last moments of life. 

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"All these memories will be lost in time, like tears in rain."

Hey stranger, I love you.

"you will never know how much someone means to you until they are gone."

I feel alone and useless. I don't know what to do with my life. I feel like I'm constantly wandering, waiting for something that doesn't happen. As if I were in a train station and had to take a train without knowing my destination. I don't know how to live, or at least, how to feel alive. To all the people here who feel alone... We are together ♡

I just want to lay down in a field with someone and talk about life, I’m so alone

“What do you want before you die?” “Peace”

,,People cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long" - Johnny Depp

This comment section really taught me this is a safe space, guess I’ll try it I’m scared, scared of life you know? I’m at an age where I’ll be on my own, left to face the world with nothing. I have done nothing up to this point in my life, I’m just forced into this world all alone with no one to connect with, I don’t understand why I’m scared, maturity is something to be proud of, but I just feel like it’s ripping away at who I am, I just wish I had the chance to redo everything and try again, I kinda hate this stage right now. I want connections, genuine ones, I don’t have the capability to make said connections, it just feels like life is moving too fast and everyone around me just doesn’t view me the same, or as equal to others, I don’t understand it, I want to feel equal, I want to live the rest of my life knowing I’ve made some sort of impact on the world. I guess this is just growing up

My step mother is dying of cancer as I listen to this. I don’t want her to leave dude.. she means so much to my dad, her son and I. I hope she rests easy knowing she meant so much to so many.

We did it, it's 2024, we sirvived another year and I'm proud of all of us.

You know someone is broken when he never is happy or sad anymore... Just an empty look existing in their eyes

Im a week sober, 3 days clean and i ate today. Proud of myself.

The fact that strangers care about us more then people we know hurts.

My little brother passed away today. Drug overdose. It’s his birthday tomorrow, and now he will never get to be 19. I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you needed me, bro. I love you.

All those who are alone, in this moment we are together

My dad overdosed in 2010. He was 36 at the time. In 5 years, I'll be older than him, and it absolutely breaks my heart.

"The most Painful Thing in Life isn't a Cut or a Burn. It's Seeing People You have made Memories with turn into Memories."

My worst fear is dying. Not just dying, though. Dying without a purpose. Dying without fulfilling my dreams. Dying without having fun. Dying without anyone to care. Dying without a mark on someone else’s life. Dying without someone by my side. Dying without something to live for in the next life.

My cat died a year ago. It may not seem so important to someone, but even I thought so until I lost him. He has been with me since birth and was like a brother to me. I didn't know life without him, and after I lost him, I realized that this was the first time I didn't see him in the apartment. I celebrated my 16th birthday without him. RIP is my only and incredible friend ginger Simba the cat

when I saw this playlist before going to bed, I decided to turn it on to fall asleep, but accidentally went into the comments. and…everyone is so sweet to each other and it warms my heart. I'm struggling with bipolar disorder and my depression getting worse, but this playlist and all of you who write these comments give me hope that the world isn’t so bad. just..know that you deserve all the best. take care of yourself, please.

I clicked on this video bc it said the last moments of life. I didn’t even think about it. Today is the last day of the year, and unfortunately, the last day of my life. I think I clicked this video in hopes I would find what it feels like to die. Is it peaceful? Where do I go afterwards? I’m scared to leave. Who’s gonna feed my cat? I don’t even know anymore. When you know your days are numbered that’s when you start to realize how lucky you are to be alive. That’s when you find how beautiful this world can be. I wonder where I’ll go. I sit looking at the stars knowing that it’s the last time I’ll see them. I’m not typing this for pity or anything I just wanted to get this off my chest. I have a chronic illness and it wont go away. I still haven’t got the courage to tell my friends. I wonder how theyll feel. I hope they don’t worry too much and just move on. I pray that I’ll be able to see the stars in the afterlife.

It is sad but at the same time comforting the fact that strangers on the internet understand and support each other more than our own acquaintances.

"when you're lost in the darkness, look for the light."

