If You Knew Me, You Wouldn't Love Me (Heavy Checklist Ep 31) 

Hey Heavy. I listened to this as I, was driving my truck last night. I'm 59 years old. Been through a lot. I can't tell you how much I appreciate you for bringing this information to us. It made this old man cry when I realized I am everything Mike talked about..please do more. Thank you

This is the single most powerful video I’ve ever had the pleasure of watching. Thank you for taking the time to bring this forward to us that are quietly just suffering. Thank you.

Thank you for this. Pretty much how I’ve live my life to the T. Dealt with depression for a long time and have always had trouble making connections, never feeling good enough and not maintaining relationships with friends or family. Tough thing to deal with every day

WOW! Dave, powerful. Glad you shared this, I sent it to my wife and daughters. I wish I'd seen this before high school, and I'm almost 60 now. I had to figure this out on my own, your video would have made it SO MUCH EASIER... I carried that "pit in the stomach" before any and every event for many years, and it will still make itself known if I don't control it. Thanks for what you do brother! Cheers from Texas! God Bless you and your family and crew.

I just found this channel today and I am seeing an entirely new side of Heavy D. I'm very impressed. Sooner or later, we will meet up and both of us will be elevated while at the same time we'll be elevating those around us.

First time listener to the heavyD checklist and already 8 min in to the video and I love what you guys are talking about! When it comes to personal recognition of your self conscious. Definitely something a lot of people struggle with, I being one of them from time to time. Keep up the awareness of reality and our self consciousness heavy D can't wait to listen to many more of your videos. Also love the Heavy D Sparks videos I love what you guys do, I wish I could do what you all do on a daily, it definitely makes me jealous haha but also excited to see what my future holds for my self! Keep it up!! :)

This made me think in a way I never have about my childhood that leeds to why I act the way I do today. Truly eye opening and amazing stuff 👏

Simpson is the real deal-- very talented Healer. Excellent work!

This is Goosebumps and Tears material. WOW ! I suffer from severe Depression and Loneliness and low to almost not existing self - esteem. This is eye opening stuff.

Found your other channel a couple months ago and you remind me of my buddies back home, found this one now and not sure if i'm ready for this, but need some healing inside, I don't always like how my thought process works. maybe we'll meet some day. Thanks Heavy

I'm a veteran and this guy hits pretty close. One thing is true. When push comes to shove, you'll know the difference between brothers and others. It took years to talk and longer to talk without tearing up. What I know now is that talking about it doesn't seem to phase most people, they don't actually see maimed kids in the street when you talk about them. They don't feel the fear of being holed up for days. They can't see it, they don't wake up from it and they don't worry about getting socked in the face for waking you up. In short, it makes you a guy with some wacky stories.

I honestly just found your podcast channel. This is the first one that I have listened to. I have a lot of anxiety due to many different events in life. I spent 18 years in the military and currently work as a firefighter. Things that I have saw combined with things that happened growing up and in early adulthood have left me feeling "not good enough" or "subpar". This podcast really hit hard. Emotionally hard for me to listen to. If it wasn't for God's love and my wife's support, I wouldn't be as good as I am today. So thank you for putting out there real emotions and real feelings.

WOW, I have been watching this and I so relate to this for at least 56 years of 59. I've been in need of this healing process and soon. It's just by chance I found this and happy to. Thank you for sharing.

I’ve listened to this podcast 5 times and it just hits home for me. I have had the same feeling the Hans has growing up and just listening to it has changed me life and I want to thank you guys for posting it just wow I have now changed the way I think and things in my past and how to deal with them and changed for the better. Just thank you guys and Hans your not alone buddy if you need to talk just dm me.

Wow. Just wow. I just listened to this podcast on my drive home from work. Wow. Like it really hit me. I actually just listened and felt when you guys were talking about. Really made me think about me and why I am the way I am. I won’t get into it at all but I want to say Thank You for doing this cast. Really opened up my mind to look further into myself and work on ME even more. Truly Thank You Dave.

I think at the heart of it, this question is everything we need to know about love. Imagine raising your kids in a way that lets them know that no matter what, you love them. Imagine being a spouse that does that. It's extremely powerful. Imagine approaching every friendship with that openness. It would certainly change the world.

Thank you much for sharing this pod cast👍

Wow! I’ve been a recluse for 8 yrs. And now I finally know why. I came home from a lunch/shopping day with my friend and my home was on fire. You helped me in a way I can’t believe. Thank you. It’s 3am and I want to wake my husband. He’s on the verge of divorcing me because I haven’t left our room in 8 yrs. You saved my life x my marriage!! Tyvm!! I’m mind blown right now. I’m so grateful I randomly found your channel. Wow!!!

