Thank you for all the kind comments ❤ to those who insist on seeing me in the wrong light let me clear the air: I am not addicted to anything except nicotine again. Which I am in the process of tapering down and stopping. If you saw my day to day life you’d be shocked. I spend time with my kids, I workout, and in the evenings I do art. I paint. I presently take psychedelics twice a year. My life is very, very different than you are assuming. Please stop thinking you know who I am. If you want proof just look at the amount of “live experience” videos I’ve posted this year where I’m seen testing something. I’d appreciate if you stopped making assumptions. Thank you.
Its alright, you don't have to take anything to entertain us! The trip sitting videos, the accuracy reviews, the interviews, and the informative videis are plenty.
I don't like how he says Oxycontin & methadone, then says "real hard stuff like heroin or morphine" as if Oxycontin isn't as bad. Any opiate addict knows they're all the same. Whether it's codeine, Vicodin, heroin, morphine, etc. they're all opiates. It's like saying there's a difference between beer and vodka. Drinking 10 beers is gonna mess you up more than a single shot of vodka. The same goes for opiates. You do enough of one opiate, it can surpass even the strongest.
Adam….. I mean this in a healthy loving caring way. You’re an addict. We lie, blame, divert, distract, manipulate, coerce, codepend, bait and switch, gaslight, substitute one for another, minimize, ect. It’s not the Kratom. It’s us. We could be addicted to actions, feelings, substances, states of being, thoughts, money, pride, compliments, tears, the emotional rollercoasters, the withdraw, the highs. We are just this way. Accept it. Understand it. Get you a support system away from this stuff. Learn your triggers and manage your emotions without caving to addiction. Take it all one day at a time.
I don't understand this mindset. Why can't he know himself better than we know him? Why can't he actually not be to blame for his relationship problems? Or are you trying to say that drugs no matter what drug, or anything, drugs just will destroy your life? Because that's pretty much what this sounds like.
as much as i think that this is valuable advise, i don't think that this comment relates well to what was said in the video. or do you think that he's lying through his teeth and he's actually fiending for kratom every second of the day behind the scenes? because thats what it looks like what you think to me
@JazzerciseJustice he's reinterpreting his past experience and judgment of kratom use for whatever reason: to not alienate a growing demographic of kratom advocates or to justify current/future use who knows.. As addicts we have hypemen or lawyers in our heads to empower our relationships with substances... whether its to garner strength to obtain sobriety or to negotiate further use. Sounds like one of those was given a mic for this video. Not judging, as I'm the last one who has any place, but just saying... Best of luck to all dealing with addiction, I feel ya.
Exactly man, for the past 2 years, I drank every single day, and i justified it to myself by looking at worse people around me. You can’t get hammered every day, that’s not a sustainable life You can’t take an opioid 2-3 times a day, thats not a sustainable life. I hit rock bottom and from that day on I knew I needed to take the first step, I told myself I was going to only drink on the weekends, I successfully did it the first week, and the second week I just continued to drink throughout the week, justifying it to myself over and over. When It came around to be ing Sunday, I told myself that this was the fork in the road, I could either get back in the train, or there likely wouldn’t be any opportunity to do it again until I hit the bottom again, so I did it. I didn’t drink on the weekdays for one week, then 2, then 3. And by the time I got to 3, I felt like I had a lot of work behind me, you hear the saying “it only takes 3 weeks to break a habit” I took that and used it as determination, that was the hard part, this is the easier part. I have now gone 7 weeks in a row doing this, I have given in a few days here and there, but unlike every other time I’ve tried to actually limit my drinking, I have something to show for it. I am 7 weeks in a row not drinking at least 3 days out of the week (Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday nights) and generally only drink Friday, Saturday, and Sunday nights) I’m aware that my fight is far from over, but now I am fighting, and I am winning. I have a reminder in my notes app that shows exactly how much money a month I save by not drinking during the week, and I have the number of calories I don’t consume every day I don’t drink, +$450 a month and -1500 calories a day, that’s a lot man. Remember guys, don’t trick yourself into thinking what you are doing is ok, admit you have an addiction, set a realistic, but significant goal you want to achieve, and never give up. You can’t quit half-assed-ly, if you are going to free yourself, you need to actually want it. You need to want it more than the substance you want, and once you want it, Never, never, NEVER GIVE UP! IT DOESN’T MATTER IF YOU FAILED FOR 1 WEEK STRAIGHT, 2 WEEKS, 3 WEEKS, IT DOESN’T MATTER! THERE IS ALWAYS TOMORROW! EVERY DAY IS A NEW OPPORTUNITY TO FIGHT! YOU HAVE THE POWER! NEVER GIVE UP!
@@adamtrott78 kratom is nothing like alchohol alchohol has the potential to ruin your life Kratom doesn't get you loaded like alchohol it's like caffeine not really unhealthy or bad just addictive. You're projecting my guy, and I'm an addict that's how I know you are.
This used to be an educational channel about the effects of drugs and safer consumption. Now it's channel about a guy's life spiraling out of control due to drugs. And tbh I'm here for both types of content.
