This one hurts the most hands down. Just the thought of forgetting everything as everyone around forgets about you. Dementia is not a disease, it's a tragedy.
Depressing fact: typically the last thing people suffering from dementia do is hum their favorite song. When they do eventually forget that tune, they usually die within a couple of weeks.
Honestly I’d be willing to argue that dementia is worse than death. You just become a corpse, still living, but it loses its personality and everything unique about it. It’s almost as if you just get scrapped to a model.
That’s why if I do become diagnosed with it I’d probably just end it myself to be honest. I’d rather die with my memories and knowing who I am than die as a husk
my granny has alzheimer, i've never paid attention to that, always so naïve and young. But now i live with her, yesterday when she finally realised she couldn't do her crochét like before she said "no.. it cant be, i was always so good, my mother taught me..", and then two minutes later she was laughing at the tv. this record shattered me.
I love it. When listening through the whole thing, Stage 4 and 5 were a nightmare to a listen to but there's a certain beauty to Stage 6, even before the very end.
@@flavy4027 It's however you view it, but the conclusive ending everyone comes to agree.. Stage Six's return of music is a significance of death, release, the seldom waves end to hear music once more. You're so far gone... you're still in that empty abyss but the torture you endured in the horror prior is finally coming to an end. Likely a singular memory returned that was so vivid... And it ends. You have finally passed away. The mental torture you've endured is done...
@@flavy4027 I believe that it is supposed to simulate the fleeting return of lucidity and memory that occurs right before death in neurological disease cases. The last memory burning as bright as it can before the dull and everlasting darkness of death.
The last 5 minutes sounds like a thing called 'Terminal Lucidity' Where for 4 minutes you can hear church choir and the music is coherent again. This usually happens leading up to death and is a moment where the person suddenly remembers/has a heightened mental state, this lasts for a few minutes to days even. And the last minute, which is silence, is most likely to refer to death, the end of everything
@@thegamesbrotherssvk5135 I think it relates to yknow heaven because they are about to pass away, so we associate it with the end of everything. It means that that’s it, that’s the end of everything.
I used to work in a dementia home, its a really depressing place. At the late stages of dementia some of the people there you could barely call alive. They were just husks of people unable to move or talk. And not like not walking move, as in they barely could move themself to swallow, couldn't move there own heads, couldn't change there face, could barely open there eyes. Those poor people, at those stages, they aren't there for them. There kept there because there family doesn't want to realize there loved one died long ago. There paying us to keep them alive but i would be lying if it wasn't a good day when there body finally gives out.. cause damn did there minds die long before that, there just there suffering so that there family has a "living" person to look at once a month and cry to.
Regardless of the poor state their mind and body was, i can confirm the happiness you have when that person...that person, is still alive. I didn’t even have time to meet my grandma as she was, on a perfect mental and phisical state. But i loved her, regardless. I entered a deep depression when she died, which im still scaring to this day.
I recently lose my grandmother last March and I'm the one who took the responsibility to take care of her. She suffered the last stage last 2nd of January and every week passes by,she detoriate until the last week of February that she couldn't eat anymore and she's bedridden. I witnessed how she suddenly loses her memories last 2017 upto this March that she became so weak..3 days before her sudden passing,she always touches my arm and even looking at me without saying a word because she couldn't barely talk,I'm so teary eyed on that moment because I know she's ready to die and she wants to say a goodbye wishes to me but she couldn't make a word. Its very painful to witness your loved one suffers this kind of disease..
@@elizabethbernal6484 dementia does not kill people, cause the people who die of dementia become a corpse that knows they are dead, its sad cause they can see or anything, its honestly very depressing, im sorry for your loss
Now I want to do this. It probably won’t go well, given my experience of being trapped in dreams and being unable to differentiate reality, but it’ll be a “fun” experiment. Edit: So apparently people are super wholesome and worried about me, so I’ll update; I haven’t tried it yet, I’m too scared to. However, I won’t leave you disappointed with a summary of a Dream I had shortly after I left this reply (tw: gore) Basically, I was in a tower with other people. It was a video game like world where you could die and respawn. Seeing as this was one of my dreams, every last bit of pain was available for feeling. This includes the final boss fight at the top of the tower, of which I think my mind has blocked out because of how harsh it was. Despite this, I still have an idea of what happened inside the fight because I had a flashback when going back up the stairs. I remember feeling multiple swords stabbing through my chest, followed by very real feeling blood dripping everywhere, and crying. I could not scream. If ya wanna know what being stabbed to death feels like, I felt sharpness going through about 7cm, followed by a lot of tingling inside. (Probably from euphoria) Now you know why I don’t wanna try the original comment :D
The empty canvas on stage six is really sad. On the side not seen, It's a beautiful painting, reminiscent of your loving memories of the past, so close to see, yet, you cannot. All you can perceive is the blank, empty backside of the canvas. No matter how hard you try you cannot for the life of you even begin to think of those once wonderful memories you once had. Knowing they are right there; you cannot reach them.
blue tape is often used in repair work to indicate that something is in a state of damage or disrepair. notice the hinges on the side of what i believe to be a cabinet. my interpretation is that stage 6 is a cabinet (representing the brain of the patient in a state of disrepair, that cannot be accessed. there is no cabinet connected to the door because it is impossible for the patient to perceive what’s behind the door, their own mind locked away from their empty, cold shell of a body.
