Phos was fine the way they were before, their only 'fault' was being weak and particularly desired or targeted by the Lunarians, and under different circumstances not only would they probably not need to act the part of the clown to the chagrin of other gems (not having to use humor as as much of a self-defense mechanism, developing into a more secure or realized 'person'), they'd also never be forced to change by discarding parts of themselves, or what is essentially self-harm.
antarc's death haunts me until this day. He played a big role in building Phos' personality. Phos became an entirely different person because of his death
She entrusted all her duties to Phos, anticipating that inevitably because of that, Phos would realize that Sensei was hiding something. That is why she made that sign to make it clear that she knew about it and that like her, Phos should also not say anything about it so as not to upset Sensei.
This is demonstrated in the chapter where Phos wants to ask Sensei about the Lunarian dog and at that moment she hallucinates with Antarc when he makes the sign and realizes that Antarc also knew and that like her, Phos should not ask Sensei .
@@Dzombic_ that Sensei manipulated them and he denied things such as Phos realizing about the lies, he denied mindlessly obvious situations of him being in total control of everything such as why the lunarians want the gems to begin with, his own nature as a Machine, the humans and everygem had to believe him and follow his orders. That's gaslighting, to make doubt of the reality of the person that is being manipulated and to force them rely on you as the only source of information, decision and meaning.
ikr, at first I was like "oh wow finally a gem that care about phos and want phos to be better. They're great partners. Antarc is adorable, I like antarc so much aaa" But then it went like "WTF PLS NO AHSHSHSHSH WHY DID U DO THIS TO ME ICHIKAWA I HATE YOU SO MUCH, WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU" It all happened so fast and I'm not even ready. but aren't we all? :')
Yep I get the pun. Though technically Antarcticite is not dead since gems are incapable of dying (according to one source). It seemed like he did though, so yeah it is pretty shattering
@@nealhenrickang8145 yeah i knew but i used "death" here as a figure of speech. And i think it was mentioned in the anime that as long as there is some to put their chards together again then they are kinda immortal, i'm not completely sure though
@@wojszach4443 well the thing is ***SPOILERS FROM MANGA*** It was mentioned that Antarcticite's hardness was too low (same with phos' head) and due to this the Lunarians can not repair them (well with their technology at the moment). In addition the grinded up gems on the moon that would be put back together would not remember their past memories based off of what Barbata said. ;-;
[spoiler to ch95] For fucks sake, Antarc, as I wanted all this time, finally gets back in the manga... And yet it's still so sad? Phos will suffer alone, without them, for 10 000 years. Phos only wanted to be useful and this is how things end up... I was hoping that when Antarc returns, it will be good for Phos but of course, Ichikawa must hurt us this way
@@leylevv7647 i’d like to think that antarc didn’t actually care about Phos, Antarc only wanted to know that Phos was still around to protect Sensei, the one that she loved the most
This song sends the biggest wave of despair though my entire body. This signifies how phos will change. They are a truly tragic character, finally finding a purpose, but losing themselves entirely as a result. They arent phos, they are a new being made of purely anguish and trauma. The old phos cant come back anymore. Not after all that's happened. And all because they were born weak. Its not fair, but its life. A true tragedy.
"Odi et amo" comes from an elegiac couplet by the Roman poet Catullus. Here's the full poem and translation: Ōdī et amō. Quārē id faciam fortasse requīris. Nescio, sed fierī sentiō et excrucior. I hate and I love. Why I do so, perhaps you ask. I know not, but I feel it happening and I am tortured.
I can't remember the last time I was so sad over an anime. Many works have made me think and wonder, but never a powerful sadness. I didn't cry when I first saw the scene of Antarc's death, I rarely cry. The whole episode just made me feel bad mentally and physically, which I think is worse than crying. And it's not like I felt sad for a day, I felt sad for two or three weeks, and as soon as I remember Antarc, I get sad again. I thought it was just an original anime with a well-developed world and a protagonist going to the goal like Naruto, but this scene just broke me down. Phos's ruined determination and taking Antarc away is probably the saddest scene in all of Houseki no Kuni, although this manga is just full of such things. After reading just a little manga, it hurt me even more (Antarc is the only person who really cared about Phos, Kongo and Ventricosus are debatable). And the scenes in manga that try to be funny as before are not funny at all, because I immediately remember Antarc. Heck you, Ichikawa. I break down and feel bad because of some pebbles, and if I don't get a happy ending (at least happy ending for Phos and Antarc) I will cry my eyes out. And feel sad for my whole life.