I’m about to lose my mother to cancer at 21. I’m heartbroken and devastated. I have to be strong and stay with her until the very last moment. I love you mom

i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. (not mine but pass it around, everyone deserves🫶

I’m currently sitting in a field. I’m listening to this playlist and I’ve spent the last 45 minutes scrolling through each and every one of these comments and their replies. I look at everyone’s usernames, their profile pictures, what language they typed their sentences in. I don’t translate them. Just look. It both warms and saddens my heart that none of us really know each other. Everybody here is being so kind to each other and it puts me in tears to know that some people here, as I’m reading their words, may be crying, or dealing with something rough, or if it were night and I looked up, maybe I would see them. What makes me happy is that maybe they’re okay. Maybe they have found peace. I don’t know where I’m going with this, but I love you all and I’m so proud of you. If you’re crying right now, I still love you. Crying helps. I don’t care if you’re a woman or a man or don’t identify as binary. You can cry because you’re human. And you deserve so much love and I wish I could give you a hug, just so you know it’s okay and I’m here. Remember that you are a human being, trying to live like everybody else, and it might be really, really hard sometimes. It might not seem like it, but you are amazing and beautiful and authentic and I love you for you, not the way you act for society. Stay strong, and maybe one day we’ll meet in the stars.

One day nobody will exist

After reading about 100 comments I’ve come to the conclusion that this is a safe place. 03/06/2023 my wife and best friend passed away leaving me our beautiful son to raise on my own. This last year has been the hardest time I’ve ever experienced. I’ve dealt with depression my whole life, but her death taught me I’ve never felt true sadness a day in my life. It pushed me outside of myself. I don’t know how to describe it. It feels like I’ve been on autopilot being controlled by someone else. I feel like an alien that’s been dropped from outer space and I’m doing a really bad job at blending in. I lost my entire identity when I lost her. She’s all I’ve know since I was 15 years old. I feel so grateful that I even experienced a love as pure and true as ours, but I hate the fact that I’ll never have anything like it again. She was so perfect, my missing piece. God I miss her so much. To anyone that read any of this, I hope you never experience any pain like this, but I also want you to know that your strong enough to push though anything. Life can be great if you make it. Good luck

“Don’t do suicide that shit kills you” - skateboarding Jesus

I've heard that depression is being colorblind while others keep telling you how colorful the world is. I want that color someday

Saw the title and immediately thought about my parents, about how quickly time passed and is passing and they're getting older and older. The feeling I get from thinking it makes me want to bawl my eyes and do something to keep them with me always. I don't want to loose them, they're not perfect but I love them so much. Please let them stay with me a little longer than what is intended, let them feel happiness and peace. I love them a lot.

I’ve been losing faith in humanity for a while now. I used to think nearly everybody on the internet was toxic until I stumbled upon this video and read the comments. I have never seen a more supportive community in all of my time on the internet. All of your love and support to each other has really gone a long way to helping not only me but many other people find faith in humanity. Thank you all for being so wonderful to each other. I hope you are all staying strong and safe out there. ❤❤

Its okay to cry. Its a sign for you to let your soul breathe

Hey you. Yes, you. You're probably scrolling through the comments, like am, reading all these emotional comments, if you are reading this at night, you should get some sleep and don't stress about everything going in the world, or what you are going through. Don't dwell on things from the past , don't stress on your future. Just live your life, because you only get one. Do whatever makes you happy, not what other people want from you. For me, I'm gonna wake up tomorrow morning, get some exercise, and cherish life for the amazing blessing that it is. Hope you do the same and have an amazing day as well! Stay safe and stay relaxed

My Grandfather passed away today, made it to 90 years old…almost 91, Im gonna miss you Pop-pop!

this is the most beautiful corner of the internet to have ever existed

Music is the best thing humans have created.

[warning: sensitive topic] This reminds me of my worst times, the day when I attempted. In the moments I thought were my last, I remembered all the things I always wanted to do but was too cowardly to work to it, I remembered how young I was, the connections that I want to build with people, the freedom I always desired. And I cried. That was years ago, I am better now. I think that moment of contemplation made me realize that there's still things I want to do before I die.

This is probably going to sound dorky as hell, but these songs kinda saved me. I appreciate it.