Here’s something I tried and it’s scary. Tell me what the painting on the other side is. I tried to... It’s terrifying. All I saw was a blur of all the other song background together as a rainbow. Then I had a flicker of when I really saw it. It was like a plant, growing really tall.. It was rainbow and the background was the same. What confuses me is why I saw the flowers if it matched exactly with the background. Just this alone is....terrifying.... It was still blurry but I could see it perfectly.. Like terminal lucidity, for a second I see it all before and then I just see the cardboard again.
Stage 1: Something's wrong Stage 2: Misplacement Stage 3: Trying to put them back together Stage 4: Falling Apart Stage 5: Point of no return Stage 6: Death
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Doctors say that the last thing that most people with dementia remember is their favorite song. They'll usually be humming that most of the time. When they finally forget that, that's when they're about to die
i'm not an expert in music or anything, but i think i know why stage 6 is so beautiful. on stage 1 everything was mostly clear, then stage 2 came and that started to diminish, especially with stage 3. then, it was horrific and chaotic with stage 4 and 5, you couldn't get away. but with stage 6, that peace from stage 1 almost came back in a way. instead of chaos, it's a peaceful drone. if you had dementia at this stage, you would be near death. but think, would you really care? would you even remember to care? you would be away from the hell that is dementia. you would have absolute peace, and stage 6 is that realisation. you're too far, you know it'll end soon. so you're just waiting in the thoughts that are left for that day to come.
@@Giuseppe_f1n You are correct. The Caretaker is meant to pass away in stage 6. The last minute is the only "true" silence, death. The one time your mind is really quiet.
If schools made learning like this, I’d be more interested. This honestly put a whole new perspective on dementia and made me think how such a horrible mental illness can happen to so many people, I’ve been looking at patients and learning more about dementia than I probably ever would at school
I'm making a list of amazing one-of-a-kind experiences like this, whether it be movies video games, or art. When my 16-month-old grows up, This will be one of those things I want him to experience.
Schools are always like, "Dementia is when you forget and.. NO! You cannot pee in order to learn better! Anyways, something happens. Get out of my classroom." and this singular album just teaches me so much more than a school lesson ever could. I feel so sorry for everyone who has to go through this. If I'd only listened to those shitty school lessons, I would've thought you could recover so easily. This isn't how life goes. I don't know if everything that I'm saying is true, but I know that this is hard shit to live through.
I don't cry often. Even when I do it's minor, but for some reason this fucking track broke me. I have no relation to anyone with dementia. I'm still young but imagining losing memory of my fiance, or my family in my later years, or them forgetting me and going through that pain of being in a constant state of confusion and half existence, fills me with more dread than anything I've ever felt. And even as a Catholic, meaning I know such memory loss is by no means permanent and there will be a joyous ending where the deceased will have the joy of their memories flood back in the loving arms of their Lord, it still drives me to bawl my eyes out. And I literally only learned about this thing tonight through a fucking fnf mod.
My grandma suffered from dementia, and she died from it. I didn't cry while listening to this, but i was extremely uncomfortable. I just can't imagine the pain my grandma had to go through...
This album broke me. I don’t know if I can even comprehend how horrifying it would be to lose everyone you know, and everything you know, and yet have it right there in front of you.
