I’ve lost myself this year, what happened to me UPDATE: 8 months later, i've found people i love, have learned to love myself, live fully now, and have really found myself again. i am the happiest i've ever been and i love who i've become. for so long i was trying to live for others and change myself to fit others standards. thank you all for the love :') you guys are so kind
why is everyone such in deep depression this year... and like im also depressed and shit yk. and like this year im not hyped for anything all i do is stay in my room lock the door close the shades turn off the lights leave everything dark and listen to depressing music or just watch tiktoks all day...
This year is just not a good one I guess. I’ve had bad years in the past, but I’ve never felt so emotionally awful as this year. All I enjoy doing really is getting high and listening to music like this lmao. Idk. Shit will lighten up though.
This song always makes me sad. Whenever I listen to this song I think of past experiences with my bests friends: Laughing, playing, hanging out, telling our crushes, smiling...All I see now is their ig photos of them all in a group with other people. Their captions would be “out with my besties” or “love them so much.”..... I guess I was never needed.
I feel you, you feel like you're the only person who feels this pain sometimes and it hurts even more, but always remember buddy, all of us are going through it too
"Listen you little bitch. I know you. I own you. So whoever your acting. Isnt working. I never wanted to be your friend. I have people that are out for you. Theyre gonna jump you. She isnt your "best friend". You don't matter." "Its okay. Your real. Im real. Im here. Your loved. I love you. Its okay. Wanna hang out tomorrow? I got movies. We can talk."
I know how you feel my dude, it's like when you think you're important to someone, but then you realize you're not. Been through that with my family, friends, aquatics, ect ect.
I should be having the best years of my life right now. I'm young. But all I do is sit in my room and cry. None of my family cares about me and I'm struggling. I don't have the guts to reach out to anyone. I just will continue to listen to sad music in the dark.
You’re not alone. Instead of getting the help I need, I shut everyone out and expect myself to fix my problems. Instead, all I do is cry myself to sleep and stray further away from reality. I’m at the point where I have suicidal thoughts everyday. You’re not alone.
You’re not alone, but your youth isn’t over yet! You need to find the strength to reach out, because out there will be someone’s hand, ready to help you, I can assure you
That’s life rn, so yeah, but at the same time everything went so wrong this year feels set up to fail, but all I can do is just make it through this one to maybe get a better one next year because these were the only chances I’ll get
Sad boy hours am I right? It’s 12:30 and I’m sitting in bed, puffin on my cigar on a rainy day wishing I had somebody. I’m 43 years old and have never found true love, this is to all you out there who even have something to love. Weather it be a hobby, an animal, or even a person. When you feel down because of a loved one or thing, think about this comment, think “oh, well it ain’t any worse than not having love at all”. Anyway, goodnight homies, I know all you have big hearts and love your mothers with a passion.
okay but same like i always imagine myself just laying in like an alley or empty street while rain pours down and blood spills out because i shot myself in the head
I remember when my father wasn’t abusive, I remember when my friends valued our time together, I remember when my family cared about me, I remember when I was happy, I remember when I was smiling, I remember when I was enjoying life and I remember when I wasn’t unhappy. My life has changed in one year, the year came to a end in 2018 and something changed, life just turned around and everything just started to hurt and I started to realise the truth..I’m sorry, I’m not a good person and I know but I just don’t care I’m bad
To anyone going through the comments; just know that you're going to be okay , keep you're head up & move forward & you'll achieve whatever you desire . Have a good day , I love you':))💞
Anyone else feel like they’re not depressed but life isn’t giving them the easiest time rn? Like I was replaced by my main friend group and though that sucks, I still have another group to rely on and like I still have people to talk to but it just isn’t the same. I thought they would’ve never replaced me or anything like that, it’s just shocking. Grades are nice though, and small things like skin care are doing pretty good too. Making new friends just sad over the fact I don’t have a tight close bond like I use to. Everyone can’t really say that, most people have one group. Hella grateful that I’m not in a deep sadness and alone, just wasn’t what I wanted.
that’s exactly how it is. i feel like i have no right to be sad honestly but so many little things keep adding up and i feel like im gonna snap eventually
I’m imagining listening to this song post breakdown over how much you love someone that you can’t even tell them or anything knowing they’ll never love you back... maybe even going for a walk in the rain in the night with nobody to bother you but your thoughts and feelings...
To anyone who is reading this and going through a hard time, theres a light at the end of the tunnel. Things will clear up eventually. Stay strong and just try your hardest to push through. - a person who wants you to know you matter.
I wish I could believe that but I’m tired, I’ve been like this since I was 5. Everything is always my fault. And I’m sorry for venting. I just hope I’m gone.