It is an educational and REAL/truthful channel about drugs and personal perspectives. We've lost the way in taking things with a grain of salt. His life has definitely spiraled, but he's in a much better spot, at least my opinion, in this video. He's been through a lot and his symptoms have come from not healing along his journey and not having self-love. His generation specifically may have missed out on that way. I am fortunate to learn from him and rectify my mistakes before they went to his level and learned a lot, whilst not agreeing with him wholeheartedly, but seeing his message through his words and emotions. kinda fucked you would get amusement out of someone spiraling. I suggest just to take a different perspective and understand how heavy it is to not have love in your life (or at least feel it when its been given to you). He's done a lot of great things, but his commentary has always been him trying to "know" about each and every thing he talks about so he will make mistakes and misinterpret. That's where you looks between the words and see how he's being real/truthful, and showing us HIS experience. We can learn tons from this documentation alone.
@IchigoMatsumoto1889 he doesn’t follow his own advice because he hasn’t ever had a less is more approach. What’s an example of bad advice? I think harm reduction wise he has alot of good info. Even if it is limiting
It’s crazy I started watching this guy in highschool and looked at him as the psychedelic teacher. Watching this guy now.. let’s just say I’m glad I straightened up a bit. Man went through a crazy downfall that I’m scared of falling into myself
Same here. I used to think psychedelics are these amazing drugs because of youtubers like him glorifying their use. Then I got severely damaged. The truth is they are dangerous drugs. LSD screwed me up more than powders or any other drug ever did. I'm still recovering years later. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy. Do psychedelics have "some" benefits? Yes But the risks far outweigh the benefits. Psychedelics are the only drug I wish I had never tried.
I've never been too interested in drugs, a very casual weed smoker plus the odd shroom trip; Always just thought he had kind of an amusing channel with interesting anecdotes and an unusual perspective on life... then one day he just went way overboard with shrooms, rationalised it like he had an addiction -- that changed everything for me. It's been very educational, just not in a way he probably intended it to be.
Here's a fun thing you might hear for the first time (if you're borderline retarded that is): people that are very interested in drugs tend to be ... not happy with life. Mental and psychological issues leading to depressive personalities tend to be orbiting around drugs as a mean to cope or find solutions or solace. In short: i'm not sure this dude had a "crazy downfall due to drugs". Also, he looks pretty functional despite the mental hardships which is something he should be proud of anyways.
This video to me is way more worrysome than the video on the mountain. This just sounds like "no, no, it's not the alcohol, it's me! I can keep drinking!"
I do think it’s possible to go from being hopelessly addicted to a substance to using it occasionally in a healthy way. The thing is it is just as difficult as quitting cold Turkey, and it’s even easier to relapse. It’s literally just discipline, wanting it deep down, and never giving up. Simple to explain, very hard to do.
It's because he is a raging hypocrite. He can't admit to being a poly addict. He tries to say some drugs are bad, some aren't. While that is true, it is possible to get addicted to anything, whether it is inherently addicted or not. He is a poly addict. Whether it be psychedelics, kratom, or whatever the fuck, he feels the need to always be taking something. I understand the therapeutic potential of psychedelics, but some people just need to stop all drug use, and really re-evaluate what they are doing with their life.
You’re just like me man… an addict through and through. I’ve kept up with you over the years and been on and off Kratom myself. Hoping you eventually find peace without harmful addictive substances you can’t live without. Kratom definitely crushed my test levels. And the chronic constipation can cause anal fistulas. It’s a step stone down from harder drugs but I just don’t think it’s a permanent solution. One day you’ll quit all this mental gymnastics and rationalization and have happiness brother…
I've been taking kratom daily for 10 years straight and my testosterone levels are fine. There's no empirical data that shows kratom lowers testosterone... You may feel like it lowers your testosterone, but anything that has opioid agonist effects will make you feel more numb. It's not lowered testosterone, it's just making you numb.
Adam, I’ve been watching your content since I was 13. Im 23 now. Your old videos about lsd, mushrooms, and dmt got me interested in meditating and spirituality. Once I felt mature enough to dive into psychedelics, I had your content as a tool to stay safe while gaining eye opening experiences with these compounds that have changed my life forever. I feel at peace with myself and the world around me, and I tell people all the time that it seems silly, but psychedsubstance was the starting point to my spirituality and the exploration of myself. Thank you man. Your work has had a huge positive impact on my life and I just want you to know that you are making a good impact on this world with your content. Sending peace and love your way, always
Adam I feel for you man - what you're going through is hard, and I understand that you try to put a lot of your experience into the channel which is probably an additional layer of pressure. Don't forget to draw boundaries with the channel man, you don't owe us shit! Thanks for keeping us well informed on so many drug related topics all these years. What you choose to share is a gift. All the best with your journey.
Listen to the people who recognize themselves in you. This video is flooded with comments from addicts, lovingly telling you that you are one too. Starting with this understanding and acknowledgement may be your first step on the path to recovery. Wishing you health and happiness.
Ditto that. I went back to it last week, just for a week, and quit on Friday. It’s been 3 days of that nightmare of withdrawing from it. Life just numbs down immediately when you live on Kratom, and then hurts and depresses when you’re getting off of it. Yeah, his problems might not be because of kratom, but this plant is serious stuff, and muddies all your life up without you even knowing
i can not relate. It might make "healthy" people feel worse, but I am someone with extreme trauma in my past, and I used to be suicidal. I can honestly say kratom saved my life, as Adam said, it numbs you. Some of us start by being broken, and we need this numbing. I am just very glad I could quit weed, benzos and strong alcohol ( I was at one bottle of vodka/day at one point). Kratom took away my cravings for everything else, numbed my psychological pain way more than antidepressants every have, and even my psychiatrist is amazed of how I turned my life around and managed to build my own business and brand. All this thanks to Kratom. I can understand the double sidedness of Kratom, for some it´s a downfall, for others it´s a saviour. The key is: don´t take kratom for fun if your life is perfect, but if you start off as an addict with no hope for anything, kratom might be just what saves you. Many of us quit worse drugs with it´s help
I've been watching this guy a long time, I do like most of his contest. But he sure does end up all over the place a lot of the time. It's almost like taking massive amounts of every kind of substance known to man isn't a good idea or something.