When I was 19, I dropped out of university to live with my grandma, who a year prior had been diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer's. I was the nearest family member, and had been raised by my grandparents for a few years after my dad got out of the military and completed further education. So we knew each other very well, and were close. You expect and prepare for the decline, the confusion, the loss of recognition and cognizance. What I was not prepared for, were the brief, fleeting moments of lucidity she would experience. When I would cook dinner for us, I would try and let her help with at least one thing. While making a salad for us, I noticed her talking to herself. "Everything okay, Granny?", I asked her. "Oh yes dear, just talking to myself. You get the best answers that way!" It was like the wit and humour she possessed her entire life just snapped back into focus for a second, and then like that, it was gone. She was a classically trained pianist. Put any piece of classical music in front of her, and she could play. I was sitting with her on the day she (there isn't a right word I can think to put here, but) accepted, realized, came to terms with etc, that she just didn't know how to play anymore. "Oh dear, I used to be rather good. I shan't do this again." Imagine being lucid enough in a way to understand you've forgotten how to do something you've spent your whole life doing. This was the hardest part for me. When she still understood what was happening to her brain. When she remembered forgetting. We had walked to the local pub for a meal out together one evening. From her purse, she pulls an old photograph, sepia and faded, of her and my grandpa on their wedding day. The original copy. A photograph almost 60 years older than me. I had never seen it before, and even before her ailment, she was not the most outwardly sentimental of people. She proceeds to tell me the story of the photograph. "We were just so happy together that day. So young and in love." I sat, quietly listening, watching not the photograph, but her face as she spoke. There was such joy and whimsy to her recalling being a young lady, teaching school children in Lincoln, my grandpa working in a bank, taking trips to the seaside together in her old Morris Mini. But beneath it, I could see the pain. The pain of knowing, that soon these memories will cease to exist, stretched and distorted by fog and static. The pain of knowing this was probably the last time she would ever relive those happy memories. I kept the photograph. And taught myself to play on her piano. This record fucking broke me. Writing this out for the first time since fucking broke me. I haven't thought about them for quite a while. It's just not fair. No one deserves to suffer the way in which this disease causes them to. Hold your loved ones close.
@@InductionStudios Thank you for creating an environment in which I felt comfortable and compelled to do so. I haven't really talked to anyone about those memories for almost 10 years now. It felt good to get it out.
Unless you minimized it down to regular movie length it would be less of a movie and more of a experience. Imagine everywhere at the end of time but with visuals. Jesus
As someone autistic/ has ADHD I couldnt attach myself to the end and its emotional significance at all and I hated that. I understood what made it sad and I understood what it represents and even though I had to listen to it part by part (as 6 hours is stupid long for my attention span) I wanted to feel this as everyone else who reacted to it did and I just couldn't. Something about that made it hard for me in a different way and not even about memory loss. Just the fact that I could hear it, understand it and not feel that way, not emotional at all just felt ....bad
@Dungeons and Dinos. I think you're in the same boat as a lot of people. Simply appreciating the art form for what it is and understanding its meaning is valuable, even if you don't cry like everyone is "supposed to".
As someone with add, which is simmilair enough, I did sit through this and well its pretty baffling. As I take the time to appreciate art and its various forms, its more what youre interested in, I can expect people not being able to sit through this since I almost couldnt aswell, even though I enjoy this and stuff. I decided to go through it and push through since both of my grandmothers had dementia, rip all of my grandparents. Anyways, take your time and do whatever you like, its your choise and that is what matters bro, peace
I have ADHD too and I too couldn't work through it. I definetly couldn't listen to the entire thing, but also I was sweating just in the first minute of it. It is a terrifying piece of art, not something that you can just observe and understand. Many people have different reactions to it, some can't make it through the beginning, others have panic attacks, some have no reaction for the entire time. It is such a beautiful thing because different people will react to it completely differently than others, and I kind of think that that is the point of it. You aren't "wrong" for not attaching yourself to it, you just react differently, and thats fine.
I would actually rather die than forget everything. Do lethal injection before everything’s gone. Memories are all I have and if I begin to lose them I’d - I can’t even explain it.
If I get diagnosed with dementia my plan is to throw one last party to say goodbye to my family, give them one last memory of the person I really am, and then just get on a cruise ship and never be seen again. I don't want to forget my life and my family and I don't want my family to see my life waste away.
Lethal injection? That would be way too scary for me. Imagine knowing that you won't wake up after going to sleep. I'd rather do something more spectacular if I could, like jumping off a building to feel the cold air at least one last time. @AJX That could work too.
I told my wife if I get diagnosed with dimentia or Alzheimer's, imma get in my wheelchair whacked out on lsd and she's going to push me into a busy highway
The “no one visits you because you can’t remember their names” broke my heart. You’re just alone, at the brink of death, and can’t remember anything, anyone, everything. I don’t usually write sad shit but this hurts
i wanna bring up an interpretation of the final few minutes that i've seen around which really gave me chills thinking about it. it's likely not what the Caretaker was going for but, y'know, subjectivity and all. there's a phenomenon called "terminal lucidity" that sometimes occurs in patients with Alzheimer's (and other neurological afflictions) where during the final moments when the body begins slipping away, the brain becomes frantically active trying to hold onto life, creating a sort of moment of clarity in the patient, with consciousness and maybe even some rational thought, speech capability and even memories returning. thinking of the final piece in this context, it's... _chilling_ to say the least. a whimpering and solemn, yet _lucid_ ode to all that came before as you're slowly whisked away from this world to return to whatever it is that we emerge from. ...whoof. god damn this is a masterpiece
Bruh does this mean that our brains the entire time could've been able to just jog our memories and help us, they were just too lazy to do anything until they realized that the person is dying?
