I feel the pain, even in the times i am lost, i dance in the rain, even in the darkness there is a little spark a little flame that will never go away. It is within you too friend.
yo i know im a stranger however i understand how you feel. You may feel empty inside but that's okay. One day a flower will bloom within you that will give you the happiness you have been waiting for. God his the strongest battles to the strongest people. You're amazing man im proud of how far you've come. I love you and God loves you sir.