"Made me feel held in a way". That may be the root of it! I think we weren't held enough as kids.😢 May we all go out and hug someone because we all need to be held, if not just for a minute❤
Adam my bro, when your first words are" the whole reason my relationship fell apart had nothing to do with taking any substances", maybe take a step back to look at how that substance is affecting your life. If you're having to stop taking it and going back and forth to it several times then that should scream to you that there is a problem and those problems are interfering with your family life in ways you possibly don't even see because you're in active addiction. You need professional help. It can do nothing but help. From Kratom to candy bars, people will develop problems and attachments to a lot of things. You're minimizing your problems with these substances to this extent and that again screams addict. You're basically idolizing Kratom, this "Kratom community" and acting like its some harmless thing when, for you, it's obviously not. I wouldn't be apologizing to a fricking plant or some strangers on the internet. I'd be apologizing to my little girl and to my wife(if you want them back). Keep doing what you're doing and live with it or admit you have a problem that you cant fix yourself. Get the help you and your family deserve. Wishing the best for you brother, please get professional help. Go to NA. More therapy. Family counseling. Go all out. Its worth it. You and your family being happy together are worth it
The Kratom issue is a touchy subject…because while there are some obvious indictments against it…it doesn’t mean it should be illegal. The Kratom community just wants to keep it legal and let people make the choice what to do with their own body. It would only make the black market and cartels all the more powerful. I haven’t taken Kratom in about 6 years btw.
@@clinteastwood6875 of course the Kratom community wants it kept legal. It's a drug and they like it. I've spoken with ppl that smoke weed and they swear smoking it is nothing but beneficial, absolutely nothing negative about it. Inhaling any kind of plant matter is not totally good for you but they like the drug so they're blinded to the negative aspects of it because its their DOC. They like it and dont want to see it go.
@@KonekoPurrrfection I'd say he has some good advice for people who are going to do drugs regardless of his advice, however I do think that he's pseudo grooming people with these videos, encouraging them to become the type of people that he will later have sex with-- there are a few videos where he's putting alot of sexual energy into guys who clearly aren't gay.
Here we go again. Speaking from one addict to another, until you learn to fully take responsibility for your actions as an addict and be fully ready to use that accountability and be done with it you’re only going to keep going back to it over and over again. I just noticed a common theme with your past admission and apology videos where you never seem to fully take accountability for your own actions that lead you here, nor did you seem to be in the headspace of being fully done with it. So that explains how we got here. I really hope this time is genuine and I would really suggest you seek out inpatient or even outpatient rehabilitation to help you learn how to take that accountability properly and finally get clean for good
@@gonza360 yup! As soon as I heard him making excuses for Kratom again and “apologizing” to it for giving it a bad rap I knew it would be all downhill from here. I was horribly addicted to Kratom after using it to get off opioids and the withdrawals from it are absolute hell. He’s lying to himself and everyone else claiming it’s mostly harmless with no bad side effects. Chemical dependency and addiction is a side effect dude!! He just keeps flip flopping from one extreme to the other without ever actually getting the point and getting help. He needs to stop making apology videos and GO TO REHAB!!
This is where i jump off....i went into a popular Kratom chanel and shared that i had never done it before, had a history of addiction and was just thinking about trying it....THEY ALL SAID DONT GET STARTED....youre just rationalizing...this is a dangerous message ...these "ah ha" moments are seeming like "harm induction".....sorry pal...just being honest
every time he makes a video he completely changes the story almost completely, this guy lies every time he speaks. is nobody realizing this? its like every time he completely re-writes his story everyone eats it up every single time.
I’ve changed my opinion on Kratom. The only thing I lied about has been discussed - I lied that drugs had anything to do with my past relationship failing as I clearly pointed out here. As stated in the video - the reason I lied was that I wanted to take accountability for things falling apart. I blamed myself, I blamed my use of things like Kratom as reasons my life wasn’t in order. In this video I break down how I was wrong to do that. The fact is, I was in an extremely unhealthy relationship with no love. I was trauma bonded. Instead of seeing clearly that I needed to exit said relationship I used Kratom as a scapegoat and attempted to claim it was the reason things weren’t working out to gain some control over my life. The truth is things weren’t working out because of how I was being treated. I didn’t want to accept this. To accept it I would have had to leave. So of course it’s going to look like I’ve taken a 180. I’m finally seeing straight. My trauma bond is broken.