People with dementia usually remember one last memory, last tune of music, a golden fragment untouched by dementia, where people could remember good until stage 6. When they forget that fragment, they will die soon after.
Part 6 is so calming then suddenly so horrific. My great grandma had Alzheimer's and she was always so kind but so confused. She kept wondering why there were elderly people around her and why she wasn't allowed to help them because she thought she was a nurse. I can't imagine the confusion and fear as a result. It makes me never want to age.
@@zacharyreynolds4303 I won't lie, it can definitely be scary and upsetting, but you can get through this. It's great that you're putting more effort into being there for her! Especially if she remembers you more often, that can bring her more comfort and help her feel safer. My great grandma didn't remember me but was happy to see the family and I regardless. Don't forget to take care of yourself too and do the things you enjoy!
The shit got real when I was visiting my parents back in 2008. I was talking to mom in the back yard when dad walked outside, looked at me with an angry, evil expression and asked “Who are you and what are you doing with my wife?!” Mom was floored and I was stunned. I hadn’t noticed dads decline having lived out of town. Mom begged me to forgive him, and of course I did. I choose to hang onto the decades of his public service and years of sacrifice for us. He died in Feb 2009.
If you were cured early on, it would work or a couple months after diagnosis. But I don't think it will ever exist sadly. And if it did the government would over price the fuck out of it
@@erzahthegod9663 Hey, so, good news. It's not a proper "cure" per se, but scientists have found a way to replace brain tissue to extend the forgetting process long enough that the person might die of natural causes before things get really bad. The downsides (because there always are ones) are that 1. I doubt that the procedure will be legalised for human usage any time soon, because there are side effects. 2. It is an extremely expensive process already, and that's just in tests. But, hey! At least we're getting somewhere.
Damn, schools only go like "Dementia is where u only forget blah blah blah", and EATEOT.... EATEOT describes it better, damn. Leyland Kirby is a fucking genius!
This is how i felt it was when i was listening to the entire thing Stage 1:Something is off Stage 2:You feel weird Stage 3:Memories start to melt Stage 4:Your own image is beggining to vanish Stage 5:You don't have a sense of time anymore Stage 6:Trying to remember in the last day and almost succeding but failing at the same time
@@AerithRimuru8888 You try to remember events that happened in the last 12-24 hours but you can’t recall what you even had for lunch. The last minutes are usually trying to remember an untouched memory or sound and you cling onto it until eventually forget everything and die.
My first time listening to it was Stage 1: ok i guess ..the first two songs are actually pretty nice tho Stage 2: still alright I think? But The background is creepy Stage 3: holy... First 5 seconds of stage 4: WHAT THE HELL IS THIS *stops video* *Restarts video after having a break* Man...this is so scary... Stage 5: I wanna die. Stage 6: *actually dies*
I listened to this whole thing with my Grandpa who died from Alzheimer's in mind. I spent most of this album emotionally numb, but upon the last 5 minutes it all broke loose and I wept bitterly.
The ending is very clear, the last memory someone remembers is their favourite song/piece, in the caretaker's case, those last 5 ish minutes, is just Bach's St.Luke's passion(the final tenor aria) ... but... distorted and slowed down, so it's likely his favourite piece, and it was the last somewhat lucid moment he could remember, what a tragedy
The last five minutes are the worst part of this by far, it gives me goosebumps. It's the pre-death clarity dementia-ill people have moments before passing, recognising loved ones and remembering briefly, (hence the music coming back) Followed by a minute of complete silence, representing life fading away from the body
Same, you can here the shuffling and coughing in the background as if you are present in your last moments in your body before you are brought up into heaven....
My grandmother had dementia for a few years before she died and it was very rough seeing the sharp intelligent woman that she was reduced to a babbling confused mess. I wonder if her end days in the nursing home were similar to the end of this album. Very sad thought.