At night if you listen closely, you can hear time passing by. It’s mesmerizing & haunting

In case nobody told you today, I’m so proud of you

Sometimes I just want someone to trust and talk to, but I'm scared that I won't find the right one...Depression ain't easy.

I want to hug someone (someone other than my parents),I'm alone and ignored everywhere by everyone but i thank God that i'm still alive

I like to imagine that the image is the place between life and death. After you die, you’re sent to this open field that stretches as far as the eye can see. There’s a slight breeze that fills your nose with the a scent crispness and comfort. The breeze may be chilly but your body is fully relaxed in a state of warmth. All that lies ahead of you is a straight path over the horizon. You can spend as much time here as you please. You can spend your time reflecting on your life; all of your happiness, all of your woes. You can accept everything that has happened and what is to happen next. You can make your peace with the god you prayed to or the people who you counted on. You are free to do whatever until you are ready. When you’re ready, you slowly walk on the path with your destination lying just over the horizon. Once you reach the horizon, you are free. The release of Death. The end of consciousness. Your eternal slumber.

Is funny how these songs will forever exist, long after I'm gone

The most beautiful part of life is this moment rightnow.

I wish i was free. no school. no family. no friends. just free in the world doing whatever i want.

those comments feels like a hug

while all social medias are becoming toxic and full of useless hate, these yt videos are the only place where i can just let go and not feel like im constantly being judged. thank you.

My friend is suicidal I keep telling her to not leave this world even though our Earth got a lot more worse. She cried near me telling, "I don't want to live in this cruel world anymore." But neither do I want to live in this cruel world anymore. "Life was good when we were young we when grow older it gets more stress. Parents don't understand us anymore, which made us question our decision and our next decision. People we loved leaves us." She said another thing to me. She kept telling me to telling her 'None painful ways to die.' Which I didn't have any ideas. I love my friends and my family, I don't want them to leave me. I'm only just a kid. I don't have that much knowledge in life, how AM I supposed to know how to do things? ... Whatever.. for my friends and strangers that is suicidal or have depression, I wish you have a great life and don't give up... See you next time ❤‍🩹

you know those sights you'll never see again? Those small glimpses of peace and calming that only last for about a few seconds or so? Those small glances that have just the right lighting. maybe it's looking out the window of a car, seeing a hazy orange sunset with the black telephone lines dashing across, as the car travels. Or maybe the shadows cast by clouds on a bright day sprawling over the rolling hills in your small little town, slowly creeping and enveloping all the light, till the shade inevitably passes. I miss seeing those things. the feeling of everything being okay, even for just a second. Anyway, it's been good seeing you traveler. Hope to see you again soon.

Dude, reading these comments while listening to this music is making me cry.

honestly it's not worth dying, you only receive some cries and flowers for a while, but then people move on with their lives, until you are forgotten

I feel like im in that place. Walking and walking without having any idea of reaching somewhere but infinity. A bunch of good memories going through my mind. Wanting to be alone forever like this without any pressure or tension but only thinking about those good old days.

imagine you're walking this very road, by yourself. you hear this music playing in the back of your mind. it feels like its forever, all of a sudden you see bright flash. it's your memories. the very same memories you didn't realize you were making. as you run towards them, you feel... happy... you stop. the music drops low. your friends, all smiling at you. big cheesy smiles. they are happy. it makes you happy. you remember all those memories again. they all miss you. they all love you. you feel a looming regret creep over your shoulders. you think. "Life can hurt, but leaving everything behind, hurts much more." -just a little thing I created while listening to this.

Be proud you came this long stranger.

If comment sections were real life hang out spots, id feel so happy to meet all you strangers out there. Because strangers care more than those we know. It hurts like hell, but i rather be with the people who also needs some love. I love you guys. Keep your heads up, and never give up.. may we all be strong enough to keep going until we cant go any further anymore..

People say "words don't hurt" but words do hurt they hurt so much you don"t know what to do...

I am scared of death, i am scared of growing, i am scared of dying and nobody would care, i am scared that people won't remember me anymore, i am scared of dying alone, i don't want to grow up, who is gonna feed my dog? Who is gonna make my family laugh? Idk anymore.