@@Psyched.Substance I hope I'm wrong, from my perspective you just seem very manic depressive, ive followed you since i was maybe 18 or 19, just this year it seems like you have been uploading, deleting. rewriting things constantly. It gives your audience the impression that something else is going on or we arent getting the actual story. Yeah it was a wild time so it might just tend to end up like that regardless however I dont know you so i obviously am not aware of the actual situation but, I think you should hang back from airing your dirty laundry for the world to see, it's not healthy and not a good look. yes it educates but you need to worry about yourself foremost. The thing with kratom is back then you were saying how you were a hardcore addict to it, nitrous, adderall, putting a lot of stress on how it completely destroyed everything and you'd waste hundreds of hours just in that safety bubble, it looked legit to me because ive been there for 8 years and only just now got clean. That exact thing happened to me. now you are saying you werent even doing it that much and it wasnt having that much of impact on your life. those are very different things, i dont think you are straight up lying like my comment implies in a manipulative way, i just think you keep flip flopping on what you believe, I used to unknowingly stretch things and delude myself constantly trying to figure out just what the hell was happening to me, I'd dig myself a hole repeatedly, always coming up with new reasons and it would just leave me in some sort of self created hall of mirrors or whatever, it was hard to find the actual truth. Please do not forget how bad this stuff can be. It took me so long to realize what my problem actually was because all the things I would tell myself throughout the years. My point is changing the opinion on kratom can set a serious, serious booby-trap for yourself down the road, speaking from experience here. Sorry for the schizophrenic scatterbrained reply that probably has no real point behind it haha. Relationships can really screw you up just as much as drugs, glad you broke free from it. hope you are good, and I hope you got life by the balls now.
Watch through his older videos as well as the ones on his other channel, he’s spoken many of times about his drug and alcohol abuse and the story is different every time. He is trying to do damage control and it’s not working. Actions speak louder than words.
"Daily drinking isnt a problem for me! I only do 5-6 beers before driving, there are so many more hard liquors out there. Also the overdose potential is so low on 3-4 beers and the hangover isnt bad either. People who dont drink everyday dont get it. Im so sorry beer community"
@@adamgreenhill110 Kratom is literally nothing. Adam isn't the first person to blame this mild drug for problems completely unrelated to it, there are entire communities around this stuff, for all sorts of things.
😐 I'll be honest with you, take a break. I've been watching you for YEARS. We all lean on things hard and I get it. Go do something that makes you genuinely happy and feed that inner you.
At which point did I say I’m taking tons of drugs? I didn’t bro. I appreciate the concern but if you saw what my life actually looked like on a day to day basis you’d be shocked. I’m not what you think. I spend my time with my children, I workout, and in the evenings I paint. I think I will make a “day in the life” video to clear things up.
@@Psyched.Substance the title of your video is “I was really really wrong”. Your response to this comment shows you are still unbalanced. Going from one extreme to the next. Saying it’s was kratom that was to blame. Now saying you didn’t have love. Constantly grasping and shifting blame. Maybe the truth lies in a little bit of all of it. Don’t ever expect to have balance doing a channel about drugs and using drugs. Seems like you go back to mentioning your children. Regardless of how you provide for them financially or energetically. How must they feel subconsciously knowing there father was in a relationship where he didn’t feel loved. Kinda seems like a one sided blame like you didn’t feel loved. What’s her side of the story. Come on quit fucking around and grow the fuck up. You are lucky and privileged trying being humble and thankful it will go a long way
@@aaronmiles2802I’m actually not. I educate people on these substances. In reality I am a family man who spends his time doing things such as painting over drugs. My use is extremely limited tbh. I should make a “day in the life of” and shock everybody.
I’m not in a cycle anymore. Did you watch the video? I also don’t see my past use of Kratom as detrimental. I was being too hard on myself. The reasons for me taking it and the doses I was using had no negative impact on my life. I was simply wrong. As for alcohol I don’t drink. There are no substances which I take regularly/habitually. I don’t even trip more than twice a year. You guys have no idea who I am.
@Psyched.Substance just because mistakes are bound to happen doesn't mean we can justify letting our guard down friend. As an ex heroin addict you should start somethin else before it takes ahold of you more.
@@Psyched.Substancebut making mistakes isn't something bad. In fact, it's just one way we learn new things. I'm thankful for any mistake I did in life. And watching you growing older and wiser definitely wasn't a mistake :)
i know you might not see this adam but ive grown up watching you and this video really spoke to me in an oddly synchronistic way. Really grateful for ya man you will be in my prayers.
I'm in the same boat man. I've been taking kratom for 4 years now and I'd be lying if I said the pros are worth the cons of daily use. At one point I was a huge advocate for it and was even getting involved in the legality of it and was contacting public officials on behalf of kratom organizations. A year into taking it I saw the cons. But I wasn't drinking myself to death anymore and I was the most "sober" I had felt since a teenager. It gave me the confidence to be more social and to take on new ventures. I went from a guy who avoided all responsibility to a guy with a house, a family, a car, and all of the obligations that come with acting like an adult for once. It became my morning coffee. It became the thing I had to do before I made any major choices. I attributed my growth to kratom and that is horrible thing to do with a substance because you will find so many ways to justify excessive use (nothing like the insane amounts I've seen people mention taking daily on reddit). It's not a kratom problem, it's a me problem. And I'm glad you çame to the same conclusion. Some of us just aren't able to have a healthy relationship with distractions. I don't even realize I'm turning something into a vice until someone points it out most times. Thank you for always giving us your honest experience regardless of where your head is at any time.
Saying that SSRIs are more harmful than Kratom (and almost implying that the latter is better) is downright dangerous. This is definitely not the harm reduction content I subscribed to years ago, in fact the opposite. I'm very disappointed in you.
