Isaiah 57:1, Good people pass away; the godly often die before their time. but no one seems to care or wonder why. no one seems to understand that god is protecting them from the evil to come. 🌳🔥🌬📖✝💯
Day to day, it won't leave Everytime, I try to speak It consumes my mind It consumes my soul It wants my life it wants complete control Somebody help me before it's bad Somebody help me before I end up dead I feel alone, all of the time It's still quite, lurking inside I'm a walking contradiction Everything I say is an affliction to him Somebody help me before it's bad Somebody help me before I end up dead
@@madqe oh i dont think thats what they ment idk but. I hope u are ok and everything will be solved in ur life, remember its not a bad life its a bad day and its ok to feel sad just find someone to talk to if u need it Even if it is just a random person on the internet
I love you so much , I don't care if we dont know eachother. I love you , and I'm proud of u , I hope that ur life will get better soon , never end it , u have so many reasons to live and not all people are going to love you , but there are still going to be some people who do love you :) , I hope u understand that ur love by people
*LYRICS* Day to day, it won't leave Everytime, I try to speak It consumes my mind It consumes my soul It wants my life it wants complete control Somebody help me before it's bad Somebody help me before I end up dead I feel alone, all of the time It's still quite, lurking inside I'm a walking contradiction Everything I say is an affliction to him Somebody help me before it's bad Somebody help me before I end up dead
Ahh, I see you are a man of your word. I like that:). Thank you for making this, I think by by now this song is the only reason I'm still here and I keep going. All in this year to many things have happened: My dad had to watch his best friend be put down (yes I'm talking about a dog). I lost my great grandma to covid-19 while me and my family were on vacation. Then I lost my great uncle to covid as well. My best friend in the whole world won't even look at me and I don't know why, it's killing me. I haven't seen or spoken to my other best friend since last year. Now I feel so alone. Grades are sliping, I'm trying my best, and they have gotten better but my parents still shove me into the dirt. I'm not ok, and I fear I will not be able to hide it anymore. I don't want anybody to know bc they will just give me more pills, or say I'm just being a dramatic 13 year old. Every morning I take a now stronger adhd pill, allergy pill, a pill that helps with me weak stomach and if I don't take it I get severe acid reflux, at night I have to take another pill for allergies so I don't die from an asthma attack (which honestly at this point wouldn't be the worst thing). Sigh.. sorry to make you read all that. I let myself go some times. Have a good day☺......I'm fine.
just a random thought while listing to this: i want to lay on a roof with someone in the summer at night, it's warm, the stars are so beautiful. i look over at them, they look back at me. we're making eye contact, then we kiss. lay back down holding hands on the roof. looking at the stars. happy with life. happy with ourselves. happy with eachother. the next day we're riding through the streets of our small town, listening to music only we like here, feeling the cool summer breeze on us as we ride through the world together. our world. we stop at our highschool, sit under the bleachers by the football field. i help them light a cigarette as I draw on myself with a sharpie. the next day I'm at thier house. I'm sitting on thier bathroom counter, cursing under my breath as they give me a stick n poke. after that I help them dye thier hair. we hold hands and go to the back yard, there's a big tree there. they carve our initials into the tree with a heart around them. i give them a small kiss on the cheek and hug them. that night, as I lay in thier bed, looking at thier ceiling fan thinking about how amazing everything is. how imperfect we are together. we make eachother better, we're happy together. i turn over and look at them. they're sleeping so peacefully. i get out of bed and light some incense as I look out the window. staring out into the endless possibilities of the future. once it's done burning I get back in bed, hold them close, and drift away into dreams.
To believe I used to listen to this song on repeat when I was a small infant....boy that has came a far way. It’s hard being a teen with depression because you don’t wanna hurt anyone or worry anyone and when your self destructive it’s even harder 😆 but I wanna write this and publish it on the internet so my future self knows.. you are going to make it. Don’t worry , I love you ~ Luna 2021
@@BseisOfficial lowkey horrible its been a highway of emotions and non emotions. Im 15 now. Sophmore in highschool and i hate school its so stupid to be sitting in those desks i wanna leave but oh well its a mixture of everything i definitely have grown somewhat mature now
*"Imagine a world where hatred didn't exist? Only problem is that I found myself where I am today because of the hatred people had towards me. Who would I be without the burden?"*
This reminds me of my hard times back when I was so depressed I didn’t have the motivation to leave my bed to see my own family, no motivation to be happy in life. My only desire was to be alone and sleep. I wanted to die but didn’t want my mom waking up to see my dead body with blood staining the ground below me. I don’t want to go back but the scars aren’t healed yet and I cannot escape the everlasting memories of sadness with no tears. Every night alone I’m reminded of my sorrow and pain I live inside of that I can’t seem to get away from.
nothing hurts more than when your best friend hangs out with other ppl but doesn’t with you. So you say mean things to them and ditch them when your really don’t want to. So say a apology letter to them but no response.
Hi, I don't know you but if you're here then it's just for a purpose. It's okay to cry, let it all go, don't hold things back. Today is a bad day, tomorrow may be too, but remember that things are changing. I also sometimes come here and listen to sad songs to fall asleep, forget the bad day I had, and feel maybe a little better. You're going to keep going without getting stopped by NOBODY . Because remember you're unique there's no one like you.