The music at the end is supposed to represent terminal lucidity, where the person gets all of their memories rushing back. They remember names, places, foods and almost every important memory they had before and during the disease in the final minutes before they die. This just baffles me that the brain still holds on to these memories but not be able to access them until it's too late to put them to any use such as one last conversation to your family. This is definitely the scariest part of the piece for me and when I heard it when I went through the first time I cried really hard. It still gets me now but damn that part is just intense
Easy prestage of nde. We are spiritual ants in the west in therefore we think it's over. Do you want to know how afterlife sounds my experiences with many nde ppl. I say listen to tangerine dream Jean DE arc this shows OBE total consciousness evolving to hyper consciousness of all life's lived and unity with the source (the shared consciousness of all living beings in earth and if you are advanced beyond that) before writing sh*te watch 20 nde stories and shed off the materialistic illusion. Life is great but death is even greater
Someone once said that art was meant to comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable. I would have to agree. I've lived with depression most of my life it feels like, and I was definitely not in the best state mentally when I listened to EATEOT. While listening to it, I felt time itself slowed down and my joints felt heavy. I wasn't paralyzed, but my body didn't want me to move. The album was disturbing, especially later on, but I never cried. I just felt empty? Yet also I currently I feel fulfilled. I feel like a stronger person overall after listening to this.
@@imcooliguess5759 i fell asleep in the 5th hour cause my computer died. Played it again and fell asleep again (I hadn’t eaten anything in the whole day don’t judge xd). I thought I hadn’t listened properly and that it would have no effect, but it did. The last part where the choir hits is incredible. I don’t know how to describe it cause I hadn’t felt that way before. I know sadness and melancholy but this was something else. I know it’s a long video but I definitely recommend watching it. Sorry for this long ass paragraph but I was really excited when I realized how good it really is. I’m aware that a 6h video isn’t appealing to everyone but I recommend this one a lot.
Same. I have 7 mental health diagnoses and I didn't even know well enough what I was getting into. After I finished I read the comments saying if you're mentally ill it will break you. It didn't break me, it really changed my perspective on life though. Had to sleep with lights on after the 6 hour binge but I'm still hyperfixated on it a few days later researching it.
Stage 1: This is the peak you've been climbing towards to, it's the climax of your life... Stage 2: You feel off, you've realized something, yet it's buried deep, you cherish your past moments, because they led to your family of 2 kids and a wife. Stage 3: Its hard to think, sometimes I stumble upon a place and don't realize how I got there, It's getting difficult to remember your past. Stage 4: I see the world as grey and black, when I try to remember anything...its just static, you cherished your past. Stage 5: Where am I? Who am I? Why am I here? I hear voices, sad voices, I've been runing in this maze for as long as I can §rEmMeberμ ... I'm starting to think theres no exit. Stage 6: ......... I'm going to quote this youtube commentator- "Your lucky if your body dies with your mind." - Dirt Block
this is not joke or challenge this is a piece of art that is not to be messed about dementia is not a joke and this is related to that, very related. there has been many people that lost there life to dementia this piece of art proves that you need to enjoy the very moments that you have with your loved ones it does not matter if its your mom your dad your grandparents your siblings, even yourself enjoy them while you have them. Because you may not have them for very long.
Everything in EATEOT is samples of ballroom music spanning from the 1920’s to the 1940’s, and if you listen to the first song out of context, (Heartaches) it gives you much greater context into some of the later stages, where it’s sampled much more frequently. There’s a couple of playlists of all of the source songs, and I recommend listening to them before listening to the full album/EATEOT. It’s a much more… realistic experience. This entire piece will have you in a different mental state if you listen to the full thing with no distractions, no pausing, anything. This really is one of the greatest pieces, from someone who’s suffered dementia through both of my grandparents passing away from it. I hope you enjoy it.
Sadly, that's even worse. It's terminal lucidity. Hours or even minutes before death, people with Alzheimer's or dementia have shown to suddenly behave as if nothing ever happened to them. They recognize their loved ones, they can recall memories. And then, they die. The last minutes of EATEOT is exactly that. Your last memory and your last thought that, in a matter of minutes, after years of being locked up in your brain, you'll be gone.
@@unitedstates4912 we don't understand why alzheimer is caused to begin with (what causes the plaque buildup), and we'd literally have to be completely prepared to scan a person's brain on the off chance they get terminal lucidity before they die. It happens but figuring out why at this moment is like trying to learn how to run before you walk. That doesn't mean it's not a real thing, though.
My mother is a person who takes care of people with dementia and Alzheimer’s she always tells me when she comes home that it’s probably one of the hardest things she ever has to watch, watching the people slowly loose everything they once loved and even cared about.
the choir at the end of stage six makes me sob every fucking time i hear it. i’ve gone through eateot twice now, in its entirety, and it always shatters me. even months after listening, it’s managed to fuck me up.
The album really hits hard when you’ve had old relatives you’ve known your entire life pass away. The thought of dementia terrifies me. I don’t want to forget.
My grandma passed away from it an year ago, and trust me... i seriously wish to no one dementia, because it's a horrible "disease". You just basically become an alive corpse without any emotion, you forget everything, you're not yourself anymore.
