4am is fr my favourite time. Not so early that you still feel lethargic, not so late that you feel like you've wasted a night, but right in between the turning of what days feel like. I always get a little burst of energy for the hour. The haze outside my window as neither the sun or moon move, yet I can feel it getting brighter. But the blueness and the stillness turning to movement as the birds wake up is just beautiful. I've found that 4am seems to be the only stagnant time.
well, i used to get desperate trying to get at least a couple of hours before school, lookin at the clock every now and then, but the thing is, most cases of insomnia comes from anxiety, and to fight it is to give it strength. the first time i went with it i just plugged my headphones and listened to music, and before i knew it i felt so tired, that i just took them off and i just disappeared into nothingness... i'm not gonna say that it will work with you, certantly it didn't work for me everytime. later i started to use my insomnia to meditate for example, binaural beats also helped me (not every time tho). i hope you can fin your way with insomnia... no one deserves a sleepless life... i remember that when i was at highschool, some days i went without sleep for more than 24 hours, but i was young and i could endure it...
@@miru307 well, i wont say i know it all, i'm just familiar with insomnia. i understand some kinds of pain, like the pain of being lonely around people, the pain of being subject to alienation from the group. i've always been a sensible kid, and i was born with an hormonal disblance, which made me store fat on the chest, making me to grow boobs, and children are monsters you know?. my parents divorced when i was like 8 yo, my personal hygiene was lacking to say the least, so i developed a severe case of acne, so i was fat, had tities, i reeked, and was ugly as fuck cause of my acne (which i took care of when i was 18) when i was in highschool i became a nihilist without even knowing it existed, i didn't saw sense in existence, i didn't saw sense in my pain, so i thought to myself 'why bother?', which made me suffer more in the end... now i understand that it is one who gives sense to existence...
in the game dark souls 2 there is a dialogue that hits me right in the heart: 'young undead, the embrace of the void is gentle, let her absorb your sorrows, for ever...'
i got you bro when i was first moved into alone house i felt the same way as you,but you will used to it for sure,being alone is okay but feeling lonely 💔
@@TokioSenta sorry dude, I moved up but I didn't buy a flat or house, I rented a flat and my father pays my rent. I don't know what could you do there but good luck, you'll do it eventually!
I have a loving family, but sometimes it doesn’t seem like they hear me when I need to be heard. Im struggling with paranoia, I’m unable to sleep now, and all they can do is give me pills, pills, pills, but pills don’t work. I’m alone in this world…we’re alone in this world. If there’s one thing my family and I have in common is that fact we are all alone. We only have each other to take care of. Two daughters and one dad. Alone in the world besides each other. I get lonely, and paranoid… and suicidal… so I only have them to turn too. I’ve tried taking myself out of their world 4 times, and only now as I was planning my 5th, I realized how lonely they would be, just the two of them. So I’ll stay, I don’t want them to be even more lonely after all. I know this isn’t saying much, but thank you for making the playlist, it helped me clear my mind on this long night. I will be forever grateful.
dude thats right decison you have to stay and fight until die im proud of you really,just try to focus on yourself and make good friend it'll really help you i wish you good luck with life have a nice day🙏🏻❤️
Hello. I live in Turkey. I saw you wrote. My English is not very good. But I wanted to write to you. Don't stop fighting! Believe that all these negative things will pass. I have been struggling with anxiety and obsessive compulsive for a long time. Sometimes life is very tiring. I know how difficult it is. But don't give up. You are very special. And the life you live is precious. Everything takes its time. I am sure you will be very happy in the future. There is a saying in the religious book I believe in. 'After every hardship comes ease'. Believe it and look at the sky. The sky we still live under is beautiful. Goodbye
Its so cute to see how many people finds comfort in the night time. Which was normally considered dangerous from our nature, which is also why we sleep through untill light comes to this day. I can just sit here and look through the comments knowing there are also somebody else probably hiding in the darkness from the worry and responsibilities daylight brings, so i will feel not alone at a hour i am supposed to feel lonely and melancholic normally. It makes me feel some kind of warmth to think that there is some kind person at the other side of the earth awake at 4 am worrying over something, minding their business or just dont want to sleep. I hope no one feels lonely too. We are being awake together.