I really hope whatever your struggling with you get through it if I hadn’t found your videos when I started using substances me and all my friends would be strung out or dead somewhere
Yeah this is a solid channel! I first learned about testing kits even existing, from Adam. This is a valuable channel. Stay well, Adam & everyone else! 💪❤
Mistakes are meant to be made, Adam. That's how we grow as people. Failure is the greatest teacher. Glad you're not as hard on yourself and that you're better now. ❤
Kratom helped me get through so much anguish in a very tough time in my life, but like all drugs you have to respect it. It gave me several months of being able to get through the horrible life circumstances I was in, and I ended up paying for that with about a week of discomfort getting off of it. That was a worthy trade to me.
Before youre trying to convince us you dont have psychological dependency on substences try to make sure that you have convinced yourself, because its pretty clear youre doing some mental gymnastics on yourself to make it look like its ok and necissary for to keep using substences that the psych didnt precribe.
I saw the title. Then I saw the first section was labeled "my apology" Finally, he must have realized the pain and suffering his childish ways have caused... or so I have though In my wildest dreams I wouldn't have thought he would apologize to KRATOM Adam you are a living parody. I couldn't make this shit up if I tried
Dude I know it’s insane. I kinda started watching because I am a former heroin user who started out experimenting exactly in the manner Adam was in the beginning and the morbid part of me wanted to see the train crash.
This video is absolutely ridiculous. Worst thing is look at all the comments, encouraging the guy, when drugs have literally destroyed his life and keep doing so. Very sad. I hope Adam gets better eventually, instead of having these great “revelation” moments every year
I've noticed a change in your demeanor over the years. You used to have such a light-hearted and easygoing nature. But now, it seems like you're constantly on edge, easily irritated, and often upset. Perhaps it's worth reconsidering if the testosterone is really helping you.
I swear this dude has to make an apology like every 6 months smh Edit: now that I’m about halfway through, I’m realizing he’s apologizing for “demonizing” kratom… as someone in addiction recovery, I think if you have an addiction (even something as relatively harmless as kratom) and you’re having issues while in active use, you should probably come to terms with the idea that it was the drugs contributing to the problem. Some people have problem addictions with weed or caffeine and should accept they shouldn’t use those substances, but that doesn’t mean you’re wrong to say it’s a problem for you and to warn people that it IS possible to have a problem. That isn’t demonization in any way to me
What do you mean by this 😳 I've been taking it for 3 years, daily. Large amounts, lol. I used it to get off hard 0piates I've heard some ppl have taken it for a decade & been fine. Just curious what you are describing 🙏🏻
@@JaseekaRawr sounds like it is a great help for you, everyone reacts different. When I was using my emotions were absolutely overdriven leading to some severe downs. I did some really strange and some very antisocial things and often felt like not having any control in what i do or how i behave. I was a totally different person and gladly got back to my actual personality when i stopped using
I couldn't find a way to express myself because my emotions were not mine and my face was numb and I couldn't act natural. It was horrible, almost like having a mind with no body plus a body without a mind. Also my thought processes were weird and unlogical
@@JaseekaRawrMe too. I’ve a recovering heroin addict who struggles with major depression. When I got sober, I wanted to off myself. Kratom has helped me get through life. I was able to get off SSRI’s. I’ve never felt such a dark depression in my life until I got sober. The only problem that it has given me is hair loss. Do you notice losing more hair on it?
@@allesistgesagt same i was a totally different person. i actually went from kratom to fent and felt better on fent mentally at least. regular opiods are more benign in mental affects than kratom. but the physical effects are obv much worse. im on a very low dose of subs now and also feel better than was on kratom.
Kratom is bad man, I finally was able to quit it after taking it for 5 years and my life has changed magnificently in a short amount of time. Please avoid using it unless you're taking it get off of harder drugs. It will turn you into a boring emotionless zombie eventually.
I love you brother, but I have to respectfully disagree with you about kratom being a benign substance. Kratom ruined my life, and has been a huge stumbling block in a number of aspects of my life. Even at a low dose, kratom just F's everything up. I made a list of the reasons why I don't do kratom anymore, and came up with 34 reasons how kratom has negatively impacted my life (which I suggest anyone do who is trying to quit any drug, that way any time you are tempted, you can look at your list on your phone and be reminded of how bad the drug impacts your life, because it's easy to forget). Out of all the drugs I have ever done, kratom is at the top of the list of the ones I wish I had never tried. Kratom might seem alright at first, but trust me, it has an evil and disgusting side. To anyone reading this, you've been warned.
@oxymwro you're answering my question with another question I'm not trying to poke a bear... you're question doesn't answer mine either. I was just asking.
Publicly changing one's opinion to one more closely aligned with public sentiment is quite literally one of the easiest things one can do. And it's certainly not wise, there's a reason we teach children to resist peer pressure
Adam, you are an addict. Kratom is not the real problem, it's the addiction. No matter how harmless or harmful the drug is, it is a matter of the mind. Your brain can't tell the difference between substances when it comes to addiction. Addiction is addiction!
@@thomasbergstad1867 Again, you've never seen real addiction and you don't know him personally. A lot of you are way too parasocial with Adam. More than I've seen in any other yt community. It's weird as hell
@@fifthtyp3 Im currently 2 years sober from 14 years of heroin and other drugs so i do know what it means to be an addict. It dosent matter how much of an addict you are, addiciton is still addiction.