Wake up tomorrow with a smile on your face knowing you have made it this far. Stay strong.

you ever feel like you're trapped inside your own body?

surviving isn’t living.

man it is the worst thing in the world watching your one and only friend find the most powerful love you've ever seen with a girl and slowly move on from you while you can't even tell anyone and admit to being a horrible person for being so envious, meanwhile you're stuck in the absolute shiтhole of clinical depression, having no feelings/emotions for years and have never been so down and alone and you don't even have the guts to end it

The community on this video is lit. People commenting stuff that makes you actually feel connected to people. I'm struggling atm, and probably many of you too. Sending energy to all my bros and sisters out there. We are alive and even though you are behind the screen far away, there is someone that thinks about you and more importantly feels you.

When I die I will mostly feel a great sadness for not being able to experience anything anymore...yet, I know I will also feel a shameful sort of relief at not *having* to do anything anymore.

私はまだ高校生だけど、聴いたことがあるようでないこの曲から、より子どもだった頃の本心が私を覗いてくる気がする。それはかつての私の心だったのに、隠していたらいつの間にか見えなくなって、今では思い出せなくなった。この寂しさに浸るのは苦しい。なのに、この寂しさが好きだからこの曲を聴いている。 きっと未来の私も、今私が思っていることを忘れている。それが人生というものだと割り切れたら良かった。真っ暗で見えない私の未来と過去に挟まれるのは怖くて仕方がないけど、そのおかげで今がより輝いているのかもしれない。

everyday i just think, think about if i'm even doing the right thing anymore. think about how much i changed over the year, think about how my image in other people are. i wish i didn't have to think so much but as a human, it's just something normal. all these memories that cause emotions can really haunt or make us so happy. feels like sometimes nobody truly understands how powerful a simple "i'm sorry" or "i love you" is. it doesn't have to be a whole paragraph, just putting in the time to apologize or show that you care can go along way. i wasn't always like this, matter a fact, a couple years ago i'd probably call myself edgy or something. haha, good times. everybody here will most likely always have a point in their life where they might not wanna live anymore or just feel very depressed. just remember that there will always be light, always be people, always be opportunities and you can always love on. there won't always be time though, sure you might have a lot of it as of right now but you shouldn't waste it thinking to yourself about how you failed on that thing, how you lost the love of your life or whatever is troubling you. take the time that you *need* and try your hardest to move on. enjoy your life, fight for your happiness, fight fight fight and never give up. show the world that you can be stronger than whatever it throws at you and you will find your peace and happiness. a year, 5 years or 10 years in the future you'll be proud of yourself. as of right now, i feel as if i just lost everything, my respect for myself, my boyfriend, my sanity. everything just feels like it's all coming down on me at once, it's been like this for a year a few months. should i die? should i live? what if i just leave everything.. i could never decide so i just did nothing really.. that got me into an even darker pit, i fought and fought to try and regain back control over my life but i failed for a very very long time until i started winning a little more and.. more.. and more. now i'm at the final stage really, just accepting things. in my opinion, the hardest. i can't even put into words how much i want somethings back, how i want the past. how i wish i didn't feel alone anymore, how i wish that i wasn't the one to mess up. how i wish that i could just kiss you for hours and lay with you until we both fall asleep. it's over now though. Fight, Redemption, Accept. to whoever you are, i love you. i wish we could meet and just hug each other because i've read a lot of these comments and some people need a shoulder to cry on or just a little hug. i'm tearing up just writing this honestly. just remember how special and unique you are. remember how much power you have, you can do anything with your life or you don't have to. all that matters is that you have fun in life, have a good life. you don't need to be a doctor, streamer or anything like that you know. as long as you're happy with your life, there's no need to be anymore than that. remember, nobody controls you but you. my name is evelyn and to whoever saw this, i hope you have a beautiful life.

And as life goes on, I realize I have never felt like I lived. I’ve been barely surviving… I’ve been merely existing.