I think the most beautiful thing about this is that this is a playlist meant for you and you only, by yourself, reflecting on what you've done, the world is quiet and nobody is there to judge. It's just you, your thoughts and this playlist. Absolute serenity. I feel like I'm in a weird space of melancholy and nostalgia, thinking about all the long nights I had and about those I never will, about past times with friends, past times alone. But viewing all of them in complete peace.
Those summer nights… at a park with your friends until 10pm with the warm breeze brushing through your hair and the twilight sky illuminating the horizon. Walks with your mum, dad and little brother at the downs with the grass glowing wonderful shades of gold in the sunlight. Lying in bed with the window open listening to your curtains move with the night breeze. I think that’s my version of heaven right there.. couldn’t ask for anything more
Born 1993, when I was around 5/6 me and my family had to move to Germany, Osnabruck because my Dad was stationed there for being in the British Army. We stayed there until 2001. I can honestly say from what memories are still there in my head, are the best years of my life. If I could just relive those days, just for a few hours, I would be so happy. I spend hours crying happy/sad tears on Google Earth Pro with the time machine of the maps. Seeing my old Primary School before it was demolished. Seeing the Army barracks my dad was at before that too was sadly demolished. Seeing my old childhood home which I haven't seen since we left 22 years ago. It's even more saddening with how Germanys privacy laws are. Google Street view is practically none existent. So the buildings and the streets I fondly remember are mainly just these pixelated resemblances of buildings that I still vividly remember from my childhood but i can't see how are now or was a few years ago. I only have what I remember, and the odd remnants of videos here on RU-vid which is extremely lacking and rare to find. The walks we went on, the Warner Brothers Movie Theme Park down south near Dorsten. Pony rides in the woods and picking the oldest one there who was called Boris. I picked him all the time because he liked to eat the grass a lot which made the ride last longer so I could spend more time with him. The little & big lake walk just behind the Nettebad. The traditional Christmas Markets in the town centre. Playing video games when my Dad finally came home on my Playstation 1, we would try and beat the games in one day but never could because I didn't have a memory card. Getting excited whenever Pokemon was on the TV. Friends round mine to share the big swimming pool I had. Watching Halloween Town before going out trick or treating. Finding our first ever pet, a kitten abandoned behind a grit bin while we were on a bike ride and taking her home, we named her Millie. So many memories. All lost to time. With only old VHS tapes & photographs to try and relive those memories at least just a tiny bit. Oh what Id do just to go back to those days. Nostalgia is such a beautiful but cruel mistress. I hate to love it and love to hate it. I Miss you Osnabruck. I miss you childhood. But. I have a baby daughter now. And I honestly can not wait to be the best father I can possibly be. And to make everlasting memories with her that she can look back on and smile just as much as I do looking back at the ones I made with my Mum & Dad. Oh Germany. Oh Osnabruck. Oh childhood. You were the best of days. I'll revisit you one day. With the whole family hopefully.
I don't have anxiety or anything but i just can't sleep. My mind just races with thoughts which aren't even negative but just normal things like what i did that day, things that happened 4 years ago, songs, creating fake scenarios. Its like even though i feel sleepy and tired my mind can't just stop functioning.
I’m just outside, sitting on my porch at night watching a thunderstorm in the distance while it drizzles, and I’ve never been more at peace in this past year. For any of you that have had a bad year so far, just sit outside and enjoy life by yourself and just relax. You should be the only person who should deem what is best for your health and sometimes we all just need a break, so go take one and enjoy your life.
