sites, people watching from restaurant tables on the sidewalk - maybe reconnect with just one of these things each day and plan how to enjoy tomorrow better? You're smart enough to recognise what's wrong, so now chip away at getting to be where you want to be. You've already achieved so much in your life that you should be very proud of - get on with adding to it !!

It's not always going to be easy, and you won't always want to ask for help. I had to realize that sometimes it's okay to not be okay..it's okay to just let it hurt. It's how you use that hurt and pain to learn from it, become stronger from it. Even if you have to ask for help sometimes. Amongst all the hard days, you have made it through every single bad day you've had so far. Life has so many beautiful things around you, if you just take the time to look. Find joy in the small things. Smiling at a stranger, being kind to everyone you meet, early mornings with a warm cup of coffee, and the peace that comes with the silence of the night

Stay strong brother!

True, Tyler, you deserve better than that!

Take care yourself. Happen is Happend. Life will never stop. Relax. Take care .

You make me feel SO Stress by watching you and your channel....

I was being in despair and depression in the last week or two; however I am back now. If I can do it , so can you!!! Many other girls out there would like to hook up with you, no worries, Tyler !!! Your ex would not find any one else better than you! Take your time! Go out and meet new people! You will be fine!!! Just because her personality doesn't match yours, doesn't mean you have to think about changing anything !!! Move on and forget everything about her ! You deserve someone better that that. No doubt about it!!!

You got the looks, mannerisms, integrity and most of all honesty. Time will heal all wounds and you owed it to yourself to make it better. We’re all at some point have to battle our own demons, and the most important part of falling is be able to get back up and keep moving forward. Best of luck to you and be well.

Thank you for sharing your deepest honesty ! It takes courage and bravery to dig deep and addmit you have a problem . You know the root of your fear , not everyone can see our own problem ! You are in Vietnam where the weather is always warm , your dollar goes a long ways . Set yourself free , take a step back . Go to another yiwn do some fishing vidios ! Stay out of the city ! Love you please talk to someone close to you ! Know that you are bring loved please take care!❤

It sounds like you have a lot of insight

Thanks for being honest & sharing your personal life with us. I am so sorry that I asked if you still have your mom in your other video. You seem very nice person & caring so don’t be so hard on yourself. U can control your life how you want it to be now. Enjoy watching your videos! Take care of yourself❤

Let the past gone and look forward for a bright future. You are still young. Don’t repeat the same mistakes and love yourself and ones who care for you

I think you should start working out regularly, it will help with your mood and mental capability. As they say a strong mind starts with a strong body. Plus you can connect more with your dad on how he's working out because he looks like someone straight from cod black ops. Anyways stay strong my man

I agree with the previous comment. I think you need to go back to the states for a bit. Focus and head out again. Good luck.

You know what you do : Take care your Life and go far from Dangerous ..

Bentley, life is such a beautiful gift, live it. Enjoy every moment of it. Have a goal, have a dream, something you look forward to. And have love and give it. Hope you will be okay. When I feel down I just travel, it fills me with adrenaline and joy.