I was in the special Edd classes and tried to hide it for years also never brought friends home so I didn't have to deal with people leaving and not coming back y'all just hit the heart hard🙏👊 I love y'all thank you for the time and open hearts👊😎

I just got the book in the mail today cant wait to start reading it thank you guys for this hoping it will help me heal.

Mr Sparks, thank you so much! Sir this is a message I needed to hear & I'm sharing this with someone I know that I hope uses it.

Our past dosnt make us who we r, ur going wonderful things helping people in need, and for that sir I love u and what ur doing

I'm just crying. So, there is that. I need him as my counselor. I really need his help.

Just ordered your book. I just started listening in and really enjoy what you are discussing. Very helpful information. Hans, you are amazing. Don't ever doubt it! I'm sure HeavyD knows that too. Love yourself hard so those around you can as well.

Heavy D, you are the greatest…. Thanks for all you do… loving this podcast

I can't be the only one that feels secure in himself (or herself for the ladies) enough that since my late 20's, have never given one thought as to what others think of me. I have faults of course, but I'm a good man, empathetic, caring, generous, and when I look in the mirror, I see what's there, the good, and the bad. I have a choice to change what I don't like about myself, I don't need another's approval to change or to not change. As a child, I was one of the bullied kids, and hated school so this may have been part of who I have become as an adult. I care to some extent what others think of me, and my life, but ultimately I know who I am, and I'm happy with that, mistakes and all, and I've made a lot of them. What you or anyone thinks of me only serves as a guide for me when I do look at myself, and if what you say is true, then I may change something, but I never take another's judgment of me good, or bad as the gospel truth. I'm so confident in who I am if given a compliment I know I don't deserve, I say thank you, and move on, but if I deserve the compliment, I'm proud to have performed to expectation. It's all black, and white for me, we are all the same with similar problems, and none of us are better than another. It's a matter of honesty with oneself, and others that I live by, just be honest with yourself, don't hide behind a facade, and you'll be so much happier! 👍✌ P.S. I'm 61 so have had many experiences which led me to this way of thinking. I'm ecstatic this gentleman is here to help others become secure in their own skin, and be happy in life. I actually thought of becoming a therapist back in the day, and that was likely one of the life mistakes I made as I think I could have helped a lot of people, and been very happy with that career. Cheers to Mike Simpson for following his path to helping others, I'm certain he is a godsend for many!

This is some great information on how to look into yourself and better yourself. Thank you for bringing this information to so many people.

Thank you. This is killer information that outlines a process to heal and change the way we look at ourselves so that we can actually see us as others do. Game Changer!

And by the way, Hands , thank you for making your self vulnerable for everyone else!! That is some warrior sh#t right there.

I almost waved off. I didn't because I like all you guys, and I can relate to Hans. This actually brought me to tears because I have been experiencing this in my life. I never got married or had kids and have been living alone because of my subconscious roadblock.

I think you are amazing HANS! I love watching all the videos and you always seem to be the net that keeps everyone together moving in the same direction. I love you buddy.

I needed resource but never got it. I have a couple profound "learning disabilities" I never understood why people were not interested in my friend ship until I understood that no one could see through their own pain. It took me a very long time on a very lonesome road to see myself with love. Love does not come from the approval others. No one is worthy to give it. My dearest truth is that if you could feel and see the world the way I do, you would want to be me. I am very aware that that sounds arrogant but I don't know how to put it more simple.

More please 🙏

Wow some powerful stuff that made me think about so many things. I found myself about to go sleep but found this video . Thanks for sharing I appreciate how he keeps us interacted the whole time.

Absolutely loving the teachings of these. I commented on the first episode and feel even more strongly after this one. I am already putting these lessons into action. I look forward to being able to recognize and overcome the symptoms of my military induced PTSD; I do not like that I believe all strangers are out to harm. I would hope that I will be able to go into public and be open to encounter the unknown, one day. Thank you for creating these videos.

Man I relate to Hans so much!!!!! Honestly one of my favourite people on the show!!!

The fact that a lot of what Mike talks about overlaps with what Andrea Carver said on the previous podcast just proves to me how real it is. I'm super excited to see what comes next from you guys & to see how these change me & my actions!! THANK YOU 😭🧡

This is brilliant I’ve been looking for something like this for a long time in my life thank you

I know for a fact everyone listening to this wants to hear more

Hanns seems so confident though, I would have never thought he has anxiety very similar to mine.