“My father says that people who commit su1c1de are selfish. The funny part is he doesn’t even know he is calling me selfish, too.” I found this written in my sister’s notebook after she committed su1c1de on her 15 birthday. March 27 2021, that’s a date I could never forget. I come as a reminder to cherish those you have before they are gone.

im so alone…

I just spent 20 minutes balling my eyes out at the fact that i will never be with her. Everything about her is perfect, the eyes, smile, hair, even her mannerisms. But i know i will never be with her. I just have to hope she finds the right guy for her..

"where should i go , to the left where nothing is right , or to the right where nothing is left "

Hey, last year was my worst year ever. I almost quit halfway around July. But guess what? I've managed to find a way to get up every morning and music does helped me a lot. I was once a guitarist but I quit abruptly when I was 16, left my band and never pick up my guitar anymore. But I picked it up again, strum, and started to fell in love with it again. This year I've signed up for music school, started it yesterday (01/12/23), and these 2 days, I've been very happy and everything turns out to be very fine this year. I've managed to change my life again. Now I'm planning to make music professionally. Wish me luck dear my Internet buddies!!!!

For a while, I've been suicidal & wanted to die, but now im in this in-between state where i dont know if I want to live or die. I have a lot to live for & a lot to do, but no will. Time is pushing me forward against my will. Against my exhaustion. Against my soul that is crying for help. Pleading for a break. Against my mind that is trying really hard to grow, but is too tired to. Against my body that is scarred & torn & being abused by myself. Against me. This makes me see that i dont want to die. I just want the pain of existing to end. The world offers more cruelty than gifts. But the gifts it provides are huge. Beautiful scenery & landscapes that go on for miles & miles endlessly. Gorgeous sunset during golden hour, when the sky & it's clouds are splashed with all sorts of colors & shades. The sweetest people who will give anything just to be by your side & provide you their shoulder to cry on whenever you need it. The calming or uplifting sounds of music of all different genres. The fresh air we breathe. The ocean we get to explore, along with all of it's secrets. The people we get to love. Love. The ability to love & be loved. It makes you want to laugh, cry, scream.. it makes you feel a jumble of emotions you cant describe. Its a beautiful thing. The world hurts. It causes so much pain. People. People are what cause the pain. But the world gifts you beautiful things as an apology. Very beautiful, wonderful things that are impossible to forget. Like a bandaid being put over a wound. In the end you'll be left with many, many scars. But each tell a story of the battles you & fought *won.* No matter how difficult they were. You still won. Dying at peace is the final gift the world provides. Yet sadly, its not something everyone gets.

I work in an old folks home and I’ve seen so many people wither into piles of thin skin, sucked to brittle bones, with dying organs and rattling lungs. This last week another passed away…it was different this time…different in a way I lack the exact words for. Since the words cannot be find I will share my final moment with him. I had walked into his room where lied in his hospital bed, the creaking and uncomfortable replacement for the beautiful and soft king bed that was supported by a heavy stained wood frame that supported his achy joints and granted him good rest. He was fraction of the size he had been not even a month prior. I went to his bed side and layed a gentle hand on his shoulder. I said his name and his eyes slid open like they were the heaviest things he had ever lifted. He rolled his head towards me and gave a meak smile. He told me he wanted to sit up on the edge of his bed and look out the window. His words sounded like gravel and his breaths were slow and labored. As he sat and looked to the world beyond the window pane I could see in his eyes that he knew what was coming. I could see the fear, the pain, the regret and loneliness…but I could also see relief and acceptance of life. I watched him for what seems like an eternity…he never didn’t look at me…he didn’t talk to me…just sat with his dying body and watched the world go by from the spot he knew he would never leave. After 30 minutes or so he said he wanted to lay down but he didn’t say it to me…he didn’t say it to anyone…but he leaned over and rested his head on the upright backside of his bed. I helped him get comfortable one last time and he gave me sullen “thank you” his eyes were closed before I left the room and they never opened again…he died 2 days later. Death is promise that given to us all…the moment we are born. So let us be alive until we see out that window for the last time.

Started listening and started crying.

I don’t know if someone will ever see this, but if you do, thank you. When I put this on I completely zones out for a bit. I walked back into my room and just stood there staring for a while. It felt like I had died and I was just revisiting my previous life, what I had done, exactly as I left it. It felt like something or someone was behind me but of course, there wasn’t. It’s all so quiet, and I’m just alone with my thoughts. But I think that’s the scariest part of all

Hey, you're not the problem. You are a great person, be sure of that. Your tears will not be in vain. Cry, cry until this feeling disappears. You are strong, this will pass, I love you, stranger.

