In my restless dreams, I see that town.... Silent Hill. You promised you'd take me there again someday. But you never did.. Well, I'm alone there now. In our special place. Waiting for you.. Waiting for you to come to see me. But you never do... And so I wait, wrapped in my cacoon of pain and loneliness. I know I've done a terrible thing to you, something you'll never forgive me for. I wish I could change that.. but I cant. I feel so pathetic and ugly laying here, waiting for you. Everyday I stare up at the cracks in the ceiling and all I can think about.. is how unfair it all is... The doctor came today, he told me I could go home for a short stay,.. It's not that I'm getting better, it's just that this may be my last chance. I think you know what I mean... Even so, I'm glad to be coming home. I've missed you terribly.. But I'm afraid James, I'm afraid you don't really want me to come home. Whenever you come see me, I can tell how hard it is on you. I don't know If you hate me or pity me... or maybe I just digust you. I'm sorry about that. When I first learned that I was going to d-die..... I just didn't want to accept it. I was so angry all the time and I struck out at everyone I loved the most.. especially you James.. That's why I understand if you do hate me. But, I want you to know this James, ill always love you. Even tho our life together.. had to end like this. I still wouldn't trade it for the world. We had some wonderful years together.. Well, this letter has gone on too long. So, I'll say goodbye. I told the nurse to give this to you after I'm gone, that means that as you read this, I'm already dead. I can't tell you to remember me... but I can't bear for you to forget me... These last few years since I became ill, I'm so sorry for what I did to you... did to us. You've given me so much, and I haven't been able to return a single thing. That's why I want you to live for yourself now. Do what is best for you James. James... You made me happy.. 💔
Holy shit this is CRIMINALLY underrated. I hear all the other mixes of this, but this one is the BEST. With how clear the voice line is, it just… it hits so much harder…
listening to this is a different pain, after leaving aside the upbeat songs, this type of music is comfortable, listening to each song with audio from Silent Hill is something inexplicable, it's as if I were in James' body, after I lost my ex girlfriend is going to be 2 years old and all I can do is accept it, I can't replace her even though I'm to blame, I always listen to these audios when I'm alone at dawn or walking down the street, I see that Silent Hill is always within us, it doesn't matter like, not how to escape loneliness she never wanted to be your enemy, I understand what James feels, like in the movie Donnie Darko he says "every creature in this world dies alone"
I really feel you bro. I'm sorry to hear about your loss and the pain you've been through. It's not easy to carry such feelings. Remember, You're not alone in this, and your words reminds of myself. But also remember to look forward in life. Even after the darkest times, there is always light ahead. There are still many beautiful moments waiting for you in the future. Keep going