A lot has happened since I posted this comment I’ve been evicted from my house been homeless for 3 months and living in a hotel with my grandma taking me to school for that time period but now I have a new home that’s not to far from my old one but I came back to the same porch I sat on 9 months ago and all the memories I made at this house came back to me and I feel like I’m sitting next to myself and reassuring him that everything is going to be okay but damn sitting here takes me back to when things were better and I wasn’t dealing with drama or the stress I have now because of so many things that are pilling on top of me that the smallest thing sets me off. I wish things were better and I could just unload my stress and fix my emotional state. Well anyway this comment is getting to long I hope you guys are doing better than the last time I was here just remember that there’s a silver lining past the storm clouds. Love ya guys have a great night.
Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)
100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favourite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beatiful person 💕 Life is so beatiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶🏼
Making my parents proud or seeing them again would make me suicidal ideate again among other traumatic responses. I understand ur intent was sweet tho. For anyone reading this that comes from a broken home instead i want to say this, i know its hard but it may be more possible to get out of ur situation than you realize. You can find people who really love you, not the idea you represent, but the real you. Im sorry we got dealt a bad hand but, its not impossible to make it work. I understand its going to be hard tho. Good luck, stay strong, and most of all be kind to yourself the best u can.
it's 1:43 am as i'm writing this Tonight is one of these nights. I'm sure you all know them too. I just wanted to share some words with a stranger in this weird time. I feel lost. Everything in my life sounds great, i have great friends, i'm healthy, i paint and i just graduated high school. But idk why, I feel lost. Every single night i'm in the same mood. I feel like i'm wasting my life, going nowhere. It's weird to explain and i have no reasons for it but i'm not satisfied. As if something was missing. Every night, i struggle to fall asleep. Every night i'm lost in melancholy. Every night i leave one or two tears on my mattress. I have no clue why, but it's there, every single night. And every morning, it's gone. I'm sure i'm not the only one feeling this but there's nothing that makes me more desperate than this 2-4am mood. And at the same time i appreciate the calmness and apparent serenity of that time. I both love and hate it. It's now 2:20 am. I wish you fall asleep soon.Take care of yourself stranger.
I’m 27 and graduated HS 10 years ago. By all measures I am in a good spot right now, my life finally has some resemblance of a trajectory. The feelings you laid out are still very very familiar to me. I still feel as though life is continually sliding between my fingers. As you get older you start to care a little and a little less each day. You realise the value of action, even the “wrong” action (Though you eventually realise there is no such thing) and the acidic creeping nature of inaction and indecisiveness. All of this to say don’t concern yourself too much in terms of “Wasting your life”. You’re clearly self-aware and that’s an enormous advantage over others your age.
This comment is everything 💙💜 I do have these feelings as well, but looks like it’s something that words cannot describe, magical and mysterious at the same time, especially after playing OneShot
I like the nights. I like them alot, not having to worry because all of your worries only happen at day time. Reflecting on your day, your week, the past 3 months, the past year, your whole life without anyone telling you what is right or wrong. Its almost like that voice isnt there anymore, the voice only comes at daytime. 1 - 4 am is like an intermission, just to think with a clear head for future plans and such. Staying awake at night isnt healthy, but it almost does feel healthy in someway. Its like the night is where my head is the clearest it has been, I stay hydrated and I eat food and I reflect on my mental health, and how I can make myself stable. The silence is the most relaxing of all, no one screaming at eachother, no conflicts, no arguements you have to hear or cry about. My memory is the clearest too, I sometimes see the good memories in 4k Ultra HD. its so clear I cry about most of the time. I feel more grateful then ever I can just look around and think, knowing how grateful I am for everything.
I usually get out of work at midnight and find myself struggling to calm my mind as it rushes with thoughts when trying to sleep. I sometimes go a full night without rest end end up falling asleep at 8-9am in the moring and waste my day away. This playlist has really really helped me to calm down and get some sleep after a days work, thank you for making this friend ❤❤❤
Thank you all the people reading your comments gives me hope And I believe in every one of you Keep moving forward and don't forget to look up to the sky.