Ichikawa is pure evil dude. Also, its kinda predictable that this beautiful masterpiece is going to have a sad ending. But I hope that won't happen. We deserve a happy ending from all of that suffering lmaoo. rip phos tho, he is not the same anymore (spoiler alert if you haven't catch up on the manga) AND THERE'S NO HECCING GEMS THAT WANTS TO COMFORT PHOS. EARTH GEMS OR MOON GEMS OR WHATEVER, EVERYONE IS SELFISH (Well except Kongo sensei). I missed antarc so much. Also, I hate hate hate hate hate stinkymea and his ugly wife cairntrash. This series is just a whole ass depression ride. Sorry for the bad grammar sksksks
@@leylevv7647 No problem, I can't speak English properly myself. Most of what I write, I have to check with the translator... So I guess 90% of what I'm saying is incomprehensible, stupid, or sounding rude. I don't know if we're getting a sad ending. I think we can get something that breaks everything we've seen, like in Mushi to uta (e.g. reincarnation of all gems into ordinary stones or animals XD, going back in time, "it was just a dream guys :D"). It would be a neutral ending, but I don't know if I would prefer a sad ending to a neutral one. It depends how much Ichikawa will want to upset us. Honestly, I hope we get something else with all the characters who had little time on screen before an ending (Ventri and Aculeatus were really interesting characters, I would like to see them once again :( ). Ichikawa, please, extend the time to an ending giving us backstory of Antarc, Ventri and other abandoned characters (Lapis, Chryso, Ghost maybe). I kind of hope that Phos will take Antarc's leg for a while so that she can talk to her like with Lapis and finally get a well-deserved comfort, but it's really unlikely yep, Ichikawa is a devil who loves to bully the happy, gummy bear kids and Trashmea is trash
@@maokreatywne4059 Mało Kreatywne I don't think you're rude or stupid though, you're a really nice person tbh:D there are some theories about how it will end. But the most popular one is that they will be reincarnated as humans and have normal lives. But we still can't really predict what the ending will be, because phos doesn't have the 7th treasure yet. Also, I totally agree on the aculeatus and ventri part tho, it's still sad they died because of old age:') Lapis is really an interesting character. If she's still alive, maybe she will be my fav chara besides antarc (no one can beat antarc). Since lapis is considered as manipulative, it interests me even more. I really like ghost and hated the fact that ghost just appear in 2 or 3 chapters(?) Lol idk I forgot. it feels like it all happened in a day and then she's gone when things were about to get interesting:( And we got cairn instead. At first I really liked her because she seemed to care about phos. Especially when she talked to a sleeping 102 years phos about some tips phos gave her many years ago. idk but for me, it's really sweet. Like, she remembered every little thing phos told her. And the fact that she want to be covered by antarc's dust is really sweet too. then shitty trashmea gotta ruin everything and manipulate cairn. now I can't help but cringe everytime I see her. I even skipped some pages because there's cairn in it. Ghost must be crying now lmaoo Let's just pray for the best. We're in this together T-T #phosdeservebetter
Yooo I really agree alot. I get attach to Antarc really quick and when he died, for the first time i felt a bit unstable mentally and emotionally. I don't even know I can get to there from an anime. I'm really am an emotional person, easily cry if there's no people around; so anime like Naruto or Kimetsu no Yaiba makes me cry occasionally. But Antarc death just differently man, it hurt too deep for some reason that I don't even know
the first time I watched houseki antarcs death didn't even phase me, it was only until I read the manga did it really impact me on how truly tragic this was in terms of phos' character growth towards strength, they had to lose to gain and the loss greatly outweighed the gain
me too, but I haven't read the manga yet. i dont understand why phos suffer so much by antarc. when i read the manga i will understand i thought. and that seems the true. but i want to buy the manga in japanaese language. do you know where can i buy it?
it really makes me sad knowing Antarc was in the story for such short time. I felt like even tho she was cold towards Phos sometimes, she was one of not many people to care about Phos truly, everyone else just either didn't care or at the begenning were just complaining about her constantly. Besides that, I really liked her as a character and Im really sad thet the author probably won't bring her back :((
@@hiimnormal6285 oh I forgot about kongo! There is padparadscha too. Spoilers from the manga The rest sooner or later threw phos away and acted like he never existed! Shinsha attacked him and suggested dividing his pieces and along with dia they left him broken for 220 years! Ventricosus started to care about phos after she betrayed him lol
@@ningensan8198 I think you're misremembering. Dia went with Phos to the Moon. Dia didn't participate in the whole plan of dividing Phos into pieces, since Dia wasn't even there to begin with. If anything, Dia was one of the ones who supported Phos throughout that entire battle. You can't say they didn't care about Phos at all.
For some reason, latin and japanese mix quite well in music, there's a few songs I know that use both ^^ and that makes me happy because I'm learning both japanese and Latin!
He does, but not full.Antarc saying "if only you were never here" was the last image she saw before awaken completely outrageous. The Antarc emotion impression is still strong in Phos.
When this plays, I think of how it is now (present manga chapter 9) almost impossible to revert back to the old spunky phos and that what lies ahead is nothing but sadness
It makes me sad that the anime pushed Phos x Cinnabar so hard, when (especially in the manga) Antarc was really the one who ended up meaning so much more
i saw it as cinnabar being the one person who needed phos, which was the one thing phos truly wanted to be, useful to somebody. i saw antarc as the person who helped phos and was the only one who believed in them, and phos they admired antarc a lot, since antarc was of similar hardness of phos but was almost the opposite of them. (same with cinnabar) So i guess in their own ways they both meant a lot to phos... gtg cry now..
