Just an Honest Chat | MTF Transgender YouTuber 

Hey Steph! What you did really took a lot of guts and I truly admire you for doing that. I feel really awful that you are struggling with many things and I would never wish even my enemy to try to take their life. I feel very honored that you shared this truth with not only myself but others as well bc being vulnerable like this can really help those in our community that are struggling with life, transitioning etc. I will continue to support you in whatever you decide to do and I am very proud of you for the steps you are taking to moving forward and not looking back!

It broke my heart to hear what you went through, Stephanie. I'm so relieved to be hearing from you and so happy to hear that you're recovering. You are helping so many of us by sharing your story and your difficulties so I wanted to thank you, and to tell you that you make a great difference. So I hope you'll never think about leaving us again. You're an inspiration ✨💛 You're deeply loved! And we are here for you

Great that you are going to share more about the things you love in your life. As #Trans, I am annoyed for 27 years that many people think that we should only talk about being trans. Do on your channel what you think you should do and not what you think your followers want you to do. Lots of love from the Netherlands ♥

HONEY 😞 my heart is broken to here what you've gone through. You are a marvelous woman! ILY

Sorry to hear about your struggles but you have achieved so much in your young life, more than I have in my 73 years and 44 years post GRS in so many ways. When you are young you do not see all the possibilities because your world is so narrowly focused. There is so much more out there and so much more to come. You have no idea how the world will progress in the next 50 years. Keep striving. Don’t give up. Enjoy the ride!

Just wanted to say that I am so sorry about how awful the past few months have been and I'm sending you all the love and hugs through the internet

sending you love & light💕you’re beautiful inside & out and stronger than you know, even if you don’t feel so sometimes x

Relieved to see the outpouring of love here! I can name no more meritorious activity than humans truely contemplating and connecting over the great matter of birth and death. I would with utmost respect like to suggest the addition of a content warning. Many kind thanks for being a person and sharing your personhood with we internet folk!

You’re so freaking amazing for sharing this my love, your bravery in sharing your struggles in such an honest and vulnerable way is a testament to the courage that has got you to this point in your life, despite the many obstacles you’ve faced

This shows you how strong you are by coming through the other side, be positive be strong

I am really sorry that you are going through so much. Please always remember that life if forever changing, what feels like it is never going to end today may not be so important in a year. I am speaking as someone who has considered taking my own life more than once. I am greatful every day that I never did as you just never know when your circumstances will change. xx

Girl you are such a brave woman. You knew what you wanted, and you did it at a young age. I am 57 and i just came to terms that i am trans. Life is a adventure. Everyone struggles some hide it better than others. Be happy you're a beautiful young woman. Hugs and Love xoxoxo Michele

I can somewhat relate to how you are feeling because I too feel depressed a lot most days and it seems to be getting worse. This girl inside me wants out so bad. And I would never let her out because I just simply could never pass I am 6 ft tall which that is not an issue it's just that I am just too big I am 260 lb. I do get a little bit of relief when I go home from work and put on my feminine clothes... I do avoid looking in mirrors but just looking down at what I am like a dress or skirt this make me feel a little better... When I see women like you I have to admit I get a little jealous. But if I was as pretty as you I would transition in a heartbeat.

Don't know if you are still active on this channel, but I hope you are doing well. You seem to be a very sweet and kind person. You are very beautiful. I hope you find everything your heart desires.

I felt the same way after I completed my big life goal of graduating college six years ago. I felt there was nothing else in my life and just wish I was gone. Now it’s running through my head what if it will happen again when I complete my journey of transitioning mtf. My first consultation for HRT is in November and excited to start.

Love you kiddo. it gets better. some days its so hard but it gets better.

🖤Oh darlin' PLEASE...I know life throws things at U, but that's just IT!!! Life!!! U are so gorgeous, U have to realize U are here 4 a PURPOSE!!! I see it in your smile and in yours EYES from here in America!💖 Things will get better 4U, alas we find our way in different way...some harder, some easier!! I'm pleading with you pretty girl, don't deprive the world of what U have to offer! It's hard 2 C now, I know...but just wait ok!! People and changes in life can be cruel....but U R WANTED and Loved!! See U soon Doll!!!😘

Having a long-term goal is great. Attaining said goal is even better. But you will inevitably end up at a "Now what?" moment. There is no answer. The key is to grow. Experience new stuff. Do not stagnate. At the end of it all, life is a race we do not win. It's the route we take that we have to find our fulfillment in. We have to avoid the finish line for as long as possible. Being alone is important. Finding who you are by spending time alone is important. Anyway, sorry for rambling. Making vids about how you are and what you're doing is great. I wish nothing but happiness and success for you. Keep us posted when you feel like it. No pressure. Post it and we will watch💛💛