Look at your past self, they rely on you now, they always hoped to be older like you are now, follow their dreams you have now and the days will look brighter slowly but surely.

I recently graduated and to me it feels like the end of a long and terrible dream. Not because of the homework, or the breakups, or the fights between family, or the friends who turned their backs on me, or the ones who didn't make it. There were a lot of wonderful things, and impressive things I accomplished. I spent the most meaningful years of my life with the people I loved the most. I did an entire final essay the morning due (I got an A). I poured out a beer with my buddies and made memories our absent friends would have been proud of. It feels like I'm looking up and this whole world has just been one turn of the page. I know I'll dream again tonight yet, all I really want is closure. I've been part of a lot. I'd be happy if today was the last day I woke up. Life is magnificent, and I fear I will be alive for a very, very long time.

Out of the billions of people on this world, I would wait for every single one of them. Even as I die. I don’t want anyone to be alone when their bodies give out. It doesn’t matter how much pain my soul would be in. I’d take all the mental pain in the world just for everyone to feel a day, an hour of peace. Even if we can’t meet in real life, everyone has at least one person who will listen or be there. Even if you don’t think so. I’ll be there. It would be so nice to share a moment with you. I hope that you know that even if this world hasn’t treated you the best, I will still be there, waiting for you. I’d trade my entire being to see everyone have some type of emotion that gave them a clear moment. Good or bad. Sometimes, we just need some peace and clarification. I hope that we can meet someday! It might take an eternity for me to reach you, but I will. I’ll be waiting to see you..

If you’re listening to this and you don’t know what to do in your life and you just feel…lost. Just know I’m right here with you, okay? We’ll get through it together. I promise we will.

When this plays i can finally stop thinking about everything bad and just relax

Where ever you are. What strange corner of the globe you are in do not worry it going to be fine.

This was recommended to me. Sure i am mildly depressed but i dont want my life to end. I have an 8 year old daughter ( turns 8 on the 25th this month ) that i need to strive and surpass me in every way possible. I will not let her down because her father loves her very deeply.

Had to say farewell to my cat almost 1 month ago, had her for just under 4 years, rescued her from an old farm at an auction after her owner had passed away back in 2019. I brought her home with me after getting permission from the auctioneer at the time. She immediately looked calm and cozy on the first night, she had a safe place to stay with a roof over her head, food, water and limitless love from me and my family. I named her, Lucy. She was a long-haired Calico cat with the longest and most fabulous white whiskers I'd ever seen on a cat, beautiful olive green eyes with a hint of yellow. She had the sweetest personality of any cat my family has ever had, no matter who approached her, she would always meet them with love and curiosity, eager to get to know who they were. She was never rude or mean to anyone, always gentle and only ever wanted to cuddle. As she was a rescue cat, I never knew how old she really was, but she couldn't of been that old, as she wasn't that big of cat, but the Vet's estimate was that she was around 6 years old. The reason she had to be put down was that she had a very severe case of bone deterioration from Arthritis. Apparently, in cats, Arthritis is a death sentence. Their bones are much thinner than you'd think, so Arthritis is a lot more severe for them. I went to 2 different vet centers to have her checked after I started noticing a clicking noise when she walked, kind of like the sound you make when you crack your back, or move your shoulder in a weird way. Both of the vet clinics said that there was nothing that could be done to help her, no treatments, no medicine, no surgeries, as there was no guarantee that any of it would improve her quality of life. The strangest thing is that she seemed happy and un-troubled the entire time I had her. They said she had the worst case of Arthritis they'd ever seen in a cat. I had no idea it was that severe and the vet said that both cats and dogs are really great at hiding any chronic pains, they said that she was most likely born with Arthritis and that it would have ended badly for her regardless of what happens. After being to the second vet clinic and getting a second opinion about what was going to happen, I collapsed as they'd given her the death sentence and said that she would need to be executed as soon as possible, claiming it was so severe that if I'd kept her any longer, I'd be reported to the police for animal abuse... when all I wanted was to help her get well again so we'd have many more years together. I was always kind to her, keeping her company when she needed me, right until the very end. She slept in for the last time on the 18th of September. I held her paw as she crossed the rainbow bridge. - That day was the worst day of my life, as I loved her lots and losing her created a dark abyss in my soul. I'm not sure if I'll ever feel complete again. May you rest in peace, Lucy. Thanks for everything. - If you read all this, thank you for your time, you didn't have to but I appreciate it that you did. :)