My interpretation behind the Vinyl crackle, and static popping, was that they represented the brain, or the subject, recalling memories. Stage 1 is the subject casually recalling these past memories without issue, with a crackle present. It's carried through into stage 2, and into the awareness stage. even though these memories are becoming more and more disturbed, broken, and off, the brain is still attempting to recall them, hence the vinyl crackle. But when entering the post-awareness stages where the brain has lost its ability to recall singular memories and is trying to make sense of the scraps of memories remaining, The static, white noise, and Vinyl crackle become much louder and present in the music, showing the brains feeble attempts to recall what disjointed memories it has left. The impression I got from the crackle slowly fading away in stage 6, is that the subject no longer has any remnants of memory left to attempt to recall. and when the sound cuts to a record being put on, and the choir beginning to sing, I saw it as the subject experiencing terminal lucidity, a moment of clarity, and the ability to recognize your family, and recall memories, hence the crackle, before passing away. Such an amazing project.
I think the first track of the albums says Alzheimer’s best “It’s just a burning memory” It’s like a slow burning paper Each second is lost, each burn you forget more But there is no extinguish Just bits and pieces of ash that you can hardly recall And then it stops when there is no more to burn Just the end
Really true. And the original version of Just A Burning Memory is like this upbeat song, about a man who cant stop thinking about another person. It's called Heartaches by Al Bowlly, I reccomend it.
The choir of the Angels created from their sorrows and pain will take me to my eternal hall where my memories will return and I will dance eternally :')
I was always skeptical about the trendy videos of people crying. I thought it was just a thing to get views. But after going through this whole series myself, it's so hard to describe what it's like. This last phase had me in a trance to the point I kinda forgot what I was doing. I had the same reaction to the last part when the record starts up, it somewhat startled me. Then that music started, I just started weeping. Thank you for being honest and open about your reaction and review. I had the same skepticism, but it really is an emotional masterpiece.
Thank you for taking the time to watch it 🥰 It's gotten more views than I ever expected it to, so I'm glad a lot of people are learning about this artwork.
Dementia is the most terrifying disease you can not change my mind just imagine forgetting everything.... everyone you ever loved every birthday every happy memory every sad memory just everything people say they’re your children but you just don’t know them that’s the worst thing that you could live through
Stage 6 when at that final piece of music as it’s distorted and the scratch of a record symbolizes the final piece of you’re mind fading till you finally die It’s real beautiful for a end
So while listening to this song I suddenly get hit by a question: "What have i been doing all this time?". Now as I sat there upon the couch, hand on my lap, eyes cast upon the ceiling while reevaluating everything I've done up to now. Then I thought, "What if the world ended right now?", I look outside of my window and sighed. "I'd probably be doing what I loved most. Even if I was old, I would still wish to do what I loved even if I forget how. If I cant, then I would love to just... watch..." So then I sighed and stood up, "FOR THE LOVE OF GOD IM STILL YOUNG WHAT THE HELL AM I THINKING ABOUT".
Guys is something wrong with me? I listened to the whole thing and felt nothing. I understood what was happening at the moment and the depressing concept of the album, but I felt nothing, even during stage 6.
There's nothing wrong with you, Lighting. Everyone responds differently to it. It could have had a reverse placebo effect from all the hype about it, expectations and all that jazz. Not everyone cried when Iron Man died either...😭😭😭
@@InductionStudios Thanks for the help! I'm at a point in my life where I can't tell what's normal or not. Everything seems so bizarre and off-putting, even though it's perfectly normal.
@@lightningstudios9559 it's been an isolating year & that strips away points of reference for gauging "normalcy" so assumin u're affected by tha global turmoil writ large, ur disorientation's normal, too
@@Star-pl1xs I really appreciate your support! Living with covid and the constant threat of having to be isolated again hasn't really been good for my mental health. I really wish people could just do what they're told so that this could all be over, but no.
You know this track made me cry so hard. My grandfather has Alzheimer's and it made me think of him before and after he got it and it destroyed me. I can't imagine how he feels. He somewhat forgot about my father. He thinks I'm his son because I looked like my dad in his younger years.