@@thomasbergstad1867. You're overly parasocial to youtubers and coffee and kratom are nothing comparatively to heroine lmfao. Nearly everyone except monks or some Amish take something, caffiene, nicotine, weed. The degree of severity from those to heroine is laughable. 'addiction is addiction', is a crazy false equivalency argument. You either never did heroine, or you did and all that hard drug use did some brain damage if you don't see how ridiculous you sound. I've never wanted a coffee or kratom so bad I robbed my mother, heroine will do that to a person, not mild substance's
Everyday use, multiple times a day, is in fact an addiction. I know I’m 7 months mf late but pushing the blame off of an obvious addiction isn’t the way to healing.
Bro. I’ve been saying this since I started watching this guys videos. He has done the exact opposite of what he set out to do, he set out to end drug stigmas and instead confirmed what most people already thought. I experimented with acid and almost cooked myself, was doing it monthly bc I heard you could take it every other week and be fine. I almost lost myself, then I saw this guys videos and realized there are things the human body simply isn’t supposed to be exposed to. Regardless of residual effects that you can chemically trace, there is a little something called “PTSD” and it’s a whole load of shit that it’s treated by psychedelics. This guy has scarred himself. And until he is completely done w this shit he won’t even realize it. It’s fucking hard to watch but I hope what he’s doing isn’t in vain and the viewers realize acid and shrooms, dmt ETC. unfortunately, should be a temporary drug maybe even a one time use drug IF THAT.
I agree man, I've tried both acid and shrooms once, didn't even have a bad experience but I'm just completely done with psychedelics forever. Just the thought of something potentially being able to induce permanent psychosis and alter your reality forever is terrifying. I used to admire these psychonauts, and think about what other psychedelics I would want to try but nah man I'm good. My sanity is too important to me
Lol. I am 55, I have taken LSD about 400 times, between 1994 and 2009, I have smoked altogether between 15 and 20 grams of DMT, and done a broad scala of other, less well known phenethylamines and even obscurer substances, and have not had ANY damage whatsoever. The problem is when people take these psychedelic substances to escape reality, to be sedated, to cause some sort of personality change, or to "attain enlightenement". The substances are expected to cause the change, when in fact the only thing that can enact that change is you yourself, as the user. When you face your darkness, your fears, when you accept yourself as you are, when you realize that YOU yourself are the pilot of the body, and that you are the only one who can change yourself, the danger disappears, because you no longer fight yourself through these substances. It is YOUR mind. We aren't spectators of what our minds do to us, we are in charge. Expecting the drug to be responsible for whatever happens to us, is needlessly giving away autonomy. Drugs are like candy. If you can keep yourself ftom binging on them/it, and listen to the signals of your body, you get the feedback needed to effectively retake control over your body/mind. It is all about taking a step back, accepting yourself, and stop chasing a goal or expected result. That is when food ~not toxin~ of ANY kind becomes a useful tool for managing, steering and maintaining your physical vehicle, as it were.
And by "food", I mean ANY substance that is not directly toxic. When you dose ANYTHING at a sub-toxic level, and that means just food as well, don't get me wrong, because overeating or eating the wrong foods at the wrong times, and even just ANY binging is again just giving away bodily autonomy, and losing control over yourself.
years of watching your channel, all of your ups of downs are from drugs and using them. Plus you love to justify or distance yourself from the consequences of your actions like the mental ups and downs from taking drugs , either by saying its from trauma or straight denial. "its not my fault"
How long have you been clean? Once you live clean and keeps the progress , you will become vibrant and life feels limitless. Yeah no to junk foods and all drugs. If on drugs including alcohol , what you are doing is just tryin to escape the reality or numb it or forget it , rather than facing the problem and tryin to fix it . People on any drugs , looses clarity of mind , if you don't have clarity you will just wander around reaching nowhere . Some will say , ohh i am just doing this for once a while , the question you have to ask yourself is if you wanna Ascend or Descend . Drugs doesn't make our life better. It just makes us loose our mental clarity. Just think why pregnant woman are told not to drink and stuffs and eat clean and healthy.
Kratom affects the mind like an opioid, as it is one (a partial agonist) and should be avoided completely if you don’t need it and are fine without it. It can mess your baseline levels up for several different things and is addictive even if you haven’t had trouble being addicted to substances in the past. Please don’t recommend it (unless maybe you’re taking it temporarily for pain from an injury or something or really really need it and have to choose either that or full agonist opioids). Can’t tell if you’re on it or not in this video.
Dear God did I need to hear this! I don't have any substance abuse issues (and for a good bit now, no substance use at all ... caffeine included) at all but hearing what you had to say about control and blame spoke to my soul! For the I-don't-know-how-many-ith time, thank you for what you do!
Several times. As stated - substances had NOTHING to do with it. I’m being vague because it’s not my place to share personal information about another human. But I will say this - I was never treated how I deserved to be treated. When I say it failing had nothing to do with me I truly mean it had nothing to do with me.
Sorry Adam not trying to come at you. I’m only saying this with love as someone who is 16 1/2 years clean and sober from drugs and alcohol. These substances are only SYMPTOMS of a deeper issue…and getting to the root of them while abstaining from all mind altering substances is really healing for all aspects of life, especially relationship with self and others.
I'm glad people are finally realising this. He hasn't even reached rock bottom yet. The copium and lack of accountability is huge. It's always the same thing of him fucking up in life and then needing to take drugs to 'fix' it or have some 'big' realisation and then defending that it isn't part of the problem. But whatever fix or realisation he gets is merely temporary and thus the cycle repeats itself. It's not helped by the fact he's surrounded by one of the biggest groups of enablers I've ever seen.