Hi Steph! I'm sorry in advance for this ramble but I don't really use social media outside facebook so I guess this will have to do! First and foremost, it breaks my heart to hear everything that's been happening in the last few months. I genuinely hope that you're doing okay, and that you know how strong and incredible you are. Your channel has helped me so, so much in my transition thus far, truly. Without you I don't think I would be where I am today, 1 and a half years on HRT and with a wonderful boyfriend of three months (and counting) ^-^ That being said, I also want you to know that while it's okay to want your channel to be a mixture of the good, the bad and the ugly, please don't EVER feel as though you have to share something just for the sake of us supporters. Trauma is trauma, and sometimes you need to give yourself time (and space) to process and heal. Opening wounds that haven't had that time is just going to make the metaphorical scabs worse, and your mental and physical wellbeing is infinitely more important than anything else. There's only one of you, and you only live one life. Of course, if sharing these things is helpful for you in terms of healing, that's fantastic! I for one will always be listening and sending as many positive vibes as I can your way, virtually of course. I'm so happy to see that you've settled into a place of your own, and I can't wait to see a tour video ^-^ Perhaps you could film some before you decorate, and then do a "before and after" type video? Either way, stay strong and keep being the inspirational and wonderful person that you are

I am so sorry to hear that. I don’t really have the words, but I just want you to know that you’ve helped and continue to help me on my journey to accept and understand who I am.

Thanks for sharing,I think only transgender people can fully understand our struggles,I am 54 and struggle 24/7 please stay safe you are so brave xx

You're a woman of great strength and perseverance, Steph. And I'm glad you consider RU-vid a 2nd therapy because you'll find support here.

Hi hun wanted to let u know always there for u-luv u sis xx

it seems to be a common thing where transition becomes THE thing in peoples lives and they don't know what to do once they are "done". As much as I hate the fact I'm transitioning later in life, I am thankful that I have the life experience to know transition isn't THE thing and that there is life outside of transition. I am a transitioning woman but I am also Many Other Things and they all make up who I am. It sounds like Stephanie has kind of come to that realization, though it sounds like she's gotten there the hard way (I think we can all agree that surviving suicidal episodes count as "the hard way"). So Stephanie, please hang in there and remember transition is there to allow us to have lives we can be happy with so feel empowered to have that life. You're still so young (from my perspective) and have so much ahead of you so please be the fantastic person you are and will become as you get older (age like a fine wine!). Love and Hugs!

Nice tattoo, how far those it go? And yes, what are your interests your hopes, and the steps your taking to reach your goles?

Love ❤️ best wishes as you go forward

Just be. For as long as you can just be. You have invited us into your life and thus made us joined. We are here and we care. Be well Lovebug.

New sub here Steph 👋 let's agree not to do anything rash ok! Before I started transitioning, I had thoughts of not waking up in the morning,would anyone miss me? Much better now,hope u r too🙏 let's hear about your interests, hobbies etc, after all our trans existence doesn't define us right? We're much more than that,so are you. Luv to you darlin x

I love ya...I've always loved ya... please stay as strong as you can...the sea won't always be this rocky....steady as she goes my friend...

Awesome hun

Thanks for sharing

I’m sorry I haven’t had time, I had the big 19 with my wife, we are much better . There are always people that really love you , and you have people that you haven’t met yet , and a hole life ahead of you , to learn and make mistakes that is The way everybody else . If you want to know the meaning of life , look into the mirror , that is life! You are a beautiful woman you show a vary lovely way of living ! 😁💚💓💝💖

Wow you are soooo pretty. X

Lovely view 🥺

I think you've done incredibly well...to have secured a flat and be putting yourself into that is a massive achievement during periods of mental health struggles. Looking forward to the Q&A. What sort of work do you do and have you managed to find another job? Or wiil your next job be in something totally different?

❤lookafter yourself ❤

Hi Stephanie, I think you are very brave. I'm 69 and I tried to kill myself after my wife died. So I'm still here so I stuffed that up. You look like you are now moving forward, so keep up the positive life choices and keep marching forward. I think the couch talk idea is great, very relaxing and easy to listen to, it felt like I was in the lounge room with you. Good job😃😃

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Oh God you poor thing ! Survive at all costs . Nothing more important than survival surely.

Lovely lady

Nice good girl keep going

Hi Stephanie, I am not sure if you are living near London but I wanted to invite you to spend time with a group of trans girls in London. There's regulars now and some visitors from outside London in the group. I want to offer support if I can, to a sister. Let me know if you're interested and I'll message info. Sending love regardless ❤️. I think we all need to look out for each other. It's a tough time for many of us

Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. Always reach out for help.

Hi jaanu

can you get pregnet after the male to female surgery

Wow you are beautiful

Wow what a body! Which surgeries did you have except SRS, only "top" or also fat redistribution? Perfect female body fat pattern, for this fat proportions some cis women would be envy.

A little thick for my liking but I'd still give you a go.

Aww you gained so much, you used to be so pretty. Why have you let yourself go. What's wrong?

Thanks for sharing