I have horrible anxiety. This playlist just made me let it all out, and understand why i was hurting so much. I've let myself get close to others again, and im so afraid ill lose them. Like this sharp pain in my chest, and this playlist just helped. It didnt necessarily calm me, but it got me to the point where i could just cry. :)
Wow man.. This is what I've been avoiding, whenever I feel like I'm getting attached to anyone I immediately start avoiding them.. I guess losing my father had more impact on me than I expected, that I'm afraid to lose anyone else, but I yearn for deep relationships, this contradiction aches me..
Sitting on my balcony, listening to this, smoking some cigs, not thinking about anything just chilling. A rare times when I'm alone and don't feel lonely
Its 4am rn. Time stands still.Just me and my thoughts, my visions, my experiences....staring at the cieling. Just at ease...like when insomnia and anxiety get cancelled out by shower thoughts and those what ifs and how you envision your life possibilities...its just something else i tell you
4am. When everyone is sleeping, when the moon shines through your window, when there‘s no sound but the silent music coming from your headphones and the soft sound of the winds outside. Maybe it‘s peace. Maybe it‘s hell. Maybe it‘s something in between. But at the end, it‘s like a routine. Takes the weight of your shoulders, only for the moment. Makes you close your eyes peacefully, lets you take deep and soft breaths.
Sleep. A Relaxing Sleep. What I've been dreaming of for a long time. The older you get, the more you realize how life actually is. Of course, I can't speak for everyone, but a lot of people out there. Every night, that I close my school books and go to bed, I think about the next day. A test, an exam, the kids (who are annoying as fuck) and the teachers (who gave up by now). Every time I go to sleep, I hope I won't wake up in the morning. just die a peaceful death. I know, some peoples lifes are much worse than mine, but am I not allowed to feel like shit too? I want to leave this world behind or have something to live for. Haaaah.... Well, Thank you Josho Modoru for this playlist. I will listen to it every night. It's very calming and lets me breath more relaxed.
Try talking about it with someone you can really trust. There is more to life. You are still young, there is a lot more waiting for you. You will discover something or someone that gives you purpose. Or maybe that's just what people say. I guess you can never know until you know. So don't give up soldier.
I’m 16 now and I feel I need to do something already in my life to be successful but I don’t know what and it makes me feel already ashamed that I haven’t done something.
I dont have any passion. Everyone around me wants to be a marine biologist or something. Im realistic. I REALLY dont want to get a job. I dont know how normal people do it
Tbh I like to listen to this and just cry, let all the emotion out at 4am, 4am feels calm and steady and perfect for the right Moment to release any feelings that you just Held in for so long. For me it’s the best feeling after having a hard day holding tears and flashbacks of trauma or any negativity. It’s like the perfect moment.
These songs have the same effect on me as some of the more moody Minecraft songs. Sort of a melancholy yet calming effect. It makes you feel like you're drifting through the middle of space and in every direction you can see the stars but can also see that they are winking back at you.
слушая такие плейлисты мне просто хочется исчезнуть. сделать так, что бы все знавшие меня просто забыли о моём существовании, как делали некоторое время назад. я бы так хотел просто наблюдать за всем происходящим, полностью понимать, что от меня уже ничего не зависит и не следует пытаться что либо менять.
Thank you. Tonight, this playlist calmed me down a lot and made me step away from problems and fuss. My grandfather died a week ago, and I'm failing my exams at the institute. I was exhausted and depressed. But being far from home, with such problems, thanks to this music, I was able to find peace standing in the kitchen and looking out the window. I thought about life, remembered the past and enjoyed the present. Greetings from Russia and thanks again.
I hope everyone can enjoy a nights sleep tonight and wake up refreshed and ready to do something that helps you feel better about yourself tomorrow Good night everyone
This year ive been with myself. Still my mind was at chaos, saw thoughts travelling through anger, evil thoughts, jealousy, fear, peace and all emotiins in a spectrum.