Kratom is basically an opioid. Not as bad as most, ofc. But still technically an opioid. If you abuse kratom you can get physical withdrawals, I have. That’s all ima say. Don’t try to justify it my guy. Opioid addictions a bitch. And I was hooked on oxy, been clean for 7 months from it. I would take kratom when i didn’t have Roxy.
Kratom is a wonderful plant if you respect it. I've been doing quite a bit for almost 6 years now, recently switched from green only to red for the past month and my mental feels a lot better. I'm slowly weening my self and plan to stop. I will say in my personal experiences green enraged me, not all the time but prior to kratom use i never had a short temper. Respect the plant, and it will respect you. Edit: this has nothing to do with the point of your video but i've never shared my experience, and felt like it.
I feel it has as well to do with the Dose...and as well the Strain, the Red is as well better for me than the white...but yes I think even with cannabis I get rage Problems If I consume to much over the day, but yes kratom makes them much more
Story time. I used to love Kratom. For me, I thought it was GREAT! It gave me exactly what I was looking for. Energy in the AM, relaxation in the PM. Loved to experiment with various strains and mix them. However, I started to up the dosage consistently, for months, until I was doing *at least* 15 grams a day. I know people who do a lot more, but 15g is still *a ton* in my opinion. The reason why I don't do it anymore is that, one day, I realized I was almost out of the monstrous amount I'd initially ordered. When I went to order more, my source had an issue with processing payment, so I figured I'd just do a REALLY fast taper down and just wait to order more. No big deal, right?...I had NO IDEA how intense the withdrawals were. I didn't sleep a wink for 7 days. Straight up. It felt like I was sleeping on cattle prods with a full body restless leg syndrome feeling. Maddening...I actually had to temporarily go on medication for RLS just to start sleeping again, to spotty results. My digestion was all messed up, my body hurt, I was a mental and emotional mess, really anxious and angry. Whole ordeal lasted about 2-3 weeks until I felt more normal. I figured that it must have really been altering my body and neurology in a profound way to produce withdrawals like that. I've had moderate alcohol withdrawals that were a breeze in comparison. I'd used Kratom recreationally in the past, but never with such consistency and high dosage. I didn't consider it a "drug" when I decided to get on it again. I actually started using it at that time as a replacement for alcohol to unwind. Eventually, I relapsed on alcohol during the height of my Kratom use...and I liked the combo. I also used weed with it. Neither helped stave off the Kratom withdrawals, by the way. Clearly, it altered me much more than I felt subjectively, day to day. I would drive and go to work on it. I never felt strung out or super high on it (though there were some evening binges where I got a slight nod going). I really didn't want to get back on it after that ordeal and potentially have to go through it all again. It was terrible. It made me have a lot more respect and compassion for people who go through more hardcore opioid withdrawals. I've been called a p*ssy or liar on forums by some users for sharing my experience, but, that's legitimately how it was for me. I have an incredibly addictive personality, so, I'm sure people could use it in moderation with almost zero side effects or withdrawal, but, I clearly can't. I was using it to excess every day for around 5 months, then stopped practically cold turkey. I started getting withdrawals the first day I cut my dose in half, then they just got worse once I was totally out within a few days. If anyone is thinking about getting off it, TAPER DOWN SLOWWWW...I'm talking like reducing your intake by a half a gram, every other day. My withdrawals really took a heavy toll on me. When I first got into it, I had heard people say there was NO withdrawal...Well, your experience may be different, but I went through the ringer.
I appreciate the advice man. I'm super addicted to kratom and its running my whole life. I feel like i cant live without it. I know i cannot stop cold turkey because the withdrawls are unbearable. The only way out is to cut down. But its even hard to do that. I'm gonna start measuring every dose i take and do what you say. Go down a half gram every other day. Rn i take maybe 8 gram doses 6-8 times a day. First ill work on taking smaller doses each, then work on taking less doses each day. Wish me luck. I fuckin need it
@@Hoppelite Hey man, that's a BIG quit if you're serious about tapering. You can absolutely do it. The process doesn't have to be as painful as mine was, or previous attempts on your end were. What you need is consistency. Reduce your dose with the same thoroughness and care that you had in increasing your dose and ensuring you either got high or got by. Half a gram every other day is something you'll hardly notice day to day. If you want to cut more aggressively, at the dosage you're at, you can try, just be careful about cutting too much at once. You don't have to, it's only if you're feeling strong and not being effected by withdrawals. I would've tapered A LOT slower had I had the knowledge and foresight for what I'd end up going through. You need to take inventory of your supply and plan to have enough to fully taper down. I was sloppy and hasty. I didn't take it seriously and didn't have enough to taper properly. I ended up regretting it. YOU CAN DO THIS! Just be smart. Go slow. It's a LONG TERM GOAL. If you want a shortcut, you'll end up getting high like before when it doesn't work. Good luck. Truly.