Don't rain on me Don't rain on me [Verse] Why you gotta act so nice? This ain't televised This ain't televised This ain't televised Moving at the speed of light And I'm terrified Yeah, I'm terrified So please for the love of God Don't drench me [Chorus] Me Don't rain on me (Don't rain on me, don't rain on me) Don't rain on me Don't rain on me Don't rain on me Don't rain [Outro] Woo, broken love Woo, just can't get enough Ooh, ooh
Listening to this song to take away depressing thoughts about my trauma & my life in general.... this song is a reminder to keep going... & to keep breathing...don’t stop...
when i listen to this i lay in the dark looking up thinking about all the things i could be and all things i wish i could do and places i wish i was and think by the time i get to do them i’ll be too old
my sister got hospitalized a while ago for being really suicidal. i miss her. all of my friends have abandoned me this year. i have no one. edit: she came home a week ago. she’s been feeling a lot better. i don’t think she’s ever been this happy. she got the help she needed. if you’re in a really bad place in life right now, i promise you it does get better. everything’s gonna be okay even if it doesn’t seem like it will.
when it’s 3 am and your getting the feels and your thinking about how your crush used to like you and always talk to you but out of a sudden they ghosted you and ignored you and all the fun i used to have with them fades away and he finds another person....
For everyone in the coments. You will be okay. This song might remind you of the past but remember, every day is a new beginning. You can get through this
Last year and this year have really been my downfall. I feel like I’m in a pit of despair so deep that I can’t escape. Here’s to hoping 2020 will be my year
to anyone else listening: take my happiness, take it all. please. i want all of you to be happy. please, just know you are going to make it. whether you believe it or not, i know you will. i know i will. we will make it out alive. please do it, for me. please.
i feel like i've lost everything this year. i mean i've been sad most of my life, but this year was different. my friends laugh it off acting like my problems are a joke whenever i try to talk about it.. i'm to scared to tell anybody about my cuts, my sadness, my pain.. i just want to end it all.
honestly my year has been strightn up shit my life started terrible and its still terrible, but this year just was so different like everything is crumbling, and im angry more than ever, sad, and i can sometimes be happy, but when i get home or in my class everything just goes dark. and i cant speak to anyone about it, i feel like i should be dead sometimes. like why am i living what is my purpose...
@@kailynjantzen I feel this on a whole different level, but we'll get through it. Idk about me, but I'm 100% sure you will. You are beautiful and never ever forget that. You have a wonderful life ahead of you. Don't let anything or anybody get in the way of that.
i know how you feel! i've been cutting for five years and i finally started to get help last year, it hurts me to know others feel the same way. but you can always talk to me @bittersweetwritings4u on insta:) i'll be an open book with you, and im here for any random rants!
Reading all these comments are sad. I'm so sorry everyone has gone through these things:( I'm here for anyone who needs it. Just get through today okay, I promise things will get better at some point.
Leah ? Yea I feel the same way:/ I started therapy and it has helped me a lot if it’s something possible u can start it might help a lot, it doesn’t work with everyone but you could maybe give it a try
Strolling through the streets, feeling like the world has destroyed and deserted you. As the clouds form around you and the rain starts hitting the ground, instead of finding shelter you sit in the middle of the road. You think of how many times the world has broken you through toxic relationships and abusive family. After minutes of considering whether it’s worth it or not, you remember a promise someone told you a long time ago, a true friend: “whenever you feel like all hope is lost, stand back up and remember you are loved. You’ll make it out alive”. You rise to your feet, tears in your eyes. You put on a song that makes you happy, and start running through the city to get back home, telling yourself that you’ll fight through this tragic world and make it out alive.
Imagine this in your head. And if you are halfway through the song, go back to the beginning. _You walk out of your room after being lectured by your parents. They chase after you but you grab your shoes in time. They scream for your name but you run in the rain not stopping. The only source of light for you was the streetlight and the bright moon ahead. You run in puddles, most of them being your own tears and pain. You scream and stomp on the wet ground. You become more angry by the second. You yell for help but nobody answers. Tears flood to the ground and become a pool of salt. You run away from the madness and run to the woods. You step on many branches and leaves. The salty pool of tears come folding behind you as you scream for help. You find yourself going nowhere, but the only sound you can hear are screams of your past trauma as a child and the flood of tears heading your way, killing others around you. Your screams soon become faint whispers for help. You look behind and see the flood roughly 10 feet away from you. You run for life, tripping and trying to escape but, there is no exit. It's a Neverending circle. The same screams and cries fill your ears, now ringing. You finally just give up and let the tears kill you. You set free and shut your eyes. It all comes in as you float there. You feel new tears streaming down your face. Then you took your last breath and it all went white._ _You woke up, drowned in water, laying in the grass, the dew tickling your skin. You woke up, and saw the broken halo sitting right next you. You failed. Once again._ _You got up and saw you were wearing a shredded white cloth. You lift your arms and see all your scars become visible and red. Your scars were a puzzle. Your scars from tears stream and cover most your face. Your hand touch your skin and the scars fade. It all goes white and unclear._ _You wake up in bed. Your parents yelling. The rain pouring. "Rain rain come again" is all you choked up. The rain come drifting twords you, picking you up through the window, throwing you in a lake and letting you dissolve to the brim. "Y/n we miss you!" Is what you heard while drowning, but you didn't regret it._ _You finally choke your last word out_ _Don't rain on me_
it’s currently 2:28am on a friday in 2020 and i’m completely lost. everyone’s sad and depressed, everyone’s locked up in their houses, with nothing to do, life’s getting boring fast. we cant go outside because we’d get infected with covid-19. i just want my normal life back. i miss all of my friends at school, i miss everyone. i just want it to be normal again.