Going to school, even if it doesn't feel the best rn, going outside with friends, getting home from school, do homework, everything about school seems bad but i do know that ill miss those moments. Small moments even just going to the store with some classmates and one day this wont happen again. Im starting to understand that I'll miss this bc now im a new school, last one was one i hated but now i do miss the moments. Life's weird. We really cant appreciate the moments when we have to, and when we realize we should've, its already gone and there's no going back. Ill miss being a kid. Sometimes i just think that it would be easier if i wasn't really alive and wouldn't have to worry about life. I wanna do what i wanna do but that's almost impossible now, so is it even all that worth it? Not saying this in a svicidal way or anything, life's not so bad but its nothing near to where i would like it to be, maybe wanting to just disappear will be the best way to say it. Love yall
Even if it's not 4 am. I have terrible sleep problems. I can sleep two days in a row and not get enough sleep. Now it's the other way around. I have insomnia again. I didn't sleep all day. There is no point in going outside. To look at the cheerful companies and to envy? Nobody cares about me at all. There is no point in checking social networks. Nobody will ever write to me. All I do is stare at the ceiling like this cartoon man and get more and more immersed in these melodies. I can't even draw to this music because I just don't have the talent. Everyone thinks I'm a useless fool, even my family... I seem to exist. But it's like I don't exist. And nothing will change if I leave. And no one will notice...
Staying up at night makes me think of how much better I am than some people. I am happy just knowing that I can stay off my phone for five minuted and just have peace with myself.
The law of attraction brought us all here, because we feel the same things at heart, loneliness, alienation, depression, mental restlessness, panic attack , anxiety, insomnia etc 🖤 as long as im not alone in this state of mind, I'll be fine
5 утра,лёгкий утренний ветер.Лучи солнца проходят сквозь моих волос,отражая их цвет.Я лежу,полумертвая и голодная,с этим плейлистом.хочу уйти в сон,там где мне спокойно и хорошо,и чтобы я никогда не просыпалась.Когда нибудь,это все таки и случиться...
That's roughly the time I wake up most weekdays. I find my mind drifting and reflecting on recent events, the past, and all the things I've accomplished.
When I hear these sounds, I have the slight sensation of seeing myself in an absolutely calm place. Nothing but me and the landscape around me. Every day I try to be more sociable, I try to fall in love with the right people, with life, appreciate the moments, but at the same time, these things are so far away... all because of my thoughts that every day push me into an abyss inside my own head. It's a distressing but pleasant feeling, I can't explain it, but it's as if my thoughts took me away from people and despite suffering from it, I have a slight feeling of peace. Are 1:45 am... i'll so far away from me.
Дуже комфортною.Вам вдалося передати ту саму атмосферу,той самий ранок,коли немає зайвих думок,хочется просто слухати це та наслоджуватися цим моментом. Та одразу ви передали і іншу ситуацію,коли в тебе не виходить заснути та ти вмикаєшь собі щось таке,думаєш собі щось своє а на дворі потроху відніється сонце.Останній час ти втомився,аале всеодно у такий момент просто комфортно і все
I literally woke up at 4am to take a shower and couldn’t go back to sleep so I brushed my teeth and cleaned my room and tbh it felt great went outside and it was a beautiful aesthetic to 4am-5am tbh only true Jedi masters understand that 🤝💎😎 good rising yall!
I've had insomnia for about 5 years and I know it's hard to deal with, but I also know self motivation is important however, you should know that it is a disease like any other, like a runny nose, cough or depression, there are drugs for it, but not all of them always work, well, hydroxyzine has practically no effect on me, maybe gently. i also take melatonin which is supposed to work so remember no matter what you are struggling with you have to believe it will get better keep that in mind have a nice day ( if you are reading this in your daily time) or good night (if you are reading this at night) stay strong ❤❤❤
I offer my sincere condolences to those who cannot sleep. It is hard for me to stay awake and I fall asleep very easily, that keeps me tired and very exhausted since I have not been able to raise my self-esteem, we can only hope that one day all this will end...💔🖤
Mon, July 31, 2023 4:00 am I'm here, all alone in my room; Staring to the celling listening to a song. It reminds me of him. He who stayed by my side, him who loved every version of me, him who cared about me, him who is there for me, him whom i lost. I felt my tears running down to my cheeks as i remember those things. OUR MEMORIES. I lost him, and i miss him. I can't sleep at night thinking about him. I love him, i love him for the rest of my life. Mi amor.