@@Hoppelite 100% MEASURE THE DOSE. I did that every time, even before my laughable "taper", just due to my innate control freak personality. I knew exactly how much I was doing, every dose, every day. I'd use Japanese edible paper cones. They came with a cardboard filling tray. I'd tare the cardboard and cone on the scale, then I'd measure what I put in. Usually 2.5g-4g per paper cone. It's also how I figured out my favorite blends of different strains. However you intake your Kratom, measure it. If it's capsules (I hope not, at your dose), calculate the weight of an empty capsule and subtract it from the total weight, then multiply by the amount of capsules. If toss and washing, just use any empty small container or paper, tared first on the scale, and weigh the dose. You MUST WEIGH THE DOSE. This is the only way to ensure consistency and the most gentle way of quitting and avoiding withdrawals. Again, good luck. You got this, if you want it.
In my opinion kratom is comperable to codeine or tramadol. They're all mild opiods. What's common with them is that they are mild but effective. All opioids (even the hardcore ones) are not toxic at all (tramadol can caude seizures at high doses though). Their problem is that they all cause physical dependence, even the mild ones. But none of them are neurotoxic. Codeine overdose is something i haven't heard of. Most people don't get addicted to it but some will. However opioids do not shorten your lifespan but only if you're able to live normally and take care of your mental and physical well being. Fentany/Heroin/Oxyl users become ill for other reasons, like high overdose risk (passing out without being able to breath causes brain damage due to lack of oxygen), lifestyle on the streets, mixing other drug with them (crack, iv cocaine, meth) causes problems, homelesness and not being able to take care of yourself physically/mentally. And of course the impurities in street drugs play a huge role, including the tranq and benzo dope.
There have been consistent uploads this month and TWO live experience videos on different compounds. I think you’re failing to get the notifications. Not everyone is expected to like EVERY video. Stop being ridiculous.
@@Psyched.Substancethink it's the fact you've made a few of these videos now tbh you've been through the same cycle multiple times and seems you never learn 😊
@joshuaplayer8273 ^ this but not the never learning part. The ending statement, 'it bugs me that people have the wrong idea of me' pretty much says it all. A staple video every few months to regain assurance. It is probably best to not deal with it publicly if it bugs you that putting a video online about your kratom addiction gives people the wrong idea.
I've been taking kratom for around 5 years for chronic pain. It's better than burning a hole in my stomach with ibuprofen or getting addicted to oxy which is way harder to get off. As long as I don't increase my dosage and take a tolerance break every month or 2, I still get the same effect I got before. Your tolerance only goes up really high if you keep increasing the dosage. Honestly the only thing that could be bad for your relationship is that kratom makes finishing during sex really difficult lol I always have to try to time my dosage so it wears off before my girlfriend comes over.
Facts my mom almost died from a stomach ulcer from taking 2-4 tabs of aspirin a day as an alcoholic, for headaches and tooth pain. Me and her both tried kratom and she's finally been alcohol free after 34 years. I'm very regimented with my kratom doses and I have very few issues, my only issue is running out.
Dude, the way you talk about this sounds the way an addict tries to justify their use. Just because you're functional doesn't mean you aren't doing harm.
this video has a really weird point. the first half is a nothing burger of half baked ideas to justify adiction. however,im glad that you opened up on your suffering on the second half of it, that was precious. rewatch this in a couple of years, this is not what a person whos grown out of his pain sounds like. i hope you find the love you deserve. if you need a break, take it
Yeah, that's addiction. You aren't talking that directly about that topic just besides. You are blaming yourself and your behavior but your addiction is controlling you.
the only thing kratom did to me was a slight energy boost for about an hour but that hour became really enjoyable until it was everyday and that slight boost wasnt a boost anymore it was to be my old self
Right on about Kratom feeling like just the slightest sense of love and affection. It really helps make those lonely and emotionally hurting times bearable, in a safe way.
I have never related to anything more, I feel miserable and lonely so much of the time and kratom almost feels like a warm hug for just a few minutes, but I never truly will progress or leave my comfort zone while addicted to this horrendous substance.
Idk you just gotta work on your relationship with it, or let it go. I had to work on it. I'm at an ok place right now with it. One dose with a small redose at the end of the day. Sometimes I don't even do the redose, more often than not I don't. I also go a few days without it every few weeks.
It has to be that adam is wrong, right? A girl cant be wrong in any situation, especially a relationship right? 🙄Adam is spot on in this video. Kratom CAN be addictive and a problem for some people, but its not to blame on its own. Tired of the woketard logic.
@@projectnemesi5950 I’m not making a value judgement on his activities and I have no idea why his wife really left but that’s irrelevant here. You can still be an addict and functional that doesn’t prove u don’t have a proven.
I stopped watching your videos a long time ago because I knew you were on the wrong path. You spoke about how the conscious mind controls the subconscious and all you have to do is control the conscious mind, which is completely wrong. I knew you had lost it.
We're all coping through society using something, even media. Only so many of our personal issues can be solved. The big societal one will still linger and keep weighing on us. Not to be a downer I'm sorry bro how is that Kratom extract?
Idk if it’s just me but Adam sounds speedy. I don’t know if he’s really talking from the heart or if he’s really off amphetamines, or what not. Nonetheless, I’m not hating on him. It just seems weird from him.
I hit 2 years clean from benzo's / opioids a week ago. I don't seek praise , i only wish to show someone out there its damn well possible I remember that video. I was early into my sobriety
Dude, I just got sober after taking various substances as often as I can get my hands on them and smoking weed every single day since I was 13 or 14. I'm 22 now. Please, for the love of God, take a year off of any substance and live for nothing but bettering yourself. Get a decent job to hold you over while you're not making content. Reflect on yourself heavily and honestly. You're starting to sound exactly how I did before I realized I was addicted to getting high.