this place seems so peaceful and quite... I would love it 🥺

For the younger ones out there (entering highschool, or in lower grades), hello. I know you might be scared of what's ahead of you, and maybe someday you might want to quit, give up, drop out, or just cry. While crying is okay, I'm here to tell you it's going to be okay. I want you to know that even though it will seem like there's no way out, there will be. Not everything will be easy, and you need to make sure you have fun, and that you as a student aren't just a number, a percentage, or a grade. I had that mentality too, but it's okay to realize your own surroundings and take a deep breath to recognize that you are a human being and you deserve to do your very best, even if you don't do as well as you wanted to. I want you to know that there will always be another chance for you. Whether that's during, or after your school, or work. There is so much potential in the uncertainty of your future, and you have the ability to change that by yourself. What matters is your determination and your self-assurance. And if it really doesn't feel like it, hey you, I love you, even if nobody else will.

ah, makes me look back at my childhood and realizing that I would never get to experience those things again. good times. take care stranger, we'll meet again soon.

"Life is a journey.. and every journey eventually leads to home."

Sometimes, i really wanted the world to end. But i'm still 18 and i want to know what i would be like in the future, will I be a successful person?? Will i be meeting a new person, a friend?? A foe?? A lover, perhaps?? I hope so. Hmm... Actually, i'm looking forward in my future, but it's the process that is hard. My life is not always smooth, sometimes i want to end it, but sometimes i want to keep it. The me that the people always see, is the always 'happy' me, but deep down i also have a lot, LOT of concern that i can't tell anybody. Because i don't want to make other people stressed over my problem. I think i write this comment because i'm scared of my college test. In ten days, i wish for the best. I know nobody will read my comment, but if you do, can you cheer me up. Thank you stranger❤️

To everyone: No matter who you are or what you've done or what you've gone through or what you're going through, God loves you more than you could ever imagine ❤

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im not depressed anymore. because im empty now. i can laugh i can feel sad but is not as powerful as it was. i dont care if i live i dont care if i die. i cant feel the pain of begin depressed as i was and i cant feel the happiness everytime i laugh. im a empty shell

I'm on the middle of the fight against depression. I finally got the will to stand up and fight back after five months of pure misery. I couldn't have done this without the help of my friends, I'm beyond grateful. I finally feel alive again, I finally see the light, it's a feeling I forgot... and I won't back down until I win. To everyone who is struggling in life, I believe in you... we can do this... We *will* do this. *λ*

To the people in the comment section, here are a few quotes i think about regularly. :') "Even cold water may appear warm when you're freezing" "be yourself, those who mind dont matter, and those who matter dont mind." "When you're born in a burning house-you think that the whole world is on fire, but its not." "Everything has a crack-thats how light gets in." "We are all born beautiful. the greatest tragedy is to be convinced we are not." "if a camera cant capture the full beauty of a sunset, it cant capture the full beauty of a human either."

To everybody watching this, if you are sad, go write all you're thought on paper and speak them aloud to yourself. if you are studying, go and get some water and focus. if you are trying to sleep, put the phone down. close you're eyes and breathe. tomorrow will be better❤. if you feel unwanted or unloved, remember, you always and i mean always have someone by you. be safe guys. blank space for those that need it: ❤

I'm tired of life, I'm tired of living the same routine and the same things every single day, but I can't give up. There are people who need me and I know I'm capable of getting out of it. strength to us all. Let's win this, my friends💪

now I need my uncle's warm hug. He's the one who made me the person I am now. Without him, I don't know where I would be right now. Too bad he lives far away and we also fought.