I am also struggling with insomnia, don't give up, don't give up, you are not alone, I defeated this demon once and was free from it for 3 years and I swear I will do it once again, I declare this site as a place where we will not help each other, people from the outside do not understand us, we will among ourselves, do not doubt that, you are great because despite your difficult lives, your different problems, you are always there standing, showing the world who they are and that they are made of the strongest steel, of the strongest mind, one day all this will be solved, don't doubt it, stay firm and use the answers in this comment to vent about your problems, I will answer them I go through the same thing as you, existential crises, anxiety, vices and other things that damage the body, but that will never take our spirit. May God bless you all, AMEN.
I went through a reawakening recently and have found hope with God. I have been suicidal for some time. It seems like everything was caving in on me all at once, but I knew I had to keep moving for my family sake. Amen, brother. may God bless you, and may you have a good day or night.
@@coldharbor2.020 Thank you for your comment friend, very few people know what it is like to sometimes live hell in this world, we are disconcerted, I have not had thoughts about ending my life or anything like that, Thank God of course it's just that sometimes I felt so helpless about my situation that it practically terrified me at times, it is a little difficult to deal with this, but if one is aware that there is no evil that lasts 100 years, one knows that there will be a deep peace sooner or later, that the Someday our problems will only be mere flashes that will make us step back and say when we look back, "Wow, that was crazy" haha, at least that's what I'll maybe say a few years from now. Thank you for commenting on your experience, I know that only I am a RU-vid user, but I am a being of flesh and blood who, like you, has endured the strong tides of this life. Strength, brother, life is beautiful and a few problems will not bring us down that easily, and above all, stay strong. 💪😎😎.
As i go through the comments and read the various struggles faced by people, i tend to appreciate my life but i still cant help but ask these questions, what is my purpose in life? Why do i exist? Is there more to life than going to school, getting a job having kids and eventually dying, i worry so much about the future i cant control while missing the beauty of the present, but i do believe waking up everyday in itself is a courage and an opportunity to witness beauty connect with loved ones. Hey stranger, keep on living and cherish every moment and hopefully someday you will find a meaning to it all, wishing everyone a good day❤️
Those summer nights… at a park with your friends until 10pm with the warm breeze brushing through your hair and the twilight sky illuminating the horizon. Walks with your mum, dad and little brother at the downs with the grass glowing wonderful shades of gold in the sunlight. Lying in bed with the window open listening to your curtains move with the night breeze. I think that’s my version of heaven right there.. couldn’t ask for anything more
It's one of those nights for me... There is this girl I am so much in love with but, I haven't talked to her for years now, until recently. I was sure that she hated me because of some things that happened in High School. So I finally gathered the courage to message her after so long, saying that I was sorry for what I did or said to her, I wasn't expecting an answer to be honest. Turns out she answered and said that she had good memories with me in High School and that she was sorry for saying what she said to me. I was so relieved to read that it took me half an hour to respond after opening the message. I was so happy to be able to speak with her like we used to during our bus ride back home. One week later here I am, it's 4 am and I don't know what to do, I spoke to her nearly everyday through Instagram because I really want to ask her out since I love her so much, but I don't know if she is even interested in me,I feel like she was just answering to be polite and for the sake of the good old days. So I feel like i'm just bothering her if I keep on talking with her like that. I am beyong terrified of what would happen if I was honest with her about my feelings, I fear that It will make it weird between us if I tell her and I really don't want that to happen. So here I am, unable to sleep because of that dilemma... It might sound dumb but I'm a bit relieved to write that down. Thank you kind stranger for reading this mess I wrote.