Stage 1: beautiful memories Stage 2: sudden forgotful-ness Stage 3: something is really wrong Stage 4: accept, depressed and forget. Unfamiliar and uneasy. Stage 5: a hoax of your past-self, trying to grips the remaining broken pieces together. Stage 6: a last golden moment fades away...
stage 4 hell sirens: revisiting your mind for 2 minute stage 4 j1: chill stage 5 clarity state 1: last moment of memory stage 5 state 2 clarity: last moment of music
I work in an assisted living home as a healthcare assistant. We have lots of residents who have dementia, it’s so scary it’s a horrible disease. There’s people who don’t remember that family members so, mothers, fathers, husbands ,wives , children or friends have passed away. That shit sucks to break to them as they have no memory of the time since there love one has passed away. Having a carer speak to you and provide care for you only to not remember there name, let alone where you are must be terrifying. We have people who’s minds have erased the memories of being an adult so from the age of 8-80 is completely gone. If you have a family member who had dementia or Alzheimer’s, talk to them. Call them, go to visit them, whenever you see someone hear even a friends voice, is absolutely amazing, but when you have this disease it means the world to them, it’s lights up there face and you can see how much it means to them. If you speak to any carer working with people with dementia 90% of us will say we would rather be killed then live through the progress of dementia. It sounds horrible but it’s a reality of seeing things that people can’t understand. Hold your family members close and if you have family member who has been diagnosed, talk to them. I can’t imagine the fear some people must go through, hearing or seeing a relative even if they don’t recognise you, means so much to them.
I've heard you're supposed to play along if they forget that somebody died, because no matter how many times you break the news to them, no matter how badly it might hurt for them to hear it, they'll forget all about it soon enough. So every time you try and remind them "no, honey, Mike died in a car crash 40 years ago" you're just making them relive that pain..
God those last 6 minutes always got me, I remember listening to this without stopping and I felt like I was losing myself as it went on, but when this final section started to play I just broke, I'm not sure why, but that's what haunted me, and I still listen to place in the world fades away regularly. Surprisingly I often find myself listening to 'We don't have many days', the very second track in the entire album, it's honestly very very pretty! It reminds me of a nice rainy day, and even my mom likes it. If you like that type of music but don't want the feels and dread, I HEAVILY recommend 'An Empty Bliss Beyond This World' it has the same cozy feeling as the first stage and stays that way, and it's about an hour long! You're very strong for going through all of it, and it's okay to cry, I think we all did c:
This album was one of the most painful experiences i've ever experienced. While i was listening to the album my family interrupted my listening and at the time i was annoyed. But after i finished it i had sort of a greater appreciation for the people in my life. I now see those interruptions as letting me know that whatever I'm experiencing wether it be good or bad people are always there for me.
To think that my Grandad had dementia and lung cancer before he died is horrible to think about, the last time me and my sister saw him was when we were in the car after visiting him and he came out of his house to give us some sweets… we didn’t get to see him pass on due to covid but he died on the first of June. I’ll miss you Gramps
If my mother or father get dementia, I would pull the plug if they were on a life support. I couldn't deal with the pain of their mind degrading, and she not even knowing her own son was talking to her. But mostly, I wouldn't be able to handle the pain _they_ would be feeling.
I listened to this and in stage 5 I had multiple anxiety attacks all at the same time writing about how dementia is the destruction of reality and now I’m gonna listen to it while I sleep.
Some music is like that, random example: The scene in Rescuers Down under when they fly over the waterfall...Chills every time. I gotta do a video about that movie, dang.
The thought of dying of Dementia really frightens me, I watched it happen to my Grandfather. You don’t just suffer for a few days, it can last YEARS before the end finally comes, and EVERY stage is just SO HEARTBREAKING. The Confusion and Hurt my Grandfather had when we were forced to take his hand guns, hunting rifles and even his car away in the beginning stages, to the anger he felt when we were forced to admit him to a home, to the end-stages where he could no longer recognize his children or grandchildren (he was convinced we had ABANDONED him even when in reality there was a visitor for him at least every other day 😭)… I’ll never forget the time i went to visit him, and was happy to here from the nurses that he had been asking for me less than a half hour before…i expected a pleasant visit, but instead of recognition, i was greeted with confused looks…he was so angry when i tried to explain that ‘Papa, its ME, I AM BETHANY, YOUR GRANDDAUGHTER.’ ‘DON’T YOU LIE TO ME!’ He fumed ‘BETHANY IS A 10 YEAR OLD LITTLE GIRL!’…he would go on to have such a tirade i would wind up leaving in tears…it was at that moment i knew my beloved ‘Papa’ was gone…he would pass away for real a little over a year later.
" i'm afraid there nobody in city things i see Is that creatures coming i saw that music in my dream i remeber with my mom and my family i'm crying and Hug my dogs who its alive"
As I guy with such a low self steam, and priorize my family and friends over anything else, i would stats that I prefer death then having alzheimer. Not having anyone known, no one to count in, not recognizing even myself and what I once was, or what I am now. Surely this would be the worse torture.
hey this video was lovely! i really enjoy your editing skills and im def giving you a sub. however i do recommend putting flash warnings before showing flashy images because it can cause seizures to people w epilepsy, hope you dont mind!