@@fknmisaki [spoilers] regardless, cinnabar didn't need phos in the later chapters since the other gems were the one to give her a new task. So yeah, it's all a mess basically as phos succumbs to deep anger, regret, disillusionment (?) or something. Real tragic this series.
@@RinnieRoo You could say that if it wasn't for Phos running the events along as they have, the other gems would never have asked them for help. Cinnabar is toxic to other gems and has no usefulness other than what is essentially a civil war. Phos created that.
I like to listen to this song once a week to see if it'll feel less melancholic as time goes on. It has been a year and I still shed manly tears listening to this.
Damn, this is the reason why I didn't want to watch this anime or read the manga. It's so freaking depressing, but beautiful in some way. The way everyone was released from all of the suffering really reflects the story's moral lesson to let go of the hatred.
I finished the anime and was bothered by how it ended and since there no season 2 I bought all the manga volumes 1-10 that are available and by the end of of 10 I was sobbing so much my chest hurt like no manga has every done this to me or anything in general. I'm a person who rarely cries EVER and I hide my emotions and control them very well. But Ichikawa is breaking me down in ways I didnt even know i could hurt 😭 i couldnt stop thinking about what happened next so I looked up the most recent released chapters online and I think i only hurt myself more i can't stand to see Phos like this anymore 😭 and too think that I didnt like phos at the beginning and now i miss that cute and glowing Phos from before.They push Cinnabar×Phos so much only for us to realize the only one who never hurt phos was Antarc and they understood Phos and didnt make them feel weak and degrade them Antarc push Phos to be better for themselves and not anyone else. I just want Phos to finally rest they have no one anymore. Phos is alone,angry,hurt and broken. The moon gems have become selfish and earth gems as well their all blinded. I dont think its going to be a happy ending for anyone at all.
I'm literally still here crying and begging ichikawa to bring antarc back oml Edit: SPOILER ALERT !!!! THEYRE BACK OMG DNJDKDKDKXKZN AAAAAAAAAGSFGGGGGGGGSSHSH BARK BARK
Darn at the start I thought it was gonna be a light hearted slice of life sort of anime were phos goes adventuring with her pet slug which changes her dramatically
I dont remember which but there was a gem that keeps *jumping off*. Theyre immortal therefore the act of suicide is meaningless. Just the thought that they cant end their own suffering is just sad. Must be one of the curses of eternity.
I can't even begin to comprehend the pain and loss Phos felt with Antarc's passing. I've felt loss, but seeing it at one's own hand is something else altogether.
きみの微笑みも 欠片も優しい声も 月に消えた きみは白い影 何度も砕け散る 月に消えた Quid faciam？ Odi et amo！ Quid faciam？ Odi et amo 雪の瞳も記憶も 凍った髪も 溶けてゆくよ 冬が溶けゆく Quid faciam？ Odi et amo！ Quid faciam？ Odi et amo 冬が終わる
when i first watched the anime, i was kind of in denial at first bc i was so shocked at how suddenly antarc died--and then when this ED played it finally hit ;-;; omg the emotions
Your smile I had once known, your pieces, too, your voice that once soothed me so. Have gone off to the moon. There is now only a white phantom that looks like you, it shatters when it comes. And goes off to the moon. What should I do? I hate and I love. What should I do? I hate and I love. Your eyes that like the snowfall, memories of you, and your frosty hair that day. Are all starting to thaw. Winter is melting away. What should I do? I hate and I love. What should I do? I hate and I love. Winter now is no more. hshsh i love this song it makes me cry I finished the manga up to chapter 95 and i never felt so sad i couldn't even sleep because it was so bad
Poor antarc they didn't deserve that...but about the song the vocals are on point hot damn- and i lover how they threw in some latin....now imma just continue crying thanks for reading xd
Vague spoiler warning - I really want this song as the backdrop to Cairngorm's "moment of internal struggle." A lot of the songs have similar reprisal energy, and I need it.
*SPOILERS ALERT 🚨* I’m happy that he’s back but I literally shed tears when antarc asked sensei “where’s phos?” Like.. HE IS THE ONLY ONE who asked & cared about her not shinsha or anyone else... i ship antarphos btw🥲💔 and this ost is so emotional but also beautiful.
Antarcticite really is the only ones who wanted phos safe AND happy phos was too busy thinking of helping others that they got lost. Phos clearly cared about Antarcticite a hell of a lot as the loss of him is how it all started to go down hill. My heart will brake more then ever if we see Antarcticite see current phos.-
The things that Houseki no Kuni, both anime and manga, have taught me and made think about have changed my life forever. I've cried and suffered so much because of it. I wish I could forget it in it's entirety, just so I could experience it again for the first time.
After this, there are lots of parts where it tries to be funny, but even when I know it's genuinely funny, I just can't seem to laugh. All I ever wanted was gem waifus having fun... What went wrong....
this song right now, hurts me. Im going through what Phos had... I lost a friend whom i couldnt confessed to... now she's gone off, to the skies Val, i hope you're fine...up there Edit: I now know the truth, you fucking liar... You fucking would.... Why... Why the fuck would you lie to me... Hurt me... JUST FUCKING WHY?!