I moved on. At least I hope I did. I looked back to our memories and I didn't cry anymore. I didn't miss the times we had. I didn't miss you. I remember the moment after our break up. How I cried all night. How I cried but was forced to suck it up cause I had work that night. I remember it. But now you're just a memory. What I miss right now aren't the memories or the moments. It's the feeling I used to have. I miss feeling love because right now, I don't feel anything at all.
у меня есть вопрос. когда вы слушаете такие плейлисти у вам вохникают те мысли о которых вы часто размышляете? ☆мои мысли при прослушивании этого плейлиста: •я бы так хотел иметь человека,которому мог открыться полностью •мне бы хотелось улыбаться и веселиться •жизнь так сложна (но каждый раз при этом слове,я говорю "что всё хорошо" •почему всегда надо орать,можно же просто сказать •разные вопросы,рассуждения,разногласия почему всё это в моей голове,могу я вообще не о чём думать?...
Мне нечем думать. Сейчас рыдаю из-за теплых комментариях на подобных роликах. Я не хочу любви и не хочу признания, не хочу быть любимым и не хочу утешения. Но я не могу умереть: мои друзья расстроятся, а я хочу чтобы кто-то был счастлив кроме меня. Об этом я и думаю
Update! It helped me a bit with my insomnia, I listened to it before sleeping, and it helped me drift off. Thank you to everyone for the tips in the comments!
It’s not 4 AM, just 1 AM, but I hate sleep. Nightmares are everywhere, even when it’s a day. No matter how I’ve tried.. everything gets worse. I’m happy for the others, even for you, little reader, but I don’t know how to help and be happy for myself. My English is not that good, but.. seeing all these comments… why not.. Just so you know, love you all >*
Ya know reading the Bible is helpful in ways. One is that if you read it for the first time you get really tired but if you want to keep walking Jesus when reading the book then you won’t get tired from reading it, but be more at peace and filled with love from your creator God himself and last but not least being identified as a child of God. May you seek Jesus while he can still be found.✝️❤️
I sometimes feel like my eyeball shakes when I close em, that's why I tend to stay up because of it. It's tiring but some night I can sleep, but tonight is one of those nights..
3:59 am. I am in my room, alone, just like basically every single night of my life… thinking. It’s the only moment when I actually can do that. And yet… that thought comes to my mind, as always… what did I do in my first 20 years of my life which I’m proud of? If I go back, I just CAN’T find anything. I wanna heal. I wanna becone better. I wanna free myself of the sense of guilt. I don’t wanna fall in temptations anymore. I don’t wanna waste my time anymore. And most of all, the most important thing, which I hope will remain my ultimate purpose for the rest of my life.. I wanna find Peace.
Thank you for making this i fell like i just cant sleep and some times i just look up 4:00am songs and just grap a glass of milk just let it do its thing. :)
04:04, я не могу уснуть, поэтому лежу в кровати, ем яблоко и слушаю данный плейлист… всё в коментариях чем то делятся и рассказываю, а мне даже сказать нечего. Просто опишу свою комнату. Это пространство 2:4 без окна и батареи, есть стол, стул, кровать и шкаф. Здесь довольно таки холодно, но уютно и комфортно. My English is very-very bad. But thanks for this playlist.
The later it gets the less people can judge me. Most of my depression and anxiety stems from abuse. I'm so tired of people insulting me. I'm so damn tired of living. Everyday is the same, I'm treated like trash and when I'm alone my thoughts haunt me. I have so many bad memories. I just want to end it all. Everyday is a painful loop and I question my reason for living. This pain must stop. Perhaps I should stop it for good.
