100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your Favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone like you. 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
So I shouldn’t kill myself? After decades of emotional, physical abuse, mental warfare, and tragedy beyond mention, for water balloon fights?? This is why explaining chronic depression to people is like attempting to explain Dostoevsky to a 1st grader.
@@xenoherder6491listen buddy they're being nice. Any reasonable depressed person wouldn't want to add to others' suffering. I got stabbed 7 times and you don't see me trying to shit in kind peoples Cheerios. Why would you want people to feel worse, to feel like you do?
@@xenoherder6491some of us could use a list like this, even if just to be reminded that there are things in this life that can't be intellectualized. I'm sorry that you feel like this, and I feel similar; just try not to be so mean. Try not to give yourself reasons to feel worse. I'm sorry.
I woke up just to see a new day And all i see its just an everyday life Place were crowded Feels like im a ghost My ears are hurt My eyes just looking at the sky My heart feels empty But the place is so lively I wish i were in my house Turning on the air conditioners So it can calmed me Another night just to hear a song My eyes are hurt And now they're heavy Wish happily ever after exist So that we can all have hope For the same Happiness
Don't know what I wanted, I have a memory Back at that party, I was all over her We didn't make out or do anything I just remember I was lonely I guess I am always, it's not a problem It's just something, I got used to it Every stranger makes me feel safer And every person seems more beautiful
This was the song I was crying to when I found out my ex and friend got together, I didn't sleep at all that night, cause everytime I came across the photo of both of them together I felt like I barely could breath right and only could breath alittle bit and that was the thing that made me not be able to sleep, the next day I went to school and saw them holding hands, they didn't look at me once. I acted like it didn't bother me all day but really it sucked. I never once thought she would do that since her and my other friend made me and him get together, and before we got together she never once showed a sign she was interested, she probably only got interested cause he grew out his hair and got braces🙂 this was probably my fault though cause I told her I didn't like him no more when she asked if I did, but the thing is how can they do that. He was really sweet and I thought he would never do such a thing, I thought he wasn't like any other boy and that I got lucky but no, and my friends were my friends, I slept over my other friends house with him and my other friend helped me get ready to go hangout with him. They barely acknowledged me that day I went to school. I don't even hate them for what they did I just can't believe what happened and that they can do that to someone who was there friend. I hate going to school now cause he's in my class, and I dislike how my old friend says "you guys are so cute" to him. It's like every boy I like ends up liking someone way prettier.
I was the one who broke off the relationship though cause I lost feelings, but those feelings came back alot harder, I asked if we should try again but not in a relationship way cause we barely knew eachother when we got together. (I should've just asked to date him again.) So we hung out as friends and it was fun and I noticed more stuff about him I was getting comfortable with him and not all awkward like when I was dating him, I noticed whenever I felt down or scared I would think of him. But after awhile I noticed he was feeling distant so I asked what's wrong and he asked if I still liked him and I said yea, he said he liked me too. A few days after that conversation happened he said we should just stay friends cause while we hung out he noticed he only started seeing me as a friend. After that I knew that it was my personality that was weird. Cause after I started getting comfortable with him and started showing more sides of myself he says he wants to stay friends? Damn man 😟
I don’t know I’m in a confusing position they treat me so nice in the beginning and then treat me so horribly in the end and then they leave me and then come back again few months later saying sorry and to forgive them when I never was angry from the start and they come back into my life then treat me nice for a couple days and then treat me bad again and then leave and this is a cycle that keeps going on. And I allow this to happen because I keep forgiving them I cannot really hate a person and I would move on but when they come back it’s like reopening a wound. My birthday is in a couple days I’m afraid they will try to happy birthday back to my life and I won’t allow it this time…I just wish friends can last forever without an issue. But I feel so stupid for letting it happen.
@@deadliestfriend6125 hey listen don't stress abt this stuff they showed you their true colors and even though it hurts its good that you know to stay away from them because they don't have respect for you like that. Unfortunately we can't control how others think abt us and so even if they think you're "weird" you'll find people who will love you for who you are so don't stop being yourself only improve upon yourself these people won't matter and I guarantee you'll move on and find other friends and you won't even remember their faces don't let this get to you u dodged a bullet
last yr i spent my birthday doing nothing, my mum even forgot it was my birthday💀💀lmao but after all of that i found myself alone in the dark crying myself to sleep watching as it struck midnight and my supposed to be "special day" had come to an end so i rlly do hear and see you with this comment, i dont want to get older either but as long as we get older knowing one day we will get that birthday we deserve with a better life..then i think thats worth growing old for. Never give up:)
@@Keani.Iro.682 aww, I'm so sorry to hear that. I don't want to grow up, I want to be a child forever but when we're older we can have freedom and do whatever we wish, so it is worth the wait. Thank you so much for replying to my comment, totally forgot I wrote this! keep going, you sound so sweet!