I remember listening to this song 2-3 years ago. My life was the best that time and after a few months I forgot about this song. Listening to this now brings me a lot of nostalgia and comfort tbh
This song reminds me of a boy who I met last weekend, it was raining, we were riding our skateboards and he was beautiful. I miss him, I want to be with him. Although we didn’t even talk I still really want to meet him again. I hope I do ;(
@@smellsfishi drum n bass tracks? i actually don't listen to a whole lotta dnb but i can give you some hfm tracks i love the most they're mainly vaporwave but sometimes adapt dnb influences in their work
2019 is the year i completly lost myself and when i'm trying to recover in 2020 all that virus bullshit comes and i just can't take it anymore i just wanna be free
Guys plz take it time and listen to these : 1). Sunbeam sound machine : in your arms 2). Jack stauber : koi boi 3). Tame impala : nags 4). Tame impala : let it happen 5). Frank Ocean blonde tribute 6). Joji : will he 7). Joji : yeah right 8). Mac demarco : brother + moon light on the river 9). Skinshape : love and life album 10). Mac demarco : freaking out the neighbours + chamber of reflection 11). King krule : alone omen 3 Have a nice evening
"Rain On Me" Don't rain on me Don't rain on me Why you gotta act so nice This ain't televised This ain't televised This ain't televised Movin' at the speed of light And I'm terrified Yeah I'm terrified So please for the love of God Don't drench me
I know this is supposed to be sad but I wanted to put something good in the comments. My boyfriend recently sent this to me so that when I'm having a sensory overload I have something relaxing to listen to. We both love the sound of rain and listening to this just makes me think about him and about us and about our future. He really loves Joji and this will never fail to remind me of him. I know everyone's going through tough times, I am too. I feel like I've lost my self and that waters filling in my lungs and I can't help but drown. I'm not trying to be super deep and insightful. Honestly I struggle with that because I have asperger's. But I want everyone to know they're loved and things will get better for you. No matter what you think if you think nobody else loves you just know me (some random guy just out here) loves you and believes in you and believes you'll make it through whatever you're struggling through. You deserve to live, you deserve to be happy and you deserve to be yourself. Please keep breathing. Edit: and I know nobody will probably read this. but if you do, you were meant to. I love you. I care for you. You deserve to live.
ok this sounds dumb but i made a video edit with some of my friends using this version of the song and one of the friends in it like suddenly lost feelings (we were about to date) and got all weird and now things are weird with us, and hearing this song makes me so emotional because i didn’t know that things would turn out that way. the edit just makes me so sad and i just wish things went right between us.
Here in August 2020 and I still come back to this song. It makes me feel so full of happiness yet sadness at the same time and I don’t know many songs that can do that
i imagine myself infront of the sea setting at the beach alone and in dark lestining to this and remember all good times ,happenes , lughs , or that special moments with family and friends and my school memory i will remeber all this while crying alot cuase i know i will never ever live that special moments again and when i end i will back to hard reality and know that some of the family die some of them are far .... some of our friends died or farr anyways the life is fucked up and i just wanna tell u and advice u to just live the moment cuase it will never back again .........💔💔😢
Some times things hurt and I get it but if you’re reading this and you feel like you don’t want to try anymore keep trying don’t give up it won’t take away the pain it’ll just pass it on it’s not gonna help maybe it will be calm but what about all the ppl you’re leaving behind
KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE THAT ARE FEELING THE SAME WAY AS YOU!! It may seem like you are alone but trust me, you aren’t. It’s okay to feel sad, at some point everyone is like that in life. Don’t hesitate to talk to someone in real life or online, just know that you. are. not. alone.💕💕
This makes me feel so nostalgic yet so sad at the same time, all these memories that I had forgotten are flooding my brain and coming back, it's sad because it reminds me of how I'll probably never experience moments like those ever again.