It’s been 5 years since I died inside myself. It feels so awful walking in the city, watching all these people doing their own things. I really can’t find anything pleasant in this world anymore. I’m skipping eating because I don’t enjoy food anymore. Every morning I wake up wondering why even getting up from bed. Does it really matter to anyone? What difference does it make to the world? Is there even a point of doing what all these people out there are doing? I hate it. I hate people that tells me that I’m not trying hard enough. I hate when people are watching me strangely because I look dead and depressed all the time. And most importantly, I hate myself so much I can’t even look in the mirror anymore. This modern society making every aspect of life toxic and putting pressure on it. You either fit in or you be kicked out and called names. Too bad I got a chance to live in this sad time of this sad and rotten world. It is what it is I guess.
It’s funny I’ve been feeling the exact same way recently I’m usually hopeful for everyone but myself Keep fighting. I want you to see the beautiful new age upon The Earth that will occur in our lifetimes I’ll fight for you , I’ll fight with you , keep fighting.
it may be hard to let go, but just know there’s always a tomorrow and tomorrow comes with you new opportunities, new love, new joy, new people, a new point of view, etc. don’t live in the now as you have so much ahead of you
o everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! If you're reading, relax, Focus, and imagine the beautiful scenes in your head. And if you're playing games like me, Focus on your game and don't give up :D -Not mine, but pass it around guys
Ima be honest with everyone. At this point I don't know what to do. I sit studying all day, try my best at school hoping that at a the end of the day I will be able to actually do something for my self and then I have my parents saying that I go to the gym 2 times a week and I only care about my muscles and how to get big and nothing more. I am criticised all day for what? I literally try my best. After school I have 2 more hours every day of lessons just to get a better grade at school and after all is this worth it? I'll get 40 and I'll have a good job yes but I will have a childhood full of studying and nothing more. I wanted to improve my self and to be fair I don't think all this stress is worth it. My girl left me 1 month ago so yea that gave me more motivation and I got into the gym with my whole heart. I changed schools this year which lead me into having less and less friend groups so yea I am not really able to go out at the weekends or smth. Then when I try to talk with my friends when I am at home I have my mother saying that they are bad to me and they hold me back. I really don't know what to do. It's been 2 weeks. I have totally f*cked up my died, I sit home all day studying and watching series or other movies and I hate my life. Idk if my parents do this cause they "love" me or smth but I really do not enjoy it. For everyone that read this so far, I hope you have a great life and that you can actually enjoy the things that make you happy while living. I hope one day when I have my own kids that ill let them enjoy their years. Have a nice day
So, to everyone out there struggling with whatever is wrong with their life, i promise you it will get better... I KNOW i know it sound only like a premade phrase, but i promise you it will, you'll get out of depression, you will start making progress, you will finally decide to be happy, even if it scares you, even if you feel like you don't deserve it, i was in it, i saw that dark place, after sooo many years suddenly i was just tired to always see black so i started "fighting" the darkness to finally see some lights, it's hard, it really is, but i'm sure it'll repay every single second of effort put in it, please stay safe, what your mind tell's you it's not real, only the part to get better is real, we are humans, we make mistake and you know the good part about that? You can learn from them so you can try to not mess up again, "but what if I repeat the same mistake?" Than the lesson learned will be double important, eat more, eat healthy, brush your teeth, take a shower, go out for a walk, TALK TO THAT FRIEND YOU THINK YOU'RE ONLY GONNA BOTHER (SPOILER: I HAVE A NEW BEST FRIEND JUST BECAUSE I DECIDED TO TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS WITH HIM) people who loves you are there, they're just too busy with life so they can't understand what you're going through without you making it clear, i repeat, it will get better, it really will ~The not anymore Guy who used to read the comments and cry in hopelessness Stay safe y'all, love from Italy, wish you the best, good night 🖤
My life is so problematic that I have only one escape. It is to do what needs to be done in 1 year. I'm trying harder than I've ever tried before in my life. After a year, I will write a note here again. If I don't take notes, know that I failed