This is the sound of how I feel when I recall all of those beautiful moments a past love and I shared, now that they've long been ripped away from me and those wonderful, now corrupted memories are all fading with time and age... Until only the pictures remain, without the meaning.
Nicely said, working my way there. I walk everyday while listing. I recall all those beautiful moments a past love and I shared until the ugly moments overtook the pretty ones and couldn't catch up. Now all fading.
U know I want to tell u that it is all in ur head but at the same time I'm going to be telling myself that depression can be gon by just by pretending isnt there or that bad grades dont exist at all u have to do to get rid of it is to pretend there is no such thing its 2:30 am and I have a test in a few hours I'm bored out of my mind yet I have everything a kid could need its disappointing that I'm this much of a failure and probably never gonna get anywhere
Whoever is reading this, you maybe have had some difficult time. But never, NEVER lose the hope. I believe in you. Hopefully it gets better as soon as possible, whatever your problem is. Remember that it's always darkest before the dawn. You have so much power inside of you and you are a lot stronger than you think. I really mean that Hopefully this helped :) P.S. You are important, loved and beautiful person just the way you are.
This song is making cry and making me think of all the problems I have I just want scream and cry all day because of my shitty life I want to go home.. and I’m scared for no reason I have other issues but I don’t think nobody is going to see this
Bro this is fucking awesome! Love listen to this kind of music while I snoke and think about how shitty life actually is! Thanks! You just made me smile for a while..
Good to be back, I’ve been down lately but today was good. My heart goes out to everyone struggling right now, I hope you can find peace in the changes and that they bring about better days, love you all!
Missed school today. I'm sick so it's obvious. Things happened while i was playing games... i lost some time that i should be studying to ENEM (Brazil). I hope i can get to learn shit out of class 5 hours non-stop everyday, and maybe this will make me a little better financially (idk if that's the word). I'm anxious for life after 18 (adulThood in Brazil. ADULT ER HOODKKKKKK sfmbe) so yeeee- thanks for this video, it will help me rest rn ♡
i'm really tired of all this. I hate living here, but i don't wanna go home. I can't come back, i ruined everything. I wish I didn't care, but how can I not care? they're my family, and they are counting on me. I hate that, why does it have to be me? I can't do this alone. I'm tired of being alone, I wish I had someone. I wish I knew what to do. You always say I can count on you no matter what, but when I try you always say the same phrase. Every single time. You don't undestand anything, no matter how hard I try to explain it. You never listen...no one does. Sometimes I feel like I'm starting to hate you...all of you. I hate my family, I hate my friends, I hate everyone in school. But most of all I hate ME. I HATE ME I HATE ME I HATE ME SO DAMN MUCH
7 months late sorry hello, i am 7 months late to this so i do hope you see this someday but just know that you can definitely make friends especially friends thatll last and be with you along your bumpy road. it’s okay to feel alone, i feel as if the whole world really is alone especially with tough times right now and that everybody just needs somebody to keep them from falling. hating yourself is normal too lol believe it lot of people especially myself are just accustomed to hating themselves over and over and overrrr but yah it’s normal dude just don’t get use to telling yourself that all the time because it’ll really stick to you. your a beautiful human being and your special in numerous ways :) you’ve got a lot of things in you that can help others that are going through what your going through right now, your a strong person dude promise you that
I've lost you ...your gone now....i can't even bring myself to eat , get out of bed , think without crying, now that your gone... please come back....please...
I'm at the state of bipolar depression where I lost the ability to cry. Recently, everything has done downhill. I'm going insane. But I don't like mental 'hospitals'. Ive been to one, a highly funded one. By a university. HMHI. Utah, SLC. It's a corrupt, money hungry place. It was surprisingly easy to lie myself out. Maybe they finally had enough money. There was a couple of staff that were sent by God. They were angel's. But.. they only worked twice a week. Maybe one, or three. I feel like the hand, in the video, that's sinking into the unknown. It's my sanity, desperately trying to hang onto something. And one night, it sunk into the darkness. I'll never forget that night. For everyone else, including the one's involved, it was another day. But for me, that day was when i lost the ability to cry. I cried one, final time. Laughing like the joker. Like insanity. Snail's pace.. Blurry... Why mama? Why God? is this my character development? My canon event? Well.. it's lasted for.. 4 year's? no.. 3? Maybe... 8. 2017. May. Before my 8th birthday. That's when everything went to shit. When i should've died. Damn kidney disease. Why didn't I die then? Well.. I wouldve never found anime. Misty. Aki. Levi Ackerman. EruRI. Ah.... What a life.