When I think of this song it reminds of a depressed skeleton walking down the street all by itself cuz I get a lonely and creepy vibe from this song lol plus it’s October so yea
i went through it again... heart break. even tho he wasn’t mine... and my friend is now dating him. i can’t steal someone else’s man. i’m not like that. last year i liked someone else and i stopped September of 2019 and started liking this nicer guy that made jokes with me. i thought i could have a chance with him but my “friend” liked him too and she did anything to get him... and if i dated him people would make rumors just so we can break up. well, about the guy last year. he called me ugly, gross, and annoying, and i felt really insecure after that. i didn’t feel comfortable in my body until i met the nice one. it’s just it hurts more because this guy is nice and funny and one time i said “damn, i hate being fat.” i kept saying i was fat (cause i’m actually fat) and the nice guy i like said “OH MY GOD YOURE NOT FAT” and i just y’know stopped saying it because i didn’t want him to get mad. and now my “friend” asked him out again and i think he said yes because i saw my “friend” not crying like always. so, i just had this deep drop in my stomach and i couldn’t watch. i just wanted to burst into tears... but he looked at me and she also looked at me idk why (i don’t cry at school cause i don’t like it) and idk i felt he liked me but he really didn’t i guess... this happened today.. update: its 2020 that guy wasn't worth it either.. also they never dated lol I was dramatic.. anyways, none of them made me feel insecure, its society in general, im still insecure and because of quarantine I have no motivation to eat or even get out of bed. I really messed myself up this year. I wish I never took 2019 for granted. I wish a stupid boy wouldn't be in my thoughts everyday. because 2019 should've been the year I found myself. too late now. the recent guy that I was talking about is dry and rarely talks to me anymore. I've lost faith in humanity. I've lost myself and wish I was more happier. once again these guys didn't ruin me. it was me. I ruined myself. I think I need help. more suicidal thoughts, no motivation, I mean do I need to say everything. only thing stopping me from doing it is the people who care about me. why would I make them suffer? edit: it’s 2021. it’s the same as ever ! but ive found people that made me happy. there will always be days where i want to die, but that is fine. it’s okay ! everyday is the same and i’m used to it. there was at one point where i wanted to kill myself and attempted it this year. but ive found myself more and i want to do more things in life. never give up it’ll get better. there’s always gonna be sad days and that’s okay! i wish 2020 and 2019 me would notice that because boys arent my whole life yknow. ive found myself someone great actually and she’s very pretty. though that’s not the only thing in my mind :). ive got lots of things to do and my life isn’t over yet. ive met great people in my life gladly. ive also watched this very good show called death note ! it’s my hyperfixation :D and i could talk about it for hours. it makes me really happy and sometimes when im sad i rewatch the show so i can feel comfort. :]
i went through a breakup today and it’s been really hard for me to stay clean. i did it all for him and now it feels useless. he told me out of the blue he couldn’t imagine a future with me and then said he was was dumb for even getting into the relationship and i feel broken. we were together for months and our friends told that he said i was his everything. i guess you can’t trust anyone these days
i love the part where the cat looked out the window here's the timestamp 0:00 - 3:44 [Intro] Oooh, oooh Aaah, aaah [Chorus] Don't rain on me Don't rain on me [Verse] Why you gotta act so nice? This ain't televised This ain't televised This ain't televised Moving at the speed of light And I'm terrified Yeah, I'm terrified So please for the love of God Don't drench me [Chorus] Me Don't rain on me (Don't rain on me, don't rain on me) Don't rain on me Don't rain on me Don't rain on me Don't rain [Outro] Woo, broken love Woo, just can't get enough Ooh, ooh
I wish I was born in a generation without phones because seeing the news and hearing all the rumors on social media makes me so nervous and I worry about my future and I think I shouldn’t be thinking about this type of stuff I’m only 12 I still have a childhood to live. I feel like music is the only thing that gives me a small amount of life everyone around me just seems to not care. I mean they’ll ask “ are you ok “ but it doesn’t even seem genuine I feel like they just say stuff like that to seem like a decent human being but deep down I know they really don’t care. I always think to much I want to live and I want to be free and something is stopping me from living that life I want to live I just don’t know what, I just feel so confused lately I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore, it’s crazy what social media can do to you .
it’s raining outside, so hard. the thunder is so loud my whole room vibrates. i’m just sitting in my room, with a warm blanket listening to slowed songs. i stayed home bc i have a fever and both my parents are mad at me. i just moved and making friends is hard. the sound of rain pounding on my roof is soothing. it drips down like the tears on my cheeks. the thunder hides the soft crying noises escaping from my mouth. i just wanna sleep, have an amazing dream and never wake up
KazuoMusic usually adding your own twist to the song from what I've seen. Slowing down a track works, but most of the vaporwave tracks are almost a whole new remix. I mean it's a good video though, just kinda giving my opinion.
With vaporwave it has to be more 80s-oriented, with s y n t h y sounds and a g r o o v i n drum beat, along with a touch of s k e w i n g the tracks or changing the p i t c h . This, however, is just a slowed down lofi-hip hop track.