Hanuz you are a smart person. Don't let anyone tell you that you're not. There is smarts in all of us we all learn in different ways. There are plenty of other ways to learn, it is just having a teacher who can interact and engage you in a different way. This man is a smart man. You definitely have the ability to go far. It is mostly our selves that hold us back. We just have to want to do what ever it is, a have a good attitude about what your doing. And then take the time to do those things. It takes determination and patience for you to overcome your fears and get a good grasp of what it is your needs are to achieve your goals. Never let someone else make you feel bad about yourself. May God bless you in your efforts. Turn to God, he will not lead you astray. Peace be with you and your family if you have one already.

HeavyD thank you for having this particular podcast. It was wonderful! What an astounding doctor that man is! This podcast was so touching and relating to my life. I would love to be hypnotized by him about something very personal and to stop me from smoking cigarettes. I learned lots regarding why I had certain feelings about things that happened in my childhood. WOW WOW WOW! I learned something called rational behavior therapy (RBT) back in the late 90s. Its list goes like this...1. Stop what you're doing and thinking immediately before you do something with a bad outcome! 2. Change your thinking or feeling about the situation at hand. 3. Changing the way you think of something will change the emotion. 4. The emotion will change the action. 4. The action will change the consequence. In short....1. stop, change thought, change your emotions, change your action, automatically changes your consequence.

I was a kid in the eighties they grew up with dyslexia never knowing what the heck was going on with me because even the teachers didn't know that I had dyslexia I was dyslexia I was in special ed classes I went to school sitting there trying to figure out what the teacher wanted from me could not understand one thing about reading math anything that they sat in front of me and I understand where he was coming from yes I was worried about kids picking on me because I was in specialized but to have dyslexia and not know why you can't see words like someone else it was so uncomfortable in age 36 I actually learned Of dyslexia and now my son with aspergers a form of autism is teaching me how to read because now I'm 49 years old and I want to know what I missed So these sessions that you guys have on these broadcasts are helping me heal tremendously and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart because I'm facing things of my black canvas that I did not know that was bothering me and making me feel very uncomfortable with anxiety and depression it's hard to know is it me or Something I didn't know that I was fighting Please keep up these podcasts I look forward to listening to you guys talk every time I come home from taking care of my 30 year old son that lives in a group home being a single mom I need this I am so alone and I just sometimes wonder why Someone's not interested in me and I sometimes think it's because my son has aspergers that they don't want anything to do with me and it hurts because my son is amazing

Loved this. Trying to think of a way to get past my own "learned helplessness " to access the practice and use it!!! And also pass this information on!!!

Great session.. very informative... Thank you Dave..

Wow that was deep! I needed to hear this because i am also dealing with issues that started when i was young and all through my life. I definitely need to hear more. I recently started watching your pod cast and i am totally amazed!

thank you

Glad I found this 🙏👍

Wow! This is beautiful guys. I some how had no idea this channel existed; and am so glad I found it. I have to say that if Dave Sparks wouldn't have torn up the FF grass, I never would have found you guys. You guys, all of you, are a wonderful example of how truthful to ourselves we all can be. This is my lifes mission aswell. We are all capable of so much more. I know you guys are crazy busy so I personally thank you for taking the time to love us. God is using you; and I can only think he is pleased. Bravo gentlemen.

Best RU-vidr on the tube rn! That’s for the great content! Pick me for the truck! 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

I have suffered from severe panic disorder for years. It has ruined my life and has caused me to miss out on so much. I guess everyone’s issues are unique to the individual. So it’s hard for me to put into words. However, when everyone is going far into the woods to ride snowmobiles or razors, go camping etc....I have to stay back, out of fear of dying. I can only go so far...anyways it’s a whole thing. But thanks for this video. I love this channel and I live my life through all you guys😎and it’s freaking FUN and FANTASTIC! Thanks for the memories😎

Right to the core brother.

AMAZING thank you. this helped me immensely. i have ptsd. i work with a trauma therapist but this helped me way more then my therapist. gonna buy the book. thank you for this insight. God bless ❤☝️☀️💯🙏✝️

This is a great podcast! Love this stuff.

This podcast is amazing ,I love the conversations....

This was good and helpful im getting divorced and the one person i let in and trusted and every friend i have ever had has turned on me. I have both my kids and they have been the only ones who know the truth and have my back because they where there and went through it with me too. My ex left and hasnt even call my kids in 3 years. She has always pushed everyone who loved her away. Its hard not to feel like you did something wrong. Its my kids who have helped me understand how bad it was and how much happier they are now.

Amazing stuff right there. Thank you for inviting us in. Very powerful

I'm here Heavy D. Great podcast 👏🏾

Praise God for you brother and this man. Such a logical approach to wellness and self healing. Keep up the positive vibe. Where's Diesel Dave???