When I was listening to this track, it made me think about a video of Robin Williams I had watched, and his struggle with lewy body dementia (I don’t think he received that diagnosis while he was alive but was originally diagnosed with Parkinsons). All he knew was that he was he was slowly he losing himself, and had frequent lapses in memory. This track made me feel as if this was his agony. Needless to say, I can’t listen to this without thinking of his story.
I needed to take a break after listening to this. It broke me and I couldn’t sleep or close my eyes for too long because I couldn’t relax. I called my best friend and told them I loved them, with all of my heart, and 3 hours later I drifted off to sleep. Always keep your friends close and your favorite things closer everyone.
Stage 1: All of your memories of you in your prime and the happiest moments in your life are in full display in your mind. Memories untouched and as they were when you lived them. Stage 2: You still remember your life but you notice that something is a little off, you forget very minor things but the overall picture is still there for now. Stage 3: As you cherish your final memories, you start to feel like your life is slowly melting before your eyes as you forget big key details in your life. Stage 4: a sort of purgatory stage where you’ve done all your cherishing and now it’s the transition from being alive to dead in a matter of days. Or was it months? Can’t remember… Stage 5: dead mentally but very much alive physically. You see glimpses of memories but they are so disjointed and wrong that they feel normal after what stage 4 was. Stage 6: ….
Trying to talk to my grandma breaks my heart, because she's barely able to express her thoughts anymore, but I still do it - because I love her. If she wants a hug for 5 minutes straight, I just hug her for 5 minutes straight. I can't imagine what she's going through, and I just want to be there for her.
While I was watching this my dad came in the living room and sang/hum his favorite song and I almost cried because I can't imagine him one day not being able to remember the song anymore. The fact that one day I might hear him say that he forgot the song he always listens to, is truly heartbreaking to think about.
My grandpa had dementia, I could never imagine what was going on in his head even up to the point where there wasn’t even anything going on. I waited to finish the piece before watching this vid
I love the whole 6-hour track. Stage 1 to stage 6, I love hearing all of it. fills me with good warm nostalgic feelings , even the din of nothingness in stages 5 and 6 !! The ultimate relaxing album :)
The first two stages of this album brought me happynes and nostalgia, the other stages creeped me out a little and the last stage just made me feel.... Nothing at all....just a little sad like the other stages. And Seeing everyone having a mental breakdown after hearing this and then seeing me just feeling nothing after the last stage and not dropping a single tear... It's just... I feel like I don't have feelings and the only thing that this album has made me get afraid of its of myself
Bro this is actually crazy, I’m more of a gamer but I’m really interested in this bc it’s something that I don’t know about or what this is capable of. Like I’m so capable and I can control my own self in a game but this, this can probably get me somewhere I don’t wanna be. So in a sense you can say I’m into being scared and conquering whatever it is and wanting to be in control so uhhhhh...I’m really scared to watch it but lemme know if I should (not sad or depressed btw)
It depends. I watched it and was sweating all night and couldn’t sleep. But, it made me really appreciate art and also changed my outlook in life. So that up to you TBH
Like alot of people, i dont have any time or wish to listen through these 6.5 hours. But i see that the ending of stage 6 breaks some people without even them listening to the full album. It didnt really break me. But the essays from the comments did
I listened to the entire 6-1/2 hours one day last week and it was very moving. I cried a bit fairly early on. The final song really caught me off guard. I figured there would be a sad ending, but I had no idea what it might be. To me, the ending felt as if the listener was now hearing the chorus of their own funeral from within their coffin. The tones and melody mostly come across but the voices are too muffled to be understood. I also think that's why the track before it ends so abruptly. It's dementia taken to its ultimate ending. Death.
To those who ended up not crying at the end of EATOT. You're fine. You're not some soulless monster. Some of my friends thought this of themselves when I showed it to them(though in a somewhat quicker manner). They felt bad and unsettled yes, but they didn't cry. Everyone has different reactions, the common one just seems to be crying. Ive yet to listen to the full album myself and I honestly have no idea how I'm going to react. I have a very short attention span yet I can easily get attached to things like this and hyperfixate. Ive also seen all the warnings towards those with anxiety or depression, the first of which I have pretty bad. Its really just my curiosity at this point, so hopefully it doesn't fuck me up too badly. I'll put my reaction and thoughts in the replies once I listen to it
My papa has Alzheimer’s and I listened to the track to see what he’s going through… I’ve already mourned his “death” He turns 80 next year… Happy birthday Papa… I love you🤍
Found this everywhere at the end of time recently by dementia on my stepfather. It‘s heartbreaking. I listened to it in a sleepless night and i was a wrack in the morning. The end broke me completely . . . I am ready to help him thru his everywhere journey😥