i was playing a war game and when i was listening to this all the war drowned out and i found that using pyro and just blasting through people was very relaxing with this music😊
the days and years pass by and i look behind me only to find the remains of who i once was, all i once wished for is forgotten and nowhere to be found and all i still cling onto is just a memory with no connection to the present, everything and every place i remember liking feels so unfamiliar to me now like i never belonged there, i feel as i lost my potential like i once lost my passion and i fear i will never find a way to my old self or any other version of myself and my soul will forever wander through old memories clinging to what it once knew...
Estou escutando essa música chorando sou tao solitária minha vida e tão vazia tao entediante... Eu achei q minha depressão ja tinha indo embora mas sempre começo a pensar de mais em coisas, minha mãe me fala coisas que me destrói, minhas irmãs só me exclui de todo, quando falo que sou a excluída me chama de dramática, a unica coisa que me mantém viva e meu gato que e a coisa mais importante pra mim... Acho que se n fosse por ele eu ja teria feito algo comigo... É tao ruim ser eu :(
Reminds me of a past relationship it’s so hard to date now I don’t even wanna try anymore or put effort it’s not the same and I know it wasn’t important to her but it meant so much to me .
I forgot her face. I can’t hear her voice anymore. Her smile has faded. I’m losing my mind. The voices aren’t hers anymore and I don’t want to hear them anymore. They get so loud. I can’t think straight. Im fighting a battle I’m meant to lose. im scared.
i'm sorry i left,i was scared,i was bruised,i was hurt,i didn't know how to act.I still don't. I miss you but you're better off without me,i can't handle hurting you ever again like i did.I'm sorry,even though i never had a chance to tell you.I am,and i still feel like throwing whnever i recall to what i did,a silent farewell,i was a coward,truly,find love,not an illusion that someone like me could ever give you,im happy it ended before i would wound you too hard.And it still stings to think abot how you told me to leave,and i did,without any goodbyes.
Nah bro do it I promise it’s worth it you’ll get too attached and in the end when she breaks your heart you’ll be too broken❤️ do it b4 u get too attached
The night I almost killed myself this popped up and I listened out of pure curiosity. Through insane tears this song convinced me I shouldnt leave just yet. Now I listen to Salvia Palth
This song reminds me of the good old days where my friends didn't called to cops and lied that I stole €216 (I did not) And now they blocked me everywhere and are trying to get me kicked out of school and break my friendship whit my other friends and they ruined everything. When I said they ruined everything I mean it.
blood. broken. betrayal. i sit there feeling worthless not knowing if anything could possibly get better. friends? Yeah I have friends but they arent here. Only i am here for myself. But still..they werent there. What a shame. I am not good for myself and i know it But who am i to determine what is good for myself when all i do to my own body and mind is wreck things with every chance i get for a hit. So for that i need other people to distract me. Without a distraction i am nothing but rusty bolts and peices in the wrong areas jst waiting to fall apart. But when i do collapse people make fun of me saying "its just for attention" or "your not rlly feeling that way" or even "its just a phase." but ofc they say "hey its rlly not that deep, dont take it to heart" So sure i laugh. My life is scattered around in unscheduled accidents on a senseless graph. I have no control and all i am supposed to do is smile. i smile through the tears i smile through the pain i smile through fear and even when it rains The rain washes away my tears and i will forever be grateful But at this point of life.. Giving up almost feels fateful. I never said i will stop trying no not at all But i have been running for yrs and soon enough im going to get tired and start to crawl. But if this is my final goodbye then i bid you farewell And please dont say i love you bc in my broken heart is where you dwell So when u take refuge in another persons heart please dont take it for granted as every single one of you is the utmost beautiful piece of art.
its 00:15 rn my parents were fighting for like 3 hours and I've heard everything. they couldnt get along with eachother anyway but now this fight was really bad my dad hit my mom a couple times and ı couldnt even do anything cuz ı was scared ı heard my mom screaming my name and instead of helping just locked myself in the toilet and after that ı took a knife from the kitchen just in case if smt happens. a lot happened has happened but to keep it short theyre gonna get divorced.
