I’m just talking about how much I miss my friend. After seeing me fall out of reality 3 times the barriers in the relationship grew too big to knock down so I folded and walked away. I talk about how the dynamic in the relationship changed and how it made me feel. I truly miss my friend. I don't miss feeling like the crazy friend that's unpredictable and might blow up and ruin a party. I don't miss feeling like I'm forcing myself on someone just so they will be my friend. And I certainly don't miss causing my friends pain. I don't have many friends anymore but the ones I do are kick ass to keep me around, so that's the bright side. By the way every time I do these videos I become more and more self conscience about my scars I always feel like I have to explain or point them out even though I'm sure most people don't even notice. Self- esteem has always been an issue for me but it's so much harder these days. Maybe tomorrow I'll show you guys my scars.
1 окт 2024