Such a healthy channel! 😍 Want more!

Wow powerful words!

Wow!!! This may sound odd, but oh well. I have a VERY active mind. Over the years, I'm 47, I have done this on my own, and didn't even realize it, until watching this. Wow!!!

I think what you are doing is great! I watched this episode twice, it has excellent content. Simply Amazing. Change the World!

Thank you for sharing this ! I came home from Afghanistan and could t figure out why I was the way I was . Anxious and losing focus. I had a hard time with people and society and would get anxiety over the littlest thing. This video woke me to where it started and why!!! Thank you!!

This guy is very intelligent. This is awesome. Thanks for bringing this to the world to experience.

very interesting info thank you.

Amazing Episode. Just bought the book.

When he talked about addiction and I'm not good enough so why not, fricken started balling. This guy is amazing and thanks to Heavy D. We all get the privalidge to hear just a small part of his genius. Thanks to everyone on this and all the podcast on this site. Fricken love you all !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That sasquatch on the door is savage I'm isolating from that.

We need to get this out in the eyes of right, people 👍

Hans you are rock star!

This was a very powerful Podcast thank you very much I had a surgery 10 years ago and haven't been able to work It was supposed to be a simple surgery The Doctor cut through all of my nerves in my left Groin And I have been laying on the couch in the fetal position 24 hours A-day only time I leave the house is for doctor's appointment. I Don't hang out with my friends Anymore Because I have severe depression Because I love to Work love to play But I can't do anything anymore This Podcast It's powerful. I used to be a self employed diesel mechanic like you. heavy D I really enjoyed watching your videos. I just found this new Podcast you are doing. Thank you

Thank you .

This guy is amazing 🤩

Awesome!!!

An amazing podcast and very interesting

This is DEEPStuff! And it brings up memories. Also, I wish you could've worked with my Son before he made a life choice. My Son has been gone since March 22 2010. P.s. I've been watching your other Channel and i just found this channel less than 24 hours ago.

very cool podcast,i will be paying more attention

VERY GOOD! Thank you! I have SO MUCH admiration for you all. You are such a bright spot in my day. And, let me tell you, Hans, you ARE Heavy D's right hand. Maybe you went to "resource" in school to gain knowledge about resources. You ARE Heavy's resource go-to. I love that about you. What you accomplished in the snowed in series was so amazing, I was in awe what you pulled off. Your anxiety is worry that you might not hit the mark, which you do, every single time! Have more confidence in yourself! With a man like Heavy giving you that position in his life and career, you are really SPECIAL. Heavy, your gift is helping others, and telling your story, no matter what that story happens to be at the moment. You are all such great role models for others. You are real. At first, I wasn't sure about Diesel Dave, but the more I watch him, he is such a gift from God. Everyone needs a Diesel Dave in their life! And, the logistics! Holy cow! What you have pulled off... the Hunter rescue with the Freedom bus, the concrete for the ghost town! And having EVERYTHING YOU NEEDED to help the folks with a flat tire. Go back and watch that part again and tell me how that wasn't directly orchestrated by God! Thank God for saving Diesel Dave on the mountain. God is leading your path. Just PLEASE leave the mediums alone. I challenge you to google mediums in the Bible. They are demons, so of course they will know what happened. They will lie to you and tell you it was them when it was from God. That's what demons do. Leave them alone... please. Allow God to lead your path. He has brought you this far. Would you in your wildest dreams as a child, thought you would be here right now? Give praise where its deserved, and walk on! 🥰

I do....I feel it all the time.

AWESOME!

Thank you for posting this!! A lot of excellent information!! Heavy D, you da man!!!!!

OK I'm a year late watching this but would love to see more

WOW. Awesome. Thank you.

Thanks for all the great content. These are super helpful

Heavy D your amazing..

amazing shows. This is helping me and I know others also.

hands man you the man 100%

Take your time bro. No rush.

First time watching your podcast

Have you seen the monsters face in the door behind hand it’s like the monster he’s carrying around the burden he’s feeling from his past. Crazy does anyone else see that?

Wow when I was 5 I was wondering when my dad was gonna walk back in through the front door and I didn't know he wasn't until I was 9 life is crazy and fast👊

Wow. Wasn’t expecting that. Very good.

Awesome! :)

Pit in stomach for the first 25 years of my life. Slowly disappeared over the next 10 years, generally over the pit now.

you man good info to have

I wish you were still doing these

I need this guy to help me with my panic disorder. Because I get the irrational part of my panic but I can’t get over the wall on it. I need this guys book and a few visit with him. If only??? At least I can still hot rod around and drive fast..😎

So good!!! Thank you!

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