I can't do it, Im not strong enough. My grandfather is in the hospital and he is not getting better. Idk if he will get better. He lives far away from my city and because of covid I cant go to see him and say goodbye. I will miss him so much. Im not so strong, I cant handle this. I cant go through this now. I cant even think of dont see him anymore. I miss him so much
he will be okay. and even if he is not its part of life and life sucks i know it does, but you have to remember if you let that monster we all call depression win then it will actual have control over your life. you might not be the main character for everybody but you are your own main character. you can get through it i love you and im so proud of you. i dont care if anybody has said that to you or not you deserve to hear it.
been listening to this song for quite a whike now and only now did i actually see all of the lyrics. realized i wrote almost the same words all over my drawings today. Creepy how much i relate to this. i no longer wish i could "fix" my brain. I find all of my stages/ personalities to be a part of me by now. And i know and understand all of them. Just wish others would accept it as i do. And just... be okay with them being a part of me.
nobody sees how hard im trying to stay alive for them. nobody sees how fucking tired i am, just because im alive rn. its not fair that they still call me lazy, quiet, unproductive, stupid, etc when the only reason im alive is to not hurt them bc ik it would break and destroy them so much. im so selfless for trying not to hurt them while it hurts me everyday to see another day, but they dont even appreciate me, they dont see how much im struggling. because they just dont care.
4 months later. some things have changed. but rn im thinking the same thing. almost unalived yesterday bc it was all too much and then today i was quite happy. but now its all so overwhelming again. living.
dont mind me just typing shit ok so i never cry about feelings its just like it doest avect me anymore so i was listening to this somg and i just felt so much pain and before i knew i was crying while online school it felt like i was drying myself out and then when i whatcht if anyone saw it there where only 2 tears falling out and i dont know how to ask help yea that was is byeee Ok so we are one week further and i can listen normal to the song
26/05/2021 21 h 18 *un jour je l'ai rencontrée* petite fille que j'étais je croyais qu'on pourrais rester ensemble toute notre vie comme une vraie amie puis elle est arrivée elle a commencé à m'humilier et m'a jetée et m'arrachant à mon amie que j'avais tant aimée les autres l'ont suivie bientôt, mes stylos ont disparus puis ma trousse puis mon cartable quand je tombais, poussée par quelqu'un, je n'avais pas la force de me relever je n'avais plus la force de travailler on m'a changée de classe on m'a assise à côté d'elle. elle a, petit à petit, pansé mes blessures une à une, sans qu'il ne me reste aucun trace. sinon celle dans mon coeur mes parents m'ont dit que ça s'effacerai au fil du temps mais, j'ai beau essayer, mes barrières restent dressées et avec elle, mes sentiments prisonniers. au cours de mon voyage, j'ai appris bien des choses comme par exemple que, si nous arrêtons de ressentir la douleur finit par s'estomper s'enterrer je me suis refermée d'autres sont venus me frapper me tourmenter je m'en fichait le jour de la rentrée du collège, j'ai beaucoup pleuré de tristesse, de colère et de joie tout est sorti depuis, j'essaye en vain de me rappeller commet réparer un coeur brisé recoller les morceaux rassembler les petits bouts du haut de mes treize ans je cherche comment vivre. _Note_ : toi qui es là, ne soit pas triste. Comme moi, dit toi qu'il y aura toujours un moyen de s'en sortir. Il suffit de chercher. Je continue à le faire sans relâche. Un jour, ça reviendra. Il faut que tu t'accroches comme moi à cette idée. Je te souhaite beaucoup de bonheur.
cant wait to be screamed at for having bad grades i dont even know if what im feeling is what im feeling what if i was just influenced by the internet but im not innangood space right now and theres a blood stain on the bed and my mom tried to stab my step dad and rverything feels dead and i want to die so badly but i camt because somehow my mom still cares about me and she just had a baby and i dont know i dont know how to speak anymore i really just want to be held and told im good and be told what im doing actually means something because i know it doesnt and i just want to be lied to and be told everything is okay when its not i contradict myself and i dont even talk to people anymore i just want to go back to my dsds house but even there its bad he broke my fucking wall i have no where to go and i dont want to leave them because i care about them but i do at the same time and i dont ecen know if what im going through is consudered abuse because im known to exaggerate a whole bunch but i just cant feel right and i just want to be held i know im a bad person because i dont appreciate things as much as i should and i take things for granted and whenever they phisically fight i just sit there like nothing is happening but i shouldnt blame myself because i wouldnt be able to do something but shouldt i just try and i nmake everyone seem like a villain nothing seems real sometimes i feel like im the only real person and sometimes i question my own thoughts and beliefs even though i know theyre good i wonder if i should still believe them sometimes i want to hurt people and its getting really bad and i know i dont mean it but i do at te same time and i just feel so dead and alive at the same time i hate yhat he calls himself my dad he will never be my dad ever i hate his guts i dont care if hes mentally ill i will never forgive him for what hes done and my mom says that hes bipolar and i dont understand anything about that but why is he only mean to my mom and not me he should be mean to me too right if its one of his episodes so why doesnt he treat me the same as her at least id be able to take the hits instead of my mom but would that even work sometimes he touches me in places where you lnow i shouldnt be touched and he plays it off as an accident but hes done it so many times that i dont think its an accident and i ahvent told anybody but i hate everything and im only 12 im also trans but theyre transphobic and my mom is bisexual but shes transphobic snd i came out to my mom as pan and she said tjat pan means pedophilia but it soesny and everyone is stupid
